Leadhead

Leadhead

A Postmodernist Literary Perspective Applied to All Things

Hey, I'm Penelope. I run a channel where I talk about the amazing things that games can show us when you take them as seriously as the creators do, with the ultimate goal being to further the validation of games as an art form. Of course, all art is subjective, so you'll learn as much about myself as you will about the games I cover.

The best place to hit me up is my discord server, I've also got a twitter where I just tweet constantly without much thought, a second channel with music covers, shit posts, and intricate lore, and a Patreon if you wanna support my work, and get early access to my vids.

You can find the links to all of these below. Thanks for reading!

Love: A Video Essay

Love: A Video Essay

The Most Beautiful Game

The Most Beautiful Game

The Game That Defined Me

The Game That Defined Me

Drugs and Sobriety

Drugs and Sobriety

You're worth it.

You're worth it.

Parasocial Relationships

Parasocial Relationships

The Sims and Suburban Hell

The Sims and Suburban Hell

Cigarettes.

Cigarettes.

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  • @user-bv7zo6vd4m
    @user-bv7zo6vd4m3 сағат бұрын

    Alyx is a murderous psychopath, I mean, who kills three cops in an apartment WITH THEIR BARE HANDS and shrugs it off like it's nothing

  • @thecodeson99
    @thecodeson997 сағат бұрын

    The title was my exact thought when I searched a refresher of this game haha.

  • @jerkfan123
    @jerkfan123Күн бұрын

    To be fair to Micheal he eventually cut Franklin off because deep down he didn't want to kill Trevor

  • @user-bx4go2jr2r
    @user-bx4go2jr2rКүн бұрын

    "... saves humanity from their own creators, ..." Jesus didn't save humanity from God, he saved humanity from sin. Sin did not create humanity.

  • @user-bx4go2jr2r
    @user-bx4go2jr2rКүн бұрын

    At least 90% of religious symbolism is actually anti-Christian, not Christian fan service. These "religious symbolisms" are almost (if not always) not in line with the actual Christian religion, and really is just false propaganda in attempt to make Christianity look superstitious, silly, or even dangerous. Halo is one of these. Here are some things that most would mistake for being a parallel to the Christian God and worldview: The precursors created all existence - God created all existence (also goes hand-in-hand with the flood reference) In Halo, the precursors are mystic creatures that created all existence for the purpose of "harvesting" them in the form of the flood later on. The Christian God created all existence for his glory, and as His created, we owe him that glory. God did not flood the earth to "harvest" them for their life experience like the precursors from Halo, the earth was flooded because there was not a single person that hadn't strayed from God's way beyond human reasoning on earth other than Noah and his family. Fun fact, the rainbow is actually supposed to be a reminder that God promised never again to destroy the earth via flood. In the Halo universe, the Covenant coin the phrase "All who believe shall be saved" - in the real world, generally this phrase is used by Christians I don't know if anyone has noticed, but Christians aren't attempting to end the world. Also, clearly mentioned in Halo 3, the prophet of truth believes that firing the Halo will ascend all who believe into the form of gods. That's a Mormon belief, not a Christian belief. Another problem is how the Covenant is portrayed like a cult where the figures in power run the cult simply just for the power. This is nothing like Christianity, and I just don't understand why anyone would believe that it is. Anyway, my point is that before you make a statement on Christianity, or really any group of any kind for that matter, please actually take the time to come to a fully informed conclusion. One reason I think a lot of people think Halo's Covenant and Christians are a lot alike is because they have only seen people who claim to be Christians, but act nothing like it. A common reason for this is some people view Christians as self-righteous. If someone that claims to be a Christian is being self-righteous, that person is already acting in an ungodly manner. (edit): I kinda just realized it was unclear what I was calling an uninformed conclusion. I meant calling religious symbolism "Christian fan service" isn't even a remotely accurate conclusion. Although, there are lot of people that come to false conclusions about the Christian religion because of bad examples.

  • @user-pq9kb3fi3h
    @user-pq9kb3fi3hКүн бұрын

    just want to say, your all gorgeous girls your lovely and you put me at ease

  • @user-pq9kb3fi3h
    @user-pq9kb3fi3hКүн бұрын

    i think the best advice to know if your trans is that if after 6 months, you keep thinking about it, you have to do it because you've opened pandora's box and that shit will never close, you'll feel like a fake man forever if you don't

  • @mawarco7399
    @mawarco7399Сағат бұрын

    The abyss stared back

  • @Buzzball-cq6pb
    @Buzzball-cq6pb2 күн бұрын

    This is Unit 731 the game

  • @Umur23
    @Umur232 күн бұрын

    Lol this game make me migraine not gonna lie guess I try finish this time using walkthrough

  • @megafathergaming9375
    @megafathergaming93752 күн бұрын

    This all sounds like when I was doing PhD in a foreign country 😅

  • @redirondragon185
    @redirondragon1852 күн бұрын

    I just finished my first playthrough of Half-Life about a week ago (I loved it by the way!) and I was very much thinking of it as a puzzle, though I had no idea what it's tagline had been. Though, I did spend more time than I probably should have on 2 HP because I would forget about the tools at my disposal and my aim is not good (the snipers drove me crazy for a little while lol). I probably wasn't at all helped by the fact that I had just finished the first Quake right before I started Half-Life, but I sort of considered Quake to be more of solving a puzzle too, albeit with more trial and error. Also, for the black ops segment, I can say what was going through my head was "okay, if I can find them, I have a chance to- where did that damage come from?! Oh gosh there's another one! Wait which weapon should I be using? Probably not- oh there's another hit!"

  • @Quader417
    @Quader4172 күн бұрын

    lol I’m like “why didn’t you just go get halo 3?” “PC” ahhh ok that explains it

  • @Immolator772
    @Immolator7722 күн бұрын

    Saying that you don't have free will, is more of a coping mechanism. Our choices do matter, even the tiniest things we've done can have a huge impact. If our fate is written on stone, try falling from a tall building, you wont have a chance to survive, but if you choose not to jump at all you will still be alive. Saying that we dont have free will, is like jumping with sharks and expecting to survive.

  • @maybeyourbaby6486
    @maybeyourbaby64863 күн бұрын

    I just got to the 8 min spoiler warning and though I haven't watched 80% of the video yet, you already have me convinced to go buy this game for money as soon as I get my next welfare check ;_; I've tried it out on a torrented copy way back, but this feels too important for that

  • @bayupahleza2957
    @bayupahleza29573 күн бұрын

    the music composed to amnesia a machine for pigs easily spot on my top 3 list

  • @joshuabacker2363
    @joshuabacker23633 күн бұрын

    YNBAW

  • @flintlocke1344
    @flintlocke13443 күн бұрын

    Any hair tips for a girl whose hair is thinning real bad on top? I just started hormones so it shouldn’t get worse, but that combined with a receding hairline is just the worst

  • @mawarco7399
    @mawarco7399Сағат бұрын

    Most to least effective hair procedures,hrt, hair systems, hair styling, healthier lifestyle.

  • @JAWSHYI
    @JAWSHYI3 күн бұрын

    Yes.

  • @iridophorium
    @iridophorium3 күн бұрын

    Just watched the PT video, and there the creator said that PT was the most interesting game ther.... (this is a shitpost)

  • @AntonGanaev
    @AntonGanaev4 күн бұрын

    This channel is so gay now

  • @-Gunnarsson
    @-Gunnarsson4 күн бұрын

    It suprices me how deep people can clear up the story. Iv played the game and dont understand whats real or dream or who is what or not. 😂

  • @runito75
    @runito754 күн бұрын

    WAXING!!!

  • @BoyBlunder66
    @BoyBlunder664 күн бұрын

    Man, I wonder what modern gaming would be like if Silent Hills revived the survival horror genre rather than Resident Evil 7.

  • @fuzzyalba5419
    @fuzzyalba54194 күн бұрын

    18:20 Does this apply to leg skin too? I tried shaving part of my leg once & the skin got quite irritated until the hair grew back, presumably because of rubbing against my jeans. Will this sort of thing decrease over time and is there anything I can do (in secret) to help that process along?

  • @LittleTimmy2016
    @LittleTimmy20164 күн бұрын

    13:06 nair sounds like my chosen name, Nera

  • @konstantinmaksimov8816
    @konstantinmaksimov88165 күн бұрын

    So it’s just a man cave? Sorry, was.

  • @medic3761
    @medic37615 күн бұрын

    Man i rlly struggle with using my imaginination, like i just decide to be as evil as possible and my character has no reason to do so aside from just being really evil.

  • @dmitrykarkov4747
    @dmitrykarkov47475 күн бұрын

    11:14 that’s the point. You don’t have to be anywhere on any political compass. Life happens on a case-by-case basis, and that’s how you should judge issues. You can be pro gun and pro abortion and condemn illegal immigration while advocating for wealth distribution reform AND free markets. Every issue deserves to be considered individually. Your assumptions and preconceived ideas are your worst enemy. Approach every issue like it’s the first political issue you’ve ever considered.

  • @dmitrykarkov4747
    @dmitrykarkov47475 күн бұрын

    King of the Hill holds a very special place in my heart. It helped me grow from a kid into a man. It helped me understand and process my childhood. It was a good friend on many a lonely night, when I had nobody and I lived in a seedy motel and worked at Red Lobster. Hank Hill is a genuine role model of mine. Sort of a father figure even. What I wish my father would have been. Truly one of the greatest television shows ever made. On the same level as Breaking Bad.

  • @jamestolbert1856
    @jamestolbert18565 күн бұрын

    Simpsons went down for ME on season 9

  • @AZDOAZDOAZDO
    @AZDOAZDOAZDO5 күн бұрын

    yo gouys do you know that: This was a triumph I'm making a note here HUGE SUCCESS It's hard to overstate my satisfaction Aperture Science we do what we must because we can for the good of all of us except the ones who are dead but there's no sense crying over every mistake you just keep on trying 'til you run out of cake and the science gets done and you make a neat gun for the people who are still alive I'm not even angry I'm being so sincere right now even though you broke my heart and killed me and torn into pieces and threw every piece into a fire as they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you! Now these points of data make a beautiful line and we're out of beta, we're releasing on time so I'm glad I got burned Think of all the things we learned for the people who are still alive go ahead and leave me I think I prefer to stay inside maybe you'll find someone else to help you maybe black mesa that was a joke, haha, fat chance anyway this cake is great, it's so delicious and moist look at me still talking, when there's science to do when I look out there it makes me glad I'm not you I've experiments to run, there is research to be done on the people who are still alive and believe me I am still alive I'm doing science and I'm still alive I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive While you are dying I'll be still alive and when you're dead I'll be still alive STILL ALIVE, still alive

  • @lityerambidextrous3668
    @lityerambidextrous36685 күн бұрын

    How dare you not pick up all the beer cans

  • @tzimiscelord8483
    @tzimiscelord84836 күн бұрын

    Hey man at 6:10, that's not a cartel leader, that's the chief of police. Excuse me the chief of the Cult of order police

  • @Danlovar
    @Danlovar6 күн бұрын

    Sadly, probably because of only the 30 squares DX1's inventory, the game does not work if you have stuff like binoculars, cigarettes, flares... while in Bethesda games you can have thousands of useless scrolls and literal rubbish and their games still work.

  • @kroidi
    @kroidi6 күн бұрын

    lmao my cousin literally said "celeste changed my life" 2 years later, she transitioned 😹😹😹 I hope celeste changes my life I guess, well, idk. when she told me that I had only beaten the first 2 chapters. today I just beat all of the B-sides. we'll see what happens once I beat farewell

  • @riskeykitten773
    @riskeykitten7736 күн бұрын

    OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG WHY AM I JUST SEEING THSI

  • @thapojodojo
    @thapojodojo6 күн бұрын

    I've been transitioning for 2 and a half years, and still learned a ton from this video. The big one is the voice section. Oddly enough, my youtube videos are a big part of how i practice my voice. Why my brain has the inherent masochism of broadcasting this process live to the world, I will never understand. Some part of it feels empowering to say f*ck it and do it in an environment that normally buries me with an algorithm.

  • @drkleiner-bw1fv
    @drkleiner-bw1fv6 күн бұрын

    hey guys its me dr keiner

  • @itsmaiken
    @itsmaiken3 күн бұрын

    hi dr keiner

  • @pandorasboxofcatvideos5892
    @pandorasboxofcatvideos58926 күн бұрын

    13:05 uh, yeah..... welp. I did use it, once. The result was the inability to feel wind on my legs for about a month. also. Clothes sizing...... yeah. Having not started hrt. I have worn "women's small" and "men's medium" sweatpants that fit perfectly...... I don't understand clothing. Lastly. THANK YOU. That part about getting HRT. I have been mentally screaming at myself for months about needing to get over it and get them, but then getting too overwhelmed and confused when looking into getting them, so I had no idea it was so easy. Thank. Really. You, honestly, just changed, everything for me. So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Thank you so much.

  • @Fynn_1337
    @Fynn_13376 күн бұрын

    Couldn't have said it better 👍

  • @bananasauz4337
    @bananasauz43376 күн бұрын

    I've been trans curious for some time now, but today it's really hitting me hard. Last night I used a hairclip to hold back my hair while dealing with acne and something about it just felt nice. I brought the clip to school with me today thinking it would make for a good fidget toy (it does, legitimately might be my favorite thing to fidget with) but it's been making me ask a lot more questions about my gender identity.

  • @ApenasUmJorge
    @ApenasUmJorge6 күн бұрын

    i REALLY enjoy how yakuza games aren't afraid to be fun

  • @CrazyBoris06
    @CrazyBoris067 күн бұрын

    I miss videos like this

  • @Glassandcandy
    @Glassandcandy7 күн бұрын

    I super appreciate that you fixed your lighting and color grading to match your background shots. It looks so seem less- people always forget to match those and it always looks so artificial but in some shots in your video it looks like you’re literally sitting in the game world irl it’s great

  • @Glassandcandy
    @Glassandcandy7 күн бұрын

    The broader video game essay algorithm is sleeping on this channel. No reason the average video here should have any less than 100,000 views. Generally speaking, when I find a smaller channel I really like it eventually blows up (e.g. Jacob Geller, NCG, warlockracy, etc - I got into all these channels just before they really started getting big) so I think my algorithm is tailored to the point that it’s a good predictor for KZread success- I think it’s only a matter of time that you blow up significantly in numbers. These vids have all the qualities of other channels that do well but your perspective is unique enough to make it not seem like just another VE channel

  • @CN3891
    @CN38917 күн бұрын

    "How bad?" >Very very bad For all of us

  • @tgnm9615
    @tgnm96157 күн бұрын

    Wirh marines. They looove throwing grenades. Also, youre dead if more than 2 of them are shooting you at the same time in hard difficulty

  • @reminagyo2973
    @reminagyo29737 күн бұрын

    Damn this dude trooned the f out haha remember when this channel was about video games

  • @enclave1165
    @enclave11657 күн бұрын

    Half life 1 is one of my favorite fps it sucks that it is so misunderstood

  • @Tacom4ster
    @Tacom4ster7 күн бұрын

    It's a commentary why capitalism fails