You're worth it.

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  • @NT-sx2bd
    @NT-sx2bd Жыл бұрын

    Thank you, but you too, don't forget.

  • @dethkon

    @dethkon

    Жыл бұрын

    Don’t forget what? I forgot.

  • @heyitsmort7744

    @heyitsmort7744

    Жыл бұрын

    This

  • @dethkon

    @dethkon

    Жыл бұрын

    @@thatgothcat I wouldn’t know… I’ll take your word for it.

  • @dethkon

    @dethkon

    Жыл бұрын

    @@thatgothcat who wouldn’t what? I forgot again.

  • @shinyadino1926

    @shinyadino1926

    10 ай бұрын

    Your not worth it at all. Your a man in denial. Worthless.’

  • @RedStinger_0
    @RedStinger_0 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you for the words of encouragement. If anyone cares enough to read, I've been feeling really hopeful recently. I've done a lot of self-discovery in 2022, contributed to lots of creative projects with my friends, progressed my skills as an artist (i mostly make music and YTPs), and felt a little more confident overall. I genuinely felt very happy throughout New Year's Day, and I do owe thanks to channels like these for existing. I hope everyone here in the comments can be happy too.

  • @flarys6732

    @flarys6732

    Жыл бұрын

    Yaaay, congrats champ !

  • @generalbitter6660

    @generalbitter6660

    Жыл бұрын

    I wish you the best and I hope that you get to a point in life where you are happy. Do you have advice on how I can self-discover and grow? Do you think Isolation is bad for my health?

  • @generalbitter6660

    @generalbitter6660

    Жыл бұрын

    Sorry for the spelling mistake I meant point

  • @flarys6732

    @flarys6732

    Жыл бұрын

    @@generalbitter6660 I'm not the person you asked but I feel like I needed to say it, isolation is torture for a human, we are social animals and desperately need human contact, preferably with good persons that we like. And when I say that isolation is "torture" it is litteral, isolating people in a room without any social interaction for long periods of time is litteraly a form of torture.

  • @generalbitter6660

    @generalbitter6660

    Жыл бұрын

    @@flarys6732 Thank you. I am happy to learn from you. During the pandemic I did not speak to a lot of people. I need to get out more often. I hope you have a great day and I wish you the best!

  • @board1666
    @board1666 Жыл бұрын

    Hope you’re doing okay Leadhead. All the best.

  • @lewisgarner5615
    @lewisgarner5615 Жыл бұрын

    The perfect timing of this video is godly

  • @sammiller8925
    @sammiller8925 Жыл бұрын

    thank you for this. spring of this past year my mother gave up on me and the grit that it took to pull myself out of that depression and build a life I wanted in spite of the person I was and what my mom had said to me is more than I care to admit. this was a good reminder that we all have struggles and that it's always important to keep pushing no matter how much you're hurting. I know it will get better for me, I know it will get better for you, reader, and I know it'll get better for you too, leadhead, should you ever read this. never stop fighting for yourself.

  • @someguyinazoo

    @someguyinazoo

    Жыл бұрын

    Your channel logo is The Watchmen in Ohio

  • @harveydent706

    @harveydent706

    Жыл бұрын

    First world problem much ?

  • @someguyinazoo

    @someguyinazoo

    Жыл бұрын

    @@harveydent706 what are you talking about

  • @sevenminutestildawn
    @sevenminutestildawn Жыл бұрын

    This really means alot to me. I have set alot of goals for this year (applying for the school of my dreams, moving places, getting a driver's license) and it's very soothing to hear these words. Thank you, Leadhead. I really needed that rn.

  • @sammydepresso
    @sammydepresso Жыл бұрын

    You are worth it, don’t let the hard parts of life define your worth. Stay safe guys ❤

  • @dethkon

    @dethkon

    Жыл бұрын

    There are only hard parts of life. The hardest of these define your character. It’s all pain, and then death’s sweet release. Happy New Year!

  • @someguyinazoo

    @someguyinazoo

    Жыл бұрын

    @@dethkon “some edgy comment”

  • @dethkon

    @dethkon

    Жыл бұрын

    @@someguyinazoo IDK if it is edgy, but it is true.

  • @someguyinazoo

    @someguyinazoo

    Жыл бұрын

    @@dethkon it’s just did trying to be “so cool” and “dark” but just comes off as some emo dud who wears all black

  • @blitzo6320

    @blitzo6320

    Жыл бұрын

    @@dethkon The best part is going through all that pain and hardship and still perservering and staying optimistic. There have been times at night, often, really, where I feel depressed staring at my wall. But I know that once I get a good sleep and wake up, I'll be much better, and start the challenges again. Life isn't easy, and there are many highs and lows. Life is short, and you only get one, so why wallow in depression and nihilism, when you could be making the best of it?

  • @maligordonchad3507
    @maligordonchad3507 Жыл бұрын

    You introduced me to some of my favorite games ever and inspired me to come out to some of my friends, thank you for what you do

  • @HappyJigg
    @HappyJigg Жыл бұрын

    This video came at a good moment for me. For my whole life I thought I was alone in everything I did, but recently I have been paying attention to the things people have been saying and I am realizing that me being alone in all of my thoughts, experiences, and struggles couldn't be further from the truth. Reading through these comments really helps, hearing each and every one of you means a lot to me, and likely everyone else.

  • @veydaantkhanna
    @veydaantkhanna Жыл бұрын

    Thank you Leadhead, I needed this. Hope you're doing well and wish you the best this year in all facets of life.

  • @melodyredacted1015
    @melodyredacted1015 Жыл бұрын

    I really needed this right now! I moved out and started HRT in July and the combination of finally feeling myself under my own roof, living independently and all the emotional flooding that comes with this second puberty has been a lot for me! But what you say is true, I tell myself I feel my worst more than ever every year, but I look back and realise I have done so much for myself and made such strides that I forget how it used to be as well as forgetting to appreciate what I've accomplished and become from then to now. I have found new friendships, felt love and discovered a beauty to the world I didn't know was possible, and in this new year I've come to appreciate all of that finally! Thank you for the honest heart and soul you have, Penelope, it really brings a light to so many peoples' days, including my own

  • @Landscape_
    @Landscape_ Жыл бұрын

    it's 2023 and i can say that i left most of my intrusive thoughts, i don't know how i did it, but i know that i started not worrying about many things (loneliness for example). And started worrying about how i felt and what made me happy or sad. I left some of the social media sh*t that worried me too. Now it feels like i cleaned everything, but at the same time i put myself in a safe zone im too comfortable with, thats my goal for this year, to make a balance and stop being scared about life in general

  • @atlaskatari
    @atlaskatari Жыл бұрын

    I watch a lot of silly, "useless" content to distract myself from just how much I am suffering, but it's moments like these, watching this video, that remind me to take a moment to just breathe. What happens tomorrow will happen tomorrow. Today, I will simply do what I can.

  • @NorskFemboy
    @NorskFemboy Жыл бұрын

    Thank you, 2022 was exhausting, but little things like this help, I hope you have a great new year, too!

  • @w00ds98
    @w00ds98 Жыл бұрын

    Crazy how similar us humans can be. I‘ve had that exact same thought at the end of 2022. I felt like I was more dysfunctional this year than any other, but I was happy I got through it. Then I immediately realized that I had the same thought at the end of 2021. But despite knowing that after 2021 it only got worse, the realization didn‘t leave me more depressed, but with the pride that you mention in this video. „So what if 2023 will also suck? I made it through 2022 and that is worth being proud of right now, in the moment.“ was my thought more or less. Really grateful for the video! I had already forgotten all about this pride I felt and I‘m only 4 days into the year. Thanks to you it‘ll stick around and prevent me from feeling mostly negative about myself and my life, for just a little while longer. Which is a gift quite honestly.

  • @mookid2223
    @mookid2223 Жыл бұрын

    It truly is great to hear someone talking about similar struggles that so many people including myself deal with, thank you for helping us realise we’re not alone, and that we’re not completely lost. Thank you Leadhead, and happy new year.

  • @twainwalden6020
    @twainwalden6020 Жыл бұрын

    I was planning on going out dressed like a woman for the first time (in a while) tomorrow and was really scared about it. Then I saw this video. Thanks for the extra encouragement to keep pushing, I really needed it. edit: It went well! No one treated me any differently and I even got a few compliments! I'm glad I went through with it!

  • @Anon0098

    @Anon0098

    Жыл бұрын

    you are still a male

  • @Axolotl720

    @Axolotl720

    Жыл бұрын

    @@Anon0098no

  • @vertyy0331

    @vertyy0331

    Жыл бұрын

    I think you should stay inside

  • @Rammy_Latin

    @Rammy_Latin

    Жыл бұрын

    @@vertyy0331 I think you should stop talking

  • @vertyy0331

    @vertyy0331

    Жыл бұрын

    @@Rammy_Latin no... I don't think I will.

  • @caidenneumann7107
    @caidenneumann7107 Жыл бұрын

    I did not know you were trans, Leadhead, and I appreciate this video a shit ton, I needed this, and remember, we appreciate you too, you’re a beautiful woman, on the inside and out, and don’t forget it

  • @maximusthedude8305

    @maximusthedude8305

    Жыл бұрын

    They actually have a really fantastic video from many months ago about their journey to realising they were trans. As a cis person it really helped me understand and appreciate what that can be like for people and I'll always be grateful for her willingness to share that.

  • @dethkon

    @dethkon

    Жыл бұрын

    @@maximusthedude8305ow can I find the video you mentioned? Do you remember?

  • @foxdancemedia

    @foxdancemedia

    Жыл бұрын

    If I didn't already know she was trans I would have no idea, her transition went really well!

  • @dethkon

    @dethkon

    Жыл бұрын

    @@foxdancemedia Let’s not get carried away…

  • @maximusthedude8305

    @maximusthedude8305

    Жыл бұрын

    @@dethkonIt’s a video on her channel from 11 months ago called “how my transition saved my life”

  • @melodywave3
    @melodywave3 Жыл бұрын

    i needed this video. i have been very stressed lately from the post surgery rush of hormones after having to go off of them to heal, recovering while working, and the constant hate customers/cowowrkers put me through at my job. it is simply stupid for me to give up on everything now because i worked so hard for this. this video is so refreshing and direct thank you

  • @cavangriffin1514
    @cavangriffin1514 Жыл бұрын

    I have sincerely enjoyed your work for a couple years now and I am very happy to hear about your pride in yourself. Happy new year, I hope that this one treats you kindly. I wish you all the best, really.

  • @GostodePiscina
    @GostodePiscina Жыл бұрын

    Hey Leadhead, you're one of my favorite people on this planet and you have helped through struggles of which I myself didn't know how to deal with. Thank you for existing.

  • @agroed
    @agroed Жыл бұрын

    No u. Just getting through another year and trying to do your best is the only thing you can do oftentimes, and it's something to be proud of. Thanks for the video. Can't wait for the big one soon.

  • @seejaydee9113
    @seejaydee9113 Жыл бұрын

    Thankyou for this, your topic timing is always healing for my soul but this was gracefully beautiful. You are a hero for me after experiencing your journey as I've been undertaking my own. You have brought me to tears again but the best type of tears. This is exactly what I've been fighting through with everything life throws at us and you have made me feel like I'm not alone and synced via soul needs. I am so proud of you and I want you know that you inspire me at some of my darkest even in your early days on the channel. It's lovely to know someone shares similar New Year Traditional practice such as myself in reflection and rumination. We shall keep going and imagine how fruitfull it will be when it's comes to next New Years. Thankyou for always being YOU and I can't bless you enough for having all your content to keep alongside my journey. You are a wonderful creature and don't ever forgot it!! 😘Xxx

  • @joshmcdaniel6136
    @joshmcdaniel6136 Жыл бұрын

    Hey Leadhead! Thanks so much making this video, I can only imagine how helpful this is for your channel community (myself included) and how possibly difficult it might have been for you to be this vulnerable! You’re beautiful and I wish this 2023 well for you!!!

  • @morrigansbestcrow
    @morrigansbestcrow Жыл бұрын

    I don't have time to watch this till my lunch break at work but I didn't sleep last night and have a terrible migraine and honestly the title of this video put me in just a little bit better of a mood. Thanks

  • @madeline6951
    @madeline6951 Жыл бұрын

    You look so cozy and comfy, but also give "art-deco librarian" vibes, I love it

  • @optiTHOMAS

    @optiTHOMAS

    Жыл бұрын

    Love art deco so much! My favorite styling! 😁👍🏻

  • @cipher8987
    @cipher8987 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you. Im very excited for your next video. I really needed to hear this, i work so so hard and struggle with a battle out of my control or understanding. I appreciate all the work you put into this life too.

  • @nopenopington2880
    @nopenopington2880 Жыл бұрын

    Listening for a second time cos yesterday was really rough. Thank you for uploading this.

  • @Waluiginumberone
    @Waluiginumberone9 ай бұрын

    This is beautiful thank you for this

  • @mikeyyoung2626
    @mikeyyoung2626 Жыл бұрын

    i cannot thank you enough for this video

  • @Carlstone13
    @Carlstone13 Жыл бұрын

    I've had an incredibly difficult 2022, as I'm sure a lot of people did, the last week in particular has been crazy, and not in any good ways. And honestly, I really needed to hear that. Thank you. I hope the future is bright for you

  • @Epitaph_Angel
    @Epitaph_Angel Жыл бұрын

    You’re really eloquent even in less formal videos like this. Thanks for making this. Really needed to hear it, especially now.

  • @country_mouse7079
    @country_mouse7079 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for this, my parents are currently going through an awful break up that i feel responsible for. I had a knife in my hand and was going to say goodbye to some friends but I decided to open up KZread and this was the top video. You have just saved me from doing something I probably would have regretted if I ended up surviving it, thank you. (edit: I wasn't going to harm anybody else though i see how my wording could have come off as that)

  • @zerocal76

    @zerocal76

    Жыл бұрын

    I'd like to tell you stranger (but friend at the same time) on the internet that you don't have all the answers right now, maybe none. But what you do have is a future. In your present day, just chip away at the problems, issues and separate yourself as much as you can from the people and things that bring you down. Focus immensely on ppl who appreciate you and if you don't have any right now, its ok because you can and should work on yourself and those ppl will appear. Looking fwd to a good 2023 for myself and for you as well =)

  • @dethkon

    @dethkon

    Жыл бұрын

    *You were going to stab your friends to death just because your parents are breaking up?* You’re psycho! Get help, I’m not joking. You need to be locked up away from where you can hurt normal people (or yourself).

  • @eriksvensson6054

    @eriksvensson6054

    Жыл бұрын

    @@dethkon He was talking about himself re tard

  • @salt-d2032

    @salt-d2032

    Жыл бұрын

    The two censored comments really bother my brain cause they are probably telling you some deranged shit lol.

  • @zerocal76

    @zerocal76

    Жыл бұрын

    @@salt-d2032 It was someone being an a-hole and someone else assuming something incorrectly. Hopefully OP is feeling better 👍

  • @MorganRose2023
    @MorganRose2023 Жыл бұрын

    Leadhead I wanted to come here and tell you that I finally came out as trans femme. And you were one of the reasons and inspirations for me. I admire how much you don't care what people think. :) I have lots of hard stuff I have to figure out and the process has been heavy but I'm not turning back and I want to thank you.

  • @MrsTacoSenpai
    @MrsTacoSenpai Жыл бұрын

    I really needed this today, thank you

  • @jouburt9545
    @jouburt9545 Жыл бұрын

    Hearing this was quite important to me. The end of 2022 was awful for me and I felt as if I lost all worth as a person. I’ve been grappling with a lot in life and led me down an awful mindset (cautious to self diagnose here and I am not claiming I suffer from anything specific) and it’s led to me losing and hurting friends which I wish I avoided. It’s caused me to reflect a lot and I am trying to be better. Hearing this gave me encouragement because I feel as if I lost all worth as a person. Thanks.

  • @Solhurst
    @Solhurst Жыл бұрын

    You are the sweetest person Leadhead, stay strong

  • @substandard-apartment-complex
    @substandard-apartment-complex Жыл бұрын

    Thank you ❤ 2023 will be better

  • @EveBatStudios
    @EveBatStudios Жыл бұрын

    Really happy to see that you’re continuing to push. I hope you have a better year this year.

  • @spectacularlysentimental
    @spectacularlysentimental Жыл бұрын

    Happy New Year! Thanks for all the wonderful videos last year. Your videos were definitely a highlight to my 2022, and I hope your channel becomes more successful this year.

  • @thefictionbros319
    @thefictionbros319 Жыл бұрын

    I won't go on a tangent, but your Half Life videos are the reason why my channel exists. I don't give it much time (I should, but life), but whenever I start lacking in my approach I look at your HL videos for inspiration. Thanks, and more power to you!

  • @user9267
    @user9267 Жыл бұрын

    You're really pretty AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TOOOOO

  • @ramonbecker3928
    @ramonbecker3928 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you for this video! I was in a dark spot in the last few days. Feeling lonely, sad and thinking that everything was going to go wrong. But this week things gor better, I feel more confident and I believe I can turn my life around. I"m making changes in my life to build my new future. And now, just before going to bed, I come around this wonderful message, really inspiring! To everyone that reads this, I wish you all the best, be strong and keep trying, you will get what you want and deserve! And one more time, thank you Leadhead for this message, it came for me in the right time! Happy 2023 for everyone!

  • @AmesPinkinson
    @AmesPinkinson Жыл бұрын

    i really appreciate these kinds of inspirational videos. thank you

  • @LightPink
    @LightPink Жыл бұрын

    Thanks mom

  • @ReizzaDSnow
    @ReizzaDSnow Жыл бұрын

    Thank you I kinda needed this alot an I know how that sounds but the past year in a half after coming out as trans fem I have never been as alone an scared as I am now so thank you from the deepest part of my heart💙💙

  • @flarys6732

    @flarys6732

    Жыл бұрын

    Good luck sis, remember, you're only truly alone when you resign to staying alone, I hope you can transition well ❤

  • @ReizzaDSnow

    @ReizzaDSnow

    Жыл бұрын

    @@flarys6732 💙💙💙🥺🥺🥺

  • @Snezit

    @Snezit

    7 ай бұрын

    You will never look like your pfp just remember that and stay away from children freak

  • @xenwilson5919
    @xenwilson5919 Жыл бұрын

    i understand what it feels like to feel like you're slowly getting worse and to get through it anyway. I'm glad that I am doing better and I hope you are as well. To anyone that is struggling, it does get better, but healing is not linear. even if the best you can do is get out of bed, you still did your best and I am proud of you.

  • @aquila3774
    @aquila3774 Жыл бұрын

    Thanks, I really needed to hear this. You are an amazing person!

  • @Freak80MC
    @Freak80MC Жыл бұрын

    The timing of this is pretty perfect for me, as a transfem person, I might be struggling with my life and depression, but I'm also literally about to head out for my E injection. So thanks for this

  • @brian_ego

    @brian_ego

    Жыл бұрын

    Congrats! And good luck

  • @JokerJay1990

    @JokerJay1990

    Жыл бұрын

    E injection won't fix your depression. Go to a therapist and get prescribed something that will actually help and not act as a band aid.

  • @ursa6555

    @ursa6555

    Жыл бұрын

    @@JokerJay1990 ok jordanstarks410

  • @MorganRose2023

    @MorganRose2023

    Жыл бұрын

    Jealous! But I'm happy for you. Good luck! Hopefully I'll be too soon enough

  • @tr1n1ty501

    @tr1n1ty501

    Жыл бұрын

    holy shit e comes as an injection?????

  • @imeowmeowkat
    @imeowmeowkat Жыл бұрын

    Thank you Ms leadhead ❤️💜 you are also very much worth it

  • @pedropedreiro2972
    @pedropedreiro2972 Жыл бұрын

    Actually going trough somethings rn, and legit thank you for this, actually helped me a lot

  • @helinanana
    @helinanana Жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much!!! This was very needed, the last couple of years my mindest on New Years has always been rather more negative, so this is a much better perspective to consider! Much love

  • @draculachupisca1936
    @draculachupisca1936 Жыл бұрын

    YOU SHOULD TREAT YOURSELF RIGHT NOW -Low Tier God

  • @appleseed8282
    @appleseed8282 Жыл бұрын

    Zoo-E-Mama! The video length is 413!

  • @robinsparrow1618

    @robinsparrow1618

    Жыл бұрын

    homestuck 👉

  • @raiacad0564
    @raiacad0564 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you, I hope I will achieve a lot this year too and thanks for the kind words. 2022 was, well, a rollercoaster for me, my friends, and family to say the least. But thanks to all of the amazing and accepting people I have now in my life, it was also one of the most amazing years of my life. If I had to describe 2022 as simply as possible, it was a reset in my life, a chance to start over and I no longer felt alone. I feel closer to my true self than I ever have at any other point in my life and I'm constantly discovering new interests and, well, rekindling so many old interests too that I am sad to have left behind but am also happy to be with again. If I have to say some of the things I wanna do in 2023, well, it would be to finally be more honest about myself, fix problems I've had with people in the past, be myself, kick bad habits, treat my body better, not let fear suppress me anymore and just try to become a better person all round.

  • @Mekose
    @Mekose Жыл бұрын

    I've been here for a few years and adored the evolution of your channel and personal journey. You're incredibly thoughtful and absolutely gorgeous. Thank you for providing a little sanctuary.

  • @steamboatmischy1767
    @steamboatmischy1767 Жыл бұрын

    My entire life, I haven't gotten along well with my parents. This became really apparent recently, when I came out as trans to them and they just brushed it off. Recently for Christmas, I bought girl clothes for the first time in my life, and they made a big fuss over it. That night, I just felt like stabbing my own guts out in front of them just to see if they'd try to stop me. I placed a bet that they wouldn't, and left it at that. Not once in this did I cry, for I've had these thoughts since I was 10 and first felt dysphoria in full swing. Really, the only reason why I didn't grab a knife and go nuts back then was because I knew that eventually it'd all get better and I'd be able to be fully confident in my own skin. Plus, I lost a lot this past year, but things are finally looking up and it'd be rude of me to leave the few people who care about me out to dry. Also, your transition is going wonderfully, Leadhead. My voice sounds somewhat masculine still, but yours is borderline unrecognizable as a male's. I hope you're on the rise, everyone who reads this. And thank you for this video, Leadhead. Such few people get to hear encouragement like this in their life, and I'm glad that _finally_ someone says it to them.

  • @Spectrik
    @Spectrik Жыл бұрын

    This was most unexpected

  • @approximateCognition
    @approximateCognition Жыл бұрын

    Have an, if not happy, at least hopeful and better new year, everyone. Everyone deserves to live as themself.

  • @gambyadam23
    @gambyadam23 Жыл бұрын

    With the holiday season always being a lonely / shitty moment of my life, It's a relief to stumble upon this kind of support and understanding. Thank you, wish you the best.

  • @councilofcolours5364
    @councilofcolours5364 Жыл бұрын

    Despite being surrounded by... who might be the best people in the world, to me it will never stop feeling like my whole existence is more of a burden to them than it might be to me. One sister's abroad with an incurable disease, the other elsewhere, with a child to take care of and a boyfriend who she can't depend on. My mom is worried sick for their well being, while being entirely powerless and alone since she never had a great relationship with her family and she's single ever since I came to be. I used to tell myself that... my problems aren't worth the attention and that perhaps... I shouldn't exist at all so neither of us would have to bear me... and I was wrong. There was a time I spent every day, pondering what is the reason for me to keep swimming, even funny ones at times so I'd get through it myself: Telling my friends a code sentence, that had no meaning to them at all, but was a way for me to prove to those voices inside my head that people do care about me. Saying that I can't quit until I write a book so the world does not forget about me. And lastly, saying that I can't die, until I am a real man... It doesn't matter whether you're drowning in a lake, a river or in an ocean, you're still drowning and you should get the help you need... know that you deserve to ask for that help and it isn't important whether you're having a hard time in school, being abused or simply not feeling right with who you are. Even if all you can do is to just keep your head above the water, that is enough. I am proud of us for getting this far. Thanks for giving us the hand.

  • @cameronhaynes8971
    @cameronhaynes8971 Жыл бұрын

    Thanks for this! I came out as trans yesterday (it went well) and your channel has been a massive help ♥️

  • @Me-wx1mt

    @Me-wx1mt

    Жыл бұрын

    congratulations! hope you're doing well

  • @gelatin.skeletin

    @gelatin.skeletin

    Жыл бұрын

    Congratulations! The first step is the hardest one.

  • @franta7294

    @franta7294

    Жыл бұрын

    ive struggled with not being able to come out for a year now,, wanted new years eve to finally push through but im just not capable of getting myself there. Glad it went well for you, youre going to be so much happier now i believe it

  • @MegaUMK3

    @MegaUMK3

    Жыл бұрын

    @@franta7294 right there with you too . had the same plan and just chickened out bc im not confident enough

  • @CharmedReally7

    @CharmedReally7

    Жыл бұрын

    @@MegaUMK3 i hope you both get the courage to do so soon enough, all the best!

  • @Silails
    @Silails Жыл бұрын

    I always love your videos, you uploaded this one right when I'm feeling pretty low, thank you(you almost made me cry just by the title) (you look really good btw, happy to see you change into the person you're meant to be)

  • @Lemonionst
    @Lemonionst Жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for being an inspiration to go on. I've just reasently rediscovered your channel and your content has gotten me through a lot of dysphoria. My most sincere thanks for all the content

  • @kfaughter4350
    @kfaughter4350 Жыл бұрын

    I dont want to go over my life in a youtube comment. its way too long, convoluted, and personal for me to share here. But I just want to say that this video did help.

  • @cyaneous227
    @cyaneous227 Жыл бұрын

    2022 was the hardest year i had to go through, it didn't help i was completely alone with the struggles i faced but I'm still here thank you for reminding me of that. sending love to everyone

  • @talkaboutnowt6644
    @talkaboutnowt6644 Жыл бұрын

    2022 has probably been one of the worst years of my life. I'm young, having just started A levels these past few months and that meant for the first half of this year I had my finals. But I had to go through those dealing with the fallout of losing 2 family members I cared a lot about. Although I feel like I'm through the worst of that, I've now entered this strange questioning phase where I'm confused about every aspect of my identity and its left me feeling quite miserable most hours of the day. This video is exactly what I've been needing, someone to just tell me it'll get better. This bullshit will end eventually. So thanks Leadhead. For this and for being one of the people who's content has inspired me to decide I'm going to give content creation a go this year. I'll come back to this video at the end of 2023, to reflect on how it's gone.

  • @DutchDaddy

    @DutchDaddy

    Жыл бұрын

    All the best, hope this year will be easier for you!

  • @gelatin.skeletin
    @gelatin.skeletin Жыл бұрын

    I really really needed to hear this. You’re incredible, and I’m so proud of YOU. As a fellow trans girl, you’ve really made me feel less alone. So thank you immensely.

  • @Nawakooo0
    @Nawakooo0 Жыл бұрын

    Thanks, I really needed that. Last year I realised I was trans and that was the worst point of my life. For a while I didn't know who I was anymore, but I got through it and now I might be struggling to keep going as a boy since I'm not out, but I'm sure I'll eventually be happy with myself... I hope...

  • @robinsparrow1618

    @robinsparrow1618

    Жыл бұрын

    hope you get to a point where you can be yourself! good luck

  • @CusineStory
    @CusineStory Жыл бұрын

    Thank you, when I saw the notification I was actually laying on my bed thinking about her, my ex, it’s been about two months now since we broke up. She told me she didn’t feel the same anymore but I respect her decision and decided that maybe we could still at least be friends. I’m not mad or even angry at her, I’m just sad and wondering what did I do to make her feel that way. I thought everything was going great and we could be together forever but I guess It’s not possible anymore. She is the best woman that I could ever met, she is mature, has beautiful eyes and smiles, can always cheer me up and make me happy whenever I feel down. I just finished the video while writing this down but I just wanted to say Thank you so much for the video, you really help me feel better. I Truly appreciate your video, it really help me feel better. Just thank you

  • @kettleworks
    @kettleworks Жыл бұрын

    Not only did this video really resonate but I couldn’t help but cry-smile at the use of Va from the The Beginner’s Guide OST. When I first played that game that entire sequence at the house has always got to me and it always will, that appreciation of almost domestic but continuous reflection, acting, and moving forward ❤

  • @manumaker0859
    @manumaker0859 Жыл бұрын

    ehhhhhh -eli vance

  • @cptcool-__-7501
    @cptcool-__-7501 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you ❤

  • @Supuhdmanz
    @Supuhdmanz Жыл бұрын

    You're ruining me with the Beginner's Guide music! Wishing you all an actually happy new year and thanks for the surprise uplifting message Leadhead.

  • @CEGAGD
    @CEGAGD Жыл бұрын

    Needed to hear this. Thank you. Wishing you all the best❤️

  • @kuroblakka3786
    @kuroblakka3786 Жыл бұрын

    OMG I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE TRANS! (I'm saying this as a positive thing. I'm also a trans girl. I don't know how to put emotions into my words sorry.)

  • @HardFighter9933
    @HardFighter9933 Жыл бұрын

    uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

  • @cmc4448
    @cmc4448 Жыл бұрын

    You're one of the best content creators in this entire website, you amaze me with how good your content is, it's on another level compared to the hundreds of manufactured garbage videos that gets spewed every hour, you put your heart and soul into it, and we see it, and i'm glad you see it in us too, for the little things and everyday struggles, the imperceptible and obvious, even though you mentioned the parasovial relationship aspect you make us feel seen and appreciated, something that's become a rarity as video making becomes a bussiness rather than a passion, so thank you so much for everything, you deserve the world

  • @yourbifriendaspen3629
    @yourbifriendaspen3629 Жыл бұрын

    New year's for me entailed going to bed at 10:00 cause i was too tired from work. I've never been a big new year's person anyway, i guess i've always felt like if i wanted to make change, i would just make it whenever. If waiting until New Year's to have a day to yourself for that helps you, then go for it! Glad you have a way to organize your thoughts. '22 was a rough year. Honestly since like '18 had been a really rough time. Identity crisis go BRR. 💀 But yeah, it seems like this last year has been terrible for everyone I've talked to. Dunno what it was, but i guess everyone had a shared, "holy shit that was terrible" experience XD

  • @cptcool-__-7501
    @cptcool-__-7501 Жыл бұрын

    We’re proud of you to ❤

  • @HeraclitusX
    @HeraclitusX Жыл бұрын

    As soon as I saw this video, from you, with that title and runtime, I immediately took my headphones off, and put them on my girlfriend's head and pressed play. I have no idea what you said (yet), but I know you always say the most meaningful things. She's been through a lot, and still struggles, so however you told her that she's worth it, it means a lot. Her smiling through the tears was a testament to that. Thank you.

  • @3v514
    @3v514 Жыл бұрын

    That's my first comment on your channel and I'm truly happy that I subscribed. The words that were spoken are exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you. You are great and I wish you the same doubled. Happy new year

  • @dead_fox
    @dead_fox Жыл бұрын

    I appreciate that you made this video, thank you. Sending you a hug, wish you the very best

  • @ameryaser3987
    @ameryaser3987 Жыл бұрын

    Very true words. Recently i have come to terms with the voices in my head. Luckily I'm not on the psychosis spectrum nor do i have schizophrenia. Whatever i have my doctor said currently doesn't have a name. Luckily i am able to differentiate the difference from these voices and reality. Still it was hard getting to have a positive relationship with them. But i managed it. I really related to the intrusive thought thing. That was nice to hear. My intrusive thoughts can be pretty disturbing including the r word and thoughts of me going insane. I'd say I'm finally at a point where I'm 80% happy with my life. Since life ain't perfect that's a pretty good rating to have. See ya later. Random people i don't know. And have a good day.

  • @Snezit

    @Snezit

    7 ай бұрын

    Okay you are just faking mental illness for likes lol

  • @coralanturn
    @coralanturn Жыл бұрын

    i love your hair so fckn much

  • @StabbedMeat
    @StabbedMeat Жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Lead. It helped to hear some of this stuff. I hope things go well for you, too.

  • @executivetoad
    @executivetoad Жыл бұрын

    thank you lead, needed this. ❤️

  • @eviethekiwi7178
    @eviethekiwi7178 Жыл бұрын

    girl i love you so much, you've been an inspiration to me and you motivated me to start my own transition. i couldn't have done it without you

  • @habibikebabthe4th868

    @habibikebabthe4th868

    11 ай бұрын

    Thats too bad

  • @TheRedMeerkat1
    @TheRedMeerkat1 Жыл бұрын

    You managed to do more in four minutes than any therapist has been able to do in seventeen years . Thank you. That's all I can say. Thank you

  • @LittleMushroomGuy

    @LittleMushroomGuy

    Жыл бұрын

    Feeding into your delusions is not helpful 17 years for nothing lmao

  • @GenerallyBananas
    @GenerallyBananas Жыл бұрын

    Thanks for this, happy new year!

  • @ARandomSpy
    @ARandomSpy Жыл бұрын

    I'm proud of you too, sister. I hope your 2023 is wonderful! ❤️❤️

  • @Ixarus6713
    @Ixarus6713 Жыл бұрын

    NO, YOU'RE WORTH IT!! 👇

  • @Monkyricky
    @Monkyricky Жыл бұрын

    Hey Leadhead, just wanted to let you know that you inspire me. Your coming out video made me feel less alone when I was going through a shitty situation and wasn't feeling very happy about where I was in my transition. As another trans girl who wants to make video essays one day I want to thank you for inspiring me. Thank You :)

  • @Snezit

    @Snezit

    7 ай бұрын

    Jose what are you doing on here? why did you paint your hair purple? I thought you were going to be a mechanic like your father

  • @alchemidae4064
    @alchemidae4064 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you, Ive had a hard day and haven't had a great sense of resolve throughout it but this helped, so thank you

  • @garbledsand-which2321
    @garbledsand-which2321 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing this story.

  • @nyanbinaryDC
    @nyanbinaryDC Жыл бұрын

    thanks for this! your coming out was one of the things that pushed me towards transitioning just by how "casual" it was. So thanks for being a part, however small, of my journey towards happier life

  • @dethkon

    @dethkon

    11 ай бұрын

    It’s a memetic CIA mind-virus spread through the internet, just like schizophrenia. Gender construct? You’re entire being is a Construct. You hit some Black ICE years ago that flatlined you, and now live on as a digital construct in the head of a schizoaffective piece of infected AI.

  • @Snezit

    @Snezit

    7 ай бұрын

    Bruh thinks growing his hair out and putting on children's clothing makes him a woman mental illness

  • @drozthewolf
    @drozthewolf Жыл бұрын

    I really needed to hear this today. I hope you never forget, the same applies to you too

  • @OK-zz3us
    @OK-zz3us Жыл бұрын

    Thanks Leadhead. Such a video makes me feel a little better at a time where I need it.

  • @mr.anthonygonzales
    @mr.anthonygonzales Жыл бұрын

    Last year was pretty good but 2021 hit me hard however I am doing better now and I'm proud of myself for getting through it Also regarding the intrusive thoughts they go away as you learn how to deal with them I know from experience I went from a depressed kid who shy and hated himself to a confident person who actually loves themselves

  • @amaryllis0
    @amaryllis0 Жыл бұрын

    This is very sweet, lovely to hear ; u ; As a closeted transfem I am excited for that video!

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