Bold of you to assume I ever had social skills to begin with

t-girl coded, yeah the do that got me wheezing

@bbittercoffee

2 ай бұрын

Dying right after was so perfect too

@Erinthegato

Ай бұрын

Lmao

TTT elevated my hate for children.

"Lying is great practice for public speaking" Penny, are you a politician by heart? 🤭

@youllnevertakemealive2833

Ай бұрын

My initial reaction had no words, but this comment found them for me.

"Woman makes friends by LYING to them!" Scandalous.

I've gone (and still go) through the same trajectory of wanting to be more than someone who just happens to be in the room. Finding the confidence and gaining the familiarity/comfort to share your personality, your humor, and yourself, really does take a lot. Being that open with my own friends still takes effort -- being relaxed enough to let myself go, bask in the fun, and forget about my anxiety always feels like something new, even when it isn't. Thanks for sharing this.

@willw1980

Ай бұрын

Shedding the protective exoskeleton is dangerous, but important for growth.

@soccerandtrack10

Ай бұрын

Ezra fairy tail?...

"How being in a social situation for enough time helped me (re)learn social skills" That's exactly how we learn. By doing. Don't be afraid of doing and find the situations that push you.

Best strat ever: - be innocent with a smoke grenade - incline your aim a little bit to the ground and shake left/right really fast - the above mov. makes you appear to have a knife, so use while close to someone for a free jumpscare!

@timisontube

Ай бұрын

Delightful advice

I related to this a lot as I also struggle with finding real friends. It's been difficult ever since I graduated high school. Glad to see you're doing well. Also, frottweiler is a fucking funny username.

I don't think I've ever seen anyone put into words so succinctly how I felt about TTT. Everything you laid out in this video is why I spent over 1k hours playing Gmod. It was never about the game, it was always about the community and bonds. Thank you for putting this video up ^.^

@soccerandtrack10

Ай бұрын

Like halo or nazi zombies?...

You in the simpleflips group has led to a lot of laughs for me. Glad to see you open up in more ways than just content.

@alfiegordon9013

Ай бұрын

shoutoutsh to shimpleflipsh

crazy how one of my favorite gmod gamemodes causes frequent crossovers between two of my favorite youtubers how did i never notice this before

@WowBlankpage

Ай бұрын

if this is one favorite your favorite KZreadrs then I feel bad for you

You've made me realize that I may have bombed out of an online friend group last year because I was playing to win in stuff like Gundam Evolution and Pokemon Unite while the others were just playing to hang out and spend time. I'm such an idiot.

@TheRealestAri

Ай бұрын

I'm sure you can find the right people, it'll take time but i believe in you. i relate to your story, and now I've found a good group of people that have hung around with me even through my transition

I feel like I lost most of my social skills after covid. Before I was a pretty extroverted person and afterwards when it finally was feeling like the dust was beginning to settle I was a different person. Someone who felt way more secluded and the load of things that had gone on in my life catching up to me. I wish I could get more of those social skills back. Feel a sense of normalcy for myself again. Make new friends on my own. Be more talkative and not worried. It'd be nice.

@crangejo

Ай бұрын

yea

@skyrunner021

Ай бұрын

It would

I've been a fan of you and simpleflips for quite awhile now. Seeing you join the group and be a regular was surreal, but I'm so happy it happened. I'm happy it helped you get better at socializing :)

I ocasionally watch your videos and I always have to commend how sincere you are, it is genuinely something to strive for

i'm so glad that a short time after covid became a thing, among us blew up the way it did. i moved to a new city in october of 2020 and around the same time, my friend group started doing weekly amogus sessions. we'd end up continuong to chill and talk after playing every time, having conversations deep into the night a lot of the time. seeing as i was in a new city and there wasn't really a way to meet people, this was basically my only time to hang out with people for a while. this is where i first got to experiment eith new names and pronouns, these people knew i was trans before my family did. when covid restrictions started lifting, we'd add new irl friends we made to the group and it only made it better, with some of the new joins becoming core members of the group. by now it kind of dissipated, most of us are now working jobs, have relationships and all that stuff, so getting everyone assembled at the same time of week every week became hard. but when we all needed this social interaction, it was there and i'm pretty sure it saved a few, if not all of us from some bad spirals at one point or another

Online communication has been a double bladed experience for me. There are good things I've picked up, but there's plenty of bad habits as well.

Man I missed the old Crowbar Gaming Server. TTT just wasn’t the same ever since they shut it down.

3:53 sick cone flip!

Just read the title again and relieved it didn't have one more T.

holy fucking shit the beginning through 1:20 made me feel SO seen I can't believe how well that all was put into words

My problem has been finding those communities that i can even just chill with

@Spunney

Ай бұрын

Yeah I think this is sort of THE problem. I think learning to be more social in a community that fits you is infinitely easier than actually finding a community fits you in the first place.

I'm really happy you found your group of people. It's really hard to be ok with yourself in this world so it's fucking great that you can be! What a good video. Loved it

Never stop making videos! I love your video essays so MUCH!!!!

I've been subbed to your channel for a while now, and I'm sad to see YT hasn't recommended anything of yours in a while despite the fact that you've been posting. I enjoy your content, even tho I don't know all your lore, and I say this from a genuine place of concern: Those pictures hanging in your car are an actual hazard. Not just because of reduced visibility, but because that can be used as a reason to manufacture a reason to pull you over. No, driving isn't that hard, but other people aren't very good at it. And other people with blue and red lights can use that as a justification to harass you.

Goddamn I love the Simpleflips TTT videos!! I can’t believe I’m just now connecting that you’re the same Leadhead. Feels like a Marvel-level crossover to me lol, you’re amazing in those vieeos

@spacecowboy4446

2 ай бұрын

This video was honestly wonderful to watch through and through, I couldn’t be more happy for you :) Is there a place to watch your highlights from TTT?

This reminds me a lot of how I feel about the group of friends I made at uni, I went from being "the quiet guy" of my high school friends to "the funny one" in my group at uni, they are all great

I've watched simpleflips and you for years and seeing you on those ttt streams and videos is always a pleasure.

I’ve been subbed to you since before you appeared in Simple’s TTT videos, and I’ve been subbed to him for a while too. After a while, I started thinking “wait, is that Leadhead? She’s great, I hope it’s her” and have been enjoying your presence in the videos ever since

How am I the only one to mention that amazing transition of you IRL set to in game at 10:15? Well-fucking -done!

Oh this video was so awesome. I'm hoping to get there one day myself. All too familiar with the paralyzing dread 😅

leadhead idk if you will read this but i just wanna say ur videos have got me through a lot, whenever i feel down and see an upload from you it makes my day. please keep being awesome :3

I'm so happy for you, congrats on facing your insecurities like this ! And thank you for sharing your story :)

I used to host a low gravity TTT server back in the day for several years and I'm still bad at it

i misread TTT as /tttt/ in the title for a sec and had to process that no, this ISN'T a trans video, and then I clicked the video and got double juked

The internet really helps with getting social skills and learning to talk to people, there's a lot you can learn from it even if you don't have any problems socializing. Some people are killing it online, but that doesn't mean you can kill it offline and there's also some level of detachment offline and other stuff. Especially when the culture of both greatly differ (depending on location). There's just some things that are different between both, and speaking is also different, and it's hard to list them all in a concise manner. Speaking issues is one, stumbling words or not being able to get the words out or speaking awfully just because you lack experience (that is especially a problem if you never talk to yourself like youtubers do). People can interrupt you or speak for you and they have their reasons to do that, like business people want you to speak fast and to the point, no "uhh". Your perception of people may be all wrong, they are not the same as people online but they are also not ignorant or whatever. Certain jokes and comments may not be okay too. I am not afraid of it, it seems easy, difficulty is on the eyes of the beholder sometimes. It's not weird to not kill it offline though. Talking to strangers is something my parents and a lot of people can't do, asking questions or saying something on your mind. I am only able to do it because I bring myself to do it, it's not natural, I trained myself, and I am still not the best at it. If you can talk properly to the people you have to talk to I think that's enough. I don't know how relevant this comment is to the video. I don't think it is so I deleted it a couple of times, but I typed it so I'll post it anyways.

every time i see the title of this video my brain thinks it says "how tttt helped me get my social skills back" and then i almost die laughing

I'm glad it's TTT and not /tttt/

I've always had to lean on games to find community. Whether that's the occasional tabletop RPG session or a free company in FFXIV or a community server on Team Fortress 2. This video really spoke to me!

It's my first Leadhead video in years, last time i watch you was long before you showed up your face, somewhere along half-life videos. It's really weird to watch you now, life was easier few years ago, my autistic pursuit of learning history and other shit was stopped by problems at school that last for years now. I lost all my social skills in past years, i barely say two words daily, but i find out bits of time to regain what i did in years when i watch you, learning multiple skills daily, video editing, modeling, graphics, history. It's just good to hear voice that motivated me to do stuff talking about problems i have, detailing how something so stupid as game making it go away. Wish you best, and one question, what's the story with the car? It looks like you're living there.

Your self-analysis is consistently great

I haven't watched the whole video, but the last time I watched something about TTT it was some of the funniest videos I watched

They're gonna be lookin' for the gal who doesn't have social skills. And they won't find them in this video baybeeeee! Proud of you!

@zipitzizzy2442

Ай бұрын

*girl!!!

@austinfletchermusic

Ай бұрын

@@zipitzizzy2442 I'm using "guy" in a gender-neutral sense, and I'm referencing a specific quote that does the same. Genuine question: Does the phrasing give the wrong idea?

@mizeress4454

Ай бұрын

​@@austinfletchermusicIn my experience, "guy" seems more gender-neutral when used in the plural, as in "hey, guys", or when used as part of something larger like "good/bad guy". It tends to feel gendered to me when its used in the singular like "look at that guy" or the way you used it here. Just my take...

3:53 that cone tho

This is so wholesome, I love this

I had a doubt that you were The Penny from Simpleflips TTT videos, I was surprised to see you there

bro...

i shouted "that's so cool!" to myself at multiple things that i related to as a tgirl, lol

damn! this is the lead head from simple flips? she’s fine as hell!

is TTT still around? Last time I played it was probably like 12 years ago on "random" server, it was a good time. it was the only game I've ever used a microphone in ever.

@Spunney

Ай бұрын

In terms of public servers, kinda? But everyone who plays on them are really just the worst people and they are awful communities to be in; trust me, I've tried. You kinda just have to have a big group of friends to play with

shoutouts to your absolutely legendary names

ive been watching your channel for about 4 - 5 years and your content has changed a lot but i think its okay :D remember you are awesome yes you too who ever is reading this :D

TTT was my childhood, played hundreds of hours on these servers. This video existing is such a... I don't know, crazy? Oh well.

Wake up babe new leadhead video just dropped

I remember watching this game!

I have the exact opposite problem. I can't use voice chat online because I'm too anxious but IRL it's not a problem whatsoever.

2:53 Shoutouts to simpleflips (didn't expect a crossover!)

if this title had another T, I would be even more concerned

She got the Apocalypse Tapestry car

nice weatherday hoodie !

Did ttt also make the counter strike source knife into a comically large sword? Looks more like the kind of thing I would see in a pirates of the Caribbean movie.

i might try this

Just as I was getting back into GMod

It's strange how easy it is for me for me talk to people online versus in real life. In highschool during a period of time where I had no friends, severe social anxiety, and would go most days without saying a word to anyone I clocked in around 300 hours into SCP: Secret Lab. I would have no issues or reservations when talking to people and had no problem being the center of everyone's attention. On the map there's an intercom that when used makes you heard by everyone in the server, and I would love to rush there to read a copypasta I had chosen for this explicit purpose (My two favorites being "Horse cock is fucking mediocre" and "Does anyone else find Mufasa's death scene sexually arousing?"). This is the same kid who's knees started to uncontrollably shake whilst stuttering through a 10 slide class presentation. Idk if it's because of the physical disconnect of online interaction, not having to worry about how I look, I can leave anytime with no consequence, or whatever else. I have a similar experience with Dungeons and Dragons strangely enough. I have no issue saying wild things in character/being loud while talking in a funny voice, but like the second I stop acting as that character I go back to being meek and quite. It's very frustrating because I can see a version of myself that can talk to people no issue whilst being funny and engaging, but without these special circumstances that version of myself fucks off to leave me anxiety ridden giving one word answers to someone trying to make small talk with me. Sorry about venting though this seems like the right place to share my tale of woe.

I learned to cartwheel from Raiden, I learned to battle roll from Snake and Dante, life is a series of lies through action

Title is wild, y’all gotta go outside 😂 - from a gmod player with *number* hours

gmod is such a blessing to this world

Another great video ::3

LeadHead has peaked once more

YOU LOOK SO COOL IN THIS VIDEO AAAAH!!!!

I think its funny that your name is Penny because like, even before you came out I associated your videos with the smell of copper. The smell of pennies :P I think its some form of synesthesia? Idk. I just think its a funny coincidence how that happened

holy fuck friend, I am only 6:38 through and A: your comments about TTT are resonating both with me and my Amongus veteran gf. B: those are some SICKASS plays. damn let me never be in a dark alley alone with YOU on TTT!!!

Social skills hmmm this concept is new to me

13:01 the hair and glasses match the archatype from guy to girl. the same feel type.

Whats the mod list for this ttt server? I’m trying to set up one and I want more stuff than just the basic in package mod.

Hey Leadhead, what happened to your pros and cons of hitchhiking video?

TTT got me back into being a terrorist

Nice!

Shoutouts to SimpleFlips (for inavderdently curing my social phobia!)

Your laugh is adorable

I would love to play TTT with you

how can you be so real all the time

It's so nice hearing your journey!! Thank you for sharing!! 💙💗🤍💗💙

For a while I was a volunteer mod for a not too popular but still big TTT server. I spent so much of my free time playing there and socializing. I ended up getting burnt out after the owner and a couple of the more favored admins kept abusing admin perms and commands ruining things for a lot of the other players. Every now and then I return to the game mode, I haven't seen the server online since. Many of the servers I've tried just haven't been the same socially. There were a couple that came close but they seemed to do nothing about blatant bigotry so I had to stop playing. I've always wished I could get my friends into it because at least then I wouldn't have to worry about the bigotry, but a majority of them have been uninterested. I feel like gmod has been dying. I made my first Internet friends via gmod, though unfortunately we aren't very close anymore.

Maybe I should get into this. It seems like more fun than Among Us, and a platform I've spent a lot of good times in.

really like your lipstick

/TTTT/ took my social skills, TTT gave them back, T4T happened next 😌

I miss the times then ttt was super fun.

That’s a nice dress :o

I spent so much time in TTT back in the day! Even was promoted to admin in a server! I was never good at the game, though. bad aim and couldn't lie 😅I prefer to play as innocent.

there's like a minute and a half of black at the end of the video?

Shoutouts simpleflips

I always had social anxiety even before The Pandemic

The thing in elder scrolls is true=jail=skills lowering.

I miss more classic vanilla TTT. Whenever I have tried in recent years to play every server has 20 million plug ins and pay for features. Anyone know of vanilla servers that are decent?

considering it

ive always kinda hated gmod but i think im gonna install it now (and wait 4 years to join a server)

@smuwug

Ай бұрын

Please Enjoy This Dubstep while installing 20gb of playermodels only the admins will be using 😃

Thank God there wasn't a fourth T

awesome youre cool