Navigating all of this while being in the public eye must have been a whole new level of painful and difficult, and I’m so so sorry you had to go through that experience. There is absolutely nothing exploitative about talking through your story if it’s helping you heal and move forward❤️ Sending lots of love to all of you❤❤❤

Here's the thing, Micaela. So many babies do not survive and we don't talk about it enough. I never realised how many people had lost a child until I lost one. It is a deeply private thing, but it's not exploitative. It helps people feel less alone - and I hope it helps you, too.

@SarahLynn__

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I'm so sorry :( You should talk about it if it helps you.

Don't ever feel bad for not uploading, you don't owe us anything! A lot of people (including me) enjoyed your content, but at the end of the day, your life is yours to live. You went through something most of us cannot even try to understand. Take your time to process/deal with everything and only do what you want to do. Wish you nothing but the best! (from a German living in China, and I guess many other people as well!)

Can we all take a moment to remember all of the babies that don’t have the chance to grow up. And also all of the mothers and fathers, sisters, brothers, grandparents, extended family and friends who grieve them. Never forgotten yet never spoken about enough as it is so hard. Wishing you. Your partner and both of your babies all the best. You have been a wonderful mother since the moment you were pregnant sith your first and remember not to push yourself❤

It was not exploitative, it was brave and honest ❤

Don't ever feel like you're burdening others with your pain. This is your space, you're allowed to grief in your space. I'm sorry for your loss and hope that you can slowly work through all the pain and resolve them. And that you can feel joy doing what you love.

Please be gentle with yourself. Making this video is so damn hard, you should be so proud of yourself for being so open about something so raw and painful. It is not trauma-dumping, you are being very sensitive to others, and this was done beautifully, so don't worry and try not to overthink. Now you have updated your followers, now you can move forward with your channel. You've done it! So proud of you!

So happy to see you moving forward after what you went through. You’re strength is contagious ❤ nothing but love sent your way!!

I'm so sorry for your loss. 🖤🙏🏾🙏🏾 May God bless your life. It's been a pleasure meeting you on KZread for so many years. You're a great person.

Oh Micaela, that’s so much. There are no words adequate to respond to the loss you have endured. I’m so very sorry. Sending you love and wishing you comfort and peace.

So sorry about what happened Micaela ... I think its helpful to hear how other people make it through for those of us who are also dealing with difficult things so thank you for sharing. I'm glad to see that you'll be making videos again ❤

Big hugs, Micaela. I'm so glad to see you here! 💓 💕

I've been following your journey on social media, and it's so incredibly heartbreaking. But at the same time, it's so great that your second child is healthy, and also that you were able to make this video, and slowly work on coming to terms with the grief. I hope you can get to do the work you want to do again, and I think I speak for many viewers when I say we'll always support you and your channel however we can. Well wishes to your family, and always remember to take care of yourself. ❤

I've always admired how you both handled this, especially with all the complexities of doing so in public. I'm almost twice your age, but will never be faced with such grief or loss. The fact you two have done so publicly, despite how difficult that must have been, will help others facing their own challenges.

you're so incredibly strong! thank you for talking all of this so openly. just do what feels comfortable and never feel pressured 💖

話すのもとても辛いことだったと思いますが、話してくださってありがとうございます。

So sorry for your loss. Glad you guys are doing better, and wishing you all the best!

Im so sorry about the trauma you are going through, but i respect you being open to us, also being able to open yourself up and talking about it. It is a bold and strong step. Thank you. ❤️❤️

All through this is something I already know from your other social media accounts, I am so happy you made this video. I’m just happy seeing you on video again. And don’t worry about making us sad, we can take it.

You're stronger than me. I was so angry over the pandemic I stopped making content. Your videos were so helpful. Your honesty and genuine love for Japan showed in your videos. I'm sorry for your loss. You keep on demonstrating why I appreciate you.

There aren't words for how amazed I am by your resilience and bravery during all this. I hope u feel as strong as you really are.

My heart hurts so much for you, the last few years have been a rollercoaster. You were the first travel vlogger I found in Japan and started my obsession, just wanted to thank you for following your dreams!

I'm so sorry for your loss ミカエラ😔 Thank you so much for sharing your story and lots of love 🫶🏻🥺

You are so strong, wonderful, beautiful inside and out and you deserve all the happiness in the world. Both you and your partner and your daughter. I've followed your journey on Instagram and it is amazing how open you have been. It has helped other people, it has shaped so many people. Don't ever feel like feeling your sadness on camera would be in any way exploitative. I'm glad you got to make this video to process the "mental block" and can now continue doing what you love. Because youre great at it. Welcome back❤️

I can't truly understand the grief you and your partner had to endure, but I just know that celebrating, discussing, grieving, and meditating on the life that was lost will move you both forward on your journey. Thank you for sharing, I am sure there are so many that feel less alone because of you. And I am SO looking forward to your past and future videos. Keep shining bright, you've got this ❤️

sending so much love to you and the whole family Micaela. deeply appreciate you sharing this and everything you have shown of your life and experiences with all its dimensions. a continuous supply of hugs and much love is being sent for whenever you need it from this fan in canada.

おかえりミカエラ！ 時々ミカエラを思い出してはチャンネルを覗きに行って、動画が更新されてるからチェックしていたよ 久々の動画でミカエラの姿を見れて嬉しい反面、耐え難い経験をしていたこと、自分のことのように胸が苦しくなりました でも、ミカエラが第二子と共に今はお家にいること、ミカエラの今が確認できただけで私たち視聴者は充分うれしいです😌 ミカエラが今まで残してくれたたくさんのビデオがあるから私たちは大丈夫よ！ 大事な家族と自分を優先に、好きな時にKZreadに動画を投稿してね

Oh my gosh, I was just thinking about you the other day and hoping all was going well. I'm so sorry for your loss, but you owe no one an explanation. You went through something most people try to forget, and yet here you are doing your best to move forward. Making this video was a huge hurtle for you, and I, like probably a lot of viewers, are proud of you for taking this leap. You did something I don't think I could ever do. I'm so happy for you and your progress, and I hope this brings you some comfort. Please continue doing what you do best. Being an awesome mother and making great KZread content! Love you lots! ❤️

I can’t imagine how hard this must have been for you, but thank you for sharing it. I know many people don’t know what Trisomy 13 is, and many have gone through grief but felt so alone. Your video helps many people know they’re not alone in what they felt and are feeling.

Oh no I'm so sorry that happened! I started crying with you when you said it but please don't feel bad. Just let us support you and know that your story could help others in ways you might not know. You're right, grief is weird sometimes and it sounds like you also needed to do this for yourself in order to move on. Congratulations on your 2nd daughter and I'm glad your family can be happy again despite working through this horrible situation.

Thank you for sharing this with us. It was incredibly generous of you, and I hope it in some way helps lighten that burden for you going forward. I'm so sorry for your loss. 💔

The way you speak about your experience says a lot about you as a person, full of respect and dignity. I have no idea what you just went and still are going through but I was touched by your video. Sending loads of love.

ミカエラがシェアしてくれる事で少しでもやりたいことがもっとやれるようになったり、心が癒されたり進んでいけるなら、ポジティブなことだけじゃなくてもいいし、視聴者のみんなはコメントで心はそばにいるよと伝えられるし愛を送れるからね。 ミカエラとミカエラの周りの人が心穏やかにいられるように祈ってます。 きっと何年経っても悲しい、涙が出ることは変わらないと思うけどそれでも良いし、泣いてもいいし、笑ってもいいからね。LOVEよ❤ I will send all my love to you!

Thanks for sharing Micaela. Sorry to hear about your loss. Hope things get better for you from here, looking forward to your videos!

So sorry for your loss and the burden you've been carrying. You are amazingly strong to hold this for so long, and even stronger now being able to share with us on the other side of the camera. You do what you have to for you, your daughter, and your husband! We're here when you want to and are able to take us along. Do what you love and what you're passionate about, and focus on your family and your second daughter. We will always support!

Glad to see you back. Sending all the health and healing to your lovely family.

Thank you for sharing. I’ve been following you on Instagram and you are so strong to share this. Never feel like you owe anyone anything but thank you and welcome back to KZread.

I felt so close to you when you shared your heart. It takes a brave heart to share your inner feelings like this. I’m sorry here about your loss. It’s good that you shared and I hope it helped you to get heal little bit. ❤

I have followed you for years, through the happy and sad times. I really appreciate the tender delicacy you handled this with and I hope that you can find peace and joy going forward and heal.

My best friend just gave birth on February 14th and had an extremely difficult labor. She was in active labor for over 72 hours and her baby was minutes away from being stillborn, as she was born not breathing and there was blood clot in the umbilical cord that almost killed the baby. They’ve had a very rough few days, and my friend is still dealing with health issues, but both are alive and healthy and I am BEYOND thankful for that. From my own 3rd person perspective, the experience was terrifying and it could have ended with the baby not making it. With that said, I could never comprehend the amount of grief you’ve endured and you are so brave for sharing this story. I’ve followed your channel for about ten years now and I’m so happy your life is in a good place now ❤

@SarahLynn__

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You're a good friend, she's lucky to have you.

Thank you for the update Micaela, I’ve been following you since forever and I always admired and loved how you’ve always been so genuine and sweet to your community. I admire you for being so brave after all you’ve been through and I’m really happy to hear you’re ready to get back to your passions and content creating!! PS, after about 10 years of following you and some other blogger from japan, i officially started learning Japanese. I don’t know exactly why I’m telling you this, but i think there’s a pretty big chance that you have been part of what made that interest bloom in me, so… thank you!!! ❤️

It's so good to see you again, but I'm so sorry to hear you've been facing these challenging times. Hope you're ok and wishing you all the best!

I'm so proud of you for doing what's best for you and being so brave about posting this video and even though it's hard, it was necessary for you to move forward. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us. Your video not only helps you, but helps so many other people in not feeling alone. We're all sending lots of love your way 💕

It takes a lot of bravery to share your story like that. I am sure it will help a lot of people who also have been struggling over the past couple of years. I hope it helps you move forward, and am glad that you are starting to feel normal again. I really loved your content, so looking forward to seeing much more!

Oh honey, I am so sorry for what you went through. All the loss and pain. I can't imagine... Thank you for sharing your story.

This is such a sad and beautiful update. I can't even imagine the heartache and emotional toll. Sending love to you and your family.

So glad that you are feeling you can again make the travelog videos you have been so good at doing. You partner and you are both brave to even begin to deal with the life issues here. So glad for your second child and the goodness that brought into your lives. Look forward to future videos.

Youre super brave for being this vulnerable. Youre helping others feel not alone. Youre also in new territory that noone can judge. Thank you.

My deepest condolences. This is so sad! Beyond words. The ray of light is that you can see your wonderful second daughter grow up every day. You are so strong!! Thank you for sharing your story.

I'm sorry to hear about the last few years, thank you for sharing. I hope the next chapter in your life brings you and your family joy and happiness x

Never once did your story seem exploitative… We don’t talk about grief enough. When you share your story, you’re also keeping her memory alive. We love you, and both of your girls have the best mother ♥️

This is the first video I've ever seen of you and I just can't imagine what you've been going through. Life is such a rollercoaster sometimes. Hope you and your family are doing well.

Seeing an upload from you made me smile! I am sorry you had to go through such tragedy. You are building a life with your new beautiful family, and hopefully things will just keep improving from here. Sometimes you can't move on unless you outwardly express trauma. I look forward to your future content.

I just came across this video and your channel. Michaela, I just want to say I’m truly sorry for all the pain you have gone through. I’m truly sorry for your loss. Stay strong, and it’s okay to lean and get support from your friends, family and even your subscribers. This is your space, and take the time to heal in the way you feel most comfortable, and cherish moments with your daughter, loved ones, and remember to cherish yourself too.

I have no words. I'm so sorry for you and your boyfriend (or husband). I wish you all the best and take your time to heal as much as needed. Thank you for sharing this story, it's so important for other families to know that this terrible thing is getting more awareness. Feel hugged from far away.

辛いことを打ち明けてくれて本当にありがとうございます。きっとあなたの動画を待っていたんだと思います。今後の動画投稿を、今までと同じように楽しみに待っています。

I follow you on Twitter and Instagram and saw your story about your 1st daughter and I'm so sorry for your loss. You don't owe us an explanation. Its difficult to share a personal moment such as this. We all deal with grief differently. And some people need to grieve privately until they are ready. And it will always be ok to cry. It's nice to see that your family is doing well. Your second daughter's so adorable! I hope to see more videos from you if and when you feel you're ready to come back. I miss your channel.

Been following you for years Micaela You are very brave to share this experience Please take your time to slow down and sending you all the love from my whole family 💘💘

ミカエラさんおかえりなさい！ ミカエラさんのペースで、また素敵な動画を楽しみにしていますね✨

This was a really human and open and honest video and I'm grateful for you sharing it - it was very brave! I think a lot of people go through this but it never really gets spoken of - sorry you had to go through it all. I think your videos are great and I would love to come to Fukuoka someday.

I've been following you on instagram but it was great to see a video of you again. Always great to hear from you! I've been watching you since 2013, and it's always a pleasure.

Sending you so much love right now. Thank you for being brave enough to share your story 💖💖💖

I have no words except, you are a wonderful human who has enriched so many lives. I am so sorry.

おかえりなさい。辛い経験をシェアしてくれてありがとうございます。これからも応援しています。

We miss you! Thanks for sharing with us. Best wishes to you and your family💕

I’m so sorry you and your partner went through this. You don’t owe anyone anything and it’s not exploitive whatsoever to share something that has impacted your lives so deeply. ❤

Oh, Micaela. I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing with us. Been watching your videos for longer than I can remember.

It's very sad to come across a beautiful channel like yours this way but I'm glad I found it. And I'm so sorry this happened to you. Wish you all the joy and please take your time to heal. ❤️

have missed seeing you pop up on my feeds and I'm so sorry you had to endure so much. Glad to see you again and I think you're very strong getting through all that.

Please don’t have any negative feelings about this. You handled this sad situation with grace and I am in awe of your resilience. Please know that we are rooting for you to heal and are looking forward to your content in the future. You NEVER have to feel ashamed about taking a break when you need it. Sending love to you and your family, especially your sweet angel in heaven ❤

Thank you for being so brave. Welcome back. I'm sorry for your pain, I'm happy for your joy. Be kind to yourself.

I’m sorry for your loss, I understand what you went through and hope you and your family have better days from now on

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how painful this must be. 🥺

I am happy to see that you are growing and healing. I follow you on Twitter and seeing your ups and downs as you healed, just seeing that you were still going brought a smile to my face. I've enjoyed your content for years, and even if you had decided not to come back to youtube, I wished the best for you and your family. You are strong, you are doing your best, and keep going.

Wishing you all the best. This must have been incredibly hard to make it you’ve been unbelievably brave. You’re videos always brought me an immense amount of joy and I’m wishing you all the best in the future.

I think its good that you open up about this. This is one of the most horrible things a human experience and it happens to so many people. No one speaks about it and everyone feels left alone in their pain. I personally have many couples around me that went thru this. I hope your daughter helps you heal these wounds and you guys have a long happy life . 💗

I am so sorry Micaela. Thank you for sharing this with us. Try not to worry about how much information is too much or too little for anyone but only for yourself. You are still healing and mourning. Do it on your own terms and no one else's.

Welcome back Micaela. You will always be loved and I'm glad you're talking about this. Talking is a part of healing and moving forward. I watched this unfold on Instagram and it broke my heart. Love from longtime watcher and fan ❤️ Will be visiting Japan in May so looking forward to new content for some inspiration ❤️❤️

おかえりなさい！

I understand that you had many challenges but it really does sound as though you took time understand things and now you are ready for the next steps. So don't feel guilty for sharing. Thanks for coming back - I had been wondering where you were.

You have my love, Micaela. You have all of my love. Healing isn't linear and you owe nothing to anyone. I'm so proud of you for pushing past your anxiety and coming back to this space. I'm so glad you're ready to go on adventures again and your life has a perfect little bright spot in it. And she is. She's perfect. ❤️ I just want you to know, I look forward to sharing your joy with you.

I can't imagine your pain. Thank you for your strength in sharing this story, as it could help others who have gone through the same to know they're not alone. ❤ Sending you all the love and hugs and future healing ❤

I, for one, will be celebrating this video, for it means you are making important progress in your recovery! ❤

It sounds incredibly, incredibly difficult what you went, and are continually to go through. Though tough, it sounds like you are processing the events and slowly but surely, able to have hope and enjoy things in life again. Sometimes you will be thrown back into the sadness, but I have no doubt you will be able to come back out of it again. I think you're doing an amazing job of continually to honour your first daughter whilst also honouring yourself and your other immediate family members. You're an inspiration, Micaela. Don't forget to be kind to yourself and take all the time you need. Your audience will always be here even if you decide to take a 10yr break! That's the beauty of the subscribe and notification system!! Sending much love ❤️

I'm so sorry for your loss! You've been through a lot. I'm on the one hand sad for you for the pain, but also happy for you that you have another child and you're quite strong. Please don't feel that you're burdening us or owing is anything. Thank you for sharing your struggle and feelings and I wish you the best in the future. If you have the time and the energy for making videos we would be thankful for them. Please do what you feel is the best for you!

Thank you for sharing your story. Being open about her syndrome and all you went through will help other families Micaela! 💙

I am so sorry ❤ that is so heartbreaking, no one should have to go through such traumatic experience. Good to hear your second daughter is doing well ❤

Hey. It's so wonderful to hear from you. Thank you so much. I feel you owe us nothing so I am grateful and respect your decision to do so. I look forward to your new adventures. Congratulations on becoming a bigger family. I cannot imagine what a roller coaster the last 2 years has been for you. I'm happy you're moving forward and being the best version of yourself. Again, thank you so much.

Thank you for sharing your story Micaela, very brave of you and must have been so hard ❤ So sorry for your loss. Don't feel bad about sharing. You have the right to share whatever you want and how you share it, as long as it helps you 💕 A big hug and lots of support from me

Dear Micaela, thank you for opening up to us and sharing your daughter's story. I am so sorry for what you had to go through and I can only try to imagine how you must have felt during that time. I thought of you often and wondered if you would make videos again in the future. You were always one of my favorite KZreadrs and I always admired you for your authenticity and honesty - something that is in short supply on social media. Of course, I always liked the content of your videos too. But most of all, I loved your personality. So I'm really excited that you'll be making videos again in the future. Thanks again for this video.

I knew what was coming because I followed your journey on Instagram as well and it still broke my heart again and I'm still so sorry you had to go through this. I hope you, your husband and your baby daugther have a happy life and her big sister watches over you everyday ❤

Thank you for finding the courage to sit down and create this video. Thank you for sharing your story. It is okay to feel overwhelmed and cry on camera. Nobody will ever understand how hard this was for you, but I was truly happy when I found out that you were pregnant again and this time your daughter is healthy and growing

Hello Micaela. You don't know me, but 3 years ago when I was first taking an interest in learning Japanese and going to Japan (especially Fukouka!) I found your channel. Now 3 years later I am an English teacher and fluent in Japanese. You had a profound impact on me, and many others, so thank you for that. To see such tragedy befall you truly breaks my heart and I found myself crying during this video. I don't mean to make this about myself, but I just wanted to express that people care about you, and no one judges you for taking time for yourself and being frank about what happened, there is nothing exploitive about it, it shows respect. Your daughter is safe in God's memory. You are very brave, and I send you nothing but good wishes from here on. どうもありがとうございました ❣

Thank you for sharing your story with us ❤ You really didn't owe anyone anything, but if this step felt necessary for you to heal then please never apologize.

I'm glad you're back in making videos again. thank you. Be who you are. I want to be your fan forever.

You're so strong to share your story! I was happy to see you on Tokyo Creative recently too and looking forward to new content from you! Take care!😄

I am so sorry you had to experience a loss like that, my heart goes out to you and your partner ❤️ I am happy to hear you had another and I wish all of you the best moving forward

It's heartbreaking. I even can't image how hard times you went through😿 WELCOME BACK💛

My condolences. Thank you for sharing this. Your strength is inspiring.

So sorry for your loss! 😢 thank you for sharing, and never be afraid to feel and be honest , as this is your channel ❤‍🩹. Sending you a warm hug, and wishing you strength and happiness for 2023 and the future, lots of joy with your beautiful little girl.