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@geraldsmithjr26252 күн бұрын
I’m having such a hard time getting SSI for seizures in New York. They’re saying it’s not a disability.
@lesferrelle92046 күн бұрын
Wao… this video made me feel understood and listened. You seem to be a great and empathic person.
@pringals4206 күн бұрын
What got me hooked was how insanely painful and uncomfortable the withdrawals of not having it was. Pretty hard to stop when you feel like your dying without it. Its hard but if your dedicated you can do it.
@BL00DYME557 күн бұрын
All these comparisons (warm bath, cold drink, etc.) are just poor attempts at trying to explain to non-users what it feels like. In reality none of these examples come even close to what you actually feel. There really isn't an easy way to explain it in words. It's like somebody turns off the depression/stress switch in your brain, and suddenly the world is so peaceful and beautiful. You could be stuck outside soaking wet in the rain in freezing winter weather with no shelter or food, but none of this bothers you. In fact the rain feels really nice and peaceful, the cold air just feels like a fresh summer night breeze, you absolutely dont care about food, hunger isn't even a concept you understand right now, you're just staring at the clear night sky and you understand how beautiful life really is. You're the most chill and carefree person in the world. Having said that, this high is just borrowing the happiness and euphoria from your future self. In 12-18 hours you will have to pay all that happiness back tenfold. The withdrawal is truly horrible, both physical and emotional/mental pain. All your muscles and bones ache, you get constant pins and needles all over your skin, you get constant stomach cramps and you run to the toilet every hour, you dont have the strength to even stand up, but you also can never get comfortable so you twist and turn in bed non-stop, you're covered in sweat, but you're also shaking from cold, but now you're too hot, now you're too cold again, I'm so tired I want to sleep, but the light is too bright and it's giving me a headache, and the constant intrusive suey-cy-dal thoughts just wont stop, I just need one more hit and then I'll stop I promise just anything to stopthispainPLEASESOMEBODYHELP!!!... That's kinda how it feels. EDIT: There is a whole other aspect to the addiciton. Like, losing interest in everything else in life, all your hobbies, interests, friends, relationships, career, everything becomes pointless, and the only thing you're looking forward to is the next dose. That's when all the problems start piling up - missed rent, debts, health issues, friends and family leaving you. You may not care about any of it in the moment, but eventually when you come back to reality (and you WILL have to come back to reality), all these problems will be there waiting for you. So if you ever think "I wont get addicted, I'm stronger that the others" - no you're not. Everyone thinks that, and everyone falls into the same trap. This is coming from an ex-addict of 6 years (now 8 years sober). Don't do drugs.
@Normalinda-n6y8 күн бұрын
I have it be careful and safe 👼
@saragriselda56689 күн бұрын
I wish there was hope for seizures I feel my life is taken away because of seizures
@dawnsokolik78379 күн бұрын
MJS Thanks for sharing your story , just had diagnosis . It's scary , praying for you and others.
@Bee-Kind-Baker10 күн бұрын
Aptiom really helped my son.
@mathewhamilton961010 күн бұрын
i wasnt diagnosed with a seizure but the first time i had one was when i binge drank and that was like 2 weeks straight i remember i was watching some youtube videos then i saw this weird bluish dot pop up and was like what the hell am i losing eyesight and i closed my eyes didnt go away and then i rememeber it just kept forcing me to look left and then i remember just blacking out and when i came to i remember reading years ago to drink a lot of water especially when drinking and my dumbass did not do that but now i drink in moderation and have never had a seizure ever since but i really feel bad for those that deal with this on a regular basis
@mathewhamilton961010 күн бұрын
i had two more down the road before i really cut back seizures are fucking scary
@slopez168810 күн бұрын
My son is autistic no verbal and started having seizures at 21 Now i understands More . God bless us all.
@suzanneladue582810 күн бұрын
I begged juvenile probation officer s and cops to "allow" me to drug test my daughter. She called cops on me for reading her FB messenger as a minor. Kids now have more rights than parents. Laws are against us. I even had her in therapy and on juvenile probation and they refused to even u a drug test her. Stay praying 🙏 and thanking God in advance. Praying is parents only true weapon now.
@martymcfly584211 күн бұрын
There's no such thing as 'nearly died'. Either you did or you didn't. Died is past tense. Saying I came close to dying makes more sense.
@ssebuufumarvin13 күн бұрын
There's a cure brother and the lord Jesus Christ heals it I have seen him heal people who have it and now they are well and normal Isaiah 53:4
@georgegriffith726318 күн бұрын
Getting high is fine ! Just don’t make it a life style and don’t do anything that controls you !
@nfdisco348418 күн бұрын
I'll try when I'm 87 to see what it feels like..
@justinbowen118320 күн бұрын
The best way i can describe the feeling of withdrawal is yoyr entitr body is hurting as if yoy have the flu, you feel like you have restless legs syndrome as in your legs feel like they're being poked prodded and you HAVE to get up and walk around to get relief. I went nearly a week without getting any real sleep. If it wasnt for the fact that i had been used to it due to military service i probably would have killed myself. Due to lack of sleep injuries werent healing, i was hallucinating, i was in an extremely pissy mood because i was exhausted. It was just overall a bad situation. If you think your a strong willed person and that you can fight it, your wrong. I despised Army basic training and would rather go through that 10 week hell than go through withdrawal symptoms. For anyone wanting to use, hit me up we can talk about it ill be honest and straight forward with you on it. Now i am a network server supervisor and have been clean for 10+ years. I ended up getting help via the VA.
@RobertWWD20 күн бұрын
I was diagnosed with Epilepsy when I was 2. I had Brain Tumor surgically removed when I was 8. 24 years Seizure free.
@donia2025221 күн бұрын
I used to be so self conscious about my accent, but once I realised that there are several millions of others whom have their own accent. So what? As soon as I accepted my accent, I started to have self confidence and being myself without a damn what they thinks! Why? They loved me for it. They know I am secure with who I am.
@saragriselda566822 күн бұрын
Wow proud of you! seizures took over my life I can’t do anything even my memory 😮
@queenc828022 күн бұрын
Extremely sad. I'm a mom of 3 & I was always obsessed with movement. I'm sorry 😢 to her & all the women who experienced this.
@rawnarrative23 күн бұрын
This guy is chill. Good video quality.
@CCave-wj6xy24 күн бұрын
The point is that there IS no describing it. The closest she came was when she said she felt like, "Oh, this is what I've been missing my whole life." after the 1st time she tried it.
@loretamelkumyan871224 күн бұрын
wow. best explanation. I always have a hard time explaining it to others.
@erinnewman148725 күн бұрын
I found out that I had PE back in February of 2021 till this day I still have the blood clots them along because I'm so scared to have the surgery what this man described is exactly what I had when I found out I was in the ICU for a couple days I was in the hospital for 2 weeks doctors was trying to figure out what what the plan and they said if I did not come that day the next day I would have died and that next day was my wedding anniversary so if it wasn't for my husband I would not have been here because I'm very stubborn I'm going to the hospital now I'm just trying to find encouragement just trying to do the surgery because it is so scary of what the are telling me what they're going to do but I need this because what this man was describing on how he had to go places early that's exactly what I have to do
@aneshiaaugustine25 күн бұрын
Idk who this guy is but…. I love you with all my heart🫶🏾
@stuartcollingridge665827 күн бұрын
Hi I was just diagnosed last November and they're still trying to get meds right. Unfortunately my partner has had to witness this and my second time I died 4 times in 8 hours and she had to see me on a crash cart in resuscitation cos I'd died again. Get in touch my brother, I'd love to talk 🙏🙏🙏
@braedendavis8972Ай бұрын
Mine have ramped up over the past few months and now I walk in everywhere and say to myself “man I really hope I don’t have a seizure here”
@user-zx3fu5cv6lАй бұрын
Epilepsy & Driving Just Scares Me, I've Never Been Behind A Wheel For 40 Years, I Believe They You Have To Be Seizure Free For Over A Year In Order To Get You A Drivers License, Still I Wouldn't Take Any Chances.
@user-zx3fu5cv6lАй бұрын
I've Had Epilepsy Since Age 2, The Way I Know I Had A Seizure Is If I'm In My Bed & Don't Recall Laying Down Then Wake Up An Hour Later, Then Ask My Mother If I Had A Seizure & She Says Yes, Wake Up To A Wet Pair Of Pants, Wake Up Feeling Like I'm Not All There, Or In The ER.
@user-zx3fu5cv6lАй бұрын
Or Like The Man Said, I Know I'm Going To Have One, Tell My Mother I Know I'm Having One Come & She Gets My Sister To Sit By My Side, & That's Another Thing, It's Nice To Have 2 Nurses At Home.
@MayramMorales-ug7glАй бұрын
❤God bless im a clinical caseworker I had to stop working as my health has worsened. Surprisingly enough having helped others obtain their benefits I expected no mishap in such a stressful time that has not been the case, it is difficult to communicate my gait has changed and I have to pace myself
@MayramMorales-ug7glАй бұрын
His video gives one a sense of belief & hope
@kaypaton3263Ай бұрын
I just don't understand why they even do it once...???
@carpathiankenАй бұрын
Sometimes people get caught at a weak moment after their GP cuts off their conventional pain relief medication because it's exceeding the time limit that someone should safely be prescribed it. Dealers are more than happy to supply it for a price & aren't interested in cutting you off......ever. The next thing the patient knows is they are fully addicted to the illicit product.
@neciebooyawАй бұрын
I’m on this journey I’m gonna make the best of it
@EliseCarolineexxАй бұрын
I started episodes in 2023 and didn't think anything of it, I just thought I was having déjà vu....I told my therapist and doctors but they didn't recognize my signs....I turned 30 May 5th and had my big seizure on May 18th 2024....I don't even remember it happening, I just woke up in the hospital and it was Monday the 20th and I've never felt so confused, ashamed, embarrassed in my life....I felt so sorry to scare my family the way I did....I know it's not my fault but I also know that someone else with epilepsy will understand what i'm saying....It's a lonely feeling.
@mifeke6149Ай бұрын
It's like a teacher calling a parent and the parent saying "I know my child is dumb."
@justmadeit2Ай бұрын
I’m struggling now with severe depression because of intrusive thoughts and ocd, depression. I’m scared. Not sleeping or eating well and I feel agitated. Having dark thoughts about dying
@sanyuhopeАй бұрын
This pain is something you can never be able to explain to any one, Because it hurts so deep... You can't heal from it... You just learn to live with it.. I know what it feels like to loose a baby... I know what it feels like to go to hospital and come back empty handed.. cyber hugs to all mums going through that...
@adriennea8878Ай бұрын
May I ask how is your memory. I feel like my husband doesn't get?😊
@hannahgerhardt5885Ай бұрын
Thank you for making me not alone ❤
@gcxariaАй бұрын
when this video first came out it was around 2019 i was 14 at the time. in 2020 i was in a bad headspace hanging with the wrong crowd of girls. we were at this one girls house and she asked us if she wanted to try heroin. (keeping in mind this video) i replied in a respectful no- thankfully no peer pressure. the 4 girls had done it and me waiting in the living room waiting for them to be finished. two girls invited me back in the room while the others were nodding off and blacked out and the 2 who invited me in where barely able to talk. a few minutes go by and eventually they all black out so i called 000. the girls went to hospital and 1 passed away. to this day im thankful to have came accross this video and have the strength to say no. thanks to brave sky i didnt die from an overdose. to anyone struggling with peer pressure with any substances keep in mind ITS OKAY TO SAY NO! 🤍
@kayasper6081Ай бұрын
She likes to say like
@soniczforever5470Ай бұрын
I had a few of these. Wearing thick jeans to deal with the risk of falls as im extremely light.
@slasherx6111Ай бұрын
I've been around heroin addicts n there is absolutely nothing about it that made me want to try It made me never want anything to do with it.
@carpathiankenАй бұрын
I tried it not once but twice. All it did was make me vomit violently & feel like I was a breath away from literally dying. How anyone can waste all their money & erase their potential of a good future on such a shithouse substance honestly boggles my mind. It was like torture being under the influence of heroin for me.
@gcoopiminlove1486Ай бұрын
Thank you for making this video ... Im a mom of 14 yo son who is speech delay and epilepsy ... so im more aware on how to explain to my son
@DELATORRE_162 ай бұрын
😇😇😇
@heatherwanamaker79042 ай бұрын
I have seizures and I have no idea when I have them , I do take meds for them. I have had what I call deja vu moments on occasion
@benreviewsit16622 ай бұрын
Has anyone ever had a feeling that they were literally dying with no panic or anxiety symptoms? I drove to the hospital the other day, as I was driving I had an overwhelming feeling that I was dying and it was so real I literally thought it was my end. I got to the hospital and no symptoms of panic or anxiety were there, no issues were found. Only thing was my blood pressure was up and down so really high and really low. They sent me home after 12 hrs with no meds. Am I the only one this has happened to??
@clarabella11992 ай бұрын
Beautiful woman xx thank you for sharing xx
@JB-pk4ck2 ай бұрын
THis is common, I was bullied badly at school then at home when i acquired a toxic step family ,I was consumed with a need to recoup the power that was being take from me. I took it out on two friends, one in particular. I hate to think i was responsiblle for someone lying in bed at night dreading school the next day. I experienced the same thing. With time i gained wisdom and learned about doing unto others as you would have them do to you. I did my best to make amends. The people who made my life hell never made amends and that;s fine. i resolved it in my own head. THis was four decades ago. I think today perspective has been lost. THe slightest bit of teasing is bullying.
@jillianmaguire13722 ай бұрын
I lost my beautiful 30 year old son 3 days ago from MPNST caused from NF which he was born with. He started chemo last May Radiation in December and The 5th March rushed him to the ER as he was having trouble breathing. He was told he was terminal 2 weeks later but still he wouldn’t give up, I had the pleasure of having my Son home with me for 2 weeks before the pain was unbearable and I couldn’t manage it with oral medicine. My baby died in my arms Wednesday night fighting until his last breath as the tumour was all over his lungs and his heart rate had been over 145 for weeks. I am trying to get the noise the eyes pleading with me to make it better out of my head, forever broken. I want my baby back.
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How are you taking care of yourself? I’m happy to hear your story
I’m having such a hard time getting SSI for seizures in New York. They’re saying it’s not a disability.
Wao… this video made me feel understood and listened. You seem to be a great and empathic person.
What got me hooked was how insanely painful and uncomfortable the withdrawals of not having it was. Pretty hard to stop when you feel like your dying without it. Its hard but if your dedicated you can do it.
All these comparisons (warm bath, cold drink, etc.) are just poor attempts at trying to explain to non-users what it feels like. In reality none of these examples come even close to what you actually feel. There really isn't an easy way to explain it in words. It's like somebody turns off the depression/stress switch in your brain, and suddenly the world is so peaceful and beautiful. You could be stuck outside soaking wet in the rain in freezing winter weather with no shelter or food, but none of this bothers you. In fact the rain feels really nice and peaceful, the cold air just feels like a fresh summer night breeze, you absolutely dont care about food, hunger isn't even a concept you understand right now, you're just staring at the clear night sky and you understand how beautiful life really is. You're the most chill and carefree person in the world. Having said that, this high is just borrowing the happiness and euphoria from your future self. In 12-18 hours you will have to pay all that happiness back tenfold. The withdrawal is truly horrible, both physical and emotional/mental pain. All your muscles and bones ache, you get constant pins and needles all over your skin, you get constant stomach cramps and you run to the toilet every hour, you dont have the strength to even stand up, but you also can never get comfortable so you twist and turn in bed non-stop, you're covered in sweat, but you're also shaking from cold, but now you're too hot, now you're too cold again, I'm so tired I want to sleep, but the light is too bright and it's giving me a headache, and the constant intrusive suey-cy-dal thoughts just wont stop, I just need one more hit and then I'll stop I promise just anything to stopthispainPLEASESOMEBODYHELP!!!... That's kinda how it feels. EDIT: There is a whole other aspect to the addiciton. Like, losing interest in everything else in life, all your hobbies, interests, friends, relationships, career, everything becomes pointless, and the only thing you're looking forward to is the next dose. That's when all the problems start piling up - missed rent, debts, health issues, friends and family leaving you. You may not care about any of it in the moment, but eventually when you come back to reality (and you WILL have to come back to reality), all these problems will be there waiting for you. So if you ever think "I wont get addicted, I'm stronger that the others" - no you're not. Everyone thinks that, and everyone falls into the same trap. This is coming from an ex-addict of 6 years (now 8 years sober). Don't do drugs.
I have it be careful and safe 👼
I wish there was hope for seizures I feel my life is taken away because of seizures
MJS Thanks for sharing your story , just had diagnosis . It's scary , praying for you and others.
Aptiom really helped my son.
i wasnt diagnosed with a seizure but the first time i had one was when i binge drank and that was like 2 weeks straight i remember i was watching some youtube videos then i saw this weird bluish dot pop up and was like what the hell am i losing eyesight and i closed my eyes didnt go away and then i rememeber it just kept forcing me to look left and then i remember just blacking out and when i came to i remember reading years ago to drink a lot of water especially when drinking and my dumbass did not do that but now i drink in moderation and have never had a seizure ever since but i really feel bad for those that deal with this on a regular basis
i had two more down the road before i really cut back seizures are fucking scary
My son is autistic no verbal and started having seizures at 21 Now i understands More . God bless us all.
I begged juvenile probation officer s and cops to "allow" me to drug test my daughter. She called cops on me for reading her FB messenger as a minor. Kids now have more rights than parents. Laws are against us. I even had her in therapy and on juvenile probation and they refused to even u a drug test her. Stay praying 🙏 and thanking God in advance. Praying is parents only true weapon now.
There's no such thing as 'nearly died'. Either you did or you didn't. Died is past tense. Saying I came close to dying makes more sense.
There's a cure brother and the lord Jesus Christ heals it I have seen him heal people who have it and now they are well and normal Isaiah 53:4
Getting high is fine ! Just don’t make it a life style and don’t do anything that controls you !
I'll try when I'm 87 to see what it feels like..
The best way i can describe the feeling of withdrawal is yoyr entitr body is hurting as if yoy have the flu, you feel like you have restless legs syndrome as in your legs feel like they're being poked prodded and you HAVE to get up and walk around to get relief. I went nearly a week without getting any real sleep. If it wasnt for the fact that i had been used to it due to military service i probably would have killed myself. Due to lack of sleep injuries werent healing, i was hallucinating, i was in an extremely pissy mood because i was exhausted. It was just overall a bad situation. If you think your a strong willed person and that you can fight it, your wrong. I despised Army basic training and would rather go through that 10 week hell than go through withdrawal symptoms. For anyone wanting to use, hit me up we can talk about it ill be honest and straight forward with you on it. Now i am a network server supervisor and have been clean for 10+ years. I ended up getting help via the VA.
I was diagnosed with Epilepsy when I was 2. I had Brain Tumor surgically removed when I was 8. 24 years Seizure free.
I used to be so self conscious about my accent, but once I realised that there are several millions of others whom have their own accent. So what? As soon as I accepted my accent, I started to have self confidence and being myself without a damn what they thinks! Why? They loved me for it. They know I am secure with who I am.
Wow proud of you! seizures took over my life I can’t do anything even my memory 😮
Extremely sad. I'm a mom of 3 & I was always obsessed with movement. I'm sorry 😢 to her & all the women who experienced this.
This guy is chill. Good video quality.
The point is that there IS no describing it. The closest she came was when she said she felt like, "Oh, this is what I've been missing my whole life." after the 1st time she tried it.
wow. best explanation. I always have a hard time explaining it to others.
I found out that I had PE back in February of 2021 till this day I still have the blood clots them along because I'm so scared to have the surgery what this man described is exactly what I had when I found out I was in the ICU for a couple days I was in the hospital for 2 weeks doctors was trying to figure out what what the plan and they said if I did not come that day the next day I would have died and that next day was my wedding anniversary so if it wasn't for my husband I would not have been here because I'm very stubborn I'm going to the hospital now I'm just trying to find encouragement just trying to do the surgery because it is so scary of what the are telling me what they're going to do but I need this because what this man was describing on how he had to go places early that's exactly what I have to do
Idk who this guy is but…. I love you with all my heart🫶🏾
Hi I was just diagnosed last November and they're still trying to get meds right. Unfortunately my partner has had to witness this and my second time I died 4 times in 8 hours and she had to see me on a crash cart in resuscitation cos I'd died again. Get in touch my brother, I'd love to talk 🙏🙏🙏
Mine have ramped up over the past few months and now I walk in everywhere and say to myself “man I really hope I don’t have a seizure here”
Epilepsy & Driving Just Scares Me, I've Never Been Behind A Wheel For 40 Years, I Believe They You Have To Be Seizure Free For Over A Year In Order To Get You A Drivers License, Still I Wouldn't Take Any Chances.
I've Had Epilepsy Since Age 2, The Way I Know I Had A Seizure Is If I'm In My Bed & Don't Recall Laying Down Then Wake Up An Hour Later, Then Ask My Mother If I Had A Seizure & She Says Yes, Wake Up To A Wet Pair Of Pants, Wake Up Feeling Like I'm Not All There, Or In The ER.
Or Like The Man Said, I Know I'm Going To Have One, Tell My Mother I Know I'm Having One Come & She Gets My Sister To Sit By My Side, & That's Another Thing, It's Nice To Have 2 Nurses At Home.
❤God bless im a clinical caseworker I had to stop working as my health has worsened. Surprisingly enough having helped others obtain their benefits I expected no mishap in such a stressful time that has not been the case, it is difficult to communicate my gait has changed and I have to pace myself
His video gives one a sense of belief & hope
I just don't understand why they even do it once...???
Sometimes people get caught at a weak moment after their GP cuts off their conventional pain relief medication because it's exceeding the time limit that someone should safely be prescribed it. Dealers are more than happy to supply it for a price & aren't interested in cutting you off......ever. The next thing the patient knows is they are fully addicted to the illicit product.
I’m on this journey I’m gonna make the best of it
I started episodes in 2023 and didn't think anything of it, I just thought I was having déjà vu....I told my therapist and doctors but they didn't recognize my signs....I turned 30 May 5th and had my big seizure on May 18th 2024....I don't even remember it happening, I just woke up in the hospital and it was Monday the 20th and I've never felt so confused, ashamed, embarrassed in my life....I felt so sorry to scare my family the way I did....I know it's not my fault but I also know that someone else with epilepsy will understand what i'm saying....It's a lonely feeling.
It's like a teacher calling a parent and the parent saying "I know my child is dumb."
I’m struggling now with severe depression because of intrusive thoughts and ocd, depression. I’m scared. Not sleeping or eating well and I feel agitated. Having dark thoughts about dying
This pain is something you can never be able to explain to any one, Because it hurts so deep... You can't heal from it... You just learn to live with it.. I know what it feels like to loose a baby... I know what it feels like to go to hospital and come back empty handed.. cyber hugs to all mums going through that...
May I ask how is your memory. I feel like my husband doesn't get?😊
Thank you for making me not alone ❤
when this video first came out it was around 2019 i was 14 at the time. in 2020 i was in a bad headspace hanging with the wrong crowd of girls. we were at this one girls house and she asked us if she wanted to try heroin. (keeping in mind this video) i replied in a respectful no- thankfully no peer pressure. the 4 girls had done it and me waiting in the living room waiting for them to be finished. two girls invited me back in the room while the others were nodding off and blacked out and the 2 who invited me in where barely able to talk. a few minutes go by and eventually they all black out so i called 000. the girls went to hospital and 1 passed away. to this day im thankful to have came accross this video and have the strength to say no. thanks to brave sky i didnt die from an overdose. to anyone struggling with peer pressure with any substances keep in mind ITS OKAY TO SAY NO! 🤍
She likes to say like
I had a few of these. Wearing thick jeans to deal with the risk of falls as im extremely light.
I've been around heroin addicts n there is absolutely nothing about it that made me want to try It made me never want anything to do with it.
I tried it not once but twice. All it did was make me vomit violently & feel like I was a breath away from literally dying. How anyone can waste all their money & erase their potential of a good future on such a shithouse substance honestly boggles my mind. It was like torture being under the influence of heroin for me.
Thank you for making this video ... Im a mom of 14 yo son who is speech delay and epilepsy ... so im more aware on how to explain to my son
😇😇😇
I have seizures and I have no idea when I have them , I do take meds for them. I have had what I call deja vu moments on occasion
Has anyone ever had a feeling that they were literally dying with no panic or anxiety symptoms? I drove to the hospital the other day, as I was driving I had an overwhelming feeling that I was dying and it was so real I literally thought it was my end. I got to the hospital and no symptoms of panic or anxiety were there, no issues were found. Only thing was my blood pressure was up and down so really high and really low. They sent me home after 12 hrs with no meds. Am I the only one this has happened to??
Beautiful woman xx thank you for sharing xx
THis is common, I was bullied badly at school then at home when i acquired a toxic step family ,I was consumed with a need to recoup the power that was being take from me. I took it out on two friends, one in particular. I hate to think i was responsiblle for someone lying in bed at night dreading school the next day. I experienced the same thing. With time i gained wisdom and learned about doing unto others as you would have them do to you. I did my best to make amends. The people who made my life hell never made amends and that;s fine. i resolved it in my own head. THis was four decades ago. I think today perspective has been lost. THe slightest bit of teasing is bullying.
I lost my beautiful 30 year old son 3 days ago from MPNST caused from NF which he was born with. He started chemo last May Radiation in December and The 5th March rushed him to the ER as he was having trouble breathing. He was told he was terminal 2 weeks later but still he wouldn’t give up, I had the pleasure of having my Son home with me for 2 weeks before the pain was unbearable and I couldn’t manage it with oral medicine. My baby died in my arms Wednesday night fighting until his last breath as the tumour was all over his lungs and his heart rate had been over 145 for weeks. I am trying to get the noise the eyes pleading with me to make it better out of my head, forever broken. I want my baby back.