dudes be like : subway sucks my brother in christ, you made the sandwich.
@straingerd3 сағат бұрын
That Max Payne 2 Music is <3
@minervamatues32463 сағат бұрын
As a recovered Addict, 12 years no relapse, I woke up one day after a bad night before of using, I remember the feeling I had mentally. As I opened my eyes that day looking at the top bunk of my bed I felt ready. It's a difficult thing to explain this feeling but the short end was I knew in my heart & brain, I was ready to quit it all & start life over. I haven't reused since that day. I'm not religious. I didn't do a program. I went cold turkey, stuck myself to reality hard & spoke truthfully to myself. When I would try to make an excuse I stopped myself & told myself NO... It took me a month. A month of withdrawls. Learning what my triggers where & how to avoid those. Reminding myself I wanted this. It felt RIGHT. I struggle still here & there. I am completely clean. Didn't have a support system instead I was just brutal & honest to myself because I had that feeling in my heart & mind. I am ready. I wanted to quit. I wanted to stop it. When you hit that point, don't turn it away. Embrace it. Embrace the uncomfortable. Embrace being honest to yourself when you try to make excuses. It's worth it. Its hard. But you can do it.
@FausWeon5 сағат бұрын
Maybe one of the ways she couldve been cured is that the detox chamber was broken, that needed a long time to be fixed by a companion, and for that time, until it was fixed, she could have gone trough therapy alongside the player, it would be a difficult process, but once she can control herself, the detox chamber is fixed, giving her the much needed cure. I feel like it could have been a good way to cure her, fixes the complain you had by a 50/50, still, a machine like this is unrealistic, but i hope making her go trough a therapy for a long time could balance it out. If i was a modder, I would 100% make a mod about it, hell even spend money for her voice actress to do some lines about it. Her story is amazing, and so far its the only reason i want to play fallout 4. If any modder is willing to do it, i wish them the best of luck. Because my ass is never gonna be able to make Cait justice.
@MishaSims5 сағат бұрын
i was a alcoholic for 24 years and been sober for a decade. i went through some serious trauma at 12 which started my addiction into alcohol. what made me stop was i was told that i didn't get my gall bladder removed, i'd die and the doctor asked me if i wanted my youngest two kids see me drink myself to death because that it what i was doing. it was like getting slapped with reality that my youngest were the same age i was when i started drinking and if i died they may start drinking too. so i did it fir my kids and myself. i wanted my kids to see that anyone can heal from addiction and trauma
@justanuff5 сағат бұрын
I was addicted to marijuana for years, don't let people tell you it isn't addictive, people can become addicted to anything psychologically, Anyway I used weed initially as a way to have more fun and to relax my mind (ADHD), but after a while it became an every day occurrence to become high and stay high from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep. I had convinced myself that marijuana was my medicine and that it helped me with the symptoms of my ADHD but really all it did was make me numb to caring about them, and exacerbated the problems I already faced in life such as social anxiety, paranoia, trust issues, laziness, and a lack of faith in others and myself, I was essentially depressed and didn't even know it because I was always numbed from smoking so much and so often. Eventually after a few years of smoking every single day, I started having physical health issues arise from my sedentary lifestyle which was exacerbated from smoking, as well as being very unhappy with how I was doing socially, economically and struggling with the failures of my past and the mistakes I've made, essentially regrets. I started to smoke less and less (which progressed slowly), until I started going days without it, I had a few slips ups now and then and went back to smoking daily, but eventually one night after a few days break I lit up a bong, a few minutes go by and suddenly the vein in my arm starts throbbing uncontrollably after thinking heavily about my regrets and also having paranoid thoughts about my family and few friends that I have left. So I'm sitting there wondering why my vein is throbbing so hard and all of a sudden my vision darkens and I feel extremely light headed and dizzy, like I'm going to pass out (which has never happened before) (and I have never suffered an anxiety attack), I stand up and almost fall over, my vision still going dark and I'm struggling to keep my eyes open while stumbling to get my mothers attention yelling almost incoherently. I started getting paranoid about what was happening as I thought I was having a stroke, I managed to tell my mother that something is really wrong and to call an ambulance. Things calm down for a while but my heart is racing and my arm is still throbbing but not as hard, my heads all fuzzy and I'm finding it hard to concentrate on talking. The paramedics arrive and quickly deduce what most paramedics deduce when told the person has been consuming marijuana, an anxiety attack. I would not hear them out (I used to think anxiety wasn't real) and I thought something was really wrong, I tell them that I know what they think it is but I know within me it HAS to be something urgent or else I wouldn't have called. After debating the paramedics and being recommended that I just stay home under my mother's surveillance, I insist that I be taken to hospital. I'm going to shorten this story as the wall of text I'm currently writing is now becoming apparent to me, basically It was one of the most mortifying/embarrassing nights of my life, I said so many stupid things, I even tried to evangelise the paramedics (I'm a Christian believer) to which one of them laughed and coughed uncontrollably (trying to play off their laughter as coughing) after sitting at the hospital for a couple hours my high started to wear off and I realised how stupid I had become in thinking I was smart and knew better than people who are trained professionals, in all the paranoia and dwelling on my past, on how I was so dependant on marijuana that it was the first thing I did when I woke up and the last thing I did before bed, how it made my sedentary lifestyle worse, how it was used as an excuse to not motivate myself for things, how I used it to "medicate" myself and "fix" my issues with ADHD. I realised I was truly addicted and intentionally lying to myself and numbing the symptoms of ADHD and depression and not addressing them to actually FIX them or at least learn to live with them. I swore off weed, I said to myself I would just smoke what was left and give it up completely. That was nearly 3 years ago. Since then I recently smoked once more again and went on such a mental trip that I realised I hate being high, I hate not being sober, I hate not having clear thoughts, I hate being paranoid. I've decided that I truly don't want to do drugs ever again and to live my life in sobriety, to face my mistakes, to face my social problems, to look forwards and not backwards. Nobody snapped me out of it, nobody could tell me to stop, nobody could offer me advice that I would take, nobody could help me but ME. I had to want the change, and I had to have the willpower to make that change a reality. People that say this and offer this advice are telling the truth, the change starts with YOU. If you really want to stop you will find a way stop, you might not succeed at first, KEEP TRYING, DO NOT GIVE UP ON GIVING UP, you will eventually take that last hit and it WILL be your last and you WILL live a better life because of it. TLDR, Former marijuana addict, beats addiction after years of abuse and using it as a "medicine" and excuse for many things. Now lives in sobriety and appreciates life and has a healthier mindset, wallet, body and outlook on life.
@FausWeon5 сағат бұрын
Letting go of the gold? No problem, the hard part is letting Christine go ...
@mortarion98137 сағат бұрын
Wait is Netenyahu just trying to be Joshua Graham minus the character development 💀
@thatweirdchick6913 сағат бұрын
I love this video, Cait is my favorite follower 💚💚 and your personal anecdotes at the end.... I'm proud of you 💚💚
@johnbradford813217 сағат бұрын
So proud to be a Mormon
@alimplays33422 сағат бұрын
Leon Never seems to dissappoint with his videos. Love all of them.
@balkanharry1755Күн бұрын
The "zombie eating an arm" graffiti may be a parody of the "Kilroy was here" graffiti, that the US soldiers did as kind of a proto-meme on random places throughout the war specifically the European theater.
@alimplays334Күн бұрын
This is amazing explaination of not only the character, lore and real life stuff. Just all rounder amazing video, no matter how many times I watched it.
@infernosgaming8942Күн бұрын
The summary of every interaction with Joshua, Bars.
@crayver-6126Күн бұрын
French + Swedish = German. 15:06
@mrsqu8688Күн бұрын
I don’t care what everyone else says, I loved Dead Money.
@av812bb17 сағат бұрын
Yea i dont know why it gets so much hate the lore is great and the combat is fun.
@itsjustraiderКүн бұрын
absolutely love this video im gonna watch it again
@itsjustraiderКүн бұрын
this is genuinely the best video on youtube- this form of video essay that makes you feel a little uneasy and creeped out but very informative
@itsjustraiderКүн бұрын
dawg this video led me down a rabbit hole of your videos thank you- your content is very random but very good 🎉
@hola_cheloКүн бұрын
damn, first 4 minutes I was about to click off this video. I stayed and now watching the 3rd "talk" you have with her, when she idolizes you and has to tell you something. In all of these "talks" I just wanted to hug her, dude. She 100% needs that.
@urquidiurquidi4332Күн бұрын
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@marcusmiller5443Күн бұрын
Do you KNOW how funny it is, to wake in Sanctuary, with 7 different people telling you personal, bedside wake-up messages? 😂 I keep a harem!
@kazcavКүн бұрын
Ahhh religion, nothing makes people hate each other more than religion.
@lucasrodriguez5505 сағат бұрын
No
@ryoma107Күн бұрын
i suffered from both displaying my scars and also hiding them from certain people and hearing you speak about it so calmly makes me strangely happy that i'm not the only one who fucked up
@tonguepetalsКүн бұрын
REALITY CHECK: 10% of all addicts will ever get permanently clean and sober. The other 90% are a waste of time, effort, money and financial ruin. Walk away. 10% success rate and that is WITH TREATMENT! So tell me how they’re worth saving. They’re not. They’re as useless as borderlines. Because most are. They’re so boring. Nothing interesting about being a junkie. They’re not even interesting characters. Met one junkie, you met them all. The one thing they have in common is that they will do nothing but make you miserable and destroy you financially and just take and take and take and take. Total waste of effort to save.
@oSlyifyКүн бұрын
VP17 was included in re4 original
@TheKing-vy9inКүн бұрын
It's literally the first time that i cry because of some not real storie like man. u made me . Idk how to explain it but i feel i feel really bad for Simon
@whokilledbiggieeКүн бұрын
I stumbled upon Cait my first play through and was pretty impressed with the story. As someone who has dealt with substance abuse problems I definitely related. I also imagined how it would feel to magically no longer feel the need to use any substance. Still waiting for someone to invent that 😂
@Conservative_EastКүн бұрын
Depression and Mental Health is not real. My advise is don't believe it, don't be a pussy, be a man, deal with it your problems. Have some courage and be brave to overcome whatever your problems. Find God.
@gray01216Күн бұрын
Lmao okay buddy, i guess psychologists have all wasted their lives studying it because Conservative East is delusional and prefers sky daddy
@elysion3356Күн бұрын
Honestly as a German it's really interesting that you can see a "Faust" Poster in Samanthas Room because Faust is a big literatur Book here, maybe there is a certain meaning behind it?
@elysion33562 күн бұрын
Finally someone who's pronunciation is actually correct :)
@stoned_kitty2 күн бұрын
Why is Serana in Siera Madre?
@CrashTestCat2 күн бұрын
I struggled with addiction at a point in my life as well. I never crossed paths with Cait in my few playthroughs of Fallout 4, and yet watching your video on her, I feel for this fictional character. That feeling of being alone, feeling like nobody does anything without expecting shit in return, usually outweighing your desire to just want a friend. Nobody deserves to feel worthless, or that they need to buy people's companionship either with money, favors, drugs, or whatever else. Like you said, the substance only makes it worse. But it is not the substance causing the pain, using is a symptom of pain. Anyone who is using to numb pain, know there are people out there who can and will help you. Know there is a way out of your situation without a bullet or overdose. You matter.
@ceilingfan27932 күн бұрын
wait, why's vanoss' credit here? and how it got there?
@NCR_Trooperr2 күн бұрын
pro tip for the 37 gold bars: player.setav carryweight 9999
@user-qr9os7xz8h2 күн бұрын
As a stupid 27 year old who is struggling with depression for years now but has gotten somewhat better. Ask for help anywhere and in any way. People are kinder than you think. For me it was help from my sister with cleaning my depression cave. Stop bed rot. Go to your desk or couch or anywhere but reserve the bed just for sleeping. Try the basics. Food, water, a shower, brushing your teeth or hair and try to meet your biological needs. One step at a time, it can get better.
@NCR_Trooperr2 күн бұрын
left my heart in the sierra madre
@Murasaki_studio2 күн бұрын
Best video ever
@humblethief80662 күн бұрын
AWWWWW THAT ENDING WAS SO CUTEEEEE
@kittydranae17622 күн бұрын
I know this video is old but as a member of the Choctaw and musckogee creek nations, I really people would take Joshua grahams character into the context of indigenous and Native American culture too which is obviously falsely represented through the “white legs” and other names of the groups in Zion, the names of the individuals, the feathers, yet it portrays indigenous people as a foolish stupid savage and unguided or misguided unless guided by a Christian, a longstanding belief and ideology held throughout not only the US but the americas. The people that want to argue that they are not based on native Americans can take one look at the tribes outside of Zion and see that they are most definitely based on indigenous people and there’s a lot to unpack in the context of the colonial Christian savior archetype that is the archetype of really, death and disease within native cultures.
@thebronzemanticore2 күн бұрын
Stupid people, maybe
@andyb22602 күн бұрын
I always love it when people complain about the accents of characters whether Cait in FO4 or Scotty in Star Trek. Tell me what an "Irish" accent sounds like 250 years into the future.
@hotdadonline2 күн бұрын
this was an amazing video that brought cait to my attention more, i havent played FO4 in a few years and now i want to play it again and spend some time with cait
@Lowkeynumb2 күн бұрын
Hey man cry of fear actually helped me with my depression i was depressed for years and i hated everything about myself but the story and how it does with depression just made me realise that its still worth it i havent taken medication even once because if i took anti depressants i always felt like i wasnt myself and stuff but slowly i began to feel better and better i recovered and im just happy that i didn't go through with suicide and all because of this game it literally is life changing one of the best games i ever played if im honest everything was so right about it
@RamnaViaz3 күн бұрын
Since you mentioned Max Payne 3 at the beginning, you are right, that depiction of alcoholism and opiate dependency is like you said, realistic but not relatable, but unlike you said, it does have a little bit of inference in the gameplay; at some points throughout the game you see flashes of light and shaky camerawork, this is supposed to recreate the hyper sensibility to light and the dizziness that comes with a really bad hangover; as a recovering alcoholic myself I can say it is very accurate in portraying the head feeling of being hungover and still half drunk after a days long bender. I only mention it because Max Payne 3 is my favorite action third person shooter ever, that being said, the one thing that does bother me about that game and how it portrays alcohol addiction is the part when Max decides to get sober "cold turkey". That part is completely unrealistic, someone who's been drinking for years can't go cold turkey and keep business as usual, alcohol withdrawal makes you sick like a dog and can be fatal, when I quit drinking I tried cold turkey and ended up in the hospital, and you know what they gave me to keep me from dying? Alcohol; to quit alcohol safely you need to be tapered down progressively over a period of several days. Max would not have been able to jump around, shoot people and be a badass during withdrawal, he would've been on the toilet, shivering uncontrollably and firing out of both ends.
@telephonewyre3 күн бұрын
And just like that, im ride or die for a fo4 companion
@bradc42773 күн бұрын
Damn they got 28 minute video essays of an npc I completely ignored because I’m a loot goblin
@WorldEaterZero3 күн бұрын
Excellent video! even with the extra degeneracy spinkled in here and there lol which is jarring and took me out for a bit but still good
@BeccaTKawaii3 күн бұрын
If this guy made you religious, you're definitely too impressionable.
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dudes be like : subway sucks my brother in christ, you made the sandwich.
That Max Payne 2 Music is <3
As a recovered Addict, 12 years no relapse, I woke up one day after a bad night before of using, I remember the feeling I had mentally. As I opened my eyes that day looking at the top bunk of my bed I felt ready. It's a difficult thing to explain this feeling but the short end was I knew in my heart & brain, I was ready to quit it all & start life over. I haven't reused since that day. I'm not religious. I didn't do a program. I went cold turkey, stuck myself to reality hard & spoke truthfully to myself. When I would try to make an excuse I stopped myself & told myself NO... It took me a month. A month of withdrawls. Learning what my triggers where & how to avoid those. Reminding myself I wanted this. It felt RIGHT. I struggle still here & there. I am completely clean. Didn't have a support system instead I was just brutal & honest to myself because I had that feeling in my heart & mind. I am ready. I wanted to quit. I wanted to stop it. When you hit that point, don't turn it away. Embrace it. Embrace the uncomfortable. Embrace being honest to yourself when you try to make excuses. It's worth it. Its hard. But you can do it.
Maybe one of the ways she couldve been cured is that the detox chamber was broken, that needed a long time to be fixed by a companion, and for that time, until it was fixed, she could have gone trough therapy alongside the player, it would be a difficult process, but once she can control herself, the detox chamber is fixed, giving her the much needed cure. I feel like it could have been a good way to cure her, fixes the complain you had by a 50/50, still, a machine like this is unrealistic, but i hope making her go trough a therapy for a long time could balance it out. If i was a modder, I would 100% make a mod about it, hell even spend money for her voice actress to do some lines about it. Her story is amazing, and so far its the only reason i want to play fallout 4. If any modder is willing to do it, i wish them the best of luck. Because my ass is never gonna be able to make Cait justice.
i was a alcoholic for 24 years and been sober for a decade. i went through some serious trauma at 12 which started my addiction into alcohol. what made me stop was i was told that i didn't get my gall bladder removed, i'd die and the doctor asked me if i wanted my youngest two kids see me drink myself to death because that it what i was doing. it was like getting slapped with reality that my youngest were the same age i was when i started drinking and if i died they may start drinking too. so i did it fir my kids and myself. i wanted my kids to see that anyone can heal from addiction and trauma
I was addicted to marijuana for years, don't let people tell you it isn't addictive, people can become addicted to anything psychologically, Anyway I used weed initially as a way to have more fun and to relax my mind (ADHD), but after a while it became an every day occurrence to become high and stay high from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep. I had convinced myself that marijuana was my medicine and that it helped me with the symptoms of my ADHD but really all it did was make me numb to caring about them, and exacerbated the problems I already faced in life such as social anxiety, paranoia, trust issues, laziness, and a lack of faith in others and myself, I was essentially depressed and didn't even know it because I was always numbed from smoking so much and so often. Eventually after a few years of smoking every single day, I started having physical health issues arise from my sedentary lifestyle which was exacerbated from smoking, as well as being very unhappy with how I was doing socially, economically and struggling with the failures of my past and the mistakes I've made, essentially regrets. I started to smoke less and less (which progressed slowly), until I started going days without it, I had a few slips ups now and then and went back to smoking daily, but eventually one night after a few days break I lit up a bong, a few minutes go by and suddenly the vein in my arm starts throbbing uncontrollably after thinking heavily about my regrets and also having paranoid thoughts about my family and few friends that I have left. So I'm sitting there wondering why my vein is throbbing so hard and all of a sudden my vision darkens and I feel extremely light headed and dizzy, like I'm going to pass out (which has never happened before) (and I have never suffered an anxiety attack), I stand up and almost fall over, my vision still going dark and I'm struggling to keep my eyes open while stumbling to get my mothers attention yelling almost incoherently. I started getting paranoid about what was happening as I thought I was having a stroke, I managed to tell my mother that something is really wrong and to call an ambulance. Things calm down for a while but my heart is racing and my arm is still throbbing but not as hard, my heads all fuzzy and I'm finding it hard to concentrate on talking. The paramedics arrive and quickly deduce what most paramedics deduce when told the person has been consuming marijuana, an anxiety attack. I would not hear them out (I used to think anxiety wasn't real) and I thought something was really wrong, I tell them that I know what they think it is but I know within me it HAS to be something urgent or else I wouldn't have called. After debating the paramedics and being recommended that I just stay home under my mother's surveillance, I insist that I be taken to hospital. I'm going to shorten this story as the wall of text I'm currently writing is now becoming apparent to me, basically It was one of the most mortifying/embarrassing nights of my life, I said so many stupid things, I even tried to evangelise the paramedics (I'm a Christian believer) to which one of them laughed and coughed uncontrollably (trying to play off their laughter as coughing) after sitting at the hospital for a couple hours my high started to wear off and I realised how stupid I had become in thinking I was smart and knew better than people who are trained professionals, in all the paranoia and dwelling on my past, on how I was so dependant on marijuana that it was the first thing I did when I woke up and the last thing I did before bed, how it made my sedentary lifestyle worse, how it was used as an excuse to not motivate myself for things, how I used it to "medicate" myself and "fix" my issues with ADHD. I realised I was truly addicted and intentionally lying to myself and numbing the symptoms of ADHD and depression and not addressing them to actually FIX them or at least learn to live with them. I swore off weed, I said to myself I would just smoke what was left and give it up completely. That was nearly 3 years ago. Since then I recently smoked once more again and went on such a mental trip that I realised I hate being high, I hate not being sober, I hate not having clear thoughts, I hate being paranoid. I've decided that I truly don't want to do drugs ever again and to live my life in sobriety, to face my mistakes, to face my social problems, to look forwards and not backwards. Nobody snapped me out of it, nobody could tell me to stop, nobody could offer me advice that I would take, nobody could help me but ME. I had to want the change, and I had to have the willpower to make that change a reality. People that say this and offer this advice are telling the truth, the change starts with YOU. If you really want to stop you will find a way stop, you might not succeed at first, KEEP TRYING, DO NOT GIVE UP ON GIVING UP, you will eventually take that last hit and it WILL be your last and you WILL live a better life because of it. TLDR, Former marijuana addict, beats addiction after years of abuse and using it as a "medicine" and excuse for many things. Now lives in sobriety and appreciates life and has a healthier mindset, wallet, body and outlook on life.
Letting go of the gold? No problem, the hard part is letting Christine go ...
Wait is Netenyahu just trying to be Joshua Graham minus the character development 💀
I love this video, Cait is my favorite follower 💚💚 and your personal anecdotes at the end.... I'm proud of you 💚💚
So proud to be a Mormon
Leon Never seems to dissappoint with his videos. Love all of them.
The "zombie eating an arm" graffiti may be a parody of the "Kilroy was here" graffiti, that the US soldiers did as kind of a proto-meme on random places throughout the war specifically the European theater.
This is amazing explaination of not only the character, lore and real life stuff. Just all rounder amazing video, no matter how many times I watched it.
The summary of every interaction with Joshua, Bars.
French + Swedish = German. 15:06
I don’t care what everyone else says, I loved Dead Money.
Yea i dont know why it gets so much hate the lore is great and the combat is fun.
absolutely love this video im gonna watch it again
this is genuinely the best video on youtube- this form of video essay that makes you feel a little uneasy and creeped out but very informative
dawg this video led me down a rabbit hole of your videos thank you- your content is very random but very good 🎉
damn, first 4 minutes I was about to click off this video. I stayed and now watching the 3rd "talk" you have with her, when she idolizes you and has to tell you something. In all of these "talks" I just wanted to hug her, dude. She 100% needs that.
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Do you KNOW how funny it is, to wake in Sanctuary, with 7 different people telling you personal, bedside wake-up messages? 😂 I keep a harem!
Ahhh religion, nothing makes people hate each other more than religion.
No
i suffered from both displaying my scars and also hiding them from certain people and hearing you speak about it so calmly makes me strangely happy that i'm not the only one who fucked up
REALITY CHECK: 10% of all addicts will ever get permanently clean and sober. The other 90% are a waste of time, effort, money and financial ruin. Walk away. 10% success rate and that is WITH TREATMENT! So tell me how they’re worth saving. They’re not. They’re as useless as borderlines. Because most are. They’re so boring. Nothing interesting about being a junkie. They’re not even interesting characters. Met one junkie, you met them all. The one thing they have in common is that they will do nothing but make you miserable and destroy you financially and just take and take and take and take. Total waste of effort to save.
VP17 was included in re4 original
It's literally the first time that i cry because of some not real storie like man. u made me . Idk how to explain it but i feel i feel really bad for Simon
I stumbled upon Cait my first play through and was pretty impressed with the story. As someone who has dealt with substance abuse problems I definitely related. I also imagined how it would feel to magically no longer feel the need to use any substance. Still waiting for someone to invent that 😂
Depression and Mental Health is not real. My advise is don't believe it, don't be a pussy, be a man, deal with it your problems. Have some courage and be brave to overcome whatever your problems. Find God.
Lmao okay buddy, i guess psychologists have all wasted their lives studying it because Conservative East is delusional and prefers sky daddy
Honestly as a German it's really interesting that you can see a "Faust" Poster in Samanthas Room because Faust is a big literatur Book here, maybe there is a certain meaning behind it?
Finally someone who's pronunciation is actually correct :)
Why is Serana in Siera Madre?
I struggled with addiction at a point in my life as well. I never crossed paths with Cait in my few playthroughs of Fallout 4, and yet watching your video on her, I feel for this fictional character. That feeling of being alone, feeling like nobody does anything without expecting shit in return, usually outweighing your desire to just want a friend. Nobody deserves to feel worthless, or that they need to buy people's companionship either with money, favors, drugs, or whatever else. Like you said, the substance only makes it worse. But it is not the substance causing the pain, using is a symptom of pain. Anyone who is using to numb pain, know there are people out there who can and will help you. Know there is a way out of your situation without a bullet or overdose. You matter.
wait, why's vanoss' credit here? and how it got there?
pro tip for the 37 gold bars: player.setav carryweight 9999
As a stupid 27 year old who is struggling with depression for years now but has gotten somewhat better. Ask for help anywhere and in any way. People are kinder than you think. For me it was help from my sister with cleaning my depression cave. Stop bed rot. Go to your desk or couch or anywhere but reserve the bed just for sleeping. Try the basics. Food, water, a shower, brushing your teeth or hair and try to meet your biological needs. One step at a time, it can get better.
left my heart in the sierra madre
Best video ever
AWWWWW THAT ENDING WAS SO CUTEEEEE
I know this video is old but as a member of the Choctaw and musckogee creek nations, I really people would take Joshua grahams character into the context of indigenous and Native American culture too which is obviously falsely represented through the “white legs” and other names of the groups in Zion, the names of the individuals, the feathers, yet it portrays indigenous people as a foolish stupid savage and unguided or misguided unless guided by a Christian, a longstanding belief and ideology held throughout not only the US but the americas. The people that want to argue that they are not based on native Americans can take one look at the tribes outside of Zion and see that they are most definitely based on indigenous people and there’s a lot to unpack in the context of the colonial Christian savior archetype that is the archetype of really, death and disease within native cultures.
Stupid people, maybe
I always love it when people complain about the accents of characters whether Cait in FO4 or Scotty in Star Trek. Tell me what an "Irish" accent sounds like 250 years into the future.
this was an amazing video that brought cait to my attention more, i havent played FO4 in a few years and now i want to play it again and spend some time with cait
Hey man cry of fear actually helped me with my depression i was depressed for years and i hated everything about myself but the story and how it does with depression just made me realise that its still worth it i havent taken medication even once because if i took anti depressants i always felt like i wasnt myself and stuff but slowly i began to feel better and better i recovered and im just happy that i didn't go through with suicide and all because of this game it literally is life changing one of the best games i ever played if im honest everything was so right about it
Since you mentioned Max Payne 3 at the beginning, you are right, that depiction of alcoholism and opiate dependency is like you said, realistic but not relatable, but unlike you said, it does have a little bit of inference in the gameplay; at some points throughout the game you see flashes of light and shaky camerawork, this is supposed to recreate the hyper sensibility to light and the dizziness that comes with a really bad hangover; as a recovering alcoholic myself I can say it is very accurate in portraying the head feeling of being hungover and still half drunk after a days long bender. I only mention it because Max Payne 3 is my favorite action third person shooter ever, that being said, the one thing that does bother me about that game and how it portrays alcohol addiction is the part when Max decides to get sober "cold turkey". That part is completely unrealistic, someone who's been drinking for years can't go cold turkey and keep business as usual, alcohol withdrawal makes you sick like a dog and can be fatal, when I quit drinking I tried cold turkey and ended up in the hospital, and you know what they gave me to keep me from dying? Alcohol; to quit alcohol safely you need to be tapered down progressively over a period of several days. Max would not have been able to jump around, shoot people and be a badass during withdrawal, he would've been on the toilet, shivering uncontrollably and firing out of both ends.
And just like that, im ride or die for a fo4 companion
Damn they got 28 minute video essays of an npc I completely ignored because I’m a loot goblin
Excellent video! even with the extra degeneracy spinkled in here and there lol which is jarring and took me out for a bit but still good
If this guy made you religious, you're definitely too impressionable.