Just a dude who has been through some stuff, I share my journey as a recovering alcoholic in hopes of helping others and myself. 💯
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After I quit drinking, I remember it took about half a year for me to feel normal. It took about 2 months for the night shocks, Horrifying dreams, and extreme anxiety/paranoia to subside. My point is, it takes some time to return to a normal physical/mental/emotional/spiritual state. It was absolutely terrifying to me going through those first few weeks/months without alcohol. But overtime, I started to feel a peace, and positive feelings/emotions and it was so awesome, I could feel my body/mind returning to health, like before I started drinking. Glory to God. Edit: I would also like to add, when we're in that scared/anxiety paranoid state, like you mentioned in this video- strange negative things happen, like the guy leaning in your car, or the crazy guy in the ER. It's like the devil is trying everything to make us pick up a bottle and drink. In my experience, these negative moments tend to always compile other negative events, kinda like an avalanche effect. Take care brother, God Bless 🙏
stay away from getting irritated the cousin of anger
Agreed Fred, I’ll try my best man.
Hi, hope things are going.ok with you. Thinking of you. I hope you can post soon. Take care always. 🙏❤ Deb
🙏I’m doing well, hopefully today or tomorrow I Can get a video up!
As a follower of Christ w/a lingering problem- it's ephesians 6:12 stuff. Easy for me to understand. But all the descriptions seem hauntingly similar regardless of beliefs.
@@kirklarson1316 the Bible is speaking the truth, 💯
Only the very lucky stop drinking on the first attempt - it takes time and persistence.
100% man, it’s a journey.
Slayer… I just emailed you bro. I really hope you contact me because I’m here to help. I’ve been exactly where you are and I’ve overcome it and you can too.!!
@@bobmerrifield3371 appreciate this brother, I’ve been meaning to catch up on emails! 🙏
I think you need to make it to an AA meeting…not just tonight but every day for at least 90 days. Tell your story, thereby help yourself and others. And find a sponsor to guide you thru the steps.
@@PeterZ873 probably not a bad idea my friend. 🙏
Bruwwww!! I can see The Creator in you and The Light of God on your face. You are a good man and have good intentions and motives. It's okay to struggle and it's all part of The Journey of being a man. You are a good man. Stop being so hard on yourself!! You're right where your supposed to be and Life is experiencing itself thru you. God is your experience. You are in God!! The Man who love's struggle's is free!!
@@Andy101-tm3hz god bless 🙏🙏thank you brother.
Dirk made me realize that the demonic sh#! Goin' on during withdrawl-wasnt just me!
Dirk went to some dark realms!
@@Slayer-7373 have you done anything on closed eye visuals,? I'm hard-pressed to find much info. "Movies" playing out that don't exist, still reelin' from those eperiences...wow!
@@kirklarson1316 I haven’t but I definitely should. My closed eyes visuals were terrifying.
I’m glad you are learning from ur experiences. That’s why alcohol is called SPIRITS. It takes over ur whole personality. 80% of MURDERS are committed under the influence of alcohol. I used to drink socially but I quit over 20 years ago. My judgment was not great even drinking socially so I just stopped. I thank God. YOU ARE WAY TOO SMART NOT TO RECOVER PERMANENTLY. Glad to have met you here. Don’t apologize for having to cut ur vid short. You have responsibilities to take care of. You’re doing a great job at narrating ur experiences here too. I’m lifting u up in prayer in Jesus name for permanent sobriety for you. May God bless you immensely. See u in ur next video. Have a BLESSED SOBER DAY.
🖤🙏🖤🙏 yes alcohol is demonic, also thank you so much for your comments 🖤
@@Slayer-7373 May God bless u immensely. He loves you.
@@laraoneal7284 🖤🙏
OMG so much all at one time. I’ve had foot injuries but nothing like u experienced. That is horrific. I’m so sorry you went thru that. Ur certainly finding out who ur friends ARE NOT. How is ur foot doing now❓. No surgery I hope.
REJECTION IS GOD’s PROTECTION.
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You dodged a bullet by her leaving you. It’s better to learn this now than marrying her & than finding out who she really is.
Thanks Lara 🖤🙌
Congratulations on ur time sober for now. In ur childhood you were set up for addiction. It kills me how ur parents/family take no responsibility for how they raised you.
You saw those things modeled for you. You had terrible role models it looks like. I’m sorry that u were exposed to adverse experiences.
What was ur childhood like??
I didnt know they said each relapse gets harder. From what ive witnessed though makes sense. However the biology/science/whatever youd call it, i dont understand. Every alcoholic in my family has relapsed at least once. I understand why detox would be necessary if one relapsed and got back to their old habits becoming physically dependent on alcohol again. Seizures, DT's, the whole nine yards. I don't understand how one night of binge drinking would cause the need for detox? Cause at that point one's body isn't dependent on it, right? At the beginning its all mental. After so long is when your body cant function. Obviously my assumption is wrong, but i just dont get that?
Bro your skin looks way improved.
Hey thanks man, 🙏
I hope you will post again when you're able to so we can know how you're doing. You matter to so many of us.. 🙏❤ Please be safe.
@@debbieporter6581 hey Debbie I plan to post tomorrow most likely! I’m back to work tonight so I’m just trying to get through this haha. Hopefully within a couple days I’ll be mostly back to myself. 🙏
@@debbieporter6581 thank you 🙏
I’m a hapa who drinks to cope as well
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Dude, best of luck from the UK. This is a battle. We are really in this together. You will get the sobriety ball rolling, I will as well, it’s hard but we’ll do it. Massive respect to you for documenting your journey. It helps me.x
@@Thelma7361 thank you so much thelma 🖤🙏, we got this. 💪
Take care of yourself, you are worth it!
@@Lololeelee awe thank you, so are you. 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you
Predators are the reason some people drink. Like me
😓I’m very sorry to hear this.
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks 🙏
Losing a dog is absolutely soul crushing. I’m so sorry. Just found your channel. Keep strong.
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Hi, thinking of you. Praying you're doing better. Never give up. You are loved and cared about every day. I hope that can help you in some way when times are hard. 🙏❤
Appreciate this Debbie thank you 🙏🙏🙏
Two sketchy dudes in one night! 😮.
@@popcornboxing369 that’s what you call a two for one popcorn lol.
My mom has been an alcoholic for decades. She's in her mid 60s and technically homeless but sleeping on my couch for the last four years. I've seen her near death many times. She still goes back to drinking. Her alcoholism is an open secret. My warning to you is that if you value yourself for who you are, whatsoever, do not let drinking continue in your life. You will lose anything and everything about yourself. You seem like a smart young man. You can do this! Do not give up! I highly recommend vagus nerve exercises. Search it on KZread. Also reishi mushroom powder. It had an incredible calming effect and is great for the immune system! Blessings on you. 🙏
Hey I’m so sorry to hear about your mom 🖤🙏 , I’ve seen it first hand in my family. I need to learn from these people instead of following in their footstep, but I understand them completely. I am them and it’s hard. One day at a time. I’ll look into those as well, thank you so much 🙏 much love.
dude im so curious man how long are you relapsing? is it like a whole month??
@@Ah__ah__ah__ah. hey brother it’s actually two different relapses, I’ve been sober over a week now. KZread deleted my old shirt about my first relapse for whatever reason!! I’ll try to get it back up so people aren’t confused
Hi Slayer how long did the relapse last? Im very curious best of luck to you!
It was like 5-6 days that time around brother, nonstop day and night.
@@Slayer-7373 wow I’m so curious in 5-6 days you could develope DT I thought it took quite a while longer!
@@Ah__ah__ah__ah. look into the “kindling” affect. Bat country has a good video on it and during this relapse I didn’t have any dt’s. Mine were in the past where I was drinking every single day for years then stopping
@@Ah__ah__ah__ah. I could have slight dt’s off of 5-6 days of drinking though easy depending on how much I drink. It’s that kindling affect
@@Slayer-7373 that is crazy gosh alcohol is such a vile substance and ya know I genuinely believe in. A happy healthy world we’re it’s life is comfortable for the large Majority it would be almost nonexistent if a problem. I truly believe we drink a lot because of the sadistic nature of the human world primiarily the economy
did u ever steal booze?
@@Ah__ah__ah__ah. unfortunately 😓
Relapse is part of the journey!! AA/NA is being more than half honest and doesn't tell it's members that they are eventually going to relapse so when they do relapse they become very hard on themselves and feel guilt and shame. Same as any religion or cult!! And most of the long timers and those who claim to be 20-40+ years sober are lying!! These 'self really righteous' long timers are lying and even if they haven't touched their 'drug of choise' they are using other substances or using legal highs. My mistake was chasing sobriety time instead of living in The Present Moment. It's not about how many days sober you have. Its about being Sober just for this moment!! . Quality of Life over quantity.!! Your a good man and I see it. Your good because your intentions are Pure and it's totally okay to struggle. Struggle is a gift!!
Very interesting. 🤔 also thank you my friend! 🙏🙏
Mate with the symptoms you have and you only need to listen to LD you will end up with cirrhosis and then it's irreversible. Mate you need to see your doctor, get a fibrosis scan etc. You need to see your liver condition otherwise you will end your life early. Speak to LD. Please make the right decision. Best wishes Steve LONDON, UNITED KINGDOM
Will do brother, much love 🙏🖤 I’ll be okay.
Keep going. You deserve happiness and care. Also, I love your hair
Appreciate this Chris, one day at a time brother. 🙏
Had strokes, seizures or heart attacks yet?
No thank god
Hi Just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and praying your feeling bett er. I hope your ultrasound goes well. Please take care of yourself. We care and love you. You mean so much to all of us on here.. 🙏❤
Thank you so much 🖤🙏
Every time you take a drink of alcohol Mr Slayer, you are dancing with the devil because you sir, unfortunately are an alcoholic and you can beat this
100% man, I don’t want to dance with the devil anymore, one day at a time. I got this man 🙏🙏
One day it will be too late , I just lost a friend 34 years old , countless detoxes and relapses , he died alone on the beach , leaving a baby girl and a son behind . He went to the beach I hope in search of peace , but the fact is slayer man it will kill you and you got this brother just learn and move on , alcohol is poison my man
It’s time for me to be done brother, I’m fighting. Haven’t felt the best again today, I ain’t gonna drink tho. 🙏🙏 I’m so sorry about your friend man.
What and where did you drink?
@@arc9812 plan to make an entire video on this !
Lol hahaha such a G move... reverse psychological manipulation. Dude probably walked away so confused... 🤣
He did 😂😂
I had 2 5hr energy shots to get to the gym today. It's like I'm on 1.5 speed, like my YT videos
just take it easy bro-try as much as possible to stay away from stressfull situations...just walk away if you find yourself in such situations. thats the last thing you need right now while your in recovery. you can do this bro-wer all rooting for you.
One day at a time brother
@@Slayer-7373 👍🙌👏👏👏👏👏👏👈👏
God bless you brother just keep fighting ❤
@@mutchdorse7072 🙏 god bless.
Smoking weed is safer than alcohol
@@arc9812 100%
The gum never helped me either. I’m on day 4 of not smoking and using zyns. Smoking for over 20 years. First thing I’ve found that helps.
Keep going strong my friend! And yea it seems to be the only thing that actually helps me and the people I’ve met. 🙏
Good morning Slay! Clever problem solving skills LOL. I hope you’re feeling better today 🙏🏽 Thank you for keeping us updated. Hang in there💪🏽 we’re rooting for you!!! 🖤🖤🖤
@@natsnikkii 🖤the thanks goes to y’all! In this together. 🙏
Just catching up on some of your vids haven’t watched in a while. I’m laying in bed after having surgery in a lot of pain. Every time i watch u i get a really good energy from u and i know you’ll be ok no matter how many times u run into a ruff patch. We are all struggling with addiction and to stay sober and i may not comment to often but i do think about u from time to time and wish the best for u where ever your life takes u ✌️
@@StacyNichole224 hey Stacy thank you so much 🙏🖤, I’m sorry you’re in pain after surgery 😔, I wish you a speedy recovery and also the best to you 🖤
Thank you for the update. Feel better soon. Love and hugs ❤🤗xx
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dude do you have discord
I don’t but I definitely should make one!!! 😓I already had meant to do that!
@@Slayer-7373 im so sick of youtube deleting comments thats why
@@catlolis you can email me if you would like [email protected]
You mentioned during your DT's, the fish in the home decor took on a demonic look; in your altered state you could see it. That's one reason why many people (and I) don't own items with faces in their home. Whether it's dolls, cartoon characters, toys with faces, statues, figurines, animal-themed home decor, etc.
Yes, extremely creepy and eerie, it really felt like there was a spirit behind it staring at me. Could you explain more about that? Why you don’t keep them? You got my attention I’m into to this type of stuff.
@@Slayer-7373 For me personally, I've just come to believe that wherever there is a face/human image/animal image (fictitious or not), there is a spirit/entity/energy in it. So I am VERY careful what I bring into my home nowadays. And for me, that means nothing with a face, or is symbolic of a human or animal. It's just my gut reaction. You are very brave to live your life on camera for the youtube viewers. I'm so glad you are supported by good-hearted people who show you great love and comradery. I believe every human being is an addict to some substance or behavior. Sending you lots of love and happiness. I hope you have an AWESOME life! :0)