I’m grateful that you stopped drinking and are working on your sobriety. You do the work for you. I lost my husband of 36 years in August because of his alcoholism and cirrhosis. I miss him dearly and I wish he was brave like you. He died in my arms. So yes. It is life and death. And the death is UGLY.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

So, so sorry to hear this Cynthia. That is horrible, nobody should ever have to go through that. It’s the sad reality tho of our disease if we can’t get control. It’s number one mission is to take us off this earth and it will if we let it. I pray healing for you my friend, also thank you for the words of encouragement. 🖤🙏🏻 much love.

@615drop

2 ай бұрын

GOD BLESS YOUR 💓 💓 MISS LADY!!✝️

Thanks for the shoutout my brother! You have a heart of gold Slayer! I don't know if you like any country music but there is a song by Garth Brooks called Unanswered Prayers. He prayed to God all the time for this woman but he never got her. Then he found a different woman who turned out to be much better. "Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers." Check it out if you want. You got this dude! (nice explosion in the video btw lol)

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey 👋 man what’s up! Of course man no need to thank me. You’re always showing love, also thank you man. Sober me I’m really not a bad guy, very calm and nice actually. Also brother I will check that song out 🙏🏻 sounds cool. Also i know right lol? Something just blows up randomly. Scared me haha. God bless.

Love ya bud Slayer I have that part in me too.. that subconcious part wakes up at times and just wants me to go away. Idk why but the self hatred part comes up not a lot but that girl wants me gone. It’s scary

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Love ya as well. Also absolutely, I’m the same way. It’s the weirdest thing isn’t it??

@Kristen10-22

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 yeah… I don’t relapse over it & idk how to get any pain meds nor would I touch em ever again. It’s a ball of 50yrs of rage & instead of lashing out I turn it in.

@globalital

2 ай бұрын

Same here bro,brothers are arseholes,

Be well brother. Don’t overthink a stutter step. You always overcome. This time you’ll be stronger. You got this.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Thanks brother, always. I’m definitely shouting you out in my next video man. Much love 💯

So sorry about your brother, that is beyond messed up!! I feel your pain, my older brother who i looked uo to, was a complete asshole to me in Dec 2023, and felt like he threw me away, as you just said. I've been telling my close friend that it felt like its killing me every day. Maybe someday we will have healing conversations dowh the road. Hang in there, you are going to survive this, friend!!!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Very sorry to hear that for you as well :(, definitely sucks but like you said maybe one day down the road right? We never know what the future might hold, possibilities are endless. Thank you 🙏🏻

Sorry to hear what your brother did to you. Thanks for this video and all your others, your experiences are good lessons for me. I'll be here for you as your brother in christ.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey 👋 the thanks goes all to you my friend and the others on this channel that I’ve met. You guys help me just as much as I help you, god bless 🙏🏻🙏🏻

She will do the same thing to your brother, what happened was a fundamental character flaw, their relationship won't last most likely... Anyways, I'm so proud of how much you have overcome so far, I'm also struggling with alcoholism and have been sober for 5 days thankfully, we can do this 💯💯

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I actually believe the same, we can’t be sure but I think one day it will completely crumble and rightfully so. Most likely once I’m actually sober and stay sober this will happen, I’ve had this inner feeling about it, of course if it doesn’t that’s okay as well, we keep moving forward. Also congratulations on the 5 days!!! That’s huge, we are in this together. 🙏🏻 we got this.

Slayer. We all have things....burrs under our saddles. It does hurt. You need to focus on you. Need to focus this current moment. You don't have the past. You have now. You can move forward. You will find peace with time. I will lift you in prayer. Be strong Slayer. Be safe be sober. Take care.....

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

God bless you Jerome, thank you 🙏🏻. In times like these, it’s so important for prayer 🤲

Moving on is hard, no matter what people say. Your brother crossed the line. Try and be strong for YOU bro! Prayers for you.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Absolutely he did, her friends tried painting it out like I was the “mean” one for not wanting this to happen, people are heartless. Sometimes even the people you think you “love”. God bless and thank you for the prayers 🙏🏻

Slayer That’s a horrible thing what your brother did. I’m very very sorry. Sending you lots of Love. I wish there was something more I could do. We All Love You Slayer!!!♥️ You Will Overcome This and you will find someone so much better for you! Hang in There Slay!!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Love ya Cindy, thanks as always. 🙏🏻🖤

@CMoore8539

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 Slayer do you have IG or FB? I’d like to give you my phone number in case you ever need someone to talk to. I really believe in you.💯 I shared this out and I will continue supporting your channel. Just know that you are not alone out there. I’ve been through something equally painful concerning my ex and my sister. It’s painful but you will overcome this.♥️

Similar thing happened to me Slayer, caused me so much rage, anger and resentment - damned nearly destroyed me man - its not easy brother but some how you have to find a way of putting it behind you for you to move on in your sobriety - easier said than done, I know - life is a bitch at times but you just have to hang in my brother - you owe it to yourself for you are a very good person who is helping so many through your channel. Praying for you brother.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Comments like yours brother are what’s making me hang in there, I can’t thank you enough. 🙏🏻 god bless.

@ASIF_M1934

2 ай бұрын

ALWAYS IN YOUR CORNER SLAYER. Draw strength from this community man. So much love out there for you. You got this brother and will be happy and at peace again, just takes time for all clouds run out of rain.

I’m sorry you relapsed brother, I’ve relapsed a few times and it’s all good and you have to comeback stronger until you don’t do it anymore. I had a similar situation with my ex cause she ended up getting pregnant by one of my best friends. Time will help you bro and you need to trust your self and don’t look for happiness on other people just within you. Prayers to you Slayer and try your best to be happy. Much love and keep it up

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey i appreciate that brother, thank you. I’m sorry you had to go through that as well, I know what it’s like my friend it hurts. Like you said time will help, trusting myself and god. I’ll get through this. God bless you man and thank you for the prayers 🙏🏻

Always a big inspiration to me!! I recently relapsed after almost a year; all I have to say is you’ve got this and THANK YOU!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey 👋 man that is awesome of you to say, comments like these inspire me as well. About the relapse, it’s okay brother. As you can see it happens to the best of us 😅. Let’s pick our boots up together and keep pushing forward. One day at a time, 💯🙏🏻

man i understand, i watch your vidoes for inspiration, and thats what you give me, everyday is a new lesson, god bless to all everyone

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Love you man, you’ve been here for a long time. That is very much appreciated, I’ll make sure to shout your name out next video 🙏🏻

@trippyseedsindeedz

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 thank you bro,, im not here for any ego trip, just everyone here seems sound

So he didn’t know any different either. I’m so sorry You deserve someone so much better Slayer! Trust me you’ll get through this Something is waiting for u on the other side of all this

Hey Jersey girl here. So glad to see you looking good! I have relapsed and I never had an answer why. I just did because I wanted to. Just putting it out there. No excuse I just wanted to drink. Wonder if anybody else feels like me❤❤

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Oh absolutely, I’ve had multiple relapses like that. Sometimes there really aren’t any “reasons” except you want to drink. Something catastrophic doesn’t need to happen to lead you into a relapse. Much love jersey girl, take care 🙏🏻

Hey Slayer, I feel the pain this situation has caused you and my friend, I wish I could take that pain away. It’s absolutely devastating how someone so close can betray us but you have to forgive not for them but for YOU. Don’t let this define your life. You’re such a beautiful person Slayer and you deserve to have a great life. Don’t rob yourself from that. You have the right attitude just focus on every min, hour, and day. You will get stronger and you will beat this. I always appreciate your advice, encouragement and it means so much that the comments we leave you are helping. I know you got this and will continue to support you. On a side note, I’ve seen how you’ve cleaned up your language but sometimes only an F bomb can describe how we feel. That’s ok 😂, just be you. You express yourself very well. Ohhh and the boom 💥 scared the shit out of me but it was so awesome to hear you laugh. Well sorry for the long comment…be good to yourself Slayer because you deserve to have a wonderful life. We all deserve it so I’ll continue to stay away from the substance that makes me feel like total crap. It does nothing for any of us. 💜 💜

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Don’t be sorry for the long comment!!! It’s absolutely fine, I love your comments. Just like I love this one. That’s also very beautiful of you to say. Meeting you guys has actually changed my life. To hear I’m helping you and others, I’ve said it before and I mean it. You guys help me just as much!!! And yes 🤣 I really have been trying my best not to curse ever since I’ve gotten back into the Bible, also some people literally get offended if you curse lol. Like you said sometimes you just gotta let it out if it calls for it lol. That explosion was so loud in person, I literally thought a building or something exploded 🤣. I think it was an m80 close by. Anyways, much love micru as always. Thank you my friend 🙏🏻

@Micru866

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373release that pain because they both showed who they really are. Best thing you can do to people that have caused you pain and disappointment is not to put any energy into it. There’s an old saying, two tears in a bucket and F it. The sun rises and sets every day. Today is a new opportunity for a better life. Don’t let anyone take your shine Slayer. Much love for you always Slayer!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@Micru866 I agree, people always eventually show their true colors and nature. Isn’t it weird? When you’ve had these people so close to you, so personal with you and the entire time they were a wolf in sheep’s clothing. I’m not perfect, nobody is. I’ve made PLENTY of mistakes and done some of thee dumbest sh*t while drunk. I wouldn’t have done this I can tell you that much. Much love micru 🖤🙏🏻

@Micru866

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 agree 💯 you, there are some lines you should never cross. This is one of them. You just take back your power because nothing and I mean nothing is worth losing our lives. You will find your way…work in progress. Bdw I forgot to mention your ending on the vid got me hyped up to run a marathon we’re gonna kick this disease in the face. Thanks Slay

Love you too Brother/Son my Friend.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Much love my friend.

Slayer! You are so in touch with your emotions i love that about you. I’m glad you look so much better today. This community is really made up of kind understanding people! Sounds like you got a great plan and you are taking the right steps toward healing ❤️‍🩹. I’m so sorry your own brother did such an awful thing to you!? Wow that’s some betrayal 🤮. I walk with Jesus too and I’m praying for you for healing and forgiveness Slayer, you’re in my thoughts. You are such an incredibly inspiring and strong sweet soul!! I’m excited to watch you rise up and fight this 🎉 Blessings to you on this journey 💪🏻💪🏻🫶🏻❤️‍🩹🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey Mona thanks so much 🙏🏻 your comments are always awesome, I’m really glad I’m feeling better as well. It hasn’t been fun but I really think your guys prayers have lifted me up. I appreciate this comment so much, god bless 🙏🏻

@MonaYY_Rig

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373😊

Living is learning, man. I loved ‘the line’ analogy. Don’t worry about your brother. I have a family member who’s junk too. It’s like a SECOND disease to our alcoholism. We all have our own problems. You can stay strong. Keep talking to your counselor about it though. It will help you. Don’t say, “I don’t wanna talk about it.” Keep talking about it. It can only help. Stay positive. Stay busy. You got this. Appreciate the shout out, sir.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey 👋 thanks as always my friend, also a “second disease” lol that’s such a good way to put it actually. Also I will, you are right. It does help talking about it. Np on the shout-out you’re always in the comments. One day at a time 🙏🏻

I had a feeling your brother was the one. That’s so fucked man. But fuck em we ball. Good to see you bouncing back from this and identifying the shit that caused the relapse. Stay up brother be safe

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

“But f*ck em we ball.” Made me smile haha, thanks brother, i appreciate it. You be safe as well my friend. 💯✌🏻

I know exactly what you mean where everything is going good and can't even understand what draws you to it. A weird self destructive pull i dont know. I am praying for you tonight brother. Please please try meditating. It is the only thing that took away a similar pain for me and helps me stay clean. I highly recommend exploring it.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Absolutely, “a destructive pull” that’s a good way to put it. I appreciate the prayers brother, much love 🙏🏻

You are stronger than you know, thank you for being vulnerable snd dharing your journey! 💪🌞

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey 👋, thank you as well my friend. 🌝

@stepha3003

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 watched your whole video, it's so relatable! You're very personable, articulate, & intelligent! I wish we could see & love ourselves as others do! You are so much greater than any relapse, and you will succeed! Earth needs you here, please don't go anywhere! 🙏

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@stepha3003 🖤this is so awesome of you to say. Thank you.

Praying that this new program works for you! Your channel is a blessing, prayers!❤❤❤

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Thanks so much Angela 🖤🙏🏻

So sorry Slayer..you're brother!... that's brutal! If they don't care about you, then you don't deserve their patronage. Somehow, some way you'll have to forgive them...for your own sake. You will never forget it, but you will gain strength and future ministry. Yes, prayer for now that the enemy of our soul will cease and desist even now. God in your mercy cradle Slayer, and let him move forward. Let him grow and thrive! Father God, in, Jesus's name, We declare Slayer free indeed. Free from drugs, alcohol, resentment, infirmity and send your holy spirit to rise him up....higher than he could imagine! Amen.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Ronsmom, you’ve been an absolute blessing to this channel. You really have, I appreciate those prayers and I’m not just saying that. In times like these, prayer is thee most important thing you can have. Forgot the money and the this and that, it’s prayer and god that you need. God bless my friend 🙏🏻

Slay let me tell you something … You know how you say you just quit and nobody hears or sees you again? I’m that girl in the program, in the rooms notice you aren’t there & wonders daily if your ok, what happened? Is he coming back? Oh God I hope so.. I pray he is ok and will come back. I’m that girl who wonders about the person who left that’s how much of an imprint others leave in my life. Idk why I said that maybe u needed to hear it

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey Kristen I totally understand that, I’ve been on the other side of it as well. It’s very devastating actually because you only want the best for your fellow people struggling with this disease. God bless 🙏🏻

Thanks for the shout out! Made me smile. Were all family here 😊

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

You’re an og of the channel man, thank you! 🙏🏻

Here, all this time I thought it was the girl, and I know that people do get over those heartaches. I know you will find someone better to be with. But to be betrayed by your brother takes it to another level. Still, for your own sake, you have to heal to have the life that is waiting for you. Sending love.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Thank you grace, not only for being such a sweet person but also a friend. Like you said for my own sake i must move on, who knows what the future might hold, the possibilities are endless. Much love right back to You 🖤🙏🏻

I admire your passion, My opinion, its brutal honesty, im like that also , And yes you make so much sense 👏 thats why i applaud you, and we all mess up.its finding that reason and im the same i never know either ? 😢and me im writing this like we are speaking , I went 7 months sober and relapsed but i never knew why . And im the same i try my best but i will never promise i wont again because i honestly dont know x Wish you ,and everyone who understands this illness 🤒 well. And you need support and understanding not criticism, And YOULL NEVER GET THAT FROM ME ,,,EVER XXXX ❤

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey seg 👋🖤, that is so awesome of you to say thank you so much. Trust me I know what you mean, you sit back just asking why?? Why would I do that again, how could I do that again? Yet we did and we do. You’re a very sweet person, most of the sober community/addicts battling this disease are some of the nicest/coolest people I’ve ever met. We really aren’t bad people, just hurt souls. Much love seg, I wish you nothing but the best. Keep me updated!! 🖤🙏🏻

@seg6629

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 awww back at you xx Yes I agree 👍 💯 we just get judged by the ignorant, We don't understand like we want to be in pain right??? Shmmmm But we hurt ourselves, And yes I agree maybe it hurts us so much when we relapse,because we are SO AWARE of the outcome and consequences 💔 It's a illness and my goodness it's tough 😪 So glad I found u and your chanel and I wish everyone the best 👌 👍 Ps my names sarah I live in North wales x lovely to meet you 😊 and you look well peace

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@seg6629 so nice to meet you Sarah!! Thank you so much! Also from north wales?? That is incredible that this community branches out so far. Much love 🖤

That's messed up about your brother, I'm sorry. I'm glad you're doing better, stay strong, stay the course. I believe in you, you got this

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey 👋 brother, thank you man. I’ll get through this, everything happens for a reason. Much love man as always.

Good to see you back bro, the relapses are never worth it, and it takes having a relapse to learn that. I'll have 3 days tonight at 6:30. Love you homie.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey 👋 man i appreciate that, they really never are. They always lead you right back to where they did before. Also congratulations brother!!! That is f%^n incredible. Keep pushing forward, we will keep pushing forward. Love you too dawg 🙏🏻

Thanks again slayer keep up The solid work

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

You’re always showing love Jeff, I appreciate it man more than you know. It’s awesome, you are part of this beautiful community my friend!! Thanks man 🙏🏻

I send you prayers for the situation. Usually after long periods of time people you freaking hate it's like I am over it. Having said that it's your blood brother that's tuff. I wish you better days ahead.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I appreciate that brother. 🙏🏻

Manner I went a while too and it's videos like this and keep me motivated. I'm going to tell my story soon. You got this tho bro!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I appreciate that man thank you, also 100% do tell your story bro. We need to spread as much awareness on this topic as we can. Salute to you my friend! 💯

Yep, I can relate to relationship betrayal. It hurts your soul. Your best revenge is to be happy and live your life as best you can. They seem selfish and deserve each other anyway

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I’m sorry you had to go through that, but in a way I’m glad I’m not alone in this. It does hurt your soul, these people become part of you. Like you said, best revenge is to live our lives, worry about bettering ourselves and let those types of people be. Thanks debrah for the comment 🙏🏻

Alcohol is really bad period. I am going to go for another run of sober and I too crashed after 4 months so keep on keeping on.

I think God has a greater plan for you. Please don't let inner demons take away the life you should be living. It sucks what your brother did, but it takes two so maybe your ex was just as shallow and it's probably better that she's not in your life. Stay strong and God bless you!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

God bless you 🙏🏻🙏🏻 comments like these really help me when I’m feeling low. 😓, it’s one day at a time. We’ve got this!! Thank you.

I was REALLY hesitant to share this story because it requires being vulnerable but f-ck it, here it goes. *Heartbreak is TRULY alcoholism's greatest friend.* I've dreamt about my girl for 9 years now. Literally this morning, i woke up from a PTSD dream, gasping for air as I fantasized a better future. One where we were together. One where I'm not a loner, loser alcoholic who cuts himself and lives in his truck. I then relapsed IMMEDIATELY and went to go drink 20 beers at 9AM. I seem to have the same problem as you Slayer. I can't get over her. She haunts my dreams as she's perfect in every way. But...I blew it. I let my faults *(drugs, drinking, and mental illness)* get the best of me and she is now living the best life she can, as she should. I hold no resentment towards her as she did nothing wrong. But... I curse myself everyday and the bottle that destroyed my life. But no point in thinking about *"what if?"* Only worth it to think, *"what now?"* I don't know the answer to that. Except... for *"don't drink."*

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey brother I’m so sorry I’m just seeing this comment now, the KZread comments act crazy anymore. I can totally relate to everything you said man, the dreams the ptsd that comes with it. Watching her live her best life as I’m struggling each day just not to drink and pick up the pieces. It hurts man, it really hurts. Like you said all we can do is try to move on the best we can. All we have is now to try to create something. I often get those thoughts of she was perfect and I was meant to be with her, I was suppose to be with her. She was suppose to be my wife and like you said I messed up destiny with my alcohol, drugs and mental illness. You’re not alone man, let’s pick this up together and try our best to create the best lives for ourselves NOW. I appreciate and thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this, it helped me knowing I’m not alone. Much love 🙏

@mjwmjw3864

Ай бұрын

​@@Slayer-7373 Which one of the 12 steps involves apologizing to your ex and to your younger sibling? You asked them to carry a burden that they couldn't even lift.

Another easy video to watch. I wanted to say that if you have even a drop of oppositional defiance disorder- AKA distrust of human leaders in an authoritarian position- IOP and group meetings (and anything else that you're not directly getting paid to sit through) are especially difficult to stick with. And I think everyone who is unique and follows their heart in any way has had to question a leader or their government at some point. Even the most submissive of us has that little bit of defiance that makes us human and causes us to want to skip the mundane regime of your standard IOP class. But maybe I think this just because I haven't hit rock bottom, yet. And because I believe in a Leader that's way more powerful than all human agencies combined. God knows about the hardwiring in our brains and will work through those who believe in Him and His Word. We just need to sit back and prayerfully wait to see what He does next in our lives, without looking back and knowing that it's not about our works but all about our faith. Sending love from Ohio.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I really like this comment and view, I also 100% agree. I’ve said it to myself in my brain probably over 100 times when I’m sitting in these meetings and going to these “classes” all I need is god. All I need is to stay in prayer and he will deliver me, because he always does. I always say AA and IOP are good tools for your sobriety tool belt but at the end of the day it’s on you and god to get sober. Much love sent back to you!! God bless 🙏🏻

Oh man, I am so sorry for your hurt, Slayer!! Especially for your broken relationship with your brother. It's hard enough dealing with a hard breakup, especially when cheating is involved.. but your brother being part of that picture is absolutely heart breaking. Your siblings should be the ones you can rely on the most. I pray that you heal from this. I know that you'll already be reflecting on all of the reasons that you wrote down that were the reasons for your slip up in your sobriety. It's obvious that you want this change. But I hope you really lean in on those supports when you're being poked in the back by the thoughts of this betrayal of trust, and when that pain peaks its head out. Make sure to talk to someone, and don't let this tarnish how you view all of your relationships in life. There are people who will do terrible, selfish things like this. Then there are others like you, your other friends and family, and all of us here who could never imagine causing such pain, and are here on this earth to raise each other up and to celebrate in one another's happiness. My heart is broken for you, friend. Sending big love and hugs from NY ❤️

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey Amanda ! 👋🖤, thank you so much as always. I really do love your advice and try my best to take it to heart. I appreciate the prayers I really do, they mean a lot in times like this. I’ll get through the thing with my brother, I have to. It will take time and like you said I need to lean on the supports I do have. I have a lot of good people in my life including y’all on this KZread. Can’t really thank you enough Amanda, 🖤🙏🏻 take care my friend!!!

@amandaflaherty7528

2 ай бұрын

@Slayer-7373 I really hope you know how helpful you've been to all of us!! And I'm always just hoping to be there for you, I hope it didn't feel like too much with the advice, I just feel protective! But sometimes your friends just need an ear. So make sure to lmk if I'm preaching! Haha I hope you have a great day 😊❤️

One day at a time that's all we can do, your life is worth it brother

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

One day at a time, one hour at a time if we need it brother. Thank you for your kind comments my friend!

Love you slayer!!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Love you too man.

@seg6629

2 ай бұрын

We all love him ❤honesty, vulnerable, courageous, every emotion . Strength now 💪 ❤😊love you sweetie

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@seg6629 much love! 🙏🏻

Am truly sorry you were betrayed this deep smh I’ve been through something similar as well . One thing I’d say is that you are punishing, hurting yourself for others lack of morales and integrity. You got this 💯💯💯, you will be just fine . You’re very handsome, and kind , that part , they didn’t take away from you . 🥰🙏🏾🙏🏾

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Beautiful comment and beautifully put. 🖤🙏🏻 thank you so much. This channel has helped so much, y’all are too sweet. God bless.

Oh, man! Thanks for sharing all of this! I can relate to almost everything you brought up, and i'm glad you're back on track! (despite all the pain you've been going through for the last 2 years) I know it's been a while since you posted this video; i've just recently started to watch your videos- please continue posting and be honest about your struggles even if it might seem difficult at times! It's a pleasure to follow you on your journey. We're all in this together. With the help of God and the program we grow stronger each day! I relapsed aswell 2 months ago, went on a 3-week binge and ended up at detox. Started feeling kind of "off" at work on day 1 and began hallucinating and feeling paranoid. I'm on day 38 now. Anyways, keep up the good work and we'll beat this together, Slayer! Greeting from Sweden

@Slayer-7373

8 күн бұрын

Beautiful comment my friend. Thank you, we are all in this together! My channel is a community we are here to help one another. 38 days is absolutely incredible!!!!!!!! Don’t look back man, don’t look back. Keep me updated

Dude, glad to hear you’re alive and still kicking! sending you love and light. That’s pretty hilarious someone would think that you’re using old photos. Why in the hell would someone do that anyway? 😂 that’s rough about your brother and I suspect that is a massive part of your overall state of health. In order to be free of it you have to pass through. It sounds right now like it’s still a raw nerve.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey 👋!! Thank you my friend! I’m glad to be alive and kicking myself haha. Also I know right? Some people on the internet are absolutely insane. Or just complete trolls, one of the two lol. And yea it definitely is….. but like you said in order to move forward it’s time to leave it in the past. Who knows what the future might bring, thanks for this comment my friend!!! 🙏🏻

Excellent work on identifying your triggers and having a plan for dealing with them in the future. Except for the "Big One". Let's start by forgetting about the ex. She was just a smoke screen. We have all survived a broken heart. You will find love again. What is your plan for dealing with the grief caused by the loss of your relationship with your brother? How are you going to find a way to eventually forgive him? The great news is you said it out loud! To hundreds of people. What a huge first step. Real recovery is hard and ugly. Keep going forward.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

🖤🙏🏻 I really appreciate this thank you, keep moving forward with me friend.

I am a he. Thanks for the shout out.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

No problem my “man” 🤣. Take care 🙏🏻

Good luck and lots of power on your journey! All the feelings that come up with sobriety come and go! Just start with Day 1 everyday!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Much love my friend, thank you. 🙏🏻

Just found your page man. Def have a new sober friend here that is rooting for you. 2 years sober in recovery here.

@Slayer-7373

Ай бұрын

Hey!!!! Welcome my friend!! 🙏🙏thank you so much. Also congratulations on 2 years!!!! That is amazing!!! Goals for me my friend.

Look into kindling theory if you haven't already, it's very relevant to you rn. That was some heavy stuff about your brother, I understand why you still have strong feelings about that. Hope I'm not coming across condescending or anything, but it does get easier in time (speaking from experience).

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I have heard of the kindling effect actually, it’s definitely true from my own personal experience. Bat Country has a really good and informative video on the kindling effect. Also yes, very heavy and oh? I think I catch your drift and I’m sorry you had to going through that pain. Trust me, I know what it’s like. I believe you ILAA you guys haven’t steered my wrong. Much love 🙏🏻 take care now.

I binged last night on 8 beers, can't seem to shake the routine of drinking every Friday religiously. Been doing that for about 5 years. Tough af to break the habit. Don't even know why I keep doing it as I don't even think getting loaded is all that enjoyable. But I keep doing it. Back to day 2 tomorrow. Trying man, it's a struggle and we're in this together. Lis Pendens.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

It’s a routine, a cycle. With alcohol it always seems to be a vicious cycle, even if it’s super extreme. Like you only drink Friday’s but as you said you just can’t seem to stop. Alcohol is so damn powerful brother, it’s a war. We are in this together, it’s a battle every day. Much love man, good luck. 🙏🏻

Prayers going up ASAP🙏

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

🙏🏻🙏🏻 thank you.

I tried doing a hangovers IV sesh once because I had a job interview the next day, but after I felt better, I went back to drinking instead 😅… I totally get your mindset. Even if our body heals, there’s still a mental impact that I think no one really talks about, I’m usually way more depressed than usual for a full week after body recovery… came back and posted another comment but don’t know if it saved… but damn, your brother!!!! I mentioned that very few people on this earth have experienced with what you have and no one will have an answer for you. Come to think, closest I have come is my dad cheating on mom with her sister… now we lost my aunt from the family… anyway, I also mentioned the best form of revenge is becoming successful yourself. You seem like a super smart dude and I think you should start to focus on what’s going to make you superhuman. Find that passion, build a business… I think once your mind shifts it will be much easier to not have room for the thoughts of the past. My thoughts on this channel are my prayers so please don’t take them as advice, because no one has the answers 🙏

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Beautiful comment man, I can tell you’ve been through it yourself and you truly do care. I appreciate comments like these more than you know. Prayer means everything in dark times my friend. God bless you 🙏🏻 thanks again man. Also side note, I’ve definitely done the same thing with the IV’s trying to get “right” before a big job or something 🤣 I swear the things we do when we are in active addiction. Anyways, thanks again my friend 🙏🏻

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Also wanted to say thank you for pointing out that very few people will ever experience this, not many people in my family or friends want to acknowledge it. I think it’s because they just know it’s so messed up and kind of weird that they rather not address it. God bless man 🙏🏻

@adrianowallin

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 you’re welcome man, I’ll drop in when I can because yeah I’ve been on my own journey too. And same with my family, no one acknowledges it. Parents divorced, but we all still get together like it didn’t happen. I’ve mostly forgotten about it and even catching them in the act at such a young age, but behind the scenes there still ptsd and I think- like you say, will never be the same

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@adrianowallin prayers go out to you brother, I’m sorry. 🙏🏻

@adrianowallin

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 ah thanks man, very kind! It’s all good going forward because we are in control now. ♥️

Sometimes I get so overwhelmed thinking about how I can never drink again. I don’t do AA but one day at a time is the truest shit I ever heard. Sometimes it’s really one minute at a time. Im obviously no doctor but you mentioned anxiety and depression- about a month ago I started an anti anxiety medication and it seriously changed my life. I feel like its helped me a lot with my cravings. It hit home too hearing you say that smoking and drinking changed your life forever. I used to be so innocent, I cried when I found out my brother smoked weed. Now, I’ve done almost everything under the sun. It’s a weird feeling but maybe helped us become more empathetic people. Anyway, Im rambling lol… loved the video. Sorry to hear about your ex and your brother. Don’t be embarrassed. That’s not a reflection of you. Hope you’re feeling okay

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Interesting that you say that because I was just saying that to my mom earlier today when I saw her, it’s such an overwhelming thought. Especially for people like us even though we should want nothing to do with it! It’s destroyed so much yet we still want it. Also it is one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute damn even sometimes one second at a time. Really about the medication as well? Could I ask what it is? That’s awesome. And I agree actually, some of the nicest/coolest people I’ve ever met have been ex-addicts and alcoholics. It’s like we still are that sweet soul deep down but the drugs and alcohol have taken so much. So weird, I use to say I was so thankful to have smoked weed and done mushrooms, drinking I felt like I was unlocking something. Anyways now I’m rambling too 🤣 thanks so much for the comment, much love !

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Also about my brother and my ex, it’s like I’ve said in past videos when she ended up leaving me and I went into my first rehab I was absolutely devastated don’t get me wrong, but I did have some understanding. The last year and half of our relationship I was in the worst part of my addiction and i know it can be exhausting putting up with an addict. I just never expected this, especially from my brother. I’ll get through tho, sh%# happens as they say. ✌🏻

@sageysage

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 It’s called lexapro! I never realized just how bad my anxiety was until I started taking it… I seriously feel like I can relax for the first time in years. I used to have an internalized stigma about mental health medication- like I wouldn’t judge people necessarily for taking it but I did feel like I would never need it. I also thought that meditation and yoga and exercise was better than pills- I was wrong hahaha I could do all those things and still be all over the place with my mood. But yeah, maybe it’s worth a shot 🤷🏻‍♀️ or some other type of medication. I remember reading some guru book I don’t remember which one but he talked about the illusion of getting closer to god when you trip and stuff and how it’s actually getting you further away, making you depend on an external source when it’s all within… and yeah with your brother, thats a whole situation. I prayed for forgiveness and healing in your heart. But also sometimes maybe things aren’t forgivable, sometimes people don’t want forgiveness. So maybe tonight I’ll just pray for your healing in whatever way it comes about ☺️

@sageysage

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 called lexapro! I never realized just how bad my anxiety was until I started taking it… I seriously feel like I can relax for the first time in years. I used to have an internalized stigma about mental health medication- like I wouldnt judge people necessarily for taking it but I did feel like I would never need it. I also thought that meditation and yoga and exercise was better than pills- I was wrong hahaha I could do all those things and still be all over the place with my mood. But yeah, maybe its worth a shot 🤷🏻‍♀️ or some other type of medication. Also got lost in the sauce but I read a book by a yogi once and he talked about how tripping to be closer to god only gives you the illusion of being closer to god and we actually are seeking outside shortcuts when god is actually within us all. That stuck with me because I thought I was soooo woke and enlightened lol. I prayed for forgiveness in your heart yesterday, but today I thought that maybe sometimes people do unforgivable things, so today I will pray for healing in your heart instead! Sorry if a different version of this same comment is spamming you 😂 I keep trying to reply but my ipad is being weird Ive written it out like 3 times 😭😂 hope you had a good day today!!

@sageysage

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 i think youtube is deleting my comments for either cursing or telling you the name of my medication 😭 ive written it out like 3 times. Wack!

Praying for you brother.. stay strong

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Appreciate that brother, god bless 🙏🏻

Double whammy 😢. Hugs 🫂♥️🫂♥️

True sobriety is NOT about "not drinking", it's about being emotionally healthy enough to deal with the "acid tests" of life without self destructing. The first three paragraphs of Chapter Three in the Big Book, ("More about Alcoholism") perfectly describe what must occur before real sobriety is possible. "We learned that we had to FULLY concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics". (If we partially concede, or somewhat concede, or only concede 99%, we are PHUCKED!) There is no need to analyze why we drink again, we just haven't conceded 100% to the 'ISM". Alcohol is not the root problem, it is our inability to focus on the solution. Think about all of the minutes, hours, days, weeks, or years we were engaged in thinking about drinking, actually drinking, and then trying to feel better enough to do it all over again. Now think about how much effort we put into our emotional wellbeing. (Sobriety) At this point is should be evident that our effort at staying sober is a complete PHUCKING JOKE! Not a single one of us will EVER match the effort in recovery, that we put into the train wreck of our lives! Until we FULLY CONCEDE, more and more cars of the train will derail! Simple as that! All the best...Mark

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

You are absolutely 100% right tho sadly, I really hope I’ve got this, none of us are safe in this disease, it’s one day at a time. 🙏🏻 that’s mark, take care my friend.

@angelamadas-um6wr

2 ай бұрын

I agree. Learning how to cope with life's acid tests is the key. Still trying to figure it out

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@angelamadas-um6wr 🙏🏻

@markg.4246

2 ай бұрын

@@angelamadas-um6wr The quickest way to "figure it out" Angela, is to attend a support group and watch and listen to people who have it "mostly" figured out. I say "mostly" because sobriety is a learning process, and we must all remain teachable. Being teachable allows our minds to consider the possibilities, and helps us retain some humility! I sincerely wish you all the best! Mark 🙂

You are awesome My problem has always been with pot for 30+ yrs. It is not dangerous but it does dim my light and destroys my relationships. God Bless. Christ is our strength Without Him it would not be possible for me to stay sober and He forgives us for our shortcomings.

@Slayer-7373

24 күн бұрын

@@AM-sk1tv you are awesome my friend!!! I completely understand. I’ve had an on and off relationship with green myself. All things are possible through Christ though. Just don’t give up, much love to you my friend and god bless. 🙏

on step back, two steps forward - Progress! much love.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Absolutely brother, much love right back to you. Thanks for this comment my friend 💯✌🏻

You seem like a really decent and real guy. And you been through a lot. You will get over all this and forgive yourself and your brother . Lots of love and support to you

@Slayer-7373

Ай бұрын

Hey 👋, thanks brother this is an awesome comments. Much love back to you my friend!

If I may, I am so sorry about what happened. The only thing you can change is your future. You are attractive and alive🎉. Do not let the two of them win by you destroying yourself. What they did was not blessed I am sure they will have their own challenges. You have accomplished so much. You cannot continue to use thoughts of them as a catalyst to harm yourself by drinking. You have to heal and get strong for the new person and you. You want to be at your best when they arrive. I'm a person with almost 10 months sober. I have issues but I'm now so angry at them for stealing so much from my life. I know you can do it. 🎉

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

🖤🙏🏻 beautiful comment, thank you so much.

Praying for you bro! You got this!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Appreciate that brother! Thank you, 🙏🏻

Karma comes & I really do enjoy watching it U aren’t alone.. self sabotage yep We actually relapse by a thought sometimes days before we even pick up & then our addiction runs

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

🙏🏻

I've been on a bender since 420 can't stop keep goin bro

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

You will get it brother, trust me you will. Just don’t give up on it, we all get there at our own times. Please be safe my friend! 🙏🏻

Awwww mannn, jus watched one of your vids; youre very motivation and real. Youre making vids and admitting to yourself; youre trying, even if you gotta two steps forward 1 step back.. keep going man, you seem like a cool smart dude. Im rootin for you man, i have faith, we can all better our lives together, step by step, jus keep gettin back up

@Slayer-7373

Ай бұрын

I appreciate this comment brother, thank you. We got this together man. One step at a time, one day at a time. 🙏

🙏🙏🙏

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

God bless 🙏🏻

Feeling better, man? You look so much better. At least they medicated you. Around here they will rarely admit you. They just look down at you for taking up a bed. Ouch. Your brother. I am sorry, dude.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I am feeling a lot more like myself brother, also really man? That’s kind of bs. Also about my brother, i appreciate that man. 🙏🏻 it sucks, but it is what it is I suppose.

@ShadesOClarity

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 I had something kind of awful and similar happen to me relationshipwise and this last one I was in was pretty fucked. I lost nine months of sobriety because I decided to date a girl from A.A. who wasn't even sober.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@ShadesOClarity I’m sorry man, I feel your pain trust me, but we will get through this. We are warriors man, better woman are out there waiting for both of us man. 💯

@Arto300-yn5fv

2 ай бұрын

Rightfully so. You don't have to go to hospital or detox after 5 days of drinking. You ride it out no matter how bad you feel.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Not sure if you heard or not shades but at the very, very end of the video I gave your channel a shout out brother 🙏🏻 hope all is well.

I'm feeling this for sure. I did my usual weekend binge drinking because something sad happened to me during the week.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey jenine I’m super sorry to hear that :(. It’s okay tho, it’s a new week. You have another chance. Don’t give up, I completely understand letting the sad stuff get you to drink but you know as well as I do it never helps. Keep me updated!! You’ve got this ! 🙏🏻

My friend, you are a highly sensitive person, you feel things so deeply. Boundaries were crossed, trust broken to name a few. Quitting drinking is hard enough as is, I know. I know its hard to talk about the shit stuff, that's why we don't want to talk about it. Finding someone you are comfortable with can help get you thru this. If what you are doing isn't working, try something different. I've had more day 1s than I can count and it did get harder every time. I thought the whole HALT thing was a bunch of woo woo nonsense but those 4 things are what usually led to me relapsing. You can do this, you can do hard things. XXOO -KK

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey thank you KK 🖤🙏🏻. Beautiful comment.

Don't give them the power to affect you in the way that they do. Don't relinquish your power, and don't give them the satisfaction. They're probably laughing at you when you fall.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Yea I think they get satisfaction out of me drinking, time to let it go.

Keep up the good work 👍🏼 you are helping alot❤

@Slayer-7373

Ай бұрын

Will do gloira!! Thank you so much 🙏

Un dia a la Ves 👍🏼💪🏼🙏🏻

I’ve been praying for u!!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey 👋 thank you so much, that means the world to me. 🙏🏻🙏🏻

They say you can choose your friends, but you can't choose your family. I disagree with that, I think we CAN choose. I know a couple of people in recovery who, as part of the process of leaving destructive things behind for the sake of their sobriety, have cut out family members. If the thing that keeps you drinking is, say, going to a certain bar, then you cut the bar out of your life. You sometimes have to do that with people too. Someone else in the comments said they suspected it was your brother. As soon as you said you were holding back from saying it, I knew it was him too. I knew it because in your last video you said you had dreams that featured your ex and your brother. I know how those weird withdrawal half-dreams work man, they look for what's on your mind, what's hurting you most, and they use it against you. Anyway you look and sound really good right now. Keep us posted.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I 100% agree with that man, blood just makes you related, doesn’t necessarily mean you’re “family” you know what I mean? You know as well as I do brother in this disease we gotta do what we gotta do to survive. So again, I agree. Also wow, that’s actually pretty fascinating that you put those two things together, but you’ve been to that “realm” if you want to call it that. You’re absolutely right, it does pick at your worst insecurities and fears. I will have to make a full in depth video on all of my dt’s and dreams because there is still quite a bit I left out. Also thanks man, I am feeling much better I must say. Keep making those vids brother!! 💯

@jeff67788

2 ай бұрын

Love both ur channels

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@jeff67788 Thanks Jeff! That’s awesome of you to say man. I really like his channel too 🤙.

You got my prayers 🧡

@Slayer-7373

Ай бұрын

Thank you so much 🙏🖤

Slayer… think of this… one of the reason for your relapse might be due to an old tape playing in your mind… your old dysfunctional coping mechanism that you automatically turn to when a crisis hits you or when you encounter a distressing flashbacks… need to learn healthier ways to cope and better perspective about yourself … peace… I love your honesty and genuineness… never give up !!

@Slayer-7373

29 күн бұрын

@@Thursdayization you are 100% spot, I’ve been desperately working on changing my mindset to that. It’s patterns and cycles, There are layers to addiction, it’s all connected. That’s why it’s so crucial for me to understand my triggers. As it is for any of us who struggle with substances. I really appreciate your comments man, peace to you as well my friend and thank you ✌️🙏

What is it about drinking that feels good and how can you achive those things without having to have booze. For me, it was my intense social anxiety. I necer looked deeper into myself to find out what the probldm was actually and maybe i might even be on the slectrum. As in some level of high functioning autism. Its very hard to connect with other people and im so damn shy. Alcohol is my scape goat in social situations. Idk if anyone else can relate. This is a fucking mess and i just hope that one day i can just feel normal without boose its a journey. Dont be so down on yourself you relpse its ok and i love you. Stay strong my friend ❤

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I can 100% relate to this, I’ve always been that person too. Never been diagnosed but I’m sure I’ve got some of that too. I’m very, very quite and reserved around people, especially ones I don’t know. It takes me time to open up to people and come out my shell. Anyways, much love. I wish you the best on your journey, keep me updated!! 🙏🏻

@Itzbrady_

2 ай бұрын

@Slayer-7373 right back at you, i love ya ❤️

Slayer,Your so young and if you've already gotten this sick, you won't improve if you go back to drinking.my Godfather is 65 and very sadly drinking himself into an early grave and it's a terrible nasty, painful and humiliating death.despite your youth, you are the most candid,honast and direct person I subscribed to regarding alcohol use disorder.im going to be 44 soon and for medical reasons I had to stop drinking and I never drank until age 40! My boyfriend is in his mid 50's and is going to end up like my Godfather soon if he doesn't stop.its fairly easy for me to stop drinking,yet your still very inspiring to me and my boyfriend.Keep up the good work and stay at it because even though your young, your extremely aware of what you'll go through if you keep drinking.you mentioned Delirium Dirk who I'm hoping is ok,as I can't find him anywhere and his last video is posted some years ago.his expiriance of delirium tremens was terrifying! I don't want you to die and I definitely send you that prayer of forgiveness.I send you prayers of continued sobriety, good health and a long wonderful life 🙏 I stayed until the end of your video.Keep posting, your helping people! Stay positive

@Slayer-7373

Ай бұрын

This is a beautiful comment, thank you 🙏🖤. I’m really sorry to hear about your godfather, that is really sad. I know that’s where I’ll end up if I keep up my drinking. Like you said I am young but I read and hear more and more nowadays about young people getting cirrhosis and other horrible diseases. I’ve gotta do this for my life. I’m so glad these videos help you, comments like these really help me. Also on delirium Dirk…. I’m very sorry to inform you he has passed away 😓. I made a video on my channel about it, one of my earlier ones. He was awesome and helped me a lot, he will be missed.

💪

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

💪🏃‍♂️

Dude Jesus Christ is your best friend iam praying for you 🙏🏼 You will find someone better ❤️

@Slayer-7373

Ай бұрын

Amen 🙏

👍🏼💪🏼

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

💪

slayer, this may be the last comment I comment on your videos because I dont want to bother you but I just wanted to say. Look man, me and a lot of people in this comment section genuinely care about you and love you, and I want you to know what youve been through and are going through is not easy at all. Your such a genuine person and your so young and have so much ahead of you in life and I bet your gonna find someone beautiful thats going to love you for who you truly are. You and many other people need to realize your self hate and doubt is not justified we are all beautiful inside and out and I pray for forgiveness for you because I know that your just someone who needs to be heard and shown some love like I needed at one point also and im grateful I found people who love me and thats why I pray for you man because I love you too bro to bro and it hurts me to watch alcohol do what its doing to you and other people it really does hurt honestly.

@Slayer-7373

7 күн бұрын

🖤🖤🖤🖤beautiful comment my friend. Thank you so much.

@Slayer-7373

7 күн бұрын

🖤🖤y’all really do inspire me, I’ve gotta do it this time!! 🙏

Slayer I can tell you are still so full of rage. As someone who’s probably 20yrs older I’m looking from the outside in right? 1) holy F 2) I see you coming out of this mess on top 3) what’s your brother gonna do when she decides to leave him? 4) obviously she is still with him because deep down she knows it’s making u miserable 5) I am so deeply sorry you’ve lost your brother for now. I say for now because his heart is still beating. U get strong enough emotionally & if at that time you’re able genuinely talk to him be vulnerable with him. I’ve learned when u can go in with no expectations but to only be heard, the weight is gone. I’d be more upset with her actually What does she think she’s doing? She’s winning NOT cool

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey Kristen thank you for this comment, I needed to hear a lot of this actually. It is time to let it go, like you said we never know what the future might hold. Maybe we will be best friends again? I mean we really never know. God bless 🙏🏻

@Kristen10-22

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 I speak from experience when I tell you life can happen in less than a blink and we never know when or who. It’s not worth losing your life. In the grand scheme of things it hurts and you’re right we just don’t know. Gods busy working on you rn. I promise nothing lasts forever ♾️ If and when she leaves him he’s going to be devastated.

Congratulations on going on a week clean

You’re hurting brother I see it through your he shades. And I have the same story you do about the nurses and the hospitals and detox. I’m about 5 1/2 months clean and one thing I would recommend while you’re working on you is to cut people out of your life that you need to cut out and focus on you. You’re too important to kill yourself over the bottle and you serve a purpose. God created you not to self destruct but to succeed. Hopefully you feel good by now but before you think about going to the gas station remind yourself of all the times you had the shakes and went to the hospital and detox was it worth it? Stay strong brother.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I am brother, but each day I think it gets a little easier. Comments like these really help. There are so many good people out there. Like you said god didn’t create us to self destruct and ruin our lives. We are here for a purpose. It’s one day at a time my friend, thank you 🙏🏻

@jbenz1990

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 anytime bro. Whatever it takes just do it. For me I had to literally turn in my debit and credit cards and any money so I had no money to go to the stores and buy liquor. No money=no booze. Whatever works for you just do it we’re all here to support you and thank you for your videos they really help

I relapsed too but you have to admit its just excuses

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Absolutely brother.

I think everything does happen for a reason I think a higher power-is trying to tell you that you need to give yourself a break you need to stop being a p**sy and get someone to tell you how it is maybe a sponsor that’s close to your age excuse my harshness and my language but sometimes we need the hard truth they played you for a fool. You You need a rebound girl or maybe you’ll find the right one sooner than you think. Love you man and want the best. i’ve been there I’m also in recovery.

@Slayer-7373

Ай бұрын

Nah i understand what you’re saying bro, you are right!!! Much love to you my friend and thank you for the care. New video will be coming soon!

@miketan8857

Ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 to thine own self be true

Bro, letting your ex and your brother win and destroy you is all up to you.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Absolutely agree my friend.

@ladybugwest909

2 ай бұрын

Living well is the best revenge

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@ladybugwest909 absolutely.

Bro I’m sorry… I’d be drinking if my OWN BROTHER did that to me… You’ll be in my prayers 💯

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I appreciate the prayers brother, thank you 🙏🏻

@Oamiano

2 ай бұрын

@@Slayer-7373 stay strong bro, you aren’t alone. That’s some next level fucked up shit you’re dealing with. You can recover tho, I believe in you, I was in a similar situation due to a breakup and got over it. I think this is just gonna take more time and therapy. Im sorry people are so evil…

Scary and sad thought...delerium durk died of relapse. Not claiming he did but its possible so it goes to show how you can never drink again if you want to live. Also the thing with your bro is awful

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Absolutely, I’ve thought it many times. Of course we don’t know, but it’s definitely a possibility which is very sad. Also yes, but I’ll get through. You guys really have helped me so much. Thank you 🙏🏻

Damn, I’m sorry to hear that. Did you just find out she was with your brother or has it been sometime that you found out

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I appreciate that man, also it’s been quite some time now. Take care my friend 🙏🏻

Untreated alcoholism can lead to a relapse that centers in the mind

@Slayer-7373

Ай бұрын

I believe this 100% Richard.

I watched my best friend die in my dad's arms at the age of 26 stage 4 liver cirrhosis, he had morphine and diazepam before he passed but it was extremely painful for him no matter what.... Don't fuck with alcohol

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Whatttt??? 26?? Wowwww. I’m so sorry man. That’s so young…

Sounds like the breakup is still having an impact. Perhaps try general counselling for the breakup, and then you can move on from alcohol. Keep watching LD, he's putting out daily vids which helps you stay focussed.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Will do 🖤🙏🏻

Omg. Let them go until it doesn't bother you anymore. If that's a month or a lifetime, it's ok. You do you. You can't let this fu situation ruin your life

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

I agree Angela, it’s time to let them go. 🖤🙏🏻

❤❤❤

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

🙏🏻

I relapsed a few days ago on xanax and am absolutely regretting it!! I missed work (and I love my job). But I'm absolutely done with this crap!! I hate blacking out on bars because it basically wipes out my memory. I hate this drug!!! And I feel that whole self sabotage thing hit home with me! Like WTF do I mess things up when things are going good? It makes no sense!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey brother 👋, I’m sorry that happened man, but as you can see I totally understand and can relate. I’ve relapsed many times and asked myself “what am I doing?? Why am I doing this to myself?!” And then I’d go buy another drink. This is a battle my friend, we must always keep our shields up. Because I think you’re like me the slightest thought might lead to a relapse and a ton of regret. Let’s start this together again bro, I’m just over a week again sober so start up with me. Like I’ve said we are all in this journey together. Best of luck to you my friend!! Keep me updated!

@Thagy1973

2 ай бұрын

@Slayer-7373 thank you man! I really needed to hear this today! I just consider them a couple slips, not full blown relapses! The good news is we both got a handle on it before it got completely out of control!

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

@@Thagy1973 of course man no problem and exactly!! We caught ourselves thank god. One day at a time my friend, we’ve got this. 💯

Hey Bro, really appreciate you telling your story and giving folks a wake up call, myself included. I wanted to ask you have you ever got your vitamin d levels checked? Drinking heavily can initiate vitamin D deficiency which is linked to depression anxiety all that stuff. Supplementing with Vitamin D3, K2, and Magnesium really helped ease my drinking cravings and really improved my anxiety/depression which I have struggled with for several years.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Hey what’s up brother?? I have not but recently I’ve been trying to get more vitamin d because like you said it’s suppose to be super beneficial. Alcohol literally just destroys all vitamins and minerals it’s insane.

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Also thanks for this comment my friend!! 🙏

Extreme😢betrayal. Life happens😢😮

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

Yes. 🙌🏻

Damn man. On your brother and ex, I got nothing to say except to quote the counselor, *"That's fucked up"* Thanks for the shout out BTW 👍🏾 You got sobriety by the balls

@Slayer-7373

2 ай бұрын

That’s been pretty much everyone’s response, which in some way is kind of comical lol? Gotta laugh at things I guess to stop from crying right. Also of course man, thanks goes to you. 💯💪

@markg.4246

2 ай бұрын

I know you mean well, but your statement "You got sobriety by the balls", lacks any real substance. It's superficial nonsense. Sobriety is a gift that we must go get on a daily basis. No one brings it to our doorstep. Peace!