We are an overt system. Assumed DID rather than OSDD- currently on the pathway to a diagnosis.
We want to normalise dissociative disorders and their presentation in this, thus far, prescriptive society, help make this world more accepting for others like us, and support other systems in our community wherever we can. As we learn more we want to promote up to date and science-based education- but for now the content of our videos is just gonna be our own personal experiences living as a system and managing daily life.
We want this channel to be an authentic and open view of life as a system- as we learn to navigate the world in a functional way in multiplicity.
We are not professionals- please don't delay in seeking help from a qualified, trauma informed professional due to anything you see or hear in our videos.
System members who will be using the channel:
Violet- Co-host. She/her
Vince- Persecutor / Co-host. He/him
Connor- he/him
Neb- she/her
Artemis- they/them
Mal- he/him
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Storming over here, too. Georgia US
Thank you for sharing. We learn from yall. 😊
F*cking fabulous ❤😊
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Always with the facts. ❤🎉
Fan-fucking-tastic and inspirational communication skills. 😊
F*ck yeah 😊
So cute! 🎉
Whats gunna work?! Teeeaamwork! 🎶 ❤😊
🎉❤ wow. Great explanation. 😊
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Its the innate human want to be accepted and connect with other humans. It would make sense that the defenses would be higher. Especially if being more vulnerable. 😊
It's hard to accept I have that need. Still feels like I shouldn't or don't a lot. Or like it's wrong to have it. I think vulnerability feels so unsafe it stacks the triggers. - Vince
@thisbetheverses yes. I can see that. I feel that in our most vulnerable is where we best understand who we are fundamentally. Are we needy? Reserved? Or are we gentle? And then accepting the triggers as just affects. That's all they are. Like, a video game. Affects last for so long.
I'd be curious what each of your myers-briggs personality test results would be. 🤔
Me too actually. Oh that's funny. I remember doing them several times years ago but I just thought they didn't work cause I kept getting different results 😂 #systemthings. I'd like to retake those now actually. Thanks for the suggestion
Pushing self limitations and accepting discomfort. Fuck yeah. 🎉❤
Appreciate the fuck out of your supportive comments 💜
@thisbetheverses awe. I'm glad. We feel at times we are being too much and might sacre ya off by doing things too quickly. ^^'
Inspirational self reflection and acknowledgment ❤😊
❤😊 beautiful. I felt a sadness and understanding.
I felt that too watching this. Acceptance is powerful.
we are proud of you, and i agree. weak minded people tend to keep a narrow mindset and being atleast MORE accepting just brings mire positivity<33
Thanks. We're proud too. I think it can be difficult because when we're traumatised the brain really wants to default to judgements and criticism. Any amount of compassion & acceptance we can bring helps a lot.
Like, finding out what are their motives of beliefs and morals? To reveal good or evil?
@@alittlespacetime like my default is to work out what everyone else's motive is to know if they're being manipulative. But I'm learning to discover what self-limiting and irrational core beliefs about us and others I hold that motives that action to feel like it's necessary.
@thisbetheverses hm. Like an internal bias that seems stubborn? I wish you luck in overcoming this. ♡
@@alittlespacetime sort of yeah. Like common ones are things like "I'm not good enough" or "other people can't be trusted" - everyone has core beliefs but a really common side effect of trauma is we can have irrational beliefs and irrational core beliefs but they're hard to notice cause they can just feel like objective reality. I think everyone has some irrational beliefs but disputing irrational beliefs that aren't so strongly held seems easier to spot that they're irrational than the core ones.
I fucking love your makeup! I hope I can come even close to copying that oh my god
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Hm, awareness of awareness along with internal paradox? 😂❤
Love it. Thank yall for sharing!
Like, face value? Sorta?
Perceptions about perceptions. Nice. ❤😊
Over 9000% valid feelings and thoughts.
Fantastic progress! ❤ Glad they are there for yall like that. Good to have a good care team. Alter communication: What's gunna work? Teeeeaamwork! 🎶
Whoa. Very valid point you got there. ❤
The ABCs to dispute irrational beliefs can be found at SMART recovery. On their website or on KZread.
So much fun! ❤😊
It really IS we LOVE walking with him 😁 - Connor
@@thisbetheverses hehe! ♡
First instinct? Would love to get in and take a ride xD. Pup looks so cute and comfy. 😊
I know right!? Ours too! We have to keep reminding each other that our body is not 30kg for the weight limit. It looks so comfy and fun 😂
@thisbetheverses yeah, exactly, what a mood. XD Now I'm jealous of a dog. Jk. Hope your day has been good. ♡
@@alittlespacetime me too, I wish our body could shapeshift with us so some of us could ride in his pram with him 😂
@@alittlespacetime our day has been a lot but also really good. Hope yours has been good for all of you or at least minimally shit cause sometimes days be that way
@@thisbetheverses awww that would be so fun! ☆
She's kinda cute
That look just screams daddy issues and mental instability 😂
"Pulls out a magnet"
Damn you're gorgeous 😍
"I am not going to respond in any way that I don't want to" is such a raw feeling I can relate to so much. I believe you definitely have the tools between all parts of you to handle anything. PS every one of your videos makes me miss wearing emo clothes and sneaking into my sisters closet to find new hoodies to wear 😂
🐕 ❤ pretty hair, also
♡ feeling multidimensional is how we explained it to our therapist. Feeling as if we see all the possibilities of how we can be in the moment but also feeling all of our previous experiences all at once. Layered over one another. Learning now this is a form of us being sort of conconscious? Sort of sharing our memories and such? What becomes very intense is the fact that we can smell and feel the things from the memories layered upon another as well. Like sensory overload. Separation becomes a sought-after thing for us, because if this. To separate our thoughts and learn who and what they are coming from. Lo, we wait for therapy and time to help process.
@@alittlespacetime that's a good way to describe it. We understand a lot of what you're saying, for us, the seeing all the possibilities of how we can be isn't something we've spent a long time experiencing. We spent most of our lives very disconnected and fragmented, from each other but also for some of us in a lot of parts of ourselves, some of us have subsystems and in the last four years we've been working hard and having a lot of integration and some fusion within our subsystems which is what we thought of reading what you said. Before that it was a lot of feeling very polarised, like I could only see one way of thinking, feeling, being, reacting in each part of me- which felt very simple in some ways to each part of me but also very predecided and trapped. Lately it's been more like you described between a lot of parts of me and I know a couple of us have experienced similar between parts of themselves. Like suddenly this vast array of multiple very different ways to think and see things and respond and be all exist as potentials on top of each other at the same time and it's both liberating and terrifying because the predecided feeling of there only being one "way" has changed to a much less limited range of options, but also now it feels like we have to be fully in charge of manually deciding each action for ourselves in every moment. Between us as a system, we don't seem to have that much connection yet, if we work hard to do it, some of us can share what we're feeling and seeing back and forth between us, but a lot of it still seems to rely on it being a conversation, which is still so much fucking better than it was it's cool. It feels more confusing between parts of myself, where I feel more integrated, than it is between several of us as different people where it almost feels clearer because of the divides.
@@alittlespacetime the sensory overload of different senses from memories layered on top sounds, for me, like how I can experience some flashbacks. And it can be so. Fucking. Confusing. To work out which part of me or us is feeling and experiencing which thing (for one) then also which thing one or several of us are experiencing is happening now in the present, and which things are projected from the flashbacks (for another). We really relate to the experiences you describe and the complex, nuanced confusion of trying to discern which aspect is coming from who and when. For us, therapy is helping a lot, we hope time and therapy can help for you all too. I think somatic, trauma informed gestalt and mindfulness therapies are helping us to be able to connect more with our body which can help ground us to the present more and can help with the flashbacks. It's all very much a work in progress to untangle and understand.
@@alittlespacetime we appreciate your comments and you sharing your experiences with us. Thank you.
@thisbetheverses would like to reply with all sorts of smart things to say, but unfortunately, dealing with some bad shit at this moment. Hope you're doing well today.
@@alittlespacetime there's never any rush or pressure. We're sad to hear you're dealing with some bad things. Sending hopes of support for you and hoping for comfort and resolution if possible as soon as can be.
'They just are..' ❤
Stay true to yourself. ♡
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(We are on our phone and have your bell on, apologies if the comments were quick. )
😊♡ prevail
Feeling really fucking resilient a lot of these days 🎉
@thisbetheverses most excellent! ♡☆
@@alittlespacetime your comments are appreciated. Hope things are good as can be with you all.
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♡ As if an observer of self and everything around self.
Constant questioning shows wisdom. 😊
Fuck yeah for things within our control. 😊
@@alittlespacetime Fuck yeah for recognising our sphere of influence 😁
@@thisbetheverses hehe ^^♡ yupp
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Were u from
@@leeclark7210 it's like a 30/70 split between Earth and completely different worlds. :)
Wonderful day, sounds like. No headache or migraine and still enjoying human connection. ❤❤❤ I look up to this progress. 😊
This has been one of the most amazing things, we still get a lot of headaches but I think they turn into migraines less, or it takes more to turn into one and more of the time we can enjoy connection before it starts to cause pain. Wild and surprising progress 🎉
We used to think this would never change, so it is possible even when it really doesn't feel like it and we try to hold onto that whenever anything feels eternal.
@@thisbetheverses you're amazing and inspiring. Thank you for sharing your growth. ♡♡♡