Daan Spieard

Daan Spieard

Hi! I'm Daan, a 37 years old transguy from the Netherlands who loves to make videos from a personal perspective, so that's basically what I do here 🇳🇱 🏳️‍⚧️

Insecurities | vlog 105

Insecurities | vlog 105

More than Trans | vlog 95

More than Trans | vlog 95

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  • @Him_He_Me
    @Him_He_Me2 күн бұрын

    Sorry you got so sick!! I ended up with pneumonia 1 week before my 2 week break. My kids got COVID. lol. They are still sick but Im recovered now. As a trans man, my voice is my biggest betrayal of me. Im always getting misgendered. Im getting facial hair, Im pre surgery.... its not that great. I hope my connection will be better once I have top surgery. I dont think of dating until I have top surgery. My thoughts return to my body when I do think of dating. We all hope people want us for who we are not what our bodies can give them or look like. I think too much lol. Hope you are feeling better Daan. Your legs are my goals 😊😊

  • @angelopaoletti4768
    @angelopaoletti47682 күн бұрын

    I'm not in your condition, but I think that even though it's important to listen to the messages that our body sends us, this shouldn't affect us too much in our daily lives. It seems to me that there is an excessive concern with the signals you receive, or perhaps, you think you receive. I am, closed in a loop, after the death of my mother, voluntarily isolated from the outside, work, social relationships, which represent an insurmountable mountain, I know that I should force myself to change habits, to go back to living during the day and sleeping during the day. night...but then I wonder why? For whom should I do it? I feel so good closed in the house, I sleep during the day, I eat breakfast at 6pm, then I watch a series on TV, and then with my gin and tonic, I spend the night in front of the PC, until 7am, the time when I go to sleep . My body sends me signals, which I'm putting on my stomach and hips, for the rest I'm too thin, I know I eat badly, and all the drugs they give me leave me exhausted, without a will anymore... But I feel like it good anyway, I won't go to the beach... so no one will laugh at that ridiculous 2 meter tall man, all skin and bones, apart from his belly, who seems to be expecting a baby... after all, I haven't been there since 2016 I never took a holiday again, from 2017 to 2020 I looked after my mother, stuck in a bed, after 2 brain haemorrhages, 4 years ago, June 2020 she flew away, and with her my will to live... my partner 27 years old, he tries to encourage me, in a sweet way, but I'm fine just locked in the house, my mother's house, where I have remained ever since, I have to free up and sell my house in the city where I lived and worked before... but not I want to do all that hustle and bustle, so I spend to keep two houses up... I sold the third one 2 years ago because it was my grandparents' house, too many memories, the ones I face every day in this, packed house are enough for me , of mum's things, clothes, shoes, which I can't find the courage to give away... I don't know if I would empty the other house to sell it where I would put everything that's inside. Maybe I'm waiting for some Angel to come down from Heaven to give me a hand... Sorry... I talked about my own business, instead of giving a hand to you and your questions... I hope you'll give me a second chance.... It helped me I was happy to see your video, you're very cute, I'll go and see the others to get to know you better. Ciao, Angelo from Italia. 💙💛❤

  • @iGastify
    @iGastify3 күн бұрын

    I, trans person myself, can totally relate! I think that in some cases, we're so much more aware of our existence and also thinking about it way more than many cis people in their whole life ever will! This is a gift but also a burden from time to time. I always struggled with the proverb "just listen to your body". Dude, my body is not reflecting me and doesn't listen to my mind, I don't feel any connection sometimes - how should I listen to this. 😂 But: I'm now in a very good stage where I changed my body to feel more comfortable. I feel more comfortable every day and this makes it a whole lot easier to "listen to your body". It's different every day and it will always be a process and never a finish line. You're doing great by all this self-reflection! Wish you a great summer! Use it to find some new passions! :)

  • @Him_He_Me
    @Him_He_Me2 күн бұрын

    We do think way more than we should lol

  • @iGastify
    @iGastify2 күн бұрын

    @@Him_He_MeProbably yes 😂

  • @Cal760
    @Cal7604 күн бұрын

    What is your job at the university? Sounds great I always wish something like university, do you find the environment safe and welcoming?

  • @rainbowtropolis
    @rainbowtropolis4 күн бұрын

    Have you named your spider? They have a neat way of getting attention, they wave the big fuzzy things in front to say hello 😊 I agree with you about taking care of the inside as well as the outside. I've been getting older and it's definitely becoming more prominent how tenuous that balance can be, whether sick or not sick. Getting up and moving becomes harder but I still get up for walks and such, and hopefully I'll get my bicycle fixed up and go for a ride tomorrow. I've had long covid and just got put on prednisone to hopefully help my body heal a bit faster. Complete lack of energy and heart issues have kept me on the couch since December, I'm getting antsy to be outside! I hope you feel better soon, be kind to yourself and your body while it heals ☺

  • @markgreene3483
    @markgreene34834 күн бұрын

    I had a thought for a video. Would love to see a supermarket tour in your area. Always interested seeing how much things cost in other countries (bread, milk, gas). Is inflation a problem in the Netherlands?

  • @markgreene3483
    @markgreene34834 күн бұрын

    Dude. During the video you asked who would want to date you? I would say at least a couple thousand especially after watching a couple of your videos. You are looking so good even when are just chilling on the couch. The workout section was kind of hot as well.

  • @rickhernandez7666
    @rickhernandez76662 күн бұрын

    The beard is coming in. Any thoughts on where you want to go with that?

  • @sustainfem
    @sustainfem4 күн бұрын

    P.S. Hope you start to feel better!

  • @sustainfem
    @sustainfem4 күн бұрын

    The first pronunciation on your phone was correct -- ther-MOM-met-er. Don't know why that person said it correctly the first time and not the second! :)

  • @adrimo100
    @adrimo1005 күн бұрын

    For me as an another trans person it’s something similar. Sometimes I would like to not focus so much in my body, and I have tried uselessly to change my mind, trying to run away from being trans. I think this is an issue that we use to overthink a lot because we have this feeling of discomfort with our bodies, that it’s the one that pushes us into transitioning. We start to think about our body and and mind connection again and again because we always have this sensation that something it’s not right, trying to figure out a perfect solution to calm this feeling.

  • @quatre4
    @quatre45 күн бұрын

    Interesting conversation, also that tiny spider was pretty cute 🥰🥰

  • @Daan_Spieard
    @Daan_Spieard5 күн бұрын

    Thanks! Yeah very cute spider, also very small, I think it was just a baby 🥰

  • @thoughtpockets2892
    @thoughtpockets289212 күн бұрын

    I get it

  • @Him_He_Me
    @Him_He_Me12 күн бұрын

    You are very fortunate to have good understanding people in your life. Im very happy for you. They love you for who you are. I dont have that with my family. Im kinda just over being the understanding one. Im going to look after me and my kids now. Everyone else can go and live their own lives.

  • @Him_He_Me
    @Him_He_Me16 күн бұрын

    I hear you Daan. I am at that uncomfortable place. I am insecure, the lack of top surgery contributes to that. I went out for the first time in 30years and the next day I got pnuemonia. Smh. Relationships are a lot of work if you want a good one. I have been single for 12 years and thinking about being inclusive for other people is something Im not sure on. You don't have to live together. I know a few people that don't live together and have been dating for four years. I'd date you. But you're in Norway? lol Anyway, Ive been sick, Im recovering and I hope your confidence grows. I think the last time I got home at 5am, I was 19 years old lol.

  • @rushhour9033
    @rushhour903317 күн бұрын

    Why don’t you put the gel on at night? The instruction is’ prefer in the morning’, not you must put it on in the morning

  • @marcuscole4394
    @marcuscole439418 күн бұрын

    An ocean away, but I'm cheering for you Daan. You are an extraordinary person. I have to keep reminding myself to remain in the present day as much as possible and take on those challenges first and let what will come in the future to naturally present itself. Hopeully I may be more prepared when that time comes. You're a beatiful handsome man, I have no doubt that you will find your person one day, be it in a relationship or other. Some things just take more time to manifest or come to fruition. I'm sure you already know this for yourself. Cheers !

  • @theotheraccount1962
    @theotheraccount196218 күн бұрын

    Hey Daan. I just wanted to comment on your insecurities when it comes to dating. Yes, some men or women might “want a man with a p*nis”, however…there are many advantages of dating a trans man: 1) you understand the female experience better than any cis man ever could (and you’re likely a true feminist?) 2) you can choose your equipment size and fit the needs of the person you’re with 3) because you went through your transition, you have proven to be extremely resilient when it comes to societal pressure and went through with it anyway 4) you have actively chosen to take the difficult road of becoming a man, you are extremely self aware and take care of yourself which is something potential partners will surely value. Actions speak louder than words, my friend. And your actions have taken you to a place where you feel more comfortable and less insecure with yourself. Anyone who cannot see that doesn’t deserve to get to know you on a deeper level. Just saying. There are 100% potential partners out there who will recognize your achievement of actively choosing yourself. Also, one possible angle might be the queer community (gay, bi, pan) because those folks are open minded anyway. Just saying. Love your videos, keep them coming. Cheers.

  • @rainbowtropolis
    @rainbowtropolis18 күн бұрын

    It's wonderful to hear you're feeling more comfortable with you you are ☺ Dating is so terrifying, here in the states it's like risking your own life just to find someone if you're trans. There's someone out there for you, just a matter of finding them. I think a lot of us out here have the same insecurities about "who would want me", and it's a big boat to be in! After my transition, I came to the realization that society labels me as gay because I like men, but I haven't had lower surgery (might not ever get that far in transition). The only thing I came up with is that there's many different other ways to work around what I have, and what the other person may want/like. I joke with my other trans friends "I come with attachments, just like a vacuum cleaner!" and it gets a laugh, but it's also kind of a bridge between wants/needs of any relationship I find. I'm glad those places are out there that make said attachments as well. It's not the real deal, but it helps. It's hard to find out and realize what you're comfortable with and not comfortable with. Just like any part of life, it's all "learn as you go along". Honestly, I hear more and more people talk about keeping/having their own places even though they are together now that you mention it. I love my "me time" and my own space! Of course my cat is allowed here, but he's been my buddy for around 16 years or so now. I think pets are great! Indeed, I'm still here ☺Your contemplations and topics are nice to hear! Your plants and wildlife are a nice touch as well. Your videos feel like just two friends sitting on a couch thinking out loud, it's nice. I appreciate it! I haven't heard of any of the games you mention, I'm still playing Zelda Breath of the Wild and Tears of the Kingdom 😁 I love just wandering through the game foraging for things (I've beaten both games, but love the open "wandering around" part of the game more than the objective to beat the boss) I hope your week goes well, and the weather is nice for you and your groups 🌞

  • @markgreene3483
    @markgreene348318 күн бұрын

    Dude you are a hot mess!!! We love you as you are. You are thinking 1000 steps ahead of yourself.

  • @Unpotted
    @Unpotted18 күн бұрын

    You look healthy and handsome, so I’m sure you will have no problem meeting someone. Maybe use the apps at first, so only interested people reply. Just tell them who you are and what you like and let them decide if they want to meet. But take some time to get to know them by email, text, video chat, whatever makes you most comfortable. You’re in no hurry, right? In my last relationship, we kept our own apartments for the entire ten years. Good thing, too. When we needed time alone, we could just go home. The ultimate relationship luxury is alone time. And alone time gaming is even better! 😺✌️

  • @iGastify
    @iGastify19 күн бұрын

    So much progress already happened and I'm sure there's so much more to come! You'll get there for sure. 🙂 Thanks for sharing!

  • @sustainfem
    @sustainfem19 күн бұрын

    Totally understand wanting to be left alone in a crowd. I'm fairly introverted and enjoy my alone time. Nice to see a vlog from you again. 🐝🐞

  • @TCW1977
    @TCW197719 күн бұрын

    You'll be a great partner to someone. Don't even doubt yourself.

  • @John26767
    @John2676719 күн бұрын

    Hi Daan, great video and thank you for sharing. 🙂 You know I can understand your insecurities. If I was Trans I would feel exactly the same way too. It's one thing to share things amongst work colleagues etc. but it's a whole different opening up when it comes to the prospect of personal relationships. What came to my mind is the prospect of wearing the Trans Flag in the form of a badge. It is subtle, it's very politically correct and also a potential talking point for someone to approach you with. I think if it were me I would take this approach as a potential ice breaker. Hope this has been of some use to you. ❤

  • @DevAlo
    @DevAlo20 күн бұрын

    I‘m 21 and even at my age I often think to myself that I‘m so „old“ already since I‘m still not on T (probably won’t be for another 2 or so years) but videos like yours make me feel better because not everyone gets to transition at 15 and to see that people still find happiness after a later transition is really nice to see

  • @kthx_bai
    @kthx_baiАй бұрын

    i’m 29 and i started T in February

  • @chaseTheCase9
    @chaseTheCase9Ай бұрын

    Happy 2 years bro! 🎉 I am 9 days post op and blown away with my results. Recovery has been surprisingly smooth. No pain. Just super itchy 😂

  • @Him_He_Me
    @Him_He_MeАй бұрын

    I really didnt think about that. It would be weird to not be recognized. I really want that to happen soon to me!!! My voice is getting deeper but for some reason I keep talking high... I have to stop that!! I have a plant like yours and SOMETHING ate ALL the leaves!!! 😭😭

  • @Rose_Window
    @Rose_WindowАй бұрын

    Beautiful plant. :)

  • @Cal760
    @Cal760Ай бұрын

    How long did you wait being on T to have surgery?

  • @Cal760
    @Cal760Ай бұрын

    Do some of those people you mentioned ask REALLY intrusive questions tho? How do you deal w it?

  • @Cal760
    @Cal760Ай бұрын

    The weird thing is this has been happening to me for years and I am pre T. I don’t get it. It is almost as people chose to ignore. But they could also be genuinely lost. It hurts tho. It happened at my parents house once and it is so confusing to me honestly..

  • @kittycarsssss
    @kittycarsssssАй бұрын

    im a young trans boy and your vids help me a lot to show that trans people can be a succeeding adults and give me something to look forward to! im very happy and thankful i found out i was trans early in my life so i can spend the rest of my childhood just being the boy ive always been so i can experience the right childhood. but my question for you is sense you realized you were trans later in life how do you feel about how you never got to experience male childhood? and also your so manly and shit bro i wanna be just as manly as you when i can finally get on T and stuffs >:D

  • @markgreene3483
    @markgreene3483Ай бұрын

    Do the schools in the Netherlands have a summer vacation (our school close at the end of May until the middle to late August) or do they stay open all year? There were a couple of times in this video when the camera caught your profile in just the perfect light. You are so handsome. Take care of yourself and your indoor jungle.

  • @geraldaustin6338
    @geraldaustin6338Ай бұрын

    Hey Daan You’re lovely just as you are, so handsome, so take no notice. You are you and nobody’s business. Love your plants they are beautiful, hope you eradicate the bugs. I’m on Nebido once every three months and I am surprised just how great I feel on this. I’ve read such a lot of bad press about Nebido, but for me it’s really good. Take care and happy vlogging Gerry

  • @rainbowtropolis
    @rainbowtropolisАй бұрын

    I have a cat so I can't have house plants besides cat grass and cat nip, otherwise he destroys them (can't blame him, it's his nature!) The storm sounds fun and scary, plus a bit of a learning experience I imagine! What I've found nice about transition is that people I didn't like to talk to before don't come up to me and say hello. I can walk around and people don't bother me as much (my sister has a bad reputation in town and I'm tired of being identified as her sibling, not as my own person, if that makes sense) Rest is always a priority for sure! 😴 Thank you for sharing your plants and fun week with us as, I'm just old enough that I wouldn't be able to handle that pace anymore lol

  • @Darksky600
    @Darksky600Ай бұрын

    What do you say to people who say you're still a woman even if you change your outer appearance

  • @AnalyticalInvestigation
    @AnalyticalInvestigationАй бұрын

    Love you man ❤

  • @sustainfem
    @sustainfemАй бұрын

    Your hair is looking good. Glad you have been able to recuperate from your weekend!

  • @PlasBachGarden
    @PlasBachGardenАй бұрын

    Love all your houseplants!

  • @navaseelannavaseelan4648
    @navaseelannavaseelan4648Ай бұрын

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  • @confused9026
    @confused9026Ай бұрын

    I want to transition but I’m 19, in med school overseas where being trans isn’t even a thing. And I won’t have any money till I’m at least 27-30 when I can legally practice. I think seeing older trans people gives me more hope for my future. I have this idea in my head that life occurs in your early 20s, that’s when you reach your career goals and find the love of your life etc and once you reach your 30s that’s when you get old and boring (I’m sorry 30+ peoples). I feel like I’m already throwing my away my 20s studying medicine, especially depending on how far I want to take my degree. I have no idea how adult relationships work or how I can deal with being trans in a medical field. Maybe I’m young and dumb but all that’s in my mind is like romance, how does that work in your 30s? I never got a highschool romance since I studied to get into med school and I’m too scared to be in a relationship till i transition (also I feel bad if I have a partner who has to deal with me transitioning at age 30). I’m just anxious for my life and the feeling in sacrificing the “prime of my life”. I want so much now but I can’t have it 😢

  • @WhileAKyle85
    @WhileAKyle85Ай бұрын

    I'm going on 2 years this week and I think I'm getting the acne now. I shaved my facial hair today . And..... The whole front of my face is splotchy red.... And I didn't have acne this bad in high school. Lmao

  • @adrimo100
    @adrimo100Ай бұрын

    I have read the book, and it's just incredible the way the author transmits his feelings. I ended seeing my self reflected in his experiences.

  • @Him_He_Me
    @Him_He_MeАй бұрын

    Got my consult for top surgery for October!! Hopefully.... might need a hysto before then for odd changes :( Transhealth here in Australia, is informed consent for over 18. So testosterone is pretty easy to get on, and so it should be. But the gatekeeping for topsurgery is still there. I'll ask them if I need psychologist for this surgery.

  • @rainbowtropolis
    @rainbowtropolisАй бұрын

    I never thought about testing everyone if they're doing competitive sports. I'm not into that either, but you make a good point! Is the black and white cat trying to adopt you? 😍 I've had a hysto/double oophorectomy (my own preference), and one thing I've learned is there are so many different names depending on where & what you want taken out. I can get into details about my experience if anyone wants to know, my main learning point was about atrophy of said parts left in once on T. I agree with @unpotted, I figure if someone wants to share, they would. I like to ask questions, and we all have our preferences about what we're willing to share.

  • @Him_He_Me
    @Him_He_MeАй бұрын

    I want all of mine gone. Im past the age of reproduction, so taking it all out is fine.

  • @rainbowtropolis
    @rainbowtropolisАй бұрын

    @@Him_He_Me I never wanted kids myself, so it wasn't too big of decision for me once I started getting polyps and then found out I had PCOS. It wasn't a good experience at all.

  • @gamaholic9409
    @gamaholic9409Ай бұрын

    There are different types of hysterectomy. You can still produce estrogen if you keep one or both of your ovaries.

  • @Unpotted
    @UnpottedАй бұрын

    I’m very curious about your private life, but I’m too polite to ask questions. I feel like you would share that information if you wanted your audience to know. Thank you for being a good role model. 😺✌️

  • @ReginaTrans_
    @ReginaTrans_24 күн бұрын

    Just ask

  • @blaue_blue
    @blaue_blueАй бұрын

    Do you have to cut those flowers off of the pancake plant? I notice that the stem of the flowers are red.

  • @sustainfem
    @sustainfemАй бұрын

    Good Q&A. Some I would never have thought of.