Withdrawal: My Darkest Days

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My journey through Paxil and Xanax withdrawal had many trying times, but perhaps none were darker than my first 6 - 9 months off the SSRI Paxil. My winter and spring of 2013 were categorized by fear, physical sickness, and severe emotional lows, all of which made surviving daily life at home and work a monumental challenge. By the grace of God I survived day by day, always holding on to the idea of a better future, and healing began to reveal itself. If you are currently going through your own dark period because of antidepressants, benzodiazepines, or other prescription medications, please know that the pain and confusion won't last forever.
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  • @yes55504
    @yes555043 жыл бұрын

    These drugs should be banned.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    In the far majority of cases they should never be prescribed. No doubt.

  • @anniemcmillen940

    @anniemcmillen940

    3 жыл бұрын

    Definitely

  • @MercyGrace.JC7

    @MercyGrace.JC7

    3 ай бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind My son when in for anxiety and with a month he was on multiply 5150 hold and diagnose with all time of mental illness. It took us 7 year to realize it was these horrible medicine that did that to him.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 ай бұрын

    @@MercyGrace.JC7 It often isn't obvious at first the danger of these medications. That is understandable.

  • @Devlins10
    @Devlins103 жыл бұрын

    God bless any of those who are suffering with withdrawal.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    And God bless, you! Take care!

  • @suzyspencer2040

    @suzyspencer2040

    3 жыл бұрын

    God bless you ❣️🙏

  • @louisscd

    @louisscd

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind hello Michael thank you for telling us your story. Do you have any advice or videos specifically for benzodiazipines withdrawal. My whole life has been turned up side down and I'm about to crash into being in a very severe situation after not being able to work for a year now. God bless you, new Christian here trying to find my way 🙏

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@louisscd Hi Louis, all of my videos are about how to survive withdrawal and move forward in faith and in life in general. Whether AD or benzo withdrawal (and I went through both of them), the same things are needed to persevere: God, goals, support, a commitment to natural wellness and self-care, etc. I hope that you will check some of the others out! Don't despair, when it seems like the end, it is only the beginning. Just take things one step at a time, and stick by God as you do so! You'll be okay.

  • @Lailaudayni
    @Lailaudayni Жыл бұрын

    I’m amazed you continued to work. My brain just couldn’t get round anything.

  • @julieadams5389
    @julieadams53893 жыл бұрын

    Thank you Michael for these great videos. 13 weeks, off 30+ years on Clonazepam. A rocky road, for sure. Your videos are very positive and keep me looking forwards. My prayer is that God will use my experience of going through this journey of withdrawal, to help others walk it out. I need to have hope that my mess will turn into a message for others. I have read 3 of your books. Also so well read and full of encouragement. Early days for me but your advice is buoying me up and giving me hope that brighter days are ahead. Thank you. 🙂

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    You're so welcome, Julie. So glad you've enjoyed the books. Keep at it and keep finding daily sources of inspiration and encouragement as you move forward. God bless!

  • @tashaandjacob6836

    @tashaandjacob6836

    3 жыл бұрын

    Congratulations! I am proud of you❤

  • @julieadams5389

    @julieadams5389

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Rollwithit699 . Well it’s been nearly 6 months off Clonazepam. It’s been very difficult but I am seeing some improvements even though they are slow . I have found a very helpful site Beating benzos . Lots of good info on there and it’s very positive too. It’s a long road to recovery but we will get there eventually. 🙂

  • @julieadams5389

    @julieadams5389

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Rollwithit699 . Yes there is definitely hope. There is a great future for you on the other side of withdrawal. Thousands have made it through. Have a look at the site I mentioned.. it isn’t too big, like some and it’s very well run by a lovely lady called Rosalind Jones. She herself was dependant on benzos for 40 years and is walking in wellness now. 🙂❤️

  • @julieadams5389

    @julieadams5389

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Rollwithit699 . And another group that is great is From glory to glory Benzo page. Lots of prayer and great scripture. 🙂❤️

  • @whatistrue0293
    @whatistrue02933 жыл бұрын

    I pray and hope everyday for healing. I force myself to walk everyday and eat the best I can. Over 24 months off Lexapro. 23 months off Loritab. 22 months off Xanax. And finally 17 months off Seroquel. Ugh, What a ride! Thank you Mike. your testimony brings hope...

  • @Hitit123

    @Hitit123

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm now 29 months off all the RX drugs you mentioned with the exception to Lexapro! I was drugged up for over seventeen years....it's a long road.

  • @whatistrue0293

    @whatistrue0293

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Hitit123 my friend you are in my prayers. 13 years poly drugged and it will be worth the pain coming off. Thank you Lord Jesus...

  • @whatistrue0293

    @whatistrue0293

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Hitit123 my friend I can deal with the lack of sleep. The the last 3 major symptoms for me are. Air hunger, tightness in the center of my chest and a little anxious stomach. I hope they will end or become less troubling. I can only pray.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Keep at it. You're doing great!

  • @dmaster6088

    @dmaster6088

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm also trying to come off Seroquel

  • @xgengx7530
    @xgengx7530 Жыл бұрын

    Going through withdrawals right now, fucking hell. Depression, sleep issues, MAJOR Fatigue!!!

  • @xgengx7530

    @xgengx7530

    Жыл бұрын

    Im currently 4 months in, how long before i feel normal?

  • @ericblair54
    @ericblair543 жыл бұрын

    To me, your perseverance was/is astounding. I'm 71(72 in May), retired and doctor addicted to clonazepam(Klonopin) since 1997. After botched surgery in 20003, prescribed Morphine(350mg/day) my life was hell. Currently I take 1mg clonazepam/day and 2mg Suboxone/day. For OVER a year I have tried to taper(I feel heavily sedated and fatigued) but the withdrawal is unbearable. Insomnia(when I do sleep nightmares)The FEARS. a constant sense of dread and fear and lately anger, short-tempered, and impatient. And profuse sweating. At night I lay in bed and wish I could will myself to stop breathing. Life has no meaning or purpose while I feel like a slave to these drugs( I refuse to refer to these pernicious drugs as "meds.") It just seems so hopeless. Thank you for reading this comment. Your videos are inspiring.

  • @allanbarclay9541

    @allanbarclay9541

    3 жыл бұрын

    I was on antidepressants for 18 years and I finally got off the meds this year so keep going Eric as life does get better no more brain fog,memory loss or insomnia time is a healer 🙏👍

  • @ericblair54

    @ericblair54

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@allanbarclay9541 :TY

  • @kristijanignjatovski4415

    @kristijanignjatovski4415

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@allanbarclay9541 how did you go through it. I am 6 months off of escitalopram. It is hell.

  • @junghwanmoon3775

    @junghwanmoon3775

    3 жыл бұрын

    I came off 7 yr use of valium now im free for almost a yr now. I cant imagine doing this at old age.. i really wish you well.

  • @allanbarclay9541

    @allanbarclay9541

    3 жыл бұрын

    Kristijan you just have to keep going I started to feel better after about 8 months off citalopram and each month after things get better make sure you keep active and try and eat clean cut out processed foods artificial sweeteners gluten caffeine and things will get better, good luck

  • @corinnecerminaro9753
    @corinnecerminaro97533 жыл бұрын

    Great video Michael.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks Corinne! Glad you enjoyed it!

  • @ellaruthtellsthetruthchild2519
    @ellaruthtellsthetruthchild25192 жыл бұрын

    So grateful for this testimony brother 🙏🏽💜

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    2 жыл бұрын

    So glad you found my videos. Take care!

  • @donnabozman6909
    @donnabozman69093 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for your videos. I took my last effexor pill on October 15, 2020 and things are shaky and I ALWAYS feel better listening to your videos. You are a beacon of light of hope because you you've lived this experience I am going through now. I was on it for 2 years and spent another year and a half tapering. Even so, I'm left with digestive/sensory overload issues currently Feb 2021. Started effexor in June 2016. You offer me hope and your doing a wonderful service. Thank you. Everything is hard at the moment. 😢

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Keep at it, Donna, you're putting a lot of important work into improving your life! Don't get discouraged! Keep at it, it will pay off!

  • @timothyslaughter476
    @timothyslaughter4762 ай бұрын

    When the chickens come home to roost. We're strong. We got this. If you know you know.

  • @markparks3600
    @markparks36003 жыл бұрын

    Thanks for taking the time to help others try and get off prescription drugs!

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    You're welcome, Mark! Keep watching!

  • @shaktibloomyogawithgwen107
    @shaktibloomyogawithgwen1073 жыл бұрын

    This message you share is so desperately needed! I am going through my second year of withdrawal and feel that there is little hope and you provide a lifeline! Thank you.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    So glad that you found my videos. Don't get discouraged. It can take a bit to find restoration and strength, but it is happening little by little. Keep at it and stay encouraged!

  • @josephgregson6358
    @josephgregson63583 жыл бұрын

    Thank you Michael! I'm having a bad time at the moment with withdrawal. I'm 2 years and 2 months off my SSRI (citalopram) and I thought I was getting some sustained healing. I did have a relatively good month or two but now my symptoms are back and it's awful. You have to keep telling yourself that the healing is real but it's so hard to believe it is actually happening when out of nowhere the symptoms are back and it it feels like all that progress I made has just been undone. I'm sure better days are ahead but as we all know this is an incredibly frustrating situation. Thanks for the videos, and all my love and good wishes to everyone going through this, we will get there eventually

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yes it can be discouraging Joseph, with the ups and downs, but don't ever look at a down day (or even a down week or two) as "healing being undone." That isn't the case! Always moving forward, even if a person doesn't feel the best on a given day!

  • @josephgregson6358

    @josephgregson6358

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind thanks for your reply, I think I need to try to journal my progress a little more. Despite the recent set back, if I really look at my symptoms they are far far better than they were 2 years ago, or even 6 months or a year ago. I'm in a wave right now, but the waves at the moment aren't anything like as bad as the waves were at the beginning. Despite the remaining difficulties, huge progress has been made and hopefully journaling will help me to not lose sight of that (even though it's difficult when you're feeling worse). Watching these videos always gives me hope for the future so thank you so much!

  • @nokomismn9685

    @nokomismn9685

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@josephgregson6358 - It's been a year. Please come back and tell us how you are doing now. (I'm in withdrawal too.)

  • @azeminasuljic1558

    @azeminasuljic1558

    2 жыл бұрын

    Hello Joseph Have you experienced more healing since this post?

  • @jrman413

    @jrman413

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@josephgregson6358 How are you now?

  • @frajylexistence
    @frajylexistence3 жыл бұрын

    I can’t tell you enough how much this video is currently helping me thru my struggles. I was diagnosed with panic disorder and depression caused by it at the age of 17. I didn’t have health insurance so this clinic was probably on the lower end of the care they could provide. Long story short they put me on Paxil for 13 years now with no suggestion or willingness to lower the dose or see how I do without them. About 4 months ago I decided I need to do something about this and started a taper from 20mg. I’ll have to say this is the best method in terms of controlling most of the physical hell of symptoms from withdrawal but the emotional aspect is still something I am experiencing. Currently I’m dealing with extreme fatigue and stomach issues physically. Mental symptoms are currently the hardest for me to tolerate. I have completely flat lined with my emotions. Nothing is enjoyable and just getting through each day is extremely hard when there is no joy in anything. Interrelationship emotions are also non existent, even with family. I have withdrawn socially but I’m trying to still find ways to communicate with others. I recently got a cat and feel no emotions towards him which is a horrible situation. I know I have to keep fighting and I’ll eventually get out of this. It’s just tough knowing for possibly a year my life will basically be on hold and be completely upended. My goals and dreams seem further away but I have to have hope. Everyday is a battle but videos like this along with eating better and exercise I believe is getting me through. I’m so happy you were able to get off and you are truly and inspiration for others dealing with this horrible circumstance. Have a great day and I’ll keep coming back to this video when I’m having a tough time. I would love to come back to this video/comment in the future and look back and hopefully be in a better place.

  • @frankcrimi1082

    @frankcrimi1082

    3 жыл бұрын

    I just read your comments I'm going through it too I was paxil and Xanax for 14 plus year both I've been off on 3 years I still have my days !! Keep going

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    The flat emotions can be troubling, but you will get those back if you keep with it. It sounds like you are taking care of yourself physically, so make sure to keep the mental/spiritual diet positive and find support emotionally. So glad you found my videos. Keep at it and don't get impatient. Good things will come if you keep doing the right things for yourself!

  • @nokomismn9685

    @nokomismn9685

    2 жыл бұрын

    frajylexistence - You mentioned you'd love to come back and comment in the future. Please come back and tell us how you're doing now.

  • @KE54184
    @KE541843 жыл бұрын

    Thank you Michael!

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    My pleasure!

  • @danb3657
    @danb36573 жыл бұрын

    3 months off.....urinary incontinence, super anxious, regret is heavy, morning panic, fight or flight all day ......this is a brutal stretch right now. God bless you all.....Lord help us.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hang in there, Dan! It will get better!

  • @deadreckoner5276

    @deadreckoner5276

    3 жыл бұрын

    What about impotence?

  • @danb3657

    @danb3657

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@deadreckoner5276 not completely.....on occasion tho

  • @0827tt5xc

    @0827tt5xc

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@danb3657 how are you feeling now?

  • @tiffaniwilson8777

    @tiffaniwilson8777

    2 жыл бұрын

    It's hell😭😭😭 I'm tired and no one understands

  • @ringerheringa3052
    @ringerheringa30523 жыл бұрын

    Thank you, Michael! Your videos are so inspiring and encouraging!

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    You are so welcome, Ringer!

  • @allencollins6031
    @allencollins60319 күн бұрын

    Thanks for videos.

  • @margaretmanzer2194
    @margaretmanzer2194 Жыл бұрын

    Thank God I found you !

  • @danb3657
    @danb36573 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing. This is helping...I was on paxil for over 15 years, then switched to lexapro for about one year. I'm 2 months off of these ssri's and experiencing bad withdrawal, with morning panic/terror being brutal, among other symptoms Praying I get through this and thankful I'm not alone. Blessings.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    No you're not alone, Dan. So glad you found my channel. Take care today, and keep watching. You will see improvements!

  • @suemorris6246
    @suemorris62463 жыл бұрын

    I always like your videos

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Sue. Keep watching!

  • @thomasgonzales2728
    @thomasgonzales27283 жыл бұрын

    Hey guys ty ty for this Michael came off ssri medication 1 year and 6 months ago still going through cra,y symptoms this is my light

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Way to keep walking the path forward Thomas; keep taking care of yourself and getting healthier, and you will see breakthroughs this year! Take care today!

  • @sangeetalambh6389

    @sangeetalambh6389

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thomas how r u now

  • @anayarey
    @anayarey3 жыл бұрын

    On another video I asked how you made it through work while withdrawing so thank you for the insight! I am glad it worked out for you. I lost my job because I was so sick but on the flip side, I gained time to focus on my health as well as perspective on where I am in life and where I want go.

  • @anayarey

    @anayarey

    3 жыл бұрын

    Oh and they thought I was drinking too which was extra fun... but hey, it's good to be rejected by the wrong people so the right people can find you

  • @Pill-op4nh

    @Pill-op4nh

    3 жыл бұрын

    Take Care,blessings wishing the best in life

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Great way to look at it. This process can force us to "slow down" in ways we didn't wish for or anticipate, but the question is then how do we use that time! It can be a blessing! Use it to restore and find yourself.

  • @bwote
    @bwote3 жыл бұрын

    Great message! Thank you! I have been on ativan since 1987 when I was 27. I am 58 and still struggling with coming off these meds slowly. Also since 1991 I have been on Effexor for severe depression. I now realize for 7 years or so that I am in tolerance withdrawal from the benzo. All the emerg visits thinking I was having heart attack, etc etc. What I received was more benzos and that it was all in my head. Dealt with Crohn's and have an ileostomy from 1991. Nothing however, is worse than this tolerance withdrawal. Bodily symptoms of shaking, electric jolts, panic, and depression. Isolating, memory loss, racing mind. Coordination is off. As a creative I am always busy and working. Trying to get through this time and not think of dementia looming or the fact my tapering could be nearly impossible at this point. My brain literally has been drugged for 34 years. It scares me to think of it. God bless!

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Nothing is impossible, and it is never to late to make positive moves in a different direction. If you desire to make a change, just think of the first, practical step you can take toward that change, then take it. You'll be okay. And yes, creative work can be a help as a person is going through this. Great outlet for thoughts and emotions! Take care!

  • @tashaandjacob6836
    @tashaandjacob68363 жыл бұрын

    I just learned that klonopin i was prescribed and taking the last 5 years, even in low dose was detrimental. I cannot describe how grateful I am, to have found your channel. I will definitely be watching your videos to get through. Love the signs I'm already getting leading to healing. Gives me alot of strength and positive thoughts before even deciding if CT, or tapering is best. I will be following you closely.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    So glad you found my videos. I would taper the medication, not go cold turkey. It doesn't have to take forever, and even a quicker taper will be better than CT. Take care!

  • @deadreckoner5276

    @deadreckoner5276

    3 жыл бұрын

    @Tasha Watch Under no circumstances should you go cold turkey off of Klonopin.

  • @annaberg1200
    @annaberg1200 Жыл бұрын

    OMG, I don't know if I'll ever make it through this. I'm so scared!!

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    Жыл бұрын

    Hang in there, Ann, everyone has that thought. With time things will get better.

  • @farheenjamali8296
    @farheenjamali82969 ай бұрын

    I'm tappering gradually. 20 years of Benzo. But this video makes me believe that I can do it.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    9 ай бұрын

    Yes, you can. I hope my videos are helpful along the way!

  • @thomasche
    @thomasche3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    You're welcome, Thomas. Take care today!

  • @cduby1424
    @cduby14243 жыл бұрын

    You put it right back in their face, and that b... Well she'll get what's coming for her hate people like that, but it came around for the better for you anyway,your videos help me a great deal with my benzo brain.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    So glad the videos help. Keep watching!

  • @suzyspencer2040
    @suzyspencer20403 жыл бұрын

    Thankyou...♥️ I'm almost 3 yrs off benzo's ct. was on them almost 20yrs. Your videos really help. Also my anchor is Jesus, I love him, because he first loved me. I'm going to also work on getting myself in shape, more walking in nature. God bless you ❣️😊

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    God and exercise are pillars in healing and wellness!

  • @allencollins6031

    @allencollins6031

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hey Suzy. Ty for hope. I have no words for this

  • @jodiecmg1606
    @jodiecmg16063 жыл бұрын

    I appreciate the way you give hope but also dont candy coat things. Its going to be hard but many people have gone through various types of prescription withdrawals and also narcotic drug withdrawals. It's not easy but its obviously possible! Thank you :)

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    So glad you are enjoying the videos. Yes, it is possible. Just like anything else in life worth doing it takes work and determination, but it is possible! Take care and keep watching!

  • @donnabozman6909

    @donnabozman6909

    3 жыл бұрын

    I second that Michael does not "sugar coat" which is a good thing because he is being realistic.

  • @laurenwallace861
    @laurenwallace8616 ай бұрын

    Im day 28 off Ativan was on Ativan for 10 months. Waves and windows. Would love some positivity to get through.

  • @vixsterino
    @vixsterino2 жыл бұрын

    Can anti deepresants help?

  • @scottmatthews5892
    @scottmatthews58923 жыл бұрын

    Im off Paxil for three months after 20 years the last year was the hardest of my life.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hang in there, man. It's tough to make the adjustment to life without the drug, but the body and mind do adjust and life gets good. Grit it out through the dark days by knowing that they are the path to the light. Each day survived is a step closer to feeling better. Take care!

  • @evangelossioras311

    @evangelossioras311

    3 жыл бұрын

    How are you doing?

  • @Goree5157
    @Goree51575 ай бұрын

    Thanks for this informative videos. Does diet play an important role in benzo withdrawal symptoms? After lunch, when I take a short nap, I feel mental nausea, toxic type of feel in my head after getting up. Can it be possible due to the diet I take, and taking nap just after food? as this chemical type of toxic feel I don't experience other times of the day.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    5 ай бұрын

    A good diet can help healing, and a bad one could increase symptom intensity a bit, but what you describe is more about napping. For whatever reason, the process of waking up can be more of a challenge while healing, and doing it once a day is plenty. Most people, myself included, end up avoiding naps. Better to save the sleep for the evening time anyway!

  • @Goree5157

    @Goree5157

    5 ай бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind thanks, it really helpful.

  • @danielsantamaria7326
    @danielsantamaria73263 жыл бұрын

    I got off Zoloft 3 moths ago mind u I was taking the lowest dose...had some with-drawl effects for a couple weeks but then I got better thought I was in the clear....about a week ago I stated having balance issues and insomnia.. and that has brought some of the worst anxiety I also took this medicine aka poison for 3 years. My question is how did u deal with balance and insomnia.. And since I took this for 3 years how long does withdraw last. If anyone could help pls

  • @evangelossioras311

    @evangelossioras311

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hey how are you doing?

  • @danielsantamaria7326

    @danielsantamaria7326

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@evangelossioras311 sorry for the late reply hadn’t seen this before…as Michael says it takes time…..things have gotten better…a lot better however I still have some bad days but they are no where near as bad as they where…I am sure that things will keep getting better just gotta keep on going…no bad days only better ones ❤️

  • @pinciukauskas
    @pinciukauskas3 жыл бұрын

    What do you think it is possible to taper Seroxat after 15 years on it? I managed to taper to 6 mg had bad WD symptoms last year updosed to 10 mg now I feel stable but I am afraid to taper again. My dose was always 20 mg so at least I am on half of it

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    It certainly is possible. It will be a challenge, but it certainly is possible! Congrats on getting down to 10mg by the way!

  • @josephgregson6358

    @josephgregson6358

    3 жыл бұрын

    You could try tapering very very slowly. I know it might not be easy to cut up your pills (or perhaps you can find a liquid form of your medication?) but I would suggest dropping your dose by about 2 milligrams, so if you go down from 10 milligrams to 8 and see what happens. Stay on 8 for about 2 months and see how you feel and if you stabilise at 8 then you could try going down even more. Slow and steady is definitely the best way to taper. This does mean it may take quite a long time to get off the meds completely but it did help me to avoid the most serious withdrawal symptoms and I was able to function a lot better this way

  • @farahmoukaddem4577
    @farahmoukaddem45773 ай бұрын

    Hello, I hope someone can please answer or comment if they went through similar things as im going thru. I have been tapering down paxil 30mg, I want to be off meds that i have been taking for over 10 years. 2 days ago was my last pill of paxil. The withdrawal symptoms were somehow bearable at first while tapering down. Now its been 2 days meds free, I have none stop severe brain zaps, dizziness, weird eye movement accompanied by sensors disturbance in my head, I cant go out from the house, i constantly need assistance. Im so tired, muscle pain everywhere, crying spells, extreme anxiety and confusion As if im disoriented and disassociate from my entourage. I am ready to push through but did anyone get it and got better after ? I am not sure how long will i be able to handle this, please someone tell me they went thru this and it will go away in some time and i will be better.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    2 ай бұрын

    Yes, I went through these things and it got better. So have others. The withdrawal symptoms can be scary and confusion, but they do go away! Hang in there!

  • @kristijanignjatovski4415
    @kristijanignjatovski44153 жыл бұрын

    Hi there. I am new on your channel. Good info's you are giving us. I am now at 6 months off of lexapro, after 3,5 years on it. It is very hard. But wanted to ask, during your withdrawal have You used something like diazepam, to calm the symptoms. Ty

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    I was tapering Xanax after I had already quit the Paxil, so yes I was taking Xanax as I was dealing with Paxil withdrawal, but it was because I was in the taper process. I wouldn't add medications to "ease" withdrawal if possible. That just keeps the medication/withdrawal cycle going. The aim is to put that cycle to bed forever, even if it is difficult in the short term. Not easy all the time, but possible and worth it.

  • @ajvenable7937

    @ajvenable7937

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yeah don't ever take Benzos. For me SSRI withdrawal was easy. No words to describe benzo withdrawal.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@ajvenable7937 For many people, myself included, the SSRI withdrawal can be very tough as well. But yes, the benzo withdrawal can be tough too. If anyone can avoid the pills in the first place, that is the best idea!

  • @sangeetalambh6389

    @sangeetalambh6389

    3 жыл бұрын

    Kristijan how r u now

  • @kristijanignjatovski4415

    @kristijanignjatovski4415

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@sangeetalambh6389 since April back on Lexapro. couldn't hold it anymore.

  • @rotikithaali8959
    @rotikithaali89592 күн бұрын

    How should i cope with low learning skills Im off of paxil since 13 months?

  • @rrreeaz7722
    @rrreeaz77223 жыл бұрын

    I'm 8 months off meds , and that's exactly what I'm feeling now, especially about planning my future. I know it's a matter of time and patience is needed, but I'm not sure if it is worth all the pain meanwhile. The hardest point that people never understand what is going on , and nobody will understand why I have such mood or behavior. When I asked my doctor about it, he said after few months , meds should leave your system , and no more withdrawal. He prescribed me Beat-blocker for anxiety instead, that's funny. How can I trust more medications , if I'm already suffering from long withdrawal cause a dangerous meds I had.

  • @danielsantamaria7326

    @danielsantamaria7326

    3 жыл бұрын

    Glad to hear ur doing great man did u ever experience insomnia?

  • @rrreeaz7722

    @rrreeaz7722

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@danielsantamaria7326 Well Im not feeling my best yet, insomnia , not really, instead I sleep more, and it is often hard for me to wake up in the morning. my main issues are lack of motivation and low mood mot of the time.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Don't worry if others understand completely or not, Riadh. You understand why your emotions are low or in flux at times right now, and it is because you are working to better yourself and your health situation. You know your situation, and that is all that matters! Take care!

  • @sangeetalambh6389

    @sangeetalambh6389

    3 жыл бұрын

    Ree kee how r u now

  • @rrreeaz7722

    @rrreeaz7722

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@sangeetalambh6389 Hi , Thanks for asking. It's getting better but very slowly. My main struggle is anhedonia,lack of feelings and sexual dysfunction. These symptoms give me lots of anxiety but I'm trying to keep strong and be patient Hope you are doing well. Are you in withdrawal too?

  • @rotikithaali8959
    @rotikithaali89592 күн бұрын

    Thats alchol story is true to me Im a farmer in india, life here in india is not easy as yours One day i was picking up the bundles of wheat for threshers When i was off paxil for 4 months went cold turkey due to financial issues That thresher owners said me that you are on marijuana, i said no, he like i have an experience of 40 years on marijuna how you can deny that Then three or four guys banged on me and searched my whole body if there is any stuff I was so demotivated that time that I wasn't able to retaliate them Being a cricket player on any other day i would have punched those guys That day i realise im a moving corpse Its been 13 months feeling little better apart from reading, creative and social interactions and facing some periodical episodes of anxiety, Past regrets, body fatigue even doing small physical activities You are right spirit is important but i cant perform the namaz which are compulsory in my religion But one thing is sure that things will improve slowly and steadily

  • @dmaster6088
    @dmaster60883 жыл бұрын

    I'm going through this hell right now😱

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Sorry to hear that, but I hope my videos help!

  • @sangeetalambh6389

    @sangeetalambh6389

    3 жыл бұрын

    D master how r u now

  • @arThuG1
    @arThuG18 ай бұрын

    did you have any sound sensitivity during your withdrawal? everything is so loud right now and that is one symptom that is bothering me.. hopefully it goes away soon

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    8 ай бұрын

    Sensitivities are very common in withdrawal - sound, light, stress, etc. These sorts of things will settle down as time goes on.

  • @DomBaconMusic
    @DomBaconMusic2 жыл бұрын

    did you taper off of Paxil or go cold turkey?

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    2 жыл бұрын

    I tapered a little on the SSRI, but it was closer to a cold turkey, basically halving the meds and then waiting a while and stopping (to the best of my recollection). I should have tapered the Paxil more slowly and carefully, as I did with the benzos. It would have likely made things a little easier. Gradual tapering is recommended.

  • @amanjeetsingh730
    @amanjeetsingh7303 ай бұрын

    the biggest fear is insomnia but a tough man can overcome that

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 ай бұрын

    I hear ya. I had terrible insomnia. It improved. My trick was to read books in the middle of the night. I was tired, but educated.

  • @abhishekmohanty1071
    @abhishekmohanty10713 жыл бұрын

    I m dealing with pounding heart . I can feel heart beating.. will it go away . I was on xanax for only 1month . Now I'm 4 months off ..will it go away?

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yes, it will. Try to find breathing exercises that work for you to relax. That will help, too.

  • @laurenwallace861

    @laurenwallace861

    6 ай бұрын

    How are you now? @abhishekmohanty1071

  • @motherofanangel2291
    @motherofanangel22913 жыл бұрын

    Hello I would like to ask you I hope you can see my comment cuestion and you can reply, I was in xanax for 40 days. 05 at night and half during the day almost one mg I stopped it 20 days ago and Valium 15 days ago I struggled with insomnia and depression anxiety and low blood pressure and weakness are this withdrawal sintoms and when do yo think it will go away, thank you I hope you're doing well

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    As you've maybe heard before, there is no way to predict exactly when something will go away. But, given that you weren't on the medication for very long, the withdrawal shouldn't be extremely lengthy. That being said, remember that there were reasons you were on the medications in the first place, and those will have to be dealt with naturally. So, bottom line, find ways to relax and distract the mind. This helps with anxiety, stress, and fear as you move forward!

  • @motherofanangel2291

    @motherofanangel2291

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind thank you, in 4 months I took 8 different medications paxil 2 months quetiapine 14 days mirtazapine 40 days lorazepam 30 days trazodone 4 days hydroxyzine still taking escilatopram 6 days xanax 40 days and the last one Valium for detox 6 days I hope soon feel better

  • @nokomismn9685

    @nokomismn9685

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@motherofanangel2291 - Please come back and let us know how you are doing over time.

  • @motherofanangel2291

    @motherofanangel2291

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@nokomismn9685 still feeling bad struggling with insomnia I can't sleep 2 3 hours maximum feeling very tired and weakness anxiety depression on high levels, this is the worst, I'm thinking to return again to benzos I can't no more to wait to return my normal sleep .I just have strength for crying.

  • @nokomismn9685

    @nokomismn9685

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@motherofanangel2291 - I am so sorry to hear you are suffering.

  • @machonatal2043
    @machonatal20432 жыл бұрын

    I want to get off my ssri but I am to scared.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    2 жыл бұрын

    Everyone is scared to face the challenge, not just you. It is possible. It can be a challenge, but it is possible and ultimately a decision that can lead to a lot less fear in your daily life! Take care!

  • @angel_2022M
    @angel_2022M7 ай бұрын

    Did you experience dpdr, and feeling of unreality during your withdrawal? I haven't found any of your videos on this horrible symptom. I am 3 months off xanax, at this time, when my physical pains are less, I feel floating and spinning type of mind, and feels like no gravity that attachs me in the surroundings, my blurry vision makes it horrible and unbearable, I feel so detached and swiped away. It's so scary. Did you experience something like this? Is it a benzo withdrawal? Please help, I am losing hope.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    7 ай бұрын

    Yes I had a lot of dp/dr. That is very common and will improve as your healing continues.

  • @angel_2022M

    @angel_2022M

    7 ай бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind thanks. I hope it improves with time.

  • @lonnievisch6009
    @lonnievisch60092 жыл бұрын

    Did you have waves and windows?

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    2 жыл бұрын

    Some, but more of a steady battle in my experience.

  • @fittyleben9680

    @fittyleben9680

    10 ай бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrindso it was mostly a wave and then you healed all of the sudden or? When were you able to say there were no limiting symptoms that were arising due to the withdrawal from either xanax or Paxil? And then when would you say that you were “healed”?

  • @Qualitytap
    @Qualitytap3 жыл бұрын

    Mirtazipine? Any thoughts on the medication

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    I don't really have any medication specific thoughts. They're basically all the same to me at this point - worthless. If you feel you need a med. right now then fine, but I would begin working on yourself and working on a plan to eventually taper off. It doesn't have to be done this second, but not a bad idea to begin thinking about a gradual taper in the future in the context of improving health long-term. Take care!

  • @Qualitytap

    @Qualitytap

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Phin13760 nice what natural supplements do you take

  • @nokomismn9685

    @nokomismn9685

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Phin13760 - How did you get off mirtazapine? I've tapered to roughly 1.875 mg per day (roughly one-fourth of a 7.5 mg tablet using water titration) but my symptoms are nearly intolerable, and it seems I'll never be able to come off completely.

  • @nokomismn9685

    @nokomismn9685

    2 жыл бұрын

    Just following up on my comment above. I did finally manage to come off mirtazapine (aka remeron) completely. My "clean date" is Dec. 7, 2021.

  • @barbararay8578
    @barbararay85783 жыл бұрын

    I went into interdose withdrawal before I started my taper. I wasn't stable when I started so needless to say I have interdose withdrawals. I wonder if I should updose and start my taper again after I stabilize if that's possible at this point. Any thoughts?

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Interdose withdrawals won't stop necessarily with more of the medication, and updosing will just give you a longer road going back down to 0 mg. There can be a place for slight movements upward in a taper if a cut is too large or something, but by and large I think that if the goal is to get off the meds then just get moving forward. I think that the "stability" really comes when a person is totally off the meds for a while. Take care!

  • @barbararay8578

    @barbararay8578

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind Thank you, so I'll just keep moving forward. I've watched so many KZread horror stories that honestly I'm super scared.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@barbararay8578 I would change your viewing habits going forward if you want to be successful in your taper. That will help!

  • @barbararay8578

    @barbararay8578

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind I definitely need to do that. Thank you again for responding

  • @andygugu5595
    @andygugu55953 жыл бұрын

    I m. Scared I m not gonna make it

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    You will make it, Andy. You will be okay.

  • @cherylwilliams4738

    @cherylwilliams4738

    3 жыл бұрын

    I feel the same way

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@cherylwilliams4738 You will make it, too!

  • @1MNUTZ

    @1MNUTZ

    3 жыл бұрын

    Keep pushing through it you will make it waves and windows. Everytime you learn to swim through the waves of symptoms a new window of relief will open up.

  • @laurenwallace861

    @laurenwallace861

    6 ай бұрын

    How are you now?

  • @katrinamenzies9398
    @katrinamenzies93983 жыл бұрын

    I’m struggling

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    Don't despair, Katrina! We all struggled mightily at one point, and it doesn't last forever.

  • @ajvenable7937

    @ajvenable7937

    3 жыл бұрын

    Struggling too. I feel like I'm in a bad dream. Scared to the limit. I just keep putting in the hard work of being healthy and hope for the best.

  • @katrinamenzies9398

    @katrinamenzies9398

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@ajvenable7937 I’m right along side with you xxxx

  • @katrinamenzies9398

    @katrinamenzies9398

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind 🥰🥰🥰

  • @katrinamenzies9398

    @katrinamenzies9398

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@ajvenable7937 email me if u want we can support each other

  • @jbholland1987
    @jbholland19873 жыл бұрын

    everyone is talking about SSR WHITDRAW but.... arent they just the normal symptoms we had BEFORE? i mean, i was on paxil for 16 years, and i just quit for about 6 weeks now, i feel AS HELL... but i see alot of people saying its a withdraw etc, but ? where do these things came up from? i just have the same feelings i had BEFORE the AD. but now just worse.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    3 жыл бұрын

    A part of the withdrawal and healing experience is always going to involve coming to terms and finally dealing with some of the reasons we got on meds in the first place - anxiety, depression, grief, etc. That being said, at 6 weeks off of 16 years of SSRI use, I would venture to say that the majority of what you are going through is withdrawal related at the moment. In the future, the time will come to get better at solving the pre-existing issues, but for now it might be more about withdrawal coping and survival. Hope that helps a bit ...

  • @jbholland1987

    @jbholland1987

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind ''In the future, the time will come to get better at solving the pre-existing issues, but for now it might be more about withdrawal coping and survival. Hope that helps a bit ...'' Oke could be, but what about the people that say they have been feeling this for YEARS?? In the Netherlands we have about 1 mil users of A.D's. from what i see and learn, on other platform something like whitdraw surival forum or something, people are paranoid? In theire eyes everything is the cause of whitdraw... First i feel more anxity because of these statements, second i doubt it a bit... like i said in my story, ive bin on the meds because of a probem, it helped, i had my ups and downs. but not strong enough evidence to say it helped me for the long term. so now i quit en feel shit again. but how do we know its the whithdraw or just my symptoms? or in other words also theire symptoms from people who are convinced its from the AD> i understan what you say it could be now shit because of the whithdraw...

  • @1MNUTZ

    @1MNUTZ

    2 жыл бұрын

    those are neuro emotions and often times they are confused with the original reason you were put on the meds anxiety/depression/panic/ocd it's all the symptoms of withdrawal

  • @rosebirrell567

    @rosebirrell567

    Жыл бұрын

    No. We made my regular symptoms seem easy

  • @jbholland1987

    @jbholland1987

    Жыл бұрын

    @Ksenia Rasputin thats pretty smart

  • @allencollins6031
    @allencollins60312 жыл бұрын

    Pure hell.

  • @TheLovelyGrind

    @TheLovelyGrind

    2 жыл бұрын

    I can be a challenge, no doubt. Thank the Lord it does not last forever!

  • @allencollins6031

    @allencollins6031

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@TheLovelyGrind how long did it take you? At 2 yrs 4 mos. Seems unending.

  • @xgengx7530

    @xgengx7530

    Жыл бұрын

    ​@@allencollins6031 this comment was 8 months ago hows your healing? Im only off paxil for 4 months, i feel like shit.

  • @allencollins6031

    @allencollins6031

    Жыл бұрын

    @@xgengx7530 it takes time. Just stay away from that shit. Finda another way.