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@sanachristian4577

10 ай бұрын

I luv yo southern accent. Ya sound like me and my sista. “Thelma and Louise!” 🥰

@jillbecker9535

10 ай бұрын

I went to camp winacka (or however, you spell it) I think I went in like 97? 98? How cool!!

@joe-mama6451

9 ай бұрын

@NuanceHoe - I was reading the links in your google doc - I noticed Eckhart Tolle in the list. I was curious where you are now from a theological perspective, because I read a statistic which said that something like 40 percent of ex-mormons, end up going agnostic, atheist, or just nothing at all. I resigned in 2020, and I can tell you, the new age is just another highly cult-like and false religion. Tolle, Oprah and others in that sphere are part of it IMHO. I dove heavily into the occult after leaving....learned A LOT, but have recently concluded that it also needs to be deconstructed from. So just curious where you have landed....so far.

@anjelikag

7 ай бұрын

Congrats Carah!!!! Wet your whistle this hoe down season while watching Nuance Hoe 🥃🍻☕️

@anjelikag

7 ай бұрын

Not from UT, but from MN and would diiiiiiiie to be able to see you in Utah!

I’m a CSA survivor. We get to talk about it even if they do feel bad now. I am glad you are feeling safe enough to talk about it now.

@tararose5136

11 ай бұрын

I think talking abt it is the only thing to make them feel bad don't let them forget if you can't forget

@luxshampoo8520

10 ай бұрын

a victim will never forget.

The message that "Mormons are so much better than the Mormon Church" is excellent. True of many churches I'm afraid, but so true from your experience.

I watched this in full. Am not a Mormon or ex-Mormon, but started watching Mormon Stories and Cults to Consciousness in past weeks (spurred by some items in news) and saw you on both. I liked your vibe :) I’ve never seen your comedy (beyond here) but find these channels and your sharing very valuable. Letting go of the mythology of one’s background must be very hard but I really respect the honest detail I’m hearing. Thanks :)

@CarahBurrell

10 ай бұрын

❤️❤️🤟🏻 such a nice comment! Thank you!

@laxboy6465

4 ай бұрын

read the book and pray. it will wake you up. Attack it after you challenge it. Go and Hoe no more!

I listened to the whole thing and I honestly just love you. Keep nuancing the shit out of the church.

@CarahBurrell

11 ай бұрын

❤❤❤

@Plethorality

11 ай бұрын

​@@CarahBurrelljust starting to listen. Might have to do it in bits. Just saying hullow from Australia. Never been mormon. Thank God. Stunned to see how much it has influenced other church cultures and theology... Not from scripture, but the made up shit... Makes more sense of stuff that made no sense. Anyway, keep up the good work, luvvie : )

@Leif208

10 ай бұрын

@@CarahBurrell "Then shall the kingdom of heaven be likened unto ten virgins, which took their lamps, and went forth to meet the bridegroom..."

@Kim-anions

4 ай бұрын

I personally think the totality of her entire personality is complaining. Is there more to her?

I'm not Mormon, but I know what it's like to be raised with a shaming/high demand faith & family. Regardless, I have felt frustrated and even defensive of my Mormon friends when hearing your videos. I didn't give up, I dug deeper and listened to you more. THIS video opened my eyes to your position and purpose. I apologize for my defensiveness that plugged my ears. I get it now.

@SternDrive

6 ай бұрын

I understand how Mormons when they first get into the church they are taught not to check things out, and block alternate view points. But what I don't know why a non Mormon would "plug [her/his] ears". What causes this? Shouldn't we all be opened to new information?

This was really great Carah 🥰 I was like your husband when I left the church, just didn’t like the bigotry and patriarchy.. I learned all the falsehoods much later on since the internet didn’t exist 35 years ago when I left. I really appreciate all that I have learned from you, Mormon Stories, Cults to Consciousness etc. I actually realized that I was raised in a (Mormon) Cult from watching Leah Remini talk about Scientology! My mind has been blown for the past year! So cool 😎 ❤

You have the gift of self awareness and the ability to see the world through the eyes of others. Your beautiful story demonstrates poignantly why many others stay in the Mormon church because they lack the empathy for others that you demonstrate so well. You are very special.

I can’t get over the brilliance of that western themed opening. Soothing, relaxing, and entertaining. Five mega stars!

@Allthoseopposed

11 ай бұрын

It reminded me of the prequel to “Yellowstone”, “1883” and the narration at the beginning and end of the episodes, it’s soooo good!!!

❤❤ i have Asperger's And I was abused growing up and was told by a friend at the time to suck it up because no one will believe you with your condition. I was 16 at the time and now at 30, im only slowly recuperating from the experiences i went through. Go you, for speaking out ❤

@anjalE30

11 ай бұрын

That isn't medical It's actually witchcraft There's a demonic spirit working in your Life and it most likely stems from the church

Yaaaassssss. Even as a #nevermo, but deep in my own deconstruction, your voice has been and continues to be such a powerful companion. Thank you. ❤️

This is fascinating, thank you for being so generous with your insights and experiences Carah. Looking forward to many more pods

Good luck with your premiere. I have watched some good stuff produced by you earlier. I am a "nevermo", but I did a lot of research about Mormonism. I hope that I can learn something today.

Thank you for sharing your story, you are a force of nature stepping into yourself and learning your own super powers! One thing that resonates with me on your comments about our journeys - changing thought and beliefs are the measurements of living a full life open to new experiences. You had the courage to step into a different world of different beliefs. Seems like the pathways for you and your children just multiplied!!

As always…you are brilliant, relatable, and wonderfully articulate. I ALWAYS enjoy listening to you, Carah! You bring me comfort, clarity, and THANK GOD …HUMOR!! You effing crack me up. 😘😘😘😊. So so so so much love back to you!

I really enjoyed this. Loved the Tig Notaro stories, absolutely love her. What a moving journey you’ve been through. It takes courage, looking at oneself without shame or complacency. Thank you for sharing; I was deeply moved.

You are a lot of fun . I am looking forward to your podcast. Take care 😊

I enjoyed hearing your story, including your songs! I look forward to watching more of your content!

Thank you for sharing your story! I’ve been hearing bits and pieces of it since you were on John’s podcast, but I loved this comprehensive timeline. I love that you are in touch with your intuitive nature. Which will just get stronger and stronger as you use it. Life is messy for everyone. Welcome to taking off the rose coloured glasses! Lol.

Thanks for sharing I am going through my own faith crisis right now. It sucks

@CarahBurrell

11 ай бұрын

You got this ❤️❤️❤️💪🏻

@kellyreilly-robinson2130

11 ай бұрын

More light is coming! Everyday little by little you feel lighter, stronger, happier and confident in your own truth♥️. It is painful along the way but it is so worth it, You are worth it

@mommyofkittens4809

11 ай бұрын

It’s not easy but you’ll get through it. ❤

@dsoule4902

11 ай бұрын

To thine own self be true

@dsoule4902

11 ай бұрын

It's rather eye-opening to established religions sweep along with the political winds. They veer from the Bible they claim to revere. I've attended Metropolitan Community Church (I needed a harbor after my gay friend's baby was murdered, and it was her congregation. I've NEVER felt G-d as I did that day at the hospital as so many congregants arrived at the ER, they were sitting, packed into the hallways.) eventually it became an issue that I'm not like them. There's a pls w for everyone, in the right time. The Spirit , and how we treat each other, is what matters. Duck guys,,,, be safe.

Carah, I never got a real sense of your true personality on Mormon Stories. I’m so happy I listened to this episode. Getting to know you is great. You gave me two big light bulbs to self understanding which will forever endear you to me. I’m on my healing journey after leaving the church this lightened some heaviness I have been carrying so thank you from the bottom of my much lighter heart. I wish you success with this channel. I’ll be watching and supporting

This is the most real episode of any Mormon podcast I’ve heard. And exactly what I needed right now. Thank you

Aloha my favorite apostate! ALWAYS happy to see you. I look forward monthly to seeing you with John Larson on Mormon Stories. I love your first hand insight and quick wit!! Congratulations on going solo! Now, I have one more channel to look forward to watching!

@CarahBurrell

11 ай бұрын

🥳🎉 Aw thank you!

You are so brave! Thx for showing up! This Halloween is my 10 year mile mark beeing what I call "out!" I want to appear on your show to share secrets...

Love love love this! You talk so openly it feels like we're right there with you. I have teenage daughters and would be so proud if any of them grew into women like you, with confidence, intelligence and humor (I know they will because they're awesome!). Thank you for all your work here!

I left 20 years ago and I still worry about speaking out publicly bc of how my family would feel or react.

@peterpulpitpounder

4 ай бұрын

If you left 20 years ago, what did you leave to? What did you embrace thereafter? Did you totally abandon God, faith and the church? I think leaving was the right thing to do, because the LDS church is false, but remaining religiously neutral thereafter is not a good thing either.

@jadephoenixmama

3 ай бұрын

@peterpulpitpounder good question. For a while, I didn't pressure myself to immediately find another church or belief to fill the hole. I was mostly trying to get by working and paying bills. I had undiagnosed ADHD until a few years ago. I was stuck in a freeze response basically for a long time. It took a long time to be able to admit to myself it was spiritual abuse what I went through as a teenager having a faith crisis in high school and not having a choice but to stay fully in the church. I have found I feel the most spiritually connected and fulfilled after spending time alone in nature. I have always been a friendly person, but I need my solitude, even more now as a mom.

@peterpulpitpounder

3 ай бұрын

@@jadephoenixmama Thank you for sharing your thoughts. As I've shared on so many occasions, there is no one who has any greater sympathy for the spiritually abused than Jesus, who, according to the Bible, directed some of His greatest condemnation toward the corrupt religious leaders of His time. They were masters at controlling people, manipulating people, and extracting gain from the masses. It was all about power, control and the advancement of their "own" agenda. They even "devoured widows houses" (Matthew 23), which is about as bad as it gets. It can be very difficult for anyone who has been a victim of spiritual abuse to "sort" out what is and isn't within the religious realm. But the reality is that no degree of abuse can ever negate God or the truth He has given us. It is still there, with all its healing efficacy, waiting to be embraced. It is our very foundation. When people start attending our church, especially when I know they have been hurt within the religious realm, I try to encourage them to just come in and take a quiet and restful place in the pews, and to simply seek the Lord in a slow and methodical fashion. One day at a time. One beautiful promise at a time. One does of grace at a time. I don't want them to feel any unhealthy pressure. It's okay not to have all the answers. It's even okay to admit to confusion, anger and pain. Hey, we all have issues we are working through. Healing often comes very slowly, but God's grace can work wonders in our lives if we give it time to work. And, of course, attending a wholesome church is critical to the healing process, where you are surrounded by kind, high character, spiritually mature Christians who can make those important "deposits" into your soul. It's that whole "iron sharpens iron" thing the book of Proverbs talks about. Maybe it's this week you will need a deposit from another Christian, and maybe next week you will be the one who will make the needful contribution into that person's heart. Jesus said, "Come unto me... and Learn of Me... and you will find rest in your soul." I pray you will find this rest Jesus spoke about. :)

I thoroughly enjoyed this! I especially got a lot out of the last 20 minutes! Thank you Carah!!! I will follow your new channel.

So excited to see this!! 🎉

My soul has been needing this and I am heartbroken with relief hearing your every word. I am only partway through my first time watching but I have had the thought now more than 10 times already that I want to play this again. And probably repeat it as many times a day for ever. I don't have the words on my own to articulate my faith crisis and I have been consuming information at an overwhelming pace. I have been faced with the congruency of , one, excitement and anxious desires to understand more and hear perspectives and establish myself in new communities. On the flip side, I'm emotionally grieving and feeling shattered and fearful of social repercussions from those in my neighborhood and workplace and also my family who is still in. It's such a broken feeling. So I am now at a place of hesitation, because I'm trying to protect myself and gently move through this grief process, and also trying to be gentle with myself as I begin speaking these personal new beliefs and post Mormon mindsets. It's like I'm a baby learning new words and learning how to speak for the first time. So hearing and watching you be so eloquent with exactly my same sentiments is honestly the most incredible gift. They empower me and validate me and I know that with replaying this I can gain confidence in similar eloquence, while connecting to my story and my truths. I barely know you and I'm so new to all this. But I love you more than I can explain. I love this and I thank you 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️

@jamiegallier2106

5 ай бұрын

❤hugs❤ I was there myself a few years ago and found Paulogia’s channel. His older video series gently and logically lay out the manipulation, apologetic tactics, indoctrination, epistemology and ontology, and separates facts from fiction in the bible. There’s also many videos with incredible bible scholars, biologists, and other experts. They help underline why our faith failed us, why apologetics developed, and how to evaluate evidence and claims. Deconstructing is a painful process and there’s a lot of traps we can fall into, learning what skepticism is and how to use it is imperative. It can take years, decades, to work through all the big and little questions- and he has it all covered! I cannot recommend him highly enough. These personal stories and hidden whitewashed histories Nuancehoe provides are so relatable and invaluable! They start us thinking and realizing we are not alone. Paulogia’s channel helps rewire the lost critical thinking skills and cognitive bias our indoctrination instilled. Wishing you the best. There is so much peace on the other side.

GREAT video, you've got a knack for this. Thanks for sharing such an interesting and fun look into your past and personality.

Carah, your articulation of your story is amazing! So love enjoy listening to your podcast👍🏻👍🏻 2 thumbs up❤

You're always the best, C-Money; love you to bits

You are so amazing and brave and strong. I love what you’re doing xxx

I love you as a podcast host. So easy to listen to!

I really appreciate your nonjokey persona. Thanks for letting me getting to know you better. ❤

This was amazing! Thank you so much! ❤

@CarahBurrell

11 ай бұрын

Glad you liked it!!

I FINALLY had the chance to listen to this. Sorry, been a hectic couple of months. I just have to say that your story resonated with me so much. The comedy to cope thing hit HARRRD. I'll be catching up here and there on your videos. Thanks for everything you do. Love the outtro. We're all messy people in a messy place messily trying not to mess up.

@CarahBurrell

8 ай бұрын

❤️ thanks for watching!

Thanks for sharing your experiences and for being so awesome!

@CarahBurrell

11 ай бұрын

❤ ❤❤

Carah, that was truly brilliant. I’m just used to your hilarity. What a journey! As I always want ex-MOs to know - you are so incredibly brave. To question everything you have ever known and to process that and then to act on it. I cannot imagine a greater stress. It gives new meaning to “the rug being pulled out from under you”. I just can’t even. I am so very proud of you. I adore your hilarity but this vulnerability was gripping. You have literally saved your children, girl. From a dirty old old gentile, I LOVE YOU. And My Jesus does too. Get it girl, you are exquisite and I’m thrilled you exist x

@CarahBurrell

10 ай бұрын

Well daym 🫶🤟🏻😭❤️

@ElyssiumEarth

8 ай бұрын

@@CarahBurrell haha. Sorry man! I get intense! It comes honestly tho !

I was laughing out loud as I walked around the house doing my chores & listening to your comedy tunes! You are hilarious.

There's so much about this I could go into but my jaw dropped at finding out your husband was the Aaron on Professor Blastoff!!! I remember that. I'm a huge comedy nerd and Tig has been huge in my life and this is an amazing nugget to find you guys having this connection to her and one of my favorite podcasts

I’m sorry I’m a continuously commenter. I won’t wait until the end of an episode, whenever I hear something that speaks to my truth. I’m just going to comment as I go. While our stories are different, I had a lot of the same feelings, personality traits, and coping skills that you did. Being a comedian and making fun of things people normally wouldn’t is what helped me cope and basically frame me into the person I am today. Love you Carah! Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your personal experiences and truth. I’ve had trouble finding community since deconstructing, but I’m glad I’ve been able to find it here in your videos.

Love your authentic presentation which ultimately is the best pearl of great price you can pass on to others. You go girl!

This is so helpful for all kinds of deconstruction. Thank you, Carah 💗

Thank you so much for your story and congratulations on your new show and organization. I am a Black woman, and it occurs to me that many of the amazing people that I've listened to on this topic probably fall on the spectrum of tolerating my community to hating us. I hope that the move away from conservatism includes embracing Black people and people of color. 💜

@mitsuracer87

7 ай бұрын

Stop watching so much CNN. No one hates you

Thanks for being so genuine and vulnerable sharing your story. Never in a million years did I imagine I would be on “this side” of the LDS fence. Much of what you said resonated with me. Appreciate you!

It is Mormon night for me. Jordan and McKay on natalielawyerchick is on deck after your premiere. Love the songs!👏👏I still miss your levity on Mormon Stories.

Carah, its been really interesting getting to know you over the past couple of years. In this video (I listened through its entirety) I feel like I finally got to know the authentic real Carah. It was refreshing to see you set aside (mostly) your nuancehoe sarcastic comedy strategy (although I appreciate that too) and come down to earth with an authentic calm reasoned testimony based in love and critical thinking... very refreshing. Most of what you've said I can identify with as well; almost every sentence, frankly. The difference for me is that when I had to admit that when I thought about the evidence for the divinity of Christ, rather than saying I have none and therefore dropping that belief too (most exmos are atheist) I felt called into searching for that evidence. I graduated Bible college (2006) and I graduated seminary (Bethel, St Paul, M.Div. 2014) and I discovered that there is an overwhelming plethora of evidence for the divinity of Christ. I would recommend the book from Lee Strobel... "The Case for Christ". That said, I so much appreciate your journey. We have very much of the same "shelf" and some of the very same experiences that come from the weight that breaks that shelf. This 2hour video was very much worth listening to (although I confess listening on 1.25 speed) and I appreciate your candor and authenticity so much. You rock. marcus

So excited to watch this 🥰

Thank you for your story. Very different from mine since I didn't feel the community to my fellow Catholics. I spent some time searching and felt things that felt like divinity but later realized it was me. So that part I really resonated with. I love hearing other's journey and here is a late welcome to a non- divine universe

Fantastic video, thank you for sharing! I've never been Mormon but became a Christian at 12 and was super Christian in high school and college and then went through 10 years or so of being kind of in denial about how little I believed about Christianity anymore and last year started deconstructing. It's tough but kind of like when you saw that information about the book of Abraham, once you see it, you can't unsee it. I have a lot of very conservative family members which is sad and frustrating so your story gives me hope that maybe one day they will change.

A very interesting and insightful video. As a British Never-Mo, my deep interest in the lived experience of ex-Mormons, and the thought processes that leads up to them leaving the church, comes from having spent three months as a live-in worker at a hikers’ hostel which was owned by a Mormon family in southern Utah (Mormonsville) in 2018. Whilst I was there, I went to church with the family, read Mormon literature (books and magazines), watched some of the televised General Conference, and observed the attitudes and family dynamics. I was in Utah over Thanksgiving, and accompanied the family up to Salt Lake City for a family get-together (the wife’s parents and descendants) which numbered over a hundred people. I stayed at the homes of different members of the extended family for a several days, and I asked them about their mission experiences (in Russia, Mexico and Uzbekistan), asked them whether they had ever doubted their faith, and how they would feel if one of their children dated or married a non-Mormon etc.. I, myself (an atheist), have lived and worked in seven different countries, as a journalist, teacher and university lecturer amongst other things, but my three months spent in the midst of the Utah Mormon community (situated just five miles from the FLDS community at Short Creek, on the state line with Arizona, so I would be shopping for groceries in Kanab alongside the women and girls in their prairie dresses) remains one of the most interesting periods of my life. To have observed lives where every aspect is determined by a religious ideology and thought control was fascinating.... and sobering. (When I walked past the local elementary school during recess, I watched all these blond-haired little Mormon children running around and playing, and wondered what the future would hold for them, with the course of their lives already prescribed, with no deviation tolerated.) Five years on from my Utah experience, I continue to watch the ex-Mormon community KZread channels with great interest. I am so glad that such material is available and accessible for those whose lives are dictated by their religion but who may feel unable to question it publicly; for those who are in the process of transitioning out of a high-demand religion, and for those who have already done so... and also for the wider world outside of the Mormon bubble, so that we can gain an understanding of the psychological harm the religion causes to individual lives and the consequences for those who leave the church.

@jacobbuzan374

11 ай бұрын

The church is only a "high-demand" religion if you want it to be or if your family is a bunch of fanatics. Growing up in the church, I worried a lot about outward appearances and depending on church leaders to strengthen my testimony. Now, after maturing quite a bit while still active in the church, I now go to church and practice its teachings because I have seen for myself and have felt in my heart the goodness of all things taught and practiced in the church. The only way you can know it is true is by testing it. And I have many times over. At the same time, I have grown much more tolerant and less judgy of others. I really don't care anymore about a lot of things people say or do. What matters is our own salvation and exaltation, our own relationship with our heavenly Father. With everything else, we can make as many mistakes as we want because God doesn't expect us to be perfect. That takes the "high demand" off of your shoulders. I have come to a point in my life that I am tired of the world and its lies, and find myself feeling like the only thing I get right is living the gospel. Because even if I'm imperfect, it's good enough to the Lord if I try. As long as your heart is in the right place, you can feel peace in the midst of the chaos.

@orisonorchards4251

10 ай бұрын

@jacobbuzan34 bullshit. What a terrible thing to say while listening to someone else's LIVED experience. So gross.

@jacobbuzan374

10 ай бұрын

@@orisonorchards4251 What a terrible thing to say? What part of what I RESPECTFULLY said was BS? Don't come talking about disrespect while cussing someone out in this conversation. Wanna join? Be respectful.

@jacobbuzan374

10 ай бұрын

@@orisonorchards4251 BTW: I was replying to a comment on the video. I wasnt commenting on what nuancehoe was saying. Better be careful and read the context first, lady.

Holy shit you’re funny in songs and the spoken word??? I’m absolutely amazed!!!

@CarahBurrell

11 ай бұрын

❤Thanks. Next up: leveling my audio so my guitar is picked up by the microphone.

Yessss!!!! Thank you so much for sharing!

Nevermo from the UK here. Discovered you through Zelph on the Shelf. Thankyou for sharing your story. Look forward to hearing a lot more you.

@CarahBurrell

10 ай бұрын

Awesome! Thank you!

Thank you for your honesty and transparency. It is a huge help to people deconstructing.

Thank you for taking a huge step. I am the father and grandfather of a daughter and 2 grandchildren that are entangled in this mess. Trying to find ways to help my family...so watch and read all I can to one day help them.

That period song was amazing, I need it on Spotify, your voice is really good ❤

Damn Carah, I really do love your sense of humor! You gotta channel that energy into a standup comedy routine here in Utah! I literally laughed out loud, when you said the “Ted Haggard vibe” 😂 on a previous podcast.

so happy to see this Carah! You deserve the world, I wish this never happened to you

I’m sorry for the abuse that you suffered. I applaud your courage to publish your experiences. Your deconstruction story is inspiring, as I have traversed a similar path coming out of evangelical Christianity.

Thank you for being so real! Keep it up❣️

Oh, thank you, you are such a strong, brave, resilient, and talented person. I just wrote on Patreon how fun it is we shared a childhood geography, but I am so sad we also share trauma. I am glad the church helped you back then. Unfortunately, my religion was used to punish me even as a very young child for my own abuse. Ugh. And look at all the GOOD you bring to the world by sharing your talents , truth, and wisdom! I recently joined your patreon and will donate to your 501c , too. ❤

First of all, you’re gorgeous. Thanks to being willing to be so vulnerable and share.

Wow, this was an intense story! Thank you for sharing your experience. I saw you on Cults to Consciousness, so I came here to learn more about you. It is very satisfying to hear a tale of someone discovering their own human faculties and personal agency and bravely following the path where it leads. It sounds like maybe you've found your faith in people (I hope?) where it faltered with religion -- that is, people that deal honestly with ideas and information, people that demonstrate integrity, people that act in accordance and consistency with the values that they declare. I'm sorry that it was such a terrible journey, but you made it here, and you did it for yourself! Congratulations on realizing your agency!

@CarahBurrell

10 ай бұрын

❤️🥳🤙🏻

Thank you so soooooo much. We should talk sometime. I 'get your story'.....I have watched a few of your podcasts over the past few days. ❤ We have MANY 'common paths' ....its CRAZY. Thank you for your honesty & courage. 🙏🎯🀄

Love this type of vlog!

You go!!!!❤❤❤❤ love your 🎵 songs😅 First let me say I am so glad your sister is here, I thought for sure you lost her, but in a way it sounds like back then, you felt like you did. If it wasn't for you, John & others I wouldn't have any idea why leaving a church would be such a big deal. Thank you for the work that you do. However my Mormon neighbors it took years to develop a trusting relationship with ate barley speaking to me 😅 I binged Mormon stories and other podcast in my hot tub all summer and realized just because I have a tall fence doesn't mean they couldn't hear everything. One day they slammed their patio doors closed.😮

Nuancehoe wrote some great songs back in the day. Also keep it up those were great.

I didn't know you were a native michigander! I live in West Michigan

I love your songs and you sing just fine 😊 I’ve been an atheist for many years now, knocking on 60’s door. I always had a need to understand things rationally, so this is where I arrived. Life is so much better IMHO when you realize you don’t have to believe things without evidence, and it’s been you and your own strength all along that dealt with life. This from a southern woman who grew in evangelical land 😂 You keep doing you because you’re fabulous the way you are ❤❤❤

@CarahBurrell

11 ай бұрын

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Bless you Carah! A great program.

Thank you for sharing your story about leaving a church structure that no longer (or ever?) worked for you. Thanks for the balance of honesty and humor you use in sharing your story.

REDFORD REPP!!!! I'm shocked that we we're born in the same place I definitely felt that MI energy. Love it! I'm excited to listen to your story. We donatin

@CarahBurrell

10 ай бұрын

I said the specific town cuz I knew you’d be out there somewhere ☺️

@holyinvestigator

10 ай бұрын

@@CarahBurrell I'll definitely be getting some of my ex-mo friend's in the area on the one and only nuancehoe. My mom was in Jehova's as a kid and she relates so heavily to your story, thank you for being the voice for so many who cannot speak their truth.

❤ Hiddey Hoe ❤. Carah love this long form format. Plus you really are an excellent singer/songwriter. I was totally expecting something very juvenile but wow, I was surprised. If you are looking for ideas, I’d love to for you do a deep dive history and personal experience into BYU?

Amazing! Listening, I see how gullible I really am. This month alone, I’m so disappointed in the behaviors of people-I trusted them and naively thought they would behave honestly because I do. Wasn’t in my mind to even think about distrust because I wouldn’t do that!

Having listen to quite a few of your podcasts its quite clear that you are are a very intelligent person who would smash a college degree!

Keep it going, you’re hilarious and awesome, love your sense of humour 👍🏻

Thank you for sharing this with us, Carah

I have spent the majority of my life and a significant amount of time to understand the psychology of religious belief. This includes hundreds of deconversion stories. The story of your history and deconversion and the thoughts that were dominant at particular points in your life have been exceptionally insightful. I want to thank you and to express my admiration.

@CarahBurrell

10 ай бұрын

Aw that's so good to hear! Glad I could explain myself well!

Thank you! Similar story but grew up Baptist. Love you!

Loved your story, you told it from your heart so it reached my heart.❤

Great video Carah. You have a new sub.

I didn't actually know you played guitar. Great episode!

Im just mad i didn't see this vid earlier... love this energy

Wild! My husband grew up in Redford, MI but left in 1992. (Never Mormon here, but your content is interesting & slightly addictive).

I am so glad you feel you are in a safe space to talk about your CSA. As a victim of CSA from a wealthy employer, (owned one of the finest restaurants in the MN lakes area) I have been longing for a space where I feel free of judgement.. besides a private therapy section. The doubt I hear from outsiders creates the furthest distance from my truth.. it feels like gaslighting.

i have been following you and shelice for a little bit now, i have also left the church a few decades ago. i was a convert with the worst baptism ever! too personal to put here but let’s say i had my interview the day on my bap, my missionary’s were anxious to get me in the water they just thought let’s do it all on the same day! so i go to talk to the elder about my very personal things and he asked some questions and i was like oh yes to that one ☝️ then he was like whaaaaaaa? yes? oh oops 😬 meets get you into the bishops office to talk about that! then i went into a room to talk about something that i did when i was 16 and like not even my own dad knows and i gotta tell this man. he wouldn’t let me get dunked that day, i had to wait a week while i repented… so i had to send everyone home… probably should of known them to run 🏃‍♀️

@Geoplanetjane

10 ай бұрын

They asked me if I had ever had any involvement with abortions. I was like wha??? No.

Amazing!

Fellow Utah mormon-raised ex-mormon here. I really appreciate your view and thank you for sharing your story! It's so refreshing to see more and more former mormons speaking out and sharing that there is indeed a potentially great life after mormonism.

Carah, I’ve only just stumbled upon you and upon this video, and I can’t even begin to say how much your story resonates with me. I grew up in a very conservative Christian household that was very faithful in our charismatic Christian cult. And while that church was actually quite anti-Mormon, I’m shocked at the word-for-word similarities in some of the terminology and coercion: stay in the boat, put it on the shelf, stay true to the end, etc. All the emotions you described along your journey are ones that I’ve felt so deeply, and I could relate to your story so much - thank you for speaking out and sharing your story.

@CarahBurrell

7 ай бұрын

Ah nice! Glad you related to my Mormon journey ❤️❤️❤️

Super important question:!!!!!!! Are those Joseph Smith bookends???? 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Yes the church is very narcissistic in my eyes and they don't have to change I'm so thankful for you sharing this story thankful for your wisdom and insight God bless

WHAT I just saw Tig Notaro on tour!! Amazing! Had no idea about this.

You totally rock...😂 you're so hilarious!

slashing and dashing is a new one for me. i experienced many similar events but i never really felt guilty to god because he knew everything about everything. i was raised by converts also. we were poor in a very wealthy ward. some of my church friends lived in hidden hills, ca. my family was the welfare case. i had my school friends in junior high. weed and lsd were everywhere, pharmaceuticals were everywhere, my mom loved her dexedrine (diet pills). i took many friends to church. they were curious. church girls always treated me so nicely. we had music, the beach and church was just there. i gave talks always waiting for deliverance but i was having a great life until they started talking mission, couldn’t do it. viet nam was happening and the draft, coffins coming back to neighborhoods. i probably could have gotten a diversion from the draft going on a mission, couldn’t do it.

Love and light !!

Ohio/michigan… Minnesota here.. I felt that way when I was being converted.. I needed to try hard and contemplated moving to be close to those who “thought” the same as me..

Mr period 😂😂😂 You are awesome and hilarious ❤

As with most people blessed with wit, sarcasm and humor, the individual is sometimes lost. Thanks for sharing so much. I noticed a theme throughout of labeling yourself and at the end you said we're all on a journey. Much better "label". Im hella liberal in many areas, "far right" in others, but politically, none of them speak for me. I do still love Jesus tho! Great show. ✌️ ❤️