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I could literally listen to you talk about absolutely anything. You have such a lovely and comforting energy, both on this channel and your horror channel, this feels like catching up with a friend while we do errands together.

@dsrtsnw

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exactly!! her spirit is so calming to me

This is such a refreshing take on being pregnant that we don't see NEARLY enough of online.

Ok, so this is really random compared to the rest of the video, but I just had to say it -- I love that you care so much for your cats. It legit warms my heart that you care about their comfort and you cried about making them adjust to something so jarring to them. :'3 You're such a good cat mama. But they WILL adjust, and I know they will do great.

@sarahhawkinson

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aw thank you this is the best comment ever! they’re literally my life rn so I’m sad they’re going to have to take a back burner but I will ALWAYS make time for them and their needs as well. even my boy who needs his insulin 2x a day.

When I found out I was pregnant I cried and cried and cried. We weren’t trying and I was totally against having children. I felt like my life was ruined. I felt so bad because my partner and my family were so excited and I felt like I was ruining the experience for them. I had to compartmentalize it and I kind of just sat in a weird haze for the whole pregnancy. It never felt real, even at 9 months pregnant. Internally I felt so much guilt for not being excited because here I was someone who didn’t want kids having a child when there are people out there who want nothing more than to have a child and can’t. I felt guilty because I didn’t want her and it was of no fault to her. I felt so scared that she was going to be born and I wouldn’t bond with her. I kept all of that tucked away. But I tell you what, the moment they laid my baby girl on my chest after she was born I felt a love and connection that I never knew was possible. It truly is such a magical experience. I can’t even explain it. I still mourn who I was and the freedom I had before but when I look into her little eyes I just can’t imagine my life any different. The universe really had a plan and I am grateful for the path I ended up on.

Sarah, please. Start a podcast. I love seeing your emotions but even more to heard them. It's like I was chatting with a friend.

Not pregnant and never wanted children and i understood everything you said and was totally relatable (even without the desire to have children.) wonderful video, real and heartfelt!

I have a wonderful friend who is pregnant for the first time and struggling. I’m sending her this video since I want to be comforting to her but can’t personally relate to what she’s going through 💕

Honestly, I am not planning to have a baby anytime soon, but I love this video so much because a lot of people around me are suddenly getting pregnant. I can't imagine me being the typical 'mom' EVER lol. Sometimes that makes me feel like there's something wrong with me because I don't LOVE babies/children and the traditional baby stuff, but I do want children some day. Thank you for sharing this, it makes feel a bit less weird lol.

@nicoleavery7238

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There's absolutely nothing wrong with you. Everyone has a life purpose and path besides just making babies, some people just choose to give up on that to just have kids. Don't let society brainwash you into something you don't have your heart in

I've never been pregnant and have no plans but I love this.

you’re really the only pregnant KZreadr I’ve ever seen talk about these topics in this way. i have multiple dogs who have been in my life for 10+ years and get so scared with how they’ll adjust once i start to have children so hearing you talk about that with your precious cats really warmed my heart and made me feel like I wasn’t alone in that concern.

@cmvbova

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Jenn Im talked about this when she found out she was pregnant. Her son is 1 year old now but she shared so many videos about not feeling ready, being scared, etc. you should check her out

Oh gosh I went through the freeze stage! The moment the nurse came in and said I was pregnant I grabbed my bag and told her no! She asked me if I would sit down to speak with an OB to set up my next appointment and I just kept saying no and rushed out of there. I had terrible panic attacks! My mom would spend the night with me to ensure me that I was ok. Now here I am with my 17 month old and couldn’t imagine my life any other way! I have a little bestie for life 💕💕

Thank you for this. Being pregnant is SOOOO HAAARRD! It's hard on the body, the mind, the heart, and no one around you really has any idea how you feel, unless they've been pregnant. Even then, everyone's pregnancy is different. I appreciate your candor and honesty. I just gave birth to my 2nd two months ago a I can tell you, it will all become some kind of distant memory once you have that precious little human bean in your arms.

@BrittsBites402

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CONGRATULATIONS!

As someone who's starting the journey to conceive (after health things are addressed) I really appreciate someone who isn't sugarcoating everything. Pinterest moms exist, but I know it isn't the default, or every person. It's great if everything is perfect for you, but I do agree we need to normalize not being that picture perfect idea. I hope the pregnancy and delivery go fantastic for you!

Pregnancy is wild. I’m currently 13 weeks & it’s one of the hardest things I have ever done. My pregnancy anxiety is on another level. I’ve also developed really bad separation anxiety from my husband and parents.

I’m 10 weeks pregnant & I so appreciate more raw videos on pregnancy. I’m having such a hard time both mentally & physically & I feel like I can’t comfortably express it to the people around me (other than my husband which I’m thankful for). I have hyperemesis gravidarum, which is extreme morning sickness so I’ve been going through it! I am the lowest I’ve ever been mentally and at this point I’m just counting down the days. I feel so disconnected from my entire body (even though I feel the sickness so intensely), therefore feeling disconnected to the baby growing inside me. Which is such a bizarre feeling because I’ve always wanted children, and had been trying for months to get pregnant. I felt nothing but excitement when I first found out I was pregnant. But once my symptoms kicked in… everything changed. My emotions are a roller coaster! Lol. I have good days & bad days. But the bad days are so miserable! The realities of being pregnant need to be spoken about more because I swear I’ve only heard about it through rose colored glasses for most of my life.

@sarahhawkinson

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I promise it’s all temporary and don’t even worry about being excited or building that bond with your baby! those feelings will come even if it’s after birth just focus on one day, one week at a time and you CAN do it. your body is so strong and all of your experience is valid.

i relate to alllll of this. pregnancy is the HARDEST thing i’ve ever done. it IS lonely and so taxing on your body, mind, and soul. it changed me forever, i met a whole new version of myself after becoming a mother. i also felt like it was so taboo to discuss these things, and i feel like it still is. thanks for being so open and honest, i know this would have been so helpful for me to see when i was pregnant a few years ago. i know it’ll help someone else too ❤️

on that pregnancy can be isolating, I had a friend tell me “don’t forget us” and in my head I was like I’m having a kid, ima have other priorities than maintaining a friendship 24/7, and I wanted to tell them but I had to stop to realize she may be losing the comfort that I bring them when I am there for them

Thank you for validating the mental struggle of depression and anxiety during pregnancy. I’ve struggled so bad and when people tell me it’s just my hormones and it’s “normal” it’s feels very minimizing

I'm not pregnant and probably won't be for like 8 years, but this video is so comforting. I feel like in general as a society we don't acknowledge how pregnancy is not only physically difficult but also is mentally a huge change. So it's really nice to hear someone talk about the mental aspects.

I’m not pregnant and have been on the fence about having kids for a while but I didn’t even realize how much I needed this. I have so much anxiety even thinking about being pregnant/giving birth/parenting but this gave me a little more confidence and comfort for if my husband and I do decide to go down that path in the future. Thanks Sarah ❤️

@alexfortin4984

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I was on the fence for a very long time. My fiancé and I decided to have a baby about 2 years ago. I was still not feeling ready. I’m 20 weeks pregnant at the moment and still am so scared sometimes. This video made me feel so much better about how I feel. If you ever decide to be a mom, don’t feel bad if you feel like this. It’s normal. ❤

Not pregnant and don’t plan on being pregnant anytime soon, but you are so well spoken and I could listen to you talk about anything.

I don't even want kids but your videos have been helping me learn how to support and be a better friend to people I know who are pregnant.

Love having open conversations about pregnancy. I’m currently 29 weeks with my first baby and I have hated every second of it. I know it’ll be worth it when I meet my little boy but goodness everything is scary and I was so sick to the point of almost dying during the first trimester.

@mimirainy6553

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I really hope your health is better now! Take care 💛

@march3547

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Wanted to remind you that you’re body is incredibly strong. Hope you’re feeling better ❤

@BrittsBites402

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I'm so sorry to hear that!

In this day & age not preventing pregnancy is trying for a baby. It’s important we phrase this way for younger people to understand. Our rights are being striped and kids need to know not actively preventing pregnancy is trying to have a baby.

Sarah, I'm almost 26 and having a baby is in my 5 year plan. But I am SO SCARED, just as scared as I am wanting to me a parent. Hearing you talk about these topics already eases my mind. I love that you're sharing so much about your pregnancy and keeping it real

I don't have kids, but I have three sisters and each of them has two kids. I have seen how, when babies stop being babies, little by little, they have more time to go back to being themselves and to recover parts of that life you are mourning. I hope that this experience is the best for you, even with the low lows. You are brave and will rock this. I am not brave tho haha I am childfree by choice and admire moms so much.

I was shamed by family members for wanting to learn the gender, saying I should have waited to be surprised. As someone with anxiety, having time to prepare helped settle my nerves

@nicoleavery7238

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Sorry but your family is toxic and ridiculous. I can't even think of why that should be an issue especially considering it's your baby

Really happy and proud of you for not only taking care of your mental health, but being able to talk about it and helping others. I don't plan on having kids but I want to be able to support anyone I know that gets pregnant. I struggle with my mental health and all of the struggles make sense, change is so hard. Wishing you the best!!!

I really enjoyed this video. My daughter is 2 1/2 now and I left her father. He was abusive during the pregnancy and afterwards. Pregnancy is very hard in ways you could never expect. Having a support system is important. I'm glad you have created this safe space Sarah. Congratulations on your pregnancy. ❤

Thank you so much for being so open about the quiet things that people go through when being pregnant. I mourned, and am still mourning 4 years later, my old life and who I was before I had my son. I always felt selfish and guilty for feeling these things, and it makes me feel so seen to hear that other people go through this too. Thank you for documenting your pregnancy and sharing this different, but special time in your life with us 🖤

I can relate 100% to everything you said. I have 2 boys. The first was a big surprise, and the second was planned. One thing I wish I was told about pregnancy and giving birth is, you don't walk out of the hospital looking like you did before pregnancy. And not just in the overall weight gain. In that, I still looked about 6 months pregnant after giving birth. It took forever for the womb to shrink back down. Also, that it's OK if you can't breastfeed. I tried with both of my children, and my body just couldn't produce milk. No matter how many teas and pumps I tried. It just wouldn't come. We need to normalize allowing women's bodies to do what they do, and not shame new mothers if their body doesn't produce the milk. Or hell, not shame new moms who just don't WANT to breastfeed.

@gabrielacortez4893

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Thank you! 👏

This is so true about the trauma or disagreements with parents! I found that so hard in my first pregnancy and it’s even stronger in my second. Thank you for this video! Good luck, I think you’re going to be a great mom judging by your self awareness 😊

Thank you so much for shedding some light on this topic ❤

The part about childhood trauma is so real, nobody talks about it because I think people dont have the language to talk about trauma but I so appreciate you bringing it up. (also thank you for saying pregnant person, where applicable! obviously saying mother etc totally makes sense, but it's cool to hear neutral langage mixed in too)

Thank you for this video! I’m a mom to a 3 year old and although I had a really easy/smooth pregnancy, I HATED being pregnant. I hated seeing my body change, I hated having to change the way I was physically active, I hated having to change my style…honestly hated everything about it except that I knew I was growing a beautiful life!

I'm 34 now, pregnant with my 5th child. I have three living children and had had a stillbirth early this March. I am 17 weeks pregnant with a baby girl now, this pregnancy symptom-wise feels completely shadowed by my overwhelming fear of another stillbirth. I can hardly feel any negative symptoms bc those are good symptoms to me bc it makes me feel she's here still. But I had similar experiences in my first pregnancy to yours

Clicked so fast! Glad your back to posting on this channel! So excited for both of you!

Thanks for being so vulnerable and open! ❤

This is SO important. Thank you for sharing this.

I needed this so much today! This helps more than you know. Thank you.

I'm trying to get pregnant and even in just considering parenting and trying to prepare I've had a lot of these feelings come up. It is scary to be responsible for another person and there's a lot you mourn about the changes. We're creatures of habit and it's hard to let go of what's familiar. Wishing you a meaningful and healthy pregnancy and beyond!

@deanaskeen6710

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I'm in the same boat too. We've been trying since February and am not pregnant yet, but I've totally resonated with so many of these feelings. I am already a natural crier, and so many tears and emotions have come up that she shared. I can only imagine the Rollercoaster my emotions will go through when I actually get pregnant. Sending well wishes and baby dust to you that it happens soon for you too 🥰❤

great advice Sarah, thanks! love your content

I was happily surprised to see you pop up in my notifications, but even more happily surprised to see that you’re welcoming a new addition. Congratulations!!!!

You are absolutely glowing! You look amazing!

I’ve always felt a connection/similarity in feelings to you and Jenn Im. She also showed that she was scared when she found out. I appreciate this video so much, just to see a glimpse of your journey through this experience is so sweet ❤

I definitely identify with the feeling the loss of your identity and old life - we planned our daughter too and I was so excited and happy from day one, had a great pregnancy apart from developing gestational diabetes (felt great, just tired and had to eat more carefully.) However when she was born I felt so removed from my old life and the relationships I had even with my partner because they had to change to fit my little girl into them and I found that so hard - I’ve always had a strong sense of identity and never cared what others thought…but all of a sudden I had to because I didn’t want other parents to not want to mix with me and my little girl because she would then suffer for my choices. It took quite a while for me and I agree the whole process start to finish should be talked about more - I try to be honest when talking to friends considering having children but I think they think I’m being dramatic! So excited for you and your new family adventure - wishing you all so much joy 🖤

Thank you so much for this. I hope anyone who has had kids or who want kids see this because you validate so many feeling that aren't talked about. So many of the points you had were spot on with some of my experiences in pregnancy. It's hard to share feeling like that with people who don't understand what it's like to experience these emotions and life changes.

Thank you so much for sharing this. I can relate to so much, from the not relating to "normal" motherhood things, mourning your past self/life, and going from being "not a cryer" to crying all over the place. Oh, and I was pregnant during the height of the pandemic, so the isolation was even more intense. My daughter is 1.5 years old now, and having her is 100% the best decision I have ever made in my life, but it is also absolutely the most challenging thing I have ever done, so it's nice to hear about other people going through similar things and not feeling so alone. I think there is a similar problem with not talking about birthing experiences as well. There are a lot of people out there talking about how beautiful and magical it can be, but for me things did not go as planned and I had to get a C-section, which is something that I really did not want based on past surgery experience, and there were complications that prevented me from breast feeding as I had planned, etc. Everything turned out fine in the end, but there are these ideas floating out there about how natural giving birth is, and how our bodies should be able to do everything themselves without medical interference, and that's not always true. Luckily we live in a time where we have the knowledge to help our bodies when we need it (if you have access to that, anyway), and I wish that there were more people talking about that, and how giving birth isn't always a super wonderful part of bringing a child into the world. Even in the best cases it's a very physically and mentally strenuous thing, and not everyone's going to love it, even if they love the reason they're willing to go through it.

Sarah! Wth lady! I haven't seen you in forever and out pops your video on my feed and you're preggo???? This suits you so much! You said you're enjoying this and would absolutely do it again. Pregnancy/being a mom looks very natural on you. Excited for your journey. No kids for me (i have my own reasons) but I think its impt to talk about the things no one says abt pregnancy. I'm seeing more and more share their journey, which i think is impt. Like you said, it helps to normalize things so pregnant women (and those who had kids) feel less alone.

i love you sarah!!!! thank you

I felt all of this through my pregnancy! I’m still having a hard time mourning my old self now having a 1 year old, and I definitely don’t feel like a resonate as a typical mom! It’s so hard, but I love my daughter and would not change a thing! I wish I saw this while I was pregnant! But I still relate and can’t wait to watch more things about your experience in motherhood!

Thank you for sharing these raw and real experiences with us. You are beautiful and I applaud you for your honesty! Best wishes for the rest of your journey as a mom! 🤍

Thank you so much for this video! I'm not pregnant but it's something I've been considering for the near future and I can relate with almost every single thing you said (I just don't fear losing friends 'cause I don't have any 😆it's one less thing to worry about I guess). I always feel really sad when I see those emotional reactions to people finding out they're pregnant because I'm pretty sure I'd never react that way and it makes me feel like I'm broken, like I'm incapable of having such feelings towards pregnancy. So hearing you talk about your experience and how your excitement grew over time it's just so reassuring to me. The grief as well is something I antecipate and everything you said about not relating with the traditional aspects of pregnancy like baby showers and such, the guilt of bringing a baby to my dog's house...it's like you're inside my head! The childhood trauma that motherhood can uncover it's something my therapist has already warned me about...but to hear this from someone that's actually going through it and for you to talk about it with such peace and acceptance. I don't know, it made me feel like a full person instead of a broken one. Thank you for that, it means a lot. Congrats again for your pregnancy, I'm really happy for you 😊

Sarah!!! I’m sobbing. I am you, you are me. We have felt/are feeling the same things. Thank you so much for this video.

Sarah! I’ve been watching you for YEARS and I’m so happy for you. You were the first person I really watched on youtube and I remember feeling so starstruck when you replied to something I said on Twitter and when you would read my comments on livestreams. You were the first portrait I drew when I started to get into art (might have to dig out that old sketchbook and show you!) You’re going to be an incredible mother and I can tell your little girl is already so loved. Congrats to you and Ryan! 🎉

You‘re going to be such a great and cool mom, also because you‘re addressing these thoughts and feelings:) this makes me feel a bit more calm about maybe having kids one day as well since I had a rocky upbringing and very conflicting opinions on kids and parenting, even seeing myself as a parent one day. It‘s definitely not always this clear path full of rainbows and happiness.

i really love this videos, i'm not pregnant or wanting to be anytime soon lol but the way that you talk about all of those aspects about pregnancy that I absolutely fear makes it feel more real or at least normal, and doesn't make me feel bad for thinking that way, i really wish you the best and if i ever decide to get pregnant i'm positive that i'll be back here watching your blogs.

I am 37 weeks pregnant with my first and I completely relate to everything you said, especially about grieving your old life and relationship. I have been loving your pregnancy videos and I am excited to have found another like minded mom!

This is so helpful and so refreshing, I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you not being scared to share these thoughts. I've been terrified to start trying even though my partner is dying to and that's because I thought when I get pregnant I have to give up who I am to the traditional mom aesthetic that I don't resonate with at all! I'm still so super scared because I struggle with Bipolar disorder but this made me feel much more.... ready? to face it after listening to you normalize my feelings of guilt when it comes to having a baby while I suffer with mental disorders. I wish you the healthiest and happiest rest of your term and delivery! 🧡

So happy for you and your new mattress 😅😅!

this video is so relatable and necessary. my daughter just turned one and I’m only JUST starting to feel myself again and regain my sense of style/my hobbies/friends/etc. it’s a long process! moms need the MOST support. you’re doing great 🌷 you’ll be the best mum

Sarah, I'm loving this new journey you're going through! Wish you could post over here a little bit more often, everytime you post is like catching up with an old friend.

I have felt so safe on this channel for years. So glad you're back, really missed these videos.

TW: pregnancy loss - My first positive pregnancy test I just started uncontrollably shaking! A few days I started bleeding and was completely heart broken. A couple of months later I got another positive and I really thought I’d cry with joy but I just didn’t 😂 i was excited but really scared

Love this.t he isolating and emotions and childhood stuff coming up were the hardest to deal with. Love that you put words to that because ppl don’t normally talk about. So lucky to have some pregnant and new mama friends but even then still feel alone and feel mourning my old life. Great inspo to keep doing some things that make you feel like yourself!

Good to see you Sarah! Been watching you since before you had blonde hair and bangs. All the best in your pregnancy 🎉

everything you said is sooo on point!!! the childhood trauma coming back up is so real for me.

I appreciate this. I'm almost 9 weeks pregnant with my 1st child and this is comforting to listen to.

Childhood trauma surfacing was probably one of the hardest thing I dealt with when my kids were born. I love you as much as a stranger on the internet can, Sarah, and I’m hoping for the very best for you! You remind me so so much of myself and I’m so glad you’re already thinking through some of these harder things and being honest with yourself and the world about them. I don’t have to tell you to seek help if you struggle when the baby is born, I know you will! I wish I would have. ❤

I always always always appreciate your honest talks and opinions on things most people would believe are taboo. While I'm not, nor have ever been pregnant, these are some of my fears as well for when I do start wanting to have children. Its so nice to know that even though I'm nowhere near a place mentally to have kids yet, those types of thought aren't bad or weird.

I really appreciate your honesty in this and your more recent videos. It’s so eye opening to see what it is actually like to go through pregnancy and childbirth instead of the glamorized perspective we always get in the media because more people need to realize it’s not the fairytale it’s so often made out to be. There are so many people who feel pressured to have kids when they don’t want to be parents, and videos like these will encourage the people who aren’t meant to be/don’t want to be parents to give it more serious thought. You are raising a whole new human! It’s gonna be tough! Haha

@raspyraccoon6530

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I just re-read this and realized it might be interpreted as me saying you yourself aren't meant to be a parent. If that's, the interpretation you got, I'm so sorry! Im so inarticulate lol. I'm sure you are and will continue to be a great mother :)

Im so so happy you still make content. Im more of a silent viewer but ive been watching you for years. I just watched your videos on Dissociation disorder as min has been destroying me lately and it was nice seeing you talk abouit it. Thank you for being vulnerable with us and not being afraid to share your thoughts as it does really help

Thank you for making this video!! I don’t want kids myself but I still love that you made this video and normalized what this is like for people! 🖤💜

I am glad you made this! My SIL has rougher pregnancies and 10 years ago, I remember ppl would get so upset with her if she complained. She also suffered with some medical issue post birth and no one was supporting her. It was all about the baby and she said was told repeatedly “it just comes with pregnancy”. Ugh. 😢 I am happy people are opening up able the range of experiences that happens during this life transition.

10 weeks with twins here and I thought I was broken. I haven’t been very excited, no real connection to my pregnancy so far… and I TRIED for this lol but like you, it happened way faster than expected. None of this is talked about enough. Thank you so much for reassuring me that I am not sick in the head and my feelings are NORMAL!

@kmoellski

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Maybe watching some of Colleen Ballingers twin pregnancy vlogs makes you feel less alone too. She really struggled being pregnant and documented her journey in a great way imo. Hope the rest of your pregnancy goes well and your babies are doing great😊

@chelseaenglish9066

Жыл бұрын

Oh my gosh thank you so much, I will definitely check her videos out! :)

Thank you for talking about all this! I actually lost a close friend after giving birth. We gradually stop talking to each other because we were not in the same place in life anymore. She didn't understand that in the moment while my son was juste a couple of months old that I wasn't able to go out late and do the stuff we did before (going to restaurants late at night for example). Our coffee dates were not enough for her. She just didn't really care about my new experience as a mom. But I've made a new good friend in the last year. She's child free but she love my son and she's so encouraging. So you can lose friend but make new one along the way.

So good to see you ⭐✨

I'm so grateful to have rolemodels like you, Samantha and Kristi here on KZread sharing their wisdom on pregnancy and motherhood. ❤️

I haven't seen a video of yours in a while and had no idea you were pregnant haha, congratulations! This video was so lovely!

Thank you so much for talking about the feeling like it isn’t happening to you. I felt so bizarre my whole pregnancy bc I felt like I was carrying my baby FOR my partner, it took me so long to feel like she was even a part of me. Every other mom I spoke to had no idea what I meant. I cried watching this bc I felt so seen ❤

@back.that.Ash.up85

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Pretty much everything you said I experienced. Thank you again ❤

So nice to see the notification! 😊

I wish i saw this when i was pregnant with my daughter 5 years ago! I couldn’t relate to this more, you are amazing! And you are already a great mom, you have got this ❤ i wish someone told me how normal the “baby blues” and how emotional you are postpartum. For me that was the hardest but its okay to not feel okay, or to not have it together. Wishing you nothing but the best in this new adventure! 😘❤

I'm so happy for you 😭

I love that you’re talking about these things and I can relate. Pregnancy is hard and it’s not always perfect like what we see on social media. You’re real and I love it ❤ It’s hard to tell people that we struggle since we’re supposed to be so happy. I’m happy but so scared at the same time. Everyday is a surprise, I don’t know how I will feel and what I will feel. My chihuahua is one of the things I’m the most concerned about. She is very jealous and I hope she will be nice with the baby but we never know. I cried while filing paperwork for my new car because the seller was pressuring me into buying some additional insurances and my boyfriend was mad and yelling at him. 🤦🏻‍♀️ You should start a mom group, I’m sure a lot of your subscribers would be happy to have people to talk too who have the same interests.

In the first few weeks I had him I wished I was still pregnant so I could love him without having him scream all the time. It's INTENSE.

I love both of your channels. I don't have and don't want kids but i watch your videos to educate myself. The point of being isolated hit me really hard because my bff had kids while we were really young and it wasn't because i wanted, but we distanced ourselves. It was a matter of us living very different things at the same time. Luckily we are still friends, she has kids, i take care of stray cats. Thank you for this honest videos and i wish nothing but the best for you, your baby and your partner.

Even if i am not pregnant nor wanting to be, i resonated so much with this video. These concepts can be adapted to many facets of life and it was really good to hear

I think it’s so true that we should allow a mourning period of our lives early on. I think that that’s super important for the early baby days, since a lot of us probably try to avoid the thought that our lives are changing instead of thinking it through and working through it before it gets tough.

I am glad that you've been very honest about your pregnancy experience. I'm just about to turn 22, already have a history with fibroids. I recently had to have my second surgery to get one removed. It sucks that my fertility is already up in the air at my age, but I hope things will work out one of these days. My doctor is optimistic.

The world needs more truth tellers like you 💚💚💚💚💚

I'm so excited for you two!! I had a girl, my one and only kiddo. My ex-husband was not on board, at all... not a fan and scared from the moment I found out. The second I had the thought I might be pregnant, my heart became full... just overflowing with love. It sounds really cheesy maybe but I was floating with love, completely glowing with it! I had an easy pregnancy - no morning sickness, no swollen legs or feet, no belly line, no hard time getting rest or sleep. I craved strawberries and Denny's ice cream sundaes (no other place would do). I didn't tear at all, she came out ready for the world within 2 hours, I breastfed for two years and didn't have my period that whole time. The downside was my ex-husband hurt our child and I divorced him... I didn't see him do it but I ended up taking her to the ER one night due to her right arm being still when she normally was a wiggler. Found out her arm was broken and they ran all the tests for bone density and other disorders, the police officers didn't help me much in that I was in so much shock and had been up all night, was tired and scared out of my mind because she was hurt and I couldn't even give them proper answers. They had a feeling it was him though, CPS was called and they helped me leave him and get her the help she needed with an osteo specialist. It was a TRUE waking nightmare but she healed up wonderfully and we never had to see him again. He had no custody or visitation, he didn't deserve it per what the judge told me and I was in total agreement. He had no jail time because he could afford a lawyer with his parents help and I could not but he never got to see her again. He kept denying what he had done to her her whole life so in my eyes, he was worthless as a father. He also tried not paying child support for a few years but he was afraid of the law after a point and started paying what he owed. She was my pure, unconditional love the moment the nurse put her on my chest and she still is 22 years later. She will always be the light and love of my life and my world. You are starting to understand that, it's only going to grow. I never wore maternity dresses, I'm Goth/Punk so I bought pregnancy jeans and large concert tees. I showed up to school meetings in that same stuff, dyed black hair and eyeliner. I honestly think that doesn't matter when teachers and school staff see the love you have for your child and how much you get involved in your child's school career and opportunities for them to engage and learn. I was very much involved with my daughter's schools and programs. I met her friends and their parents and got involved with the community side of all of that. I never once had anyone give me a side eye or a rude comment about what I looked like as a mom. Just be there for your child and those people will see it.

Truly wish you the very best ❤🫂

i've been following you for so long and you're the only online personality i feel will give me an honest look at pregnancy! hope you do some more videos at each stage. idk if i want to have kids yet, feels like time is running out 💀

I’m so glad it found this video. Because it’s the first time someone pregnant says that the initial response was not excitement. I thought, a few times, that there was something wrong with me. My initial response was nervous and anxiety. Lol I have 5 more weeks until he’s here, so thank you for this video!

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For the record, I tried desperately to quit smoking, and hated myself for it. I had to work to keep my benefits, and it was a smoking office. I mean, the cubicles around me contained people smoking at their desks. Enough excuses, I hated my addiction and myself. I still feel terrible. I failed you in an important way. I am so glad you are having a healthier pregnancy. See you very soon! Love, Mom

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to be fair, it was also a completely different time! I don’t think it was as frowned upon in 1989-1990 when you were pregnant. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without you so you did so many other things right, I love you mom!

I'm not pregnant yet and I'm sometimes even on the fence abou whether or not I actually want a child at all, but what you've talked about here resonated a lot with me. Ever since I was a little girl, my mother raved on and on about how awesome her pregnancies (with me & my brother) were and what a glorious time she had. No morning sickness, a beautiful baby bump, a "glowing aura", you name it. If social media were around bac in the 80s, she'd probably have been the most obnoxious pregnant person on pinterest. It was rare to hear anything negative about pregnancies because usually, even through all the suffering, lots of mothers tend to only remember the good parts and immediately forget their "hardships" once the baby is there. Very refreshing to hear someone talk about how not everything is roses and sunshine 24/7. Also, 100% onboard with your anxiety about potentially losing friends and wanting to have a close friend be pregnant alongside you.

Omg I feel you so much on the not "liking" any baby items or typical maternity wear. I'm 30 and I dress like a 17 year old, e-boy so finding stuff to wear was torture!! I struggled to find more alternative baby wear, even just black dresses or outfits in general was so hard to find.

I resonate with the loss of identity. People don’t talk to me like a person, it is always about the baby. That’s why I didn’t want to tell anyone.