We are STRUGGLING through the pre-teen years right now. The sleep deprivation in the newborn stage was probably the worst physical part. But these teens know how to cut you emotionally, they can be so hurtful sometimes. Its so hard.

@cschweitzy

5 ай бұрын

Just know it’s not you and it’s not your fault. I was horrible to my mom in my teenage years and I reflect on it now as a 25 year old and feel deep regret. Just be patient and don’t give up on them.

@sarahhawkinson

5 ай бұрын

this is probably my biggest fear of all because I’m so sensitive and love her so much

@faeriesmak

5 ай бұрын

I hear you on this one. I have a 23 and a 17 year old and they are STILL ripping me apart emotionally on a regular basis.

@bethanystevens90

5 ай бұрын

I feel this in my soul! I have a 13 year old and man… he’s brutal sometimes.

@damzy

5 ай бұрын

To be honest I don't know if maybe is a cultural thing or I don't know, I'm from south America I have 34 years old, most of the ppl I know when they were teen where very respectful with their parents, yes they go thru the rebellious stage (like getting out the house for party, things like that) but like be disrespectful by saying mean things? Like no.. that teen would be in a serious problem (not hit or anything) but getting all the privileges right away.. is interesting to me that in another country this is very different, even I was a very difficult teen (getting out of the house, crying because they didn't want me to see my bf at the time etc) but like never ever be disrespectful or hurtful towards my parents..

I missed old me but the old me cannot touch the woman I am today because of my child. The love is so fulfilling

This video really reaffirmed my choice to opt out of being a parent. Thank you for being so vulnerable and real about your experience.

I don't want this to sound bad, but these videos have really solified for me the thought that I never want to be a mother. Never wanted to in the first place but im sure now, so thank you! Every child deservers to have a amazing mom like you and be wanted!❤

@sabrinax4575

4 ай бұрын

Don’t do it. The men are never worth it. Babies and children aren’t even the hard part tbh surprisingly, it’s their fathers.

@kirafaith8581

4 ай бұрын

@@sabrinax4575that’s my biggest fear when becoming a mother 💔 I want to be a mom one day but I’m scared about a man disappointing me and letting me and my child down. I wish I could just self procreate lol.

i remember watching your channel when you were a psych major and worrying about you and hoping the best for you and now youre a mom with a beautiful baby and everything is different. i became a psych major i think because of you and now im a writer. my life would have had been drastically different if not for you sarah. so much love and so much happiness is being sent from me to you and your family. all the best for this year and for many many years to come

I’m not a mom, but seeing my mom enjoying her hobbies throughout my life inherently gave me permission to enjoy my own✨congratulations on your first year, you’re glowing ❤

I’m so glad the internet is around and women and parents are speaking about things like this. Being a parent can be so rewarding but it’s not easy. I am child free by choice. I have so much respect for mothers ❤ and all parents. I can’t imagine working and coming home to take care of someone who relies on you for everything. My depression would make it so hard

@peachiepao

5 ай бұрын

i agree. i grew up with a mother who struggled with depression. she didn’t have the energy to care for me and would get frustrated if i wanted to play. now i’m dealing with depression myself and can’t imagine putting a child through that loneliness.

"It's not your time to thrive." I really needed to hear that. I'm a first (only) time mom to a 4-month-old and one of the things that makes it so hard is setting the bar on the floor for self-care when I was previously a super productive person. I constantly need a reminder that my goals are different now because if I keep wanting more I'll keep feeling resentful and regretful.

I love this so much! I am a therapist and hear a lot about the mom guilt. I talk a lot about how parents (especially moms) taking care of themselves and not sacrificing everything models healthy self-care for their kids! And if we entertain our kids 24/7, they don't get to learn the skills of entertaining themselves! Thank you SO much for your honesty.

I have a 7 month old and one of the first nights home I remember thinking “did I just make a huge mistake having this baby”. It truly rocks your world. I was in love with my son but also was so unsure of myself and It took weeks for me to accept that this was my life. I also felt so guilty about how I was feeling and never told anyone for fear of being judged and now were talking about when to try for #2 😂 life is wild! But I don’t have any regrets now.

@jessicapreston9808

5 ай бұрын

Oh man..My first baby is due April 6th. I already have these thoughts and he isn’t even here yet! I just keep thinking about everything changing and giving up all of my freedoms..but on the other hand I have always wanted to be a mama. I’m 38 years old and time was almost up! Being equally terrified and grateful is a weird combo of feelings to have.

@cmhw

5 ай бұрын

“did I just make a huge mistake having this baby” yes! i thought this too! i truly thought i had ruined my life. (i didn't lol. i love my son and the toddler phase has actually been fun.)

I’ve been watching you for like 6 years now, it’s so crazy to see how far you’ve come. I have no interest in having kids but I still adore your content just as much as your old content. You are truly one of those people I watch for their personality, it just always feels like hanging with a friend. You look gorgeous also 💕✨

@sarahhawkinson

5 ай бұрын

thank you so much 💕

My mom mantra: 'I am not the only person who loves my child. They should get to know that.' I have to give all of the people that genuinely wanna know and love my child room, so that it learns it isn't alone. My therapist told me once: having kids is essentially preparing for your own death at one point or another. You really wanna make sure you can leave this world without them being lonely and lost.

I am *so* happy to be child free by choice. It's just never been my thing...having kids. I'm around your age and I'm just not "a mother". I'm *so* content with my partner & my cats. And I'm also so happy for all the mums out there and their experience. As long as one is happy in their choices...not pressured by anyone/anything AKA society! Anyways loved hearing your experience and Fern is just a doll! 🤍

@waspx86

5 ай бұрын

Btw have you ever seen Tully with Charlize Theron? Amazing movie about a struggling new mom. Worth a watch everyone! If you're in the newborn stage...

Honestly, my little one only VERY recently started (still doesn't always) sleeping for 7-8 hours straight.... they'll be 10 this year...... I swear some kids just don't need sleep.....

This needs to be shown to the pro lifers lol I’m a mom of a 2 year old and I can’t imagine forcing this role on someone who isn’t ready/ doesn’t want it. It’s ROUGH

@sarahhawkinson

5 ай бұрын

EXACTLY like I wanted this more than anything in my life and struggle I can’t imagine someone forced into it dear god

@gymkat13

5 ай бұрын

As a mom of a toddler and a pro-lifer, I don't see why this video would alter anyone's view on the issue since it comes down to whether we believe a woman is being forced to keep a clump of dead, inanimate cells or a living child. Having also experienced a miscarriage, I have to say that pro-choicers should also understand why pro-life women might feel deeply disturbed by people claiming that the loss of a miscarried child's life is really only a "loss" if the mother wanted the child. It's like saying my child never really existed except in my own head.

@justathumb

5 ай бұрын

@@gymkat13exactly. i feel like the discussion should more be around making society more accommodating for mothers, so they don't feel like their choices are between their freedom or their child's life. access to affordable daycare could change everything.

@fawn2911

4 ай бұрын

​@@gymkat13🍅🍅🍅

@omao4938

4 ай бұрын

​​@@gymkat13 Well, unfortunately that's how things are. A miscarriage is only sad if the woman who went through it really wanted those cells to become a baby she could love and cherish. If she didn't want it, then I can't feel sad. It wasn't a baby and that's the truth I'm sorry it hurts you but anything less than 3 months of pregnancy is not a baby and never will.

The first year after I had my daughter was probably one of the worst years of my life. I was so drained and lonely and had no idea who I was. I started to feel like a person again when she was 18m and now she’s 28m and it’s a blast lol

@cmhw

5 ай бұрын

agreed, the first year was the worst for me too. and i kept seeing Instagram posts about moms who preferred the newborn phase to the "terrible twos" and that scared me even more. (i'm having so much more fun as a toddler mom lol) :)

I have an almost 6 year old now, and since the sleep struggles are now a hazy memory to me, the biggest struggle is raising a good, kind human. He has *opinions* that i constantly want to snap at, but i have to teach him that we have to be good to others around us. But the frustration and utter annoyance at having to be selfless in a way you could never expect is by far the HARDEST part. Hang in there, mama 💕 it gets both easier and harder in equal measure at all times.

Sarah, I've been watching you for YEARS and have always both related to you and looked up to you. You've always seemed so cool, so down to earth, so real...but this video was truly one of the best and most helpful I've ever watched of yours. I have always wanted to be a mom too, but also struggle HUGELY with anxiety and depression and "not feeling ready to make those sacrifices" like you mentioned. Hearing you talk about how it ACTUALLY is, the good and the bad but mostly the good is just so helpful to me. I appreciate you and your openness and vulnerability SO much. Wishing you an amazing year 2 and beyond with Fern and I hope things continue to get better for you ❤️

25:47 “you’re your own person” I LOVE THAT!!! I have friends who were teen moms and they still struggle with trying to be themselves and also a parent. When my friend was 21 with a 3 year old, she tried 6 times to go to a club and didn’t even make it through the door before running home to her baby. She was afraid of what people would think of her leaving her baby and going out clubbing. I’m so glad you said that and realized that NOW and not 10 years from now

your mum videos are amazing, thank you so much for sharing these

maintaining your hobbies is so important, I'm so glad that you're finding a way to practice self-care. seeing you grow so much over the last decade of watching your channel has been incredible ♥️

Sarah, thank you for making this video. I’ve been a 10 year subscriber and have an 8 week old and really needed to hear this from someone I admire and relate to so much.Thanks for sharing Fern and your honest expirences with us. Motherhood looks great on you!

Love seeing you come up in my feed Sarah!!!

Sitting here watching this on my big TV with my 4 month old beside me. He's cooing and smiling at you! I appreciate this. Thank you!

Oh my gosh, I just happened to open my KZread subscriptions today for the first time in awhile, just wanted to say I’ve been watching your videos for YEARS and I am sooo happy to see where you are now 🥰🥰🥰best wishes to you and your little one

Watching your video has helped me feel SO understood. I resonate with almost every single topic you spoke on, specifically the anxiety with sleep, frustration with food, asking for help, and the toddler phase. So many of my friends who have kids a similar age to my 18 month old, didn’t seem to have any super challenging moments like me and it feels very lonely. I wish you and I were friends in real life 🥹 Thank you for sharing your experience. You aren’t alone, I’m with you!

This video gives me so much peace. I always wanted kids, but recently I’ve been facing the mental illnesses I’ve had my whole life. It’s been debilitating and has made me completely reconsider if it would be ethical for me to be a mother. I’m in my early 30s, so having kids has been on me and my partner’s minds. This video gives me so much peace. It will be hard, even more so because me and my partner live far from any support network. But if I get pregnant, it will be ok. Thank you!!

It's incredible how many things that you've said, I also thought and said. I'm so glad I've found your channel, you're not only a great content creator but you also sound like a great mum. I wish all the best to you, Ryan and Fern ❤

i had my daughter (ivy) about 2 and a half months before you had fern so it feels really nice to know i wasnt alone at all in my struggles. you summed everything up so well. its SO HARD and nothing could have prepared me for just how hard it would be. but im so happy to be the person i am now !!

Hats off to you Sarah. Just going through one of those things is life changing let alone all at once. Your an inspiration ❤

I have an 11 month old and I’ve been following you on your journey just slightly ahead. I don’t have any friends in my life who are mothers. I just wanted to say thank you for being an honest person I can relate to on the internet :)

I can relate to so much of what you said in this. I'm about to finish my second year of parenting and I've finally decided that I deserve to think about myself too. It's hard.

Thank you for this video! Love your motherhood content. My baby is almost 14 months also, you hit all the valid points and topics. You summed it up perfectly. Love you Sarah! Hang in there mama 💪

I'm five months pregnant for the first time right now and have always been a fan of yours. I loved hearing about your perspective on this, even if some of it does sound scary. Thanks for sharing your journey!!

I loved this. Thank you for your honesty and sharing your realistic but positive outlook. ❤

Ive always appreciated your honesty sarah

Aaaw I watch your old videos and see this one and it's crazy! You were so young and now look at you, you are a mooom! I won't be a mother ever but seeing women be moms and talk about their experiences is very inspirational to me. I hope you and your daughter are very healthy and happy

Girl, i've been watching you for so many years, i love your content and i'm proud of how far you've come ❤

I honestly loved watching you years ago and then you became a mom and I just feel like so happy for you! Across the pond but I feel like I've grown up and become a mother with you too

@jessicapreston9808

5 ай бұрын

Aww! So cool.Same! I found Sarah many years ago when she had purple hair..she was reviewing a vegan/cruelty free subscription box called Petit Vour. I thought she was so cool and I have continued following her since. I watched her move a handful of times, go to college, meet Ryan, and now become a mommy! It’s funny because I live in the same area as her and we went to the same college..I graduated with a business degree maybe a year before her, and I’m married now and pregnant with my first baby. Life flies by!!!

@jaderose7149

5 ай бұрын

Yess sameee I was obsessed I'd watch everyday even rewatch she's just so natural and beautiful I got sick of watching fake influencers! She's honestly just so wholesome I feel like we've just grown up together virtually even though she doesn't know me 🤣

I am so grateful you use your platform to bring truth to becoming a parent. I feel like when I was pregnant all the birth/postpartum videos were everything is amazing and perfect and I found myself in an extreme depression after birth because I had been thrown into the hardest situation I could never imagine. I feel like it’s so hard to describe the challenges that comes with having kids because saying anything negative feels like it takes away from how amazing our children are and how happy we are to have them. Just because we love and protect doesn’t mean that task doesn’t bring endless anxiety and unfathomable responsibility. I mean we are raising a human being! You can’t understand how monumental (in good and bad ways) having a child is until you have one.

u don’t know how bad i needed this!! your baby was born around the time i got pregnant so i’m watching this in a nap trap with my 6 month old lol thank u for always keeping it so real Sarah!!

I love that people that actually want to do this, talk about it, and the bad stuff. I don't think I want this, and this kind of videos help me be sure that its a good decision. ❤

Thank you for being so honest and saying everything I’m thinking with my 20 month old.

Absolutely love this video! Everything you said is so true. Having a child is truly life-changing and absolutely nothing can prepare you for how hard it is until you go through it. My son is almost 20 months old and I keep thinking I don’t know who I am anymore. I love him more than anything on this earth, but the sacrifice you talk about is so real. I’m also 36 weeks pregnant with his little brother. Having an almost 20 month-year-old energetic little child running around constantly and climbing up everywhere while being nine months pregnant is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Plus I’m 39 so I kind of needed to have them close together. I got pregnant with my first at 37. So I am really geriatric 😂 though the doctors have not made it a big deal and keep telling me that many women have healthy pregnancies beyond age 35. So just wanted to say don’t feel too scared about getting pregnant after 35.

this video is so important. videos like this are so important.

i'm childfree with my husband by choice but i love watching your perspective on this subject

Such a sweet video! I'd love to know, how are your cats getting on with all the changes! ❤

Love you Sarah, you’re such a good mom ❤️

This was refreshingly honest! So many parents pretend it’s mostly cookies and rainbows. Parenting is one of the hardest things and NOT meant for everyone… I would argue most people.

24:25 I needed to hear this today. Thank you. ❤

I found you because of the horror channel, and absolutely love you! I am so proud of you, and you have grown and matured so much. Also, I lost my mom March last year to brain cancer. So I can relate to losing a parent. I am not a mom, it's not for me. But can appreciate other family/friends children. ❤

Haven't watched the video yet but really looking forward to hearing your thoughts on this! Thank you in advance for sharing :') Was also wondering where your shirt/dress was from?

I appreciate your honesty about your life and feelings, and definitely appreciate you saying motherhood isn't for everyone. I'm a childless woman, and I'm SO glad this isn't my life. Love it for you, but not for me.

My kid was born in november same year. And soooo much you are talking about, i can relate to. but also, our babies are sooo different and i really do feel for you when it comes to the sleeping and eating and mom guilt and aall that intales. lots of love from a fellow mama

I cannot believe you regret cutting your hair, I think it looks so good! I also really liked your long hair though, you look good with either!

I'm a seasoned mom now, 6yr old and 2yr old. I had a hard time the first couple years. Like you, I had a lot of changes with a newborn. Moved states at 6 weeks old, didn't know anyone, bought a house at 6mo. Anyway yes the hardest part was losing my me time. I felt suffocated a little bit. It took me a long time to accept this was my new normal. BUT I wish I had accepted it sooner so that I could have enjoyed my time with my oldest. It is definitely a phase. Some of my favorite years was age 3 to 4 because I had a little bestie that I could talk to and we learned together. Then came his sister and seeing them together is amazing!

My daughter was also born December 2022 so I love watching your mom videos since our babes are the same age. Sleep was the hardest thing to give up for me. I never thought I could function on no sleep but here I am making it work lol. Also, asking for help is so hard for me too! I like to be in control of everything so it can be hard to give up that control a bit.

This makes me less nervous about parenthood, actually. I've been watching your videos for YEARS. You are incredible and I love your outlook on staying true to yourself while still being a mom.

much love to you!

My second baby was so much easier because I already knew what adjustments needed to be made and I was living with those adjustments. All of those life changes were in place. Was surprised at how much easier things were. My second baby also slept well. That helped a lot.

If only you did these videos years back they would of been a life saver 😊 I had very similar experiences years ago when I had my first born, I had evening anxiety due to knowing the fact I would not be sleeping it’s a thing. Keep doing these videos they will absolutely help new mothers 😊

I appreciate your insight, especially the one about the survival period after having your baby isn’t the time for you to thrive and that’s ok. I don’t have children yet but would like to soon and I’m excited but terrified. I know the sleep deprivation will screw me up

You're a inspiration for me when it comes to being a mom. I still have a few years till it's time I guess but I think a lot about it. I just love you're approach. With most mothers on social media I don't connect but you seem like the mom I also want to be sometime...

13 months on brutal! And I didn’t feel like myself till 2 years post partum. It’s all rough! Now with a 4 year old juggling going back into society or having another! It’s easy to get wrapped up in the now but I try to look at how much things will change her life and how I’ll get my time back at some point. Thankful for these conversations and people like you!

Thank you so much for your honesty. I (34) have never and probably will never want to have children, but admire and appreciate you sharing your journey with us. 💓

Honestly the most relatable video since becoming a mom 💕

The food struggle is SO real. They’ll eat like 30% of what you give them (on a good day) and despite your constant preoccupation & worries, somehow they end up okay! You are doing incredible & you are not alone ❤

I’ve been watching your channel for years Sarah and always felt connected I had my son in 2021 and we moved countries when he was 2,5 months and then my mother in law died (she was like my own mother), our experience is quite similar and I felt so depressed after all that happened and also so disconnected from my physical appearance after birth And though having my boy was the best that ever happened to me i was thinking all who do it again for the second child are out of their minds cause it is truly the hardest thing ever and mine never slept as well (I feel you so much on heart palpitations and anxiety at night) and teething literally nearly killed me Now my son is over 2 and let me tell you it is a bliss, not only it became easier but it became nearly pure joy, and I finally have mental space for thinking about me again and step by step I begin to recognize myself in the mirror And even seriously considering having another child 😄 like seriously You also love them more and more every day seeing their personalities shining I.d say it became so much better after he turned two so to every parent who is struggling I promise it gets even better💚

The thing about guilt is so true with me. Me and you were pregnant around the same time so it is interesting to hear about your experience a few months in advance.

This video is so relatable. I have two tweens and a ONE year old. Man it is definitely NOT my time to thrive. I love that reminder. It is a phase!

My first baby was that textbook baby. He did everything “on time”, and then some. He slept through the night at 6 wks old and continued to do so, even through teething, etc. He took great naps, enjoyed eating all foods, and was generally just an easy baby. Along came baby number 2…and damn. My world was rocked to say the least. But they’re both teenagers now and I really miss when they were tiny guys. It went by in a heartbeat!

Thank you for making this video! I am not a mom and turning 36 soon! So I am just curious about mom experiences- I also just recently stopped taking birth control and so I am thinking about if kids or not having kids will be the next step for me. Thank you again! ❤

I LOVE that you said you can’t wait for her to be an adult. I think so many people have kids expecting them to somehow stay kids (and in some ways objects) forever. You’re a brilliant and sensitive person. I really hope you are in therapy. The guilt and trauma and anxiety and obsessive compulsions are all treatable. I promise. You deserve to feel okay.

when I say I was agreeing with every single point you made, so relatable

Oh my God Sarah…this could be me, telling my story! Thank you. Really!

Thank you for bravely sharing your experiences like this. I’m not a mom but I’ve supported you for a long time and I commend you for your hard work trying to break patterns and give your kid a good life. I rewatch all the time, hence why I’m just now commenting. Can’t wait for the next video. 💓 Random question: would you ever consider making environmentalism and fashion ethics videos again?

Yeah the thing about “I don’t wanna do that again” I have learned is a valid emotional response but the thing is you learn a lot from the first time and it’s usually not as hard

I did the functional mom chop too and I regret it so much lol. I also broke out so incredibly bad with acne all over the place while I was pregnant and it took a while to go away! But it’s been 8 months and I’m getting back to myself slowly but surely ❤

I LOVE going to bed. I love settling in to sleep for the night. When my son was a newborn, I hated laying down to sleep because I knew I'd be woken up in an hour or three. I just hated it. Sleep training does not have to mean cry it out. We trained my son very slowly between 4 and 6 months. By 9 months he was sleeping through the night.

Hearing you talk about your child eating has me in tears. My daughter is 19 months but she still is so picky and I worry so much about of she is getting enough calories and iron. Solidarity!

@TheHannahBrophy

5 ай бұрын

My 19 month old is the same! So stressful

I love how you don’t romanticize any aspect of it without taking the joyful part, we can clearly see that you’re so happy being a mom 🖤 You will always be an inspiration to me!

When you're in the middle of the newborn stage is hard, frustrating, & sometimes defeating. When they get older, you kind of miss them being that small & needing you. Although seeing them grow into a full person w/a personality is the best.

My daughter just turned two & sigh… I miss that first year 😂 as challenging as it is. That 3 hour nap time clock just gave me whiplash

My child is 6 now and I still believe the new born stage is the hardest. Everytime I thought about having another one I would have newborn ptsd

The KZread algorithm did its job suggesting this video. I’m blown away by how much I have in common with you and can relate to so much of this! I was also 32 when I got pregnant with my first baby and she just turned 14 months. I also always wanted to be a mom, and I don’t think anyone can ever really be ready. I surprised myself with how easy pregnancy & labor were for me, at least compared to a lot of experiences I’ve heard from others. The newborn stage was absolutely awful for us trying to breastfeed, but having issues possibly in part because of oral ties, so I was exclusively pumping for what felt like an eternity. “Sleep when the baby sleeps” was impossible because she so often wouldn’t sleep without someone holding her. It was the first time my husband had really ever been around a baby at all, so I took on a lot more than I should have from the start, and it made my postpartum healing as well as my mental health brutal. I want to start trying for baby #2 this summer, but I feel so traumatized by postpartum/newborn from my first that I want to feel like we are better prepared before we even start TTC again.

The best thing I heard that really helped me with the mum guilt around taking time away from them for work, self care, hobbies was that you are modelling being a person (and a mum) for your child. So for them (and especially if they are are girl) you need to show them that they can and should have those things in their lives, (and even if they also become a mum one day).

Sarah, you made it 1 year!!! The first year with the first baby is always the hardest. This reflection was so insightful. When it comes to future pregnancies, you are not automatically high risk! Your age is not a problem unless a problem presents itself. You are more likely to have preeclampsia in your first pregnancy. Every pregnancy is different! You've got this! One day at a time!

I'm a dude, gay and don't want kids.. so this video is in no way for me.. but I wanna thank you for putting your view on parenthood out for everyone to see. Respect ❤ I'm sure there's a lot of parents out there in need of this video, no matter what situation people are in. My sister was very alone at times (even being married at the time) and I'm sure videos like this would have helped her way more than I ever could.. since I can't relate on many levels. And I do like your views... You're an amazing mother and woman. And will continue to be ❤... Stay safe and strong ❤

Becoming a mom was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I lost my dad a couple months before I got pregnant so I know exactly how you feel 💜

You look so beautiful! Also I love your shirt - anyone know where it is from?

@clairewillow6475

5 ай бұрын

She looks amazing ❤

I also hated the newborn stage. I felt guilty for wanting her to grow up so we could get through it but now she's almost 6 and it's the opposite. She's growing so fast 😢

My son has never been a sleeper either! He's turning 5 this year and has finally started sleeping(mostly because he's running around like crazy all day). We had some trouble when transitioning from a crib to a toddler bed, but he's worked through it and loves his big boy bed now☺it is crazy to think about the newborn days because, like you said, it's hard having a toddler so I always look back and think that the baby stage would be easier if I did it again, but the sleep really is the problem😅I wouldn't give back my sleep.

I never want to be pregnant but i needed this video so ill know what will my friend most likely go thru cause she is with a baby now and i want to be there for her so thank you so much for this

I love these videos as me and my partner talk alot about having kids. Im so scared so i want hear about what its like from people who have gone through it. Thank you x

I am 15 weeks pregnant with my first, so this was good to hear.

Omg the food... My son's Drs always said he'll eat when he's hungry, um not this kid. *Sigh* so much worrying about food with my kiddo!

I just turned 30 and have a 22 month old. It wasn’t until my daughter was around 14-16 months old that I started to feel significantly more like myself. The sleep deprivation was horrible. I also need a lot of sleep. I get depressed easily when I am tired. My daughter still doesn’t sleep great still but it’s better than it used to be. I have learned so many healthy habits that have helped me feel better. I hope to have one more child. I feel way more prepared this time around and also know that I give myself permission to struggle through it. It does pass. Now time is going by so fast.

I have a couple of things to say, first of all, I adore you Sarah and always have. Your transparency is always appreciated. I am a little sad that you don’t ever promote your personal instagram, not even on your channel description box anymore. I know it’s a “dead” account but there have been so many beneficial posts on there, in terms of mental health specifically that I adore. Normalising makeup free, filter free and beauty in all different shapes and sizes etc. not to mention some sh*t hot selfies/ootd’s. My other thing is that I’m a little sad to hear you say you don’t want to talk about your insecurities, regarding your decision to cut your hair… this channel essentially to me normalised anyone’s problems and by you not sharing would go against some of the other content you have made. Everything matters, you just need to know when or how to prioritise it which beautifully links to your second point about not losing yourself and becoming a shell of the person you once was. Please try to make a video on how you feel after your pregnancy, in terms of your appearance if you feel comfortable to do so. Finding a new normal and ways to make yourself feel beautiful or put together. Self care and what not. Can I just say you also look so beautiful here too haha, I love that the ombre brows are back even though you rocked the Mia Goth brows! Finally (sorry haha), do you think your perception of your parents has changed now that you are a parent? Thanks in advance!

My son is 15 months old and 1000000% to everything you said. It is truly indescribable how hard and life changing it is. I love my son to death but those first few months were hell lol

I had my kiddos 21 months apart, breastfed both for a year and basically those 3 years are gone. If I watched something, read something, it basically only exists as faint memories because of the sleep deprivation. My husband tried his best to help, but he was on 12 hour shifts, he didn’t have a ton of time to really exist till his days off and on those days, we both wanted to spend time as a family together. I used to be able to sleep max of 5 hours and be good to go, but now I need 9 if I am going to be functional the next day. I also have some chronic issues that makes daily stuff a little hard sometimes, but I can truly say, with both of them in school, things have been easier. I can run errands that used to take hours, in one. I can focus on grad school, which I put off till they were both in school because I wanted to be as present as I could with them. I’m glad I did, I ended up changing my career path anyways (psychology to librarian) and I love it. Even though I am well passed the baby/toddler phase, I really love these kinds of videos. This one especially has helped me feel less guilty about things I have been holding onto for years. ❤