I'm sorry your ED has become stronger again. I agree - EDs in the end are nothing but horrible. I hope you can find a way to turn things around before it goes as far as you fear. I hate that you have to go through this. x

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

i hope so too. so far it's a no. I just really don't want to go through it again. xoxo

why are you doing this to yourself your so beautiful and your doing this to yourself I know its hard I have my issues but nothing like you and I just hate it because your such an inspiration I stopped doing what I do because of you. you made me stop cause I was so shocked that someone amazing like you can do that to yourself please stay strong I might annoy you with my comments but I just care about you so much... please stay strong and keep fightng and I hope it gets better for you xoxo

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

i am touched to hear you stop because of me. I am sorry I am so negative and entrenched in my illness. They are so over-powering. but you have to stay strong and keep this fight xoxo

I'm sorry you're so deep in this eating disorder at the moment. It's heartbreaking to see you struggle, but at the same time I feel hope that someday this will all be behind you and you will have a great relationship with food and weight. I was wondering if you had ever looked into a high-carbohydrate low-fat vegan diet? I actually managed to improve my relationship with eating by adopting this kind of lifestyle. There's no restriction, and you eat as much as your body needs with minimal weight gain. Most people actually lose weight, depending on their diet when they start. It is an extremely healthy and freeing lifestyle. There's lots of information about it on KZread, if you're interested. Please keep up the fight. Someday we will all be free of our mental demons x

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

maybe i can look it up. i don't know. like to be able to eat anything i want and not get fat on it, that's like the appealing part. and for us chinese or where i live it's hard to live such lifestyle. thanks anyway xoxo

you are not starving yourself just because you wanna get thin and pretty ... you are starving yourself bacause you hate yourself and you hate your life and you feel like you arent worth living that is the main problem and once you learn how to love yourself and love life .. once you know how worthy you actually is you can leave all this shit behind you and live the life that you deserve living now let me tell you you are a really pretty and cute girl i know you are going through a tough time and i know its hard to deal with all this things but please stay strong one day you are going to find the light just keep trying and never give up if you wasnt worth it i wouldnt say all this things

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

thanks. you said what my mind thinks. not to be skinny and pretty, because i know how ugly i look when i am severely underweight. thank you for your words. :)

You know I still struggle everyday with negativity in my mind. I some times still get bad days and I'm too self conscious. I worried too much what other thinks. Sometimes I feel like I'm not a perfect vegan when ever I feel down. And then I hate myself and hurt myself like not eating and restricting. Is just the un happiness that's causing you to hurt yourself, starve yourself and ect. YOU HAVE TO GET BACK UP no matter how hard it is. I know you won'y agree with me with this but try changing your diet. It actually effect my mental illness. Every since I eat enough good food (vegetables, fruits, whole plant base), exercise and focus on health and happiness (goal). My mind just think more positive. My mind is not starving anymore and feeling depressed. Starving yourself leads to depression. Do you want to worsen it? No. I hate it.. If you don't get back up right now. How will you find your happiness, if you keep forcing your body to starve. Eat to make your body feel happy. Eat enough.

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

i understand you are trying to help. sometimes it's because I want to hut and destroy myself. i just hate myself that much. i hope i'd fine and happy one day. stay strong xoxo

@plantbasekiki3381

8 жыл бұрын

dreammyrainbow I hate myself sometimes too and Ive self harm in the past. Is sad to see myself like that. Crying is better than hurting your body. I thought of planning my suicide when I turn 20 because right now I'm 15 and I struggle with depression. When bad days comes I thought about ending myself when I'm older. But I start to realize how precious life is. I look up to Lady Gaga and other singers who been through mental illness. They help me realize is ok. Ya I know this is long but it is my opinion and thoughts.