You are very inspirational and brave for sharing your story :)

i know there is nothing i can say to make things easier for you. I know how it feels to see what is happening but feel powerless against it and feel so trapped and like whatever you do will be bad. I just want you to know you're in my thoughts and i hope something will change and enable you to find the strength to fight for yourself. oxoxo

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

maybe i hope something will change but when ed gets to this consuming point i feel so hopeless and powerless. it sucks because when people are struggling in the beginning but at a healthier weight prof takes care of them less seriously;. but when ed really gets worse and the condition is more serious, help is of little use. stay strong and thanks for your words

Thank you for making these videos. Adding you on Snapchat. Stay strong, hun.

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

thank you sweetie. you stay strong too no matter what. msg me anytime :) xoxo

I am thinking about you and I am worried for your big relapse :(...

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

meanwhile i am happy to see your progressing so much. we see each other struggle, sometimes you more sometime i struggle more. I am happy ur trying so hard to win ed and i know you can do it. i am failing. don't worry too much about my relapse. my dr is now warning me. my next vid explains better which i am publishing soon. so i don't think i can get away with it... sending loads of love xoxo

I hate that you are going through all this.... just breaks my heart.

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

i am sorry you are sadden by it. i wish ican post happy fun video but this is the reality of my life and struggle. of course i do have some fun videos on my channel but I put these sort of video up to reflect the truth of mental illness and also to educate people. I made so many friends in similar situation here. :) that's the reward I guess. I hope you are well.

@renferal3774

8 жыл бұрын

dreammyrainbow Just know that there are people out there who care about you and I think you are a wonderful person :) \

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

i know they care about me. thank you to everyone who does. it's just a struggle most of the time.

I would suggest ignoring the scales. Your "weight" includes your bones, your muscle, your water, your food, your stool, and your fat. Also, scales are really inaccurate. Like you saw, they can vary in huge amounts, so they are not good for measuring weight loss or gain. I had to stop weighing myself before I could stop focusing on it. It's so much better to stop weighing and counting, and focusing on health. What does your counselor suggest, for you to cope with your eating disorder? Do they have any advice? You should listen to the part of yourself saying "Don't do the disordered behaviours." Go to the hospital so that your heart doesn't stop. Please take care of yourself.

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

my counsellor suggested the same thing as what my dr did. eating my breakfast and lunch again. I explain more in my coming video not published yet. it's so much easier to follow what ED says and indeed i am relapsing in its path again. xox thank you for your love xoxo

You're so beautiful

Why do u focus on your appearance/ weight so much?

@dreammyrainbow

8 жыл бұрын

i think you have asked it not the first time. there was a reason i relapse this time, i think i have it in a past video. i don't focus a lot on my appearance, because if i do, i won't lose weight until i am skeletal coz i look horrible. ED is not just about weight and appearance