I'm so glad to see you're alive. Many times when I opened KZread, I wondered how you're doing and if you really ended your life. And of course you're not a failure. I think the fact that you didn't commit suicide is a huge success. I think it's great that you're so honest about what you feel and think and talk about how eating disorders and depression really are. They can make you feel suicidal and screw up your body. It's not glamorous. So I definitely don't see you talking about these things as trying to get attention but as saying how you feel and what these illnesses do to you.

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

thanks for your support and care. really. Sorry i am really having a hard time now and I didn't do update for quite a while. I am lost really. Plus my house is pretty chaotic at the moment with some construction work. I hope I can bring some positivity in my next video though. I want to be honest with people because this is the illness and this is my life being affected by it. The truth. not the glamourous pretty one edited on shows and documentary. I hope you are doing ok. xoxo

Yesterday I discovered your channel and watched so many videos of your videos. Thank you for just being there.

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

what an coincident that i posted the next days after weeks of no updates. thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo most of all, thanks for staying on this channel :)

I'm that girl from Instagram .. But I'm glad to see you here today :3 And I know that you're still struggling but o just wanted you to know that you've made it this far and that is so amazing ! And I'm honestly so proud of you ^~^ Stay strong angel

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo i wonder who you are on ig. it's a tough struggle but i can only try everyday. stay strong sweetie

@nochu3112

7 жыл бұрын

Tyssm ❤️ And I'm so happy and proud of you for trying so hard :3 I know things are tough :/ But I'm honestly so proud and I'm: my.name.isnt.my.story :3 xoxo

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

oh, yes, i know you gurl. of course i can remember you so well even though it's only recently that i started seeing your ig ac. I saw your pic and struggle. It's ok to feel hurt. It's ok to feel the need to vent. Some people find friends to talk to. Some can't. Most of the time I am confused about what I am doing too, to my life and to myself. I don't know. Like tonight it's huge anxiety because I am really scared to fly tomorrow for the trip. I don't know if I can do it. When anxiety is high, i have horrible panic attack and agoraphobia. I hope you stay strong, beautiful. I am here if you want to talk or share anything. xoxo

@nochu3112

7 жыл бұрын

Aw -.- thankyou so so much you're an angel honestly :/ I wish you weren't in so much unhappiness and pain

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

thank you xoxo i pm you on ig to know you better :)

It's so good to see you again! Thank you for posting an update, it must be difficult to find the time and energy to do it. So I really appreciate it :)

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

i guess i can blame it to my laziness. i have the time but not the mental energy needed, also sometimes I don't know to say. thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo letting me know that you stay on this chanel

You are not a failure your amazing even when your in your darkest moments you can calm yourself down that's what I love about you. Stay strong your beautiful in your own way, so happy that your back!! Xo

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

aw... that's sweet. i managed to not act on my plan because of my psychologist's support, like she really cares. it held me back. I guess we are all fighting our own battles. stay strong too. I should have more update when the trips comes. luvya xoxo

I'm so glad that you're back!

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo *it's the first time you are commenting am i right? coz I don't remember seeing your ac name. :P

You are not a failure, thank you for your update, I hope you will continue to make videos when you can. Don't make them when you don't feel like it but we do care xo **I have been waiting for this video.

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

so sweet of you to say that. I didn't know how to continue on from my last video so I didn't made the next one before my mood got worse and I was so out of it. thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo

I am glad to have news from you! I Am worried about the fact that you seem to isolate more.. But I might be wrong, I just hope that you are still venting to someone. You are worth it, don't give up!

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

i was isolating more. there was a worst period where i disappear from all social media. Baking these days keeps me going to you see my baking pictures. though with these struggle, it's easier to isolate because of the sadness and loneliness with it. tu me manque

i have been waiting for this video for a long while. Glad u stayed safe. Take care. Keep going and live life. It's difficult but try.

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

it's difficult and I am trying. life sucks still. thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo stay strong too

Hemp seeds are a great source of protein just three table spoons meets you're daily requirements of proteins because just one table spoon of hemp seed is 5.3 grams of protein and also hemp seeds have many health benefits and the oil too. But everyone's requirements are different. I know you are having a hard time 😔 please take care.

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo it's interesting you're telling me about hemp seeds. I do know i need food to keep going, but ed is strong. with the trip coming it's even more stressful. thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo take care too

xoxo ♥ hugs

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo stay strong

I'm so glad you decided to stick around, I was so worried about you! I'm sorry that things still aren't getting better. ED is a bitch, it takes a lot out of you and it's one of the worst things that a person can go through. I hope you feel better soon, you are so beautiful and you shouldn't forget that. You are not a failure, you are just going through a lot right now. I'm here if you need me and I hope you have a great holiday. Stay strong and be brave xoxo

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

holiday makes me stressful. you know, end of year, when everyone is celebrating, i dread it. I hate another year passing. i hate time passing. I missed the old days that don't return. everyday now is when I live like a zombie. half dead but more dead. i am glad you're around too. stay strong babe

I have been waiting for this video, even though I follow you on Instagram I still wanted to hear your voice. And I always love to hear how you are doing.

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

what's your ig name if you don't mind me asking? I guess maybe I know who you are on ig. sometimes I am so off I don't even post on ig or snapchat. but i will try to be more regular. I guess I may be posting updates on my taiwan trip, so more videos. thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

oh, yes, i don't recalling reading your comments or chatting with your ig account. thanks for this silent support. I appreciate your presence even though you just watch me and read my posts. Thank you

I've missed youuuu

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

sorry about the lack of updates. i know some of you would miss me, but i thought as time pass people will move on. but i don't want this channel to end with a proper 'end'. i still want to connect with you all. thanks for your comment and thanks for your support xoxo there're updates coming. stay strong

how much do you eat ? btw i like the jewelry

@dreammyrainbow

7 жыл бұрын

i mostly eat and purge. so I don't know how much food I adsorb. :P thanks, do check out my nelly's craft page for more designs