You are officially branded and Loved by all NF fans.

@fxnoob

2 жыл бұрын

yea, thats right!

@normangnosek1311

2 жыл бұрын

My ex girlfriend is on durgs thank God my kids are grown up

@JustJenReacts

2 жыл бұрын

I just came back here. It’s just as hard as the first time 😢 I need to do more of his videos. 😭 damn! I’m a mess y’all!

@nilloc28

2 жыл бұрын

@@JustJenReacts I’ve never paused a reaction video until you said, “I started doing drugs with my dad at 16 hoping, maybe he’d stay.” I haven’t cried that hard in a long time. Talk about a mess haha. I’m a bit speechless. That comment destroyed me. I’m glad you made it to the other side!!

I have to stress something. I said I gave up drugs when my oldest was 10. But when I found out I was pregnant with him, I got clean. Only then when he was a year and a half, did I pick the cocaine back up. When I finally got away from his father (a very abusive man) when he was 3 did I start going hard on everything I could get my hands on. I know it’s no excuse, but I just wanted to let everyone know that I didn’t use while pregnant, nor was he born addicted to anything. Sorry for having to clarify after the fact.

@briiiiiiiiiiiwalsh8624

3 жыл бұрын

Girl I wish I could give you a hug so much right now

@johncain6774

3 жыл бұрын

I respect you even more.You're an exceptionally honest person.You'll do fine.Peace.

@brutisvss

3 жыл бұрын

We go through what we got to go through to grow. To heal, pain must come first. I'm in recovery myself. Thank you for this! Your awesome!

@Toooomy_Boy

3 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@dustingrimsley3743

3 жыл бұрын

Stay strong gorgeous. I was addicted to meth and pills for several years, lost thousands of dollars and many good friends because of it. Luckily I didn't die or go to jail. We got this darlin, stay positive my friend.

Dosen't matter how many times I watch this it still gets me.

@DC-ov8hl

3 жыл бұрын

It really does...Im crying rn

@Freedum_Fries

3 жыл бұрын

facts hits way too close to home for me

@lyamgray9796

3 жыл бұрын

100%

@ThatOneGreyAcura

3 жыл бұрын

It gets me too

@crazyfans2749

3 жыл бұрын

True

My son showed my this video 4 years ago when I was at the very bottom of a 15 year opiate addiction. It effected me so profoundly that it was the push that made me finally seek treatment. I could see and hear all of my children's pain in Nates eyes and voice. He may not been able to save his mom but he saved me and I will be eternally greatful. I've been clean and a fan ever since. I still can't watch this without crying every time. NF us a prophet please keep reacting to his songs everyone of them has a message 🙏 😔💔

@harry8333

3 жыл бұрын

With all addictions you have to wanna, or you're never gonna. My splash of reality happened when I looked at bruise on my love's cheek and asked what happened. She said *YOU!* I didn't remember anything I did that night, being too drunk. Something else took over. I was sleeping, but my body was still up and moving around. That was my push to stop the alcohol.

@brandimachulis7820

3 жыл бұрын

@@harry8333 i agree but this song was that push I needed to say enough is enough.

@harry8333

3 жыл бұрын

@@brandimachulis7820 Whatever it takes to snap yourself out of self-destruction.

@Vetionarian

3 жыл бұрын

Proud of you! You're amazing and keep fighting the good fight. It's SO SO SO worth it.

@Jim_86

Жыл бұрын

Brandi Machulis. It was your son's way of making you realize that you had an addiction and that you could have ended up just like NF's mother did. I'm glad he showed you this video and that you're clean now. Keep on fighting.

Wow. This did not get easier watching this two years later. But I am glad to say I now have 8 years clean off that crap. I know this song is one of which documents Nathan’s tragic childhood, and it’s never easy to watch and hear someone going through this much pain. After he just put out “Mama” he finally was able to find it in his heart ♥️ and his soul to give his Mama that forgiveness he swore he could not at the time he put this out. I can’t say that I blame him either. That should show us all how much he has grown. Forgiveness is never easy…But we all have to do it for ourselves. Sorry if I made you guys cry here. I cried again too. It’s absolutely impossible not to shed some tears with this song. I hope each and every one of you got something out of this video. I have no issues with sharing my stories with you guys for the mere simple fact, I want someone to use my story as a reference, or platform to get help. Know this. If I can do this, so can you. Much love to all who come watch this video. I’ll come back from time to time to remind myself why I stay clean. ❤️ Jen

@claytruant2330

Жыл бұрын

As a former addict myself (originally cleaned up in 2010, relapsed in 2016 and have now been clean since 2017) I want to thank you for putting out these videos. My sister passed away in 2018 from heroin and watching you in this video made me think of her two little kids and the mother that they will never get to know. Her youngest, being a baby when she passed, will have no memories of his mother, which is heartbreaking. It is stories and videos like this that continue to keep me sober, no matter how strong the urges get at times. So thank you.

@jameskpakpaquartey2161

Жыл бұрын

Fire reaction please kindly react to Lyrical joe 5th August 5 over 60 bars and flow switches , he is embodiment of weezy Kendrick , Eminem , 2pac Biggie , Nas

@noctem1238

Жыл бұрын

My Wife was an addict also, when I got with her she was trying to stop and seeing her suffer going cold turkey was awful. I just spent every minute with her till she was through the worst. She has now being free of it for coming upto 8yrs also. I am proud of my wife and I am proud of you, big love.

@Workrategetschingy

Жыл бұрын

Very proud of you ❤️, my dad is 12 years sober now 🙏

@brandonrambo5694

9 ай бұрын

I ain't gonna lie I smoke weed too coupe with everything that's happen too me I never done pills but my mom did when I was younger I was getting bullied in school so I skipped school because no one would listen too me so I just skipped it they sent me off for two years well they said because was still doing pills at first but towards the end she quit doing it but they left me in there my dad beat as a kid always up until I was eight then he left I remember that day personally because it was father day I made him a cake for him never come back then at that time mom got worse on pills and kept trying too find right guy for me and her too stay with but she picked wrong ones the first one after Dad was good too me at first then his grown kids came back in the picture they would hit me and then youngest son with electric flyswatters and stuff then the next one she went too he was on dope bad she didn't know at the time he abused her just like my dad he threatened me Everytime i stood for her thats when i moved at 16 and started skipping school becuase i was never home and well my buddys parents told me and him we didn,t have too go too school so i didn,t neither did he but they sent me off not him so yeah I,ve had hard life reason i smoke weed and drink too forget my pass its hard 5 years later still struggling with it glad my mom quit the pills i,ve tried quit drinking and smoking i quit drinking for two years then girl dumped me recentley i ended up starting back drinking i,m trying my hardest too quit both of them its so hard do becuase i,m bypolar i blackout disorder and i,m partailly dislexic never knew until i graduated so i had harder work then i should have been doing but no one ever knew i did hopefully one day i can quit everything like mom if not i,m worried i might die young becuase everybody i was friends keeps dieing young or suicide 😭😓but i,m still tryna hold on strong for my mom i got no kids hopefully one day i can have kids one maybe it might give motivation too quit everything

I am SO proud of you for beating that addiction. I can't even imagine what the struggle was like. Your kids are going to grow up and be inspired, and I bet it'll break that chain of addiction in your family. Best of luck moving forward, and be very proud of yourself

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

💯

What's even more upsetting is the fact that NFs Wife lost her Dad to drugs too

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Oh no 😢 well, that created a bond that cannot be broken!!!

@thelivingmiracle

3 жыл бұрын

@@JustJenReacts It sure did 😢

@pauljohnson7205

Жыл бұрын

I did not know that. They're helping each other heal and God is in the center

I never experienced anything like this but I'm crying right here with you

I cried with you. For like the 50th time to this song. 11-1-2013 for me Nfs music is on another level. My parents weren't addicted but I put my parents through my addiction and having to find me overdosed in the bathroom ect ect. And that's what it took to get me off heroine

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

I’m glad you’re clean now. You got sober, exactly one year before I did. Hugs sent

@bobbybeattie4738

3 жыл бұрын

@@JustJenReacts yea its cool we prity much have the same date. I mean I have a few beers now occasionally I tried smoking again and I don't like that shit anymore but I didn't even touch a beer for years. Now I'm comfortable to have a few occasionally but holy f was it a battle. I did it cold turkey too. I probly slept a total of 8 hours in 3 weeks. But hey that's what it took too wake me tf up

@FishermanMike253

3 жыл бұрын

Bobby!!! Love ya brother!!!

@oksooners

3 жыл бұрын

My parents met in drug treatment. I knew what i wanted to be before i was born. I made it out, stronger and more determined than ever. Being an addict saved my future. 2-8-2012 👊

@e-rokp911

3 жыл бұрын

My mom was a prescription drug addict for 28 years. She passed on 6-13-2011. This song describes so much pain that I had and still have. I'm happy to see the posts of sobriety and longevity. Keep it up.😔🙏

This has got to be the most heartbreaking and realest reaction I've seen to this masterpiece. Your story really hit me, even tho I don't even personally don't even relate. I'm sorry for your low points, and I'm glad you were able to become sober to be the best mom you can be for your kids. Nothing but respect. I wish you the best 🙏

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Wow thank you 😊 this is why I will continue to share my story with the world!!! Much respect back! Jen

@darthharry949

3 жыл бұрын

@@JustJenReacts np! And ty too ^^

@valiant69au

Жыл бұрын

Said it perfectly

The end of the song hits different now that him and his wife are having a baby. This song gets me everytime

Jen, CONGRATS on your almost 7 years clean. To everyone here who is in recovery, CONGRATULATIONS.

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!!

@eblazelee436

Жыл бұрын

I'm one month Clean and trying

@kaydee63

Жыл бұрын

@@eblazelee436 Congrats 👏👏 You'll hear this a lot, but just remember to take one day at a time

@eblazelee436

Жыл бұрын

I will it's hard but I got this KayDee

@kaydee63

Жыл бұрын

@@eblazelee436 Cool, it does get easier

I swear, NF is always making someone cry. He has a direct line to people's feelings

He was writing from his perspective as a kid. Of course, his mother was an addict and couldn't control her habit. The last part was edited down from about 15 minutes of him crying and raging, alone in the studio. He asked everyone to leave and let out years of shame, grief, pain and anger. There is a video explaining all about this video.

@codyspradling4821

2 жыл бұрын

Wow I wish we could get the full unedited 15 minutes

@willasacco9898

2 жыл бұрын

@@codyspradling4821 I don’t know if that is available anywhere. I suspect not.

@danimayb

Жыл бұрын

There was meant to be another verse, But by that point he was having a breakdown and that's when this happened. He decided to bring the song to an end and add some of his grief talking to mom as an outro. I don't blame him, Must have been hard as hell making it! And it's a masterpiece for sure, But I really do wish he would have given us that last verse.. I love this song so much.

@willasacco9898

Жыл бұрын

@@danimayb This song is on my top three of most genuine and emotional catharsis

@willasacco9898

Жыл бұрын

@@danimayb songs are ever written and performed.

From all of us NF fans, we love you and we will ride with you.

You're very strong for posting this reaction, I appreciate you. My mother was able to escape the drugs but my father overdosed and passed away. She raised five boys on her own and once we were raised she went on to achieve her dreams and now is saving lives as an RN. NF touches us with music like no one else can.

@corithekid8491

Жыл бұрын

💚

Struggled with addiction my whole life like most of my family..your reaction was exactly like mine! Shit I've watched this 100 times and I still cry! 💔😢

NF is, by definition, the most explicit artist without having to be explicit. Just raw, unfiltered, in your face. Also, thank you for sharing this very real, genuine, reaction. I'm proud of you and happy for you.

I'm a recovering addict as well from heroin so I know what you're going through. NF helped get my life on track

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Hell yeah! You stay clean! If I can, you can!!! I’m proud of you, in case no one had said that lately.

OH MY GOD. I am a full grown adult sitting here bawling like a baby. I've watched dozens of reactions to this song and I've never gotten this emotional. I'm so thankful for you and your son that you climbed out of it. I wish everybody could say the same.

@JustJenReacts

2 жыл бұрын

I wish I could say the same too. It’s sad. Thanks for your outstanding, and understanding comment

Ironically brings a smile to my face seeing her cry, cuz it shows how much his music can relate to people

Congratulations on 6 years sober I’ve been sober for 27 years. I lost so many friends to od’s and swore my children would never go through that by the grace of God I got clean and stayed clean it’s not easy but I never wanted to lose my boys. I also had a lot of help from my parents who used tough love even when they didn’t want to

I have zero experience with drug addicts or addictions, but I have such extreme respect for anyone who can overcome that. That takes serious strength.

I told you... I tried to tell you to do it later in the NF journey, this song is rough especially for ex addict moms like us. Love ya girl!

I’ve listened to this 100 times, but watching another recovering heroin addict react and relate, man I was weeping like a willow. Awesome you got clean. We do recover. 8-17-17 is my new clean date. Thank you so much for using your platform to spread the message!

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Congrats on your sobriety!!!! And I am blessed to be able to spread this message of hope! I constantly say, “if I can do it, anybody can!!!!” And I mean that!!! Thanks for watching my videos!!! That in itself means the world to me!!!!

@elliemonie

3 жыл бұрын

You Got Clean On My Birthday 🥰🥰🥰

Thid is the song that got me hooked on NF. His music is so relatable and he puts his heart and soul in everything he puts out.

The rawest, realest reaction ive seen to this video. You made me cry Jen. Good on you for being honest, good on you for getting through your addiction. Nothing but love your way.

You can talk,try to explain til your blue in the face. Those that never been to the dark side will never understand what its like.

Respect to you not just for this reaction but for getting that help for you and the family..much love stay safe 🙏

Well Jen, this reaction was the hardest I've ever watched. Had to take a brake and go outside for a smoke just to calm down, have never needed that before. But I loved it. My heart goes out to you sweetie, stay strong squirrel, much love.

I have watched this music video no less than 30 times. And yet, I cry my eyes out every time. Thankfully, my mother and father are happy and healthy. However. My older brother battled, and ultimately failed with his addictions, as well as depression. He took his own life when I was 21. None of my children ever had a chance to meet their amazing, intelligent, hilarious uncle. Every milestone. Every moment in time that I want to celebrate, I wonder. How could you leave us? How could you miss this??? NF is truly an amazing artist. As I said to you at your funeral: One day I know that we will see each other again. But not yet Brother. Not Yet.

@Val2Suave

Жыл бұрын

Same 😢

This is truly inspiring. I don’t think NF can understand the side of addiction on how hard it is to quit, but as a kid you can’t understand it. I admire that you were able to get clean and stay clean that’s amazing that you have stay strong and I’ll def be sending good positive vibes your way!

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you chris! 🤗

What hurt the most was that the cries in the song were real. When he sang the song he cried and they put it into the song. So that pain you hear is the realest that I have ever heard.

I always struggle watching this, but I broke down watching you. I lost my mom to drugs (pills - Klonopin was one of them - and alcohol) and I was torn hurting from my own personal pain and seeing yours. I know my mom loved me and I know my mom was a slave to her addiction. I'm so glad you got clean and your babies will never experience what Nate and I have. It's messed me up for life and clearly has hurt Nate deeply as well. They say there is nothing like a mother's love, but equally there's nothing more painful than not having that love in your life too. God bless you, Jen.

girl istg, I'm ready to give you a hug. The moment you brought up your past, I started crying immidiately because my father passed away from a heroin overdose a few years ago. I'm so proud of you for getting through it and staying here💜

@JustJenReacts

2 жыл бұрын

Hugs for you too. I’m sorry he was a casualty of that horrible substance. May you find peace knowing that there’s nothing that you could have done to prevent that.

I admire and respect you for saving your own life. We all have someone close to us that has been affected by addictions. This song is so jam packed with raw pain and sorrow. It would be impossible to witness it and not be torn apart. Stay strong Sis. You matter.

Good for you for getting sober like for real congrats that’s an incredible accomplishment!!!

I just sobbed through this whole thing with you 😭 another recovered addict here, and im so glad you got clean and you're here with us

too many families face these struggles. I'm proud of you for becoming a better person for yourself and your son. keep that head up.

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!!

Damn I was crying with you Jen! I love how brave you are to share such personal experiences. I really respect you and I'm sure you are helping some person out there that can relate! I lost my son to drugs which has made every struggle I've ever had feel like small potatoes. Jen you are awesome!!!

Damn ,the pain in all that.Sometimes you have to open up the wounds again for it to heal.My brother died in a car accident.He was drinking.He left behind six kids and a wife.He tried to free himself from booze but he kept going back to it.He was my best friend.It broke me for a while but I never returned to the drugs and booze.I guess he was hurting really bad on some level.It causes desolation.Everybody hurts.It"s the one thing we all share.Peace.

Balling my eyes out

"With that new baby comes hope" And really did!

@dannyboysable

Жыл бұрын

Amen

This is the part of life that NEEDS to be talked about more. The CHOICES we make in life affect those around us, whether we feel them or not.

This had me bawling my eyes out , love NF n thanks for reaction 😀

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

🤗

My daughter told me a few years ago that she spent over a month contacting local hospitals, jails, morgues and police stations because my phone got turned off (again) and meth wasn't paying the bills. I did 10 days in county and then moved cities to go to rehab.

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Good deal! Stay on the right path! Your daughter needs you!!!

I am so proud of you Jen. I don't know you and I know that pain is the common denominator for all of us--may you find the strength each day to learn to struggle well with the pain that life brings without seeking to blur the pain through substances. Thanks for sharing your story.

Thank you. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to get clean and stay clean. I'm so very proud of you and I don't even know you.💜

Your strength is amazing. The struggles you’ve dealt with has made you the wonderful human you are today. Keep it going Jen💕

I’m so glad your son was able to get through to you. My brother is an addict and has been in many programs and even several years in jail, but still refuses to stay in AA or NA and our relationship is very poor bc he’s always lying to me even when he doesn’t have to. Loved your honest reaction and candor-so glad you’re doing well now!!

No one is immune to the trials and tribulations of life, but it's the choices we make that give us the roads to take that leads us to the possibilities of tomorrow. Hope this helps anyone reading it

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

💯

@Gravecrawler-vd3yl

3 жыл бұрын

@@JustJenReacts thank you

NF is from Michigan. My mother met his sisters. I’m so happy NF is how he is today. Way better parent than his mom and dad combined

@sasham6960

2 жыл бұрын

I know he has a lot of worries about becoming a father, but I’m sure he’ll be great.

Jen, this hit me hard. As you know, I’m in recovery too, since December 2014. I had custody of my son up to that point. Then alcohol helped me get locked up. His mother came and got custody, took him back to Arkansas, where she drank, drugged and abused him. I can’t go back and save him from that. But we are both looking forward. He moved away from her and came to be with me. So, for anyone in recovery who has kids, you know you who you are, don’t ever go back to that toxic life. Please, for the sake of our children.

I’ve watched so many reactions to this and still can’t watch it without crying. My mom was an addict to multiple things throughout my life. She passed away last year right after my 26th birthday. She was only 44. Surprisingly she didn’t overdose, her heart randomly gave out when she was home alone. My siblings were always so angry towards her which killed her. Especially because they’re younger. I always tried to avoid making her feel guilty or bad about it cause I was so scared she’d get upset and end up overdoing it. I’m so glad you were able to get yourself out of that. Fist time I’ve seen any of your videos, subscribed immediately.

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

First off I wish I could hug you. I’m so sorry for the loss of your momma 😔 that broke my heart when i read that. You’re an amazing soul, keep being beautiful. And know that your momma is at peace now. Struggling with addiction is just too hard for some ppl. I know it’s hard, but you have to allow your siblings to be mad at her. You just have to pray for them that that anger will subside one day. Much love, Jen

I always find that when people react to NF, people feel comfortable being vulnerable. He just brings that out of people. Props to you for sharing your story. I'm so glad you got clean ❤❤ lots of love

@JustJenReacts

Жыл бұрын

I think you’re absolutely correct! By NF’s ability to expose his vulnerabilities, it’s contagiousness at its finest!!! ❤️

Jen your a beautiful person and never looked more beautiful than you did during this song. All the best keep up the great work in life and on this channel. Take care and God Bless from Joey from the Bronx NF has a lot of mental issues he’s still dealing with and his songs talk about them that’s why he has such a loyal fan base. He don’t drink he won’t take medication for his mental issues because he’s scared to. Your gonna love the NF JOURNEY

This is absolutely a hard song to get through, but amazing at the same time. His music is his therapy, hopefully KZread or something else has been working for you. You got a new fan today. Love your reactions, your fans and followers will always be here to lean on if you need it.

Jen, I admire your courage to do this reaction. I am supremely inspired by you, I mean that from my heart! Thank you, I guarantee you are touching more lives than you'll ever know.

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Oh I hope I do!!! That’s my goals here! Spreading messages of hope, and sharing laughter, and so much love for amaaaaaazing music!!!

NF is the real deal. he spits facts

I still haven't been able to listen to this song all the way through. Hits way to close to home for me. My Mom was addicted to Crack and left me, my 2 older Brothers and my older Sister with my Father when I was 6 Months old, which at some point (not sure exactly when it started), but from as early as I can remember he would often turn into a violent drunk that would beat the shit out of us just as a reminder that we better not misbehave. I remember once when I was really young, possibly 7-8 I was playing on the T-ball team behind the Community Center. I was standing to the side of the batters cage waiting for my turn to bat when 2 really skinny darkly tanned Woman who were wearing a lot of makeup randomly walked up to me and started a awkward conversation about how nice of a day it was. I remember feeling confused to why 2 strangers I've never met before who both looked old enough to be my grandmother went out of their way to come up to me while ignoring everybody else they passed just to talk about the weather. But before I really had a chance to think it all the way through or respond I got caught up to bat. Which is when they walked away. A couple batters later as I was reaching home plate I seen my older sister running towards me from the direction of the front of the community center. She looked panicked which made me leave the game to walk towards her to see if she was ok. She was overly excited and out of breath and she asked me if two ladies just came up to talk to me. I said yeah and asked her why she asked. She was yelling that was Mom and Grandma. I remember feeling confused and stunned in disbelief to the point where I asked her who? She kept repeating it and then I just remember running in the direction I seen them leave towards trying to find them. Which later on didn't make any sense to me why I reacted like that since up to that point I always I told myself that I don't care that she's not in my life and if she ever tries to become a part of my life it would be easy for me to ignore her. I used to wonder why my older siblings wished for her to come back. It was different for me though because I never knew her like they did, all I knew was a Father who you knew to hide from when you seen a bottle of liquor in his hands. So I always acted tough and cold blooded convincing myself that I didn't care that she was gone. So it was a new emotion to me when the words "that was Mom" fully settled in and I found myself completely breaking down and running towards the direction that she left in desperately trying to find her while my vision was impaired stream of tears that just wouldn't stop pouring down my face, wiping them out of my eyes did nothing, it was the hardest I've ever cried in my life. To be honest up to that point I didn't remember crying sad tears before that. Usually it was a small cry due to pain. I never did find her though. That incident made me come to a realization that I wasn't as tough and cold as I thought I was. And perhaps deep down there was something that really wanted a Mother. I remember over the next few years replaying that short meeting in my head and even becoming mad at myself for not responding as well as wishing I could go back and redo that conversation while knowing who she was just so I can ask her why she left us and hear her side of the story instead of the disgusting stories my father used to tell us, which were horrendous. I was even trying to recall if there was any type of emotions in her face or voice as she was talking to me, which ended up making sense of what I thought at the time was complete awkwardness from her body language and the way she was talking. As far as I know she never try to make contact over the next decade. Finally when I was 18 and out on my own one of my brothers came to my house and said he wanted to talk. He went on to tell me that he seen Mom and she's living back in the city with her new husband and is spin clean for a few years and doing really good and really wants to see me. I remember getting so mad that I cut him off and kick him out of my house. That was the last thing I wanted to hear at the time. To me at that point it was far too late. I had zero interest in entertaining that idea. So the next 5 years I ignored and rejected any talk of it, and warned my siblings to stop bringing that shit up to me. Even when I was in prison they would bring it up on visits and ask if she could come visit me, what's with piss me off and through a wedge between even our relationship. I was so mad at them I looked at it is a type of betrayal that they could become so lovey-dovey what's a person that abandoned us in a hellhole. I mean as a kid I felt safer out in the streets of the projects I lived in then I did my own home. So I just can't wrap my head around how they could bond with the person that abandoned us leaving us in that Danger and who never made any attempts to take us out of it. I truly believed that the ship for forgiveness has long sailed. Then when I was 23, after I got out of prison I went to my cousin's house one night to sell him some weed that he was getting for someone else. I didn't know who the person he was getting for was. When you walk in the house I knew right away he was an ex-con just from his prison tats as well as how big he was. I was standing next to my cousin as he walked up to my cousin to buy the weed off of him he looked over at me while standing couple feet away from me and simply said "You should visit your Mom". I thought I was hearing shit because I didn't know who the hell this guy was and I didn't even introduce myself to him. So while trying to refrain from punching him in his mouth I asked him "what the fu@k did you just say". He responded "I know she messed up big-time, and there's no excuse for it but I'm the one that has to hold her and comfort her every single night while she's crying and telling me she just wishes I would give her one to make up for it". Even though I couldn't believe the balls of this guy who I didn't even know to give his opinion on the most personal subject of my life to me, which made me want to attack him with every fiber of my being, the words hold her every night or enough for me to pull myself back Auto recognition that you must be someone close to her. That's when my cousin knowing my temper put his arm around my shoulder and said "Chris don't that's your mom's husband Chuck". I simply told him don't comment on shity knows nothing about if he doesn't want to fight. But it gave me something to think about when I want home since this was the first time in my life there was any kind of confirmation is she was truly remorseful for her actions. I didn't sense that he was lying to me, he genuinely seemed like A Man who was just concerned about his wife. So after a couple weeks of thinking about it I called my brother and told him to her and tell her I'll stop and see what she's got to say. Later that night I drove to their house, and her husband answered the door look at me and said thank you as he walked out of the house to leave us to talk alone. I didn't stay long the first time. As soon as I started getting emotional I got up and left. It was just too hard for me to feel any sympathy or understanding for her situation. I didn't go over there for another six months or so, but as I started going back and the visits became more frequent and I came to recognize that she was being fully genuine, eventually came to the point where I was ready to forgive her. That was a little over three years ago from today. Over the next 2 and a half years wind up becoming really close and developing a great relationship, but for the first 25 years of my life I would have never thought possible. I was truly feeling happy for the first time in my life, but as is the same for every perfect world fantasy, shit happens and the time comes to wake up from that Dreamworld. Less than a year ago she got attacked by a cancer that very quickly ate through her life. I ended up taking it really hard, much harder than I thought I would. Which is why I can't seemed to gather the strength to watch this video all the way through. It forces me to accept the reality that she's really gone which fills meet with regret that I remained so childish and stubborn for so long, and refused to take the steps much sooner than I did... Sorry about the long ass comment, I wasn't planning on telling a long story, but as I was typing the things I wanted to say it just felt wrong to leave out important factors behind them.

While my heart was melting for the pain you were suffering watching this Jen, the irony was not lost on me either. The only reason I got to share your hurt, reacting to someone else's hurt, was because of your STRENGTH !! You made a call in 2014, you pulled yourself up from a dark and painful place and you started the healing. You may be small in stature, but you are immensely strong in spirit, you would not be here and sharing your light and strength with us now, if you weren't. So much respect for you and where you are now in life. Your warmth and empathy is palpable, you probably have no idea how many people you have helped save themselves. Keep shining that light and laughing that laugh, you are inspirational. 😊😊❤

What NF is doing is so subtle and so uplifting that is almost unbelievable, he is helping alot of people, congrats on your recovery, 21 years for me :)

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

Hey congrats on your 21 years!!! I’ll have that one day!!! ❤️

@nunomuacho446

3 жыл бұрын

@@JustJenReacts yes you will, you chose life, simple as that!

This is so emotional it makes me cry every time I know how it feel

NF music is so emotional 😢 😭 😩 Everytime I watch it its the same feelings as before 😭

Whe. I watched this 4 yrs ago i was abt 11 i didnt get it... I had a mother and and a father... 2 months ago my father died. 2 weeks ago my mother killed herself by overdose. I listend to this song the other day. Now I am 15 and i get it

Favorite reaction because I can tell this one hit home for you. I’m glad you beat it. Subbed 💙

My dad has heard it since I was 8. I’m 25 he can’t stop. He does everything. Has almost died at least 20 times now. Made meth and our basement and everything. I yelled at my parents every night and told them all of the drugs that they were doing, but they just told me to shut up. They left us for weeks alone to hang with their friends. My mom is sober now but I feel different toward her and my dad still walks around town stung out. I’m the oldest of 5. The youngest is 19 now. If it were not for my grandma Carolyn, the schools that noticed, and my uncle silently helping so my mom would not get mad. And us lying to the lady in the corner so we could stay together. We would have been separated. It’s a weird situation now. I feel distant from my parents and I’m overly protective of my siblings which annoys them a lot but they deal with me.

You brave, courageous, beautiful woman. God bless you for breaking the generational curse.

Jen I really admire and respect you as a reactor on this platform, you’re the realest person I’m subscribed to, I love coming back to see your videos because when I do I know you’ll be open and transparent with all of us, thank you for being you and I’m so glad you’re sober now❤️ WE LOVE YOU!

Thank you, Jen for this amazing response. Such a sad story but beautiful way he is able to express himself ❤️

I cry every time. I can just imagine his pain. My sister being my best friend and how we stopped talking to each other for years because of all the fights we started getting into when she started drugs. Trying to make my mom feel better as she sat out all night waiting for my sister. We took care of her daughter for years. And as her daughter grew up she’d ask for her mom and it broke my heart. Eventually I couldn’t stand seeing her that way. I had my own child to raise so I moved out of state. My mom would call me crying. I was so scared to lose my sister and at the same time I was in a toxic relationship. Worse 7 years of my life. I’m so proud of her now though for making it out of that and being the best mom she could be to her daughters. Whether u believe in a god or not, that’s what gave my sister the strength.

I admire you for reacting to videos that you know will rip your heart out. So vulnerable. Thank you for being you.

Wow, just wow. This song hits hard every time I watch it and I can only imagine having lived it. Much respect to you for your vulnerability and keep up the great work on your sobriety.

The music, lyrics, and the video all together make this so heart wrenching.

I just seen you uploaded this one. I already knew that you would be extremely emotional about this one. Prayers hun because having so much empathy for others is an amazing trait but it’s absolutely overwhelming some times. You’re a beautiful person inside & out. Much Love Jen!!!!

Thank you for sharing your story. Something like that is hard for anyone to talk about, but you had the courage to share yours. We appreciate it. Thank you.

What an incredible overlay to an already intense and tragic tune. I can’t imagine the challenges and heartbreak. Jen your heartbreaking honesty is beyond reproach but in a positive way your testimony helps to make everyone a bit stronger, resolute and determined. We draw from your strength. A masterpiece reaction.

Thank you for reacting to this beautiful song and sharing your heart with us. Stay strong and God bless!

63rd time hearing this song still cried just cause my mom also almost had the same fate and I am still living through the mess as she is trying get life back together...luckily my mom and you both escaped before it was too late. I'm so proud that you escaped the drugs and have both 2 happy and healthy kids, you are a bless woman with 2 awesome kids.

i really miss my grandfather so much right now, this song always gets me in the feels. i watched him die 6 months, nothing could be done to save him, I miss him. the last time I saw him alive was 9 days before his death, he told me he knew his time was coming, I justed wanted him to stay. then I got the phone call. it Thursday march 16, 2017 at 1130am when my mother called me saying that he passed away, I cried my eyes out then went to lunch and told my friends while crying in the lunch room, I went to class and sat in the hallway crying, then walked to my highschool and told my former teachers, then walked around; at dinner, I sat with my friends trying to hold it together, but I just left, and had to be alone. i went to a camp, to counsel some youth kids, it was 4am on Saturday march 18, 2017 I went to the kitchen and wrote a song about how angry I was a god, I held a knife to my wrist asking god why he left me, but I fell to my knees crying on the floor asking for answers, I would never see my grandfather again while I was alive, and I couldn't sleep. that morning, a couple kids approached me and hugged me while I was in tears. i know he is in a better place but it hurts.

Welcome to the NF journey. I like your honesty and spirit, powerful stuff music can be . Thanks for being there for your boy.

I’m so Happy for you that your all Cleaned up and changed your life around! Your a inspiration 😇❤️

Thanks for sharing your own story. My mom was an addict throughout my entire childhood and I had my own struggles with drugs. This song always hits home with me.

My mother struggled with pills for years and me and my sisters lost her when I was 16 and this song almost word for word describes what we went through nf is a voice the world needs

Every reactor cries and I cry every time I watch a reactor to this song - it’s so raw and real - thank you for being so transparent - much love ❤️ I’m so thankful you conquered it -

So much respect for you being strong enough to do this reaction. From a father to a mother, God bless you and strengthen you. Much love.

I have heard and watched at least 100 reactions to this song. You got me bawling!! Bless your heart hun, so glad you got clean!!

It's very important we share this music as well as our stories I shared my story 3 times already so Ill just say this, I'm at the 3 yr mark next month. If Jen and I can do it so can you. Its very hard but YOU CAN DO IT. Music has this amazing power of empathy. Songs like this let ppl know they are not alone, that they can get through it, cause the artist got through it. Music like this is important. Music like this really helps ppl. Music like this needs to be shared and heard. Music like this can numb the hurt. maybe help heal completely.

I appreciate your raw and honest reaction to this song. I just feel uncomfortable with the idea that if the kids had said something to their mum in a certain way that maybe she'd still be here. That feels like placing a lot of responsibility on little shoulders. We destroy ourselves over the 'shoulda-woulda-couldas', thinking 'maybe if I'd done this or that differently, or maybe if I'd been a better child they would've felt like I was worth sticking around for'. To hear someone say 'yes, if you'd tried harder you could've saved them', is devastating. If I'd heard that when I was a kid it would've sent me over the edge.

I went through it too girl. It took me dying on my living room floor and waking up in ICU 4 days later with DCF threatening to take my girls away from me. I never touched another needle, pill, or drop of alcohol again. You’re beautiful and I’m glad you’re still here. 🖤

@JustJenReacts

2 жыл бұрын

I love hearing recovery stories! Have you ever thought about sharing yours, on KZread? If you’re interested, I’ve been wanting to find people who have recovered successfully, but I need to get people willing to come on and share. Can you message me on IG? My page is just_jen_reacts or on my fb page. I’ll be home the day after tomorrow. I would love to talk to you about this!!!

@JustJenReacts

2 жыл бұрын

Oh and I’m glad you made it out of that, ALIVE!

Amazing reaction love your energy and wish you the best

Respect that you can talk about this so open. So glad that you're still with us

I’m sorry, so proud you beat it. I walked off the stage at my high school graduation, my police academy graduation. And they weren’t there. It’s a cold world kids grab your coats.

I don't know everything you went through. I know what I went through, and how much that hurt the people who love me. We defeated the dragon Jen. You got a new sub

God Bless You, I know you are a good mom! Hugs and prayers. I cry every time I hear this song.

This was a great reaction. It was raw. Thank you for posting it.

This was by far the best reaction to this song I have ever watched I appreciate your honesty and I have major respect for you! I would appreciate it if you reacted to Colicchie drug addiction

We love you Jen, continue your journey to stay strong and sober. I cried with you tonight. Be safe & be strong Queen. 🙏🏼❤️❤️🙌🏼

@JustJenReacts

3 жыл бұрын

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Never seen your reactions but love this I can tell ya feel it 🦋🖤

My wife turned me to nf at the beginning of his perception tour. Her funeral was 2 weeks ago. I know the pain. Every day is utter hell.

@JustJenReacts

2 жыл бұрын

😢 I’m so sorry for your loss. My Prayers are with you 🙏