"Yup there's two of them. Cool. Soon there's gonna be zero" best. Quote. Ever.

@ashmorgan8855

4 жыл бұрын

ikr.

@Goomba203

4 жыл бұрын

O.k c.o.o.l

@michaelalove2786

4 жыл бұрын

Lol

@Moon-tz1iy

3 жыл бұрын

For real tho

@milkybuttercream4762

3 жыл бұрын

Y E S

“Please enjoy this emotional montage of everything that led up to it” *Add starts playing*

@jaydenwillow2846

4 жыл бұрын

That happened to me lol

@lemonmations476

4 жыл бұрын

I know right-

@kinrekii

4 жыл бұрын

I don't have adds :)

@geezer4974

4 жыл бұрын

So it happened to just about everyone then?

@ashmorgan8855

4 жыл бұрын

same.

Me: "I'm not gonna cry, no tears today, nah nah nah I'm not gonna cry." Also me 6 minutes later: *sobbing happy and sad tears*

I wish I could get top surgery, but at least I have a binder.

@fardareismai4495

4 жыл бұрын

I hope you'll be able to one day. Lots of love.

@chichirinuriko20

4 жыл бұрын

I thought about getting a binder too

@yaoifever2379

4 жыл бұрын

Yeah.....I do have a lot of binder ...cause I don't want unwanted boobs but also afraid of surgery............

@shouldacomewithawarninh4974

4 жыл бұрын

Hopefully one day you are able to 💗😊

@fardareismai4495

4 жыл бұрын

@@yaoifever2379 understandable, surgery is scary. Do what feels right for you, and talk to a professional about your fear. They know what they're doing and they might be able to help you move past it.

HOLY MOLY. Watch the whole thing to understand why I made this choice and exactly how (ECSTATIC) it makes me feel. This vid has everything; the good, bad, ugly, and all the love that top surgery has given me. I hope you enjoy :)

@taeda1607

5 жыл бұрын

Ash Hardell omg you so lucky

@fionayiaski3624

5 жыл бұрын

SO SO SO SO HAPPY FOR YOU!! 💕

@Bee-jr8rw

5 жыл бұрын

Ash Hardell UR MY ROLE MODEL!!

@judesmith3660

5 жыл бұрын

I loved the video, I'm so happy you made it :)

@remystic_spirit

5 жыл бұрын

I follow you on Instagram so I got to see some of it! I also have some of my own dysphoria so I tend to shy away from top surgery videos. But I’m super happy for you!

"I have a headache and I'm hungryyy" "When was the last time you ate?" "...midniiight"

@alexthebadbitch2577

4 жыл бұрын

My mood after I wake up from a five and a half hour rest

@unicornnoodle8191

4 жыл бұрын

My mood litterly all the time

@Maukiki

4 жыл бұрын

xd

"but first let us enjoy this emotional montage of everything that led up to it." and then I got an ad for tacos from burger king.

best doctor ever ''yep there's two of them cool soon there'll be zero'' i need to get me a doc like this 🤣🤣

Honestly seeing your journey makes me feel almost like I’ve been through it with you and im literally like exploding inside with joy

@Shadoegamer

5 жыл бұрын

Ash if you read this i wanna tell you- you are like my LGBTQ+ Role Model like seriously eeek so excited because of the heart on this comment

Your results are INCREDIBLE

@algriffin7630

5 жыл бұрын

Noah!! You are awesome:) you and ash need to collab sometime

@peeboyb5215

5 жыл бұрын

I know right

@peeboyb5215

5 жыл бұрын

I bet you cant wait for yours!

@sofiaxcosmo894

5 жыл бұрын

Ily noah!

@sofiaxcosmo894

5 жыл бұрын

Ok yes i need the collab!!

This was three years ago. Three years. And I still watch it whenever my dysphoria gets me down. Thank you ash. Ok you quit posting but thank you

@dumbclown

2 жыл бұрын

And then boom they came back

@ashniedosmialek3464

2 жыл бұрын

@@dumbclown I saw!

@oscarcerrillo3375

Жыл бұрын

@@ashniedosmialek3464 😂

@maironelfstone896

6 ай бұрын

I watch this almost every night... dysphoria really has me down rn. This reminds me that it'll be better someday

Girls in middle school: I hate bring flat I wish I was thick Ash: I wish I was flat

@rexitoxalmovedtojazkyll8366

4 жыл бұрын

I was the same way as ash lol

@aquaconsetllations1699

4 жыл бұрын

I feel the same way as Ash rn Oof

@rexitoxalmovedtojazkyll8366

4 жыл бұрын

@youtube viewer wanna trade lmao

@alysoncrawford4592

4 жыл бұрын

I’m a girl but wanna be flat bc i’m insecure 😂

@uh4372

4 жыл бұрын

BRUH AM 10 AND I HAVE A BIG CHEST

Ash and grace are the cutest things *THE SWEATSHIRT GAVE BIRTH TO A HUMEN*

@elleohai

5 жыл бұрын

you should be able to spell what you are, dear human*

@strangechild3172

5 жыл бұрын

Who said they were a human?

@gakto.1936

5 жыл бұрын

They a couple??

@theweirdone641

5 жыл бұрын

Lovely they might have been doing it on purpose

@shinu1923

5 жыл бұрын

@@gakto.1936 yeah? They are married.

It's crazy because a lot of the time I see this huge difference but with you it's just exactly how I always saw you.

@HeyThere005

5 жыл бұрын

Ollie Shrum AWWWWWWW OMG best comment ever

@adehagstrom1440

5 жыл бұрын

Ash, you are sooooo awesome, amazing and beutiful!

@lazysun1

5 жыл бұрын

I actually thought so too! :-)

As a trans masculine non-binary person seeing this makes me really excited about when I eventually get top surgery Update/ edit: i am one day post top surgery and I couldn’t be happier. To all the trans and non binary folks out there, I love you and I believe in you. Good things are coming so hang in there and keep believing in yourself ❤❤❤

@arthurkirkland6840

3 жыл бұрын

Me too

@LS-fe4ob

3 жыл бұрын

Yay mutilation!

@whocares11222

3 жыл бұрын

As a fucking what?

@daddyshrek124

3 жыл бұрын

@@whocares11222 huh

@NatureLover-pj2qe

3 жыл бұрын

I also really want top surgery

Hi Ash, my child has recently come out as trans. I am 53 and have been very supportive of them for the last few years. They are talking about getting top surgery. I suggested that they wait a while. They have just started taking T and while I'm not upset, I am nervous. I think your videos will be helpful for me.

@autistictrashrat6924

4 жыл бұрын

If they are over 18 and have been fully diagnosed with gender dysphoria it would help them alot to get top surgery

@uooqij2998

2 жыл бұрын

Not the point of ur comment but you’re an amazing parent for educating yourself for your kid btw

@OfficialGrellSimp

2 жыл бұрын

Yo did your kid get top surgery yet? (If they are 18)

@rue_cifer

Ай бұрын

this just might be the most wholesome comment on all of youtube. you are a kick-ass parent and i hope your kid knows how lucky they are.

@teowachowski1143

2 күн бұрын

let your kid get top surgery!!!! youre making them suffer longer

I have been subscribed to your channel for a long time now. Like... since before you and Grace met. I've never commented on any of your videos until today. I just wanted to say that I am incredibly proud of you and your journey. You are an inspiration to so many people, myself included. You deserve nothing but the best! You look awesome! Thank you for being courageous enough to be your authentic self. Thank you for letting us be a part of it. Sending nothing but love your way.

@spearminttss

5 жыл бұрын

Isabela Mata dat cute! Dat cute!

crying at graces vid and all ur lovely friends :””””)

@doddleoddle

5 жыл бұрын

ALSO CONGRATS

@doddleoddle

5 жыл бұрын

U LOOK AWESOMEEEEEEE

@kaybaie

5 жыл бұрын

DODIE!!! HEY HEY HEY 💛

@neuroseptember1020

5 жыл бұрын

AAAA ITS DODIE ❤️❤️❤️

@Katelijne137

5 жыл бұрын

hey dodie didn't expect to find you here :D also I totally agree with you, Ash looks awesome

Watching u cry over the toilet brought back a lot of memories. I was there supporting my best friend through his top surgery and he was absolutely miserable

It's such a crazy feeling watching this while healing from top sugery

@wybiefletcher6739

4 жыл бұрын

Awh I'm so happy for you, how's recovery going?

@user-qjvqfjv

9 ай бұрын

Sorry that society pushed you toward self-mutilation.

i got a pride advert during this and it’s the first lgbt advert i’ve seen can you hear me crying

@Atan55555

5 жыл бұрын

I did too..

@inamiinas

5 жыл бұрын

I just got it too

@lonelyperson9779

5 жыл бұрын

Aston same thing here is was amazing

@Atan55555

5 жыл бұрын

watched the whole thing

@internetcrybunny

5 жыл бұрын

I got a 5 minute ad and I watched the whole thing thats the best thing I‘ve ever seen

I am very glad that Ash has made their decent from sweat shirt to human. That’s what this series was all about, right? Glad their transition went well.

@HeyThere005

5 жыл бұрын

lolololol

@finngotcher1895

5 жыл бұрын

What are sweatshirt pronouns

@starxpowerxx

5 жыл бұрын

Rainbow Pancakes the depth of this comment knows no bounds lol

@fuzzola8809

5 жыл бұрын

LOL

@jimkutsko6272

5 жыл бұрын

@@HeyThere005 So funny!!!

Me: mom can i have a top surgery pls? My mom: WAIT ARE YOU TRANS? me: pfft of course not , i'm still a boy Mom: hunny you were a girl Me: oh Hate my "jokes"

@user-ix3jh4er5j

3 жыл бұрын

Me: I'm non binary but this is relatable content.

@ArtisanAsteroid

3 жыл бұрын

I just am going to randomly say this. I was born female but am now realizing that I am an enby. I feel comfortable with he/him pronouns but am I not valid if I “look like a girl”.

@nichole..1

3 жыл бұрын

@@ArtisanAsteroid I’m no pro but I think you’re totally valid just how you are. The LGBTQ+ community has a lot of different classifications. As long as your comfortable with yourself and who you are I think you can totally be “qualified” as enby. Like I’m (almost positive) that I’m trans (I was born female), but I don’t think I’ll ever fully ‘look’ like a male. I’d preferably use they/them or even she/her pronouns so I think it just matters that you’re comfortable. Again, I’m not a pro at this sort of stuff but I hope I helped somewhat (doubt it tho lol). Have a great day anyways!

@seapinecone2869

3 жыл бұрын

@@ArtisanAsteroid what you look like has no effect on what you are on the inside! As in, your are 100% valid if you don’t look “androgynous”!

@Mark-s747

3 жыл бұрын

@B N9476me either 😭😭😭

I felt really sorry when I saw you in the bathroom crying...but happy that u are so strong! Hugs from Germany

'theydies and gentlethems' I laugh a little to hard about this xD

@spearminttss

5 жыл бұрын

Me tooo

@pythagorastheorem2503

5 жыл бұрын

*too

@jackiesante

5 жыл бұрын

This is funny but they and them are pronouns not a gender

@jimkutsko6272

5 жыл бұрын

@@jackiesante SO TRUE!! It is defenetly funny but some inncorrect terms.

@the_dark_therian3461

5 жыл бұрын

I dont see whats funny. I believe they stated that they were nonbinary. They dont feel comfy as either gender. Of course its the pronoun isnt a gender but its a more respectful to way describe them for who they are.

I’m SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPYYYY FOR YOUUU MY LOVE❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ YESSSSSS

@rissl6559

5 жыл бұрын

uppercaseCHASE1 YESSSS 💞💞💞💞💞

@uppercaseCHASE1

5 жыл бұрын

Queen Quenepa what

@CitlalisCozyCorner

5 жыл бұрын

Queen Quenepa wtf????

@BakaMat02

5 жыл бұрын

Queen Quenepa LOL. Ok. I don't usually comment because there is just no point, but it's so funny how you went on Ash channel to pick on Chase about his own personal self-doubts and stuff and call it misogyny. That's so unrelated, uncalled for, unneeded and inapropriate.

@alanatokayer41

5 жыл бұрын

uppercaseCHASE1 this is only my second comment on KZread ever but I had to...chase, don’t let what this person says get to you. Clearly, they don’t know you. I thank you for putting yourself out there, even if it means having to deal with comments like this. 💚

When Ash cries I just wanna comfort 'em. You're doing so well and we love you!

@user-qjvqfjv

9 ай бұрын

*her

@maironelfstone896

6 ай бұрын

​@@user-qjvqfjv Ash actually uses any pronouns, so nice try loser lol

@kannaraminarik510

6 ай бұрын

@@user-qjvqfjvwhy? I thought they are non binary.

13:12 this made me cry a bit, because when they told u this, i kind of felt appreciated too even tho im alone in my room

So happy for you! Congrats 😁🎉

@dots_and_boxes_master3838

5 жыл бұрын

Hi Jamie. You're awesome.

@foreveralone4237

5 жыл бұрын

I love ya 🙆🙆❤❤

@ethandunn5292

5 жыл бұрын

Oh hi, Jamie

@llt8101

5 жыл бұрын

It would be so cool if you did a video with Ash!

@creedpotter2761

5 жыл бұрын

Oh my gosh I love you and ash

I don't know why but it was SUPER hard for me to see Ash crying. I felt like I was watching a really good friend cry and I couldn't reach out and hug them and I hated it. I'm glad they added the cute video Grace made later though, it made me feel better to see Ash getting all the support they deserve. Congratulations Ash! I hope you're feeling 100%!

@isabellaruppelt8132

5 жыл бұрын

FrenchFryGirl I know right I was like “ASH NOOO ITS OK IT WILL BE OK”

@extras19

5 жыл бұрын

Emma Johnson, thank you for clarifying my comment, you're correct. But I believe Hobart was referring to a reply above that said "he/she/it", which is indeed wrong and a horrible thing to say, but that person is just trying to be inflammatory so there's probably very little point in arguing with them.

@yakkyjoe1

5 жыл бұрын

@@happyfuntime7098 right on Happy. Who goes and gets their camera and brings it in front of a toilet to cry.

This really just confirms my hope that I can get top surgery when I’m able to this was so cool to see this video it really does make me feel like getting top surgery is the right decision rather than putting up with the constant top dysphoria

“theydies and gentlethems” that part thoo

I mean, I don't know much about top surgery so maybe this is more normal than I think, but they so clean and your scars seem so thin and small from others I have seen!? They've done a really good job

@milesjones9652

5 жыл бұрын

Roly AGAJSKSK ROLY

@MetalRatte2007

5 жыл бұрын

I thought the exact same thing. The scars look sooo sooo good :-) that doctor is a champ.

@gia9551

5 жыл бұрын

Ash is also very much a champ for doing so well at taking care of the scars, and people also sometimes just heal really well. My dad is diabetic and 69 years old and his scars from cardiac bypass surgery not quite 3 years ago are nearly invisible and that’s a really serious surgery with massive incisions

@calicush

5 жыл бұрын

Roly omg roly ilysm your vids are so cool

@thomash7975

5 жыл бұрын

Their chest wasn't that big to begin with. That's something to keep in mind too.

Ash you look amazing! I’m a straight, disabled mum vlogger to a 4 and a half year old.. your content is nothing like I’d normally watch but I’ve shared your channel with so many others because I think you’re so brave, honest & genuine. Never change. Xx

Currently watching in hospital before my own!!!!!

@sho_ando04

2 жыл бұрын

I hope it went really well!!!!

@jakebrycegifford

2 жыл бұрын

@@sho_ando04 I GOT A HEMATOMA :)

@sho_ando04

2 жыл бұрын

@@jakebrycegifford Oh no!!! Hopefully it's okay soon!!

im two years late, but the wholesome feeling of this hasnt changed.

the thumbnail says “surery” that’s a mood

@thighmaster4000

5 жыл бұрын

Max all the yes. My thoughts exactly! They surery made the right decision🎉🎇🤣

@cameronwood4388

5 жыл бұрын

Meeeeeeee, English is my first language and I spell things wrong and forget letters 75% of the time

I feel kinda dumb admitting this since I don't know you irl, but I cried a little out of happiness for you. It's so awesome seeing someone get to live a happier, healthier life and that surprise video from Grace (and Grace in general) was amazing. Congratulations!!!

@nikolaipetrichor2065

5 жыл бұрын

Same I almost cried. Such a sweet video, I do fricking happy for them!

@jadeddeath02

5 жыл бұрын

I cried! When I saw @uppercaseCHASE1 and Aaron and all the love, I teared up. Ash! You look so amazing and so happy and I'm so happy for you! Fuck the haters, you made the absolute right decision!!

@feedyoursoul1383

5 жыл бұрын

Grace is such a great wife :)

Seeing the stitches made me think one thing... Owie

I just found your channel. I am crying. Thanks for making this. Congrats so much!!! I know I've always needed top surgery and watching this really put it in perspective. Thanks for being so honest and wholesome dude, continue being awesome !!

I remember when cutting your hair was a giant deal to you, I'm proud of you, ash. You've come so far

I saw the results in person like a month ago and I still cried at the reveal lmao...like a lot. Congrats

@stars_to_share

5 жыл бұрын

Same!!! It's so nice seeing someone in such a state of true self😊

I'm been watching this video over and over I just wanna say... thank you, your positive energy is amazing and this video is giving me confidence and comfort to get top surgery. I've been scared to get it but I'm finally feeling excited for the future of when I do get it... thank you so much ash. You've helped me more than you know!!! 🙏😊

Me : I'm gonna get to surgery Me after watching: y-you know I..i might just s-stick with a c-chest binder (I hate stitches and getting huge cuts srry) XD

@Nimoes_archive

4 жыл бұрын

XD same, that healing process looked like too much to deal with.

@fardareismai4495

4 жыл бұрын

It's all about what's right for you! It's understandable not to want a major surgery. Just be happy and do what feels right

@mritten

4 жыл бұрын

@Merlinian you still have tons of time,if you feel like telling her now we all support and love you. I'm not out the closet yet but I am wanting a binder as soon as I come out.You do you and be happy

@missnaomi613

4 жыл бұрын

@@mritten and the other younglings here, be brave and trust yourself. Your family may be more supportive than you think. (One of my kids is non-binary.) You are valid and loved. Gd bless. 💚

@behindzerosp

4 жыл бұрын

But like the hunching and the way binder stick to you when is hot and how sometimes you feel your chest even more eith binder.....

I was hoping you were gonna say, "It was a big weight off my chest" bc I live for puns lol sorry. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, ASH!!!! This must've been so scary, I admire your courage. I think you're a great person deserving of all the love in the world. You are loved and valid.

@gorillaau

4 жыл бұрын

I was going to say, Get Out.. but under the circumstances.. Get Off might be more appropriate.

@insertname3034

2 жыл бұрын

She said that in the coming out to her mom video

I’m so happy for you Ash, your chest looks so great. Thank you for sharing this, I’m sure it’ll help so many AFAB non-binary people with chest dysphoria who want to do the big chop but feel alone in a world of mostly binary transguys on T going through with it. :)

@stinkbug5310

5 жыл бұрын

Kovu is a unicorn Hi Kovu! I agree. It must be really hard to go through with top surgery surrounded by binary trans guys on t and and some nb trans people on t. I'm so happy for them!

@jordanallen609

5 жыл бұрын

Omg it’s kovuuu

@robynmartin445

5 жыл бұрын

How the heck did you describe my entire life in one comment? 😆😅

@capriizun

5 жыл бұрын

OMG KOVU!! And you are so right.

@calistooo

5 жыл бұрын

Kovu is a unicorn ii

Ash: erases their chest *Me thinking about erasing my chest and being my transgender self* *Me imagining myself with a boy’s swimsuit* Me: ;M;

@arthurkirkland6840

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@yourmum970

3 жыл бұрын

YEET THE TEETS

@henmaydostuff8338

3 жыл бұрын

yo same

@harlownon_air2885

3 жыл бұрын

I just recently found out that I’m gender nonconforming and it’s just so nice to see that it’s OK to get top surgery even if you’re not female to male

I really struggle with internalised enby-phobia and every time I need some enby joy, I come to your videos. Thanks for all the sharing over the years, it's really helped me

I’m 5 years post post with that same surgeon and I’m SOBBING RN just feeling all the feels over again!! ☺️🙌

CONGRATULATIONS ASH!!!!!!!!

@HeyThere005

5 жыл бұрын

JEMMA thanks pal!!!

i just came back from a rly shitty / transphobic / nbphobic side of yt and this is soo wholesome :DD

I’m so happy for you!! You’re so brave and I wish you the best with your body and I hope you feel 10000000x more confident with yourself being you xoxo

YAY!!!! I love love love seeing fellow nonbinary people becoming comfortable in their bodies. I’m infinitely happy for you. 💞

@cr0wtherr

5 жыл бұрын

Ashton Daniel aaa hello fellow nonbinary

@HeyThere005

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you pal

@robynmartin445

5 жыл бұрын

What’s up my enbys?

@qwfhydvhdvnjfgjfjfjfjdhfjr3871

5 жыл бұрын

Subed

Thank you so much Ash for sharing your story with us. The greatest gift anyone can ever give is their honest self and I feel like sharing your perspective, the ups and downs has been a wonderful gift for all of us who watch your channel and love and support you. Thank you for being you!

@TheJoshSpeaks

5 жыл бұрын

Jo Hammer hey Jo, you have a very interesting perspective. It sounds like you may have a vision of what a "pure body" looks like, but I'm not sure I would agree with your definition there. People make changes to their bodies all the time, whether it's permanent or temporary, and the purpose in most cases is to boost their own self confidence. That's partially why we get haircuts or nose jobs or braces or top surgery or wear makeup. You may also have a perspective that somehow people who make decisions for themselves are resulting in the degradation of society, I'm a firm believer in protecting the rights of the individual and standing up for people making decisions for themselves about who they are and what they want to be. I'm not sure if you're a collectivist and believe that people should follow social order, whatever it may say to maintain a sense of status quo but it sure does sound like you think in that way. All in all, we carry different perspectives but I would just like to know what your perspective is rooted in? My perspective is in loving yourself for who you are deep down inside, if changing your physical appearance helps you feel more comfortable displaying that and having it align with who you want to be, I'll support a person's right to do it. What is your perspective really rooted in? I don't ask to be sarcastic or rude, I would definitely love to talk to you about this. Maybe we can have a discussion and get a better understanding of each other here.

@TheJoshSpeaks

5 жыл бұрын

I think the comparison you draw is a non-comparable one. In the instance of changing your appearance with surgery, you are not putting yourself at risk for long-term potential harm. Anorexia does, it can lead to health issues and more. Would you make the same comparison for someone who gets breast implants or a nose job? You have to compare actions with similar results, to group in all behaviors doesn't help distinguish anything. My position is to support people's decisions to make changes in their life which will increase their well-being without leading to long-term physical harm. You also made the claim that my position is a relative one based on fads, trends, philosophies and a huge growing industry, etc. For that I would just say that you would have to provide evidence that the person is doing it for one of those reasons rather than just asserting it to be so. For example, if someone wants to get their ear lobes stretched out with ear gauges, I would support their right to do so if they feel like it's something they've thought through and want to do it because it will increase their sense of well being. You COULD make the argument that a person may be doing it because it's more fashionable and trendy right now, but that position doesn't really assert any claim because saying someone shouldn't do something because it's fashionable is not an argument.

I know this video is over a year old now but I have watched this so many times and it makes me so happy every single time. It is so validating for me, a nonbinary person who doesn't want to start T. It was actually this video that made me realize that, hey, I can get top surgery too if I want! Anyways, thank you for being you and I am so happy for you still.

I can't wait to have top surgery 😭 my insurance literally covers none of my transition so I'm paying out of pocket for T and will for surgery, as well. I ended up setting up a GoFundMe, so if anyone would be interested in helping a brother out let me know!

Ash, it would be hurting yourself not to get top surgery. We love you. -the Internet

@eleanorcherry872

5 жыл бұрын

❤

@robert_costello

5 жыл бұрын

Speak for yourself. That comment represents about 1 1/2% of the planets population. And "Ash”, you made a wrong decision!

@eleanorcherry872

5 жыл бұрын

@@robert_costello First of all Ash is their name so dont put it in parenthesis. Second they made the right decusions becuase it made them happy. And third, you can have your opinion but please keep it to yourself if you know its rude and/or offensive

@robert_costello

5 жыл бұрын

Angelicelephant ! She mutilated her body and you expect me to embrace her with open arms? No! The only person that made the right decision, was her doctor. He saw a profit from this. And don’t tell me when to share my opinion, it’s protected by the Second Amendment and there is no such thing as hate speech.

@robert_costello

5 жыл бұрын

Angelicelephant ! #Trump2020 🇺🇸

I cried. Basically for the whole video. I told my bf and he just promised to do something like what Grace did for you and just. This wasn't even my journey and I was crying my eyes out. I'm so incredibly happy for you.

I love love love how happy you are with the decision. I love you so much, I sat through the 4+min ad before your video. I remember how seeing you happy helped me chop of my hair and how happy I was/am with that decision. *stares now at the two lumps with a raised eyebrow.

Hey Ash, good on you for getting surgery! I remember when I woke up from my surgery and it felt amazing (and very painful for a while). I can see the happiness and relief this has brought you and I love seeing that. Keep living your life exactly how you need to. ❤

This is one of those rare long videos that I watched all the way through without skipping anything and I don't regret it at all. I'm so happy for you Ash! 💜💜💜💜

@Kylerkiin

5 жыл бұрын

MercifulBlockhead yeah, I usually don't watch long vlogs all the way through but I was just so emotionally engulfed in Ashe's journey

@jay-fj2ug

5 жыл бұрын

Same

I have never seen one of your vids before, but this one was on my "recommended" list, and I'm glad it was! Congrats on the top surgery - they did an excellent job, and you seem so thrilled, which is the most important thing. People are never going to be satisfied with the life choices anyone else makes. It's about YOU and what makes you happiest, because nobody else is going to life your life. I don't know why strangers feel the need to thrust their opinions into people's faces, but eh. Forget 'em. You're doing great. :)

I’ve been watching your videos for like six or seven years now. I remember when this video first came out and I already knew I wanted top surgery at that point. Now it’s five years later and I’m rewatching it because I’m just two months pre-op and I’m feeling overwhelmed. Seeing you go through this is scary but also so hopeful. I think your results are amazing :) thank you for being a part of my life even though you didn’t even know. I grew up (in my teens) watching you and now I’m finally an adult. I feel like you’re always on the next stage of life and I look to you with respect. I think that’s beautiful.

I know this is like a year and a half late, but I am soooo happy for you Ash! I'm glad that you took that step and it made you so completely happy and relieved.

"look, there's two of them, soon there'll be zero" me as a surgeon tbh

*gasp* the talking sweatshirt turned into Ash *gasping intensifies*

@Th3_m0st_forgettable_g1rl

5 жыл бұрын

The sweatshirt has evolved into an ash!!

@maia2257

4 жыл бұрын

*gotta catch em all*

Thanks so much for sharing the process to you surgery! It's been really helpful to help me with my own process 😊❤️

I'm watching this on Monday, after having my own surgery this past Friday, and I keep almost crying from joy and relief seeing and hearing someone else feeling so similar to me. I take my binder off the first time today, and this kind of muscle weakness always makes me feel nauseous. I never thought I'd get here. And this video, when you first posted it, helped me realize I needed it to begin with. Thank you, Ash.

I’m excited to have my boobs added instead of removed. I haven’t done anything at all as far as transitioning goes because i’m closeted, but I’m very exited to come out one day and be the girl I am, even if i’ll be six feet tall with broad shoulders

@elilouislarn923

5 жыл бұрын

Kassandra M my cousin is a cis woman and she is six foot and is quite broad from all the sports she does it’s not that uncommon our advice ( mainly from her since I’m ftm )be careful about heels if you wish to wear them as some will make you look way taller than you actually are when wearing them wedges are good u know the ones with the cork bottoms stilettos with the platforms at the bottom add extra height ( she personally doesn’t like them but it’s everyone’s taste) hope we helped 😊

@penguinpinata

5 жыл бұрын

hugs from out of the closet :3 you can do it girl ! There'll be a day when it feels safe for you , and then it'll feel great to be able to be who you are out loud ^ w ^ and there's thousands of people just like you out there , and right here ^ w ^

@Kempster_K

5 жыл бұрын

I'm not tall but am a cis that sucks at heels: wedges are good and kitten heels are AWESOME because they still can be very cute and feminine or have pointed toes, but will be like, anywhere from 1/2 to 1 1/2 inches. Also, I'm excited for future-you to be the girl you are, as well Kassandra M!

@katharinag3283

5 жыл бұрын

I'm a 18 y/o cis female, 6ft tall with broad shoulders. Haters gonna hate, but who cares?

@laurieadda

5 жыл бұрын

Come to the Netherlands, here are 6ft women not extraordinary haha

I'M WRITING THIS AT 1 AM WHILE I'M GROUNDED FROM THE INTERNET BUT I'M A LITTLE SNEK AND STARTED BROWSING THE INTERNET AND SAW THIS VID. CONGRATS ASH!!!!!

@Blackade2000

5 жыл бұрын

Jessica is a Messica What did you do? XD

@squeakyb.7709

5 жыл бұрын

Obey your parentals

@203laurenn

5 жыл бұрын

I’m telling on you

I really enjoy their channel because I have considered top surgery. Sometimes when I look in the mirror my breasts seem like they should not be there. I have tried out living with a male name, pronouns and clothes, and it quickly ended, cause it did not match. I do have very long hair, and feminine qualities, but I also have days where I bind, so I am not really one or the other and I think that is ok. But everytime I come to this channel, I have that relief of similarity to someone. Ash has shared some things I relate to, and for now that is enough for me.

Wow this made me emotional. Just watching the journey you took to get top surgery. I have thought about top surgery, at the moment I wear a binder. So happy for you Ash

CONGRATS ASH, IM SO PROUD OF YOU💋

My heart broke when you struggled with the migraine!! They are a frequent thing with me and I felt your pain!

@graceisaloser8619

5 жыл бұрын

MsFaeNicole oh gosh same :( they’re terrible

@SidV101

5 жыл бұрын

I’m sorry you have to deal with them regularly! I think the fact that your reaction is empathy really demonstrates an inherent goodness in your heart, I wish you all the best in dealing with your struggles

Omg your so strong and amazing I’m so proud! I hope your ok now, and your happy with your decision! Love you and your beautiful channel!

I'm a little over a week post-op now myself, and it's so interesting to see the difference between surgeons, and what they do/recommend. I know you're about two years post-op now (yay!), but I still wanted to congratulate you! So congrats!

Grace: Tell yourself that.. that you love yourself Me: *cries*

me, watching this at work: I'm not gunna cry... me, when Ash gets the bandages off: *sobs openly in public* I can't wait to join you fam. I can't wait to be flat too.

@dino.420

5 жыл бұрын

This actually has me thinking of why I dont feel comfortable as a girl or a boy, I am bisexual but I avoided thoughts any further than that because I didnt want to confuse myself. But now I'm just thinking💀

@ihavenoname727

5 жыл бұрын

Careful, proud of your sexual orientation, I just know that surgery is painful.

@the_dark_therian3461

5 жыл бұрын

@@ihavenoname727 But its worth it!

@the_dark_therian3461

5 жыл бұрын

I wanna be flat too..I dont feel comfy in my female body. Maybe not bottom surgery but top YES

@corninmyass356

5 жыл бұрын

The K.C Show!! I am 11 but I know I want to be female and I want to have top surgery and maybe bottom too but I’m afraid that I will be unaccepted by my family

I’m so happy for you congrats ash ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

You are so inspirational to everyone around and your results are amazing! Sending loads of love 💕

"I'm just a talking sweatshirt, I CAN'T MAKE PROMISES." 😂😂😂 - jessie

Ahhhh. I'm so so so happy for you Ash😄😄😄😄. Edit: Your chest looks amazing 😍😍😍

I always loved your editing, Ash. Everytime I go back to rewatch your videos it's like a movie series-!!!

The video at the end and the montage really made me tear up. Even though this was like a year ago. I'm so proud of you Ash, you've come so far. This makes me more ready for my future top surgery later on. I'm proud of you!

SO PROUD OF YOU HONEY

Okay i have a real question though... so in general, men showing their nipples is “advertiser friendly”, but female boobs are not. So what about when someone is nonbinary? What are the rules based on? Gender or the size of boobs? Cause some men have larger ones and some women smaller.... what makes your naked top half suddenly not NSFW? Just my random thoughts... Congratulations Ash on the surgery ^^

@AMC3120

5 жыл бұрын

lapeachMC I was thinking that. So before the surgery because ash still had boob fat...can’t be topless. Now that the fat was removed...ash can proudly be topless.

@lapeachMC

5 жыл бұрын

Alecia Chapin exactly!! Its quite bizarre tbh. And i even know for myself that seeing a more masculine top half of the body is like completely normal, but female boobs are instilled in me as something nsfw and something that should be covered up...

@thaartsysushiroll6280

5 жыл бұрын

lapeachMC ikr, like I'm not saying I want to run around topless (personally), but why can men's chests be exposed while female boobs can't? I just can't seem to think of an awnser that makes sense

@lexwithbub

5 жыл бұрын

It shows how ridiculous this arbitrary line around boobs vs not boobs is, doesn't it? #freethenipple

@kainovember

5 жыл бұрын

Boobs are age restricted, and flat chests are not. So idk... I think it doesn't have to do with the person's gender, just whether they have boobs or not, or whether or not they want to/can show their chest

Watching this a year later I realized this video was posted on the one year anniversary of my top surgery! Congrats to you every day for taking this step, happy to see you shining and living your best life.

I’m very proud of you, that’s all my emotions in words, good job and I hope your happy with who you are! :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAH I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU ❤️🖤❤️🖤❤️🖤❤️🖤❤️

@iva5263

5 жыл бұрын

Echo Gillette love you 😙😙

@cal2100

5 жыл бұрын

Echo Gillette OMG HI THERE

@lil.hippie.dippie3887

5 жыл бұрын

Yay!! KZread influencer love💟💟 There is hope.

@edzara9137

5 жыл бұрын

Echo Gillette I got so excited when I saw you in here and supporting Ash! Love you 💖

@clm5190

5 жыл бұрын

Echo Gillette sammeeeeee also ily ❤️

I love how you call it a "fanperson" instead of a fangirl, everyone can fangirl! Or, fanperson

Before the emotional montage a really hype TikTok add came on lol.

I have watched this video SO many times and this is now my first time watching it knowing I am getting top surgery myself! FINALLY! After years of waiting! I am so excited!

@vicv4x557

3 жыл бұрын

Good luck! :)

@therubestergaming

2 жыл бұрын

Congrats on surgery my dude

Me clicking on this: I will not cry *The love mini video starts* Me: *openly weeping*

@urmom-ki1of

5 жыл бұрын

Hey Alex

@deadaccount4116

5 жыл бұрын

Alexander Benson lol same

My top surgery is today, and im sooo freakin nervous. So I had to come watch your video just so I could get excited again!!

@jenniferhergert4447

5 жыл бұрын

hey! How did it go? :) Wish you all the best!

@apieceoftrash425

5 жыл бұрын

How was it?

@waz411

5 жыл бұрын

CONGRATULATIONS to you sending my prayers that you have a speedy recovery and always be proud of your self from New York City ✌

@falloutphan7341

5 жыл бұрын

Hope your recovery is going well!

@Lillyluvsanime

5 жыл бұрын

How'd it go? Asking a month after the comment was posted.

This was an absolute wonderful video! I have been having some doubts about getting top surgery and a friend suggested that i watch videos about top surgery experiences and one of them that I watched was yours, and its been super inspirational to me.

Gray is seriously the best spouse. From the immense support to helping Ash clean their drains to getting all of their friends and family to make videos... I could only hope to find someone like that eventually.

YOU'RE GLOWING ASH IM SO HAPPY I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN THE WHOLE VIDEO YET AND IM GRINNING

can we all just mention how effing fit ash looks?! Congratulations Ash.

CONGRATS im so happy that you got what you wanted! I watched the entire video!

your vlogs are so positive and fun! thank you for making my day!