Hiking and backpacking almost always help with my mental health - but as this video shows, sometimes even the usual stuff doesn't work, and it's okay to change plans. 💚If you are dealing with anxiety, depression, or any other mental health stuff, you aren't alone. Big love to all of you!!

@skizifacation

5 ай бұрын

As someone who struggles with depression and anxiety I felt this video! Thank you for sharing. The stigma is real! Much love

@tabiblue2804

5 ай бұрын

My mental health gets in the way of so many things in my life including being outdoors, even when being outdoors helps my mental health more most times. It is hard for the people in my life to understand that juxtaposition of feelings. I try to rationalize myself out of those feelings more often than not and have had to end things that I really wanted early and unexpectedly. These moments almost alway inherently make me feel like a failure. I know that is not true, but wrestling with that feeling and having to change course and frequently inconvenience the other people in my life even if that inconvenience isn't a burden to them it bring a lot of guilt with it for me. Thank you for showing what you did in this video. You are and always have been absolutely amazing.

@JosephineG101

5 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing Miranda. Very powerful and there's nothing wrong with changing your mind. That's a strong decision at a difficult time.

@pyronymph-868

5 ай бұрын

I am so glad you decided to share this with us! I deal with anxiety and depression and have wondered what I would do if I had a panic attack on trail. I haven't backpacked in nearly 2 decades, have chronic health issues, but desperately need to get out hiking before it's too late and I kick the bucket. Dr has ok'd me, restricted by my symptoms (take it easier when having symptoms), so no medical reason not to. There's a tiny (68mi) through hike from my town to the coast I want to attempt. Your video showed me that listening to my body includes my mental health. Having a model of a choice someone dealing with mental health issues like mine made, models alternatives where my brain got stuck.

@markbegay7163

5 ай бұрын

Thank you 🙏

As a current therapist treating teens with anxiety, depression and self harm, thank you to the moon and back for normalizing we can experience intensity AND we can take care of ourselves. I appreciate you being vulnerable and honest with your audience. You were inspiring before and even more so, now. Many hugs!!

@Sandra-dt4ec

4 ай бұрын

As a fellow therapist and backpacker I wholeheartedly endorse this comment!

First off: Rainer, we see you! We know you’re not just a voice behind the camera! You’re an integral part to this channel, and whenever we see Miranda, we’re doing so through your eyes, so to speak. Second: Miranda, thank you for having the courage to share this with us. I’ve been dealing with anxiety & ADD (both undiagnosed for first 40+ years of my life), and I know what it’s like just not be able get your brain to tell your hands what they need to do. Sometimes it takes a lot of courage to do what you need to do take care of yourself. And I’m glad Ranier was there with you. Thank you for being honest with yourself and us. Lastly: man, I wouldn’t be able to go out in the cold like that. Not. At. All. Forever impressed by the people who can do that 😊. Love to you both, B.

Thank you, Miranda. As a retired Army nurse, I struggle with PTSD, anxiety and depression. The outdoors is my sanctuary, but sometimes it can also trigger my anxiety. Knowing when to practice self-care and take a knee is difficult, but it is also very crucial. Thank you for sharing your story. You are not alone.

Yesssss these are the most important hiking videos! We have enough of the “ultralight on an unlimited budget with no time restriction” videos. Hiking isn’t exclusively about covering yourself in dirt and walking until your toenails fall off. It’s whatever you make it. Life happens. Hike your hike. Help a friend. Live to fight another day. Thank you Miranda and Rainer!

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

Thank you ❤️ I couldn't have said it better myself - hiking is whatever you make it!

@vanomadcyclist3474

5 ай бұрын

Loved this video, loved your honesty to openly discuss mental health. Good for you Miranda for listening to your body and good for you Rainer for supporting her decision. 😊😊😊

@camero220

5 ай бұрын

@@MirandaGoesOutside exactly! I think this is your most important video since either of the two original ones with Pam. (Especially the flat trail Florida hiking video IIRC) Even with their being 8 billion+ of us out there, everyone has a hike or terrain for them. Backpacking ≠ summiting Everest. Taking a walk in the woods or wheelchair-ing around the block, it’s just about going outside.

Bless you, Rainer.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

He's the real deal 💚

@qakbot100

5 ай бұрын

You do know that the whole community is waiting for the big day right?

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

😆 wouldn't THAT be a big video...

@qakbot100

5 ай бұрын

@@MirandaGoesOutside hint hint?

@pedroclaro7822

5 ай бұрын

Could do wonders for your mental health 😂

I've only dabbled in (short) backpacking trips, but I usually go by myself. One thing I've discovered is that as the sun starts to go down, I get a really intense feeling of unhappiness. This doesn't happen outside of camping, and it doesn't happen when I'm camping with someone else. I'm not scared of being alone, and I go camping specifically to enjoy some introverted alone time, so it's not loneliness...but the unhappiness hits anyway. Once it's fully dark, then I'm over that unhappy moment and I can putter around with my headlamp, preparing for bed, and contentedly reading in my tent for hours. It's just that "sundowning" time period that does it. I now KNOW that it's happening, but it doesn't make it any easier. It's especially tough when (like in this video) I have some anxiety about my camp site and it feels like dark is coming on fast. The last time I went camping was a hike up onto some land that we were considering buying. I'd only been there once before, and wasn't sure exactly where I was going to camp. When the "dusk depression" hit, I could at least recognize it and remind myself that it would pass. I try to bring some kind of candy that really packs a punch (like Sour Patch Kids), so that I have a more intense sensation to distract myself during that window of gloom. So far I've only called it quits on one trip, when I packed out after one night instead of my planned two, but there were some other factors (like my new headlamp turned out to be crap and my cheap newbie sleeping pad suddenly sprung a leak) that made me feel like my 2nd night was going to be even more unhappy. That trip was also before I recognized that I experience that sundowning depression, so I didn't know what was going on with me. Anyway, THANK YOU for being open about mental illness and sharing this video, so that we know that even very experienced campers campers can struggle.

@paolanino8983

Ай бұрын

Omg the same thing happens to me. I don’t get it. Hope that the more we do it the more we get used to it

This is weirdly probably my favorite video of yours. This is so much more real, about the outdoors and why we go there, than basically any other KZread channel. Thank you. One of the main reasons I go outdoors is for my mental health and happiness. Winter camping is really stressful due to how dangerous it is, any one who would scoff at you is clueless to that reality. Thanks again for your honesty and genuine self. I’m sure it will help others recognize and be more aware to “listen to their bodies”.

@melvasaiel

5 ай бұрын

This, along with Dixie from HomemadeWanderlust hitting her SOS button, might be the two most important backpacking videos.

@huntleycoman7017

5 ай бұрын

100% agree

@philippal8666

5 ай бұрын

Yes. There’s a point with exercise and basically building a house, where I’ve seen everyone lie down and cry. Add some anxiety and…

There's nothing wrong with bailing if you need to. If you're not enjoying yourself, or you don't feel safe, definitely don't feel like you need to stay or try to tough it out. Nobody should feel they need to stay out another night just to prove something.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

100% this! Safety and happiness is always most important. Your reason for turning back doesn't need to be anything big.

@jasonwilson4185

5 ай бұрын

Technical divers have a rule, that should be adopted more widely. Anyone, at any time, can cancel a dive, and nobody gets to question it. Safety, safety, safety.@@MirandaGoesOutside

@d.2110

5 ай бұрын

are you dependent on each other during a dive? @@jasonwilson4185

@kmetz878

5 ай бұрын

I agree! Always have a way to bail if you need to, and "need to" can be as simple as "I'm really not feeling this today".

@pithon3d477

5 ай бұрын

​@@jasonwilson4185This is a fact ... Fellow tech diver.

Whoah! Just realised - that time when I stopped in a middle of a hike and asked myself «why am I here?» and didn’t manage to go on, I wasn’t being lazy! I have pushed it down as a failed trip, when me turning around was actually me listening to myself saying «hey - go home and rest!» Thanks, Miranda!

As a retired mental health professional I want to say Thank You! When well known individuals admit to mental health issues it makes it OK for others to seek help. Great job!

@DadManHiking

5 ай бұрын

Yes! And there’s still a lot of stigma surrounding mental health. There needs to be a lot more education & openness about it.

@georgescofieldtt207

5 ай бұрын

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

I just watched this with my 12.5 year old daughter who has difficulty with overnights. We both were glad you made the right choice for yourself. My daughter said she could really relate, and I could too. Thank you for sharing this.

@theroadhome_Liz_Summers

5 ай бұрын

I am 68 ... when I was young, I could not do sleepovers. I called my parents several times to pick me up. We did not have a name for this, then. So grateful to hear that you and your daughter are understanding the issues!! Best, best wishes.

Thank you for being this open and honest. Not many youtubers upload video's that aren't 'perfect'. Going out there and getting back early, is better then not going out at all. Living with mental health problems sucks. Especially when you can't see it from the outside. I hope how this trip ended doesn't discourage you in any way to get out there again. You are awesome Miranda.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

Thank you! 💚 I hope people see this and realize that this, while disappointing, is normal and okay. You know I'll be back out soon!!

This is the most important & hiking video ever made. People all over the world have similar experiences like this every day. But they think they’re alone in it because others aren’t brave enough to show what it’s like when things don’t go to plan. You two are amazing!!

@vc5213

5 ай бұрын

100%. I had never heard anyone talk about having a panic attack while backpacking before so I felt like it was only me.

Thank you Rainer for treating Miranda's panic attack with care and keeping it non-judgmental. Part of panic and anxiety is worrying about how other people with perceive us.

Knowing when to turn back might be more important than pushing on. I wish more ppl listened to their bodies. There'd be a lot less tragedies if they did. Too many KZreadrs push the bounds of safety and it bothers me. I look forward to your next adventure. Thanks for sharing 👍

I didn’t expect to be wiping tears out of my eyes at the end of a Miranda video… thank you so much for sharing all of yourself with us- we just respect you more! And Rainer, you’re a great friend…

Sometimes, I have to remind myself that it’s okay when I don’t have all the answers and I don’t know how to move forward. It happens to everyone. Some hide it well, but everyone has doubts. Thank you for sharing, Miranda. This is part of your journey and your honesty is what I appreciate about you.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

Thank you ❤️ ❤️

Huge shout out for Rainier for being as helpful as possible, sometimes the cards just don’t play right for some reason. Get me out there with you guys next time we can make it a party!

As a person with a generalized anxiety disorder diagnosis and probably some other undiagnosed issues this has got to be one of the most validating things I've seen. Shoutout to Rainer for his support, I am a bit jealous of that.

I am glad Rainer was there to give you a hug. Sometimes words are not what is needed. Just having someone there for support and a simple hug can allow you to release that anxiety and emotions. Thank you for sharing this aspect of your life.

Honestly, what an amazing person Rainer is. Awesome to have that excellent support!! Thanks for sharing this with us, Miranda ❤ I always appreciate the realness and authenticity we get from you guys. I also love that Tucker seemed like he knew you needed a cuddle at the end 🥺

I don't even have panic attacks, and watching you snowshoe while pulling the sled and desperately searching for a campsite on a deadline made me feel like one was coming on. I'm so glad you were able to go home and care for yourself.

I think this might be my favorite video of yours, Miranda. There is a seemingly unending stream of gear videos and how-to's. They're all valuable, but videos like this one are rare, and about things that most people don't talk about. Thank you for being open and compassionate enough to share this experience for others to gain some understanding of it and normalize having this conversation. Much love.

@CoolInOlympia

5 ай бұрын

Me, too! Miranda being real and authentic!

I appreciate that you called this listening to your body... mental health and physical health are one in the same, and I have found that treating mental health as you would a physical injury makes the most sense (for patience with yourself, for recognizing something needs to change, for learning how to avoid that injury or recover from another one in the future). Mad respect, Miranda

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

Thank you so much 💚 I think you are so right - we pay attention to physical health and injury so carefully on trail, so doing the same thing for our mental health makes total sense too. Thank you for sharing this!

Thank you for being so open and honest, Miranda! You’re incredible, and such an inspiration.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

Love you so much, Pammy. Thank you for always being open to talking about mental health with me, especially before I had a name for what was going on.

@LWilli5

5 ай бұрын

Everyone should have a Pammy in their life 😘.

As someone who has never had these conditions, it is hard to understand what people who do go through. I can empathize and sympathize but never fully grasp the effect it has. I do think it is important that someone like you make these authentic videos to help the rest of us to get a better understanding.

@gregkosinski2303

5 ай бұрын

I used to experience severe panic attacks. It really sucks but it’s not the end of the world. They have medications that can nuke most people’s symptoms

@adrians7358

4 ай бұрын

It's just the way your brain reacts sometimes. For me the first time it happened it was while driving after a couple of bad nights sleep and long distance driving several days a week. Hasn't happened since, but I will say this, after it happens once, you just feel it coming way ahead in other situations. In general for me it is when I am tired and/or cold (like way out in the middle of nowhere and cold). It's a bit like you feel you're not in control, like it is a constant danger (not being very close to a place where you can feel safe or relax, and you really need that place at that exact moment). It starts slow (like occasional very short panic) and builds up. Whenever I feel this, I am always like okay I'll head back. No point in aggravating the situation. There is no logic in it, logic will not help. What helps is you returning to a point where you feel relaxed and safe.

The minute you weren’t seeing the site your brain was hoping for you could feel the energy shift. Such a tender moment with Rainer. You could tell he certainly knows you and cares about you.

❤

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

❤️❤️❤️ you're the best

@bigf1ip

5 ай бұрын

@MirandaGoesOutside Great Job identifying your triggers and staying aware of how your emotions are being affected. Even though you didn’t plan it, You showed exactly how you should execute a risk evaluation. Many people forget about the human end of risk analysis and the bottom line is if it doesn’t feel right it isn’t right and getting out of that situation is a good call. Thanks for sharing…I relate with what you went through. I am glad Rainer was there to balance you both. @RainerGolden, great job helping Miranda you are the hero of this story.

@jenellsaphid

5 ай бұрын

I wish everyone had a you in their lives, Rainer. You're one in a million.

You are an amazing young woman, and I really enjoy your videos on hiking and backpacking. I'm 60 and have lived with chronic depression my entire adult life. It is a part of who I am, but it is not an obstacle to who I am. All the best, keep making your very good videos, and keep on hiking!!

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

I LOVE this: depression is a part of you, but not an obstacle. I often tell people that I don't suffer from depression, I live with it - it makes it feel more in control and okay with it. Thank you for watching! ❤️

@sallys2423

5 ай бұрын

Yes! This. I live with depression and it does not define me, it is one of the challenges I have in my life.

You and Rainer’s friendship is absolutely priceless! Thank you for sharing the good the bad and the ugly with us! Hugs to you!

As a woman who lives with depression and generalized anxiety disorder, I must say thank you for being real. I live vicariously thru youtube influencers like you who challenge themselves with outdoor adventures. Anxiety keeps me from walking outside and doing what you do. You are a brave woman to push through it and do what you love and even braver to know when to step back.

Thank you so much for having the courage to share the tough stuff. Thank you for not just showing the highlight reels. Thank you for being vulnerable. Thank you for being awesome. When you said, “I don’t know what to do”, I felt that with my whole heart. I have been in that space and it is awful, especially when someone else is along. Thank you, Rainer for being so understanding and so supportive. Sending my love to you both 🥰.

As someone with anxiety and depression, thank you for being honest and sharing the good and the bad in your videos! Sidenote - I burst out laughing when I looked through the Chapter titles and saw "I have anxiety and depression" casually sandwiched in there between searching for a campsite and arriving at camp

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

😆 where better to casually sandwich it than between two seemingly innocuous things?!

@musingwithreba9667

5 ай бұрын

That's where depression and anxiety are. Right there amongst all the other normal everyday things.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

^ THIS.

The part where you said "I hope there's somebody out there who feels seen" was massively important. Thank you for sharing reality and truth.

I wanted to give you a big hug. You are not alone. Thanks to Rainer for being so supportive.

Good on rainer for being there with you. Dont have to push yourself if its not necessary. Youve been on alot of amazing adventures. But still you gotta take care of #1 "yourself "

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

He was really great through the whole thing 💚 It makes such a difference when you have someone there to simply say, "I want to do what is best for you."

Thank you for posting this video. As a 51 year old man, who has learned more than I ever wanted to about mental health in the last several years, including my own unexpected experiences with panic attacks, I really appreciate you posting this. There are times in our lives when we have to decide if it's best to "fake it" or pack it in, and fight another day. There is peace and wisdom in making the best choice.

@laxd17

5 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing this Miranda.

Nothing I love more than honesty. You are not the first backpacker I've seen "fess up". Takes guts! And, it's important for all of us to better understand ourselves and others. Rainer helped with his words of comfort. You helped by explaining what was happening to you and how to best resolve it - and allow that it was okay. Three cheers to the brave!!! You guys rock! It's your show gosh darn!!!

This is my favorite so far. Thank you for keeping things REAL. ((Hugs)) You just shifted me over from casual watcher to committed support.

@MirandaGoesOutside

2 ай бұрын

I just saw this - thank you so, so much!! 🤗 that means so much to me.

Excellent video Miranda - I love when KZreadrs show are truthful about their experiences. We live in such a fabricated world that everyone thinks every day is sunny and bright when we all have days when our brain is cloudy and overcast. I love the honesty!

It’s people like you Miranda who are willing to put themselves out there that help lessen the stigma of mental health issues. Also having a wonderful understanding friend like Rainer is such an amazing treasure. No one knows what it’s like until you have experienced it and it’s not something you want anyone to experience. You will do it again when the time is right, we have no doubt. Big hugs 🤗

I think the last scene says it all, don't you wish we could all be the people our dogs think we are ? Thanks for being real, and making it OK to know when to say it's time to call it, and be safe.

I’m in healthcare, and a hiker. Thank you for helping to normalize what living with anxiety can bring. Hiking helped me crawl out of a deep anxious hole…. But can also challenge me, and so many. Thank you for being real . You’ve gained a lifelong follower

Support from the East Coast! Thank you for making this video Miranda. It speaks volumes about your character and your care for others.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

Thank you - I hope it resonates with other folks going through something similar 💚

I'm sorry you went through that, but I love that you made this video. The more awareness we bring to mental health struggles, the better. I grew up in the 90s when mental health was WAYY more stigmatized than it is now. So many times, if people admitted they struggled with mental health issues, they were made fun of, insulted, and sometimes even ostracized from their communities. For some reason it's as though we as a society have been conditioned to believe we're supposed to be robots without concern or emotion. I'm so glad more and more awareness is coming out about mental health struggles. Because we _are_ human. Mental health struggles _are_ real, and they _are_ valid - and no one is less worthy of acceptance or love because of those struggles. We are human, not robots. And I'm so glad there's been more awareness of that fact.

The strongest people I know all have the same things in common. They know their limitations. When they get overwhelmed, they assess the situation. And if they decide to call it, then they call ir. "Not today, boys!" is one of the most powerful and self-affirming staments you will ever say. It is a sign of strength, Miranda, ...not weakness. I know a thing or two about percerverence. And you perservered. You made the right decision toward the correst goal and went forrward with it. You are stronger than you think. Trust yourself. We all love you.

Rainer gently telling you to breathe made me burst into tears. I have been at that point of panic so many times. Having a safe, caring, trusted person with you in that moment is invaluable! ❤

This is probably one of the most important videos youve ever made. Thank you for your vulnerability and for showing something that many just dont talk about ❤

Thanks for being so open. Also, shout out to Rainer for being what you needed in that moment. My wife struggles with anxiety and it’s taken a lot of trial and error to learn how to respond to her panic attacks. I love seeing that you have that with a friend. I also need to shout out Tucker at the end there. Dogs just get it. We don’t deserve dogs

@BronzeBellaBria

5 ай бұрын

you sound like a really supportive hubby/spouse

Something I learned the hard way is that hard exercise can trigger panic attacks if you’re already in that “uh oh” anxiety zone. Pushing through it can make it SOOOO much worse.

I have loved every single one of your videos. However, as someone with anxiety and depression- I need you to know … this is the BEST video you have uploaded. Without question. Be so proud of yourself and your channel, because this is the most helpful, the most real, the most effective video you’ve created. Simply beautiful!

@TheMamabee2

5 ай бұрын

This. 🎉

Thank you Miranda for being real and showing every side of you❤ It means so so so much for me, another Miranda who struggles a ton with anxiety and depression. You are the biggest role model in my life. Thank you and take care❤️❤️ Life is just so extremely though.

I appreciate that this video is more about the mental health issue but as far as winter camping goes: since you are pulling a sled you can use a different kind of "stake." You take a 1' square of 1/2" plywood with a 2" hole in the center. You put the stake with the line attached through the hole then pile snow on the plywood. The weight of the snow on the plywood will hold the stakes in place better than just driving it into the snow.

Thank you Rainer for your support and being awesome. Thank you even more Miranda for being you and being open to help to normalize such things that happen all the time. It's ok. Just because we love the outdoors doesn't mean we love it all the time. Hugs to all y'all out there!

My wife deals with panic attacks and also suffers from General Anxiety Disorder. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for posting this video. It took courage to discuss this topic with thousands of people that follow you. It took courage to not only understand you were not in a good mental space but also in an environment that wrong decisions could have been fatal. We follow your videos not because your content is always 100% successful. You are one of the only vloggers within the backpacking genre of youtube that I feel is 100% authentic. I think I learn more from your videos seeing that not everything goes as planned and knowing that that is ok. Again. Thank you.

I also stopped a hike due to a panic attack (aided in part from getting lost and horrible weather) sometimes despite knowing exactly what we should be doing it's healthier for us to look after ourselves in environments that are more familier. Thanks for this video, you were really articulate about your emotions.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry you went through this too, but thank you for sharing that! I agree - I can't say for certain that this *wouldn't* have happened in warm, easy conditions, but the winter and cold definitely made it worse. I'm glad I was in a spot where I could make this call.

Happy you felt comfortable sharing that story. It takes strength to know when to push through and just as much to know when to call it.

Honestly, I’m so appreciative of you sharing Miranda and being so incredibly vulnerable. As a person who has a lot of physical limitations and is very neurodivergent it’s refreshing to see someone be honest and open and not force themselves to do things that they aren’t comfortable with.

My Mom side is SO PROUD of you. My teacher side is EVEN MORE proud of you. I hope that does not sound condescending, it is in no way meant to be. I try to balance teaching my own offspring and students the need to "do hard things" that might end with results we do not want, then trying that again, with doing what we need to do to be safe mentally and physically. We do not talk about mental health enough in the US. When we try to have those conversations, people so often shut down, or feel like a failure for struggling, or feel like they should not burden anyone else with their truths. I thank you, from the bottom of my heart for sharing all of this with such honesty. Thank you for having this conversation with a gazillion strangers on the internet. I love this channel because you are always blunt, honest, and truthful. (And you often make me crack up, too- not this time, as is appropriate). In seeing your lead up to the panic attack, I saw a lot of me. I pretend I am not having panic attacks and usually deflect. So a final HUGE thank you, as a flawed human trying her best, for the large mirror you help up to me and the work I still need to do with my own mental well being. The internet is a better place because you are on it, please know that.

Hi Miranda, thank you for sharing and Rainer thank you for being there for her.

Panick attacks are scary, I started having them about a year ago. I HATE it, such a helpless feeling. I've had to stop doing a lot of things I love because of not wanting to look weak amd embarrass myself in front of people.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

I feel that SO much. While of course everyone is different, and you should definitely do what is best for you, I've found that doing the things I love help me feel strong in the face of panic attacks. There is strength in knowing your boundaries, strength in doing the hard stuff, and strength in taking rest. I hope you find a way to do the things you love again 💚

The mountains are my church. My demons can't find me there. But, in very rare occasions, amongst the peaks, the trees, the rivers, they do. And it jars me. In those very low points, I question everything. To know that there are others - you Miranda, and so many others who have commented - whose experience is the same, suddenly justifies the one part of me that sometimes breaks and that I am unable to reconcile. Thank you for putting yourself out there like this and thank you to so many members of this community who have done the same.

As a person who was diagnosed 20+ years ago, ABSOLUTELY THE CORRECT CALL! Thank you for your honesty and making this real for those who don't experience what we learn to deal with on a daily basis. I'm sure many have offered advice, so please don't take this as such unless you think it might help. Otherwise, please accept virtual hugs from one who lives with the same diagnoses as you. My Chiropractor shared this with me and as we all know, many people have opinions on what to try to help. I thought, "What the heck. I'll give it a try." Take two fingers and press between the eyes and just a teeeeeny bit up (right on the brow ridge). Rub slow, small circles in place as the panic attack comes on. It Worked! I've used this quite a few times now and if I feel it coming on or at the very beginning of the panic attack, I begin doing this and it allows my body enough space to back up and work through it. I now have the space to center my mind and use other tools to help stave off the attack.

I do a little winter backpacking, and Ive always felt myself closer to the edge than any other time of year, regardless of how much warmth/food/fuel I bring. Theres something about the inescapable cold and short days/long nights that gets to me. Over time, Ive gotten better at dealing with the emotional-ness of winter backpacking, but its never totally gone away. I also have GAD and depression.

My wife deals with a lot of the same things. It hurts my heart to see someone struggle like that. Its good you have support and can recognize when to call it and not push through just for a video. You are loved and appreciated.

Miranda!! As a female solo camper, I cannot thank you enough for being honest and not doing the social media whitewashing!! Hell yes!! You are a bad ass!!! Rainer way to model a supportive friend. Getting the shot or the adventure is not worth sacrificing mental health- I have to remind myself of that constantly. Normalize trusting your instincts. Knew I loved this channel for a reason. I’ll follow you guys to the end of the snowy earth ❤

Very timely share for me. Just bailed out of a 32 mile backpack 5 miles in. I wasn’t as prepared physically as I thought and that affected me mentally as I too suffer from depression and anxiety. I was using the hike as a prep hike for PCT and suddenly felt like a complete failure. At 70 I know my years ahead are numbered so that added pressure. I video my hikes and that adds pressure to complete them. I was at a point where getting out was easier than for the next 28 miles. I might have been able to push through maybe and get myself in more of a difficult situation. I’m an experienced backpacker having completed many long thru hikes. I am still struggling with the feelings of failure. I cried a little watching you go through your hike knowing you felt similar. I’m regrouping and doubling down on my training and PT. Not ready to pull the plug yet on the PCT until I know I have gave it my all. Hugs to you…glad you shared!

Hi! Thanks for having the courage to share this. I hope it helped you and I’m sure it helped some viewers. Thanks also to Rainer for being so supportive and understanding. Maybe you told him what you need or maybe he just intuitively knows the best way to help, but it was good to see him helping (not just fixing). All the best to you both!

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

After years of working together and best-friend-ship, he is truly awesome at helping me through moments like this 💚

This is your show gosh darn! You do you! Rainer, is a great friend to you. I'm glad he was able to chill things out the first time, and then be ready to pack up and bounce when the time was right. I'm so glad you didn't randomly cut the video. I have felt this way on my motorcycle trips before, but had to push through due to time restraints, or reservations. Thanks for sharing!

As someone who struggles enormously with panic attacks, depression, anxiety disorder, and PTSD - this video more than ANY of your others helped me. Thank you for being vulnerable with your bajillion subscribers - I feel SO seen, I feel stronger knowing I’m not the only one who struggles. 🖤.

Hi Miranda, I'm purposely not reading other comments here, but wanted to say something. I enjoy your channel, primarily because of your personality. We all present what we feel we should to others. This episode endears you more to me than any other. Being vulnerable is part of life. Sharing the vulnerable part of who you are with the entire world is rare and I appreciate that you dare to do so. Thanks, Miranda, if I never see another one of your episodes I'll know you are honest and courageous. And besides, any person who talks freely about pooping is AOK in my book. Hugs and take care.

Thank you for being so raw and sharing this. I’ve cut some solo backpacking trips short because of my mental health and was embarrassed to tell people why. No one ever really talks about it so I thought it was just me.

I know exactly how you feel. ❤ Anxiety and depression sucks because people cannot see on the outside how devastating it is. Thank you for making me feel seen the way I see you.

When I saw the title of this video, my first thought was “I’m so glad she made this video”. That’s not because I’m glad you had a panic attack, but because it’s such an important topic. So many people get stuck in the mindset of having to finish a hike no matter what. We need to talk about the other alternatives❤ In Norway we what’s called “fjellvettregler”, which kinda translates to common sense rules of hiking. One of those rules are “there is no shame in turning around” (det er ingen skam å snu). This video is a perfect example of why this is an important rule❤️ I love your videos. Hope the next hike goes better, and if not, you can always try again❤️

I had a mentally challenging trip 2 years ago and initially decided to push through. Contrary to what our culture suggests, I, as a "grown man" was at the brink of crying for 1.5 days alone in the woods. At the end of the second day I was mentally so exhausted, that I was happy that I injured my knee and had a different reason to pack up and come home 3 days early. I just wasn't mature enough to make the same step and decide to go home just because of my mental state and it was a great lesson that I'll remember. It's difficult watching you suffer but it's a really important video to make and for us, the viewers, to watch. Thank you for always being so open about everything, not just mental health, but any topics others tend to avoid (poop included). I love your content especially because you don't sugarcoat anything and give us the plain reality, with all of its ups and downs.

Yeah... I can relate. I had Anxiety + altitude sickness on a trip in the summer and cut it short. Then cutting it short made the anxiety worse on the hike out. Love that you made this video! We have have our own things and it's nice see other, shows we are all human and that we are in it together! ❤

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

Ugh, that's awful! Altitude sickness on it's own is so bad, and I can totally see how choosing to cut the trip short would make all of that worse. I hear you and see you, and sending you so much love for future trips.

@ISOwren

5 ай бұрын

@@MirandaGoesOutside ❤

@adelamichalikova8682

5 ай бұрын

I can relate sooooo much! I suffered one of my (fortunately) rare panic attacks a couple of years ago on skitouring trip in the Alps. It was just the worst combination of different things - bad weather, us taking the wrong turn and ending up not where wanted to end up, being tired, altitude sickness starting to kick in and I was basically a newbie to the whole thing. Luckily my bf managed the whole situation like a pro and supported me incredibly. Also we got to meet the mountain rescue guys who were staying in the chalet where we were headed. :) Things can happen to anyone, any time. Hope your experience hasn't discouraged you from future hiking trips. ❤

@ISOwren

5 ай бұрын

@@adelamichalikova8682 Think Altitude sickness is like a force multiplayer. I live at altitude so I was like... I can't get altitude sickness at 11k Ft it's to low.... hahaha I was wrong. Turns out hiking for 10miles with a pack does no favors for your loughs

I’m so glad you shared this video! It’s so important to listen to your body and not feel like you have to “fake it” in the name of making content! You are amazing and thank you for keeping it real❤

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

Thank you so much! 💚 After the fact, I was like, "I never fake it for any other videos, why would I start now" but in the moment I definitely thought I could just push through and pretend.

Sunday, February 04th: Grandpa always told me that there's no bad weather, only people dressed wrong. Sorry about your situation. As a father of six, I have learned that I must work thru my attacks because others depend on me; wife and kids. Hopefully you learn some redirecting and coping methods for yourself. Happy Trails! Ross08

Dear Miss Amanda, I have been watching your videos for years. I am an avid camper and backpacker and admire your outdoors spirit greatly. You are awesome!! Having said that, I must admit that I do not suffer from anxiety, nor do I completely understand it. After watching your video I can only say that I respect you and Rainer even more!!!! Thank you!! And you guys are simply amazing!!!!!!!!

From a fellow worry worm -- thank you for sharing this piece of you with the rest of us! It feels validating to know that there are other outdoors-people that struggle with mental health. This video is such a real reminder to listen to and care for your body and mind. 💚

And this is why we love this channel Thank you for posting this very real look at mental health and the outdoors

I’m glad that Rainer was with you and you weren’t completely solo! My child has panic attacks and I know I feel helpless when they are having one. If winter backpacking is not for you, it’s okay!

Wow! All these years I thought I must be the only one who gets nervous or depressed when I’m out in the backcountry and sunset is coming on. Thank you Miranda 😊and the viewers who described my feelings. I feel less like a failure now.

Thank you for sharing and not keeping silent!❤ Thank you for taking care of you!

Honesty, respect for you and your audience, WOW. Thanks for being this way.

I am a new subscriber to a 3-month old video. Thank you for your practicality, for being so real and for that charm / energy you bring. I am just on the other side of being a "newbie" but I have had a number of enjoyable adventures with my grown son. We hike, backpack, bike pack together, usually in the two or three night range. My anxiety hits me mostly during planning, when i make my famous spreadsheets. I share these with my son and I can hear his eyes roll from way across the county where he lives. I am a retired IT Project Manager, so my adventures are not an ad-hoc affair. As the years, adventures rolled by, one way I personally came to avoid severe anxiety: simplicity. You are doing great work, helping to keep people like me informed!!!

The best hiking buddies are the ones that understand that when someone in the group is having a tough day, that it's 100% OK to head back to town for ice cream. Thank goodness for Rainer. Loved this video for being so real - sometimes it doesn't work out, and that's AOK. Love your channel! Keep up the great work.

Thank you so much Miranda for sharing even your most challenging and difficult times. That's real life. And by doing that, I think that you just affirmed and validated so many other people's feelings and experiences. It is so okay to make decisions like the one you did. Thank you for being honest because you are not alone. You have my utmost respect. Happy trails.

Thank you for sharing this moment. When we see others going through struggles that we are facing too, it makes us feel less isolated. I had a terrible panic attack a few years back, and it wasn’t until watching Ted Lasso that I realized what I had wasn’t unique or uncommon. Be kind to yourself and thanks again for your honesty.

Thank you for sharing. My heart goes out to you. I am glad you put your health first! ❤

Thanks so much for sharing. I pretty much had the same feeling this morning and your content was perfect timing.

Miranda I love every video you give us! Thank you so so much for being human, trusting yourself and being vulnerable. (Vulnerability isn't about winning or losing, its about showing up even if you can't control the outcome) I look forward to your videos every week and it isn't about the content, it's about you! You are a ray of light for us (your viewers) and we will support you through your journeys (whether they are over figurative mountains or the real ones with beautiful views) Also your production crew is amazing to trust and love you unconditionally❤

OMG, I just love you both so much! Miranda you are so smart and so brave in everything I’ve seen you take on, and this is no exception. And Rainer you are one of the most solid people I’ve ever come across on KZread or anywhere - just a smart, solid guy. You both are amazing!!

Great video! I love how real you are thank you it's a breath of fresh air!

Thank you for sharing ! I needed to hear what you were saying when you shared it. It helped. It helped.

Damn, I was literally having a panic attack earlier today, and thought "I wish someone know what I was going through" and now you upload this. My anxiety however, is very tied to electronic communication and computers, so at least when Im out it rarely comes up. And Ive been having good results from taking CBD oil when I can feel the heartbeat starting to race up there.

@MirandaGoesOutside

5 ай бұрын

💚 sending you so much love. You are not alone.

Currently paused at 15:43 as I started to feel emotional myself, due to how relatable this is for me. Unfortunately I've never been lucky enough to have a single person around me who can understand or help like Rainer does, hearing him instantly trying to soothe you and tell you to breathe is beautiful and made me tear up. I had a panic attack on a camping trip with an ex, in the tent during the night, he tried to calm me down for about 10 seconds and then lay back down and tried to go back to sleep while I was hyperventilating. Tried to talk to him about it the next day and just found myself repeatedly apologising while he seemed completely unbothered and not wanting to talk about it, I got the impression that it ruined the trip for him somehow. My experience is everyone around me growing fed up of my anxiety, tired by my depression, unwilling to want to put up with me any more. As I stands, i'm a huge loner who does all the hiking and camping alone now. I would truly do anything for a loving and supportive person.

@adelamichalikova8682

5 ай бұрын

It is sooooo sad you've had such bad experience with people you considered close. Been there too. It makes such a difference to be with someone who is understanding and helpful at ALL times. Hope you find a hiking soulmate one day. Until then I'm sending warm hugs across the ocean!

@Joshua-dh3uj

5 ай бұрын

I know what you mean, I had a similar experience years ago. I know there are many caring people out there, but it seems like they are so hard to find.

Thank you so much for sharing. I so appreciate you be open and honest. I'm right there with you and often it is hard to talk about

Thank you soooo much for sharing your experience and talking through it. This is a great lesson for outdoor activities and life in general.