I have now been in the UK for 5 years and can finally apply for a citizenship test! This video has been a long time coming and even now, right before I am making this public while typing this I am still very insecure about it but I wanted to share my past 10 years. If anyone out there is in a bad situation, I want you to know that things can get better and that you should never be afraid to open up and ask for the help of those you trust! I simply cannot thank everyone enough for changing my life as you have! Love you, truly.

@N1lav

4 жыл бұрын

Rita, A friend who is no longer with me once said, "The world was is and will be a shitty place, find something you love and be passionate for it". I take that advice to heart. It has helped me a lot. Maybe it will help you. Be strong. Be happy. And keep tonking the bean. 🤣

@allanfoster6965

4 жыл бұрын

You made me cry! Thank you for sharing it is such a privilege to hear this. You are so brave. Jingles comes across as such a nice guy on youtube. I see he is really a hero in reality. I can also see the love and respect you both have for each other too.

@Ellerion2

4 жыл бұрын

I almost wish that Jingles floored that buttwipe in the seasoned sailor fashion.

@Pcwarmachine

4 жыл бұрын

An incredibly brave thing to do Rita. Both making this video and making the choice to trust in someone to share your terrible situation with. You should be proud of yourself as well as those that helped you on this journey. And here's wishing you a wonderful five years to come!

@vollyman1962

4 жыл бұрын

Watching this video had me more than once fist pumping and cheering you on. I'm so proud of you 😊😊😊😊

When you said that Jimgles was your anchor, I said, "Of course he is, He's from the Navy!" May you work and entertain as long as you wish to Rita!

Rita: It takes an immense amount of strength for you to do and say what you have said and done with this video. I hope this “cleansing” helps you in your life. While I already had a deep respect for you, it is even deeper now. I wish I could say something that would help you! You are amazing! Keep up your good work!

The Anglo-Portuguese Alliance ratified at the Treaty of Windsor in 1386, between England and Portugal, is the oldest alliance in the world that is still in force. So we are used to leaning on each other during times of conflict.

@RitaGamer

4 жыл бұрын

Very much indeed! Very well put! X

@flaviovieira1638

4 жыл бұрын

Very well said sir!

So Jingles is not only mighty, he's also a genuine mensch - as if we ever doubted that. Rita, so glad you've made it to a much, much better place, thank you for sharing.

It has been a guilty pleasure of mine to watch you and Jingles together these last five years. There's so much obvious love between you it warms my heart. You're an inspiration, Rita. Thank you for sharing your courage.

you only need to look at how you and jingles interact to see how much love and respect you both have for each other Rita

Good to hear you're in a good Place now! I see Jingles did a good job bringing Your confidence back! Best of Luck to you for the NeXT 5 years! Hugs from Norway!

As to your "days", I have been fighting mine for 50+ years. I am just now coming to grips with some of it. You have much more support now than I did, so you will do much better, and faster. Just by admitting to them you are starting to over come them, and each time you over come one makes it easier to over come the next, and the next. You will do well.

Being the father of two daughters I'm so glad that you recognized the toxic situation you were in and did something about it!!! To often some people stay in these crazy bad relationships and things end up going very badly!!! Thank you for sharing your self in this way. It's half the battle to healing your self on the inside!!! Takes alot of balls per say :D

You are awesome Rita. Keep going this way and no matter what happened in the past, you are a strong woman and you have an honourable guy next to you. To Paul: well done Sir. You have a golden heart buddy. Greetings from Berlin! Dace

What a lovely testament to courage and true friends.

Wow what a story. I have always LIKED Jingles. He was the first I ever followed on line and still do. My favorite being you and Him on Mingles with Jingles when you are there with him, laughing, teasing and drinking questionable beers. Your mutual care and joy in each others warms my heart but after this the word like no longer suffices. Now I LOVE Jingles and you too Rita. I am So glad you got out. How brave of you and how wonderful you ended up with Paul (Jingles). You are both lucky and deserving of each others loving friendship! You are a lovely person Rita. Seriously you are like the sun.

Rita, It was such a heartfelt and moving video. I'm so glad that you are getting back on track, and to hear residence/citizenship working out better. My wife just came in from a walk, and I've spent the past 10 minutes giving her a precis of the video - unbelievable hardship you went through, and the story of your journey to the UK was just - wow. Respect is a two way street and it is evident in loads with you and your best friend. Keep safe Catmama and Papee.

You may have had support but it's you that did all those things - be proud! We're fortunate to be in a position to have you as a resident and someday soon a citizen.

Hi Rita. Greetings from NC, USA! Thank you so much for posting this. I always wondered what your story was, and how you came to meet Jingles and wound up in the UK. This really resonates with me, because I’ve recently faced demons of my own. The end of my marriage was an earth-shattering affair, and I’ve struggled with depression for many months. Some days are still hard, but you and Jingles have both helped me more than you’ll ever know. Silence has been my greatest enemy; just listening to you guys talk, about anything and everything, has been a light in the darkness for me. Jingle’s “Workshop Wednesday" inspired me to get back into Warhammer, and painting miniatures has been very therapeutic for me; it gives me focus, and helps me to pass the lonely days by. I’ve been w/ Jingles since 2012, and sometimes I feel like you guys are my roommates because you’re always talking in the background :) Thank you both so very much! Love you guys, and take care!

Everything I wanted to say has been said below - we all love you, Rita. Welcome to the UK.

Rita, we love you so much here in the USA you and jingles are going to be a part of our life forever...best of luck

@RitaGamer

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your support! Truly. Xxx

Girl, I can‘t see you crying without getting tears in my eyes. If I could, I would give you a big cuddle. Be proud of you and what you have achieved. That is way too much, a young person should experience. God bless you and your friends Rita.

Rita this video is not a mess, rambling is the best way to get things out that you want to say It helps you to heal and put things behind you. Now is the time to look forward enjoy your life here and do the best you can.

I always wondered when watching your streams if something was up. The way he was in chat at times raised a red flag but you seemded happy and I let it go. I am sorry you went throught all that and I am glad your happy and found Jingles. I hope you inspire those in similar situation to be brave and get far away from the abuser. May you be blessed and happy.

Well done girl for going through the wall and coming out the other side reasonably sane and well , also props to Jingles for being your shoulder and for being an absolute rock star for you . Well done Mr Charlton Sir :)

wow. I have no words for this. As a Dutchie I am so sorry for your horrible time in the Netherlands.

@vtr0104

4 жыл бұрын

It's not the country, unfortunately, it's shit people. And no matter where you go in the world, they'll always be some around...

Hats off to you Jingles, you really were her hero. And Rita I'm glad you've found your happy place.

Hey Rita. I'm just one of Jingles' many subscribers and I just started watching this video out of curiosity, but I want to tell you that I am moved by your story and I have the utmost respect for you. And Jingles, for that matter. I wish you all the best.

Who would have thought that one day 'tanks' - of all things - would become a medium of love and friendship. You've been through hell and back. So brave of you to tell what you've been through. And so kind of you to thank the people who were willing and able to help you out. Many lesser people would have become bitter. You've got a good heart. And I'm happy to see that Mr. Charlton is the kind man he is as well. He seems like the kind of man every child would want as a dad. He's funny, imaginative, playfull and by the looks of it kind yet resolute. I wish you both the best in life. Cheers from the Netherlands from a fellow anglophile.

I had the same problem where i have a single mom who worked constantly. I hardly got to spend time with her. When I did, she was abusive and it was like walking in eggshells. I survived being suicidal and severe anxiety, depression, being alone. Just because I am a tough guy doesn’t mean i didn’t need help. But I am glad i am happier now at age 19. Age 18 was one of the worst years leading to this year being so much better.

Rita thank you for sharing this. I am glad you're in a much better place now. It takes an immense amount of strength to share you're story. I've been through a lot in my life as well. So i know how hard it is not only to make such a big change in life but to share it as well. So thank you for sharing this. As for Mr Jingles I've never met him in person but I've always felt he is a genuinely very nice guy. Hearing what he did for you just confirms what i already thought. I truly wish you the best going forward.

I’m glad you’re doing well. I know some things can be tough but I’m happy that you’re getting better. Huzza and be safe.

You remind me a great deal of a friend I had, who immigrated to the US from Portugal. Don't feel obligated to share anything unless it improves your own emotional state. You don't owe anyone anything, certainly not any explanation . Best of luck.

I am so glad that everything sorted out in the best way for you, Rita. You earned everyone's respect during these past years. It was a really bumpy ride, but hope you'll have the happiness you deserve from now on. As you use to end your streams, "Live long and prosper!" 🖖

How incredibly candid you have been. That must have taken a lot of courage! As someone who has followed both you and Jingles for a very long time, it was lovely to hear the whole story. Hats off to Jingles for 'putting up' with you 😁. I'm sure we will all love you both much more after your heart warming story. Brows on point, as always! Keep up the great work 😉x

You are blessed to have Paul and those that help you recover of the years of abuse. Paul helped you choice your own path and grow as human being. For that he has my most humble respect. OH your English is gettin better.

I am happy you an Jingles found each other. :-) All the best wishes for the 2 of you, for the furture.

You have shown a great amount of courage, in getting out of the terrible situation you were in. Be proud of how much you have grown, you are always welcome in the UK. Well done to jingles as well for telling you to get over here.

Courage you are definitely not lacking Rita

May the lord bless both of You and keep providing what is needed at the time of need for you.

You survived Rita. You did that. Lots of love your way.

Rita - My big regret about this video is that I only saw it a year after you published it! I have enjoyed following your KZread videos, and have always appreciated your candor. But after your amazingly strong and heart-felt openness demonstrated so well in this video, I feel I have actually come to know someone I had previously only "admired from afar." You are one hell of a brave and strong person. I feel a true appreciation for you as a person - dare I say as a friend - after getting to know you so well in this conversation you made for us. You are a most impressive person that anyone should be grateful to have as a friend. Thank you for your courage in making me a part of your life as you have with this video. Please know that I have supported you - and continue to do so - as you have made your growth and struggles over the years, and I wish nothing other than peace and happiness for you. Keep on with pursuing your dreams and don't let anything stop you. Since it is now July of 2021, I am seeing that you are no longer living in the room in Paul's house. I hope things are good with you and Jingles, but in any case, I hope you are continuing to grow and find yourself. I know you must be working on expanding your own personal horizons, and I wish and hope for you nothing but success. I have all the confidence in the world in you, and I'm positive that you will achieve the things you need to achieve. Best wishes in your studies and your citizenship. Thank you for your open and honest friendship! Viva Rita!

Your courage and strenght is very inspirering, thank you for sharing this, much love from the Netherlands.

Thank you for Sharing your story Rita. Been watching and reading for years and years. So much more makes sense now. I am very grateful that it is all working out for you.

Thank you for sharing your story with us Rita. I hope the future holds nothing but happiness for you.

I’m glad things are getting better hope you both have a great time together

I give you much respect for going on video and talking about hard things for you. But do not be upset with mistakes, mistakes are all apart of the Human Experience. If you are happy with yourself now and where you are in your life then you owe those mistakes just a little acknowledgement for getting you where you're at now (as long as you're happy). Mistakes make us who we are, sometimes for the better sometimes for the worse, if we learned something then that mistake wasn't a wasted mistake. Btw, you are just an awesome person! Love your tank videos, really love your accent (American here) and thank you for sharing some more personal information about your life!

For you to make this video must have been so hard. You are a very brave person to sit in front of a camera and open your heart and relieve those darkest times for you. You are an amazing person to do this. Stay strong.

i may have misheard but did she say "flick the bean"?.

@robertwhitehead8671HMCS

4 жыл бұрын

I think i heared it too but it might not mean the same there and thats not to belittle the topik in general

@whitee1992

4 жыл бұрын

@@robertwhitehead8671HMCS fair point. im certainly glad she got out of the shit.

@demos113

4 жыл бұрын

Pretty sure you did not mishear... just being a normal human. :-)

@cameronboyce4695

4 жыл бұрын

Yeah. I'm sure she said that. I am assuming that it means something different over there, or at least I hope.

@cameronboyce4695

4 жыл бұрын

But I think it was just Rita being Rita. Bring a bit of comedy to a video that most undoubtedly hard for her to make.

That was some really deep stuff! I rarely watch your content, but this ... I kept thinking about for days, your whole struggle. I was watching my room ceiling instead of sleeping. Im glad that you ve battled through all of this! Keep it up!

Thank you for sharing this. I haven't ever managed to catch you live, and only ever managed to catch you on Mingles with Jingles in passing. Much love from Canada, keep it up.

This has been the most refreshingly honest and open video I've seen on YT, ever. Best of luck to you.

Thank you for being so open and sharing the story of the last few years Rita. You're amazing and we think the world of you. I hope things just keep getting better!

Bless you Rita so damn happy & proud of you hun, five years and finally able to go for citizenship congrats that's a really big milestone best of luck from one of your Aussie subscribers !

The Jingles effect encompasses all situations... Those of us in the Salt Mines are not surprised.

I can remember the first live streams with Jingles. I can still see that apartment you were in, the yellow lighting in the background, the cats running around on the back of your chair... doesn’t feel that long ago. But when you tell your story it’s clear you have come a VERY long way!

My hat is off for you lady, it takes so much courage to start, in essence, a new life. Also the love and admiration between you and Jingles is so inspiring, I am envious, but in a very good way ! :)

Thank you so much for sharing this Rita. I couldn't help my tears either. Its amazing to see you are happy now. And Jingulu is amazing! And so are you! Its not easy to talk about things like this. Again thank you so much for sharing this. You deserve to be happy!

Best of luck! Were all here for you!

I loved this video. This was a very unexpectedly heart touching story. I'm so so glad that you got out of that terrible relationship and that you found Jingles. I'm so happy for how far you have come these last 5 years.

Jingles is a class act. I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to meet him when he was in town for the Dayton airshow some years back. It is sad that Rita has had the difficult experiences that she has had. Thankfully, her strength and the support she has had have helped her move forward with life. Hopefully, the bad days will become fewer as the years go by. Stay strong Rita! - SpeedSteel, proud member of the World of Tanks EU RITA clan.

I gotta say, I just watched this for the first time, and I have a new found respect for you, not just for keeping on fighting and being determined to get your goals after such an experience, but being able to talk about it so openly on the internet, you are amazing. I only got to you know you through Jingles when I was in a bad situation myself, for you it was streaming, for me it was watching the streams and the video's that helped me get through it, and I want to thank both you and Jingles for that. Keep up the great work in this difficult situation, there will be days that are better and some where it feels like nothing has changed, but you are moving forward, ever bettering yourself, and building a great community and support network of friends and colleague's around you. Thank you!

All I can say is we can relate to your experience. May the healing continue, well done Jingles too, both of you are incredibly brave. Take care and enjoy every day with each other. Every blessing.

What you did takes an amazing amount of courage. I'm glad that you're in a better situation and have amazing people to support you! I really do wish you the best for the future - you deserve to live a happy life and I have no doubt that this will continue for you in the future. All the best!

This is one of the most moving and heartfelt videos I've watched on KZread in quite some time. Thank you for sharing and having the courage to talk so openly about subjects that must be deeply personal and so painful for you. I'm happy for you that your life now seems to be on an upward trajectory, and I hope that continues. As a Brit I can't do anything other than hang my head in shame that the government of my country chooses to make it so difficult for good people like you to settle and live here and become part of us. Lastly, you have cats and a Jingles in your life. Life is just better with cats and Jingleses. Every home should have one IMO. Best wishes to all of you!

Amazing story. Best of luck and encouragement on your journey to become a military historian. It’s a journey I started 16 years ago, and sometimes it was tough and heartbreaking, but it was so very much worth it in the end.

As a retired police officer, I have seen what you've been through and had the training to recognize it. I am glad you got out when you did and never looked back. I hope that anyone that read what follows and see it happening in their own life or that of someone else close to them, they will reach out for help. An abusive relationship usually never starts with physical violence. The abuser will start by seemingly minor controlling measures. They will gradually "guide" their victim into isolation. They don't want their victim to have any friends. They will always find reasons to avoid their victim's old friends and family. Once isolated, they will begin fostering a deep dependency on their victim - only one car, not allowed to work, cell phone and internet passwords set by them, all social media monitored. From there, it will move to verbal abuse, minor at first like putting their victim down in front of their friends, making sure the never miss a chance to tell their victim how "worthless" they are and how they are the only one that wants their victim. From there, treasured items and pets or even children will be used to anchor the victim to them. Physical abuse begins. That will cycle, abuse followed by a "honeymoon" period where the abuser will often promise never to to it again and treat the victim nicely - until the next abuse incident. Those "honeymoon" periods will become shorter and shorter until they disappear altogether. Ultimately the victim will become a virtual slave to the abuser, the abuser will abandon the victim, having totally broken them to the point they will actually look for another abuser, or the abuser murders their victim. One statistic, I do not know how current it is now, showed that a person in an abusive relationship will leave and return to that relationship an AVERAGE of NINE TIMES before they finally break free or they become a murder victim. If you want out but don't know how, contact your police department. They have the resources to help you and can refer you to places where you can get the assistance you need to be able to leave.

@alexiachapman6823

4 жыл бұрын

I never realised quite how close i was to that until I read your post. Sure, I've read elsewhere this is how it starts and, whilst my previous relationship was quite emotionally manipulative I always said, well, he's never stopped me from seeing friends and family, he's never hit me, he's never stopped me doing what I want to do. But then I look back and remember all the times he'd throw a tantrum because I wanted to go visit friends i've had since uni (he used to say that it's stupid that I carry on being friends with them as people change from uni and I should be making new friends, not hanging on to old friends) and you know what, it became easier for me not to visit my friends and family. I didn't have the mental energy to deal with his tantrums and verbal onslaught. So no, he never actually stopped me, he just never said it outright. He just made it so difficult that it was easier to go along with what he wanted. He never set passwords, or kept track of my phone, but again would make such a fuss that, as a couple we shouldn't keep anything private, that it was easier to let him have access. Everything was much easier letting him get his own way because if I didn't it would emotionally and mentally exhaust me so much that I would become physically ill. I got out, but when I read your post it terrified me knowing just how close it was to flipping over into a more abusive relationship. Thank you for writing this and please, please make sure you share/post it as much as you can.

@Briggadoon

4 жыл бұрын

@Daniel Byrne dude... is everything okay at home?

Good luck with everything hope you both have a great time together

A wonderful video Rita! It must have been a challenge to make this, but your subs and fans love your work. All the very best to you and the Mighty Jingles!

How brave! So happy that you found Jingles and are moving forward and making a new life for yourself!

Very brave video Rita. RESPECT. I greatly appreciate your honesty and openness. I sincerely hope it helps any one else in a similar situation to see there is light at the end of the tunnel. I always felt Jingles was a great guy just listening to the way he speaks on his videos and how he avoids being drawn into negative debates and being un pleasant in his comments. Now we really know what a fantastic guy he is! RESPECT again. You two seem to make a great team as you both bring entertainment to others. Thank you both for what you do and stay safe. (PS. I tried to listen to this video several times but I kept getting a lump in my throat. Got through it all this time and yes there was a tear in my eye) Live long and prosper.

Ive been following you since Portugal. Amazing story Rita, much love from Pittsburgh.

This is the second youtube video I've seen in the last few weeks on almost exactly the same theme. What strikes me is the similarities and how difficult it can be to extract yourself from such a situation but in both cases there was someone special to help them through the worst of times. It really is worth reaching out to people, you never know it may change their lives forever.

Que coragem! Well done, good to hear you are finding your way back. All the best!

@RitaGamer

4 жыл бұрын

Muito Obrigado!

Never knew but always suspected you had had some hard times. Thank God you met a real man and a great friend. God bless you both (and although I'm not a cat person, bless those cat's too).

This is incredibly courageous. God bless you; you've been through the wringer. I know it is not easy to air this out. Be you well.

You have had a rough journey over your life, and it sounds like your in the right place now. Talking about it like you have here helps recover. Keep doing what makes you happy.

Life is all about challenges, It's great to see you are taking each challenge and conquering it. Well done, hopefully, life will treat you kind and take care of you. All the best.

Mz. Rita you are a WARRIOR it's no wonder you're a tank girl!! You are a role model for other women in trouble. And kudos to The Mighty Jingles!

Much love and hope things just continue to get betterr forr you, at least once this bloody pandemic is behind us all!

Here I sit in Southern California, USA, watching your video from so far away. I've watched yours and Jingles' tank and game videos almost from the beginning. Always fun and entertaining. Now hearing about your struggles, and your ongoing recovery. I'll never know what it's like to go through that. I hope you can take your bad experiences and learn from them, and come out a better, more knowledgeable and stronger person because of it. Tank on, Tanker!!! Carry on!!

A really emotional and hard journey you had. I really appreciate your honesty to share your story. Rita, you and Jingles are great and I hope everything is getting better the more you look up and reach your own goals, no matter what others say or do. Keep up the great work and I hope your dreams you seek become true one day. Keep up the great work and do what you want to do and furfill your life. :)

Both you and jingles have been a highlight to see online. You both feel like friends from half a world away and Id like to say you're amazing Rita. Thanks for doing what you do and long live the online dream :)

It takes a lot of courage to share stories like this Rita and like many, I'm glad you're doing quite well and away from an abusive environment. This is coming from someone who haven't followed you til Jingles mentions you whenever he would play tanks with you. Thank you for sharing your struggles and your journey.

It makes me really sad that you had to go through so much at such a tender age, You're a beautiful person both in and out...... stay that way and never give up...... With love from India.

Well, I just found your channel tonight, with your M3 Stuart video....You're even more awesome than I thought. Keep at it!

Wonderful video thank you for being open and honest. Always love what you do.

Thank you so much for sharing your story and so glad to hear things have been going better these past few years. I hope it helps others too. I always remember my dad telling me that you'll know who your real friends are when times are tough, it's the true test of friendship. Also, as a current serf of her majesty, a belated welcome to Blighty and I hope you get to join the old gang soon!

Not only did you manage to escape yourself and safe yourself, but you also saved 2 innocent little creatures, really well done!

It's lovely to hear you're safe, happy and enjoying life. The country is lucky to have you. X

So glad that you are in a much better place Rita. We all love you and your content, (I especially like the new format of Mingles with Jingles, which you are a part of. I always liked to see when you and Jingles create content together.) and hope to see all the great stuff you will create in the future. Take care Rita and best of luck with your future studies and everything else in life.

I'm glad you got out of that situation! Shoutout to Jingles, you sir are a hero (even though you don't look like one ;-). No seriously sometimes the people we don't take serious at all are the ones that surprise us most and deserve to be taken serious.

@RitaGamer

4 жыл бұрын

Comments like this mean the world to me. Much love! Thank you! X

@timhuester7721

4 жыл бұрын

@@RitaGamer Your story really touched me, when I heard it yesterday. I watched some of your lifestreams when you were still in the Netherlands and never noticed a thing. It made me wonder how many people I know or knew, who might be in such a bad situation. I hope to become more perceptive for the people around me in the future!

Thank You for Sharing your story, it will surely help other people who are struggling in life knowing that there is Hope to reach for Tomorrow!

Lots of love to you Rita ♥ Stay strong and good luck with your degree!

Healing starts with you sharing with others the things that cast shadows over your life..... by doing that you remove the power they had over you and you begin reclaiming your life in full. Lots of love and respect for making this video!

You are an inspiration. No one deserves that treatment. I am happy you asked for help and got out of thst situation.

Myself and anyone who has watched , just witnessed someone having a very "Freeing" moment ! Publicly ! Rita and Jingles > Bless both of your hearts. May the HMS Tog always have Blue sky's smooth seas and the wind off her aft quarter.

Thanks for sharing! Always appreciate you and Jingles

I'm very glad to hear that you gathered your courage and sought help from your friends to get out of that situation. I worked here in the US as dispatch and corrections for nearly 3 years and saw so many girls and even boys that would call regarding domestic violence but then wouldn't file the actual charges the next day so would have to release the subject and then wait for the inevitable call again.. I'm very proud of you for that!

Glad to hear that you are in a much better place these days. Hugs from Norway

You did the right thing Rita, congratulations. There's an old saying, "When you're going through Hell, keep going." You did just that and now you are in a different place. You shared your problems and they are now manageable, well done. You will have scars, but those scars will vanish over time. The one thing I truly believe - YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! Signed, An old fart from Australia.

Wow, such a deep video. Sad to hear you was in such a dark place at one time. Keep moving forward with your life and who knew our crusty Overlord Jingles was such a Knight in shining armour. Well done Paul for being a good person and stepping up to help when Rita needed it..

hang in there Rita, life it rough but have the right stuff! I guess I am a "lurker" I just watch and enjoy your content and really if ever comment. that said I pray for a bright future for you!