When you're a kid, there's nothing more you want than being an adult. When you're an adult, there's nothing more you want than being a kid again.

@victortoll9392

3 жыл бұрын

Facts

@allanzayden2200

3 жыл бұрын

a trick : watch movies at Flixzone. Me and my gf have been using it for watching a lot of movies recently.

@jakezander1938

3 жыл бұрын

@Allan Zayden definitely, I have been watching on Flixzone for since december myself :)

@michaelonyx3903

3 жыл бұрын

@Allan Zayden yea, I have been watching on flixzone for since december myself :D

@Scott_Adams_Was_Right

11 ай бұрын

Don't want to be a kid. I just want everything to be normal again. But i get what you're saying.

Man I miss the past to much a lot. It ruins my days and makes me depressed. I miss my old friends, old music I listened to, and even how we dressed.

@Grafo7771

3 жыл бұрын

Same here I also miss my old days and my old ways I used to be in a gang and i remember me and my Homies used to kick back in the day hang out throw parties and all of that sadly some passes away and others moved on with their lives and others are in prison so yeah I do miss the past as well

@bradd2k2

3 жыл бұрын

@@Grafo7771 same man everyday I think about it and life seems to get worse each day I just want to go back in time if I had a choice to have 100 million pounds or go back to when I was younger to certain moments I would chose going back everytime

@catherinebirch2399

Жыл бұрын

One year I miss is 1977. David Bowie was alive and making great music, and I was so young.

You never realize how great things are before your whole life goes left

I'm stuck in this constant never ending loop of living in the past. I've tried and tried again to get over it but i just seem to be stuck in it. Just feels like everyones getting on in life and i'm just being left behind.

@bluebean9904

3 жыл бұрын

I can relate to this so much. Not sure how we change though :(

@sanjuanitazavala7743

Жыл бұрын

Exactly how I feel.

@martdod

Жыл бұрын

Yup, me too. 😕

@roberthickman7167

Жыл бұрын

Me too. Since my wife left. Our 20 year marriage. It's scarey everyone is moving on. And hard as I try. It feels I'm being left behind. It's like a bad movie.

@dirtyunclehubert

Жыл бұрын

and on top youre getting blamed. its so idiotic.

This is so me. It's a continuous loop... I just want to let it all go.

@MohammedAkram-vl1gr

4 жыл бұрын

You're full of shit your profile picture suggests you're a ok

@brze3605

3 жыл бұрын

@@MohammedAkram-vl1gr if you think just because someone is smiling in there profile pic makes them "ok" inside, you’re the stupidest thing I’ve seen in my existence.

@lallu1122

3 жыл бұрын

why let go? That was the best thing ever

You just described how I live my life every single day.

@Azhark94

3 жыл бұрын

How you doing now?

@zulqarnainhaider4739

Жыл бұрын

@@Azhark94 how r u doing?

The irony of this video. I miss 2014 the most and I would give everything to go back, even for just a second. And I don’t want to be like this anymore, but I can’t help it.

@CODmontages110

3 жыл бұрын

I wrote this comment almost a year ago, and nothing’s changed. I just want to go back

@masterrahool4774

3 жыл бұрын

@@CODmontages110 Im 18 I felt this way for a long time

@djdndbbdalidndndbdnd4203

2 жыл бұрын

No way that’s exactly how I feel. I saw when this video was made and I was like that’s ironic, then I look in the comments. At least someone can relate to me. It just shows that life wasn’t always amazing how we saw it. Nostalgia is a liar. I made this account just so I stay anonymous and no one from college or my family ever sees this.l because I’m scared they will judge me.

@djdndbbdalidndndbdnd4203

2 жыл бұрын

For me I’ve switched 2010 to 2015 into some alternate reality where everything was so amazing. Looking back at these comments it just snaps me back to reality and make me realise that even back then it was the same. Maybe it’s because I was blind to all the negatives in life.

ocd expert Mark Freeman said it perfectly, you dont want normal back because normal is what got you in your current situation.

@kbderek610

5 жыл бұрын

James Pettersson dame dude! That’s some wise shit

Time only goes in one direction, my friend. You’re on a different timeline now. You’ve caught a different wave.

I also believe that depression is a coping mechanism for anxiety, because if your mind shuts off it cannot be stimulated by the things that create anxiety.

@user-bp8me5hk9f

4 жыл бұрын

This is so true for me

The world needs more Noah's

@jamelfergusson

6 жыл бұрын

And less Megans

@davidseriff711

6 жыл бұрын

Jamel Fergusson why would you write something so cruel? You must be a very unhappy person.

Yes, I'm sick with this symptom. I relive it to the point where I'm almost tricked into believing it is real

This is me. Especially when I listen to any music from Nintendo. I loved playing video games with my buddies as a young kid. Was such a beautiful time.

I miss the past too. I had so much fun back then. Granted, everyday wasn't the greatest but it was better than the present. I had friends and family back then but now I don't. My best friend died on March 4th 2015 and a felt like a part of me died with him. I have depression and I just don't like the present and dread the future because the future is going to be worse than the present.

@Grafo7771

3 жыл бұрын

I totally understand you perfectly just fine I feel that exact same way as well I live more in the past

@rodentofthewoods679

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks

I keep doing this because nothing better has come to replace what I'm missing. So I have nothing but my past.

Thankyou for describing my day to day existence. The first 40 years of my life were too good and I can hardly cope with how things are now. I have severe anhedonia. Nobody can empathize with me and I feel very isolated. So thankyou again from what's left of my broken heart 💔

As you heal...you will make it better than it was before because you are more aware.

I was watching this old video of you Noah. I think I watch your videos because you remind me so much of my son. He lives in the past also. So painful to watch someone go thru this.

I relate to this so much. I've realised sharing experience is really important because you could make someone else feel less alone. I used to do this so much, it's like a heartbreaking nostalgia, thinking back to a time when I had friends, when I could enjoy myself in a carefree way, when I felt emotion so intensely and felt like I had purpose and meaning and passion. I guess its not very good for me, but I feel like its my duty to keep the memories alive in a weird way

@hisword1296

5 жыл бұрын

You just have to TRY & stay STRONG-! Keep the negative thoughts at Bay....!

@lallu1122

3 жыл бұрын

heartbreaking nostalgia

OMG This is me. Im glad im not the only one :-(

Over 4 years since my major breakdown, I relate to what you said about yourself so much. I have to this day never ever felt the same it is literally hell on earth. Who knows how you get better I just hope one day I get my nirvana or absolute peace and bliss.

@neoguy2809

Жыл бұрын

Was your breakdown drug induced?

You literally broke my heart when you said you can't go back to normal that's what I've been trying to find , for the last 5 yrs , now what do I do

@dinamarie737

2 жыл бұрын

It's been 18 years since my work as I knew it came to a screeching halt while everything I was and everything I knew along with all the hopes and dreams of the future went careening away from me. And it was just me left standing there alone. I'm still stuck there... Sadness is the only thing that I still have from the life I had before. Before it was just me ... alone in my world

What i find myself doing is saying to myself "Man if i could just go back to that time just for one more day",,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,Which is like staring at a cold glass of water through a glass wall when your thirsty and cant get to it ..

One of your best videos. I used to have this exact feeling. I still have it, but in a slightly different way. I used to think there was the "innocent, happy, care-free me" and I lost it due to my breakdown. Now I think that, even if nothing that dramatic hadn't occurred, some things would've shaped me. Things that, perhaps, I don't pay that much attention to now, since I've been through - and continue to go through - much worse. What I think describes my current feelings best is that my change feels dramatic since it wasn't gradual. I think people usually go through stages and change a bit at every stage. So if you were at point A when you were young, something would happen that would get you to point B, then on to C etc. But this... This is like going from G to L without going through any other stages. I'm sure you realize what I'm getting at here. Much like with you, everything happened so fast for me. If I'm at stage L now, it seems like I'm a different person, since I was previously at stage G, not stage K. I mean, we change all the time, but this is like one of those 80s "body switch"-comedies where a guy goes to bed and wakes up being 60 years older or younger. Again, I think eventually I would have been pretty much the person I am today. It just would've taken a longer time and the changes happening at one time would've been more minor, which would've given me time to adapt to them. Of course, with depersonalization, there are times when I feel like I'm not me at all, but usually my thoughts go in the lines of "this is me, but this version of me is not supposed to be here yet, I should still be the previous version of me". Complex issues, and unless you've experienced them, I don't think you can understand them. Thankfully there are people like you who do understand, and share their experiences. Keep it up.

@bignoknow

10 жыл бұрын

Damn, that was a powerful and true message. I really enjoyed reading that and connected with it very much!!

@nc-pf3qm

4 жыл бұрын

i can understand what u are saying

This is so worthwhile. Your honesty reminds me how easing on the heart telling the truth can be. Your videos have been taking the edge off of a very hard anxiety/depression caused by a traumatic breakup.

@quzee5779

6 жыл бұрын

I wish traumatic break ups didn't happen. I wish those whom we loved could see the pain it's causing us and stop it, and fix the relationship instead. The traumatic break up I went through absolutely devastated me and I'll never be the same again. It's bad enough that I miss them SO much, that every single day it rips my heart out. But now I miss "me" too. I'll never find either person again and things will never again feel "right". It's like living in hell or an alternate universe everyday. I feel like I don't belong here. This was all caused by a reaction to a medication for insomnia for me too. Big pharma is absolute evil. I just want my life and all those years back SO bad. Every day is a struggle.

I understand completely and this video really speaks to me I’m 22 years old and when I was 5 (2002) I watched my father shoot and kill my mother then himself. Since then I’ve lived the same way you are and I keep holding onto the past as a reminder that there was a happy time and everything was normal in hopes that someday I can return to that state of solitude. For 15 years it has been a constant struggle. My mind cannot escape the years I felt happiness and normality (1999-2002) I relive those years and it’s hard to move on and I develop obsessions in ways that often effect my day to day life. I still drive a 1998 Chevy truck (cause they’re badass trucks) like my dad had I still listen to korn, limp bizkit, kid rock like my parents did and I still relive those memories and I’m trying to move forward with life and still hold onto those memories. I’m a carpenter I have a beautiful girlfriend and we plan on buying a house soon. But I feel like this problem I have will effect these life changing decisions. I believe in you and everyone else going through this you are not alone

@chrislittle6631

5 жыл бұрын

I'm sorry I had to witness that....respect

@ThoseSadScenes

5 жыл бұрын

I can't even imagine what that was like, but respect to you for still living your life. Living in the past is a bastard! But, just remember, you're an awesome individual! Much love

I'm going through the exact same thing myself.. comparing my present adult life to the "happier" times from the past. But something helpful that my therapist told me to think about, is that sometimes we tend to just remember the happy times and forget about all the unhappy things we went through when we were younger. When I start contemplating that, I do recall that my past wasn't so perfect after all and it puts things back into perspective for me. Maybe this will help somebody else as well.

Used to be like this. Still am like this sometimes. Things just don't feel the same anymore, you know? That old feeling I used to get from simple things like going to the movies, spending a night playing video games, going out with friends... stuff just don't feel the same anymore. It takes alot to give me that old fuzzy feeling of joy and happiness that I used to get often as a child. Guess in many ways, it's a part of growing up, too...

HOW DO YOU GET PAST THE PAST?????? I can't forget it! I can't go back and I can't change it!!! How do I do this!!!!!

@billzkhan100

5 жыл бұрын

You aint alone brother.. alot of us feel the same way..

@04JALD

4 жыл бұрын

My issue is i am close to losing everyone that was in my life and feeling like being left behind. I have a wife and a 5 year old daughter that i hold on to but sometimes i feel like i am losing grip on life. Tears in my own world have been falling a lot lately reaching out to those that arnt here anymore and holding on to my last person on earth that might not have much longer to live (hoping God will grant this person long life). God bless you all and hope you all are good.

@cliffkonkle3467

3 жыл бұрын

@@04JALD LOVE YOU brother

@04JALD

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you cliff. Love u brother too.

There are seminal moments, defining moments in life. And when they occur life is defined by them - what life was before that moment, what life was after that moment. The pain of living in the past is agonizing when the long night is yours alone. Thanks Noah, for articulating how this feels - it gives me comfort that I'm not alone in this hell called life!

I definitely feel this. There was a short window in my life where my mental health issues weren't too tough on me, where everything in life seemed to be going my way, where I was proud of who I was and confident in myself...and then, shit went downhill fast. Funny enough, that was around the age where T peaks in men.... But yeah, we all do this, I just think depressives like us do it FAR more than most and not in a healthy way.

Today I’m thinking about a certain “one that got away” and it just gets me down a lot of the time so I can relate with this. I really respect you man and love your rawness and openess, its really inspiring, keep it up and I trust things will get better for you

@hisword1296

5 жыл бұрын

Thanks for your honesty-!! God Bless....!

All of this, this is EXACTLY how I feel right now. This is the epitome of what I am currently going through. Thank you so so much for putting my current situation into such clear honest words! Bless you, I hope and pray things are better for you now

@hisword1296

5 жыл бұрын

So sorry to hear ( I can also relate) I see it's been five months ... I/we hope you are in a better place at the moment, God Bless-!!

You have a big heart dude so glad i found you

i can relate to this 100% you've got so much insight and depth to you keep fighting.

Thanks for your honesty.

Thank you for your honesty and for sharing your story. I can relate 100%

Thank you for these videos...great pay it forward!

Thanks for your honesty Noah.

I think and feel the same way..Wonderful Video..thank you!

Hope you get better man your videos are always helpful

Thank you Noah for sharing this video. Glad to see that you were recovering at that time. Thank you so much for supporting us in our difficult times and giving us hope.

Thank you my friend God bless you..You have helped me today

I get the question of "What is normal? How did I feel before?" I told my doctor that I no longer wanted to be on medication for my depression, was offered ECT... I was told I may forget several weeks or months of memory but it could help my depression. Well, 7 years later (after 12 sessions) I have little to no memories of the past 7+/- years with my wonderful husband and 5 children.I have severe migraine headaches and lost so much of my education and life skills. It is terrifying but I wonder often if I make the past more or brighter than it was because I want so desperately to know what a good mother and wife I was. I see pictures of myself with them but have no other connection to those moments. It is terrifying. Balance is key. I am doing my best to balance my thoughts. Perhaps a different reason for much of the same thoughts but I understand, all the same.

@zain4019

6 жыл бұрын

TJ you *are* a beautiful and wonderful mother and wife. It’s obvious to me from just this little blurb you wrote that you do care so much about you family and that in itself makes you a beautiful human being. I hope things are going well and getting better. :)

@wildfire8737

6 жыл бұрын

TJ Much Love to you and yours 😇 I care about you ♡ sending Love and prayers for you.

@kvardakis

6 жыл бұрын

Are you fine now after the ect? Do you feel ok? Perhaps with this all persons will be better the only bad is the some point loss memory but when it is the only choice then yes in this.

@markroach4922

6 жыл бұрын

I'm sorry !!!

Wise words again, Noah. Thank you. You really bring great comfort and support to me and others. I feel the same way and go through this too. Ohh man how much time I spend missing the past.

I'm almost fully deaf to speech, and that didn't happen suddenly. I'm stuck in a world of hearing memories. Everyone and everything is gone and I am so alone it's incomprehensible. I left social media six months ago. But my past is all I have. I had a family, kids. Friends. A job. Cars. Vacations. Now it all just echos endlessly in my head. For a good four years now. I can't get memories to stop, and literally wish I had amnesia at times. It's like a hard drive spitting out old un-organized files randomely. Smells, sights, experiences. Some from 3 years old and on. Some of the memories are from all the way back to childhood and I completely suppressed them. It's messed with me so bad. I'm convinced loneliness will cause you to live in the past. Why wouldn't it? This is what I do now. I don't want to tell my friends or family...or kind of already did. So I just make YT comments in private, to bots and strangers. Thanks for reading. I'm leaving KZread once I can't learn anything from it any more, and then I will be completely disconnected from the world altogether.

Ur gonna be fine man never give up let things play out. Accept what you can't change and change what you can

I'm happy to hear your mind although it's been 4 years and you've changed since, awesome video

I feel like you do. I have had this for a year....hate being alone in my own thoughts for too long....you are such an endearing person..... I wish you all the best.

It’s so sad to watch this because it reflects my life so much...just thinking about the past and never move on

From strength to strength! Thank you so much for sharing this video. I am encouraged and i hope to encourage you. Keep going because there is something better on the other side of this! I heard someone say "don't let any bout of depression go to waste". You will be better, ou will be stronger on the other side of this. "From faith to faith".

I relate to this so much. I shared this with my kids in hopes they might better understand my situation. You explained it perfectly. It was like you knew my every single thought, emotion, my entire way of thinking. And I hate that you knew it so well. Why? Because I know it hurts and it's painful. And like you said, we aren't special, I'm sure everyone does what we do. But why does it feel like we're all alone? Why does it cause us so much pain and suffering? Other who do it, maybe they move past it better. Or maybe they just grin and bare it. Me, it feels as if it's eating me alive. I feel as if we're chasing happiness, chasing it so hard, with the the hopes of when we get there we'll feel 'happy' like we did before. When in all reality the present is all we have, this moment, right now. And if we're always chasing happiness we'll never be able to enjoy the present. We'll always be comparing. We'll drive ourselves insane. It has a lot to do with ego. We must learn to die to self. Die to everything we want, desire and feel we 'need' in order to be happy. I am having the hardest damn time applying any of this to my life right now. I want to feel happiness, joy, peace, excitement, ..SOMETHING! I will pray for you man. Talk with God. That's what I do. Seek his face. He'll keep you grounded. There's more to this life. There's purpose in your pain. There's purpose in my pain. We just have to be patient. We have to wait it out. We have to be present to see all the beauty we're missing. By longing for a past that's gone and a future that we may never see we're causing suffering. We are suffering because we're missing 'the present moment' striving to be somewhere else. This is me. I'm not saying you feel exactly the same. It it's what I'm dealing with. Thank you for sharing yourself with us.

Thanks for your videos man, It's crazy to see that other ppl like yourself have gone thru the same exact thing I have. Years of doctors, meds, major depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. It's been a painful road but videos like yours help me day by day. Just know you as well are not alone bro. Stay busy and keep goals!

I feel your pain--I've been dealing with similar issues since I was 16, Im now 43. Learn to love your current self in both good and rough times. You have changed and will continue to. Life is a journey not a destination. Learn to enjoy the ride and live in the moment. Trust me, I know it's much easier said than done. You'll do well. Think of the wisdom you've gained over the last 3 years then project forward. Sometimes life is about simply surviving and your either in a peak or a valley. Understand that and realize nothing stays the same. I felt as you did when I was 26 and over the next 17 years life became much fuller, still very tough at times but I am a very blessed person and you will be too. That I know… Keep Fighting

Mr Noah, your sharing is so natural and true man, thank you....really really ...thank you. Your Vlog gives people like 'me' something to look forward to. in my case im constantly thinking what the hell is wrong with me.....?? i see people all around and they seem happy,cheerful....knowing where they are going or wanna go. And this gets me think that i took some wrong turns in my life (in the past).....and this got me where i am now.

Im glad I had find yout channel, your experienced on this matter is very helpful for a lot of us, you are truly and inspiration, I want to thank you for all the efforts you had put on these videos

Loved your talk, hope your feeling better with the past, if not let it go, because you can.

Bignoknow... When you climb a Mountain or something high, and you have made it so far up and someone says dont look down, what do we do.We look down and what happens straight away, we lose focus. Well thats exactly like life its self, we go so far and then we stop and think of the past, what happens we lose focus. The Key is to have this understanding and apply it every time you start to think about the past. Works for me Bro and im on a similar path to you.

....but im im fighting (like you said)......!! i started exercising and changed my diet........etc. doing things bit by bit. thank you again, man. Peace and courage to you.

Thank you for this video. I'm in this pattern now and have been for a long time, and the cause always seems interchangeable. Youre the first person I've heard describe this mental compulsion It always comes down to "how good could things have been? " Trying to mentally time travel, make a different decision, take a detour, "back then". And in the end you always come back to reality, here and now

I completely know what your doing. I tell people, I go back because I have such a loss. I say, it's a bit like losing a limb, or an eye, except here, I lost myself, who I was, who I was totally invested in, and what I lost because I'm a bad person

Thanks Noah, you have been a great encouragement to me. I have been doing what you did too, looking back at my past through photos, it made me cried badly because I cant recall my emotions. Christmas, including all other celebrations none of these celebrations gave me a sense of happiness. Had my first breakdown in Feb 2016, I was ready to say my goodbyes to the world was walking off the pathway on the road wishing a vehicle to hit me. I cant find anything to brings my mood up, everyday is just exhaustion. Really hope to hear from you. Regards, Clarence

I think I've found this video at exactly the right time. I am currently in a downward spiral of nostalgia and it hurts something awful. I can't seem to stop myself from romanticizing a time in my childhood which is just moving further and further away. Despite how bad this year has been, it is still my reality and I know that by focusing on the past so much I am missing the opportunities in the present. I know this but I can't seem to stop.

Thanks for the words man, Still suffering from a traumatic breakup.

No No this is me right now! I love how better your doing and i want you to know ive been here. Your hurt like right here helps me cuz i know you went through it and that gives me hope..if you can make it so can i !

Oh my god I've only just found out about your channel.. Kind of late to the party but just wanted to say how much I can relate to everything you've said in this video..

Thanks for this video. Very useful to me.

I too get trapped thinking about the past, my pain comes from all I never got in terms of stable living, care, respect, love, basic stuff. I know it isn’t the same though. My entire existence I haven’t felt the feelings that you are missing. I’m happy you have times you can look back on your past and have genuinely enjoyed. I have never had the desire to relive a day.

I can’t let my past go, I live in the past and worry about the future. Because of that I can’t enjoy the present. Everything in my life is suffering, it’s a new level of pain and sadness. You are right, life never goes back to the way it was before a depression or breakdown. There is a new normal that doesn’t seem to be as good as before your life changed. I need to let go and forgive and heal.

Thank you for sharing this and thank you for saying the words... "This is a fight for my life." I have been using that phrase everyday for the last month. When I wake up I force my get up, Pray, push ups, shower, and start my to due list I made the night before. I have started watching your videos and seeing what you do reminds me that no matter the set backs I have on my bad days it can't take away the steps I've taken towards a better me in the future. I heard this prayer on a Christian song, "God, If you see it fit not to change my circumstances then I pray that you change me so I am stronger to deal with it." Now that's the goal. Maybe I will never be totally okay but I will be in better shape, smarter with my education, and better prepared to take on life. Another thing I learned to be grateful for is GOOD DAYS. The way I see it is: People who have never lived with clinical depression will never understand the magnitude of joy that comes from a single good day. Those people can't even begin to understand what this statement even means. Thank you bignoknow... I appreciate you.

It's crazy how much I relate to this. I put my self in such a state when I think about the way I was before, I'm always looking for change and to be the person I was but it's been almost 4 years and I'm still stuck in this, I ask my self all the time "when will this ever go away" no day is the same anymore, I over think at night too and my brain is just so full of all this shit. Thanks for your videos Noah!!

@CarlosHernandez-yf3jv

4 жыл бұрын

Let us make a big time machine takes us back to the 90s or the 80s

@bigbay1159

9 ай бұрын

​@@CarlosHernandez-yf3jvThat's an incredibly shallow answer that misses the mark of the true issue

Thank you fir this.

Noah, it's nice to hear you open up like this. Very nice and honest about you. You've perfectly put it all at 8:57 - 9:12 One thing I can tell you for sure as someone who's been there, is that - yes, you are correct, it will never be EXACTLY the way it was before, but that's not bad at all!! That was always the case in our lives every time we grew up or changed in some way, it's just that we never payed much attention to it in the past and were never really anxious enough to view it as something dark or bad. In the past even when you subconsciously/consciously payed attention to things like those I guess you would accept them as a normal part of growing up (that's how it was for me), and now that you've been through what you've been through and are still suffering you look at it in a way more obsessive, paranoid, scared and anxious way, and that's to be expected. Heck, when I was in such state, I used to freak out about silly everyday things like - "I'm going to the capital city tomorrow! OMG! I'm going to the capital city tomorrow!!!!! That's so creepy!!!" :D and now that I remember it, I laugh like crazy and for the life of mine I just don't see what was so scary about it :D So yes, you are correct, you have to practice to let go of those things and realize that just cause it's different it doesn't mean it's never going to be normal and happy again...it's going to be a "new normal" that will be quite similar to the old one, but never exactly the same. Most importantly you will always be able to be happy. Just relax and realize that anxiety itself always makes things look much darker than they really are :)

I have these issues too, great video, thanks.

I understand what you mean Bro. After almost 12 years of my own mental breakdown that I went through, I still have times when I contemplate about what happened, about who I was in the past and now. For me it was a point of learning to accept my mental illness and learning that its apart of my life. Its good to see that your mom is doing so well and supports you no matter what through this time. For me I look at my illness as a gift from God because it draws me closer to him and it drives me to rely on him daily. Just know that what your going through right now, will help someone else in your life. Bro. Take some time and tell your self that your worth it to be loved, that people like you and you like yourself. Write Down some positive quotes or even read some self help books like seven habits, or when you find yourself in deep thought, read a book that will Chang your perspective on lifting or even watch some cartoons or even threes company. Thanks for sharing.

I suffer anxiety and some days are worse than others. I work out and get my sleep . Two aggressive relationships years ago and I still suffer sometimes. Now I can’t be bothered to meet that special someone , as I normally pick the wrong guy. I’m emotionally in a much better place now just being single, with my 17 yr old still at home, and having two good Male friends. My self soothe is a glass of wine , but more like two in the evening. Thankyou for sharing, you’re brave man ! Pray god you will be happy and feel good. 🙏🏼🌹💖🌈🌞👍

Thank you sir

It's a Mirage Noah, the past will always seem better because your mind will remember the best parts of you life being bettered than they might have been. I find comfort in knowing that I could feel worse but I'm not, and you create your reality, think of what you've gained. I find that laughing with friends as much as possible makes me feel tired and when I sleep and wake up I feel I've gained a little more happiness. Also for some anti depressants are the option given which takes away the little sex drive we have, so at least you can be affectionate with your partner.

In my case it's not long gone past, but still. My girlfriend at the time died in november last year and since I weren't able to get over it. I just can't be happy without her. My life was literally all I ever wanted while I was with her, and with her gone.... I simply can't enjoy my life, I feel like I died with her that day, the only difference being that she was buried and I wasn't...

I'm constantly ruminating and living in a decision that I have made in my early teenage years, it has harmed my body and its gonna affect my future drastically. I can't get over the guilt and I can't accept the fact of what I have done to myself. I am 25 now.

Nothing wrong with hoping for improvement, but I think that if you need to work on anything, its acceptance. I'm still working on that myself and often find myself longing for the 'good old days' (pre-injury... bike accident/head injury in my case) The good thing that comes to people like us, who live through a sudden decrease in quality of life, is when things get good again, even fleeting moments, we recognise and appreciate them. We know we took good times for granted in the past, but not anymore. I believe that perspective is a type of wisdom, and you could view that as a gift :) Keep hoping and looking forward to good times to come, as the will, but accept that life changes, just for some of us it happens so suddenly we have trouble transitioning between that starkly different old and new. Wishing you peace and serenity xx

it is a daily walk.. managing it daily. anxiety is a daily journey. your attitude about it is awesome, it's all about the process.. and the progress u have made is incredible. just take it 1 day at a time. God bless :)

This video reminded me of a book I read called "the power of now" by Eckhart Tolle. It deals with our attempt to escape the present by using any number of methods or mental tricks. It really helped me when I read it in 2006 but here I am 12 years later and I still feel like I struggle with this problem. Thanks for sharing and for shedding light on something that is too uncomfortable for most of us to talk about.

@ka92010rock

2 жыл бұрын

I thinks it’s just part of the human condition and how our brains function. My mom who is religious thinks is the enemy trying to get in our heads but in reality it’s a chemical imbalances in our brains that makes us feel this way. I know it’s cliche but eating well, physical activity mindfulness and therapy are beneficial for us when we are going through it.

Greate video man!

I'm so thankful you have the balls to put this out there, I don't have a single person left that I can trust or even talk to besides my mother and dog... and they're pretty much afraid of the sappy wreck I've become. All I have time is to think, since I graduated back in June of last year I've nothing to do but think since I'm physically ill as well as my three years of progressively worsening depersonalization. "Freaked out" about 17 times last year alone, broke down last month after my last friend I had told me she was tired of me weighing her down by being such a pitiful excuse for a mentally unstable loner. It hurt but I accepted that people feel that way sometimes, it sucks but I'm stuck in the same funk I've been in since 2011 but fuck it I won't give up, guess I'm really just trying to get healthier and better for the sole reason that I want to find a reason to live my life happily and not be a borderline catatonic mess 24/7 to everyone around me. Thanks again for being a genuine dude noknow, take care bud.

Thanks for sharing brother, God bless you. I would like to be your friend.

Im only 15 and ever since I moved last year my life has not been the same…..

Stay encouraged man. I know its difficult but you help a lot of people. Got my FIRST total test results yesterday.....174 ng/dl !! .... so I know your pain man. I'm also 26.

That's why 24 hour Walmarts were my "go to" place when I was "cycling"......now they close at 12 & my "stinking thinking" starts about 1-ish.... Omg the "how did this feel 'before' " is what I've been thinking about lately....I think being so loving and caring and compassionate and just loving "people for being people".... I think we were hurt too deeply in some way...... I'm not certain.... I'm trying to get back to the person I used to be as a child! I had decernment to avoid people who weren't going to be good or nice to me, but I could tell the people who were good, their Spirit/soul was good......I think your a empath! I think you've had your heart badly beaten up and stomped on! Someone once said something like "heart on your sleeve" ....I don't think so but....I think you may be like the rest of us...you "love" too much!....and that's okay! The world needs more of that!

@dylanslanza2982

5 жыл бұрын

Wtf

@hisword1296

5 жыл бұрын

SoCal Gal - I 100% feel/see/understand exactly what you're saying-!! 💖 Much Love 💖 Sent>

omg this is me. I do this every day and and i know how you feel and its driving me insane. I want to go back in time and I want so bad to go back to a better time when my loved ones were still here. I either live in the past or the future and memories hurt so bad. It makes me feel so weird now to even do anything.

this is me exactly mine was in 1996 and i have been stuck in this rut for 24 years, i cant ever see things going back to normal or the way they were, i just have kind of accepted this is the way my life will be, its sad

@danielhughes4649

4 жыл бұрын

This channel 'academy of ideas' might be worth your time to help you through your journey

That's true. You never go back to normal. I've been taking meds for depression since 2002...after having a nervous breakdown, caused by an ex

good explanation. maybe you can also equally remember the great times you had before and value those just as much :)

Noah.... I too had my SECOND breakdown 3 years ago, and I too have suffered from depression, anhedonia, derealization, depersonalization, anxiety etc. I think we`re in a similar boat with the fact that we`re over the worst of it....but left feeling a "shell" of our former selves. I literally cannot remember what "normal" feels like, and it kills me KNOWING that I`m missing out on life in this auto-pilot state.... I have never tried meds, but have a HYPNOTHERAPY session next week. I`m hoping that I can remember the feelings of being "normal" and hope that it will re-spark my brain, so to speak. I think our brain just needs to re-learn this......just like a smell or fragrance - once inhaled, it sparks the brain into recalling so many memories..... We`ll get through this!! Chin up

@dovidschwartzberg475

Жыл бұрын

How are you doing now?

Yep, totally get this!

I'm sure not one to give advice ,,,but for me thinking of the past is like a drug thats drags me out of reality of the present ...and i only seem to take the drug when i'm alone ,,,so its tough on people that spend a lot of time alone ..

Really alot like me when i think of the past good or bad it kind of bums me out. For the obvious reasons if it were good i miss it..if it were bad i hate that it happened. I really hate that it seems to me like most people Think of the past and it makes them happy

I can relate to this

Hey man these words helpedi i know now I’m not the only one who struggles with this

Ever sense I had my first derealization depersonalization episode nothing has ever been the same and I live with anxiety every day and think about how life felt before it and how that wasn’t even a though in my mind. Every night I sit and think about life before that and before I got all new friends before I changed school before I started doing bad things before I moved houses. I just sit and think about that for sometimes hours every night. And I’m so unhappy with how life has been for the past 3 years and just want to go back