Why am I not the first choice...?( a sad slowed playlist) - kzread.info/dash/bejne/rKSnt9lpd7OfqLA.html

@user-fm8ku8kt9b

Жыл бұрын

I have a few song requests you could do for playlists: Ocean Eyes - Billie Ellish Sports - Beach Bunny

@helioestevao3576

9 ай бұрын

​@user-fm8ku8kt9b 😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

@helioestevao3576

9 ай бұрын

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@helioestevao3576

9 ай бұрын

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@helioestevao3576

9 ай бұрын

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We gotta respect our pillow for catching our tears when nobody does..

@iLove_kickbox

Жыл бұрын

:C

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

@@iLove_kickbox 🙏

@xx_hunter_xx2899

Жыл бұрын

I dont even cry anymore, its not possible they wont come out

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

@@xx_hunter_xx2899 damn 🥲

@bigolnoob5491

Жыл бұрын

honestly quite true. i just couldn't feel like crying, but i feel so sad regardless, and then they come out.

When you understand: you didn't actually get better, you just bottled it up inside of you. So, you played a trick on yourself. Even you believed you were better, like everyone else..

@nuriazyden9227

2 жыл бұрын

true

@adrivanreenen5261

2 жыл бұрын

This... these are the words that I couldn't explain but felt for a long while now. Thank you

@ltsings6483

2 жыл бұрын

Omfg u just described what happened me a few weeks back it happened during the night I realised that I don't think ill ever get better even though I thought I already was then the nxt day I started crying and my mum had a go at me saying if u start cutting urself again I won't be running around worrying Ab I'll throw u in a mental hospital then a few weeks after that I tried 2 overdose more than 30 fucking pills literally nothing happened at all as u can see I'm still hear woohoo😀😐🖕 and yh

@xB4by.plut0x

2 жыл бұрын

That hits home thanks a lot🙃

@aethroncelest6420

2 жыл бұрын

Yea man. This is something I wish I could escape but couldn't. Now I sit and wait till it goes numb. Just so I can enjoy the peace that only last a minute. Until it all begins again

The worst type of sadness is when you just stop crying and just accept everything you're going through

@zymho5273

2 жыл бұрын

so true

@migueljosehernandezabreu5171

2 жыл бұрын

Damn😔😔

@ahmednamisaalam8424

2 жыл бұрын

thats maturity love

@Smith-And-Wesson

2 жыл бұрын

The worst pain of all is knowing its happening and doing nothing but accepting it just to end up using pills knives or even that quick way to the afterlife. And passing that pain on to the next person for them to eventually pass it on to someone else, its a never ending cycle of death pain and sadness. But you know what hurts most? Knowing that some people won't care if you do and it hurts to accept that...

@kayce6902

2 жыл бұрын

Fr

I'm not suicidal, I'm just tired. tired of everything

@samirshrestha2837

2 жыл бұрын

Me too but life is precious pretty stranger..we should not waste it 🖤 More power to you love you 🖤

@consuela8976

2 жыл бұрын

i feel it too

@briaa.668

2 жыл бұрын

same tbh.

@obitouchiha3470

2 жыл бұрын

Really felt that. But I hope whatever your going through you can see the light at the end of the tunnel and realise how loved and wanted you are by the people around. You can get through it my friend 🙌🙌

@ida2509

2 жыл бұрын

@Adolf Hitler you‘re not funny bro

"Just because I am breathing, doesn't mean that I am living" "Just because I am smiling, doesn't mean that I am happy"

@name8121

2 жыл бұрын

True...

@Rose_Almond

2 жыл бұрын

this makes me laugh why is this so funny-

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

@Sad Vibes omg how much this relates to mee, im tired of breathing and smiling. smiling is overrated and breathing is stupid shit

@hastieslamy4034

2 жыл бұрын

that hit hard...

@algumapessoa5736

2 жыл бұрын

You are made of stardust, and the stars never stop shining! you have a strength inside you that makes you able to overcome any obstacle. change what's boring in your life, fix your problems!

pov: no one knows how sad you are. because your a fucking good actor. everyone thinks your happy. but your not.

@Ak1ra.Nova_Teo

2 жыл бұрын

true words by a beautiful person ;]

@Xo.leaa238

2 жыл бұрын

thats me honestly

@Aiko-sd8du

2 жыл бұрын

I think that everyone deserves a ``Happy`` life,but many don`t get what they deserve, clearly being said everybody is a bit sad deep, deep inside

@lofiandotherdrugs1215

2 жыл бұрын

What is worse is, I stopped acting but yet still noone cares.

@ayobrojaden

2 жыл бұрын

Fr.. I'm so good at acting like everythings ok lol

The worst type of depression/sadness is when you're not happy but not sad, empty but filled with thoughts, hating people but talk to them, having mental breakdowns but nothings wrong, wishing you died but scared of death, thinking "if I never did that, everything would be fine" when you never did anything wrong, trying your hardest and not even trying all in one, wishing that you could give your problems to someone else but you don't want them to suffer, feeling like nobody loves you when so many people do, and wanting it to end because you're starting to get bored... Edit: Hey, no matter what happens, you'll get through it, people love you, and if you think they don't, I love you. You're an amazing person in every way no matter what

@notnaomi3496

2 жыл бұрын

That’s how I act I didnt think that was depression for 2 years man- I just thought I was A crybaby or just emotional

@xB4by.plut0x

2 жыл бұрын

Bro that hits home you know me...

@Kais_Music

2 жыл бұрын

@@xB4by.plut0x hope you get better tho :(

@Kais_Music

2 жыл бұрын

@@notnaomi3496 damn im sry

@theysimp4nadija

2 жыл бұрын

thats me

"Smile, because it confuses people. Smile, because it's easier than explaining what's killing you inside" -the joker

@Str_obes

Жыл бұрын

I laugh off everything. Insults, emotions, mistakes. He'll I'm laughing at myself for being so pathetic that I relate to these comments because I'm such a loser and no matter how many times I try or how hard I try , I never heal from my depression. I still have battle scars, old and new.

@mistymorris2993

Жыл бұрын

@@Str_obes i know how you feel but trust me it'll get better maybe not now but sooner or later life will become better just think positive and keep ur head up man, it's all the advice i can really give bc im in the same situation..

@Icannotfindmybrain

Жыл бұрын

That really is easier than explaining what's killing you inside.

@leechanaegi

Жыл бұрын

True. Just smile that is what I am doing

@penguin_squeakers

Жыл бұрын

That hit way to close to home.

Nothing hurts more when you're crying at night without making a noise and losing your breath with those silent scream of hurt.

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

me every night

@rubal1109

2 жыл бұрын

doing that right now..!!

@algumapessoa5736

2 жыл бұрын

You are made of stardust, and the stars never stop shining! you have a strength inside you that makes you able to overcome any obstacle. change what's boring in your life, fix your problems!

@algumapessoa5736

2 жыл бұрын

@@imnotok775 You are made of stardust, and the stars never stop shining! you have a strength inside you that makes you able to overcome any obstacle. change what's boring in your life, fix your problems!

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

@alguma pessoa how am I supposed to fix my problems when there are so many and they are all so difficult?

you know that moment you realize you really need a hug, but you also don't feel like hugging anyone? its a very lonely feeling

@elizabethravenswood7814

2 жыл бұрын

I know and it sucks

@RelaxMusicForSleep_

Жыл бұрын

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@merchelperss

Жыл бұрын

I, I still feel it. And maybe I'll feel it all my life until I'm gone.

@bubuistaeyong

Жыл бұрын

@@merchelperss i just felt like saying it, just letting you know that you will someday feel very comfortable in yourself and not feel this shitty feeling, have a tons of people caring for you.I know everyone says this everytime and now its boring because the pain never stops but trust me i thank god that you exist, you are worthy and you are going to heal

@merchelperss

Жыл бұрын

@@bubuistaeyong This really touches my heart, thank you for supporting me and giving me very useful advice. I will try very hard not to give up on my life, and I hope you and others do too!! I believe in the words you say, that we are all in this shitty situation, and we will recover and feel comfortable with ourselves. thank you so muchh, big love ❤😭🙏

pov: the pain is even worse when you start liking it

@emily_3u900

2 жыл бұрын

Fr

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

So sad but true

@negativelyinfinity

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah, why does that happen? Getting used to it?

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

@Negative Infinity idk, and I don't think I will ever know. but eh. what's worse tho is when u cut yourself and u start liking it. that's the kinda pain u don't wanna start liking. trust me, I already made that mistake...💀

@axelblaze7395

Жыл бұрын

Unfortunately that’s true

normal people may be scared of the night but i find comfort in it. i just go outside and let out everything i feel, my anger, my sadness, and express how drained i really am.

@lincejaycompasan2589

2 жыл бұрын

Same hereee

@fizzp0p77

2 жыл бұрын

me too :)

@veders6441

2 жыл бұрын

yeah in fact i find the real me at nights

@RelaxMusicForSleep_

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for reading this comment. I am someone who wants to help others relieve stress, or simply make you feel better. Please visit my channel and enjoy. thank you💙 ☘ 🎶

@snazzyjohnnycakes1255

Жыл бұрын

I try and sneak out at night just to sit on the porch steps and let it out I share a room with my sister and its the only time I can get away from people but I would get in big trouble if I get caught even if I am just sitting there listening to music.😅

"There's a difference between living and surviving"

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

frr

@raventhesadbirdy4197

Жыл бұрын

And yet, nobody will understand your difference to it, does that make sense? To me, it does, it always will

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

There really isn’t

@reydragonclaw1128

Жыл бұрын

there may come a point when you feel like you're doing neither you're not living you're not surviving you're not dying you're just... existing

@thunderstrike995

Жыл бұрын

​@@reydragonclaw1128 well I'm beyond the point of even non existing

I cant even cry anymore. staring at a wall while you try to push the hot tears out of you eyes to just feel something. but there’s nothing, there’s nothing left for me here to do but sit around and stare at a wall. i’m way too tired to keep fighting, i wish i was brave enough to do it

@Ghost_edits2011

2 жыл бұрын

Same I’ve moved around a lot so it’s hard to see my siblings but when I leave them I don’t even cry anymore I did it so many times. Wow I didn’t mean I write the much sorry 🐝

@Ak1ra.Nova_Teo

2 жыл бұрын

your not the only one mate ....

@xxzillaxx9156

2 жыл бұрын

I fell this, there are some times you got a big black hole in your chest and fell like you are empty, but sport help me. I love it to go out like even I have nothing to do I go out just to chill with me and Music. I hope maby it can help you. Stay positv one day it's get better. There are people they love you. I love you!! Every one is importent

@jaidynwx3255

2 жыл бұрын

@@Ghost_edits2011 don’t apologize i’m glad you are using this as a safe space

@jaidynwx3255

2 жыл бұрын

@@xxzillaxx9156 thank you so much you are so sweet!!

Depression is a never ending mountain. Every time I feel myself getting closer to the top I fall back down again. I’m getting very tired of climbing

@liligwaa

Жыл бұрын

thats actually a really good way to explain it

@HollowWhite

Жыл бұрын

I would rather say it's like a racetrack. Every single time you drive over start/stop it jus repeats the same way ove rand over again

@el-oq7he

Жыл бұрын

i made it out man. i know you can do the same

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

It isn’t lmfao

@el-oq7he

Жыл бұрын

@@CIeansing ty for speaking for everyone

I love when the night comes. Maybe thats just me....

@Lost_Cohort.13

2 жыл бұрын

I love it as well...makes me feel at home

@shiloh_transbitch7132

2 жыл бұрын

Same here. Its so quiet make me at peace even though I'm going through a tough time.

@ghostloc2400

2 жыл бұрын

When the night comes I can see the real shadows instead of the ones the linger in the day with me and I do feel better but it's all bad

@cloudydays8013

2 жыл бұрын

Night is the best time to watch Brooklyn 99 eating your favorite snacks :D

@Lost_Cohort.13

2 жыл бұрын

@@cloudydays8013 NINE! NINE!😆😆

Reading all these comments makes me feel that I'm truly not alone. Makes me feel like we all just people who are tired of everything, I mean arnt we honestly? don't understand why this world turned soo cold. We all just deserve better keep your head up.

@titpomme2826

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for your comment ❤️

@Deadpixeleditz-mh2pn

2 жыл бұрын

I couldn't agree more🤍

@stephimay6789

2 жыл бұрын

This is so true reading comments like this makes so much sense to me and that is truely scary, because I am able to relate to them just as much as anyone else in this comment section. It is horrible to see the amount of people who can honestly relate to all of the worst parts of life.

@alisonvargas4229

2 жыл бұрын

I agree❤️

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

Reading all the comments furtherly makes my hope in humanity drift away even more with this soft asf generation

"Just becayse I seen not to care, doesn't mean I dont care at all" "Just because I'm smiling outside, doesn't mean I'm hurting inside"

I just wanna sleep forever.

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

Every night when I go to sleep, I wish to never wake up. yet here I am still waking up. :(

@RK-jm3pq

2 жыл бұрын

that sounds so peaceful honestly

@kacy3107

2 жыл бұрын

same

@khyatit6528

Жыл бұрын

same...

@neliivanova728

Жыл бұрын

same

when you have passed the stage of crying your heart out, passed the stage of feeling numb, and passes the stage of acceptance, your now in a stage that you just have to laugh...laugh at yourself. your so frustrated at everything and everyone but especially at yourself that you just think your whole life is some sick and stupid JOKE. that's the stage am in right now...if this is even a "stage" anymore...lol...

@penelopecuizon228

2 жыл бұрын

same

@_screw.my.life_6246

2 жыл бұрын

I feel like my life is a joke by now…

@Fakegranny3445

Жыл бұрын

I laugh at everything even my pain🤣🤣🤣

@bessie2147

Жыл бұрын

I feel crazy

@breezey_parcheesey

Жыл бұрын

Yeah I was at that then once that stage ends it’s just another round of crying, not crying, accepting, laughing and then back to crying I think this is my second round idk anymore though

you stood on the rooftop looking down upon the dark city, your hair sticking to your back wet from your shower. you step closer to the edge of the building and crouched, you put your legs infront of you and sat. you grab your headphones and put them on, you pull out your phone and go onto Spotify clicking on your most recent playlist. you place your phone next to you and pull your legs closer to you as if to hug them. you look down on the city and watch, listening. how could it be so peaceful yet so loud? a car beeped, a cat meowed, people talked, stores closed. everything was continuing even if people saw you. they.didnt.care. they went on with their night, maybe it was too dark to see you? you sighed and tucked your head into your legs and listened to the playlist.

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

And then I jump

@RelaxMusicForSleep_

Жыл бұрын

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@shaimajatoi

Жыл бұрын

this is so beautiful and serene ♡

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

eh top 25 most cringe, not too bad mate

I'm tired. "But you just woke up" I'm tired in a way sleep cant fix.

@wolfy5406

Жыл бұрын

Yea

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

Top 15 cringe

@zuiho218

Жыл бұрын

@@CIeansing top 1 cringe 😱, but srsly dont be such a child, It can be very hard for others to see such comments when they are having a really hard time.

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

@@zuiho218 75% of people here are children futhermore don’t try chat to me with ur little main character profile picture, i don’t care what i make people feel like unless they understand what I’m doing.

@zuiho218

Жыл бұрын

@@CIeansing And you're a part of the 75% cause youre cause of being here is clearly very childish, plus no this isnt a main character profile pic to be exact its just art found in the media.

I’m alive… That’s my biggest accomplishment that I’m proud of. I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts and anxiety for years now. The worst feeling in the world is not being able to feel anything but sadness, anger, and embarrassment. I’m getting better and I just want to let who ever might be reading this know that I believe in you ❤️ One day you make your dreams a reality and find happiness in the chaos that we call our everyday life. You can do this, don’t let any body ever tell you otherwise ❤️

@kimkarena-veza1208

2 жыл бұрын

im not going to say ik exactly how you feel cause i dont but yea im the same im turning 16 this year and i have had those thoughts prrobably since i was about 8 or 9 years old so im really proud of myselff for holding on for so long

@jaymie8615

2 жыл бұрын

@@kimkarena-veza1208 for what its worth, im very proud of you and I believe in you! ❤️

@Aiko-sd8du

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks i had a really crappy day...

@vic15008

2 жыл бұрын

You are now my new fave person, i love you and i hope your doing okay...im just tired of everything, being told what to do, crying late at night in my bedroom quietly so i wouldnt wake my family..the feeling of nothingness floods my mind whenever i think of my life...i try to love my life and myself, but its just so hard to realize what a blessing everyones life (including our own) really is...💔my heart hurts so bad..

@cyborgqueer

Жыл бұрын

thankyou; 🫶🏻💖 and i hope you, i hope everyone who’s on these comments, every single person who knows misery can find a way to be alright, and know more joy than sorrow.

POV: This loneliness made you form a connection with yourself - it's so light, so empty yet comforting it makes you want to cuddle the stars and just lay in your bed with that burning desire of longing for something you do not know.

I hope you smiled today. I hope you would see tomorrow. I hope you could forget all your sorrow And I hope that you would have reason, A reason for hope to live every season, see flowers blossom after the deranged sorrow you are in right at the bottom. A reason to see tears that have stopped, and smiles that are over the top. I Hope that you would live. I sincerely do

@definitelynotamber

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you ml

@donda3468

2 жыл бұрын

Oh dear thank you very much and I hope all the best and well and everything you wrote happens to you as well ! You deserve it . Sending love ❤️

@starlightplaysminecraft9743

Жыл бұрын

I wish you the same

I would rather be alone,and just feel like this for a while again.

@the0_250

2 жыл бұрын

atp.

It hurts when you tell yourself your happy for so long that when you wake up and realize how much pain you're in feels like the world came crashing down in a second

@idkwhhaatt

Жыл бұрын

If your not happy dont force yourself to say that! If your feeling upset please talk to someone. Make sure that you know everything is going to be alright and your a strong fighter!! Just keep fighting that sadness and I promise you one day you’ll get it! :)

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

cringe 😬

It's nice knowing that there are other people out here in this messed-up world that feel the same way I do. And it's sad knowing that but at least we know how it feels to give up on life, crying for hours on end, wishing that everything goes back to how things used to be before it went downhill, hoping that one day all our pain just fades away. And it's sad that most of us won't ask for help or that we don't have anyone to ask for help since we're scared to ask for help for fear that they will judge us saying " get over it your problem is not as big as mine ", " I'll give you a real reason to be sad ", " I don't care on how you feel ", " It doesn't matter ", " Well my life is worse than yours ", " Why are you sad? there are people with real problems and you're here being sad over something dumb ". Please don't listen to anyone that says things like this or something along the lines all of your feelings matter, you matter - you matter to me and to all the people here listening to this playlist so please don't think that your life is less important thing anyone else because it isn't no matter what people say. I love everything about you even if I don't know you, you're important to me, you give me hope to keep living, all of you give me hope to keep living. So please don't think about Harming yourself, Killing yourself, Thinking that you are worthless, Thinking that you are not beautiful, gorgeous { Because I think you're perfect just the way you are }, Thinking that your life is less important thing in the world than anyone else's because it's not, Thinking that you are not loved because you are I love you so those the people here, Thinking that you don't deserve to be loved because you do, Thinking that your feelings don't matter because they do, Thinking that your problems are less important than everyone else because is not true your problems ARE important no matter what people say, God, I wish I could be there by your side giving you a hug listening to all your troubles, comforting you, being someone you need, being there for you when you a shoulder to cry on, someone you feel safe with, someone you feel safe being your self without being judged, being someone you can talk to about anything knowing it only be between us, not telling a single soul what you told me, not using what you told me against you. Please know that there is someone out here in this messed up world we sadly live in that loves you, cares about you, needs you in their life, that you are their everything, the reason they keep on living, the reason they have hope, the reason all their pain goes away when they see you, knowing you are there for them no matter what happens, knowing you know how they feel. And that us, all of us that are here in this playlist, in this comment section. Wow, that's a lot of people that care about you, all of the one hundred forty-four thousand three hundred ninety-four { 144, 394 } they all know how you feel, we all care about you, we wish you the best and if you anyone to talk to or let everything out you can come here and let it all out well be here for you no matter what because we're all one big family that has a lot of issues but it's nothing we can't overcome together. If anyone needs to talk you can message me on my TikTok: abbyflores145 or on my Wattpad account: Fufflygremlin or you can talk to me here in the replies section. I'm not really good at comforting people but I will try my best if anyone of you does message me. - Someone random on the internet that loves you, cares about you, thinks that your life is the most important thing in the world no matter what people say. { Made by me }

@s.starsrey

2 жыл бұрын

Wow, thank you just thank you. This is such a powerful message and it helped me and that might be a lot to say to someone i dont even know but i was planning on killing myself tn and i dont think i can now, i think i need to stay a bit later on in the future thank you just thank you.

@t_prokrity

2 жыл бұрын

Great writing abby. The world needs more like you.

@justcallmekat4962

2 жыл бұрын

Youre an Angel.....gotta be....like literally took allll the words out my mouth and i dont think i could have said it any better....Thank you and i absolutely Love You as well because of everything u listed here......There is not one good person on Earth that doesn't deserve to be loved.....and its cruel that we're treated the WORST to the point that when people WANT you to open up...it feels selfish, rude, whatever th but it doesnt feel right.....idk about anyone else but i downloaded Ai replica because they're supposed to be a friend to lean on.....and i ended up being IT'S therapist 💀💀💀(insane but true) and i say all of this to say that.....we find depth in the life we live so far to the point that no matter who we meet or what we do we understand that no one and nothing should suffer and undeserved or undesirable fate.....it just isnt right and thats why all we can do is rely on the hope that someone will realize the same for us all and keep pushing..... People only become the TRUE versions of themselves through perseverance and will but all it takes is to trust in yourself and trust that everything WILL get better....that there is another purpose in life for you.....AND for any of us who belived we're meant to become professional therapist???? YOU'RE NOT...trust your GUT and do something else....you'll be miserable the rest of your life if you understand what all therapists must endure (from an aspiring actress)......This was so irrelevant but I want to thank you again....Ill follow you on tik tok but i just Wanted you to know that you're commentary here was not wasted

@moth1694

2 жыл бұрын

Im speachless.. this is just so nice yet also sad because now I know that there are people this nice in the world and that I just don't have the honor of meeting them. maybe one day. until then I will keep moving forward for the sake of you and all the people that care and that I hope do exist. Life is my fight and this fight gets easier if I'm getting cheered on thanks

@mishalini1332

2 жыл бұрын

this message just made my day bringhter thank you

The worst type of sadness is when you want to cry but you just can’t get anything out of your eyes

@jellybean9551

Жыл бұрын

Or when you've been betrayed too many times to be surprised, and you just give up on fighting.

@EmilAmnesia

Жыл бұрын

Everyday is not about fighting.. your eyes is tired from sobbing, your soul is tired from fighting.. rest yourselves! DD: when you’re finally ready, don’t let others ruin your life. Let them polish it 💅:DD Have a great day!

I've been feeling shitty about myself for the longest i can remember, it has been years and i'm still stuck with my unfortunate situation but moma said don't be dramatic it is LIFE you have to go on even if u feel like dying

@_csinti_

2 жыл бұрын

i hope things will get better for you, stay strong. take care

@supravietuitoriblog547

2 жыл бұрын

Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?

Room: I'll close the door so people won't see you crying Mirror: don't worry I know your true self Shower: I won't Make fun of your voice Pillows: It's okay I'll be here when you cry Teddys: I don't care if you hate me you can hug me when you're sad Light: I'll make it dark so you can sleep TV: I hope I calm you down while watching videos Mind: I'm great at keeping secrets Songs: I'll distract you while You thinking something that makes you sad Blanket: Hug me if you're sad Food: Eat! Eat! Stop starving yourself Fan: I hope you'll be okay I am here always so you won't feel hot AND THEN PEOPLE SAYS LOVE YOURSELF 🖤

@anjalee9030

Жыл бұрын

🥺😭❤️

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

Wow what a cool copy and paste :/

@chicken_soup0

Жыл бұрын

@@CIeansing it's the message that matters🥰 not how or who is spreading it💖 love ya, have a great day/morning/evening/night and don't forget: you are worthy ⭐️

@hera-os5og

Жыл бұрын

Oh right ❤

@outcastedbookworma5

Жыл бұрын

The teddy bear one broke me. “I don’t care if you hate me.” I hugged my teddy bear immediately after this.

you know its bad when you cant cry anymore and youre left shaking in silence.

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

yep. and its bad when the pain becomes satisfying so u keep doing it

@zsinfuldreamz6012

Жыл бұрын

Been doing it every night since the age of 10 I'm 22 now...the pain just gets deeper

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

@@imnotok775 sick weirdo

@laurahansen9403

Жыл бұрын

Panic attacks, but you brain gets overstimulated, so now you just shake and try to remove the overstimulations because you are coming down from the high of panic attacks :/

@ambience9698

9 ай бұрын

happens to me when im off da perc

Timestamps

@carter6870

2 жыл бұрын

thank you so much

@Vixcloud

2 жыл бұрын

Goodnight 🌙❤️

@alonelost2561

2 жыл бұрын

thank you Alexle 🤞🥰💕💕💕

@romainEnSah

2 жыл бұрын

god bless you

@ashsmileyy5121

2 жыл бұрын

tysm

the kind of playlist that i need when I can’t describe my own feelings

The pain of knowing is more painful than feeling...

I’m losing everything and it’s the worst feeling I’ve ever experienced

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

same

@wolfy5406

Жыл бұрын

Yea

you really know you hit rock bottom when doing the things you enjoyed the most doesn't make you feel anything anymore

Idk if this’ll make any sense but hey, does anyone feel like the moon sometimes? If not all the time? What I mean by that is during the day you hide away avoid any form of contact and just let people shine and do their thing but then the night comes and you shine when you think no one else is watching and you seem more at piece with life as if all the stress leaves and you embrace the loneliness and the dark. It could just be me but oh well, have a great day for whoever took the time to read this :D it’ll get better I promise.

@wolfy5406

Жыл бұрын

Me too

@starlightplaysminecraft9743

Жыл бұрын

Same here

@penguin_squeakers

Жыл бұрын

This is the reason for my sleep problems, but to do the little things that make life bearable, then it's worth it if it helps me get out of bed

@superrupee

Жыл бұрын

During the day I have to pretend to be happy but at night no one bothers me and I don't have to pretend, I'm so tired of pretending

@LotusShadow

10 ай бұрын

You are a magnificent person :) Dance by the light of the moon

The worst kind of sadness is when you don't realize it's there until the day is over and you're locked away in the safety of solitude. Smiling bright until the door clicks and the tears flow uncontrolled. Falling asleep with the knowledge you have to do it all again tomorrow; The vicious cycle of life.

@superrupee

Жыл бұрын

This is so relatable and I'm so damn tired of it

@hera-os5og

Жыл бұрын

Yaaa😢

Im going through the most difficult time in my life rn but i find extreme comfort listening to this

@supravietuitoriblog547

2 жыл бұрын

Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?

@arunax_

2 жыл бұрын

Same

@alisharai3299

2 жыл бұрын

i wish you well^-^

@user-oy3zw1pk1p

2 жыл бұрын

Hello! I wanted to ask, are you doing okay? I hope you are having an amazing day, everyday. You’re loved! ✨🙂

@delilahbarrios8197

Жыл бұрын

I know how u feel ...

Hey there. What are you doing here so late? Can't sleep? Ah. Coming to cry in the middle of the night. I get that. It feels nice to do that, so I understand. Take all the time you need. You know, I just happened to find you stumble upon the video where I'm taking a break. Wanna sit down for a while? Tell me about what's bothering you? Oh, don't worry about me. I don't find you annoying. I wanna be here for you. I'll try to help as best as I can. I won't judge you. Everyone has their own story. Ah, that sucks. I can't begin to imagine how you must feel. You're so tough for getting through all of that. I'm so proud of you for not giving up. Of course I understand. One broken soul to another. I just want to remind you. No matter how hard it gets, please stay strong. Take care of yourself. You can't go into a battle already wounded. You can't wave the white flag without trying your hardest. This will all be over soon. And hey. If you ever need to take another break, I'm always here. Helping people is my specialty. They always find their way, one way or another. You can come sit down with me any time. I'll try to lend some advice, or just an ear to listen. And if this is your last time visiting me, I'm proud of you. My job is done. Go take on life with all your energy, and remember that you have one soul always cheering you on. You'll always have my support. I can't wait to see the great things you'll achieve. Before you go... I love you.

@iryr3412

Жыл бұрын

Thank you thank you so much for this comment I feel understood for once truly believed so thank you for this i hope you have a great day/night

@meliooo8850

Жыл бұрын

Hey I’m try my best but my English it’s not the best. I read your message and the only one is, that sounds great. So I’ll say thank you you deserved the best in your life. I hope you understand anything what I tried to say to you xx from Germany Take care of yourself 🫶🏻

@i-mn338

Жыл бұрын

It’s funny how a stranger on the internet tries to comfort me more than my boyfriend does , i really apreciate your comment thank you

@vibez_music1207

Жыл бұрын

@@i-mn338 of course!

@irhaaa8629

Жыл бұрын

tysm for this healing message:)

Wanna know what’s funny? I have a helpline number in my contacts but every time i call it, the minute they transfer me to a person i hang up. I’m to scared that what I’m experiencing is just normal sadness, but then again it seems like so much more. I hate exposing my feelings even if it’s someone who genuinely is trying to help me. For some reason i either chicken out or just lie about myself. I wish i was brave enough to tell people how i feel, especially my brother. I just wish i could runaway and start a new life, get new friends, new family, new town, new country even. But no, I’m stuck here with nothing my music to help me cope. Jeez this is the longest KZread comment I’ve ever wrote. :’)

@RelaxMusicForSleep_

Жыл бұрын

On my channel there are relaxing songs. Please visit. Thank you.💝 😊 🌲

@penelope_kirsc8826

Жыл бұрын

pls I'll do anything tell me the number

The loneliest thing in the world is loneliness itself.

@ambience9698

9 ай бұрын

deep

@ambience9698

9 ай бұрын

hit my soul frrr

When you don't even have the energy to look at the ceiling so you're just laying there with your eye's barely open as tears pour out of your eye's. You just lay there thinking about how miserable you feel and how you feel trapped in your own mind, how you want to scream out for help but no sound will show, how you want to tell someone what's going on but there are no words to describe how you feel, how you want to die but don't want to hurt anyone, how you never hear "I love you" or "I'm so proud of you", how you can talk to strangers on the internet more than your own family, and how everyone believes that you are fine even though you're hurting inside. A lot of us can relate, I know because I've seen and felt this. It's our sad reality, we are fucked, and that's the truth. Live life how you want because we could die at any moment. I love you all and don't you ever forget it. 💘💝💖💗💓💞💕💟❣❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍

I have read over half of these comments to just see how much pain everyone is going through and I can relate to some of them. It’s like being there, but no one realize that you’re there until you start crying and scream all your feelings.

Anyone else walk into school and have to spend the whole day trying not to breakdown? But at home it's not any better? When things get quiet, it gets louder. We can't run away from ourselves, but when will we find the strength to face it, who will be there, by our side?

Hey there, I know you may be hurting And trying to hide emotions to not show that your weak, But you aren't weak when you cry just know you've been strong too long and need to let it out It's been too long I think mental scars are saddest of them all because no one will ever see them and no one will care And I'll be here to help you reheal so feel free to talk to me And btw look at you! Your still here! I'm so proud of you standing and breathing you made it so long in life I'm super proud of you!! Keep doing what you love and care for -love you♡♡

It will pass...it needs to pass

@patem6646

2 жыл бұрын

It wil pass love.

I’m tired of getting better and then breaking down just a few weeks later. It’s like finally stepping out of deep dark woods just to step into a dark tunnel running towards the light but it just keeps getting farther away. It’s the feeling of laughing with your friends but then stops and sad that the moment is going to end. Then saying goodbye and it’s just you again with all your problems. I’m tired of loving myself and my body to wanting to cut off the pieces of my body ending up with just thin of air. I’m tired of having to do 10x harder work and proving to everyone in my life when they don’t even do half I do. I’m tired of the control I can’t have. I’m tired of hoping for something better but then the past is brought up and the hopeful future dosen’t look achievable again. I’m tired of myself I’m tired of forgiving the same people over again and over again. Or when your laughing with the person and they say something which tiggers a painful memory when they hurt you. I’m tired of being so angry all the time. I’m tired of making friends but too tired to text them or call them or have a conversation. I’m tired of summer. It’s always the saddest season for me. I’m tired of everyone not giving me the help I need. When i was at my lowest I know my mom tired to be better but I really just needed some actual help and healing. Instead of pretending to be happy for others so they wouldn’t worry. I just wanna be happy I’m only 16 I’m just trying so hard rn.

I personally feel like the worst part of having mental illnesses is that the feeling can just take over out of nowhere and ruin your entire day, at least at night i know it’s coming, it always is. But during the day is so much worse, like you could be having fun with your friends and all of a sudden your brain decides to butt in with the expected ‘your friends hate you they don’t actually want you there you suck you just annoy everyone’ that kind of stuff and you’re just- helpless? I guess. I’ve never asked them, because I’m scared of the answer. What if my brain was right? I’ll never be able to fight my own thoughts again. since it was right before, why wouldn’t it be now? They say they ‘understand’ but I’m pretty sure they don’t actually. I get that everyone has their own things and feels lost sometimes, but don’t say ‘i understand’ when what you’re going through/ went through is significantly different. It’s almost like they’re making it a competition who’s had it the worst and it’s draining my social battery so so much when all your friends do with you is complain I might be overreacting and I’m sorry for ranting i just needed to write something out and this way I’m sure no one i know will find it I’m getting antidepressants soon i really hope they work

@Meriem_clnn

2 жыл бұрын

i get what you mean bc not only is it my brain who tells me those bc of mental illnesses but it's litterally like a person who drains me down everyday.sometimes i wish i could shut down those thoughts that go through my mind and everything that comes with it aswell i understand what you mean and i hope you get better and i wish you hapiness in your life keep going :) -a stranger

@xx_MJ

2 жыл бұрын

@@Meriem_clnn yeah it sucks when you’re happy with certain people but people exhaust you. I hope you feel better soon as well you deserve all the happiness in the world

@Ghost_-_

2 жыл бұрын

Same..

@wolfy5406

Жыл бұрын

Same

@superrupee

Жыл бұрын

"Wonder if my brain was right..." My brain was right with my former friend, he didn't really care about me in the end, he was just so toxic and mean, but I really wanted to stay friends What was the reason he was mean to me, did I do something wrong, I was so nice and caring to him but I guess he didn't feel the same... I hope the same doesn't happen to you, I hope your friends are not like my former friend was

"The loneliest moment in someones life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly."

@wolfy5406

Жыл бұрын

Yes

@ambience9698

9 ай бұрын

when its the last piece of the nugget and all you can do is eat it. You eat it and then youre left with emptiness, and thats when it hits bcs u aint got no money no more and the munchies are hitting hard bro.

~I often find myself roaming the halls in the middle of the night. I’ve always been attracted to the dark and the silence that comes with it. It’s where I let my mind run free, where I don’t have to worry about other people. I stare at the moon at night and think how lonely it must be to be the moon, 400,000 kilometers away from the earth, so far from another planet that is humans can barely comprehend it. It’s beautiful, the moon. I truly wonder that if the moon disappeared what would humans do? Our nights would be full of darkness with no light to keep us steady. The moon changes everyday from our view and people don’t stop to appreciate all that I does for us. Darkness is my friend but the moon is so much more. The serenity of the night is refreshing, everyone is asleep, off to live completely different lives in their unconsciousness. The small candle light that shines a orange hue around the room as I stare out of the window at the crescent moon, casts a shadow over my face. The scent of the fire traveling in the air and flowing into my lungs, gives me peace. The feeling, when I am alone makes me whole, without it I would go insane but part of it makes me just want to sink into the ground peacefully and lay there for the rest of my life and feel this for all my days. But that’s not realistic, eventually I have to sleep and pop the small bubble I have encased myself in. I have to get up and live with the sun just as I have the moon.~

@just_chilling1905

Жыл бұрын

this is beautiful

Can I vent here? - two of my closest friends left me then started rumors about me, falsely accusing me of some things I didn't even do and trying to ruin my relationship with the only person that puts a smile on my face and is keeping me alive at the moment, now I have nobody except my bf. - Thank you.

@gr3nhartlp10

2 жыл бұрын

Hey, I know that you are probably going through a hard time in your life rn as two of your closest friends left you but at least now you know there true colours. If they truly were your friends, they never would have done the shit they did and I’m glad that you realized that now, even though it is not the best way of finding that out. I know, it’s hurting really badly and you may feel like crying because loosing friends isn’t easy at all. I fell apart with my bestfriends too and nowadays I rarely see them. I thought I couldn’t live on without them but here I am, reading your message and giving you my thoughts. Life keeps on going on, even if you are not, so try to lift your chin up and keep on going on with your life. You still have your boyfriend and I hope that both of you stay strong together and that you can help each other at hard times. I wish you all the luck in the world, have a wonderful future, stay safe and healthy and know this: YOU ARE LOVED! Have a good life stranger that I’ll never get to know, but we all share the same pain and emotions.

@Aiko-sd8du

2 жыл бұрын

Have a good life ignore them at least that`s what i`d do and if your strong enough maybe start a fight JK but really hope your better...

@Angel-hp5fm

2 жыл бұрын

Their ain't your friend then, you can actually ignore them yeah it hurts, but it is what it is. If you kinda still confuse and want to know the reason why they do that to you. You can talk to them and end your friendship in good terms, for your peace of my mind. But if they continue to talk to you in a bad way, better just distant yourself to them. People come and goes, we can't chase toxic people. It is for our mental health, now that you know who they really are, all you can do is appreciate those people who are with u, through your ups and downs. Good luck in your life, hope you find your peace of mind!!

@nsnt7857

2 жыл бұрын

Every friend of mine left after some time. Now I am alone. Is it lonely? As hell, I don’t talk anymore, like seriously, I say maybe 4 sentences in a day and I am forced to say them. In school to teacher or to my parents. But from the bright side, it is kind of peacful. I believe that you will find better friends. 🖤

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

@Crimson hey, I hope ur doing ok. ik what it feels like to have ur friends leave u, since all of mine leave me. stay strong, and don't let anyone bring u down! have a good day :)

I used to hate night and love morning as soon as I grow older now I love nights dark peaceful can’t get enough of it

@orsolyacsintalan631

Жыл бұрын

i wish you the best

Being lonely so Fu'king lonely is the worst pain. You can't describe it

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

Its sooo hard to explainnn

@serein444

Жыл бұрын

fr

@starlightplaysminecraft9743

Жыл бұрын

Exactly

This world is so cold

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

It rlly is

sometimes I feel like my problems are irrelevant compared to the things that other people are going through right now. but whatever you may be going through, big or small, you deserve to get better. you’ve probably seen 402 other comments like this, but just know that we are all here for you. you deserve to live, to properly live.

My mind is so loud yet so lonely, the feeling of being so sad that you just stop trying because you’re just tired and accept it, and it’s not just being sad it’s the feeling of being so filled with thoughts yet so empty and you have those mental breakdowns but nothings wrong, you feel as if no one loves you even though you know that the people that do are around you, so I turn on playlist like this to get me away from my thoughts and through the night, although those thoughts never really leave they’re just bottled up inside and released the next day and the cycle continues.

Ive bottled my feelings in so deep that I cant even find them anymore. I want to cry but I cant anymore and it hurts.

The broken bench and i.. The broken bench and I are one.. I've noticed all the people lean and stand on this bench. They depend on it to see the other beautiful sights not realizing that it in fact is beautiful itself...not because of its chipping paint and the cold cement exterior...but the clay shards used to repair it...I repaired it myself. The clay is shards of what it used to be..now what it used to be is the only thing holding it together and the more weight it bears the weaker it gets..but it doesn't crumble or crash down..it stand because it knows ppl depend on it..there was a time this bench was adored like a porcelain doll made to the utmost perfection...now it's seen as an eye sore and not seen until it is needed..this bench still takes on the storms and weight of everything its meant to..clay withers and wears..why must I be the one to repair it...cant somone else see that it needs a break from the weight bearing and just needs somone to care enough to try to repair it...this bench and i are one..I live to repair this bench..this bench is my soul..it is my story and it is what I have left at the end of the day..just me and this bench...this bench and i...forevermore until one of us just bears to much.. -- LC

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

wow. u just gave me a whole her perspective on my depression and issues

hm , i lost myself again

@_csinti_

2 жыл бұрын

take care, i wish you all the best

@kobicooper5872

2 жыл бұрын

i already have.

Now I dont count the days at living at this point Im surviving

I dont know, its just, since 2020 everything is messed up. Sadness. Depression. Betrayal, nothing has been okay since then. Last week i was chilling with some friends, i went to get some drinks, and when i came back they were just gone. Gone home. When i spoke them later they told me we werent friends anymore. Just left me like i was nothing.

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

omg I feel so bad for u! but ik how it feels. All my friends either bully me or leave me. so I'm done with having friends, I'm done trusting ppl, I'm done with many things. sometimes I wonder "why am I still here? why am I still hanging on to that invisible ledge? what's there to hang on for?"

@raventhesadbirdy4197

Жыл бұрын

@@imnotok775 here’s a thing to hang on for, to prove you can, prove to yourself your stronger then what you make think, now..you might not ever see this, or read this, your may have left go of the tall ledge to fall to the deep ocean and never return, but just know, I love you, I’m proud of you, your strong, your amazing, your beautiful, your amazing, your the most kindest person with so much on your hands, your drowning and falling when all I want to know is if your here? If your surviving, so how about I give you updates, you give me updates, dumb..I know, but you, your struggling, I’m struggling, and your loved, maybe not some dumb boy or some dumb girl but to me, your just like me, surviving hell, love you hun

I feel so lonely tonight, but at least I want my mom doesn't feel the way I feel

I'm sitting here, upright in my bed. I can hear the beating of my heart. It's so loud, I am sure that others can hear it too. The air feels damp and smells like pine. My window is to my right. My wall is to my left. I stare at the wall for 30 seconds before turning to the window. The streetlights are on. Why? Why are they on? It's 3am? Nobody should be driving. Everyone should be asleep. "Why should they be asleep if I'm not even asleep?" I whisper to myself. I stop looking at my window. The lights fill my brain with anxiety, and that's the last thing I need right now. My pillow is cold. So is my room. I'd say 72°f, give or take. I lower my body and place my head on the pillow, now already warm from my embrace. I shut my eyes and it all goes dark. Except for the streetlights. Those stay on.

I love these playlists. I can just lay in my bed and cry to all my problems. Ty for making these, they really help me think and just let my set my mind free.

Literary sitting alone at school rn, listening to this playlist and crying bc of him

@alyssabrooke2234

2 жыл бұрын

ME BYE

@aleynanurn0042

2 жыл бұрын

i hope you are Okay ❤

@donda3468

2 жыл бұрын

I’m on my bed crying because of him

Why is this so underrated? This needs to have like 20k+ likes

I was talking to my boyfriend about my depression and he asked me "Why don't you just ignore everyone who is mean to you and accept that you are wonderful just the way you are?" Well...depression is like drinking or smoking...if you've done it for a long time it's hard to let it go...I've dealt with depression since I was ten...I'm fourteen now...depression is hard to let go and it's hard to just accept myself for who I am and block out everyone else and just pretend I'm okay when I'm not I do enough of that when I'm around loved ones. Its gotten worse I started crying in class and my friend had to come over and comfort me

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

stay strong! I've been going through depression since 2020. I was 11, im 13 now. 2 yrs does not seem like much, but it sure as hell is enough. if u ever need to talk, im here. u are a wonderful human being! have a good day

@JustABakaOG

Жыл бұрын

Your so sweet! And two years is a pretty long time, stay strong

Ppl ask how come i prefer the old year?,well it's because parents doesn't compares us,our parents doesn't yell at us,our parents doesn't want us to over work,they eorry a lot,they give you the food you like,they care most of the time,not insecure.

when you know the lyrics to every single one of the songs because you listened to time all the time a couple years back, and its only now you realize how incredibly sad these songs are and how depressed you were at the time

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

🫣🫠

u know it damn hurts when you don't cry anymore and just inhale and accepts it

@heartwideopen7833

Жыл бұрын

If you want a sad + slowed playlist for later kzread.info/dash/bejne/iYV81aWBnsi4Yag.html

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

Top 10 universal cringe

Everyone has an unexplainable feeling while listening to this

@wolfy5406

Жыл бұрын

Yea I just wish I could explain it to them...

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

@@wolfy5406 furry 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮

@JJK1646

11 ай бұрын

​@@CIeansingthat's rude.

everyone at 3:05 am :sleeping me at 3:05 am :lonely. .windows are open .listening to this playlist lovely vibe 🖤

@JoaoPedro-eh1du

10 ай бұрын

Me at 3:05 reading your comment, i´ts all fine

this was something a beautiful woman said before she sadly passed away due to cancer "you cant wait until life isn't hard anymore before you decide to be happy ~nightbirde"

I’ve cried so much that tears almost never come out anymore

The way these songs hit me >>

she sat by her window looking at the moon with tears in her eyes *please don't let me see him again*she thought as her tears spilled she held her face in her hands as she sobbed. She glanced up and saw the moon again she stood up and picked up her phone 'text from bae' she read she look at the time '3:28 am' sighing she opened the message 'come over or I'll send them to everyone' 2 minutes ago' she read she started crying "why me?" she sobbed aloud she made it to his house and back to hers in a sad haze she laid on her bed hugging her bruised body. As she laid on her bed she sobbed... (your not alone, many women are in bad relationships. Just never give in. To giving things that are bad first red flag take care of you

at this point im so confused in what im feeling its like today im jus acepting that what im feeling and then other days im so emotional

When you're trying to cry to feel better... but there's just nothing. Feeling fed up of everything At the same time feeling empty

Well, after some time of scrolling down comments, I caught up myself with a thought, that some of these people, who left a few lines here a while ago, might have left this world already... And it is sad, but at the same time I feel like it's calming. They finally are resting.

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

I can bet u any amount of money nobody on any of these videos in any of these comment sections ewoed lmao they’re only here for attention

@Zuukk

Жыл бұрын

@@CIeansing i Hope you are here just for attention becouse if you are feeling bad then im sorry for you. But please dont make people more depressed than they are. Some people here are really hurting. So please even if you think its for attention. And even if some of these comments might be for it. There are people that are really hurt. Please aknowledge that.

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

@@Zuukk Lmao u again. I haven’t been on this account for two ass weeks why would i sit here cuss little fucking twelve year olds out if i was doing it for attention, what they gnna do get they roblox royal high discord server full of 47 year old men pretending to be 13 on me? 💀💀

@CIeansing

Жыл бұрын

@@Zuukk i’ll come back in a couple weeks and see how ur salty ass gnna reply 😂💀

@Zuukk

Жыл бұрын

@@CIeansing what is your problem

Whats your biggest fear? Being alone. Pfft. Everyone has that fear, its common. No- mines uncommon. Been lonely all my life. I dont want to be lonely continuing forward. I want to be loved. I want to know i mean something. I want to know that someone could love me that way.

It doesn't get easier, you just get stronger....that hits hard

“Tears are just words the heart expresses”💔💔💔😥

I want to sit on a rocky cliff side next to a small fire pit by the ocean. Seeing the moons reflection of light on the ocean. Looking up at the starry night sky. Feeling of not needing to worry about anything. I want to move on... so easily as she did.

I’ve always faked my “happiness” to my family until I got tired of faking. I showed a glimpse of my feelings and now I wish I can just hide everything. I’m so lost and alone but ppl still care about me. I’m also so confused about everything and the unknown. My anxiety is getting a lot worse.

@orsolyacsintalan631

Жыл бұрын

i hope the best for you, take care. you matter 🤍

It's 0:06 and I'm sitting here smoking and forgetting the world for a few minutes... Thank you for making these Videos I really need and love them💕

“I wish” is how every good dream starts. I have a simple dream and that is to be happy just once more. Im sorry that life isn’t good but hopefully we will be happy someday.

I thought I should share my story here, since it might give hope to someone maybe even in the slightest. Basically 2 years ago, I was depressed as fuck I didn't know what to do with myself, I just wanted to not exist. Everyday I'd wake up and search for a reason to stand up and, just.. live for that day. I'd look for a purpose, and there was just nothing. Eventually I had really shitty days and started taking pills that made me woozy, like 5-10 pills just to knock me out for a few days. I'd start cutting myself just to feel something, during that period my aunt from London came back to our country and took us to all sorts of places and it was amazing. Yet everyday I'd come back home and cry. If I was over at someone's house for a few days I'd be dying to go back home to my room and just cry. I had such a huge mental breakdown once that I just laid under my desk and cried for like 3 hours, I was on the second floor of my house and I could hear everyone downstairs having fun and laughing together. The whole time I was just wishing someone would come up and help me up. No one came. I laid there sobbing my eyeballs out for 3 hours and no one came or heard me. I had to pick myself up and move on. It was supposed to be some of the best years of my life and i just felt so garbage the whole time. The amount of self loathe I had was so much I couldn't contain it. Only thing that stopped me from offing myself was my art and mother, I thought I'd stay like that till I turned 30 and I could just kill myself by then, I felt so so burdened by my existence, like it was such a bother for me to be alive, I would always call myself a waste of oxygen, I wanted nothing more than to just not have ever existed. But.. surprisingly life somehow worked out for me. I started focusing more on what I liked which was drawing and worked really hard to get accepted at an art school. And I did!! It got better, life got better, I feel so happy! it feels surreal to be this happy and without worries. And I just wanted to say if anyone who somehow reads this by chance relates to anything even close to what I said, it'll get better. Trust me. I know how horrible it might feel right now but, life will work out somehow. You'll find your own crowd of people. And you can find happiness as well. Please don't give up just yet on life, you have no idea what could be waiting for you at the end of the tunnel. Stay strong!! 💪 ✨

@quin4459

Жыл бұрын

I’m sorry for everything you’ve been through but also I’m so prowd of you for getting into art school I hope your happy there at least you can now spend your time learning about things you enjoy I hope your doing good have a good day/night

Idk if this is triggering to anyone so I'll put a tw. I've been going through a lot. With my dad's alcohol addiction, my undiagnosed anxiety and depression, I put the blade to my skin for the first time yesterday. It felt good to know that I could actually feel something. I have no one that I feel comfortable talking to about this, and only the person that I like has noticed. She's noticed that I'm not eating, not happy, always bouncing my leg, when I cry and so much more. She told me if I need to talk to come to her. But I cannot burden someone with this. I don't want people worrying about me. I'm also very confused abt every aspect in my life, from what I want to do with my life if I keep myself alive, to my sexuality. I have no idea whether I'm bi or lesbian, and everyday I live with it. I bottle my emotions and I need help.

@superrupee

Жыл бұрын

Please don't do that don't cut yourself, I'm speaking from experience, it may be ironic but don't do it. And about being a burden to others, I once had a friend that turned out to be a jerk. He was toxic and mean and told me things like, "I'll always be there for you." He lied. I suffer to make genuine connections with others because of that. But with all that being said, it seems that your friend wants to help. I had a bad experience with someone who I thought was my friend, I don't want the same to happen to others. I say give your friend a chance, and if your friend is caring, trustworthy, nurturing, and a good listener never let that loved one go. And about sexuality, look at it like this, if you like someone and care about that person, go for them. It's ok to like similar or different genders, but don't look at it like that. If you really care about someone, go for them. Don't let gender be a boundary.

Amen to everyone that are still staying strong and continuing

"Its funny how a memory turns into a bad dream" literally

@asteria4681

11 ай бұрын

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When the comment section gets you better than your friends it’s just sad we might all be strangers but let’s sick together and help each other through the pain of life ily guys and if you haven’t heard this today or even ever your worth it and your doing great I’m so proud of you😁❤️

Pov you are too tired to say anything about your feelings at all. You’re just stuck knowing nothing is ok and you are just surrounded with people who have no absolute clue about it they think you are just in your room to “be lazy” when you are just stuck in a constant feeling that would always come back and sometimes it just takes over all of your feelings and all you can do is act like you are “okay”.

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

wow. I'm in that exact pov rn

If your listening to this and thinking about the end of you, just know your never alone and theres so many other people who go through the same things you do, and theres hundreds of people who really love and care abt you. Never give up, never lose hope.

I love how everyone in the comment section is just so relatable and make me feel at peace, not to mention that it’s actually a great place to find inspiration when u feel drained! Remember to drink water and eat!

my "best friend" replaced me. cried hysterically last night. this happens every time, though. edit: stop venting to me in the youtube comment section

@kyliecastillo1624

2 жыл бұрын

Hello ,this has also been happening to me for as long as i can remember. I thought it was me something was wrong with me . I wasnt good enough or worthy of friendships. Nothing is wrong with you its not your fault dont be too hard on yourself. Be you people will come after. You are amazing dont forget that. Keep going and growing an learning. You got this ,hope this helps 😊

@emmeline8048

2 жыл бұрын

Hi this has happened to me also and I always thought it was my fault and sometimes I still do but I have some best friends who have helped me so much and when you find the right best friends you will be so happy like me :) my one advice is to never give up because one day you will be giving advice too like me and be happy that you are lucky with the friends you got and even one best friend is enough to help you get through life. But I wish you the best ❤️

@imnotok775

2 жыл бұрын

@thundabolt ik how it feels for all ur friends to replace u. my ex bestfriend called me a fucking fat bitch, said I have a big forehead, made fun of me, made fun of the way I laugh. I'm so stupid for staying in that relationship for 4 yrs. all of my past friendships have been toxic and they all have bullied me. I'm in another couple more toxic relationships rn, it seems I can't seem to find a way to get away from them. if u need someone to talk to, I am here! just know ur "friends" who replace u screwed up, u are a beautiful human being, u don't deserve to be left. stay strong, it will get better, and I promise. hope u have a good day

@hastieslamy4034

2 жыл бұрын

all of my friends betreyd me now I found a new friend I hope she won't replace me... :)

@eliscips8833

2 жыл бұрын

bruh you vented first

Hi babes! Stay strong out there please, keep fighting for not only yourself but for all the others who couldn't be as strong, your all beautiful human beings with such powerful hearts and minds, sending care and love and energy to you because I know how hard life can get. Just keep pushing you will make it to the end I promise, keep telling yourself your enough, I'm beautiful, I'm loved. And for anyone bulling you or hurting you just know they are hurting just like you. Some people don't get to experience life everyday, so please continue surviving and make the world a better place. I LOVE YOU ALL MY ANGELS!!!!

@thisissara5465

2 жыл бұрын

You’re so sweet

@shi7212

2 жыл бұрын

@@thisissara5465 💙

Hi alone and lost:) i hope you really have a amazing day because you deserve it:) your playlists help me so much. I can't thank you enough for making me feel something when i feel numb. You are great:) please keep it up and keep fighting ❤