The worst thing about having mental illnesses is, that when you think you finally have it under control it comes back even worse... you can't know how and when it comes back and you wonder if it's worth the hope of it someday going away.. it makes you feel helpless and lonely and angry and stupid... it makes you too weak to live a normal life but too strong to give up

@liselogan8344

Жыл бұрын

Yes so true

@kalebsfilms8638

Жыл бұрын

I got diagnosed with depression at the age of 8 and have ptsd for life and people just think its a joke so I don't socialize and now aparntly its bad not to socialize but people bully me for who I am?

@pheelmacababe2861

Жыл бұрын

You should be a monster, A Monster, and then learn how to control it

@gilflies1327

Жыл бұрын

mate i just wanna die why is coming back every time i think ive done it and then its back but even worse

@stay-zerose-swith

Жыл бұрын

@@kalebsfilms8638 that's sooo messed up omg! The problem is many people don't understand AMD don't want to understand especially if they don't have the problem themselve... just know that it's not your fault that people bullied you! You have no control over it

The fact that you’re there for everyone and nobody is there for you is what hurts

@bailiesmith9439

Жыл бұрын

It’s why I don’t talk to people anymore. I’m working on my goals anyways but nobody told me the road to peace and prosperity would be a lonely and painful one.

@aimaanshaikh5131

Жыл бұрын

Exactly bro 🤜🤛

@hitkidsnotjuuls6639

Жыл бұрын

@@bailiesmith9439 the fake smiles and "i m fine "'s get tiresome after years of just hidden pain. i wish it didnt have to be like this

@TheVampireCabin

Жыл бұрын

It's most often the best people that carry the most pain.

@bangtanin7944

Жыл бұрын

specially when people come to you and talk about their pain, how tired they are of life and you have to be there for them and comfort them but they never not even once ask you how was your day or how you are doing

Has anyone else been so happy?.... then just completely lost motivation to live?

@natsumi-chan9441

Жыл бұрын

Me:)

@brumby4867

Жыл бұрын

I thought I was the only one.

@chloeolearypedroza1609

Жыл бұрын

Agreed

@miajade9965

Жыл бұрын

Me :(

@Nova-zj4ei

Жыл бұрын

:’)

Gotta love those moments when you are deep in the feels and then all of a sudden you hear a shampoo ad out of nowhere

@eems..0406

6 ай бұрын

I got an ad Exactly when i read this comment

@Livv.649

5 ай бұрын

🎶I shouldn't have to be the bigger 🎵 Spend the day with us to see how we created Instagram Reels 😊😊 🎶 person . . . 🎵 Random song ik but it's the first lyrics that came to mind

@molly1576

2 ай бұрын

I have KZread premium but that would be kind of funny

@Nighttime670

Ай бұрын

Thats why i got premium

@user-gw7uy3il1k

23 күн бұрын

Michael cera haunting my KZread

I find it ridiculous, that even deep down, I still have hope that this will all get better someday.

@ifritkhan5487

8 ай бұрын

It will get better dw

@Skylar_flies

3 ай бұрын

Keep the hope up my fried, it's gonna be fine

@karai_6425

2 ай бұрын

you’ll do wondrous things when you do feel even a little better, it just takes time to get there. and ill be here rooting for you :) things will sort themself out, and you can work toward either feeling good about it and seeing the positive, or you can focus on the negative. though, it takes quite a bit of energy to find the negatives of everything, so i suggest finding the positives that would motive and make you feel better even just a smidge. it just takes time, from seconds to minutes, days to weeks, months to years. just give the world a moment to make sense :)

it's sad how many of us here most likely had a really fucked up childhood now we are searching so hard for peace. this music is the only peace we will ever find in this life. I love you

@jadebuttlar9223

Жыл бұрын

Yea sadly 😭

@jadebuttlar9223

Жыл бұрын

Thats y im here rn

@Tenebrarum_

Жыл бұрын

Love you too brother :)

@ichhassedich1548

Жыл бұрын

Why i cant find ppl like all of us everywhere are this User that Takr from us but Not give

@immiew8215

Жыл бұрын

peace will come one day. i know it will. ily

I love just scrolling though these comments and just thinking, wow, i can really relate to these random strangers on the internet

@ytleidy

Ай бұрын

and it means you aren’t alone 🫂🩷

It’s always right as you think: “hey, i think i’m finally okay with this and where i am in life” is when everything starts to fall apart again

@sapha9

Жыл бұрын

yeah fr

@alexandra1310A

Жыл бұрын

Yes. 💯 True.... unfortunately...

@jadaaa448

11 ай бұрын

ong, everytime i start to feel okay it comes back 10x worse an messes up everything.

@lilyhfhhhgykmbhjujg

10 ай бұрын

Literally yesterday I felt on top of the world and today I couldn’t even drag myself out of bed.

@Sharpless2

8 ай бұрын

​@@jadaaa448it keeps us under control like a demon. Dont get too happy or youll pay for it.

To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)

@SayakuHippo

6 ай бұрын

Thank you, my life has been simply horrible, and I was hopeless especially this day because I just no longer have friends, everyone left me, I was scrolling through playlists, as if KZread knew that I was bad, and I saw your comment, I read it in its entirely, and I now feel a bit better, please continue to spray good vibes around the internet, maybe it'll save some others one day

@Hisup-pf8bs

6 ай бұрын

Thank you, I hope everything works out in the end, Just know that you are never alone. Take care🤍🤍🙏🙏@@SayakuHippo

@Jenny_and_iben

5 ай бұрын

thank you so much for sending this out into the world, i feel so much better and i hope you know that this is how someone loves you too

@richvichneviy5617

5 ай бұрын

Thank you...

@su8ho

4 ай бұрын

I love ur copy and paste

Let go of the idea that you always have to have your emotions under control. Get comfortable with being uncomfortable.

@TheQu1et0ne

Жыл бұрын

This is the second time I seen you on a sad music playlist. I hope you are doing ok. Thanks for spreading around positivity! I wish you the best of luck in life ❤

@daltonodom4906

Жыл бұрын

Amen! This just hit different when I seen your post, I’ve always tried to get out the uncomfortable situations but one day I was like to hell with it imma go with the flow and open up a little and now I’ve met someone that likes me for me, all just by getting comfortable with the uncomfortable, I’ve always been worried about being hurt deeply again but everything is better and I hope your doing good and all is well

@user-rk1gx5jl1h

11 ай бұрын

wise words.

you know things are getting bad again when you start listening to these playlists on repeat.

@mystiquenoodleedits3485

Ай бұрын

I relate, stranger

@HistoryShell1786

Ай бұрын

It’s not. I’m doing fine and am recovering, it’s just these kinds of playlists were a safe space a while back and I’m revisiting them like old friends to check up on others

POV: you’ve been recovering but your overthinking/friends bad decisions are making it come back. You ask for help but nobody answers yet the people who do are too busy for your time. You just want to end it all but don’t have the courage to kick the chair because you don’t want more pain than you already have. You don’t want to live but you don’t want to die either. You’re just tired.

@baileyjefferson4654

Жыл бұрын

This is all I’ve been feeling for weeks. I just got back from a 2 week get away and nothing has been the same. My mom has cancer and one of my closest friends is treating me like I mean nothing. Idk what to do any more

@Alexcav1019

Жыл бұрын

i was doing so well w being alone but tried getting close to an old friend again & her pessimism and putting words in mouth has rubbed off on me & i feel like im regressing back into the person i hated. i want a girl friend who’s gonna love at the level that i love & treat our friendship w the same respect she treats her romantic relationship. the love is different, but the respect doesn’t have to be…

@rafaelmaximo6710

Жыл бұрын

@@baileyjefferson4654 I apologize for my English, but I just wanted to tell you that everything will be fine. I believe your mother will be fine. I just wanted to say this, have a nice day/night and feel hugged by me. I love you

@r3n2

Жыл бұрын

I’ve been feeling like this for months. The only person I can go to is some of my online friends but when I need them they’re not there, so I just shrug it off. But it keeps on growing..

@slay6862

Жыл бұрын

i feel you. i’m am so sorry that you feel that way but please try and reach out for help! you matter and i love you and am soooo proud of you

POV: You're having a rough time, you're struggling to mantain alive and nobody is there to lend you a hand. All the people who say they care won't even text back more than a couple polite words when you attempt to reach them. You're so tired and desperate all at once. All you can do is despair and try to find anything to hold on before it drowns you.

@blinktea_

Жыл бұрын

felt

it is so embarrassing having a breakdown and having to wipe my eyes and collect myself to skip the ad to resume my breakdown

@lalalulu6972

Жыл бұрын

BAHHAHA LITERALLY SAME

To anyone who might see this, you’ve done well up until this point. Youve tried your best and did what you could. Whatever you’re going through is NOT your fault. Even if it feels like the world is caving in, keep going. Believe it or not, you are strong and you will get through this. It gets better but you’ll only see the light on the other side if you keep going. I’m proud of you, who you are now, and who you will grow to become.❤️

@user-fg1ij3pu6i

Жыл бұрын

ilysm i’m proud of you too ❤️.

@east3634

Жыл бұрын

thank you.

@themaster3215

Жыл бұрын

thank you i needed this.

@EverlyVanda

Жыл бұрын

Thank you this is so inspiring this helped

@jadebuttlar9223

Жыл бұрын

Thanks i really needed this

music is the only way I can escape this world when i'm going through something, music comforts me in a way no one can, just know that it ok ur not alone.

i've never had any help, i was never able to tell how i feel to anyone, all of my emotions is just one big "but what if im just overreacting?". I'm slowly starting to accept the fact that it will never get better

@jaslyyn7796

Жыл бұрын

i know how you feel I get embarrassed of myself when I get down just cause no one ever told me it was okay to cry, to get frustrated with yourself. it’s part of being human though. cry ur heart out till ur content and tell yourself ur allowed to let loose. and get back up and be stronger!

@bexxl8877

9 ай бұрын

It will get better I promise you

it's funny that I have more trust in complete strangers than my own family

@hxneyyguk

Жыл бұрын

I feel that :')

@saahastiwari3779

Жыл бұрын

Cause you don't know them. Both of them.

@zhizntsirka2283

Жыл бұрын

Individual Complete strangers haven't done anything to betray your trust

@aubrey9077

Жыл бұрын

Yea it’s so funny 🥹🫠

@_ductape_471

Жыл бұрын

Damn don't call us out like that

“It’s just myself, talking to myself, about myself.”

"Its not that I miss being a little kid, its just that I miss being happy.."

It's been so long since I've been deep down in loneliness full of anxiety and depression that I have already forgotten what it is to be happy😕

@thecolorsofthesky5758

Жыл бұрын

you're not alone, i relate so much, just have hope, you will find love In this world, you just have to try to see the good In the world and to remember that you are the love of your life and the person that you will be with you through everything, so try loving yourself and caring for yourself first thing

i have no one. i’m convinced i can never be truly loved. i have no one. people say they’re there, but they’re not. i know they’re not. i can feel it. i watched myself slowly die just to be kind to the people who used me again, and again. i’ll never meet someone like myself. i’ve lost myself.

@iheartlucydacus

Жыл бұрын

I know to you it feels like nobody loves you, but there are people that love you, I promise. I love you. I've never met you, but I know that you're a great person who is very kind and loved. I also know that you deserve so much, and you should never have to feel like you're feeling right now. If you need to talk I'm here for you and I mean it. If you reply to me I will respond, but if you don't reply that is completely okay, no pressure :)

@victoriagomez9009

Жыл бұрын

hey even tho we are strangers but you can always count on me🤗

@zxzxxx-vw4jj

Жыл бұрын

same.

@drunorthodox

Жыл бұрын

After I lost my father it killed my ability to love I even broke up with the girl who was badly in love with me But I have a new boyfriend who is helping me out of the pit I hope you find that person even if you don't know it yet they already love you

@aris-us3vt

Жыл бұрын

same. I feel so lonely.

I'm a boy, somewhere from the corner of this world and i want to confess that I have been feeling sadness and loneliness through almost every moment of my life which i had spent in past, wherever I go as I'm ageing and time passes all i want to find a way to escape all the things happening in my life and also tired of pretending to be okay everyday and crying at nights.

@carriewoodby6249

Жыл бұрын

i'm so sorry love.

@BK-cz7np

Жыл бұрын

It gets better my friend. It honestly does. Just be patient with yourself. The bad days will pass eventually just allow yourself to feel it all. Sending love

@aidenwikie

Жыл бұрын

@@BK-cz7np I know there will be a day when I don't have to struggle anymore but sometimes I just feel hopeless and it don't matter how much I try to avoid it

@ivymae135

Жыл бұрын

It's just sad seeing boys and men suffering in sadness and loneliness. By the way I hope you had a good year❤️

I rlly hope everyone who commented or relates finally gets happy y´all deserve it.

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

🙏🙏🙏

@lalalulu6972

Жыл бұрын

You too bby 🫶🫶🫶

You know when it’s bad again when you start listening to these to fall asleep..

I just want to be happy

I'm having an addiction and i can't get over it. Everytime I tried to become better I fall back to my bad habits harder than ever. I have exams ahead and I can't concentrate on my studies and books. I don't have anyone I can openly share my struggles to so I came here. Let's pray for each other and hope for the best.

@bexxl8877

9 ай бұрын

Im here if you want

The first song made me cry. Not cuz it's sad, cuz a feeling of nostalgia hit me harder than I had ever felt.

The moment when you realize that one day everything has become so bland and you have no idea why and you ask yourself "Why can't I be happy, I don't even know why or how I lost the thing that brings me joy."

I promise it will get better. As someone who cried their heart out to these playlists I know how it feels. You feel suffocated by emotions and have no hope that you’ll ever be happy again. Eventually someone came into my life and helped me survive and someone will save you too. Don’t give up hope because someone in this world loves you, you may not know that or believe it but it’s the truth.

@blueberry486

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for writing this, it made me smile

@baloog_a

Жыл бұрын

the thing is my person is leaving me

@MightyKondrai

Жыл бұрын

it has been 5 years. when does it get better. it has only gotten worse. when.

@toxin1304

Жыл бұрын

How do u help someone or how were u helped i have someone in my life who I wanna help i just don't know how to

@partlycloudy7707

Жыл бұрын

Honestly I like the sentiment here, but no one in this life can save you but yourself. People can help you, they can pick you up when you fall, but they can only help you if you want to get up again. While it's ok to lean on someone else to learn how to stand again, you eventually have to learn to walk by yourself. How to pick yourself up. Because at the end of the day, you only have yourself. Relying on other people isn't healthy, and saying that someone will come along and save you won't help anyone. You have to learn to save yourself.

im writing this comment in a really bad state and i can't stop crying i hope when i someday return to this comment by chance i'll be happy more than before and everyone who read this i hope u guys be happy too we deserve hapiness😔😔🤍🤍

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

Things get better, they always do 🙏🙏🙏

@Dead00017

Жыл бұрын

How r u??

@cynical.ghostgirl

8 ай бұрын

Hey how's it going just checking up to see if it got better or worse, if you wanna talk I'm here I could use it too 🖤🖤

i’m am so sorry for these people in the comments struggling rn, i love you and please reach out to someone for help! even if it’s a stranger like me, i always here don’t be scared. you can do this and i’m so proud of you my loves

@jakubsyn

Жыл бұрын

... thank you Ɛ>

@euphxrz

Жыл бұрын

Tysm! I hope for you also

@jessicablocher6001

Жыл бұрын

Thank you:)

@mieshaxddd3500

Жыл бұрын

Thank you

The sound of rain even makes it more peaceful 🤍💫

I honestly don't know if I'm sad or depressed, I've told that I am but I don't believe I am bc I haven't been diagnosed with it by a doctor bc I'm too scared to tell my mom, she'd just tell me I'm dramatic, I feel like I have to keep my feelings hidden away bc she is afraid to deal with what I have going on, I'm glad you put this on here, it helps me breath when listing ❤

@partlycloudy7707

Жыл бұрын

You don't necessarily need to be diagnosed by a doctor to know if you are depressed. I was only recently diagnosed (much for the same reasons you hide it), but I knew for years that I was depressed. You aren't alone, love. If everything is to much, I want you to make a promise to me and yourself: when you are able to, when you are out on your own, get help. Talk to a doctor. Please

@deniseshashoults3936

Жыл бұрын

Please tell someone it will get worse if you keep it to yourself ❤

@jadrobe3492

Жыл бұрын

If you know what depression is and you feel like you have it, then yeah. Bc i am the same as the first reply, knew i was depressed for years before I got diagnosed.

@daydreams-of-death

Жыл бұрын

i wasnt diagnosed for my depression for 3 years because i tried my hardest to hide it until i crumbled down in front of my mother. she was so scared of me for a long time and i hate myself for that every single day. you can still struggle and drown in your emotions even if it isnt "officially diagnosed." ive been clean for over a year and am doing so much better. if someone like me, who didnt even think they would make it to high school, let alone junior year, can make it. you can too. stay alive, even if its for the smallest of reasons. you are far more important than you ever could realize

@jadebuttlar9223

Жыл бұрын

I do this to my dad said im the lamb of the family and there all lions and im gonna get eaten up in this world because i show emotion i just need help but no one understands im just a mistake to them my mom said to forget about me im already lost and cant be saved.

he promised he wouldn’t leave me if it got bad again.

The fact that all my friends can act so perfectly fine, and yet im crying myself to sleep to sad playlists knowing that I’m hopeless

I'm proud of all of you

@euphxrz

Жыл бұрын

Tyy I’m proud of you too🥺

it's been a long time since i cry. and today, i cry a lot. its not because i don't have problem before this but i ignore them, i don't even have time to think about my feelings. i finally reach my limits today, my whole body was shaking, i cant even say a word. my chest hurt so bad till one point its hard to breathe. i tried to ask for help but no one here for it. they keep destroying me slowly w/o me realizing.

@MarwanMarwan-qo6tf

Жыл бұрын

Hi ... Umm... Probably you don't know me but listen everything is gonna be okay trust me its okay to cry sometimes but not always you ... The past is just the past only your smile and happiness will make you happy believe me there's nothing deserves to be sad and cry for it your not alone and as i told you you dont know me but trust me im here for you your not alone 🖤🖤🥀🌟

101 reasons to stay alive list: 1. you'll never eat your favorite food again 2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again 3. you might one day meet your idol 4. people who care about you will miss you 5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts 6. crying to let it all out and feeling better 7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining 8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again 9. sleeping in 10. reading your favorite book 11. you'll never grow up with your friends 12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day 13. trampolines 14. cookies 15. coffee or tea (your preference) 16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness 17. rewards for doing good on something 18. your favorite show 19. your favorite game 20. singing in the shower 21. dancing when you're alone and laughing about it 22. the moon 23. the stars 24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it 25. your favorite scent 26. listening to a song on loop for hours 27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing 28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you 29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather 30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather 31. dancing when to music when you're alone 32. sunsets 33. sunrises 34. snow 35. rain 36. your favorite song 37. you'll miss out on memes 38. watch corona disappear 39. long bus/train/car rides 40. road trips 41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours 42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full 43. trying out new things 44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning 45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc. 46. giving gifts 47. receiving gifts 48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries) 49. fireplaces 50. roasting marshmallows 51. s'mores 52. chocolates 53. finding stray animals 54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs 55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise 56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up 57. free things 58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem 59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right 60. holidays 61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter" 62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it 63. amusement parks 64. candies 65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other 66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you 67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting 68. aesthetic things 69. hugging things 70. seeing rainbows after it rains 71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time 72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day 73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on 74. falling leaves 75. cherry blossom trees 76. your favorite animal 77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears 78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone 79. cringing at weird things 80. trying to learn a new culture 81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something 82. you weren't born to entertain people 83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end) 84. arguing with 8 year old kids 85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug 86. new technologies 87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things 88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed 89. cringing at old things you've said and done 90. money 91. random shower thoughts 92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world" 93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright 94. that weird funky smell from new items 95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile 96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense 97. feeling happy for other people 98. cute animals 99. flowers 100. laughing at your own stupidity 101. you just remember when you feel at your lowest, someone can and will always be there for you. you may not know it at the moment, but there is. someone believes in you and someone loves you. never give up, shine bright.

sitting on the roof while staring at the stars admiring their beauty in the silence of the world seeing how peaceful they all look as you notice them over time slowly turning around the earth just to vanish again into the day light as the comfort soon settle onto you

00:00 Bon Iver - Rosyln 05:22 Cigarettes after sex - Apocalypse 10:48 Lauren Spencer Smith - fingers crossed 14:06 Novo amor - anchor 18:55 Novo amor - ontario 22:35 Novo amor - euphor 27:05 Tom Rosenthal - go solo 29:50 The Neighborhood - beach house 35:48 The Neighborhood - you get me so high

@DogsOfEarth

Жыл бұрын

@@Rayinthebuilding Ah, my bad. I'll be sure to fix that

@DogsOfEarth

Жыл бұрын

@@Rayinthebuilding ^^

@isi6760

Жыл бұрын

Tysm

@DogsOfEarth

Жыл бұрын

@@isi6760 You're welcome ^^

@babyyoda6537

Жыл бұрын

Me when I see ontario the place i live:👁👄👁🇨🇦

Who are you in love with?’ Asked Heartbreak. ‘Oh, darling, I’m in love with writing. Nothing you could take from me. If not people, if not lovers, I have pages and I have ink. If not pages nor ink, I have my mind and my voice. I need not move a single heart. I shall move souls; thousands,” the Poet replied. Heartbreak took her leave, ‘such a pitiful thing,’ she said. ‘So broken, so unloved, so hurt.’ ‘If put like that, I says to you: I use my blood-the life-that leaves me from pain of any sort as ink to scratch the page upon which I write in sacrifice for my art!’ The Poet triumphed. A laugh escaped the Poet as youth rushed through his veins. He had long since tasted victory. From afar, the Poet noticed Love’s unfamiliar smile. ‘Oh. Oh no. More ink,’ the Poet whispered as his eyes welled up with tears.

@Sophie-hr1ip

Жыл бұрын

I love this

Ik everyone always says that it will get better but i don’t ever think it will. Anxiety and depression’s hitting me like a ton of bricks right now

@azrah-yumnarobinson9944

Жыл бұрын

same same

@BK-cz7np

Жыл бұрын

I used to think the same but It really does get better. We just have to be patient and kind with ourselves Sending love

@Pspqhdzxzs

10 ай бұрын

Shouldn't Need to you look beautiful

@jink3

5 ай бұрын

Well, maybe it is difficult to believe that everything will be fine, but this life will be difficult, but in the end it will become good.. Everything has an end, and sadness also has an end.

School started.. it was already pretty bad..

@euphxrz

Жыл бұрын

Yeah :( Good luck to you tho!!

@craqueoo4000

17 күн бұрын

❤

What really hurts is when you try to forget the past or that someone and you just randomly think about the happiness it gave you then you think about how it ended and it just hurts your heart so bad you can feel it in your throat and you cant do nothing but sit there.

To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! These are not my words, but spread these these words too someone who may need it!

@iremidekeshinro2877

Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much ❤❤

@eshaani

Жыл бұрын

i gotta do my homework but thank you

@yoshnilootawon5646

Жыл бұрын

And to every students out there know that it gets better just keep Persevering you got this ;)

@ivythedazzlinggirl2289

9 ай бұрын

I'm trying to sleep. Just been thinking for a while. I should sleep 🥱😴😁🤷‍♀️ Thank you for reminding. Gonna put the device down right now as you say. And give myself a cozy blanket to rest and recharge and recover peacefully 💕

@ivythedazzlinggirl2289

9 ай бұрын

I took a screenshot of this , just cuz the words are simple but helpful. Will come in handy in the future!!!! Either when I'm doing my homework or others

I can honestly say I think I'm getting better I cut off toxic ppl besides my family I don't cut myself or think about suicide I got more outfits that aren't just oversized hoodies and sweat pants but I still am insecure about my body and I don't cry at night it took about 2 or 3 years but I'm getting better I'm so proud of myself

@anayamoux4593

Жыл бұрын

That’s so good i know we obviously don’t know each other but i so proud of you i know how hard it is to recover from things like that

@leilajayne00

Жыл бұрын

Your amazing

@Chedda_chaser

Жыл бұрын

We’re in this together. All we gotta do is go the the gym, keep our close friends around and get a hustle. One day we will be too successful to be sad 💪💪💪

@gerriejunior4443

Жыл бұрын

Hope you are still doing okay

@alexcovell8042

Жыл бұрын

im so proud of you,i love you girl xxx

If you need a friend, please let me help.❤

Everyone who has clicked on this video , I pray that all feeling of sadness will go away , I pray that all suicidal thoughts or actions will be no more , I pray that all feelings of anxiety and hopelessness will flee in Jesus mighty name I pray that whoever is reading this will be blessed , healed , and delivered!! In Jesus name amen all depression go

@Jenny_and_iben

5 ай бұрын

i don't myself believe in god, but i abseloutely love you for this.

I am losing hope.. Im so TIRED

Hey if your reading this, just remember that this pain is temporary and will not last forever, and while your going through it your not alone we are all in this together doing the best we can, I'm proud of you for still being here fighting everyday, cus it's really not easy but you still strong enough to not give up, know that I care about you and I'm glad your here, your feelings are valid and I believe you'll get to a better place with time. I hope this helps, you don't have to accept my comment or like it but I just did it for the people who needs it. Remember to drink water get some rest and check on your loved ones❤️.

To anyone who sees this, Tell me about something in the replies. Anything. Things you need to get off your chest, things you wanna say to other people but can't, things you want to vent about, things you enjoy, music you like, theories about things, headcanons from your fandoms, opinions you have, anything. Sometimes it really helps to talk about anything and everything, and anything I can do to help someone out is an absolute treasure. I would love to hear people talking about things they're passionate about, even if it's something that's not going well, it makes me glad that someone would have somewhere to talk about it. You're all amazing, and if anyone needs a safe, judgement-free place to talk, I'm here

@lindsaygapuzan5863

Жыл бұрын

😭

@valeriesk8s176

Жыл бұрын

I hate the fact that no matter how many times I try I’m not good enough for my patents if I don’t clean my room I’m a disappointment, the littlest things gets them mad and they started to separate themselves from me ever since I told them I was bi. It hurt at first but I’ve gone through it my whole life so I guess I’m used to it. I’ve always been left out no matter what. It’s like they wouldn’t care if I just left. There’s times where I’ve gone days without eating and no one notices. They expect me to be at the top of my classes and be a perfect daughter, but I’m not. My mom can say a billion times she loves me the same even after I came out but I know she sees me different even though she tries to hide it. I also hate the fact that he made me fall in love with him and then he just left. He wasn’t my first because she also left me, not for someone else but for him 💔 the one I loved left me for him…that really hurt and they didn’t even try to hide the fact that they were dating. But it’s ok, everyone thinks I’m ok when I’m not in reality there’s so many times where I’ve felt like crying my eyes out but I can’t, because I have to stay strong for my little brother. I know ppl won’t read this but it helps to get this off my chest so that is to anyone who read this ♥️

@dweinart2799

Жыл бұрын

I dont like my chosen course, and I continue to fake that I chose it for myself, that I chose it because I like it, but the truth is I don't. I don't feel like I belong anywhere, I always feel the need to fake myself to fit in, to be seen. I really don't know what to do with my life anymore, I don't know what I want. I feel suppressed. I feel limited. I feel small, I don't have anyone to talk about this.

@EdenOfShmeeden

Жыл бұрын

Im going through an identity crisis and have no idea who I am. I'm not having trouble with my gender or sexuality. I'm having problems with life and religion. Life is rinse wash repeat for me right now. Go to school. Come home. Scroll through tiktok or do something productive . Sleep. Over and over again. I thought that if I got anti depressants it would help and it did so much. But them people in my life started to give me trauma and now I can't see them the same. My closest friend is moving away and everything is just falling apart. I want to die (and I know that every teenager says that and they don't mean that) but I'm not saying it in away of "I hate my life. It's unbearable and I just can't take it anymore" I mean that as a Christian i believe that if I truly believe in God when I die I will go to heaven. And why stay on earth when I could be in heaven. I prayed and the next day I heard a sermon on how even if death seems like a good alternative to stay strong. Now I still feel sad and upset over small inconveniences like the drams queen i am but I'm happy with my life. The take away from this is not that I'm shoving Christianity down your throat saying "BE SAVED AND YOU WILL BE HAPPY YOU HEATHEN" It's me saying. Don't give into whatever is hurting you. Try find the light. And I know sometimes you want to stay sad because it's easier than being happy. But it's worth it. Live your life and love it. You deserve it 💜 Keep slaying besties 💅👑

@zmmotal61

Жыл бұрын

The worst kind of experience is when your partner dumps you; as a result, I have trust issues.

not these comments making me cry more but also feel better at the same time. you are all beautiful and amazing people ❤️

POV:dear self I know you been through a lot but don't worry you still have yourself who love you the most even thought no one care about you or love you.i just one to say that you the strong person and u deserve anything in this world keep going what ever you want to do don't give up and don't think to end your life . I know you have bad lifestyle in this world it is because no one want care about you but I just want to you remember that I have u even we can see each other in this world I still can support you and always helping you whatever you need me

♡Hey! I understand all of us r breaking down missing lovers,friends...we all hurt but understand we all will get through it...and u wanna just jump....but no keep ur heads up understand ur loved and want to be happy, we all try but gets harder...so u think sad music will help...but its its not going to...alrighty lets get to this people!♡ ♡Ur loved ok?♡ ♡Dont starve yourself u deserve food and water♡ ♡If u wanna cry u dont gotta hold them back let it all out dont be scared about crying..♡ ♡And if ur lover is always "BUSY" hes/shes probably not the right one for u...♡ ♡AND UR NOT WORTHLESS!! HEARD ME!?!♡ ♡I love u wonderful people

@Miss_B_Riddle

Жыл бұрын

That’s so nice of you, I wish there are more people like you outside 🥹

@brittanydoller8670

Жыл бұрын

@@Miss_B_Riddle god bless you ♡

@enhypenssoullllllll7032

Жыл бұрын

Ah thank you

@brittanydoller8670

Жыл бұрын

@@enhypenssoullllllll7032 np!

They say depression is a myth but why do I have to fake my feelings to be happy and then when you think it’s gone it’s still there and it hurts

I’m been having the worst month. Crying everyday and no one has noticed how lonely I’ve been feeling. I could barely get out of bed. Jesus please help me I’m tired of this feeling I have insude

@supravietuitoriblog547

Жыл бұрын

Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?

@lilianavaldivia02

Жыл бұрын

@@supravietuitoriblog547 thank you

@_your_aesthetx

Жыл бұрын

Get well soon darling ! ❤️😭 Don't give up you can really get through this ,My wishes with you ✨🥹.

@iqluu

Жыл бұрын

I feel you Liliana..I’m going through the same thing right now, I believe that you and I can get through this going strong..It’s the matter of believing in yourself the best you can even while at your lowest..Don’t give up soon though. This was 4 months ago but just know that someone should be there soon. I’m not sure how soon is ‘soon’ but they will be there. I promise you :)

@lilianavaldivia02

Жыл бұрын

@@iqluu thank you. I needed that

Life isn’t always fair, but as long as you keep going forward everything will be okay ❤

To anyone reading this, it'll be okay. No matter what you're going through, whether it feels small or overwhelming, you'll get through it. Someone will help you if you need it. Maybe not now, but when you need it most there'll be that one person that you can trust with your life. Whether you know them or they're just a stranger who shows some kindness. I hope it all works out for you in the end. We love you, don't give up

Why can’t it get good for once? I’m dying here.

@jink3

5 ай бұрын

Everything will be fine, don't despair, okay?

@alnhex

3 ай бұрын

im dying to dawg

anyone else hittin the 🍃 n thinking ab life while listening to this or is it jus me ? 🥲

@lalalulu6972

Жыл бұрын

Yeah but I’m hittin the vodka

hey. you there. stop crying. there's no need. you don't need to cry. your life is perfect *you* are perfect. so stop. please. don't be like me. don't mess up life. don't stop trying don't give up on your dreams. don't ever put yourself down. just, don't be like me: a failure. persevere. keep going. you got this. i believe in you. and i love you

@zxav7801

Жыл бұрын

thank you

@tungpu6814

Жыл бұрын

saved me

@fireflame413

Жыл бұрын

@@Joopinsurance771 guess im a failure lol

@Mr_Ramsay

Жыл бұрын

If this is perfect i dont want it

@4bmurallesescobarkatheryne603

Жыл бұрын

Cry is liberator

I just want to say a couple words. To say something into the void of unknown so maybe you could find a little leverage in this path you are walking along. Whether you are lost, wondering, or set straight does not matter. You have not found what you are looking for yet because you have not looked deeply enough in yourself. You are who you need, not anyone else. With you, comes the gift of everlasting love. Treat yourself as someone you loved with every ounce in your being. See what difference it makes. You do not have to change to be who need. You can work to be someone stronger. You can work to be smarter. You can work on yourself to be better. But you are never less than. You are stong. And you are enough. You are already enough just how you are. It does not matter your age, that does not dictate what you can and should feel. It does not matter your race, that does not change what your heart shows and feels. It does not matter your size, that does not change how you love. It does not matter where you live, for everything you have been given is enough for you to shine like the star you are. It does not matter what you may see in the reflection of your mirror, for your eyes deceive you into believing a monster is looking back at you. The photos can never show you the true beauty that lies behind your smile when you speak of the things you love. You do not see how your eyes light up when you think and talk about what interests you. You do not see the beauty that hides within you. Everyone has their own beauty to them, even the cruel. Sometimes all we need is just a little love, or someone to understand, or just someone to listen. Every person has a coping mechanism they use. Some are harmful, but we are all just trying to get by. We lose sight of ourselves and our actions. You are stronger than you know, never underestimate yourself. Pain has a way of making one feel they are alone and lost. Pain has a way of haunting someone. No matter how much you run, it is always there. Pain is an unforgiving wave of emotion that is impossible to escape. But I promise it does not last forever. It can last a very long time sometimes, yes. But when you have reached rock bottom, there is always a way up, because that is the only way left to go. And don’t worry about rushing up, take your time. Heal. Live. Cherish the little moments of joy. You deserve a break, and you deserve the freeing feeling of being able to breathe without your lungs becoming cold. Feel the weight be lifted. I know you can feel relief if you just wait. I cannot tell you how long it will take, it might take a while, but I know it will be worth it. You can find yourself living again, instead of the empty shell you have become, you can really live. Time. Time is what it will take. Time and patience. Please do not give up on this world yet, because this world is not ready for you to leave yet. The world needs your smile. Others will need your smile. You can smile at someone randomly, someday, does not matter when or where, just who. You can change their whole day. Your smile can cause someone to look on the brighter side. It just takes one smile. Be that smile. I know you are scared of happiness. After happiness only comes pain again, I know how you feel. But giving up would only prove those who said you couldn’t right. Be who they said you could never, and prove your better than you had ever dreamed. Because you, my dear, are one in a million. Actually, you are just one of a kind. There is no one else quite like you, so cherish your differences, because it is impossible to “fit in” a place where you were born to be different. You have a gift. Never forget that. Don’t let others take that gift away from you. Stay true to yourself and love yourself because you are who you need when no one else sees. You are amazing, and I see it. I see your strength, and your love, and your beauty, and you pain. But most importantly, I see you, just you. And you are the most wonderful thing I have ever seen. Who you are truly. I love you and I am so proud. Until another day. Sincerely yours -B

@teodorapejic8254

Жыл бұрын

wow

This is a poem I had written a few months ago. It always makes me cry because I wish I could have been told the things in this poem... Letting Go TW: Trauma, self-image, insecurity, depression “Let today be the day you finally release yourself from the imprisonment of past grudges and anger. Simplify your life. Let go of the poisonous past and live the abundantly beautiful present today.” - Dr. Steve Maraboli. Please try to breathe as this will not be easy. You don’t have to share how or why you got them, but don’t be afraid to share your burdens with others. We know it isn’t your fault, and you didn’t deserve it. You don’t have to pretend to be okay. Share the weights on your chest, and let go. Let go of your pain, please let us share it with you. Talk to us, we will listen. If you don’t want us to comment, we won’t. Please don’t hide. Let go of the problems that others threw onto you. Let go of your insecurities and sensitivities. You are loved. You are appreciated. You are human. You are allowed to have issues. You are allowed to make mistakes. You are allowed to be mad, to be sad, to be glad. You are allowed to be stressed, depressed, a mess. You are not a mistake. You are not a burden. You are not unwanted. You are you. Please try to breathe. Let everything out with an exhale. Please try to breathe, And let go.

@h3arttmee

Жыл бұрын

but how do you just let go, it feels impossible.

@fgc7596

Жыл бұрын

@@h3arttmee Remember that the goals of anyone who has ever been mean was to hurt you, and if you just let it sink in deeper and cause pain, you're letting them win. If it's not because of other people, was it ever in your control? Sometimes bad things happen and that's okay. It's okay to be upset but you need to remember that you can get through this. Through every dark hallway is a door leading to light- So look for that door and find it for yourself.

@fgc7596

Жыл бұрын

@@h3arttmee I believe in you and I know you can make it through alive. :)

@lalalulu6972

Жыл бұрын

The last sentences made me cry so fucking hard

@fgc7596

Жыл бұрын

@@lalalulu6972 Remember that it is always okay to cry. Emotions are human and normal :)

The best song on here was fingers crossed it hit so hard i love it sm and thank you for making this play list i love the vibe it has and how calming everything is i love get lost in music and it so loud i can hear anything makes me feel serenity

My bsf of 7 years died this week and even tho I’m always there for everyone when they need me I feel so alone going thru this by myself and my own family don’t see that I’m slowly dying away and won’t be here much longer

@ashlynmckenney9306

Жыл бұрын

Honestly I can't imagine what you're feeling so i'm not gonna pretend like ik what you're growing through, but ik how it feels to die alone inside without anyone noticing. Ik you may be thinking abiut suicide but that's not the answer, I promise. Suicide only takes away the chance of getting better in the future. Everyone in your life would be devastated to see you gone. Think about all the reasons you have to stay, I'm sorry about your friend but think about them, would they want you do this? I really hope you get better but remember, everything happens for a reason and you must go through rain and storms for there to be a rainbow.

@lalalulu6972

Жыл бұрын

Don’t be afraid of showing people how you’re feeling. When my dad died I hid my feelings for 3 years until it came bursting out in panic attacks. It sucks loosing someone, but you have to have someone by your side, even if it’s an animal.

The feeling I’ve been battling with most is how much you want to be “normal”. How much better your relationships would be, how much better you would look and feel. Feeling so broken, and always begging whatever is listening to just fix you. What if I were better, would I finally have a chance at keeping a job? Getting a car and a license? Finishing school? Would he finally choose me and only me? Would my children have better lives? Would my parents and siblings be happier? Maybe the worst part is not even knowing what’s wrong with you. Just knowing that you’re not like everybody else.

I feel like listening to this helps me just think because I always feel like I'm doing something wrong and music just helps me feel my emotions for once instead of trying to hide them from everyone else all the time):

An 11 year old going through depression, working so hard to get good grade and make your family proud. I did work so god damn hard. But math.. I got a C…… Few hours later I was called unsuccessful for not putting my clothes on the hanger and my uniform on the floor like a homeless kid. Wearing/putting bandages everywhere for no reason. We are right now having thunder in Australia. And im scared, no one cares and I don’t think they will ever….

Not even sure why I’m here, I’m happy during the day, but when night settles in I just become…empty. I’ve started to cry more, and I don’t know why, but a bittersweet part of me is just glad I can cry again at all

@nathancopeland1844

10 ай бұрын

My life isn’t even bad, objectively I’m extremely blessed with a good life and great friends and family, but recently, I’m just nothing at all in the quiet

I want to be able to cry again.

I would never commit because of the guilt but if there was a car going as fast as it could towards me I won't move

@SIMP-vd8wv

3 күн бұрын

passively suicidal i think. Yeah, me too.

If only i never exist, everything will be better for myself and my family. But even if im gone, there's no one that will cry for me..and it's fine.😊 I was here on this day.

@guccibub5234

5 ай бұрын

are you alright bro?

Tbh I’m a gym rat and yes i listen to this music to sleep and to get a relaxing vibe, but maybe I can help y’all out if anything, a lot of y’all are insecure about yourself, bullied, relationship problems, family problems, anything negative well tbh this life you have is short! You only live once! Look past the negativity and appreciate the things you have your alive and on this earth for a reason find out what you goal is and live like it’s going be your last day! Find freinds and things that fuel that flame inside you! But get rid of the things that Douces it out. One last thing for a pick me up is to look at the kids n teens that have cancer or disability’s in third world country’s what would they do if y’all swapped places you know. Anyways stay strong and believe in yourself cheers mates!🫡

A sense of freedom is all I want. I am tired of consistently feeling like I have been put under a microscope where my actions are constantly judged and that I have a million eyes on me, Yet they can't see that the little glimpse of hope or so-called freedom, is vanishing. I am vanishing. I am alone although I am around many people, these people...They don't care about me. Only when they need something, why do I have nobody that genuinely cares about me?

i wish i could cry again

See here's the thing that alot of my friends don't understand. If you give me a compliment to try to make me feel better, it only makes things worse. For example, if I'm not doing so well and I say something, my friends will be like don't say that you deserve everything and U are perfect. Things like that only makes things worse and here's why. If ur someone like me who has depression and other mental illnesses, hearing something as simple as a compliment, makes me feel so much more worse. I also overthink alot, so therefore, hearing something like that makes me think that my friend is lying and that I deserve so much less. Just keep that in mind.

@denise7258

Жыл бұрын

This is so accurate.

@sreelakshmi2584

Жыл бұрын

True 😭

@blinktea_

11 ай бұрын

yeah it doesnt change anything at this point

Seeing all these comments. Man it’s sad to think It was just me in this position I now realise so many others are struggling I just want everyone to know you are loved. People love you. It took me a bit to realise it but in the end you’ll get through whatever you are going through I promise things will get better everything takes time.

Sorry if it ruins the mood but... Sometimes im not sad or depressed, i just like to come to these moxes and they make me feel happy. Idk maybe i have a mental illness or something but these mixes make me feel happy and calm inside and i understand if you don't or do feel like me. Idk this probably doesn't make any sense to anyone but i just tried to put my feelings into words.

@SHAMAN0

Жыл бұрын

No it does …trust me I sometimes feel exactly like that…don’t feel about. I’m sure there are lot of people who feel the same your not alone…it’s good to talk to someone I think

@dreadydragon450

Жыл бұрын

@@SHAMAN0 thanks 🙃

The fact that you trust everyone around you and in the end they're just using you

POV: You have basically never felt love, and you are just alone, constantly searching for a relationship, but you've had no luck whatsoever in the past 6 years. Your whole life is just mentally and psychologically recovering from constant bullshit. feeling trapped, depressed, alone, and melancholy, getting way too stressed out, but always trying to be positive when the clouds of negativity rain upon you, wishing you the worst luck, constantly told everyday for your entire life how much of an idiot, retarted, worthless, waste of space, that will never get anywhere in life, by your own father, that's very very VERY narcissistic, and abusive (verbally and mentally, and maybe soon physically), constantly complaining, wanting everyone to praise him, of how much he has done, even though he sits on his ass, and consantly yells, and screams everyday, and you develop emotional numbness at such small age, around 4 or so, always being treated like you don't deserve to be anywhere, and always being stuck in the house, barely getting out, not being able to do fun things, because we are so tight on money, because there is only one income. The only way for you to socialize is by playing video games and doing online activities, and your dad is constantly making threats about breaking any devices you have, and burning them in a fire, or shooting them with a pistol, or just breaking them with a bat. You are also homeschooled currently, but when you were in public school, you were always getting bullied, being laughed at and called names behind your back, always being the laughing stock of the school, you were always trying to be social and have fun with others, but everytime you tried, you would get pushed out the way, and left to rot in sadness. Also, your brothers are just like the narcissistic dad, and they were the favorites by everyone, your grandparents, your cousins, etc, always being able to fuck with you, and mess with you, destroying your stuff, and always getting away with it Scott free, everytime. Your brother starts to develop terrible anger issues, and he takes his frustration out on you, by calling you names, threats on killing you, threats on beating the shit out of you, etc, and there is nothing you can do about it, because he is incredibly strong (142 pound grip at 16), so you just let it happen. You want to feel emotion, but you can't because you developed emotional numbness at such a young age. Nothing ever affects you. Your resort to escaping this is by staying up until 2-4 in the morning, and you are not able to do that because you can't "3rd shift." Your dad also gets mad at you for the littlest shit and makes a big deal out of everything because he has anger issues, and always finds something to get mad about, and he thinks you have an eating disorder (which actually hurt me pretty bad), making it so you feel like you have to eat 5,000 calories a day, even though the doctor says you are fine, and now, eating is a chore for you, it doesn't seem enjoyable at all anymore. Literally could be me, lol (That's the tip of the iceberg but I don't want to list any other things that happens because i don't feel comfortable saying anymore, if you read all of this, thank you, leave a reply if you want idc)

I hope the one reading this finds peace and is set free from all the problems that you don't talk about.🥰

I'm writing right now about man who lost his brother and this playlist is helping me to feel his mood right now. So sad but athmospheric...

I HATE overthinking I think about things that will it will be forever im crying like crazy

I hate crying so much until today I haven’t cried in 3 months I hate it but it feels so good to let it out and not bottled in

I just want to cry nonstop and get out all the bad and painful things I have inside of me....💔

I was doing so good until i realised i wasnt two days ago. i was at a trampoline park and i was jumping off of a really high platform into a foam pit and i couldnt get myself to jump off because im scared of heights so all i did was close my eyes and think imagine your jumping to your death and i easily jumped off. every since sunday ive relapsed three different times. its way worse this time and idek why.

we got to hang in there we got a strong enough love we have to keep fighting

Why dose it always end up like this ? Why dose it always end with me being hurt and lonely ? I hate it that I’m the one who need them and not the other way around Am I this hopeless and weak ?

@MarwanMarwan-qo6tf

Жыл бұрын

Bruh your not lonely your lovely 😊 Maybe Your needed in someone's life but you dont know just stay strong 💪🥀

@MarwanMarwan-qo6tf

Жыл бұрын

We're all besides you how could you be alone ? 😁👀

Hi, sorry to vent but I've already lied to my friends and I need to let it out I have mild anxiety and depression, I also have ADHD and I'm fairly certain a case of Trichotillomania, which is a hair pulling disorder, and maladaptive daydreaming. I've been dealing with it through various coping mechanisms and medication. In the past 2 months I've stopped taking my meds and I haven't seen my therapist for longer. The thing is, I dont want those. I dont want to have to see a therapist who I dont like or trust nor do I wanna take meds that make me sleep in class and fail. I tried getting a job over the summer since I'm gonna be a senior this year and I wanted experience before I left school. It was horrible. I worked at Little Caesars and it wasn't that great. The staff were nice but the change of pace bothered and stressed me out. I stopped working and after that it's made me realize I wont survive as an adult. Honestly, I've considered commiting sewer slide after highschool. I dont knoe hoe I'm gonna take care of the stress of the real world once I leave school. My dad will have me either get a job or go to college but I dont know what I want to do. Im stuck. Im in a bad place. My maladaptive daydreaming effect everything I do. I physically act out everything in my head in my room and I could do that for days on end and never get tired of it. Living in my own world as a different person is great. But I know I can't do that irl. I know I cant live in my head. But I can't leave. Im trapped in my brain. I dont know if I want to leave. I'd rather die than have to leave my room or brain. I used to eat several times a day and now I only eat once and maybe a snack. I dont drink water as often. I dont sleep well anymore. I used to go to sleep at 9pm but now I sleep from around 3-5 am. I can't do it anymore. The thought of graduating and having to live as an adult scares me so much. I cant do it. I really can't. Idk if this is my note or not but all I know is I dont know what I'm gonna do after school. I'm stressed enough as it is and I dont want to deal with the real world. To those who made it this far, I dont want words of sympathy, I dont want advice, I just want to vent out everything. Thank you for listening. Goodnight

@slay6862

Жыл бұрын

i am so so so sorry that you have to live like that but please keep trying, do not give up talk to your family and friends about everything, you have to. i believe in you, you will graduate and you will eventually find out what you want to do with life don’t rush it. you have a lot of time to think about it and i know it’s very hard and that’s apart of life but i’m 100% sure with what you’ve told me you are so strong and will get through this. you matter. but try and go to therapy, ik you said you don’t trust them but look for another therapist that you like because it’s all about the therapist, it has helped me and a lot of people ik. just try different places but you will eventually find someone you like and trust that will help you. and please try to eat more but if you can’t that’s totally okay but make sure you eat and especially try to drink water, you need it. and i understand that you feel trapped but please try and push through. and yes you feel as if you’re better without your medication, but maybe taking them will help? you are so strong and will get through these hard times, im so proud of you as well and you matter so please don’t harm yourself. get better ml. i believe in you, and also i’m please reach out to someone for help

@EdenOfShmeeden

Жыл бұрын

Thankyou for venting. It helps me to sleep knowing you can sleep with a little less weight on your back. And I know you said no advice but I do want to share one word of advice with you. I have witnessed domestic violence and alcoholics alot in my life and I don't have the best living conditions. The thought of suicide came to mind a couple times. Am I'm not shoving Christianity down anyone's throat but for me I believe that if I believe in jesus and love him I will go to heaven. And why stay here when I can be in heaven? But after being told by the one person I trusted that me telling her that I wanted to kill myself was me being an emotional manipulator and I didn't care about them. I ended up on anti depressants after being diagnosed with sever depression and social anxiety. Going to get a job soon and that scares me so much. My word of advice is that even when I was at my lowest the things that the people who REALLY loved me stood out to me. And even though they don't know I am forever grateful to them. If you ever feel so shit just know you can reply to my comment and we can talk any time you want 😊 Stay strong 💜💪

@itsnuria3296

Жыл бұрын

I have Trichotillomania, anxiety, and had depression and It’s horrible.. I have a message that maybe is similar to your case: I’ve been through depression since march. Nowadays it’s almost september and I feel recovered. Since march to may.. I can not explain the horror I’ve been to.. My friends all of the sudden started to hate me and make me feel bad. I still remember the date.. Thursday 3rd of march 2022 11:05 am, music class, crying at the school bathroom mirror. All because of them.. Those who didn’t let me be with my other friends. Those who left me alone. I was alone. I felt alone. Every shit I went through I was alone. And I remember going to school only because of him. He made me laugh everyday that I was sad. We played together and laughed together. I don’t feel the same way as before but I remember him as the angel that saved me. When I returned to music class he asked me, are you ok? I obviously said that I was fine. I didn’t want to make any drama. I remember a friend of mine that helped me the 4th of march 2022, friday afternoon, in carnaval, we were dressed like demons with other friends of her, amazing people. When I passed next to that group.. I couldn’t even look at them. Even after this problem was solved, in may, I still couldn’t look in their eyes. I felt humiliated and a monster. Leaving school as leaving hell. I couldn’t talk to one of my best friends at school because she was in that horrible group. She wanted but she knew that if she did they would do the same to her. And then there was the friend that I’ll call hero. He always said to me: ignore them. And he always defended me from the ones that hated me. Only that he was in that group too… In those moments I wanted to die so bad. I couldn’t cry anymore because I spent the weekends, the afternoons after class and the lunch time crying every minute. I hated myself for every second of my life. I hope the person that is reading this don’t be into what I’ve been through because I can say that depression is the most horrible feeling you could ever have. It burns inside your body and kills your emotions slowly. This message is written by a 14-year-old girl that passed 8th grade with luck.

Whomever is seeing this, I LOVE YOU!!! YOU ARE LOVED!! I´M PROUD OF YOU! NEVER GIVE UP!!! no matter how hard life gets keep going! ur not alone even if it seems like that, you are loved by so many people! God bless yall, Jesus and god loves yall! never give up loves!

I have been doing so much better than what I was a few months ago, but this week has been ROUGH. I’m back in the hole I was in before, but it’s deeper this time. The worst thing is that no one sees that I’m struggling.

i was like nah this can’t be too soul crushing. as roslyn is the first to start playing 🧍‍♀️

I’ll probably use this as my sleeping playlist thx lmao 💕💕💕

Thank you for making this it means a lot😢

Some day I’m going to be happy, and I’m going to get over whatever this is. But I can’t see it any time soon. I keep thinking I’m better and then it happens all over again like some cruel cycle. I just want whoever is reading this to know that you should hold on even if things are tough. Hold on for those who love you. If you don’t have anyone, hold on for a hopeful future with people who do love you. P.S- props to my pillow for catching all those tears, and the dark for listening to silent screams

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

Today is the day u have to decide to be happy 🙏 it comes from the inside

Depression or whatever this is that I'm (and a lot of other people) going through, it feels like drinking alcohol. At first everything is alright - you feel relaxed, like nothing could go wrong, maybe even happy and glad you're alive at this moment, but the way it wears off so quickly only for you to submerge in complete negativity and nothingness...

Who else is in pain?

@Saundersstrong

18 күн бұрын

Me . Had a rough day . How are you making out friend?

@Jordan-Biller

Күн бұрын

Everyone is in pain some are just better at hiding

Sad how this song help me more than anyone Ik 😕

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

So true 🙏

I don’t wanna die anymore I just wanna be happy