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@henryix6659

4 жыл бұрын

I find that rationalising that anything directly out of your control isn't worth worrying about is useful

@Jim_Underscore

4 жыл бұрын

a gun, new year no me

@Jadedgems

4 жыл бұрын

The School of Life vistaril, lexapro, and beta-blockers

@journeytoart

4 жыл бұрын

I started introspecting what cud be my cause since my anxiety started in teen. So I understood a lot had to do w my family, their negative and encouraging words and to top that bad company. Some ppl have atleast someone to help them change wen u show destructive pattern i din have any, so I had to learn the tough way and eventually rediscovered wat hobby i liked and slowly started (very difficult) saying positive things to myself though i couldn't believe a word but i eventually started taking care of wat i eat and had a routine for skin care. This might sound silly but it helped. I was ignorant of how i carried myself nd did not take care if myself coz i felt i was not important. Once i started caring there's so much positivity, i also started meditation tho very difficult at first. That too helped. I started dancing coz i like not coz im good. Simple things make me happy and lot of other major changes. I have bad days but i remind myself all that i have overcome and achieved. Little things, one by one.

@LoreMIpsum-vs6dx

4 жыл бұрын

@@Jim_Underscore I hear you. I feel much the same. I hope you don't though because you are amazing and I, for one, think this world would be less without you. I don't even know you, how could I know that? I just do. I've decided to keep living because in the back of my exhausted and tortured mind, I know it's possible for life to be good and if it's possible I'd like to see it. So I'm going to endure another day and then hopefully, the next. I hope you do too friend. Good Luck. Best, L.

I’m literally crying over this video. I just can’t seem to accept myself.

@_daki

3 жыл бұрын

It’s my second time watching this. I’m still crying at how accurate this is. I despise my existence so much

@bigup9567

3 жыл бұрын

same. and i have no one to talk about it to. all the fucking time i'll get the answer "you should be grateful", as if i'm not. i know others have it easier, or worst then me, but it still doesn't change my fucked up ugly ass genes.

@_daki

3 жыл бұрын

@@bigup9567 exactly, this is why i’m hesitant to open up because they just don’t understand. i’m so tired of being misunderstood and invalidated. I hate how they turn our sufferings as competitions. hhhhh life is meh.

@Jst4fun817

3 жыл бұрын

Me too. I'm sorry to know there are others like me out there.

@bigup9567

3 жыл бұрын

@@_daki exactlyyy.

Nothing gets me more in the festive spirit than hatred and anxiety

@ki-td5yb

4 жыл бұрын

Hail, Satan.

@MrCool-vu1nr

4 жыл бұрын

How so?

@InnerRise

4 жыл бұрын

@@ki-td5yb salakem salam

@fredriksvard2603

4 жыл бұрын

InnerRise english

@InnerRise

4 жыл бұрын

@@fredriksvard2603 racism

“If things are going well this must just be a calm period”. Couldn’t explain my life any better. I am constantly looking for what’s going to destroy me next instead of enjoying life. It’s not a good life to live. Edit: so many supportive comments have been left for me. I would like to thank all of you for helping me and others in the comments. I feel much better and am still working on feeling hopeful for the future.

@azazelthefallen3380

Жыл бұрын

😢

@obadaabdullah

Жыл бұрын

Same here 💔

@donalgramae

Жыл бұрын

Same here.

@koscarlynn

Жыл бұрын

Damn thiss was helpful as helllll

@CinzaChumbo

Жыл бұрын

You are most definitely not alone on that. It is not a good way to lead life at all. The last time I ever felt really good was last year, sometime before holiday season; after that... I don't know what being okay is like anymore. (As of this comment.) Thank heavens for this channel.

I’ve hated myself since I was very young and I’ve struggled with severe social anxiety through my teenage years and I had no idea they could be connected

@jowyschwarz313

3 жыл бұрын

Can you tell me more your story? Because you are very relatable to me, self hatred from very young and extreme void, anxiety, loneliness

@praxym9293

2 жыл бұрын

Same here

@chrisb1805

2 жыл бұрын

Nicolas Cage hates himself. Well he has done well with it.

@luisatedeschini2809

2 жыл бұрын

I need help

@Pravduh

2 жыл бұрын

I love you all. We may be a bit damaged but we will come out of this stronger 💪

"2. People should be relatively grateful to have me in their lives." I instinctively laughed.

@jacksont9455

4 жыл бұрын

Marco Caloi lol same. I’m the one who should be grateful people tolerate me in their lives 😂

@TomboTime

4 жыл бұрын

Sorry bud. But for what it's worth I'm sure somebody is very grateful for you and is right to be.

@polaroidandroidjeff6383

4 жыл бұрын

@@jacksont9455 at least you have people in your life

@carolynsherman6631

4 жыл бұрын

I'm not gonna push it when comes to people being grateful for my existence. So, "Disagree".

@drewberriesandcream

4 жыл бұрын

cosmogonic machine honestly me too i literally scoffed out loud 😞

Ah yes. Just in time for Christmas.

@user-fq1od6sc5i

4 жыл бұрын

Don't forget New Years. I get crippling anxiety whenever I think about family gatherings

@faraabdiyev8436

4 жыл бұрын

@@user-fq1od6sc5i the best opportunity to see ur cousins and nieces and do some petting 🥴

@Jadedgems

4 жыл бұрын

Kaz facts

@SlinkiestTortoise23

4 жыл бұрын

Kaz It doesn’t get any better! It never does!

@ki-td5yb

4 жыл бұрын

Hail, Satan

If you're reading this please remember, confidence doesn't come from being loud, extroverted, and talkitive. It comes from being comfortable with yourself. That's one thing I've learnt and its helped me a lot in life. At the end of the day, you're gonna find people like you much more when you're being real.

@ifyourepeatalieoftenenough8500

Жыл бұрын

I used to believe that once. I was so stupid. I envy people who are lucky enough to learn how to love themselves and dont tolerate people disrespecting you.

@PasscodeAdvance

Жыл бұрын

Thanks mate

@nicolegenerale

Жыл бұрын

Spot on.

@hawkhead-band6110

Жыл бұрын

Totally agree, thank you. As an introvert, it's taken me many years and lots of self work to realise this, and to no longer give a crap about societal constructs.

@x_o2052

Жыл бұрын

thank you. I used to be so jealous of people who were naturally extroverted because they seemed more comfortable with themselves, had an easier time making friends, and so on. But being comfortable with yourself doesn't mean that you have to be a certain way at all. It's about accepting yourself for the way you are, knowing that you are worthy and deserving of love, and if that means that you want to grow and change then that is wonderful too, but it should be for yourself. I also feel like there are stigmas around quieter people, or introverts. I remember a few times when people would make fun of me for being reserved when I was younger, or just be mean. And of course this just made it worse, made me feel like there was something wrong with me and that I should hide even more. But now I see that those people might have been dealing with their own insecurities, their own desperation to feel accepted and liked. And if that meant picking on other people, then they would do it because it gained them validation. People like that were also probably very insecure, and took it out on other people like I notice some people do. I honestly sometimes feel really bad for people like that, because they may have been taught to believe that that is normal growing up, not been shown love. I hope that everyone, including myself can love themselves more. It is not easy, but not impossible. And you can try to help others to love themselves by telling them kind words, letting that be the thing that grows and blossoms in their mind instead of negative thoughts, and anxiety. I wish that those kind things were said to me by my parent when I was a kid, because it's hard now to think that I _don't_ deserve terrible things said and done to me, and I am trying to learn to be aware that I _do_ deserve and am worthy unconditional love. -So sorry for ranting,- it all just came out lol:) anyways be kind to others, and most importantly be kind to yourself.

"I genuinely hate myself" Literally everyone: "Good."

@carolynsherman6631

4 жыл бұрын

I'm aware this is a joke. But my cynicism and morbid humor brain is curious if 'everyone' saying good is say out compensation for their worth?

@ashmax3228

4 жыл бұрын

U know if people said "Good" i will be upset and of they cared and tried to help me i will push them away, what is wrong with me? .... oh wait☺, its just everything is wrong with me.

@carolynsherman6631

4 жыл бұрын

@@ashmax3228 x'D

@stoofypoof7998

3 жыл бұрын

Learn to let go kzread.info/dash/bejne/iqZh1JpuZay-n7w.html

@muffins8566

3 жыл бұрын

ARTEM DORDZHIEV join the club

For some odd reason when someone is rude to me I always blame myself

@hiphop6106

4 жыл бұрын

Wrong, when someone is rude to you. You have to stand up for yourself, automatically you will respect yourself and others will respect you.

@lisaschuster9305

4 жыл бұрын

Watch that feeling and that thought process closely, and the next time it happens remember that you've got another choice. It takes some practice.

@mr_spookypants

4 жыл бұрын

@@lisaschuster9305 that's beautiful, I will try remember that, thank you Lisa!

@dylon4906

4 жыл бұрын

Ive realized that I do that all the time too, if someone is rude or rejects me or ignores me im always first to put the blame on myself, like maybe what I said wasnt good enough, rather than consider that maybe the other person isnt in a good mood or theyre just an unpleasant person.

@Katya-rc9ee

4 жыл бұрын

When someone is rude to you it only has to do with them and their internal issues.

To everyone watching this video: I sincerely pray that you find the answer you’re looking for. Edit: It's been two years since this comment and I'm still alive. There are still times when I wish I wasn't but they are becoming less frequent. It seems that things do get better. It warms my heart that I'm not alone in this journey as this comment section proves. I appreciate you all. Thank you so much and I hope that things continue to get better for all of us.

@harsimarbhatia2927

4 жыл бұрын

Reyner Calayo thanks man I felt that ❤️👍

@69LOLIN

4 жыл бұрын

😊💕👍

@TomScryleus

4 жыл бұрын

thank you Reyner

@Ella-ns9ps

4 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️

@stuffseller3913

4 жыл бұрын

U too

I’ve always have this crippling fear from making any mistakes or get humiliated because of them. I’m 35 y/o and still get terrified of people humiliating me and I don’t know how to defend myself. I feel like a child who’s constantly apologise to get people forgiveness. It hurts me so much .. I want to learn how to love and stand up for myself more, and accept my mistakes as part of me.

@takeinpositivity6972

Жыл бұрын

I understand. Wish you all the best. Remember that you are worthy and have the right to make mistakes. Nobody and nothing is perfect and nobody can make you feel humiliated unless you let them. You have that power. Don't give it away. Stand up for yourself. You deserve it! Blessings 💕

@Hmy87

Жыл бұрын

@@takeinpositivity6972 Thank you so much for your sweet words. I can’t appreciate you enough It means a lot. ❤️🙏🏼

@takeinpositivity6972

Жыл бұрын

@@Hmy87 Hey I hope all is well with you. Thank you so much! I don't know if you saw my comment. It was really long but I still feel like I'm not doing anything meaningful and that also stems from this false idea that we need to earn our worth. And I'm a little down right now. Seeing your reply, I'm happy to know that I may have made a tiny difference. I meant every word and you seem like a beautiful soul. Love and blessings. 🙏 ❤

@Hmy87

Жыл бұрын

@@takeinpositivity6972 I’m sorry 😣 about that. Yes, I read your reply. I hope you’ll feel better soon ❤️. I’m sure can go through this ❤️. Take care. 😘

@takeinpositivity6972

Жыл бұрын

@@Hmy87 Hey friend! I hope you're doing great! Thank you so much. I don't normally use this account so I just checked and saw your reply. You know we all have those days. I'm alright now, thanks. I wish you happiness, peace and love ❤

I can't even remember a time when I liked or loved myself. I often feel like the world would be a much better place without me.

@jacobadams8407

2 жыл бұрын

Me too. It's really hard some days.

@headofvengarl8893

2 жыл бұрын

Same. I can't remember ever not hating myself and I guess that hatred has just grown and grown over time If only I could just stay asleep all the time

@yougotnojams6784

Жыл бұрын

Self love is bigger mistery than death to me

@klarasavli1248

Жыл бұрын

How are you now? Hope things are better

@MrNerdyBrit

Жыл бұрын

@@klarasavli1248 I'm generally better, still have bad days. Thanks for checking in, I appreciate you :)

I started crying when he mentioned that we just need love

@chloearavani960

2 жыл бұрын

@@MrVignesh028 the shelter I've found was in witchcraft and paganism after all. But thank you!

@melodycool7722

2 жыл бұрын

That all we need.

@pinkiefinger6402

Жыл бұрын

LMAO same😭

@AbegailD._1

11 ай бұрын

God is the source of true life. Our life is from God. We can find life to God, real life not just life without life. The reason why we live of full of darkness here in earth becausw satan came in and eve and adam disobey God but God give His one and only Son to save and get us from the hands of satan, and its demons. God already won the battle against the enemy because of the cross, He defeated the curse, payment because of our sins. Instead we are the ones who will pay it, He already pay it in His blood. He washes our sins and freed us from anything but we have a choice if we are going to accept it and His salvation that He gave to us. He already knocking to you if you read this, invite Him to your life, heart and mind. Read His truth which is the Word in the bible. You will know the truth behind those lies from demons and satan. God will be coming againt to His second coming to get His sons and daughters, He will end this fully, this battle against the enemy but since we already get the victory and there is a promise we still to fight everyday with God, with Jesus. And in Jesus name, there is power. He is powerful and at the same time kind and loving God. He will frogive your sins if you ask for forgiveness. God loves you,, everyone of us

Absolutely spot on. As someone with bad anxiety, the constant fear of my impending, justified punishment for existing was something I had no idea wasn't normal. Once you recognize it, you start to feel better.

@freymorgan7588

4 жыл бұрын

I felt the same for such a long time. I thought it was normal, and how everyone felt.

@lexiavoyne9298

4 жыл бұрын

Same! Had a freak out when I misplace a phone because I "knew" something bad would happen; I was having a good time.

@SheynaVVV

2 жыл бұрын

I never thought of it as certain, impending punishment for existing, but that nails it.

@gsiya4023

2 жыл бұрын

I didn't even have an idea I hate myself but one day I was putting myself down as usual and i was like wait a min and I realised. First you need to accept you do then comes the cure

@jonnyw82

2 жыл бұрын

You mean punishment from God?

I don't think I was negelected as a kid in any way, but I still hate myself more than I could hate anyone ever. And this fact makes me hate myself even MORE because even with all the love of the people in my life, I still ended up like this...

@rickatanasianman5136

Жыл бұрын

This is exactly how I feel I haven’t been neglected or abandoned but I hate myself and I don’t think I ever will get over that self hatred no matter what I try and I’m still trying I can’t believe that anyone genuinely loves me I keep thinking everyone will leave me and that I’ll be alone but I also feel I deserve to be abandoned it’s a push pull that happens every day it’s a pain

@Human1136

Жыл бұрын

Same boat ⛵

@AbegailD._1

11 ай бұрын

God did not wants us to hate ourselves but to love ourselves that is according to His love, in His word. We cannot able to love people and even ourselves without God's love. God wants to live a real life for us, we will be find a life that is full love, joy, and peace through God. God will set us free through His word, promises through the truth that He speak in His Word in the bible. God is powerful and nothing is impossible to God. Ge can do the impossible, possible. God died for you and He rose again. He will fight your battle. Surrender it to Him. God will coming back, repent and be baptised with the Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit will help us to obey and read God's word. He will help us to live for God

@sarahdaoudi8881

4 ай бұрын

There's probably something that caused it, for a long time I overlooked the bullying that happened to me, and the easily-frustrated angry nature of some adults that made me indirectly feel like a burden. Anyway, I want to say that the pain and shame of hating ourselves is a very real feeling and experience, but the belief is an illusion, no matter how ingrained in our subconscious it is, whenever it pops up (and I realised recently that it pops up daily for me, i'll shame myself if I do as little as be indecisive) respond with love to yourself, the instinct is to shame and confirm that we are indeed unworthy, catch that thought and correct it with a compassionate response, as if speaking to someone else, i hope we all heal in time

I have a hard time loving myself, mostly because how narcassistic I feel when I even take a compliment about myself; I am almost always not proud about the things I do, and if I do, I end up feeling guilty cause I think I'm being to prideful or something....

@ifyourepeatalieoftenenough8500

Жыл бұрын

It is healthy to like yourself, actually its neccessary to survive. Narcisst are people who think themselves deserving best while everyone else does not. If i am for example happy for succeeding its healthy. If i am angry about people doing better than me claiming that should be me its narcisstic.

@Thesmus

Жыл бұрын

@@ifyourepeatalieoftenenough8500 thanks :)

@farofitchis

Жыл бұрын

i really feel you, hope you're doing ok over there 💛

So, the weird thing is, I like myself, yet I'm almost convinced no one else could. Like, the only person who could like being around me is me. I know that's logically probably not true, but I can't kill the thought from my subconscious anyway.

@cornelia7889

4 жыл бұрын

Aman Haris this is EXACLTY how i feel! It is like feeling that you are unworthy of others' affection. Thinking about this in my situation, i feel in a way that this still hits to a problem of self esteem/appreciation because, when it comes to comparing myself to other people, i feel like i'm not as "good" or "worthy" as them.

@huyenle7242

4 жыл бұрын

Haha, same. Do you have parents who can't stand to be around you, too?

@megsears760

4 жыл бұрын

Yess yes yes you guys

@KittyPieVibes

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah same! There’s stuff about me that I don’t feel is good enough for other people but I also knows there’s things about me that are unique and nice and I wish someone would give me the chance to prove myself

@catsrule1343

3 жыл бұрын

Same. I like a lot about myself but the fact that I don't have a ton of friends or ppl in general who take interest in me makes me feel like I'm the only one who could like myself.

Knowing that I cause my anxiety with self hate only makes me dislike myself more. This hit too close to home. lol not feeling confident makes me avoid social situations all together bc I will be uncomfortable the entire time. Merry Christmas! 🤗

@squiddy3915

4 жыл бұрын

John Smith as if. Both genders have their own struggles

@chrishayes5755

4 жыл бұрын

sure you cause your own anxiety but that's not going deep enough. is the cause logical (something you must fix) or illogical (thoughts you should discard). you need to isolate your self hating thoughts to analyze them.

@Katya-rc9ee

4 жыл бұрын

John Smith What did you get out of telling her that???? The job? The house? The girl you’ve always wanted?

@Raven-mp7bv

4 жыл бұрын

Donald Trumps Snorts Adderall There is no reasoning with incels. Don’t waste your time.

@micwd9589

4 жыл бұрын

John Smith why’d you have to be that guy? just say you don’t like women and keep it moving

I dislike myself because other peoole get angry with me, annoyed at me, yell at me, reject me, abandom me. I can't manage my every day life and other people excpect me to. I don't find the help I need and people expect me to. The key for me is guilt and coping with stress.

@Human1136

Жыл бұрын

First of all.. throw away the word -cope- second of all... Stress isn't even a way of managing life in anyway shape or form it demolishes your daily thinking and overall living..

Whenever I feel anxious and insignificant (mostly as a result of anxiety attacks) I would remind myself of my favorite line in the Desiderata poem: "You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. You have a right to be here." We're worthy.

@Sue-rh4qj

Жыл бұрын

Yes that's nice but the trees and stars don't go round doing bad things. Well, trees might fall and kill people but not on purpose. We have agency and a sense of right and wrong. We may have done things we regret which cause shame. Maybe we did these things because we were not brought up properly, with enough love?

@aliwilkinson2485

Жыл бұрын

Connecting to the universe and relating to myself in that way helps me too I’ve found 🙂 you deserve to be here because you exist, end of. It’s nice and simple, no noise.

@AbegailD._1

11 ай бұрын

You are important to God, God loves you. He died for you and He rose again. He loves you and cares for you. Surrender to Him your life and you will never be disappointed. Give everything to God and He will take care you. I want to share this verse whenever I feel insecure. It is the Word of God Psalm 139:13-14 NIV For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Why is there no podcast for School of life??? I would love to listen to these things on the go without having to pay for KZread Premium

@hithere2333

3 жыл бұрын

Yessssss podcast would be good

@GOODGOON

3 жыл бұрын

call me old fashioned, but you can my friend, just play the video swipe down into your notification center & let it play in the background from your pocket just don’t lock your phone

@hithere2333

3 жыл бұрын

@@GOODGOON but you can’t listen offline that’s the problem 😟

@fadirached2386

3 жыл бұрын

Try youtube vanced if you have Android

@yin97825

3 жыл бұрын

seconding KZread Vanced!

“You is kind You is smart You is important”

@ruwhite6312

4 жыл бұрын

Yous is correct

@isasaman340

4 жыл бұрын

BlessedSoul🌟 are

@227Love

4 жыл бұрын

Isa Melissa you didn’t get the reference

@magiv4205

4 жыл бұрын

It's been a long time since I've seen that film referenced and seeing it here made me smile💕💕

@227Love

4 жыл бұрын

Magi V glad it did I have this quote stuck in my brain ever since :)

I'm so confused as to why my self-hatred and anxiety can be so severe at times, and yet I never experienced any childhood trauma or neglect. So many of these types of videos suggest that this type of thing is rooted in childhood, and yet I just can't see the connection for me.

@alvirahman5628

2 жыл бұрын

Same, girl.

@zarrowthehorse

2 жыл бұрын

Because these videos don't cater to everybody. That's why I don't understand all the comments saying that they 100% relate. It doesn't make sense

@aileenpuga8420

2 жыл бұрын

Same I’ll never understand how I ended up this way when I had a good childhood

@simplelife9702

2 жыл бұрын

For me it comes from my childhood..I don't think I like it changing one school to another got me avoiding people

@redfo3009

2 жыл бұрын

It had to stem from something.. it was neglect even just emotional? I had a great childhood except for a few key aspects that fundamentally changed my personality

I never admited I dislike myself until now , now understanding I never loved myself, I manipulated myself into thinking I did while silently judging myself

(>'-')> I would like to extend a virtual hug to everybody struggling out there.

@lisaschuster9305

4 жыл бұрын

That's awesome! You can do it in the real world (consensually) - there are anxious people everywhere.

@69LOLIN

4 жыл бұрын

😊👍💕

@mhdyieh1235

4 жыл бұрын

OMG this made me happy😂💘

@sunnydforfree7145

4 жыл бұрын

@tedcruzforgayrights2045

4 жыл бұрын

Looks like Kirby and that makes me extra happy

I've suffered from anxiety for a long time now and while I have learned to cope better with it, my main problem really is my low self-esteem. I wouldn't say I hate myself but when faced with other people, responsibilities and expectations, I constantly think I'm not able/skilled enough to do it and that other people will be disappointed and angry. It get's real old real fast, but I can't seem to shake this ingrained belief (yet)

@nbcommiedyke

2 жыл бұрын

sorry for replying a year later, but you literally just described me 🥲

@AndroidInHumansClothing

2 жыл бұрын

@@nbcommiedyke sorry that you're in the same boat. But I'm glad you felt understood by my comment

@stephaniewalker1103

2 жыл бұрын

This is me. And when I do push through but don’t get the kind of feedback I was hoping for (even when it is positive, just not in the way I wanted it to make myself feel better), I crumble within myself. Basically hardening the thought of I’m not good enough, not able to, not skilled enough even more

@julietwatson4642

Жыл бұрын

I feel exactly like you

@lbell9695

Жыл бұрын

"I wouldn't say I hate myself but when faced with other people, responsibilities and expectations, I constantly think I'm not able/skilled enough to do it and that other people will be disappointed and angry." I 100% resonate with this. I thought that by developing social skills, becoming charismatic and having a nonchalant attitude would help, but no, it was just a façade to cover up my internal insecurities of not being good enough. It succeeded in self-deception but now the mask is fracturing bit by bit. It doesn't help that your parents and your younger sister are extremely skilled and successful and you're struggling to stay afloat. Now that I'm aware of this issue, I need to find the baby steps needed to combat it. It's not healthy and it can cause bouts of envy, inaction and self-victimising, facets of my ugly side that I don't want anybody to see.

I just want to cry when people hug me for too long or say things like you are great don’t be guilty it’s not you fault. (Then hate myself even more for being this pathetic)sign.Hope you all find peace with yourself

@scarsviadeath

3 жыл бұрын

I've found peace in drugs, though i cant get any right now,i love how my mind can be free during this condition, because my sober life is shitty and pointless

@tafi4377

5 күн бұрын

@@scarsviadeath real this is, i fear, my destiny

My mother often said hated me and used to really be horrid to me. She taught me to hate myself over the years. It had a terrible impact on my life from which I still suffer today. Luckily I have no contact to her although she lives nearby.

@pantherman8719

Жыл бұрын

That sucks man. Sorry to hear that.

@donalgramae

Жыл бұрын

Mine used to regularly tell me that I'm "going to be no-good, just like my father.." and that I'm stupid. I realize now that I've always believed her, even though she's dead. "

@gagadonim3354

Жыл бұрын

I suck at life pretty heavy but both of my parents love me to death while the world hates me. The reason I don't care because I have my parents. I can't imagine your mother not loving you. I would not survive without my mothers love

@dancingnature

Жыл бұрын

I was an extremely anxious child. Couldn’t even look people in the face . Started to come out of the anxiety when I started doing hobbies I liked , over my parents objections . Realized as a teen that a lot of the anxiety was due to the constant over controlling , physical , verbal and emotional abuse I was continually subjected to.

Christmas is bad time for those people who have a social anxiety

@IamINERT

4 жыл бұрын

Christmas gathering was crap 🤦🏽‍♂️

@Zalodar26

4 жыл бұрын

rap101ism I have social anxiety and it is very crippling and debilitating. Christmas and New Year celebrations are really horrible for me because they are all socially based. I’m always happier and relieved once it is all over.

@ronnickels5193

4 жыл бұрын

Don't forget Valentines Day.

@Kaiisdreaming

4 жыл бұрын

Christmas is aweful

@au9parsec

4 жыл бұрын

Christmas time, that squidward time of year.

There needs to be another selection for the quiz, "Disagree so strongly that you nearly vomit." Yeah, I hate myself pretty badly. I am so filled with Toxic Shame that I constantly hear the phrase "You should be killed" running through my mind. Nevertheless, I persist. I really do believe this can't be all there is.

@skylermikalson6159

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so proud of you! You're right. This isn't all there is. You're truly on your way to a better life.

@brokenbutterfly3178

4 жыл бұрын

How old are you

@alexanderfriis1

4 жыл бұрын

You are a great and strong person for sharing these difficult thoughts your having and You deserve to love yourself Merry christmas

@MrCool-vu1nr

4 жыл бұрын

Try gratitude journaling

@tatioliveira8598

4 жыл бұрын

Same thought here, there must be something else out there, this shitty life with shitty people and shitty situations can't be all that is...

Social anxiety controls my whole life, and it has for a very long time. I’m only 19 but I can’t help but feel like I’ve failed at life already and that I will never go anywhere or be anything more than what I already am. Where I was a few years ago seems so much lower than where I am now yet it still feels exactly the same or even better because the more time goes by the more guilty I feel that I’m standing still and never moving forward. I feel so guilty that my family has to put up with me, mostly because they don’t know how I feel and I’m scared they think all the negative things I think about myself because of how I act. I can’t imagine ever being happy because I can’t imagine ever liking myself or not being terrified of things that should be simple. I know its not all true because I know my family and my one friend really love me. I’m so lucky to have my best friend because she lifts me up everyday but still I feel like a burden to her as well as my family. I don’t know if anyone will even read this but I hope one day I’ll come back here and be able to say I did it. I got a job, I found a passion, I talked to people and made friends, I stopped pushing everyone away, I started enjoying life, I started to like myself. I hope that I can prove myself wrong in every negative thing that I believe and I hope that when I come back and share what happened after today someone who feels the same way that I do now, completely hopeless and hating themselves more for it, will get some hope that it will get better and that they can be happy.

@therealprettynyny2064

3 жыл бұрын

It’s okay , you are not alone . Always remember Jesus is always w/ you. You will get a job & you will find a passion . You are destined for greatness . You WILL OVER COME Anxiety . I’m praying for you.

@somebodythatyouusedtoknow6388

3 жыл бұрын

@@therealprettynyny2064 Thank you❤️ You made my day today

@flowerbloom5782

2 жыл бұрын

I think what I've noticed that I stopped having dreams or even socializing causs of my low self worth. I felt unworthy and if it did happen I was just lucky and it was a matter of time until that happy period ends. I notice I get scared when I catch myself being happy or proud of myself. I realized that instead of me being sad and hating myself why don't I confront these issues and actively go against them like affirmations that I love myself or worthy or I forgive myself. My self hatred makes fun of me for telling myself "delusions" but my hateful thoughts are delusions themselves. So why don't I get to pick the delusions I tell myself and believe in my own worth. I hope this flip of script helps you.

@ifyourepeatalieoftenenough8500

Жыл бұрын

I wish you the very best. You can do it. You are not alone. There are many people like you (including me). Learn to care less about people, thoughts, ideas, that prevent you from growing. Ive heard all the successful people were failing a lot (and stil are) but they made it because they didnt give up. And i believe you can do it, too. I hope you will be reading this and learn to trust in yourself.

@aykesxxxx6495

Жыл бұрын

Somebody that you use... Amen ❤️

My father made my mother and I hate ourselves with the language he used towards us . I never realized how much it affected me until later in life. I would allow others to take advantage of me because of my low self worth.

@rossbrumby1957

Жыл бұрын

When about 14, was doing my homework in the afternoon across the dining room table from Dad. I looked up from writing to see him glaring at me with an expression of hate or disgust and said to me 3 words only: "Christ you're ugly". Out of the blue for no reason, completely out of character, as if he'd just found out I wasn't his own kid or something. I didn't know what to say or do so just froze and kept doing my homework. Never told Mum, only told my closest sister after he died. Pretty sure she didn't believe me at the time. Just makes me join a few dots between much lesser behaviour on his behalf that points to him resenting or hating me all along. When I'm in top gear of self hating, I always end up with that memory foremost in my mind.

I suffer from crippling anxiety but this video reminds me more of when I used to have social anxiety because it's that overwhelming self-consciousness that makes you think that people are out to get you, think you're a freak, or talk behind your back. I just feel that that self-hatred is more present in that form of anxiety.

@stuartmorton8111

Жыл бұрын

Can I ask how you overcame your social anxiety

"I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and doggone it, people like me." - Stuart Smalley

@Just-Nikki

4 жыл бұрын

Drew Fridley read it in his voice

@ki-td5yb

4 жыл бұрын

Hail, Satan.

@MrCool-vu1nr

4 жыл бұрын

@@ki-td5yb Nah hail god

@InnerRise

4 жыл бұрын

@@MrCool-vu1nr um it's Christmas. Hail these gifts I bought.

@arara5084

4 жыл бұрын

@@ki-td5yb hail lucifer

I felt I was unworthy watching this video, then I came by this sentence: "...because if one doesn't think one is worthy, it must follow that the world is permenantly and imminently at high risk of punishing one in the way one suspects one deserves." spot on!

been hospitalized several times for depression.(as well as anxiety) All the hospitals encouraged coloring and art. Thanks to the 'adult coloring' craze a few years back, I bought myself some books. I color every day. To me, it's one of the only things that keep me focused and calm.

@AbegailD._1

11 ай бұрын

I am happy that you are okay now. But I want to share and I ask God to guide me on what I am going to share. God loves you and He did not want us to think evil in ourselves. HE LOVES US AND DIED FOR US IN THE CROSS. The enemy just want to destroy what God wants to give and He already give to us. Demons and satan has a plan and wants to destroy our life, family, health and wealth and that starts satan came in on the Garden of eden when he tempted the 1st person God made which is eve and adam so they get tempted by satan abd the sin came in and still comes in today but Jesus died for us because God the Father give Jesus for us to save and get us back to God, God loves us. He wants us to live but according to God's will and that is for our good. He will coming back again not to crucified but to get His sons and daughters whom obey Him and really love Him. God will finish and already won the battle against satan and darkness. There is a promise to all of us wit God in the heaven but there will be also consequence to those people who did not choose and Him and instead living the life that they want to live. God loves you that is why if you read this, not just you but to everyone; accept Christ as your God and savior and father and obey His word and live for HIM, you will be saved and not going to hell. Hell is real and so as heaven and God and satan. The battle is in the spiritual realm. Mental sickness is spiritual attack from demons and satan. Satan is the father of lies.

Just got the video notification in the middle of an anxiety attack.

@LoreMIpsum-vs6dx

4 жыл бұрын

Hang on! You'll be ok. Breathe. All the best. L.

@ki-td5yb

4 жыл бұрын

Hail, Satan!

@arara5084

4 жыл бұрын

@@ki-td5yb hail lucifer

@Psych2go

4 жыл бұрын

Do you mind sharing what caused the anxiety?

@nikolastoshic542

4 жыл бұрын

Same

I've never cried this much from a video.

Learnt self hated since I was born. Told she wished I'd never be born, that I'm useless and good for nothing. So hated myself from the get go. Trying to unlearn it for my mental wellbeing. Love to you all, we can do this ❤️❤️❤️

Meditation helps me..i sense the energy in my hands and feet which prevents thinking taking over and allows Peace to rise...resistance caused me so much pain and anxiety... faith in life's benevolence has healed my fear...

From a Lacanian point of view, anxiety comes from not knowing if one is what the Big Other expects us to be, I.e. we are not fulfilling the expectation we have that other people expect from us. In other words, we don't feel like we are good enough, but we don't even know good in what or for what and who expects what from us. And not knowing that is very frighteningly vague. Which takes us to hate ourselves for no clear reasons

@asies660

4 жыл бұрын

Ender Wiggin I hate it that we are considered selfish too. I feel so much guilt about that.

@vidividivicious

4 жыл бұрын

@@asies660 well it is because we measure ourselves with standards based on what society says we should strive for, and if you don't they resent/shame you so you align.

@chrishayes5755

4 жыл бұрын

@@vidividivicious do we really care what people think? kind of. many of us don't give a fuck and have a me against the world mentality. do we care what we think of ourselves? much more so. if you have logical reasons to hate yourself that is the main cause of anxiety. the mind produces anxiety as a catalyst for change. if we don't start to create change it it will advance to feelings of hopelessness (depression). someone might tell me I'm an asshole and I won't care, unless I believe it for myself.

@Raven-mp7bv

4 жыл бұрын

Chris Hayes I feel we all could have “logical” reasons to dislike ourselves if we all thought hard enough (even healthy minded people considering we all have regrets in life). Anxiety can amplify “illogical” reasons and that’s what makes anxiety so difficult to overcome. We can’t tell what is logical or illogical to dislike so a good change may be difficult to see without help of course.

I hope more people reject the pressure of being in a company of people, during holidays. Many end up feeling miserable and worthless, just because the don't fit into the tradition.

@MrCool-vu1nr

4 жыл бұрын

Fair enough but being rejected is another story all together.

@angelicakhalik5280

4 жыл бұрын

That's so true!

@MrCool-vu1nr

4 жыл бұрын

@Reggie Cyde smh I wish thy could stop but nah

It's not that I believe myself unworthy, it's the world's actions that made me believe I'm unworthy.

2 years ago I used to have a very distorted image of myself. I had low self esteem and the unwanted negative attention I used to get from some people in my school really made it worse. I was so insecure, that even going to school became a burden. I was judged and felt so lonely. Time passed, and I have a better image of myself. I’m finally comfortable with the way I look and I’m really confident in my actions now…and in the end..I only grew tougher. It was a very fragile period of my life, and the bullying I’ve experienced made it even harder for me. I fortunately had the right people by my side to help me get out of this pool of sadness and show me that life is more than that. No one deserves to go through this.

No coincidence that this is a Christmas day release

@ki-td5yb

4 жыл бұрын

Hail, Satan.

@arara5084

4 жыл бұрын

@@ki-td5yb hail lucifer

@LuisSierra42

4 жыл бұрын

@@ki-td5yb Hail Hydra

@ReasonAboveEverything

4 жыл бұрын

ARARA , It's Helel ben Shahar

@rosacellulosa4460

4 жыл бұрын

Hail santa

The holidays is unfortunately a time where anxiety runs rampant and that can transition into self- resentment when it isn't addressed properly. I'm glad you chose today to post this. Thank you.

@davemorrissey9133

3 жыл бұрын

Alex Clementine Be safe ☘ keep it in the day🙂

@AlexClementine

3 жыл бұрын

@@davemorrissey9133 Thank you 🙏🏾 Your timing couldn't have been better. Be well

@davemorrissey9133

3 жыл бұрын

Thank u🙂

@AbegailD._1

11 ай бұрын

Jesus is the prince of peace. God wants to have peace. Read His truth in the bible and it will transform our mind life

I've come to the realization recently that I'm not special. I'm not some brave and handsome protagonist of a film, and people don't see me the way I see myself, so it's been hard not to feel a failure and to love myself even after all of the backlash the real world gave me... This video helped me to start the journey of understanding myself and loving those parts I never thought I would accept, so thank you

The worst part is I’m always aware of the irrationality behind my own self-hatred. I would never judge nor hate anyone who looked/behaved/thought/and felt like me, but because it’s ME… I hate it. I’m also aware that the amount of shame I hold is simply because I have the desire to be loved, which is a perfectly normal human need. But I just! can’t! shake! this! feeling! Anxiety, shame, doubt, and low self-esteem completely dictate my everyday life and it is soooooo exhausting.

Needed this STRONGLY. Deserved it STRONGLY.

@mashable8759

4 жыл бұрын

You deserve anything you PIECE of shit

@mashable8759

4 жыл бұрын

@Koome you missed the joke you self hating piece of shit

"Memory loss treats all psychological disorders."

@Raynart25

4 жыл бұрын

True it’s our past causing us all this pain in the present

@lmao.3661

4 жыл бұрын

wouldn't help ASD

@spookybaba

4 жыл бұрын

So do decapitations 😉

@feels6233

3 жыл бұрын

And create another one called Alzheimer’s

@bahzoo5042

3 жыл бұрын

I’m losing my memory at 20 years old and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone

Anxiety is something that I used to deal with heavily for many years, and like the video describes, it was due to self-hatred. Once I began appreciating myself and changing that inner monologue to one of positivity, the anxiety slowly began to disappear. Now anxiety is truly a rare occurrence, and when it does come up, it goes away very quickly. No lingering like in the past.

I’m always just a waste of oxygen taking up space. I am pointless and I just hate when I have to feel that, and it starts to kick in.. anyone? 😢

You know what's crazy? He freakin' predicted my answers to the questionnaire.

The timing of this is, as often, perfect.

@NenaLavonne

4 жыл бұрын

M 😊

"..because if one doesn't think one is worthy, it must follow that the world is permanently and imminently at high risk of punishing one in the way one suspects one deserves." This is so wonderfully articulated. My appreciation for this channel is growing towards gratitude.

I’m glad I’ve found this video, I do think that my social anxiety is one of the reasons I hate myself because I can’t manage to make connections with anyone and I feel like I’m losing it with the ones I already have. I’m self sabotaging myself and too lazy to take action and stop

I always think the bully is the sick one, dont care what the world will say, like my self, should be greatful , i agree and taught my kids to love them selfs then they can give love to others and they do

@MrCool-vu1nr

4 жыл бұрын

Should be grateful of what?

@angelicakhalik5280

4 жыл бұрын

That's a good point, I teach my kids the same. I dont just show them love I am love. I drown them in it. And its affected them so much and how they treat others. And I believe bessy bessy means to be grateful in general. There's a lot to be grateful for. And teaching them to be grateful as children they will carry that mentality through adulthood instead of focusing on what they don't have, they will be grateful for what they do, and life in general.

@bessybessy8053

4 жыл бұрын

@@MrCool-vu1nr Love from greece, should be greatful for life for time its all a gift, dont spend it on low thoughts ,

I realized when I have really bad anxiety is normally attached to my company.

@Jadedgems

4 жыл бұрын

Same

@butterflyqueen9260

4 жыл бұрын

@ThatBadGuy I did

@Yellow.1844

4 жыл бұрын

@ThatBadGuy shut the fuck up

@angelicakhalik5280

4 жыл бұрын

It's TRUE, and may mean that you are a sensitive.. meaning that you absorb the energies of others. So of you wanna hang out with those same people develop and anchor. Like prayer beads, or a stress stone, something to that affect. Its help to keep their negative energy inside them and not enter yourself causing anxiety

@abic2393

4 жыл бұрын

He said “one” or “one self” 25 times.

When things start to become ok in my life I literally feel like I don’t deserve it and something bad is gonna happen soon, relating back to the “calm period” statement. I just can feel comfortable in my own skin. I just feel like I want/need something that will give me what I need.

On one hand, it’s comforting to see that so many other people in this comment section also hate themselves. Like I’m not this isolated instance/event that is fundamentally different from everyone one else. But on the other hand, it’s so heartbreaking to think just how many people walk through life not feeling like they deserve to be for themselves. Imagine the countless grey faces you walk by on a daily basis. How many of them also can’t walk to school/work/whatever else without their negative thoughts swarming their headspace? How many of them are so used to it that they feel like they deserve that constant “I’m keeping you in check so you don’t prove to others that you’re the failure you are.” Etc. etc.

You nailed it and unfortunately it's the exact same thing that's been happening with my mom!!! She doesn't love herself, she was never taught to love herself, and it shatters my heart to see that!!! It shattered my heart when she said to me today that she deserves to suffer, I was like "wait, no, you don't deserve to suffer, what hell are you talking about???" Yeah, the struggle is real!!! 😢😢😢😢😔😔😔

this was the best christmas gift I could ever ask for

@TomScryleus

4 жыл бұрын

same here

I've never heard my day to day thoughts so perfectly explained. I've never had the words to explain what I'm going through on a daily basis in my mind, this just painted a picture and brought to light so many things I had questions about!

Of all your videos, this one struck a chord with me the most. I’ve always struggled with feelings of worthlessness and anxiety, though my anxiety is connected to my PTSD, which was caused when I was a year and a half old due to witnessing the domestic violence of my father towards my mother.

Someone's not having a great Christmas

@arara5084

4 жыл бұрын

Hello fellow Indian, good to see you here

@mortadahasaad530

4 жыл бұрын

ARARA , you two should start a new civilization

@IamINERT

4 жыл бұрын

Family gathering 🙄

@vonnievonv

4 жыл бұрын

Hi

@THEMEISTER004

3 жыл бұрын

I was crying while i read this comment,mid-mental breakdown i watched this video and found your comment,thanks for the laugh mid-sorrow

Isn't it interesting that we are all in this together? We all experience anxiety and other unpleasant emotions to some degree. This thought helps me to feel a bit better because i don't feel so lonely with this shit anymore

I usually only randomly cry because of emotional shows, but this one did it for me. Thank you so much for sharing this analysis with the world. It seems I really needed it

I'm so sick of myself. I'm sick of sabotaging myself and hurting myself over and over and over again without ever learning from any of my mistakes. I wish I could be someone else, someone functioning.

'Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom'

@WestbustahSaucedo

4 жыл бұрын

Who said that?

@chaosdweller

4 жыл бұрын

Nice

In love with just his voice, it’s so soothing like he understands everything about you

I love myself but once I doubt myself once it’s over my confidence turn into a self destructive weakness such as sport if I doubt my ability to play with everyone it stop me from playing at my best and it doesn’t help that every little thing I reflect on how I could do it better instead of bring happy that I achieve something

This makes actual sense, no joke. Thank you. I struggle with all of this, no confidence, self-hatred, anxiety, depression. I feel like this makes perfect sense because I was not shown much affection as a child, couple that with using hardcore drugs at an early age and opiates/heroin for the last twenty years (I’m 36 now). I’m just ready for this trip to be over. I’m done and over it all.

Fantastic video and very informative. The most important relationship we have in life is the one we have with ourselves

I've grown up with a lot of self-hatred to the point I've started to repress my emotions and feeling disgust everytime I look in the mirror. I've lost confidence both towards me and towards others and now I feel empty everyday, I don't have enough energy to do anything not even the simpler tasks and I always have a pessimistic view on the world. I wonder when is this going to end

I have been diagnosed with anxiety so many times in my life and this video is the one thing that made me realize what im actually feeling. Its amaizing. Thank you so much i can finally start working on myself properly.

This is so profoundly true. The missing piece in so many approaches to anxiety.

Im gonna show this video to my therapist

@tatioliveira8598

4 жыл бұрын

Good idea, maybe I'll do that too

@_Chessa_

4 жыл бұрын

After your therapist see’s said video; She/he starts realizing her/his past and starts balling on the ground.

Remembering to repeat a mantra of self-love and self-acceptance has really helped me. I recommend downloading a mantra app that will automatically remind you of a few mantras everyday as a notification. It is the most low-effort way of seeing some actual results. I have moved past some of my self-esteem issues because of this. ❤ I hope this helps someone.

I used to hate myself, as I slowly started to love myself and change my inner world, I feel more comfortable with myself. I did something like you mentioned take an inventory of myself. I sat and accepted my anxiety, it was very hard but it has now become manageable. I have started looking after myself, changed my hair style, enjoy my company. I feel more able to socialise now. I work with my psychologist and do my homework. Your channel is one of them. Now I know I don't need to be perfect to have a steady life with its ups and downs.

This was literally me for a few years, until two years ago, when I was able to get over some things and heal. I suffered from low self esteem most of my life. Looking back, I realized that I had many irrational fears. I wish I had known back then that I was perfectly OK :) One of the positive outcomes of going through so much pain and then healing was that I now care way less about what people might think of me, because you realize that people are not worth your pain. One of the ways that I healed my anxiety was actually taking care of myself and nourishing myself better.

I remember reading this essay the first time on a bus, and crying Very insightful and helpful as always, thank you so much

@OP-xi1hv

4 жыл бұрын

what essay?

I’m not sure... but it would seem that I could definitely like myself more. Thank you for opening my eyes to this!

@TomScryleus

4 жыл бұрын

its good isnt it? :)

@ThePositivityPrincess

4 жыл бұрын

Tom Scryleus absolutely! Xoxox

Rebel against your will to hate yourself. Biggest takeaway from this!

This was wonderful, thank you for describing that state so accurately. I'm missing my therapy sessions due to the quarantine, get progressively worse and sometimes I still have problems reminding myself what to not forget. This helped.

I’ve always had high levels self hatred. However, it’s also fueled me making many improvements in my life. Now I’m afraid if I stop, my drive to improve will lessen. It’s a double edged sword.

@TomScryleus

4 жыл бұрын

I hear you bro. I feel similar.

Family gathering at my house. I just stayed in my room the whole time. Leaving me room for like 10 seconds to either pee or get food. 👁__👁

@chaosdweller

4 жыл бұрын

😶

@pandabear5765

3 жыл бұрын

Me too..🙁.

I always feel like no matter what I do, even if it’s done the best I can, I always feel like I could’ve done better. This always makes me feel like I’m always failing. And what makes me most angry about this is that I caused ths, I chose to have this mindset. No one poisoned me, I poisoned myself without even realizing it. And the side effects of this poisoon are long term, and hard to recover from.

This brought me to tears. I have very bad test anxiety and I already hurt myself when I made mistakes so these are related to my self loathing not just anxiety. I have been bullied so I started to believe what people said to me which is why is looked up "why do I self harm"

The last 3 months I've been suffering from something that I can't explain. I have subconscious anxiety and my body is showing that to me. High blood pressure and tinnitus. This is turning me mental. I think my situation is explained in this video.

@sashagarval276

4 жыл бұрын

You should go and see a therapist or find a close friend to talk about it. Take care of your mental healthy :)

@MrCool-vu1nr

4 жыл бұрын

Yea it might be some where in your childhood u might have been mistreated thus it's manifesting into your body thru panic attacks

@Amquacktador

4 жыл бұрын

Same, but with headaches and vision blurriness

Get this, I have incredibly high self-esteem, as in I love myself and think everyone would enjoy me and think I bring value to the lives of those who know me...but I have diagnosed anxiety because brains aren't always foolproof hardware. What helps me cope is knowing what anxiety looks like when it presents itself to me so that I can acknowledge and then ignore the inner perfectionist critic, and in moments of extreme anxiety, a muscle relaxant to help reduce the physical struggle of simply bearing through an anxiety attack.

This makes so much sense. My anxieties are usually about my lacking ability in different areas and I have tried to fill that void with work, things, externalities to give myself worth. To have worth for being human is so foreign to me… and to love myself with mental illness is so impossible to accept, but it feeds the vicious cycle. I love this video

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Its never enough , no one will give you enough validation

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Only comes from within

This was exactly how I felt a year ago! Now I feel a bit better. People have to remember that their self-hatred is completely understandable and can be fixable with professional help. It will be scary to exit that state of mind, but the rewards will be worth it. Just be strong and stay strong. Not to be toxicly positive, but the world will be a bit upset if you don't do them the good you have inside YOU.

Wow. This is great insight. It really seems to make a lot of sense. Today's society is always told they are inadequate by advertising. They need to look like the person in the ad or have this product to be happy. They push our emotional buttons to sell us stuff we really don't need.

I never knew what I was doing to myself was self hatred. I thought I was just feeling these things, like feeling worthless was just a feeling? If that would make sense. I saw self hatred as insulting oneself stupid and the like, but this makes more sense to me now. The love over logic was important too, and the past neglect wasn't deserved part... thank you. I needed to hear that.

It's hard to accept the fact that i don't like myself and just avoid going outside because i feel like i don't belong, its a hard pill to swallow and i wanna change for the better

Anytime something good happens or goes my way, however small, something very bad ALWAYS follows. Always. All I know is, as long as nothing especially good happens to/for me, then nothing especially bad follows.

Oh god. That last sentence struck me the most. I just cried cause it is true. ll i can do is to take a deep breath. :(

I actually Never comment on Videos But seeing in the comment section How Many People struggle with Self hatred and suicidal thoughts: you will get through this! For sure! There are people out there who care deeply for you even if you may Not be Able to believe it right now. Help is out there, and you dont have to be alone with this. To everyone who struggles: i Hope you are feeling better soon. Never lose Hope, everything can change so fast and one day you will look back and be happy that you gave yourself the chance you deserve

This was really helpful! It offered me a sound perspective from which to evaluate my own feelings. It helped me to realize that I have conflated the feeling of self-loathing with anxiety, to the point that I often turn on myself when feeling anxious about my own choices. Thanks for this video❤