This is not a real story of my life but an example of the life of someone who has this Saturn placement. Don't forget to check out the Saturn introduction video (as usual) ! 😘

I feel all satrun in 4 th house have messed up families on both sides 😑which ultimately messes you up as a kid. Trust me loneliness and emptiness you feel is just....bad

My childhood was also very lonely. I was raised by my grandparents until school age. Childhood was lonely, my parents were both destroyed people who couldn't give me the support I needed. Both very critical, unhealthy, co-dependent broken people. Dad also was al alcoholic. I've dealt with depression, eating issues, relationships that were dead-ends, never really being financially stable. I'm 37 now, and after years of therapy and healing, I'm feeling more able to go outside, and be the TRUE me that I am now discovering. 37 years of jail - and I'm finally free. I never want to look back ever again. - Saturn and Pluto in 4H

I also went through an obsession with my ancestry and am the family historian basically. I've travelled around and met relatives, got pictures, stories and am really into honoring and being connected to them. But definitely relating so much to this. I am still working through being a very private person (I think that is my Pluto placement more than anything). I have a difficult time opening up but that also has to do with my Saturn opposing my Mars. I often don't try because I'm so afraid of failing. If anyone discourages me I take it to heart so it's easier to keep it to myself which makes me blocked off emotionally. I basically have no close friends. I probably need to get my butt into therapy. 😑

The acting is so convincing (i didn't know it was a skit until i read the comments😄)and it really painted a realistic fourth house experience.

Watching this was like seeing my life in action. I drew so many parallels from this and at one point I started coming up with questions for my therapist when we meet next. The void and the feeling of emptiness is real and so is family history, which is pretty jacked up on both sides of my family. I'm in my Saturn return right now and have seen so many patterns re-emerge only to be healed once and for all and once my Return is completed I'm definitely not going to be the same person I was growing up. I've learned it's okay to show my emotions and to not be so tough all of the time; to have my own voice and speak out even if I end up looking insane to some people. I'm also embracing my creative side that I've hidden away for over 14 years. Like the character in the wonderfully written monologue, I too want to move out of my mom's house (and my hometown) so I can have a sense of inner peace and calm. Prayerfully, that will happen this year.

It's so crazy how the cries from the little animal truly fits this video.

I also have my Saturn in the 4th house and can relate very much to your story. I too benefited from talk therapy for many years. But it was when I connected to my ancestors that I truly from peace, self love and understand. Stay well.

Don’t blame yourself - you really wanted to belong, somewhere good and safe. You have to find it in yourself the strength to be. Otherwise the people will feel it from afar. You are beautiful and I wish you much good luck and happiness 🐨🥰

It resonated so much....I really feel sometimes that my family is restricting me and they don't wanna hear out my feelings and so I turn to my friends to share my feelings but I do think that it won't work as they won't even feel the same way as me. I like to live in solitude but at the same time I wanna stay in touch with my family ....and guess what my grandma's like me....she wanna live in solitude but also with her children....I mean she want her personal space and nurturing from family at the same time....and that's what I want too....but I think that the only way to solve all this problem is to realise one's worth and just nurish yourself and love yourself and let others love you....even though there's no one to hear u out or understand u....u truly know your feelings and only u can do something about it ideally

Very creative! Thank you ❤️

Relate to your story immensely...not an easy journey. Not having a healthy parental relationship to learn from makes it difficult. Lots of patterns to break...Thank you for sharing. ❤

Kinda my story and saturn in the 4house

I have this placement along with my two year old daughter. Thank you for sharing. I love you Tan!

I'm still listening, so I might comment some more, but I also have this placement. Similar type of energy. My parents also divorced and at first my dad had me (he actually stole me and had taken me out of state), which I hated, although I loved him, because I had wanted to be with my Mom. Eventually at around 8 my dad and his wife decided to let me live with her and basically traded my sister and I because I was quite depressed and started talking about suicide. My mom's husband adopted me and my sister was adopted by my stepmom. Not too long after that I had gone to visit my dad and it went terrible and I asked to go home early because I missed my mom and had PTSD I guess. He let me, but called me up after I got home to tell me I was bad and I couldn't see him or my siblings anymore. They changed their phone number and I didn't hear from them for quite a few years until my sister almost died and they wanted to give me a chance to say goodbye. She made it though luckily! When she saw us she completely turned around and the doctors thought it was seeing us that helped her fight. My mom though was loving, but very strict also. She was so paranoid about losing me and she was always the type to want me to do what she wanted me to do and if I wanted something else she wasn't supportive. She could be so strict she even controlled the music I listened to during certain periods and she eventually homeschooled me. I also have Pluto in the 4th 0 degrees on my IC and it opposes my Sun in the 9th. I actually moved out of the country when I was 18 (9th house stellium with my Sun, Moon, Mercury and Venus in Aries) and have lived away most of my life. I never lived anywhere longer than 4 years throughout my life. I guess Pluto always wants me to transform in that way. Okay, going back to listening! 😁

My heart just hurt knowing that my son has this placement. I'm recently divorced from the addict father and I just want to do right by my children more than anything. I have moon in the 5th. I remember looking at a video of him and my heart breaking so much for him because I had put too much Saturn energy on him at a young age. I wept. He's such a beautiful soul. I can only find comfort in knowing that Saturn will reward him generously as he gets older. I'm only doing the best that I can under the trying circumstances we've endured and I'm working on my own wounding so I can break these cycles 💔😭

Saturn and my sun are conjuncted in Pisces. 80% of what you described was my dad I assume because of the suns influence. My parents have been married for almost 40 years now. However my dad was/is a drunk, he was verbally and emotionally abusive. My mother stood back and allowed it. My dad was crazy strict and my mom was too. I literally had a 11pm curfew until I was 21.........I moved out at 23 and before that I felt like I’d never get away from my family. I literally forced moving out. I saved so much money and moved to a new state because rent was way cheaper here than where I was from. I wasn’t taking no for an answer. The amount of peace and happiness I’ve found living alone is astronomical. It’s interesting because when I did cry as a child my mother would just stare at me, not saying anything. Then as an adult I wonder why I feel like I have to deal with emotional hardships alone and I’m terrified of people seeing me cry. Never really felt important to her especially because she clearly favored my brother over me. She made that super clear

Excellent example 🙌❤️

Hey...this really helped me.

Spot on!!!