Thank you so much for your videos! Upon making the 'connection' of autism I literally wept...and have been processing all the emotions you mention over the past few weeks. I'm pretty sure that level of emotional identification wouldn't be there if it weren't true. I'm 58 this year and my whole life I've felt like I've been on the outside looking in. I'm so intelligent but can't hold my life together in a 'normal' setting for more than a few years. So much information is bubbling to the surface in my mind that I've written down 50 pages of life notes that support a diagnosis. From what I've been researching though, my learned techniques of eye contact and being able to 'read a room' will work against me at the therapists. I for 1 would love it if you would make a video about your assessment...the more information the better, as I'm positive this topic is about to go viral..with all of us 'lost generation' coming out of the closet

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so happy you found me on here. I felt the exact same way! I didn’t learn how to make eye contact until maybe my late teens I think? I’m still trying to figure out how to un-mask too! It’s so hard!

@kathryncollins8708

2 жыл бұрын

I’m 58 in May. Feel much the same. I am definitely HSP and INFJ.

@lillypicadilly4048

2 жыл бұрын

@@kathryncollins8708 Me too and I'm May as well..do you experience any 'clairs'?

I'm 32 and just recently found out I have ADHD and ASD. It really does change how you think about yourself. 🥰

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

It does! I used to be SO hard on myself because I didn't understand why I was this way. I was constantly trying to change myself and nothing ever worked and I ended up burnt out. Sending you all the good vibes!

@kainicole797

2 жыл бұрын

@@lennoxblakeg that's exactly how I feel!

Geez, you’re lucky to be diagnosed by 28. I’m 38 and not yet diagnosed. My 10 year old was diagnosed at 6yrs old. Her older sister was diagnosed at 12 yrs old (also adhd inattentive). While going through the long process with my girls and talking with my youngest daughters therapists and also a couple friends with autistic kids, I realised slowly that I completely understand my girls struggles because I am the same. Even with the adhd too. I then spoke with my mum and looking back, we can both see so much of the autism with me when I was little and also growing up. But when I was little they didn’t know a lot about autism and definitely not with girls. My mum even said to me “i just thought you were a very ‘spirited’ child who didn’t like me much” 💔 it’s so easy to see now, but at 38 I’m still struggling to even get someone to do the assessment for me. Mum can see it and so many things now make sense. She feels bad that I never had understanding or help/therapy but she didn’t know back then. It’s hard. I get it. x

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

I'm VERY Fortunate that i did get one. And I got very lucky that my doctor was helpful. I understand it's not like that for most people that's why i'm a HUGE supporter for self diagnosed people.

Two years ago I found myself on autistic TikTok. As someone who is now pursuing my MA in psychology, I found myself intrigued that I was seeing so much of myself in these videos. However, I didn’t really dive into it. I thought that I would’ve already known if I was autistic by now as I was 24 at the time. A year later I had probably the lowest point in my mental health experience ever, and I started looking more into autism because I had been going to therapy for 10 years for anxiety and depression and after 10 years nothing was better. I took quite a few online assessments and all of them said that I needed to go get assessed by professional because there was a strong likelihood that I am autistic. About six weeks ago my therapist had asked if I’d ever considered being tested for autism, and I had not told anybody that I was thinking that I could potentially be autistic. Because I also work at a mental health facility, that does testing for autism, they were able to get me in very quickly. Two weeks ago I had my assessment. In two days I will find out the diagnosis. I have read the DSM thoroughly multiple times, and I have ruled out everything except autism. I am extremely nervous that I will not be given that diagnosis on Thursday. Because that is the only thing that fits. Since I’ve looked into autism more seriously, everything has started to make sense and I am able to treat myself with more grace than I ever have in my entire life.

I got recently diagnosed a few days ago. It was a big mix of emotions that shocked me. At the same time, it was answering the main problems I have had during my school years. Before my official diagnosis, I was going through a roller coaster of thoughts and emotions. At times, I felt extremely sure that I indeed had autism. But I was no longer sure when I was successfully masking when hanging out with friends. That is what I believe getting a diagnosis might help with mainly. Of course, the accommodates and such is a help as well. But I agree that self-diagnosis is absolutely valid. I would also recommend looking for 'the signs' in a parent as well. I am very similar to my father in many ways, special interests and sensor issues, as well as stimming, are prevalent in both father and daughter in my case haha. For anyone reading this, may you have a nice day :)

I finally found someone to assess me, and now I'm on a waiting list. Really looking forward to making it official

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

That’s great! Keep me updated!

Thanks for these videos! Can’t wait to see what you come out with next

Great vid. Your point about grief for the life you could have had with an earlier diagnosis and apt resources really resonated. I was diagnosed last July, at age 48.

I relate to you so much! My son is almost 7 & he was diagnosed with Autism at 3 years old. It was really hard to accept at first, but with him going to ABA Therapy it has really helped him with his behaviors. I myself am going to be 36 years old soon, & I believe I am autistic as well. I suffered alot as a child from severe shyness & not feeling like everyone else. As I got older I definitely tried to fight those shyness feelings as well as my despression & anxiety. I definitely have my days where I just don't want to talk to anyone & just want to be alone. It can be a battle with my own mind. I think eventually I want to get myself tested to see if I'm on the spectrum like my son. Thank you for putting yourself out there to help alot of adults who can relate to you. Take care!💕💕🦋

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

So happy you found me! Follow me on Instagram so I can follow you back! I was the same way!

Hello, first time here. So much of what you said resonated with me. You gave me a gift of information and I appreciate it. Thank you.

Hi, loving your content so far and hope to see more! One thing I wanted to mention was that from my experience I've mostly seen people being "more" okay with being self-diagnosised autistic than with other disorders. Where the stigma lately has been coming from is people self-diagnosing things like DID. At least, that's just what I've seen.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Yes I agree! I think a lot people can’t rap their head around self diagnosis when it comes to autism. But that’s because they don’t have it you know? When you learn about autism and you just so happen to have a lot of the same traits it makes a lot of sense but for people who don’t they just don’t understand.

I am a self diagnosed woman on the spectrum just now coming to terms with everything bc my 2.5 year old son is on tbe spectrum and iv spent the last year learning everything about autism and realized how different female autism is than male...and then began to make sense of my life like u did. My son is verbal and social but prob mild to moderate...he was evaluated at 18 montbs and tbe dev. ped wouldnt take my concerns seriously so im going to be making a binder and typing out his traits like u did for his next evaluation around when he is 3. Any more info about ur own journey ans ur daughters journy with diagnosis would be wonderful, ur content is grest so far.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Yes! I plan on making a video going through my binder and my daughters. I think that was super helpful! She’s still in the process but once we’re done I’ll definitely share!

Thank you for your story. Great idea with the binder.

I have been doing a ton of research on myself as I feel like this pandemic has brought all of my mental health issues to the front. Four months ago, I came to the conclusion the I am autistic. I am 48 and over the moon that I finally can check all those boxes that nothing else fit, but am definitely in the grieving period as well. It’s a mixed blessing for sure. But thank you so much for making these!!! 😍

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Of course! I still have moments where I’m grieving and it’s so hard to describe to other people. Nobody else understands unless they are late diagnosed! That’s literally why I made this channel. I just wanted to find people like me.

@rebeccahatfield

2 жыл бұрын

@@lennoxblakeg that’s what I came looking for as well. A LOT of men making videos and even most of them agree that the signs in females are different so it’s great to find you!! Keep the videos coming!!

I'm 51 and most of your story I relate to. Good job sharing! I'm waiting on an official diagnosis but I believe this has been my lifelong struggle.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Sending you all the positive vibes

My autism is pretty easy going all things considered. But I've really benefited from learning about it. I notice masking a lot more and I finally know that I do in fact go non verbal from burnout and thats okay. What you said about grief was really nice to hear for me too. I actually had a similar experience when I realised I was on the asexual spectrum when I was 26. It was truly a grieving process, which I'm still going through. So its nice to know people have a similar experience when life long things come to light.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Yes I go on non verbal as well! I’m glad someone else felt that too! This is why I made this channel. I wanted to find more people like me because I was living in a world where I was the only one and it was so depressing feeling like an alien and no one relating.

Thankyou so much for this, definitely relate to everything you said! I’ve got my assessment sent off! I’m 26!

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Keep me updated!

Hey, you’re awesome! I’m so happy I found your channel, subbing rn! Thank you for sharing your story! I’d love to see the the diagnosis tips video. 😊

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much! I’ll have it up as soon as I can!

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

I just posted it! Sorry it took so long

I had been pursuing an ADHD diagnosis after having trouble with work. It's taken a few months to see a specialist, but after my initial assessment visit, they asked me to fill out a few more assessments for Autistic traits. I'm still going through the diagnosis process and while I wasn't really expecting this curve ball, it certainly has confirmed some things I had suspected about myself for a long time. I think when you're constantly feeling like you have to hide yourself, no one really notices how much you're struggling. I'm glad that this specialist saw some other things going on in me rather than just casting me off as having ADHD.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

I have ADHD as well!

Your last video was eye opening for me. My daughter has struggled. All 10 of the traits you listed fit her. I’ve had no luck getting her diagnosed. 😢

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry it’s so difficult. I will post some helpful videos soon on how to help her assessment!

I have my assessment in May and I’m so nervous. Thanks for making this video!

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Good luck! Love to hear how it goes

Thank you for saying that self diagnosis is valid, because no one knows you like you know yourself.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Exactly! Nobody else lives in your brain!

Hey there :) Just discovered ur channel and i love ur content so far. I was diagnosed with autism just a few weeks ago ( I'm 21) and can relate with you so much ! Feeling like ur different and struggling ur whole life and then finally finding out why, is such a big relief. I never suspected that i could be autistic, it was discovered when i went to therapy for my social anxiety, so it was kind of a shock. I would find it really helpful if u could make a video about unmasking, how to find out who u really are after masking all ur life and stuff like that. So If u have some tips I would love to hear them :). Greetings from Germany ( sorry for the bad grammar)

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

I would love to make a video on unmasking! I'm still learning myself! I have always had severe social anxiety as well! I'm so glad you found my channel.

As an early-diagnosed autistic, self-diagnosis is absolutely valid.

Aww look at the sweet baby in the background ❤️ so cute

I relate a lot.. I'm 27 and I am hoping that before I turn 28 I get officially diagnosed with autism. I'd love to know your steps to getting diagnosed and how you have made your autism binder. As I've been learning more about autistic traits and how they apply to my life, I've taken notes, but in pretty random places.. So making a binder seems like a great idea. :)

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

My kiddos are sick again but once they are better I promise I’ll get one up! This was the most helpful tool for me!

@shelbycole3044

2 жыл бұрын

@@lennoxblakeg Awesome. Well I am very excited for when you make that video. But no rush! Take care of yourself and your family as best as you can first. :)

So I’m super curious what makes diagnosis so hard...because I got diagnosed at 30 without even trying and it took me nearly 15 years before I even wanted to grapple with any of it. I always knew I was weird and different, but I never had a word for it until maybe 14 years after I was officially diagnosed by a neuropsychologist. Like seriously, I had a psychiatrist I saw in Akron, Ohio (she sounded like she knew how to help my dad, so I thought she would be competent enough for me to see). She told me one day after 2-3 visits maybe that she wanted me to see a neuropsychologist at Kent State. The neuropsychologist had a conversation with me and then an assistant gave me this biggole written standardized test. I went back to her office and she told me I had “pervasive developmental disorder (not otherwise specified)”. At the time I think that they were only beginning to piece everything together onto a spectrum of autism, and here I was on the fringe of that spectrum. I was really dismissive of all of it, because I had my psychiatrist and therapist talking to me like I was bipolar, and here I was most definitely NOT bipolar, but definitely autistic and neither of them really did much more than scratch the surface of what any o it meant. I remember a couple of comments made by my psychiatrist about me having to work on my communication (which was dead on) but I did not understand how any of that fit together with bipolarism, and nobody really tried to help me understand myself and my autism. Like you, my real awakening didn’t come until I saw a bunch of KZread videos from autistic people. (I LOVE Hunter Hansen...wow I get him!) another thing that helped me before that was finding out someone I’d known a long long time when they were a kid was on the spectrum, and he would openly talk about it. I saw the benefits of him putting that out there and that’s when I really started mulling things over in my head. So I guess I’m backwards in that I really never grappled with the issue for years after I was diagnosed, and I wasn’t even trying to get diagnosed when I did. So I really am curious why it’s so hard for other people, unless most psych professionals are really super cautious about making diagnoses, or people don’t have psych professionals who know a good neuropsychologist. I have no idea. All of this is a mystery to me. I also didn’t think I masked a lot...maybe it’s just that I’m able to socialize better than many on the spectrum...I am the odd autistic extravert. I do have social problems, obviously, but for the bulk of my life I didn’t understand why. But now in my older years I’m discovering more how certain social situations really do take a ton of energy out of me, and that I carry a huge load of anxiety for relatively inane social interactions, especially with people I don’t know/who don’t know me. Sorry for writing my life’s story...lol...I do that. Thanks for sharing yours. Your traits manifest quite differently from mine, and your interests are very different, but the differences help me understand more about the diversity within the autistic community. Thanks for sharing 😁👍🏻

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Wow thank you so much for your story! I love hearing other peoples experiences! Honestly, I think most of the problem is they aren’t up to date on their education when it comes to this specific thing. Especially women. I mean for so long they didn’t even count women into their research. If they even bring up Asperger’s I know right then and there that this isn’t going anywhere and to try somewhere else. I remember clicking into that KZread video and it didn’t even cross my mind that I could be autistic, I was just really curious about the video. THEN it was like truck hit me and I was left speechless. EVERYTHING in my life started to make sense. Thank you again for such a thoughtful comment!

Yes! I hated sleepovers, they were so mundane and repetitive (boy talk, makeup, nails etc..) and i felt like i was stuck in a chicken coop, listening to all the girls cackle loudly 🤣 judgemental, I know. So I'd try to get my best friend in a separate room so we could chill, away from the noise. I also went to many doctors for extreme stomach aches when i had to go to school. They couldn't find anything wrong and said it was stress. Eventually, i got over it halfway through middle school when i found a really good core group of friends!

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Yes!!! I still to this day have horrible stomach issues. I’m working on it though.

@AutisticBrain

2 жыл бұрын

@@lennoxblakeg I'm new to your channel and I've been diagnosed for a year now I got my diagnosis in January of 2021...um I'm wondering when your going to release your next video, this video was release 13 days ago it will be two weeks tomorrow, with that being said I'm subscribing even though it's been 13 days since your last video.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

@@AutisticBrain hi, soon I promise! My kids were sick and now I have a kidney infection and have been focused on getting us all better. We can’t seem to catch a break!

@AutisticBrain

2 жыл бұрын

@@lennoxblakeg thanks for explaining and *i* hope for you and all of your kids get feeling better from their sicknesses and hope you get feeling better from your kidney infection Too, *praying for you !!!!* 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

I got diagnosed on the 2nd. My report will be sent to me soon. I just turned 30 recently.

Self diagnosis IS a rollercoaster...First off, you feel that you aren't valid since you just did online self assessments and haven't been seen by a psychiatrist. You just end feeling like a fraud ("Am I just faking it? Am I not autistic enough?? etc.) Then, as you stated, the mood seesaw of being happy/relieved (Yay! There's a name for what I have! Other people have it too! I'm not alone! There's nothing wrong with me!) and then angry/frustrated/grieving (Why can't I be neurotypical? My life would be so much easier! Why didn't anyone see this before? I could've gotten help years ago!! I'll struggle for the rest of my life!!) I had the official assessment from the DSM-5....I checked off on EVERYTHING except a childhood diagnosis (my parents never took me to see any medical professionals as a kid..) My new psych does seem to agree with me in my assessment, but stopped short of diagnosing me since she felt I was too "high functioning" to require any intervention (make of that what you will..) Thanks so much for this space, it feels very welcoming. Great video

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

First off thank you so much for your comment. The term “high functioning” is EXTREMELY hurtful. When I told my sweet mother and she said that (even though I know she didn’t know any better) it hurt so much. Just because I can communicate doesn’t mean we’re “high functioning!” I don’t see a “high functioning” person as someone who can’t go out in public without having extreme anxiety. Or someone who has to mentally prepare themselves for something like a shower because the feeling of the water on their scalps makes them want to scream. You know? I feel for anyone who has been called that. It’s a crappy feeling. I’m sorry you had that experience. I hope more research comes out on what it’s like to be us….

I've been diagnosed with ADHD, but have always thought that I may be somewhere on the Autism spectrum, but my therapist told me if I were autistic then I wouldn't be aware of it, which makes no sense to me.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

That’s so annoying. You’re not the first person I’ve heard say that. Even people I tell look at me like 🥴

@LeeHawkinsPhoto

2 жыл бұрын

Not aware that you always feel like the only little dog that doesn’t fit in with the other little dogs because you’re actually a cat? I’ve always been aware that I was different...at least since 1st grade. I just never knew why until I learned what autism actually was instead of all the stereotypes. I would think that autism is something people notice in themselves very much...when everyone tells them how much of an anomaly they are...and yet they don’t feel like they should be an anomaly...why is _everyone else_ so confusing??!? 😂

@kristen92431

2 жыл бұрын

@@lennoxblakeg Thank you. It's good to know that I'm not alone in being told that.

Autism is one of the things that I've found hard to understand. Like I can't wrap my head around it at all (because it's a spectrum?) I feel so confused with how I should be sensitive towards someone with autism. And I've never met anyone with autism irl so :(

I'd been diagnosed with depression, social anxiety disorder and bipolar 2. And then a few years ago...in my 40's...I learned about ASD and it explained me/my life to an absolute tee. But then I learned about cptsd, childhood emotional neglect and covert narcissistic abuse, and all of that also describes me/my life to an absolute tee. Now I haven't got a clue what I'm dealing with. 🤪 It's kinda crazy how many comments I've seen saying "I'm autistic and grew up with a narcissistic mom." I wish I could find someone who knows how to differentiate between ASD and cptsd. Maybe it doesn't matter in the end. I really can't say what difference knowing would make. The struggle goes on and on. So I just call it traumautism.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry you went through that!

@trishgreen2892

2 жыл бұрын

I have the same thoughts and questions. What is helping me is being able to remember symptoms as far back as I have memory of, and the traits I have now as an adult of 51. I can remember becoming obsessed at the age of 8 or 9 with Shakespeare after my older sister introduced me to Romeo and Juliet (I still love that play/movie and have watched it numerous times). I saw it on TV and the next time we went to the library, I got a bunch of books pertaining to Shakespeare, borrowed the record with a beautiful cover that Leonard Whiting and Olivia Hussey! I found an old literature book with the play in it that was my older brother's and read and memorized my favorite lines. I looked up Shakespeare, the Middle Ages, costumes in our family encyclopedias and tried to find more information on the actors. I drew pictures of them and was going to make a scrap book, I think. I even found a red velvet dress in a second-hand shop when I was a teenager, and it's still hanging in the closet. What nine-year-old who is neurotypical does that, lol. Starting kindergarten, I hated school with a passion, and whenever there was a stranger I would hide behind my mom. I was attached to her legs, haha. I felt so hurt when she made me go to school... I thought she didn't love me anymore so she was sending me away from her.

Arrrgh. You had such classic symptoms. I am so sorry it took you so long to be diagnosed. Here's hoping your video helps others. Maybe make a video on your coping skills? Self diagnosed can be a first step, but would encourage people to reach and get help if they think they might be on the spectrum.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

Yes! I am still learning so much, but I do plan on sharing everything I possibly can to help others.

I can relate to some of the traits. Check out Kathryn Krick. She prayed for deliverance from autism and other issues. I was delivered from anxiety and fear. Just check her out ... you might get great help or complete relief. God bless u!

I've just finished my assessments for autism and a learning disability,just waiting on my results,I'm 31.

Hi Lennox. 👋 Coincidentally, my last name is Blake. I'm neurotypical. Recently a close loved one I've known all my life told me she no longer wants to hug people. Can you please explain specifically what it is you do not like about touching other people? Is it about hands? Is it something about the front side of the body? Is it about temperature? Pain? Feeling vulnerable? Does it feel like an action only lovers should do? Is there an emotional element for you, like fear, anger or numbness? I know that your experience and my loved one's experience of this could be different. But if you're willing to explain what it's like for you, it may be helpful to get me to a closer understanding of my loved one who may have other things in common with you. Thank you in advance if you choose to answer. 🦋🧡🦋

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

First off I want to say good for her for setting boundaries. Although something like a hug can seem so small to neurotypical people for someone like me personally it causes so much anxiety. For instance if we’re going to a family gathering and I know everyone hugs I’m going to be thinking about it for a very long time before we even get there. Since I was a child I would even go to the extend of hiding somewhere. I wish I could tell you exactly what it is that I don’t like about it but I honestly still don’t know. My husband is the only person I will hug and my kids. I’ll hug my mom and sister but it’s only my arms around them and my body won’t be touching them. If I’m hot, or caught off guard I really don’t want to be touched by anyone. I know for some it can physically hurt them. I just know for me it’s really uncomfortable and it makes me want to cringe even thinking about it. Sorry I am not much help!

@CBlake-xy5cm

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your thoughtful answer, Lennox. I appreciate it very much. Of course I'm honoring my loved one's new boundaries. I had no idea before she told me. But I haven't touched her since. 🦋🧡🦋

@LeeHawkinsPhoto

2 жыл бұрын

@@CBlake-xy5cm I’m also on the spectrum and hugging really doesn’t bother me in the least. There are other aspects of touching that really bother me though...like sitting close quarters with my three brothers in the back seat of my parents’ small sedan as a kid was absolutely maddening because avoiding body contact of any kind was pretty much impossible. I don’t think my brothers necessarily enjoyed it either, but I think I was the only one who actively guarded myself. I just knew I didn’t like it, and it still bugs me some as an adult decades later, but I have zero problems getting close to my wife for the most part, and I don’t mind at all holding babies or small children, but that’s not to say there’s nothing awkward about it. The bottom line is that all of this varies to a wide degree among autistic people. So you’re doing exactly right by your honoring your loved one’s stated boundaries. When someone constantly violates your boundaries, neurodiverse or neurotypical, it adds a lot of anxiety and you lose a lot of trust for that person. Conversely, when you honor their boundaries it puts them at ease and helps them feel like they can trust you. There aren’t enough of those kinds of people in the world.

@CBlake-xy5cm

2 жыл бұрын

@@LeeHawkinsPhoto Thank you for your thoughtful response. I really appreciate your taking the time to share what you've noticed about yourself and others. 🦋🧡🦋

Please make a video on how to get diagnosed.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

I plan on it next!

I’m waiting for my assessment now 3 yrs my mother is neurodiverse and my late father had tendancies & issues too. My Aspie friend has been telling me years I’m autistic and I did the AQ test and scored 47/50 this and medical professionals and social worker all said they thought I’m autistic. I’m just a bit scared if I don’t turn out as neurodiverse what’s wrong with me because I feel so crazy and like I’m the weird one that doesn’t fit in and never has. I feel like an alien.

@lennoxblakeg

2 жыл бұрын

That’s EXACTLY how I felt. And I think a lot of others have felt the same way. I was diagnosed as bipolar and I never told anyone because I was like 🥴 not too sure. I also have ADHD. then when I read about AUTISM literally everything made sense and fit my entire life perfectly. I just always thought of autism as the stereotype… UNTIL I actually researched it and learned about the differences in women.

@MOJORAPSCALLION

2 жыл бұрын

@@lennoxblakeg bless you, I feel the same regards my original perception of ASD, I ignorantly thought things like Rainman, Sheldon etc, how wrong I was. I’m so glad you discovered who you really are and at peace with that like you said it just makes sense, it does to me anyway. I’ve always felt lost, alone and never fit in still don’t I’m an odd ball.. but I love who I am and my skills to be great at research because I can hyper-focus on anything that interests me. I wonder if I have anything going on as well as the possible ASD/Aspergers? time will tell will be interesting to come back and tell you how it went later in the year. Anyways thank you for responding you must get heaps of messages etc, really appreciate it. Don’t feel quite to alone and strange. They say to be happy in life you need to find your ‘tribe’ maybe I have found that, it feels as if I have. Keep up the excellent work your videos are great thank you!! ♥️

Wow I feel like I just watched myself in this video

MBTI type?

Trichotillomania! 😜

Skin picking ... yeah I know that!

The dialogue of the autistic community is like a wet lettuce leaf, actually unfortunate, and increasingly politically correct and irrelevant ( weeeeeee!, we are Neurodivergent, we have superpowers...). Yes, that is a great positive message but lacking in the reality of ASC, in my humble opinion. But hope is not lost!, use your focus and learn from others, so much to know ;), but importantly share in a way that makes sense to others, do not systemise but instead VOLUMISE!!!