Hey ya'll, My name is Lennox, welcome to my channel. I'm just an Autistic baddie who loves to game, fashion, makeup, lifestyle and making friends. I also suffer from multiple chronic illnesses. Please follow me on twitch, instagram, and tiktok and dont forget to subscribe.
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Hysterical 😂
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Omg I think this ALL THE TIME with regard to exchanging my physical body for one that... I dunno, functions? As it should? 😂 When my SO asks me if I need anything when I'm unwell, that's often my request lol. Anyway, sorry to hear about your struggles, too. CIs are the worst 😢
Yeah, I’d really like to talk to the manager cause this is not the service I asked for. I’m ok with the adhd and tism because my brain still works but my organs really turn their check engine light on way too much.
MBTI type?
My favorite script is you’re perfect 😂 I like the reaction
Nice video
Hello, first time here. So much of what you said resonated with me. You gave me a gift of information and I appreciate it. Thank you.
The dialogue of the autistic community is like a wet lettuce leaf, actually unfortunate, and increasingly politically correct and irrelevant ( weeeeeee!, we are Neurodivergent, we have superpowers...). Yes, that is a great positive message but lacking in the reality of ASC, in my humble opinion. But hope is not lost!, use your focus and learn from others, so much to know ;), but importantly share in a way that makes sense to others, do not systemise but instead VOLUMISE!!!
I keep checking back I hope you’re all okay xx
How many sessions and hours did your diagnosis take?
having autism isnt an excuse for a personality.
Hahahaha.. me too!
I'm so glad you said eating texture you like because I realized a couple years ago that was why I bonged. It's not the food. It's the texture or even that feeling on my lips on the case of spicy stuff. I need that feeling of my lips getting puffy 😝💋 And I only realized on the last couple months that ALL these 100+ behaviors and characteristics are autistic.
I just won't answer the door. Nope.
NEED that shirt 👕 👍 And very accurate. I do all of the above too. I scratch a lot. I use a pumice stone on my arms and legs in the bath almost every night... just to kind of brush my skin. The world makes me itch. And the picking... yup. I can't NOT do it. I hate that stim.
Funny, I was planning on doing this too. And when I go to get a diagnosis, if they feel like I am just making it up, they can ask me anything and I can explain in more detail. About 100 of my traits, behaviors , etc fall under autism. I have have been diagnosed with bipolar, anxiety, adhd, borderline personality and other things that are not mental.
OMGsh, I talk about nutrition ALL the time too and my family HATES it! In fact, my dad, stepmother and siblings hate me. I finally ditched them as family. Sad, but I am just following their lead and done trying to be acceptable to them. My mom hates me talking about that and other things I obsess about, but she is at least trying with me.
I feel this in my soul!
I would love to hear you talk about how being a parent has affected you as an autistic woman! I am a new mom and I find that having a baby realllyyy exacerbates my sensory issues.
Yes! Constantly being touched and all the smells are extremely hard for me. I get to a point almost daily where I don’t even want my husband close to me because the human touch makes me cringe and want to scream. It’s hard. Once they are able to be on their own it gets a lot easier!
I'm just figuring out that I'm autistic and have been heavily masking for decades. Today, I realized that even though I've been saying I don't stim, it's because I've masked it so hard. Even from my husband who I love dearly and is very understanding. I would start to stim (rock, rub my thumb and fingers together, rub my fingers across my forehead, rub my feet against the sheets, hum, repeat a word over and over) and he'd get me to stop by his concern or (gently) pulling my hand away and holding it in his, telling me it would all be ok. Or with some of them, like the repeating words, he'd get freaked out himself. So a couple/few years ago, I stopped doing any stimming. Even in the most stressful circumstances. Over the last couple of years, I've also gotten more and more depressed & apathetic (no safety worries, I do group and individual therapy.) And within the last couple of weeks, I went numb. I started reading more about autism recently. And autistic burnout. And now my 50+ year old mask is crumbling to bits. (There were other reasons I was masking as a kid.) So this afternoon, I gave myself "permission" to stim and, oh boy, did I stim. I got upset at first because it felt out of control. Plus my body couldn't decide HOW it wanted to stim so I was rocking and humming and rubbing my fingers and flapping my hands and rubbing my feet and about five or six other movements. And some were too loud. Some triggered me more. But I finally found a combo that worked (rocking, humming, patting chest) and zoned out for awhile. Then was really tired. Is any of this normal? Or should I say relatable? ************* Do I need to mention after that wall of text that I also have (diagnosed) ADHD? 🤣
Wow I feel like I just watched myself in this video
I do the same thing with my skin, because I can't stand it if there are any raised bumps on it. I need to scratch it off, even though it's probably not a good thing to do. Another stim of mine is meowing 😅. And certain songs trigger it for reasons I can't explain! I will be listening to the radio with someone and randomly blurt out, "Hey! This is a "meowing" song" (But I must note that only certain songs are meowing songs ☺️.
Is it bad I do most of these things?
Not at all! I love them
I LOVE DOING THE WEIRD FINGER THING!! :D
Yessss! It’s the best!
I do the swaying thing and skin picking and sometimes hair pulling. And also run my thumbs over the cuticles on my other fingers in fists.
I can’t stand still unless my hands are busy doing something. Then I’ll rock/sway. Skin picking is the worssssst but I do it daily.
THIS IS THE ONE LMAO
you have beautiful eyes!
agree.
Thank you for making this video so accepting! I use the stims you mentioned in public since I see them as more low-key and do more aggressive flapping at home. I've also realised that while I thought I did, I never really hold eye contact with anyone! I just kind of look around really quickly and often pass their eyes to make it appear that way so I guess that's a tip for anyone who wants to look like they're good at eye contact!
I can't understand what you said but I am sure I can relate!
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I feel this in my soul
I got diagnosed on the 2nd. My report will be sent to me soon. I just turned 30 recently.
Lol i was also obsessed with the brian laundrie case. Ask my mom. That's all i talked about and even made all my jokes about it
Me too! I’ve been trying to keep up with the court hearings too!
Sheer ugliness is the most obvious 'autistic trait'.
Hello. I live in South Texas. I am going through the process to get my daughters evaluated for adhd and autism. Someday I how to be evaluated for autism as well. Would love to hear what psychologist you recommend. I am having a hard time finding one.
Does anybody else have the experience where something bad happens to you, and pretty much noone believes how bad it is? Since people typically don't treat neurotypicals the same as autistic people, the neurotypicals don't experience a lot of those things, and so they don't believe that that would ever happen to you. When I tell people about some of my experiences, a common response is, "Well why would somebody say/do THAT to you?" And then they often assume that I must have done something to deserve that or to cause it, because a typical person usually gets assertive and will stop another person's bad behavior before it gets worse, but since I don't do that, their behavior gets worse and then it's pretty much too late to change their behavior. They've already learned and established/decided how they think about you, and how they are going to treat you. Or when a guy crosses boundaries because they can sense that I am not an assertive person. And people again people won't believe that a guy would just blatantly touch me. Usually what I do in an uncomfortable situation is I just exit the scene and then stay away from them. If they keep pushing me further and further my thoughts eventually come out, but then it is usually too late.
It's fascinating to me that there was concern about co sleeping and the kid is under 3! I'm curious what the concern is about exactly The reason for my surprise is just that I co slept with parents until the age of.. maybe 7 or 8, at a guess. Maybe they lacked concern because they liked the idea of me being dependent (or maybe a less negative sounding reason lol)
Hey Lennox I hope you guys are all okay, I’m just back to let you know I just got diagnosed today.. waited 2.5 yrs for my NHS appointment (UK). I have to wait for my report 2-3 weeks then have a questions & support meeting this coming month. I’m glad I’m not crazy or mad like I was feeling before getting diagnosed. Intrigued to read the report. I did the Aspie Quiz, RAADS & AQ tests as part of my preparation for assessment.
Thank you for the update! I’m so happy for you. Getting that diagnosis is so validating! Definitely a relief. So happy you can move forward now!
@@lennoxblakeg thought I’d share it with you :) at least I can begin my journey of learning how to unmask I’m sure it will be hard! I hope you guys are all okay sending love from the UK 🇬🇧
I’m starting the process with Embrace Autism right now. My therapist mentioned it in December, and it honestly makes sense of a lot of my life that has never made sense before. Thanks for this vid, it’s very helpful, I think I’ve returned to it a few times already.
Two years ago I found myself on autistic TikTok. As someone who is now pursuing my MA in psychology, I found myself intrigued that I was seeing so much of myself in these videos. However, I didn’t really dive into it. I thought that I would’ve already known if I was autistic by now as I was 24 at the time. A year later I had probably the lowest point in my mental health experience ever, and I started looking more into autism because I had been going to therapy for 10 years for anxiety and depression and after 10 years nothing was better. I took quite a few online assessments and all of them said that I needed to go get assessed by professional because there was a strong likelihood that I am autistic. About six weeks ago my therapist had asked if I’d ever considered being tested for autism, and I had not told anybody that I was thinking that I could potentially be autistic. Because I also work at a mental health facility, that does testing for autism, they were able to get me in very quickly. Two weeks ago I had my assessment. In two days I will find out the diagnosis. I have read the DSM thoroughly multiple times, and I have ruled out everything except autism. I am extremely nervous that I will not be given that diagnosis on Thursday. Because that is the only thing that fits. Since I’ve looked into autism more seriously, everything has started to make sense and I am able to treat myself with more grace than I ever have in my entire life.
I love that you mentioned bubbly… I was often criticized and ridiculed because I was not bubbly enough in social situations. Although I was comfortable, fine and quite happy. (Lack of facial expressions) Then in other instances I would over correct and become too bubbly! Now I hate the word And I am annoyed by bubbly people, especially first thing in the morning. Lol Great video!!
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I love Yo Sammy also. So great to hear your take on autistic traits. I was wondering if as an undiagnosed/ self-diagnosed woman is it more likely to have a meltdown during PMT when you are so tired, can’t “escape” from family and find it hard to mask/ disguise your frustrations?
I would love to see a video about difficulties with food
I will definitely do that! I have a lot to say on this topic
@@lennoxblakeg thank you
Yay! You are like me! It's nice to know I'm not the only one experiencing this.
You definitely aren’t! 🖤
Great video. I relate a lot to what of you say. You talk about not having friends… but do you have any autistic friends or interested in meeting other autistic people to possibly develop friendships?
Yes I’d love to meet other aspies. That’s why I a made this channel. I just can’t keep friendships with others. Besides my husband.
do you believe that it's possible that we are aliens?
Could be! 😅 felt that way my whole life so who the heck knows 😂
I have an internal voice that goes “make eye contact.. make eye contact.. make eye contact.. now look away.. eye contact for 1.. 2.. okay that’s good.. look away.. look back..” 😂 I relate a lot but I dont thiiiink I have autism. 🤔 I do have ADHD/Social anxiety.. so there’s that 😂
Since you're moving soon, I would continue to co-sleep until you move. Just make sure her room is set up in your new home so she can get excited about sleeping in her own room. Although, it may be too much change at once. I still have my 2.5yo in my room, but not in my bed anymore because she thinks it's play time and jumps all over me. 🤦♀️ I want to put her in her own room, but I would need a nanny cam in her room and that's not in my budget right now.
How old were you when you got diagnosed? How did you get diagnosed? You sound so so much like me! Do you have a video of what you and your life was like growing up? My childhood was so different and I've always considered myself a weird girl. I rock back and forth!!! Standing and sitting, especially when more upset or anxious. I rub my fingertips together. Man.....you remind me of myself so much.
Hi twin! I was 27, I have a video about my story. I didn’t write things down so it’s a little all over the place thanks to my adhd. I’m sure in the future I’ll sit back down and re do it! Lol I was literally just sitting here and thinking about making a video about my childhood and how u got away with not getting diagnosed sooner! Situations still pop into my head and I’m like 🥴 HOW DID THEY NOT KNOW I WAS AUTISTIC
@@lennoxblakeg omg right?? My family is quite ignorant about Autism. It runs in my family so that's kinda a sad thing. I need to find a doctor that knows his/her stuff that can diagnose me properly! Maybe my current psychiatrist could do that for me since he was the one that diagnosed me with ADHD recently.