"Im talking to a camera...did i talk to anyone else today...um...no" MY LIFE 😆 💚

@portlandjetaime

2 жыл бұрын

Jessica you should have Taylor on your channel!

@taylorndean

2 жыл бұрын

lmfaooo what in the world happened to the replies to this comment 😭😭😭

@Upper_echelon_exotics

2 жыл бұрын

My life except I don't even talk to a camera...

@Upper_echelon_exotics

2 жыл бұрын

@@taylorndean I don't know. I guess someone was bored...

@jp8649

2 жыл бұрын

I was going to say this was a surprising but welcome cross-over that I would like to see, but Mercedes... checking wtf?

Rats would be an absolutely top tier pet if their lifespans were even a few years longer. As a teenager I had a pair, and I'll never be able to keep them again. It's unfair that they bond so genuinely yet live such short lives.

@scribble71891

2 жыл бұрын

Had that painful journey with a hamster. Had her (thought she was male for the longest) for six years - cuddled with her before and after she passed away, burying the body in the cage's bedding. I was always interested in rats and the like but that lifespan has kept me away.

@12354rony

2 жыл бұрын

@@scribble71891 Six years for a hamster?? that's insane. Most live 2-3 top if you're lucky.

@silviesilvie7585

2 жыл бұрын

@@scribble71891 😁

@vahmpify5002

2 жыл бұрын

@@scribble71891 6 Years??? My hamster died at 6 months💀 you lucky or you just took really good care of her. The lifespan doesn't bother me cause it's just what happens in life so you can't really run away from it. They're gonna die, dogs are gonna die, cats are gonna die, every pet is gonna die. It's just life.

@6.4l13

2 жыл бұрын

@@vahmpify5002 your hamster probably didn’t die. a lot of people don’t know hamsters can hibernate and end up burying them alive.

it’s really a shame rats tend to have such short lifespans, they’re such pleasant little critters

@TheEmeraldMenOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah. Domestic rodents really should have like 3-5 times the lifespan. Then again… “It’s better to burn out, than to fade away…”

@TheEmeraldMenOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah. Domestic rodents really should have like 3-5 times the lifespan. Then again… “It’s better to burn out, than to fade away…”

@TheEmeraldMenOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah. Domestic rodents really should have like 3-5 times the lifespan. Then again… “It’s better to burn out, than to fade away…”

@mrfish.-

2 жыл бұрын

@@TheEmeraldMenOfficial I’m not sure if you know this but you posted the same comment 3 times…

@laniig572

2 жыл бұрын

12-20 years wouldn’t be enough

I am impressed by your level of self reflection. Figuring out where your guilt was coming from must have been quite the challenge. Also, you are constantly detecting all of your negative automatic thoughts. That's a lot of goddamn effort. Plus, your videos sound so genuine, it is really heartwarming to see such humanity here.

@TheBabyGirl2282

2 жыл бұрын

I really love your comment and I agree 100%!

@somethingcats

2 жыл бұрын

Having a lot of self reflection also isn't necessarily a good thing. Definitely don't know from experience or anything...... Nope not at all....

@TheBabyGirl2282

2 жыл бұрын

@@somethingcats Can you explain please?

Taylor this was literally the best video you’ve ever made. As a pet owner, I’ve also lost a lot of pets, too, and I always feel guilty. Also, I got sober around the same time you did (the first time), so I also understand what you said about that. The commentary about memories was really poetic and deep. Great job! I’m 2 years and 5 (going on 6) months sober. Best of luck to you. It does get easier once you get some traction and develop better habits. Anyway best of luck and great job!!!

@laurenedge6392

2 жыл бұрын

Wow two years. You are so strong ❤

@dizi299

2 жыл бұрын

So proud of you for staying sober! Keep up the good work

@ar8590

2 жыл бұрын

Except she literally abused her animals, and doesn’t know what she’s talking about lol

@bunkingwithharleyonaverylo2936

2 жыл бұрын

Umm I don't know what sober is sry I'm ten so Idk any of that so if you could pls tell me what sober means that would be awesome but good job

@nicoleana1098

2 жыл бұрын

@@bunkingwithharleyonaverylo2936 sober as in clean so if you drink you would be clean for 6 months of drinking

CONGRATS ON SEVEN MONTHS THATS AMAZING!

@solanum6039

2 жыл бұрын

She’s not 7 months clean. She gets caught up in her lies constantly, it’s so obvious that she’s not been sober that long. The most I’m willing to give her is maybe she stopped using when she started working on this video… …And she probably will go back to using now that the video is up. That’s how addiction works, unfortunately. She needs to get help so bad. Edit: She recently admitted she was still using heroin at the time.

@carlyscruggs4205

2 жыл бұрын

@@solanum6039 she is legit sober she has the tokens and she is getting help she didn't stop just for this video she has been getting help and she's not just gonna go back to using as soon as it's over. Y the hell r u being so disrespectful she's doing better with being sober rn

@solanum6039

2 жыл бұрын

@@carlyscruggs4205 I’m not being disrespectful. I’m a recovering addict myself and I work in addiction care. It’s obvious she’s not clean. Maybe a few more months until she comes back to Twitter admitting she’s been using all this time like she did many times before. She lied about being sober for literally a year and a half, come on. After that she admitted she had been lying. I don’t believe a word she says about her sobriety anymore after that.

@carlyscruggs4205

2 жыл бұрын

@@solanum6039 I think there is a chance she's still using but I just don't want to accuse her of that because I feel like she's trying harder. It is hard after she came out and admitted using all that time but idk I guess I can't tell if she's sober and your obviously more experienced. I just feel like the way she talked about the guilt in this video meant she was doing better but idk

@cheesyfries6885

2 жыл бұрын

Who cares if shes not clean she knows she is an addict relapsing is normal , it would be a miracle if all addicts got clean on the first try . have some sympathy shes here now that’s all that matters 🙌🏼

Sorry for your loss. It’s good to see you coming back.

I was told by a vet once, "It is better to put them down a week too early with peace, than a day too late with suffering."

1 day too soon is way, way better than even a minute too late. You made the right decision for your little one ♥️

I struggle with opiates and alcohol. When you talk about the bubble, and how it pops when you’re sober, nail on the head. As hard as it is to be open and shit, I for one really appreciate it. I know exactly how you’re feeling. I’m recovering as well. And I used animals to try to care for something bc I wouldn’t care for myself lol. You’re awesome for sharing your story. We will always be addicts. But we are strong enough to overcome it.

@CannibalChxrry

2 жыл бұрын

Hey doll. I don't know you, but I'm proud of you for stepping into the road of recovery. It's not an easy one, but stay strong. You got this!

@YoMama9021

2 жыл бұрын

For me o wasn’t strong enough. My mind was diseased with addiction and couldn’t be trusted. I needed drug replacement therapy and talk therapy for the first two years. Almost 7 years sober and still have to watch out because that part of me will always be a little fucked up. It’s okay also to not feel strong I guess is what I’m trying to say.

I’m so sorry, my condolences. Rats are such cute creatures, if only they lived longer😔💙

@randomrealistictone2231

2 жыл бұрын

Ratcatcher 2

@jadetheace

2 жыл бұрын

@@randomrealistictone2231 who’s ratcatcher 1? I need my fellow ratcatcher.

this video was exactly what i needed! i have a 14 year old dog at home and we're basically on "keep her comfortable as possible until it's time" mode over here so. this was helpful and makes me feel less alone

Quite the timing on this one. My last rattie just passed away on Monday. She was three years old. Needless to say, I'm probably going to relate to this a lot. Sorry for your loss, they really do become family ❤

You're back taylor. I havent gotten this emotional connection from your content in years. Youre engaging and you even look like yourself again and i dont mean just the hair like your whole glow you lok healthy snd you again and im so happy

This video was really comforting, I lost one of my rats a couple of weeks ago. I’ve been feeling so guilty even though I did everything I could to help his respiratory issues. Just know you aren’t alone and I’m so sorry for your losses. Rats really are the best little creatures❤️😔

I recently lost my crested gecko that I’ve had since I was twelve. all of this was so accurate for me: the feelings of guilt, pushing emotions down etc. The reason I actually got him was because of Taylor, I even named him Echo! (I was twelve and not very creative haha) Thank you for this video Taylor!

@catfood2

2 жыл бұрын

how long did he live for if you dont mind me asking?

@Agape_1_MVMT

2 жыл бұрын

@@catfood2 he was about four years old, it just makes me so sad that he could have lived so much longer

@catfood2

2 жыл бұрын

@@Agape_1_MVMT aw I'm sorry :/

I'm in rehab now. 4 months off meth. My friend overdosed on fentanyl and it took 3 narcans to revive him. He's alive and stable but still in the hospital. Thanks for giving me hope

Rats are so amazing and it’s so not fair they live such short lives….

@hallway_revenant7919

Жыл бұрын

Yes! People think they are pests but they are frien

Losing rats sucks. You’ll get through it. Have an amazing night taylor

I'm glad your rat babies had you 🥰 and I must say... you are looking so much healthier!! genuinely, you look like the old you. and I don't mean that in a weird way!! you've just looked different from being unhealthy for so long. genuinely made me so happy to notice it!!! I'm so prpud of you taylor!!!💜💜

This video is really important, I am still dealing with trauma from loss and pushing it down always makes you just emotionally explode when you least expect it. Thank you for sharing hard things with us.

The way you described being on h vs sober… how you’re in the bubble vs not. The belly laugh and the memories vs not. WOW. Never had anyone really put in words how it truly is.

This may sound strange, but I honestly think the fact you have these thoughts/worries, there is actually no doubt in my mind, that you actually provided the best care you could. Stay strong girl

u were the reason i got my rats and one of them passed away recently as well. im sorry for your loss

I cannot put into words how special your candidness about your struggles in your videos is to me. Its extremely inspiring to watch you get better. Im so glad you're still here!

Great to see you and your dry sense of humour again, love it, wish you all the best on grieving for your sweet rats 🧡

congrats on the sobriety and i know it is for the doctors having issues finding veins... and im sorry for your loss. Death is such a dark subject that needs to be brought to light so people understand how to cope. glad to see you getting back together. its gonna take a bit but you will be so happy about it. im abour 4 years sober now and i love how my body feels and i think you will too.

I think you are getting really healthier. Being introspective and finding new insights on how you process this is a very good development. Good for you! This was a great share, thank-you

One thing that helps me, especially when it comes to putting an animal to sleep, is the question “is it more selfish to keep them alive?” If, for example, you kept your rats alive that had tumors, and the tumors kept growing, you’d only be doing that to make yourself feel better. Your rats would be in pain, loose weight, probably the tumor would burst. The only one that would be helping is you, so you don’t have to feel bad about putting your rat down. Sometimes the kindness, most selfless thing we can do is let them go. We can put them down before the immense pain sets in, so they don’t have to feel that pain. It’s almost like we take the pain the would have felt if they were still alive, and instead we feel the pain of losing them. I’ve lost a lot of rats this year too. I’ve had to put down 2, and it’s never easy. Another quote I like is “we do the best we can with the information we have.” Maybe for some animals, in hindsight, we realize we could have done more for them. But we didn’t know that at the time, we did the best we could in the moment. Also, I like to think about it like this: Would I say this too my friend? One of my rats had a tumor, and I had the doubts of “should I have done more?” “Was something wrong with my care?” “Did I somehow cause it?” But I would never say that to you. I would tell you that you did everything you could, and sometimes bad things just happen. They probably had bad genetics, like a lot of rats do. Maybe when you doubt yourself you could think, “Hey, would I say this to the people who commented on my video about how their rats died?” I’m sure you did everything you possibly could for them. You’re an amazing owner as far as I can tell. I’m so, so, sorry for your loss. I hope our rats are one big rat family wherever they are now. I know my rats would keep yours company. ❤️❤️❤️

We love you Taylor! So glad you're doing better ❤

I am so glad you made this video. I relate to these feelings so freaking much. My dog passed of cancer at the age of 7. All I could think of after he passed were all the times that I didn't appreciate him enough, all of the places I didn't take him, and that I didn't do enough for him when he was alive. We had him put down because of the aggressive nature of his cancer but the week leading up to it was so hard. He would start feeling better from the morphine and be moving around more and wagging his tail, I was convinced we weren't giving him enough time. I felt like it was too soon to let him go. But it wasn't. He was in so much pain. I miss him so much but I'll never forget how he licked my mom and my tears away right before he was put to sleep.

This was a beautifully explained video that really resonated w me. I love seeing your humor and personality shine through more and more, especially with this hard topic. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and really looking forward to you continuing to come back. 😊

Thank you for sharing Taylor! Very relatable and a good thing to bring up-I don’t feel like a lot of people speak on it in the hobby and it’s a great way to start the conversation!

I’m sorry for ur losses. Also i really love the name dove 🕊. I’ve had 4 pets sadly pass this year so this year hasn’t been to hot but i just remember that A lot of other people go through that too. And i just think that because they’ve passed away now it saved them from dying later. As morbid as that is it helped me.

My vet told me that, in regards to euthanasia, you never want their last day to be the worst day of their lives. We had my oldest rattarina and her very ill cage mate put to sleep. She was 3.5 years old, and had no function in her back legs. She survived all 4 of her cagemates and was going to lose her remaining friend to his heart and respiratory issues that were no longer manageable. I could not bear to watch her deteriorate from loneliness. So I let them go together.

@liz_merr1003

2 жыл бұрын

That's really sad, but I'm glad they went together. I'm sure they were really happy

@kenmken

Жыл бұрын

But how do you know how she'll deal with grief and how much longer she has? Honestly pretty messed up to "euthanize" her just because her mate was also going to be euthanized

What’s so amazing about being a longtime subscriber of yours, is that I have really seen the growth and change you’ve made as a person! The way you talk about situations now and how you break them down shows INCREDIBLE maturity and growth. I just wanna say I’m really proud to be able to see this and feel grateful that you’ve put your life out there like this, despite the negatives it brings. You’re amazing Taylor! Keep growing and taking back control of your life. Sending hugs for all your little rats. 🥰

I’m so proud of your recovery and watching you grow, I’ve been a fan since the beginning of your channel, you’re the best ❤️

I’m so glad you are sharing you’re experiences in an honest an open way. I’m so thankful you have escaped the hell of drug addiction while you’re still young. I was actively using for nearly 40 years and finally understood what was happening and how to deal with it. Animals are such wonderful companions to have. I have several tanks, cats (one who is 22 her name is Stinky Pig) whom I love so much. My dog Is 16 1/2 and acts like a puppy still. Taylor keep fighting and sharing.

I too have dealt with a lot of death (more humans though) and am a recovering addict. I really enjoy just listening to you. Your voice is soothing and I feel that you are very insightful. Glad you have been posting more!

You're definitely not alone. Thank you for your vulnerability and honesty. Your videos always bring me joy, even the ones that are about something sad, I always take something positive out of them. I'm really sorry for your loss, hope you'll feel better soon.

I'm so happy your trying to come back

I'm very sorry for your loss, but a very well earned congratulations on 7 months. We love you so very much. You're progress is valid. 😍❤

We love you so much Taylor. Your transparency is so admirable and you are so good at communicating your feelings. I’m so proud of your progress and congrats on 7 months!!! 💜

Why is this one of the most relatable videos I have ever watched? I haven't gone through an addiction, but everything you talked about seriously felt like someone explaining how I feel, which I've never even explained myself. I think that is what I have always loved about you, you are just so real with everyone. Thanks for sharing! ❤

I am so happy to see you post again Taylor! Love you and hope everything is going well with your recovery💓

I went though a very similar thing last month. One of our rats also had a tumor in a sensitive location and at the time my hand was messed up and I couldn’t hold him for the last few days. I could pet him but I feel so bad not holding him as much as possible. Thank you for this video. You put into words a lot of how I feel right now. I wish you well with your healing. Lots of love.

Thank you for posting this. I went through the exact same thing with my companion cat. I was truly in inconsolable. I had never lost anyone close to me yet. I was so depressed and having night terrors again for the first time In like 10 years. Dealing with death is hard. I too felt guilt. As soon as he died I started to blame myself for anything I could have done wrong. But it was a disease. Making that decision is so so so hard but we have to do it. I couldn’t watch him suffer anymore but the selfish part of me didn’t want to lose him but I knew what I had to do. I’m so happy you are back on KZread. I’ve been following you for so long. I’m glad your doing good and just keep doing you! Thank you for this video! It’s good to know someone feels the same way!

I’m so sorry for your loss❤️ ik what its like to deal with feelings of worthlessness, the fear that others hate you, and guilt. But as a long time fan, I want you to know that I love and respect you so so much! You are a beautiful and resilient person and you deserve nothing but happiness and peace. So proud of you always❤️

I love Taylor's videos. She is so deep in places where most people are very shallow. Taylor really is a gifted person, sophisticated but modest. A real person with real life experiences she has something we all can relate to. Thank you for sharing, i wish could share mine with you. Gosh i miss Taylor Nicole's content so well spoken and still way pretty.

while i’m early i just wanted to say ily sooo much and i have so much respect for you my mom is 23 years sober from drugs and alcohol and my dad is working on sobriety i’ve never told anyone that and i’ve been following you for like 3/5 years i think and i always when you weren’t posting would look you up and see if there was a new video and i always check insta and i’m so happy that your somewhat finding yourself again and idk if your religious but i pray for you at night hoping you will stay sober ily😘

Taylor your growth is astonishing, it’s soooooo good to see and I’m so proud of you. You’re glowing :)

I love seeing a video where you smile so much, even though it’s about death! Love you btw 💕

im too sorry for your loss! losing a pet is my biggest fear! my dog is my entire world! I would do anything for him.this made me cry. I must say you look sooo good and beautiful Taylor!! im so proud of you and all your been threw is so. inspiring for all of us that suffer with addiction. thank you for being so open and sharing your story

I had one rat, Yolandi. When I lost her I said never again. I’m so glad to see you again Taylor. Keep it up beautiful!

I’m so sorry for your loss, I still remember the first rat video like it was yesterday. This one hit pretty hard since I lost my cat this summer and I’m still grieving, but listening to you speak your thoughts on it helped calm some of the worries that had still be bothering me. I’m so glad you have this space to share yourself, it always makes me feel a little less alone

love to see you back!! keep it up!

i'm sorry for your loss. i will say, the amount of growth you show in this video however, how you're talking and addressing the issues, is incredible. hell of a good job on all the work you're doing for yourself! congratulations on seven months!!!

Excited to see your 2nd channel updates and addiction talk. 🖤 sorry about your babies, may you feel no more guilt, and they Rest In Peace.

its so amazing of you to speak so openly about this,, its a hard thing to talk about but this video has made me and so many other ppl feel so much better about themselves

Wow this was an amazing video! I had a childhood cat die a couple years ago and it really was, and is still is very sad to me. However, just like you, memories of her last years, months, and minutes still haunt me and I hope she was overall happy even if the last moments were probably very scary. Thank you so much for making this video

RIP to your sweet rats

i have been loving you’re videos so much recently! i love how vulnerable you have been, thank you!! 🖤🥺

My pacman frog recently passed from complications due to heart failure. It was a 6 month decent of caring for him and vet visits, and when he finally did pass my initial feeling was relief. relief that he wasn't suffering anymore, and that I didn't have to spend all this time fighting something I could't stop. That made me feel so guilty, but I (much like yourself) did everything I could and was there for him. There's a lot of emotions surrounding death and it changes the longer we mourn. sorry for your loss

i’m sorry for your loss, you’re doing so so well

This is a much needed video for me. I recently had to put my dog down after almost 15 years of companionship. It was hard. I went through a lot of the same things you did. I was caring for him all day long as his health declined. I also saw life in him, he was doing better with the medications we gave him to help him move and eat. But I knew it could possibly prolong his suffering. I appreciate you making this video, as hard as it is. You help me not feel so alone in my feelings. Thanks a bunch

i can see the growth. i'm so proud & i fucking love you!!!

Taylor… I loved your videos a few years ago and was a fan. I was so worried & then angry about what had happened in the past. Even at you sometimes. Thank you for doing the most difficult thing imaginable and coming on here to speak honestly. Since that time I have learned so much more about addiction, dv, and narcissists. I had unsubscribed at a point… and honestly I am so sorry. I’m so inspired by you coming out and telling these difficult stories and insanely personal and delicate parts of your life. I think it just shows the strength that you have within. Keep it up. I’m so sorry for your losses, but I’m so happy for your gains. I know you said you have a tough inner critic but as someone speaking from the outside…. What you have done is amazing. And I hope you will see that one day.

The way you reflect on your feelings and emotions feels really simillar to the way I do. It feels good seeing someone who shares that with me. Thanks for that❤️ I hope you are growing every day✨

Hey 👋 boo. Hope all is 😊 well. I've been addicted to heroin for 12 years now ... started at 17 years old. I'm currently 29 years old and in recovery. My sober date is 11-6-21 so I got a lil over 30 days clean this time around. Definitely feel good about staying sober this time around as I'm dealing with the underlying issues as to why I've been getting high in a positive way, and getting closer to my higher power 🙏 Jesus Christ; on top of taking Suboxone. Well just a lil about me. Your videos have helped me soo much boo 😃. Keep your head up. Sorry about your animals passing. If my lil doggo Guero were to ... it would break me heart 🥺💔😭 aww man I don't even wanna think of it as a possibility. Well wish u the best... be blessed 🙏 😁✌ 💚 GREETINGS FROM DALLAS, TX

The part where you said I don't know I'm not a therapist I don't know what I'm saying ☺️ is sooo cute🥲 I always love your videos.🙂

I just LOVE how much you've grown the past couple years. I've been here for a long while and it feels so much better seeing you like this. Sending you all the best vibes ✨

This was rlly helpful 🥺 the guilt stuff definitely rang true with me like humans make mistakes , but we can grow!

Darn Nicole, losing pets is very hard. I'm so sorry, but just know all your lost babies are on the other side, watching over you. We're all here for you. Take as much time as you need to heal.

@katelynjames7810

2 жыл бұрын

Who is Nicole? Is Taylor going by Nicole now?

Glad to see another video! :)

So happy you're back ☺

love you taylor! thanks for being so honest. I hope you feel some peace whenever you read this

Thank you for sharing your thought process while you deal with your loss and figure out how and why you developed guilt ♥️ you are good enough, you did nothing wrong, and you gave your animals the best you had at any point in your life; you might think you could've done more or something different but you did your best.

Thank u Taylor for sharing your life with us, you've inspired me so much as i've grown up to be the best pet owner i possibly can.

Glad to see you back. Cheering for you, Taylor!

i feel like you’re finally coming back to us and i’m so glad to see you’re doing well taylor!! your videos and editing style is giving me life, and as for your personal issues, keep growing girl, you’re doing it 🥺💖

Congrats on 7 months!! Woot woot!! Anywho, I just figured I've been through the same situation, addiction and all... Lots of similar feelings! My condolences for your babies!! 💕🥰

Finallyyy youre back!!!

Sorry to hear about your rats. It’s been really great to see you uploading videos again! I’m rooting for you Taylor!

I had 6 rats a few years ago. They are amazing pets and give so much love. The only down side to them honestly is their short lifespans. My heart rat Molly lived to ripe very old age of 4 which is just crazy in rat years. 5 of my 6 were female and 4 out of those 5 all had mammary tumors. They all had mammary tumor removal surgery at least once. The other 5 lived between 2-3 years of age. I'm so sorry for your loss and hope you are able to recover from it soon. Huge congrats as well your comeback and recovery!

I'm sorry for your loss, and I feel the same way. I just want to give you a hug. You are getting so much stronger every day.. love u💜

You’re a bad ass. You fell hard and still got the f back up! amazing strength! ❤️

I lost my heart rat right before my birthday in September. It sucked, she got me through covid bonding. But currently watching this curled up with my two new babies 💞

Also, you are a literal goddess, thank you for slaying. Also, thanks for an incredibly, genuine video!!

I had my sun conure pass away in my arms. I cried the whole day , just begging him to eat and act normal. And then right before we were getting into the car for the vet he passed away. And I couldn’t stop crying Then I just immediately stop the next day and it is just like .. it never happened. I can completely shut out the grief. And I feel so awful , cause I feel like I didn’t care about them ?! But I know I did and I loved them so much. But I needed to care about my other animals. I still feel so guilty about my conure … cause i only had him a month. But he was a rescue , and I wanted to give him a better life. And he was suffering from so much. And we tried so hard to get him healthy. But he just wasn’t strong enough to be healthy. Even tho we thought he would. But he just went downhill overnight. But I am glad he had a good loving home for his last month. And he passed away next to me , not alone in a cage. Suffering from his issues. He was on some heavy pain killers , so I just hope he was not in pain when he passed.

sorry about your loss

So sorry for your loss. But I’m so proud of you and all the progress you’ve made and continue to make!! Been following for years, it’s so good to see you getting back to yourself! PS your hair looks INCREDIBLE here and I’m using it for future inspo

It’s always good to remember those feelings,I’m so sorry for your loss,but the best thing to do is face the future and not the past

We all really do care about you. I have been following you since the hedgehog days. Life is a journey and addiction can affect anyone. You are so SO strong for 7 months sober and WE LOVE YOU!

Hello Taylor, just wanted to say how You care and love all your pets is adorable. I loved the videos of the Betta and your pet snakes are really cool. I think it's great that you can provide comfort to those who lost a pet very dear to them. A couple years ago I tried to save a wild bunny who got in a cat chase. The bunny was dying and I there was nothing I could do to save her. I took her up to my neighbor Bethany who was a k9 Officer and animal obedience trainer to help me properly let her go. The grief at that time was intoxicating. So how You are helping others understand their grief when their loved ones are passing is a wonderful and thoughtful gift. Don't ever let anything or anyone destroy Your edge! Rock On Taylor Nicole Dean!

I've watched you since you began your terrible relationship with that horrible person. I'm so glad to see you are growing and becoming a better person every day. So proud of you hun. You got this ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Haven’t watched you in a while good to have you back

You have a really eloquent way of explaining your emotions. I've only ever smoked weed but even that creates that muffled bubble you were talking about where you just know you're not experiencing everything you're meant to experience. We can learn so much from you! Thank you for sharing your journey and fekkin CONGRATS on 7 months sober ❤❤❤❤❤🐈‍⬛

So sorry for the loss🥺😢 It’s always so hard when babies pass! As a side note, congrats on 7 months, and I’m so freaking happy you’re back🥰♥️ I so wish we lived close so we could hang out with our pets😂

Thank you for helping to normalize talking about hard feelings and having an open and honest conversation about something like this. ❤

Welcome back queen!