my grandma passed away last week. my childhood went away with her.

@PoisonelleMisty4311

Жыл бұрын

Im sorry to hear that dear. dont worry, everything will be alright.

@miabezuidenhout805

Жыл бұрын

sorry for your loss man I truly relate 😔

@sebby324

Жыл бұрын

My deepest condolences to you and your family Im sure everything will get better for you soon Good luck in life my fellow humans

@anewhope2550

Жыл бұрын

I lost my grandma in September of 2021 and life hasn't been the same without her. She will never meet my children and that breaks my heart because she always wanted me to have kids but I am too young. I miss her more everyday and my life is so quiet and lonely without her. She gave me a loving childhood during the summers I would stay with my grandparents, away from my mom and my siblings who always bullied and abused me. She was the best thing in my life and I miss her, the only one I have now is my husband and he is amazing and so loving.

@HungBui-go8yk

Жыл бұрын

Oh... sorry for your lost

We never knew we were making memories... we were just having fun that all...

@michaelberardo4614

Жыл бұрын

This comment made me think.

@GoPissAboutIt420

Жыл бұрын

we were just kids fooling around, discovering the world, having fun but we made memories along with it

@ghazalkhezri7387

Жыл бұрын

@@GoPissAboutIt420 yea..

@nanachii9532

Жыл бұрын

For better , cause we didn't need to overthink it and all of it came normally And for worse cause some of us took those days for granted

@TotallyPizza

Жыл бұрын

fr:(

I miss being a little kid. I'm 17, so not that young anymore. I know its time for me to start acting like an adult, but the thing that bugs me everyday is the fact that i feel like i grew up to fast. I went from being a happy kid with no care in the world to feeling like the whole world is on my shoulders. I miss when there was nothing for me to worry about, when being an adult seemed so far away. I remember when i was little i used to beg to get older faster, i wanted to be an adult so badly and now id do anything to go back. Go back before my mom was taken away in an ambulance, before my dad lost his job and we were stable, before everyone judged me for my appearance, before friends suddenly turned their backs on me, before i had to worry about what colleges i want to sign up for. I wouldn't say i had an amazing childhood, but now i realize i took it for granted. It hurts because it feels like time is only going by faster, i feel like ill fall asleep and wake up to trying to apply for a job after college in my 20's. I'm not scared of growing old and dying, i'm terrified of what responsibilities come with getting older. Anyone who took their time to read this, Thank you, your an amazing person an i can only wish you the best in life, whatever path you choose.

@zareenyf8248

Жыл бұрын

You are best stay safe love from pakistan

@MillIONIZ_0

Жыл бұрын

Everything you said right now sounds unfair and it hurts . Whatever your going through right now know I have empathy for you and I believe in you ❤

@pascalandyourmom

Жыл бұрын

I know it hurts. All you can do is find something to focus and obsess over. When I’m older, I want to be a police officer. And I obsess over stuff like that. I’ve had many run-ins with the police (not for good reasons) but I’ve found that most of them are really amazing people and I want to be like them. You wrote a really beautiful text here. I’m sorry everything that happened happened to you. It really isn’t fair. But like I said, find something to focus and obsess over. I promise, it will help you. And it will help the feeling of bitter nostalgia from when you were younger. I know this is no way to live a life, but you just have to keep distracting yourself from your problems unless you can fix them. If you can, great, but in many cases people can’t solve the problems that are thrown at them. Don’t run away, just distract from them. Make new friends, better friends, and get really good at a hobby. If you, like me, struggle with depression, it’s hard to get out of bed. It’s hard to do simple tasks. And you think your life is not good. But you have to see the beauty in distractions. Sorry, this became a lot more about me than about you. I don’t even know you, I don’t know your struggles who am I to be giving out advice? Yeah I’m sorry. I do hope things go better for you though. I hope that life won’t be stuck for you.

@gauravbisht6419

Жыл бұрын

@@pascalandyourmom the message you want to convey really motivated me too . thank you whosoever you are means a lot

@VioletCypher

Жыл бұрын

It’s going to be okay. I believe in you, and I know it can get hard to think about the things that will happen in the future. It’s okay. Don’t worry, and stay safe.

I dont necessarily miss my childhood i just am afraid of not being able to sit in my room anymore. When you're a teenager, your room is your own comfort place. But when you grow older, you're forced to get out of this room and face the real world and this room becomes a place only to sleep in. I miss having my room feel like a home rather than just a place to sleep in.

@Y_n0228

Жыл бұрын

if I saw this 3 years ago I would agree, but now I have a roommate and honestly I just wish that she would leave, she's 21 I mean I get that being old is hard but you know just get a life or just get out of my room!

@IdentifiantE.S

Жыл бұрын

After the rain come the rainbow ❤️

@Av3xer_Cl0wn

3 ай бұрын

I’m a young teenager and I’ve never had a room to feel comfortable in. Especially because I’ve only ever had my own room once and it was for only around a month. I think it’ll be different. Once k move out, I’ll have people either I’m more comfortable with or my own room. But I also am afraid of growing up. Or more so, change. 😅

@RAFIDI.

2 ай бұрын

💚​@@Av3xer_Cl0wn

@gkount_

Ай бұрын

I'm afraid that I'm not gonna have as much fun as I had as a kid ever again

I wish I could replay my childhood days on video

@eveningafterrain

Жыл бұрын

it'll be all blurry cuz i'll be crying

@_seaa_

Жыл бұрын

@@eveningafterrain ;-;

@sapphirewolf3365

Ай бұрын

At least id remember them better ......

a lot of people wish they had a better childhood, but sometimes i wish mine was just a little less good, atleast with a bad or just boring past the future can only get better, my childhood was and will always be the best time of my life and now it just keeps getting worse and worse- everything bad is stressfull af and everything good is just underwhelming and disappointing now- i lived and lost the best time of my life already, that childhood innocence and naivety of experiencing such small mundane things for the first time- free of stress and any worries about your future, just having fun in blissfull ignorance, it's a feeling nothing can replicate and one that nothing could ever compare to because i simply grew up and know too much now, i think too much now to have a moment like that ever again, i really wish i could go back sometimes, but even if that was possible, coming back to the present would just hurt more every time

@TravellerZasha

Жыл бұрын

I feel ya. I had both a bad and good childhood at least compared to now. My childhood was toxic and yet it's still the best part of my life. I feel old even though others say i'm not it hurts because i'm not a teen who knew how to get into University after they graduated. I feel like I missed a lot of opportunities when I was a teen. I'm worried that I won't be able to find an employer in time to earn the work hours I need towards an apprenticeship, it's already been 4 months and I have 8 months left to fulfil my work hours but how could I when I haven't found an employer to work under? I can't even fathom a year from now; my biggest fear is that next year i'll be in the same position as I am now and the year before. I feel like i'm watching my life go by, that i'm watching everyone's life go by and i'm forced to watch through a trapped window like now. Sorry for the mini vent, just needed to. Don't worry, I can force myself to stay strong and figure out a way to solve this mess i'm in. As childhood, please don't wish for a worse one. For me personally imagine if you don't have those childhood memories to fall back on for comfort, imagine if those bad memories add to the pain. Trust me it's not worth it. You're alive which means it is possible for you to feel good again. Everyone wishes for nirvana's peace, it'll be a journey to feel free of stress and worry again but you can find it again I believe. Just keep trying. I myself have no interest in going back to my childhood though if it meant repeating what i've gone through. I only wish to move forward. But how can you move forward when there is no guarantee of a future to be seen?

@twistedreality997

Жыл бұрын

@@TravellerZasha yeah i get that, i have maladaptive daydreaming which has basically taken over my whole life too the point where i was failing school and talking to multiple therapists getting probably wrongly diagnosed because they just don't get how big the daydreaming is in my life, i'm out of school now but i'll have things to pay for soon enough and i obviously have no job- i'd have to find something i can actually focus in and do and then just hope i even get accepted having no degree or anything, the future isn't looking all that great already :/ that's the thing tho- ofcourse i wouldn't say a traumatic past is better than a good one but for me personally- my comfort in life comes from said daydreaming, and the my past is more just there as a bleak reminded that i really can't ever get that back and that the future just gets worse by the day, if it was just not that memorable in any way i may have had more desire to get something good for myself now, but rn i'm just stuck- it gets worse and i just keep escaping reality because nothing new will outdo what i already lost, i'm quite literally just waiting to die, i just exist to dream away untill i eventually die, because death is the only kind of peace we're promised, everything else is just a wild guess now, back then it wasn't, which in hindsight really didn't help me :/

@regrets9412

Жыл бұрын

It feels like either way we all end up with that same unbearable ache in our chest.

@plopzyy6673

Жыл бұрын

my childhood was a fuckin nightmare, glad i went through it.

@Felix2111

Жыл бұрын

Tbh I thought only I think like this, thank you for sharing, it really helped❤

To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)

@mayumikiara

Жыл бұрын

Thank you Yo también te amo

@navkaur13

Жыл бұрын

wow... i really needed this so thank you

@sou5348

Жыл бұрын

Thank you.

@ildirimismailov

Жыл бұрын

me too thank you 😄

@MinnaLle

Жыл бұрын

Muito obrigada:(🖤

I really want to go back , everything was fine even my heart

I miss my childhood memories.That was very fantastic days no pain,no sad,no depressed,no worry about something just play,cry and laugh again and again.

To everyone missing their childhood, don't worry. You'll get to a point in your adulthood where you don't care about being cringe and buy the stuff you wanted or had as a kid. I now have a rubber duck collection. It makes me very happy

I don't miss being a kid, I miss being loved by my parents.

@goosey2658

Жыл бұрын

stop why did that hit right at home 💀😭

@tokoyami6070

Жыл бұрын

Can't have something I never had in the first place ☠️

@infiniteen2353

Жыл бұрын

that is sad even when you lost someone in your life even if you dont think they love you but they really do even when your careless they care so much to the point its not discribed

@olive_starxyz

11 ай бұрын

it really hurts uh?

@creyten5255

10 ай бұрын

I miss my parents loving each other

I'm 18 not too young yet not too old but is it normal that sometimes I cry about wanting to be a child again? When I see videos and pictures my aunt used to capture when I was a child was just a child full of passion, joy, and smiles. Man, the world is so fast paced I hope even I'm 20,30, or in my father days I can still reactivate that same feeling and pass it to my eventual child. Wow, if I feel too overwhelmed especially I'm on the early stages of my college years, I just imagine myself being a child again and just playing my toys, going to the park with my family, having dinner with all of them, and just having that smile again. Man, omg I'm crying again.

I wrote a quick little haiku poem while listening Fleeting happiness Melancholic maturity Missing innocence

@tacodude2687

Жыл бұрын

It’s beautiful

Billions of people.. yet we're still alone listening to this late at night♡ Hey guys it's been a while and I'm here to vent my sadness again, thanks for the comforting words, I hope that some of you here guys will have a great day/time and have a successful life :,)

@shitsuki_

Жыл бұрын

hi! ty so much and i hope u will have a lot of love, happy times and succes too:) i believe in you and dont forget to take care of you^^ i wish you the best, stranger from internet ♡

I miss being a kid. when I never had to worry about anything. when the only time I cried was when I fell. when I could actually sleep and not stay awake thinking about horrible things. when I liked socializing and when I never felt like people were judging me. I miss being a kid I really do. when my parents didn’t yell at me about my grades. when times were great.

@idonknonymore

9 ай бұрын

I'm currently struggling with that...I don't know what's happening I'm barley in middle school. My siblings don't act how they used to. My sisters is in highschool. I miss when we played barbies. When we played with lol dolls. When we even spend TIME together. Whenever she wants to spend time together now is when she wants to be on her phone. I can't explain the things I would do to go back to being a kid. To go back to being 9. So much people are gunna say I'm barley in middle school I shouldn't be worrying. I've figured it out today. I miss the joy of it. The joy of playing among us. The joy of not worrying. I don't think anyone will ever see this. I just miss it. I don't think people will understand so I don't tell anyone. My family is what I miss. When we used to eat at the dinner table. When we used to watch itsfunneh bedwars. I hate roblox now. It's the worst it's ever been. I haven't seen anybody feel the same way as me except you. I miss it.

I’m not ready. I’m going to 6th grade in a couple of months and I don’t believe in myself. All the classes, the time limit, and I don’t think I’ll be able to fit in. I’ve been having meltdowns because I miss my old life and just want to be a kid again. I thought life was hard then, and now I look at me and think it’s my last day.

“i am horribly limited”. i put this as my senior quote and while i don’t stand by sylvia plath in any way these words in her poem have resonated with me. to anyone who doesn’t know and would like to understand, the poem is about wanting to do everything. read every book, paint every detail, see every sight however we’re all on a limit. as it is impossible to read every book, paint every detail, and see every sight in one lifetime. we can only do our best in trying to make our dreams a reality and pave our own path on this very limited adventure

@IdentifiantE.S

Жыл бұрын

I completely agree ❤️

@user-qg4zs4bu5m

4 ай бұрын

can you tell which poem it it from?

To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! -Not mine, but pass it around babes

@Emmett_Br0wn

Жыл бұрын

@@donjoncraig6804 Continue being happy dude! Today's gonna be good, make it amazing.

In just a few months, I will be graduating and heading to college. At times, I blame COVID for the missed opportunities to enjoy my years before senior high, as being stuck in my room for two and a half years has been challenging. Even though I get to meet some of my friends again in person in this today f2f , we haven't had much time to hang out due to our busy schedules trying to maintain our grades and meet requirements. Many long nights have been spent completing school tasks, and many things have changed, making it feel like I have traveled through time. All of this makes me realize that we are getting older, and there may come a day when we don't have much time to talk to each other. I don't even have enough time to pursue my hobbies or the things I used to love. all I think about is my grades, research, tasks, college, course, work. When I think about the past I see myself happily playing around the school field with my friends, now we're on our separate ways...I wonder if they still remember the time we had a mock meeting at the school canteen about our future plans and promises...Everything just stresses me out. I'm going to continue revising our research now- to those who took time reading this, Thanks :D

@buniidraws

Жыл бұрын

this was really bittersweet to read, I feel you. :( I wish you the best of luck aswell!!

@bembiii3846

10 ай бұрын

I'm having the same situation as yours. I'm graduating junior high school in just a few days and it kinda saddens me knowing that I missed two years of high school not spending the rest of it with friends, teachers, and all that stuff. I fell in love with our school because I was in first year when the pandemic hit, we are like the last batch today that experienced the whole first year high school in f2f. Today I am the president of the whole campus and I just miss the vibe and the energy way back then when students from first year up to fourth year were like vibin' and they never really cared how old or young you were because we were there to not just only learn, but to have fun and become proud of being different. Even though there were some slight changes with the students of today, I'll still miss the everyday setting everytime I arrive at school. I'll just miss everything.

7 year old me where did you go?! Where did being happy, go, being stable and not feeling empty, being not worried about anything, to when we where not judged by what we dress, to not being judged by what are skin is, to not being judged on how we look, to not being judged on how we talk, the simple and plain.

this playlist is so nostalgic for some reason, even though i have never listened to it. it reminds me of how wonderful my childhood was, now it's just a reality i wish to go back to. my time as a kid is over now. as a child i never thought of growing up, only about having fun. life is so overwhelming for me right now. i just feel like leaving, but i know i cant.time flies by so fast now that im all grown up. i wish i could just escape this reality man. love you all reading this, i hope you have a better life than i have..

I hate feeling like no matter how good my job is, no matter how high my achievements are, I will never be happy. That's the thing about childhood- you are as free as you'll ever be and we didn't even know it. All I ever want is to be free, but 9-5 workweeks have me in golden handcuffs.

I just realized there is only 3 exams left and after i will never be a kid anymore.. my school life is over and i will never wear that school uniform again. I won't have that time of my life again where i don't have to worry about tomorrow. It hurt me so bad when i realized i can't enjoy the things i used to be as a little girl. It's actually life.. nothing actually lasts forever but i'm happy it happened .......

my childhood was a mix of large ups and downs and then things being ripped apart from me and loosing my innocence and half of my childhood. got diagnosed with four mental illnesses then the pandemic hit. 1 1/2 years spent isolating in one room. Whoever is out there if they're reading this, please don't give up. The future is worth it, you can create one. To quote Winston Churchill, "If you're going through hell, keep going". Take care.

i miss not caring, i miss being a carefree child. I grew up too fast with the world around me, the peer pressure and the trends It was horrible. They stole the little girl in me and I would do anything to get her back and her happiness. But now there’s nothing left of her and I continue pushing through without a choice.

I miss the childhood i never had, i never had any friends in my childhood bc i grew up too fast mentally and in size so everybody used to bully me and i grew up with an abusive mother, i lost my inocence very early so yeah

@Preppychristams2911

Жыл бұрын

i am so sorry you went through this and i hope everything is better now or soon

I'M NEVER FORGIVING COVID FOR TAKING 1 AND A HALF YEAR FROM MY CHILDHOOD.. I NEVER WILL.. THE TIME I WOULD'VE SPEND WITH MY FRIENDS AND THR MEMORIES I WOULD'VE MADE...

@Hidden_Remi

Жыл бұрын

covid took away my graduation and instead left me with depression

@toocutetobesus1752

Жыл бұрын

@@Hidden_Remi Me to bud.

Shoutout to my pillow. For being there every time, and catching my tears….. Even when nobody was there to comfort me.

@infiniteen2353

Жыл бұрын

YES true very very true

I miss my childhood and basically everything about late 90s and early 2000s. The school, summer times, all those cartoons, and toys, our old house with its garden, our pets 😢

My childhood days are the worst part of my life, as a person whose parents got devorce when she needed both of their support the most, being so far from my mother's love, pushing myself to grow up quickly, all the tear dropped under my blanket and on my pillow, wishing I was given someone else life, it's hard, trying to end my life during my teenage years, my heart feels so heavy day by day, I just hope that little girl will learn to accept her past and just live her present life happily

كل واحد فالحياة كان يحب ان يرجع طفولته القديمة وكيف كان يتذكرها الي كانت من دون قيود او حدود كان فقط السعادة م تفارق وجهك والي حولك سعيدين نفسك وكيف كان ان بتكون ذكريات للماضي الطفولي وما بنحسها مره ثانية بس وقت ويعدي من حياتك وان كان وقتها ما نعرف شي اسمه وقت او خوف من شي كنا نفس الاطفال مفتوحين الشخصية منفردين نركض ونلعب ونمرح والحين الخوف يرتابك كل لحظة من اي شي يصير فالحياة م تعرف وش المستقبل او الشي الي جايك او الي بيصير لك فقط تدعي الله ان ييسر حياتك وتحفظ احبابك واهلك بينما انت تسوي شي يفرحك م تحس لذة الفرح الي كانت قبل وكيف انك تشتاق لفرحتك وشخصيتك الطفولية القديمة المميزة وكيف كان الاشخاص الي حوالك في وقت طفولتك في وقت فرحتك مو نفس الايام الي تنعاااد والاشخاص الطفولة عبارة عن جزأ من حياااتك الي تتمنى لو كانت تعود ولو بلحظة ودقيقة و كنا اطفال م كنا نحس انه بنشتاق حياة الطفولة م كنا ندري شي سوى اللعب واللهو والمرح وان راح تكون ذكرى جمييييلة فيحياتك كانت فترة ودك ترجع فيها كل وقت.

Born 1993, when I was around 5/6 me and my family had to move to Germany, Osnabruck because my Dad was stationed there for being in the British Army. We stayed there until 2001. I can honestly say from what memories are still there in my head, are the best years of my life. If I could just relive those days, just for a few hours, I would be so happy. I spend hours crying happy/sad tears on Google Earth Pro with the time machine of the maps. Seeing my old Primary School before it was demolished. Seeing the Army barracks my dad was at before that too was sadly demolished. Seeing my old childhood home which I haven't seen since we left 22 years ago. It's even more saddening with how Germanys privacy laws are. Google Street view is practically none existent. So the buildings and the streets I fondly remember are mainly just these pixelated resemblances of buildings that I still vividly remember from my childhood but i can't see how are now or was a few years ago. I only have what I remember, and the odd remnants of videos here on KZread which is extremely lacking and rare to find. The walks we went on, the Warner Brothers Movie Theme Park down south near Dorsten. Pony rides in the woods and picking the oldest one there who was called Boris. I picked him all the time because he liked to eat the grass a lot which made the ride last longer so I could spend more time with him. The little & big lake walk just behind the Nettebad. The traditional Christmas Markets in the town centre. Playing video games when my Dad finally came home on my Playstation 1, we would try and beat the games in one day but never could because I didn't have a memory card. Getting excited whenever Pokemon was on the TV. Friends round mine to share the big swimming pool I had. Watching Halloween Town before going out trick or treating. Finding our first ever pet, a kitten abandoned behind a grit bin while we were on a bike ride and taking her home, we named her Millie. So many memories. All lost to time. With only old VHS tapes & photographs to try and relive those memories at least just a tiny bit. Oh what Id do just to go back to those days. Nostalgia is such a beautiful but cruel mistress. I hate to love it and love to hate it. I Miss you Osnabruck. I miss you childhood. But. I have a baby daughter now. And I honestly can not wait to be the best father I can possibly be. And to make everlasting memories with her that she can look back on and smile just as much as I do looking back at the ones I made with my Mum & Dad. Oh Germany. Oh Osnabruck. Oh childhood. You were the best of days. I'll revisit you one day. With the whole family hopefully.

@shitsuki_

Жыл бұрын

wish u all the best for you and youre daughter! Im sure you're gonna be a good father:)

@Pilps

Жыл бұрын

@@shitsuki_ Thank you man. That truly means so much.

Please take me back to my childhood...Take me back to 2010 where I could run freely in the street, sleep without heartbreaks, watch cartoons. Play and make friends, write song lyrics in a notebook, sing with friends loudly under the tree... Please🕛🍁

@airbornemelody6156

Жыл бұрын

god please .. i want it all back

My childhood died a long long time ago.. I miss it sm it hurts bc I never actually had a childhood for long only for 2 years and then. I understood everything and it ended, time really does go by fast...

Sometimes I would wish time would slow down, and I feel like everything is zooming through so, so fast. Every year that goes by feels like a short video. Even thought I am still very young, I feel as if the more that time passes, the more faded away my memories are. I feel like every year is a regret, all the things I didn't do and all the sights I didn't see, and I am angry with my self on why I feel so scared to do these wonderful things. I feel worthless sometimes because I can't get out of bed and I would have no motivation to do anything at all. There are so many people who can help me but I just can't bring myself to ask because compared to them, I know I am doing way better than them. I have this "put together life" but I can't help but feel that there is something wrong and I am missing something and that I didn't do enough in my younger days.

При прослушивания получаю успокоение и умиротворение. Будто снялось пол нагрузки,плюс добавляется мотивация и мысль что нельзя сдаваться)

тоже хочу поделится своей мыслью и воспоминаем. На самом деле я очень скучаю по своему страму дому, по комнате, по школе, по двору, по собакам. Эх мой дом, он был самым уютным, просторным, до сих пор помню его запах. Мы бегали с сестренкой по комнатам веселились. Выходили во двор, там бесились. Мне нравилось весной выходить с мамой во двор к нашему гаражу и убираться там, потом находить игрушки и игратся. Вытаскивали самокат, велосипед, ролики и пока мама с бабушкой и дедушкой убирались там, мы с сестренкой игрались. Моя комната, я любила рисовать там включив на всю Lo Fi. Любила свою кровать. До сих пор почню на ощупь обои, шторы, стол. Моя светлая комната.. Эх школа, я ходила не пропуская не потому чтобф не пропустить учебу, а чтобы не упустить веселье с одноклассниками и с параллелькой. Была у меня подруга с которой мы сидели за одной партой и всегда смеялись над всякими приколами, слушали музыку через одну пару наушников. Сейчас я уже не с кем так не шучу и не смеюсь. Сейчас я выросла, уехав в другую страну увидела кучу говна/ людей и стала серьёзной тихой. столько всего

@springday6859

Жыл бұрын

я тебя понимаю, но скоро ты будешь дома, потерпи, солнышко...

@saramilton9362

Жыл бұрын

Я вспоминаю под эту песню тех друзей к которым хотела бы вернутся но боюсь что они не простят меня за то что я им сказала и расторгла дружбу..

I had the most wonderful childhood with a happy family, and every day brings beautiful memories, but now I am at an exhausting age, I am trying to create my life well. I do not want these responsibilities. I just bring back my memories with my family in our small house.

The ability of reminiscing is a blessing yet a heavy curse.

Ok. I'll admit. I fucked up. I was so busy day dreaming of growing up and be an adult. Now, look...i missed a ton. I miss the days where I actually fall asleep. I don't sleep nowadays-I passed out from exhaustion. I want the sleep where I can "SLEEP" and have a nice dream not caring for anything.

when it has snowfall and comfort chain you know it’s gonna be good

Some people or as I should say a lot of people say they wish they can go back and relive their childhood but it’s a new era to make things different. But I don’t like different every time I go to bed I have to go with the thought of me having good or bad grades or if I missed an assignment, I wish I can really go back and relive the moment where I didn’t need to worry about anything just sitting in the grass clueless on what’s happening in the real world I’m 13 now I wish I can go back when I was 6 watching stamps on my moms phone and having fun with my friends. In just want to go to bed think about nothing worrying I hope you have a good night I love you.

@RemoWilliams1227

Жыл бұрын

This does not improve with age unfortunately.

@3xoexo

Жыл бұрын

@@RemoWilliams1227 real

Here i am crying silenty while my family is sleeping remembering the times that i don't care about the world

@the.seagull.35

Жыл бұрын

Hey I just wanted you to know this... God saw you. He saw every tear. He knows your pain and loneliness. "You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book?" Psalm 56:8 ❤ Jesus proved God's love for you by giving His life for your sins. He rose from the dead to give you eternal hope. He said to all His followers: "Behold, I am with you always, to the very end of the age." You can trust in Him ❤ He is always there.

im just a kid. I dont know why im feeling so sad. I hate to grow up. Im scared for my future. I dont mean for me to grow up this way. Im terrified of what my future ahead of me is gonna look like. I want to go back to my past. Please. One more time,just for a day will do. I want to go back.

Bros and Broskets, Whike reminiscing about the good times is what makes us human , do not forget that you're experience something rn that will become a memory. Don't dwell too much on the good years gone, focus on making the present beautiful. And if you have parents and siblings be sure to love and cherish them , because they're what made your childhood the beautiful place it was.

I remember my childhood, but there was one person missing..my dad

I miss the childhood i never had...i know its pointless to look back and regret on things we cannot change but i feel like a childhood is a important part of person and the fact i missed out on everything and had no friends and no tales to tell now as a young adult it kinda breaks me....i possess virtually no social skills today, i find it hard to make friends and i always think the worst about myself and i feel like im wasting my young adult years now....i feel like it will never change, like i was born to be a loner and i am slowly trying to come to terms with it..

I get goosebumps just thinking about the memories. I miss my family.

I had a very beautiful childhood, all I want is to go back and bring it back for life

I might still be a kid since I am eleven and will miss this age forever I already miss being 4 or 5 yrs old, 6-11 years old started problems my parents fighting my mom found out I was SA or r@p3d and family problems got worse hated my self left my friends just for a dumb feeling I felt like I was left out and manipulated but I should've handled that instead of leaving that toxic friendship I fake my feeling or liking someone back and I messed up too much already I feel like dying already. I lost motivation to eat and want to be in my bed all the time I feel like I shouldnt exist I just make lives terrible. I miss being 4-6 since everything was always fun and people was kind or in my words everything was peaceful.

@joelangelis9158

Жыл бұрын

I’m very sorry to hear about all of that, especially at your age. That’s a lot to deal with. I can’t make it any easier on you, but I’ve been there too, in those same situations. I felt like you do, and sometimes those feelings come back and I remember everything that’s happened. The reason I made it through is because of Jesus. I don’t know if you’ve ever heard of who Jesus is and what he’s done, but he changed me life and I have hope now. It’s not an easy life, don’t get me wrong, but knowing that I’m not alone and that he is always there guiding me and bringing me through the hard things changes everything. As much as all of those terrible things hurt, it’s the painful and bad things in life that show us that there’s something more. Something was missing in my life when I was experiencing what you’ve gone through. I know that what was missing was knowing Jesus. If you don’t have a bible, you can find lots online, and read the gospels. The gospel of John is a good place to start. Then read Genesis, and even through the whole book. God created everything and he also made you, and though life is corrupted because of sin and evil, he will save you from it so that you can be with him forever. Sorry for the long paragraph but I wanted to share this with you so that you know you’re not alone, and that there is an answer, and there is Someone who can save you too.

@mariamxx7296

Жыл бұрын

it really isn't your fault what happened, i've also done very similar mistakes as the ones you mentioned but you have to realize that when you get older you will look at things in a different perspective and you won't blame it all on yourself like you are doing now and also you will see and realize that many people have experienced what you experienced and made it through, remember in this world you are not alone, i know what happened to you is sad and you are too young to experience it however, when you get older you will realize how this experience have changed you, don't make it an unfortunate event but look at it like you are a really strong person, life shot you with a strong bullet in a young age and you STILL managed to survive, yk what they say.. what doesn't kill you make you stronger, trust and have faith that the future is holding so much for you but you have to stick around and quit self pity or hate because even though it's never your fault but it's your decision on how to react to such hardships, ik this may sound too much for and you might not understand everything i said but at least trust time because you really won't be the same person when you get older and it's your choice to decide if you are going to make this effect you negatively or positively down the line. For example i've been abused a lot during my childhood and now it's all black, worst part of my life was when i was your age 11-16 and 14 was the worst of them all, i'm now 18 and i could swear by all gods that if only i knew i would have this kind of mindset when i grow up and this realization i would've never treated myself that way earlier or looked at myself in that way, i really hope this helps you somehow if you ever saw the comment, feel free to reply back or reach out to me i'm here to support you definitely!!!

Смотря на картину которую ты поставил на фон видео , Я вспоминаю старую Одессу .

The first music made me tear up so bad, I remembered some of the past when I was still a young girl enjoying my life with full of joy and innocence in this world. It's just truly disappointing that I grew up differently, as I meant I grew up changing over the year. Now I'm literally so gloomy, gotten more introverted, a lot of anxiety coming to me, stress, and heck I was acting like a faker or a plastic person (I always kept a smile on my face knowing damn well I was beyond in my mind with horrible, or an overwhelming pressure inside me, which I know I shouldn't be. But can u blame someone who was struggling so bad to deal with anxiety? I never wanted to have it also, perhaps all of us who have anxiety. No one wants it in the first place.). Look I'm not acting like those cringe ppl trying to act "cool" okay. I've turned like this when those type of vids hasn't exist yet. Anxiety, being shy and always an overthinker is hard. I know how it felt. I just hope my parents understand how hard for me to take those things off. I felt like they don't understand or knowledge that not everyone has to be the same. Everyone can go to different directions, or path, it's they're perspective not their's.

I saw a comment saying if you are feeling sad write Down your thoughts, I am not sad…I am nostalgic a little bit and I feel peace in my mind that I think a tear try to roll down. Well my past was mostly weird and bad moments but I can’t forget the times where I just kept going in life and I am still here, the times I would go out and build a tree house,fake a shop,tag, hide n seek, go to abandoned places,swimming with all my neighbours,football,pizza nights outside etc. the past made me strong…yet grateful living even the bad moments because I got a gift being strong mentally and physically, I am very mature, I am powerful enough. Maybe what I am writing it’s not making sense but it’s alright. As long as I remember myself I never wanted to grow up and I still kinda got that mindset but I am 18 in 5 months and I much prefer living the moment,making experiences,planning the future. Don’t worry that you grow up there are many new things that they will fulfill you out there, you haven’t even lived your best days yet,you haven’t discovered the world and the world hasn’t discovered you, you haven’t feel loved till bone,you haven’t made your first money to be proud of yourself starting your adult hood. You have to understand even if you don’t achieve something you like there are many paths to take but u can always achieve what you think you are made of in you 20s,30s,40s it doesn’t matter,never leave your goals even if you are 70, life is to be full filled with things we love and then die in peace that you know now you achieved many of your goals and you didn’t live a miserable life, it is in your hands take actions. Live the moment,go to places,meet people, talk to strangers, go for a walk at the sea,go have a drink, relax with a box of chocolate make the moment precious, make it have a meaning, even if it doesn’t have at least you are alive. I love you guys so much even if I don’t know you.

I am 15 but i really miss my childhood i'm afraid to be an adult cause i scared what if i am not good enough what if i fail my parents don't allow failure what if i end up alone what if everyone forget me what if they don't love me what if they are just acting with ..... i I do my best to talk to others smile and be the friend who can be silly clumsy sometimes and also funny .... but when i am alone i feel empty and live like everyday i feel like i lacked of energy after talking with someone...... I feel alone but i want noone beside me cause im don't want to be used to that person and let her go

My heart was broken into pieces

Damn these comments hits hard.. to whoever reading this youre are beloved, nothing can replace you.Have a great day my dear🫂❤️

I really wish i can go back to childhood it really gives me a goosebumps somehow whe i imagined the thing i do before

I miss my childhood. I know the fucked up things that happened when I was a kid, I know how horrible they were. But I know because I grew up, and because I understand it now. Before I didn't understand it, before I was happy, before I could play with my friends without feeling that they have bad intentions towards me, before I could play without stopping, without any responsibility. Now I have to deal with the truth, and the aftermath of that truth. I miss being a little girl. I miss not understanding what it means to "take advantage of someone." I miss being innocent, even though I wasn't really innocent. I miss being normal.

I miss the people from my childhood❤i would ask so many things from them

I wonder how many young people are listening to this and wishing to go back to their childhood and I wonder how many middle-aged adults are listening and wishing to go back to the time when they were young. To the time when they thought life was horrible because they grew up. To the time before they went numb to everything and just live like robots dreamlessly.

@lalpiang7440

Күн бұрын

are u mixed ?

"Now... It's About Time I Put Down My Pen." - Jiraiya

I tired But when I listen this playlist I forgot problems that I have Thanks ❤

I'm 11. I'm currently crying in my room, wondering if everyone would be better off if I just died. I used to say that, but I was just emo. This time it's serious. Mom will make a big deal out of it and put me in a psych ward or some shit and dad.. I'm scared to tell him. I don't know why. My best friend will tell mom, but she's the only one who cares. I need some help. Someone, say something to cheer me up. I need it.

@danielwheeler1537

Жыл бұрын

I'm sorry to hear this. It's hard to live sometimes, and we all can feel that way. However, there are people that care. I already can see your mom and your best friend care about you and want the best for you. I'd encourage you to pray for a bit, get a glass of water, and call 988. It's not easy to live, but life is a beautiful thing. I want to hear back from you and watch you journey. Have faith my friend. I'll be praying.

I come here every time I feel not good I miss my old self .

Sometimes I think that if I could go back and change things, I wouldn't have such embarrassing and bad memories, but I know that without my memories, I wouldn't be who I am now.❤

hits different at 2am❤

I ate a meal that I ate all the time when I was little on summer days at my grandmas house and it’s midnight and I’m growing up and I miss her(little me) I wish I could’ve protected her better she doesn’t know me yet but I know her and I want to share this meal with her but I can’t so I just cry and cry and cry until my everything hurts so I cry myself to sleep and it makes the pain go away I know I’m only 14 and the “golden years” are starting but it doesn’t feel like it it feels like the dark ages now. I’m gonna go out on a limb and say I’m not the only one who feels this pain of not being able to protect the little version of themselves and now they have to feel that seemingly endless pain I love you all and I hope you have a good day and I mean that truly I hope you have a good day I love you

this is perfect because im writing a story of my life for school so im listening to this while writing ittt :)

I don't really know what to say, but I realize that life has a lot of meaning in it. Every sheet we go through has its own story that has countless pages of its life, and past experiences that are both beautiful and bitter become a separate story that will be remembered forever, Or the story of our past life is told to our children and grandchildren for future generations who will come, and become life lessons later so that tomorrow will be even better than today or the past.

I miss my childhood so much.I just wanna go back to my childhood days and live a stress free life. I wish i could turn back.I miss my grandparents so much.

I am 11years old and have been told by a 28yo ( at the time I was 9 )that I have the maturity of an adult that slightly concerns me

im almost 10 years old and still listening to this :D

@the.seagull.35

Жыл бұрын

Idk if this will do much good 😅 but if you're 10 or younger you shouldn't be on here. I know that may seem annoying, but it's for good reasons. Social media can be a bad influence on people who are too young for it. I just want you to have a good life outside of social media, and enjoy it 👍

@idonknonymore

9 ай бұрын

The things I would do to go back being 9 or 10...

@the.seagull.35

9 ай бұрын

@@idonknonymore ❤❤❤ At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Who, then, is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?” He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes one such child in my name welcomes me." Matthew 18:1‭-‬5 🫂

Glad I’m not the only one who has this pain. Stay strong people

I miss it sm. I would do anything to have that feeling back.

I clearly felt the World had change after losing my fav person; my beloved mom. I'm having pain day by day. My childhood was free. Now, I guess I'm under a curse. I had always imagined if God would take me instead of her cause she deserve the whole world. I can't resist my tears coming out whenever I talk about her. I still can't moving on her like everyone did. I still wanna feel her everything. I wanna see her again If I could only if I could.

não tenho muito oq fazer, ultimamente me sinto tão perdida, e uma das coisas q eu percebi nesse meu momento de solidão/solitude é q... Eu sempre estive em busca do amor, era um sentimento que eu queria mais q tudo, estava preparada pra quando alguém chegar, pra eu poder da-lo pra alguém... Mas esse sentimento nunca chegou, só foi embora e voltou.

@luizapaula6998

Жыл бұрын

Vc nao precisa do amor de ninguem mas que do seu, estou com certeza de que vc e uma pessoa maravilhosa e que vale muito mas do que vc pensa ♥️

@pam_uuuh

Жыл бұрын

@@luizapaula6998 valeu, eu sei que em algum momento tudo vai dar certo, e q não vou me sentir perdida, mas o processo é doloroso. Porém necessário.

Bazı insanlar hayata şanslı gelirler. Ailesi yönünden, maddi yönden, fiziki yönden... Bazılarıysa bunların eksikliklerini doldurmak için savaşırlar. Ben de o bazılarından biriyim. Ailemle olan herhangi bir anımı hatırlamıyorum. Annem ve babamın yan yana olma düşüncesi bile garip hissettiriyor. Asla aile denen şeyi tadamadım asla. Yıllarca babamı sadece yazın gördüm. Annemi ise sürekli görmeme rağmen ayrı evlerde yaşadık. Hayatta öğrenebileceğim her şeyi tek başıma öğrenmek zorundaydım. Üstelik ben bir ablaydım. Benimle aynı durumda olan kardeşime göğüs gerip yanında olmam lazımdı. Bir anne gibi :) Maalesef ki hayat bizi ayırdı. Kardeşimle 3 yıl ayrı yaşadım. Aile denen şeyi oluşturan her bir birey yoktu. Sorun değil dedim ve beğenmediğim küçükken zorbalığa uğradığım o fiziğimi değiştirmek istedim. Spora başaldım. Okul, spor, arkadaşlar kafamı dağıtıyordu. Hayatım iyi gibiydi tabi sadece o anlık. Lise 2 ikinci dönem depresyon sürecine girdim. O gün bu gündür hala depresyondayım. 4 yıl oldu ben depresyondan kurtulamadım. Her gün beni dibe çekecek milyon tane düşünceyle boğuşuyorum. Artık kaldıramıyorum yeniliyorum bu düşüncelere. Evet benden hiçbir şey olmaz. Ben kötü bir evlat kötü bir insan kötü bir ablayım. Başarısız bir öğrenciyim. Her şey sizin olsun lütfen. Ben hiçbir şey istemiyorum. Ben sadece iyi olmak istiyorum. Gençliğimi, çocukluğumu asla bir daha yaşayamayacak olsam da sorun değil. Ya öldürün beni ya da bırakın sadece iyi hissedeyim.

i remember very little of my childhood, but i'd like to forget it all..

The way this playlist go like soft from deeeeeeeepppppppp❤ liked bro

I know everyone wish to have their childhood back but sadly its reality and we cant wish to have everything we want. Its good to wish for something but not all wishes comes true. I wish i could go back of being a innocent happy child that had so much energy and everything was happy and calm back then even though, i didnt have much love growing up i still loved my childhood cuz i had at least every little thing that i child would ask for for and am sure everyone had at least something precious. Even thought you know you will loose that precious thing while growing up. This is a wish that will never come true.

@the.seagull.35

9 ай бұрын

❤❤❤ nothing is impossible with God. At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Who, then, is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?” He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes one such child in my name welcomes me." Matthew 18:1‭-‬5 🫂

I know you knew that, it’s maybe hard or embarrassing or tired or anything bad happened. So just do it bro and believe you can pass it away. And that all will be the beautiful memories. Let’s making so many memories. Get up bro get up just do it.

I dream of a time where I as a child sweetly slept, untroubled and undoubted; a soft bed of grass below and above a vaulted sky

Thanks for making me a workout playlist

I miss my childhood.

i was just doing my math homework, now im dramatically sitting in my window, looking at those snowy hills and thinking about my husband who had to leave me because of our kings choices… im writing him a letter full of misery and solitude. my heart aches at the thought of him. but i learned how to live with solitude and now im enjoying every moment of it. my dear husband, when will you come back and fill my soul with love and light again? when will you come to me and enjoy this solitude with me…

My dashund that has been with my since I was 5 passed away 4 months ago its felt like it's only been 2 weeks since I lost him I'm 17 now his name is "Lover" he died January 13th, a couple of weeks before that my sister had been telling me he was getting slower, so I headed over to see him. When I got there 15 minutes after he walked a foot away from his bed to my grandma's chair and fell out, he huffed and gasped and we sat there with him I asked my little brother (8yrs old) If he wanted to go to the room he said "no I don't want to miss him" I almost broke down right there. As we all said our goodbyes and reminded him how much he ment to us he took his last breath and his eye closed. Sometimes I feel like I wasn't around him a lot but I know that I loved him so much to the extent I'd drop everything just to see him again. We buried him the day after, it wasn't long after that I finally broke down but It cause my little brother came to me while I was wash dishes looked at me hug me and said "I miss him" and he started crying. That night I decided to cheer him up, we went outside and I pointed to a star right under the moon and said "see that bright start under the moon, that's him watching over all of us, and don't worry if the star disappears cause he'll just hop to next one making it closer to the moon so he can be with all his friends and brag about how loved he was" ill never forget the smile the went across his face. I hope someday my brother realizes how much joy he gave me just by smiling

I never really get that chance to "miss my childhood" for my childhood much like my ordinary life was boring, complex and lonely. My lifestyle has never really changed and I don't think I will ever see that happen for I fear change and yet, I can't help but want to change. I do miss being nurtured and cared for but I've wasted so much of my "youth" that I feel I've missed out on such a large chunk of my life that I'll never get to experience. When people were out with friends I was inside playing a strategy game on my own, and I still am.

@creyten5255

10 ай бұрын

You can't change the past my friend so don't dwell on it. You fear change but if you don't change you will not grow as a person. To change is to improve. You have been given a challenge of changing take that challenge head on. Your life will never get better if you don't change. Comfort and the fear of change are the greatest enemies of success.

I miss my time… where is it??😔😞😒

This was supposed to be sad nostalgic lo-fi but I am playing wacky Sims with it and love it.

If anyone feeling low or want to cry hard just read comments on every music videos on KZread:(

ah yes the memories the friends ah yes we had it all back then what happened...

I had a happy childhood, but I don't miss it. I like that I am gradually growing up and becoming smarter and more experienced. This playlist is about the idea of moving forward little by little.

my dad passed away right before covid hit, i know he would've hated this pandemic that happened. But I wish i got to enjoy the moments with him more. I didn't think it would've been the last time I would've seen him but I still think about when he said "Goodbye." and i said "Don't say goodbye we'll see each other again." and how I was wrong. I'll see him again someday but not now.

@the.seagull.35

Жыл бұрын

I'm really sorry to hear this 😔 I hope you and your family have been able to find peace. It seems like only yesterday that the pandemic started... it must feel like that to you too. 💔 "The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted... to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion- to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair." -verses from Isaiah 61 ❤

i hate my childhood, but i really miss my grandma

I hate my childhood, i simply like the music

sad time fly

это просто идеальная подборка

I miss not being a big bag of suffering and hurtful emotions!!!!

I don't miss my childhood i onley miss not being totally aware of whats happening around me

I miss very very miss my childhood.......😢