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@nabeeldhorat2217

Жыл бұрын

what is the name of the artwork?

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

@@nabeeldhorat2217 the artist is nicola samori

@darkchildstudios5954

Жыл бұрын

​@@goldenthemes692 Thanks for this playlist. I really liked it. Thanks

@irelynnchacon2506

11 ай бұрын

This song makes me feel important thank you I'm kinda inspired by this pice to keep on so I have decided to keep pursuing my dream thank you so so much

@zendozendo9437

11 ай бұрын

So beautiful 😍

I've reached the stage where I am no longer sad. I am just tired.

@lupis9442

Жыл бұрын

✌️

@ketwals2723

Жыл бұрын

Jes= how it feels...its when u gave all ...loved 2 much ...its such a weird experience we in somehow. Its like u want 2 go home and can not enter...

@googleyoflolz9930

Жыл бұрын

Same tbh

@Hishurak

Жыл бұрын

Rejoice when sadness comes knocking at your mind, embrace it with all your heart. Make love to It and ascend to that sublime suffering. In time we all will become gods.

@Femalesubmissive18

Жыл бұрын

I've cried all the tears I had to cry. I feel as though I have almost none left for this life time.

Forgive yourself. Forgive yourself because u managed to get here. Every hardship, every time your heart got broken, every month u struggled to pay rent. We are here now. Forgive yourself for your past mistakes - the future is soft like a cushion of clouds. Believe that - that's the only way to live a happy life. Forgive.

@tasyawr4710

Жыл бұрын

Fqkkkk im cryingggg, im tryinggg i swear im trying

@gayatrimajumder1851

Жыл бұрын

But when you are really tired of everything and everyone ? Tired of fighting with the society ? Trying so hard to make a so called place there ? When ur own people are pushing ur limits harder and harder and u r there doing nothing but bearing everything...when the things used to give you peace are no more the things of ur interest...u r living only like a dead corpse...no motives, no hope only trying where dk what will the result will....what we should do then ?

@alphex1983

Жыл бұрын

No

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

@@tasyawr4710 It gets better man🙏

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

@@gayatrimajumder1851 first change your environment, move to a new city and start going to the gym

It’s gotten to a point where I’m just watching my life and not really living it. I don’t know how or when it happened. It’s been so long since I’ve been truly happy. I wish I could just find myself, not wishing to be someone else. I don’t know what I’m doing in life, I don’t want to disappoint anyone. I just want to be present again.

@liaisnotlialiaisnotlia6401

Ай бұрын

I’m going through the same thing. I’ve found that small things like plants, art projects, night walks (for the liminal space vibes), and stargazing help me stay a bit more grounded. Do something you enjoy, you might not feel immediately happy but it will help a bit. Start small before doing big things, live is short try to make the best of the hard times. Good luck :)

@cris_the_coder

2 күн бұрын

i could tell when mine started, I was getting a lot of money more then my parents ever dreamed off but had no money management skills coming from a broken home, at the time my gf was legit the only making me feel alive so when we broke up I started using plain pills to feel nothing, I didn't know If I had them for 4 days my body would need them as much as it needs water and air. I Fell hard without anyone but my close family to depend on. that ex I thought was the one died in a car cash a year later, I found out by her mom thru a fb message from her acct, a friend this year died in my room after i came home from a long shift, bought some laced coke... I'm trying to pick up the broken parts but I just want to fall and stop existing

"If you spend your time chasing butterflies, they'll fly away, If you spend your time making a beautiful garden, the butterflies will come to you. And if they don't come, you still have your beautiful garden." -Mario Quintana

@SushiruKun

9 ай бұрын

Wow, that's a win-win thing then. great!

@ceyinthehouse

6 ай бұрын

this is a beautiful quote thank u for that it made my day 🥺🤍

@user-oz1bh3vd1b

6 ай бұрын

???:mahhhh-rio!

@andreacarcaci1982

4 ай бұрын

Thank you man😢😢 I cried reading this comment but at the same time I founded hope and will to live🤗

@CristinaTomas-xd6dk

4 ай бұрын

BEAUTIFUL and Wise!

No words can express how much I don’t want to be existing anymore.

@dims952

3 ай бұрын

jus wanted to say I love you bro, and i'm proud of you no matter what

@RandomSam14

3 ай бұрын

@@dims952 you to bro

@dam07gamer63

3 ай бұрын

Hey Bro im Love you,im trully Love you ! is not your falt ..dont blame yourself i stay here

@josephescobar-hk9nt

3 ай бұрын

280 days ago I didnt have any direction no one to help me out of the mess I put myself in . Don't ever give up on yourself. You are truly worth everything.

@INEARMODERATOR

3 ай бұрын

This is a good place. Because from here, things can only get better.

I'm in war with myself .

Hey if your reading this, just remember that this pain is temporary and will not last forever, and while your going through it your not alone we are all in this together doing the best we can, I'm proud of you for still being here fighting everyday, cus it's really not easy but you still strong enough to not give up, know that I care about you and I'm glad your here, your feelings are valid and I believe you'll get to a better place with time. I hope this helps, you don't have to accept my comment or like it but I just did it for the people who needs it. Remember to drink water get some rest and check on your loved ones❤️.

@yarmengulo3006

3 күн бұрын

Thank you for coming in to this world and wrothe such a words, thank you..thank you, thank youu!

@Lee_just_potato

3 күн бұрын

@yarmengulo3006 Awww that's so sweet of you thank you for coming to this world and for still being here. No problem dear❤️🙏

There is a difference between being alone and being lonely.

@ANG3L90s_

11 ай бұрын

indeed. and sometimes you're both.

@jespetatl

Ай бұрын

Being lonely has an untouchable depth.

Loving is easy I love everyone endlessly But why is it so hard To love me I cant blame anyone because even i, i instantly regret everything i say regret everything i do Inside my own body i feel swallowed I feel like a foreign Like a visitor And because of that I never really blamed anyone For how badly it hurts And for how terrible it felt I fear i will never understand This puzzle inside my head I fear this war in me Will end up with me dead I fear all of this will never Come to an end

@DarKey..

Жыл бұрын

Hey buddy...I don't know u..I don't even know ur name but I can feel your feelings so u need to know that I Love You as a Human:)

@unidentified2462

Жыл бұрын

"someday someone will break you so badly that you'll become unbreakable... like a GOD"

@mr.bojack3387

Жыл бұрын

Hey buddy, have faith. I can feel you. I am still feeling the same. But you have to be strong.

@watshedweirdo5867

Жыл бұрын

i wish i could dissappear.

@minry678

Жыл бұрын

Your words just painted those outcomes shortly before me writing these words. I feel you, and know you’re the ONE out of many of US to give me a sense of relief. I read your words with conviction and depth. After dealing with drugs and how it affects not only you but all those around you. (ME) There comes a point where your (ME) lack of love for yourself causes problems to those around. I got tired of me and my constant disappointment. But wanna know something we didn’t break after many bruisings and beatings that we’ve endured. You just gave me strength,l to carry on. Take care and ONE LUV ❤

I hate myself, I hate how I am always a waiting station for people, I hate how everything around me looks at me as a person who does not feel

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling this way about yourself. It's understandable to feel frustrated and exhausted from always being there for others without receiving the same in return. It's important to remember that you are not just a waiting station for others; you are an individual with your own needs, wants, and desires. It's important to recognize that your feelings are valid and that it's okay to prioritize yourself and your own needs. It's also important to surround yourself with people who value and respect you for who you are and not just what you can do for them. Feeling like everything around you sees you as a person who does not feel is a difficult place to be in. It's important to remember that your emotions are valid, and it's okay to express them. You deserve to have people in your life who listen and support you, even when your feelings may not align with theirs. Remember to take care of yourself and seek help from a mental health professional or support group if needed. You deserve to live a happy and fulfilling life, and it's possible to achieve that with the right tools and support.

It was so hard then. now it’s just nothing I’m just exhausted

I'm listening to this alone in my bedroom with eyes full of tears. Being alone is terrifying me, lonliness is killing me. My heart hurts so much it just feels like I'm no longer alive

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

I am so sorry to hear that you are going through such a difficult time right now. It's understandable to feel overwhelmed and helpless when faced with the pain of loneliness. Please know that you are not alone in your struggles, and there are people who care about you and want to help. It's natural to seek companionship and social connection as human beings, and when we feel cut off from others, it can be a painful and isolating experience. It's important to remember that feeling lonely is a normal and common human experience, and it doesn't mean that there is something inherently wrong with you. That being said, it's crucial to take steps to address your feelings of loneliness and seek support from those around you. This might mean reaching out to friends or family members and sharing your struggles with them. It can also mean seeking out professional help from a therapist or counselor who can provide you with strategies to manage your emotions and cope with loneliness. In addition, there are several things you can do on your own to help alleviate the pain of loneliness. This might include engaging in activities that bring you joy, such as reading, painting, or listening to music. You might also consider taking up a new hobby or joining a group or club that aligns with your interests. This can be a great way to meet new people and build social connections. Finally, please know that your feelings are valid and that it's okay to take the time you need to process and heal from them. It can be challenging to overcome the pain of loneliness, but with the right support and self-care, it is possible to find a sense of peace and happiness in your life. Please take care of yourself, and don't hesitate to reach out for help if you need it.

@corvim688

Жыл бұрын

its hard to feel lonliness but you will find SO MANY people that will love you SO MUCH!!!! and would give everything for you!!!❤❤ sometimes looks this persons will never appear but they allways come to our life!! i met this persons just months ago and you will find them!!!! in life things are just right and good, its hard to see but its truth❤❤❤

@Ivyb123

Жыл бұрын

There’s so many people on this planet that you haven’t even met yet. Just a year or a even a few months or weeks from now something can happen that can change your life. Stay on for the ride.

@kliffysenpai4680

Жыл бұрын

I couldn’t imagine

@vukstepanovic6155

Жыл бұрын

well , if u are alone we can be alone together ? if u have a discord we can chat if you'd like

Honestly, just reading these comments is therapy in it of itself. I feel so relieved . Everyone is so kind to each other. It makes me have hope that we still have humanity left in us and arent just empty shells of flesh who merely feel . I also find a strange comfort in thinking that i am not alone in this. That there are others out there who feel the same as me. 🙂🙂🙂

@hananeamira608

11 ай бұрын

yes

@CristinaTomas-xd6dk

4 ай бұрын

I come here every day to see if there are New comments, love to read them. Greetings to all. 😘

@GM-nq4hb

3 ай бұрын

I hope you have a blessed day​@@CristinaTomas-xd6dk

@markrichardson6381

6 күн бұрын

Interesting 🤔

Reading the comments while the music plays is therapeutic.

@burakyilnnaz

11 ай бұрын

Yeah , my best hobby reading comments and playing music

Everytime I listen to your music, I imagine I’m an abandoned castle that’s been engulfed underwater for ages and I’m just floating peacefully in the foyer like I’m one with the castle and I’m projecting what little bit of life I have to keep the castle standing.

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

i am greatful to be the reason for these beautiful feelings and emotions. thank you❤❤

@_ChassityRenee333_

Жыл бұрын

Yo......😭😁🔥👊💯my life story yyyyyou! I knowww ur a writer and if not....You sooooo shld be!🎯💯🔥👊

@josemzugastiortiz695

Жыл бұрын

Es increíble lo que la mente el cerebro puede llegara ah pensar maravilloso es como un avatar lleno de energía y más 😬😬😬

@Bmw-cu3hp

Жыл бұрын

A message to this generation and the future generations don't forget allah soubhanah don't forget the hard work of the prophets to Conveying the message of God, which is worshiping Him alone, with no partners with Him, and obeying His chosen Prophet, the Chosen One, the Seal of the Prophets, Muhammad, may God bless him and grant him peace.

@asideofaioli4630

11 ай бұрын

I imagine I'm in a bustling grey city, walking amongst scores of people, most going in the opposite direction of me, but no one sees me. I'm not invisible, I'm just not worth the gaze. So I make my way to my apartment, pour a cup of tea, sit down at the table looking out the window that leads to the fire escape, steam from the cup billowing in front of my face. A light rain begins to cover the city, and I watch all the people outside, black umbrellas concealing their faces, I watch those who are never watching me.

I’m so damn tired, people tell me I’ve been strong for holding up but nobody really knows that if I don’t keep on fighting- I would’ve ended my life long time ago. So no, I can’t thank myself for staying strong. I’m just ‘surviving’, like anyone else does. Just me and my own battle. Keep enduring, life goes on. It’ll end before I know it.

@goldenthemes692

10 ай бұрын

I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, and it must be incredibly difficult to carry such a heavy burden. It takes an immense amount of strength to keep fighting when life feels overwhelming. While it may seem like nobody truly understands your struggle, it's important to remember that there are people out there who care about you and want to support you. If you haven't already, I encourage you to reach out to someone you trust-a friend, a family member, or a mental health professional. Opening up about your feelings and seeking help can make a significant difference. Remember, you don't have to face this battle alone. There is hope, and there are resources available to assist you in finding a way forward. You deserve support, compassion, and a chance to experience a brighter tomorrow. Please take care and don't hesitate to seek the help you need.

@38michael

8 ай бұрын

Aveces me siento que no me comprende nadie, esta desesperación, esta ansiedad, esta presión social, este sentimiento de furia, tristeza que simplemente te haces sentir una basura de persona a ti mismo

@dims952

3 ай бұрын

Yet you're still and i'm proud of you. You don't know me and i don't know you but know that i'm proud of you.

@filukkasunivers2389

27 күн бұрын

But why is it like that for so many? Is it because we discorvered the hamsterwheel and that are in it, just like everyone else? What freedom do we really have? Its ALL about getting money. Money from one hand to the next, over and over. A machine.....

@trimach3148

26 күн бұрын

don't get me wrong, i also am like you. i also gave up long time ago and tried to take the easy way out three times, didnt work. so i am not trying to bully you or make fun of you. but yours are the words of someone who pity themselves and finds comfort in something that is not true at all. going through something does not make you strong. overcoming it does. yet you gave up long before and found comfort in the word "strong". being strong in this case is not a positive thing. its not something to rely on. its getting your lazy ass up and gradually forcing yourself to shit you don't want to do anymore. expose yourself to society. expose yourself to anything that life has to offer. seek help from a professional and do not procrastinate. this is "fighting". its not losing your shit and giving up, caving in. isolating yourself and making life something to "endure". time will not help you, nor the people who say that you are strong. only you can get yourself out of this shit and it is by living. not enduring. it is time to stop pitying on yourself. time to stop thinking of this as if there is no way out. because if you let it get to a point where you don't even want to get better, or to a point where it just doesnt seem like a problem anymore, thats when you realize how deep in shit you are. like me xD. i am still struggling, still trying to find ways to get better by any means. i wish i acted on it sooner but here i am. so get tf back up. if you are going to call this a "battle", then make history. have stories to tell to your kids, loved ones. best regards, cheers.

I miss myself, my friends and memories.

@kashvimarwah4335

5 күн бұрын

Truly, I relate to you. I hope we both seek what we truly long. Happiness, maybe. Please stay okay!

@abdullahshosha7642

5 күн бұрын

@@kashvimarwah4335 I appreciate your words, I hope you be ok♡

sometime, i just want to give up and leave this world peacefuly

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

U are here for a reason ✊ u are here to live life to the fullest, stop thinking about the exit - its coming anyways

@esmanuribak

Жыл бұрын

Sometime... But then ı remember me. I have only one life. This world is suck but there is soo much beauty which is hiding. If you wanna see it, be patient. Once you see, you will understand, its worth. I am not saying just forget all the evil things. I am saying fight with it, with being simply good . From Turkey, love.

After everything I've been through, coming across this playlist relieved me. The people in the comments were good to me, even though I didn't know them, just reading them was enough for me. I hope you come here and allow yourself to be a little happy...

I thank my body for putting up with me sometimes. I treated it so bad for many years, and it’s still with me. How did it not want to tear away from bones, or even just leave my soul there alone, because of how reckless, weak and hating she was. I thank it for healing itself after I put it through pain, I thank it for moving on, by growing bigger and stronger, I thank it for making my soul warm in my happiest days, and I forgive it for making her cold on my horrible nights. I thank it for getting for putting me back in place after I tried taking my soul away, I thank it for making me fear that I had no purpose if I didn’t order my soul to wake up from its delusions. I thank my body for staying with me.

@lumi7777

10 ай бұрын

Your words actually made me feel something after such a long time passed without feeling anything. I am still responsible to my body which is not something given to me permanently. I have to hand it over as I received it, without giving any harm. At least I can do that.

@gnatdagnat

9 ай бұрын

@@lumi7777 thank you for this. you've inspired me to feel too.

There was a time when I used to be kind and empathetic towards others. However, certain experiences in my life have made me build a wall around my heart to protect myself from getting hurt again.

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

It's understandable that certain experiences in life can cause us to build walls around our hearts to protect ourselves from further hurt. While it's important to prioritize our own well-being and protect ourselves from harm, it's also important to remember that closing ourselves off completely can lead to feelings of loneliness and isolation. It's important to acknowledge the impact these experiences have had on you and to work through any unresolved emotions or trauma with the help of a mental health professional or support group. This can help you to heal and to slowly break down the walls you've built around your heart. It's also important to remember that being kind and empathetic towards others can be a source of joy and fulfillment in life. While it can be scary to open ourselves up to vulnerability, it's important to take small steps towards trusting others and allowing ourselves to feel compassion and empathy towards those around us. Remember that healing takes time, and it's okay to go at your own pace. Be patient and kind to yourself as you work towards breaking down your walls and allowing yourself to connect with others in a meaningful way

The term "tired from myself" really portrays how broken some of us really are. We have gotten so low in our lives that even just ourselves is tiring. If anyone feels this way just know, there's always light at the end of the tunnel. Whether that's sunlight or moonlight, there will always be a light to brighten that hard time you just cant seem to get past. Self love is key, love and care for yourself❤

@olgabackstrom7782

Жыл бұрын

Thank you

@xmakenhistoryx8202

Жыл бұрын

@@olgabackstrom7782 you're welcome :)

@ulugbekurazimbetov

4 ай бұрын

lights of the train (in the opposite side of the tunnel :))

@ulugbekurazimbetov

4 ай бұрын

lights of the train (in the opposite side of the tunnel :))

@CristinaTomas-xd6dk

4 ай бұрын

VERY, VERY WISE!

So tired of myself and my life. I wish it could change already. It feels hopeless and I don't know if I trust in anything anymore. It always has gotten worse for me. Its like a spiral down. And the shittiest is that I thought it was gonna be over soon. It isn't over.

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling so exhausted and hopeless. It can be incredibly challenging to feel like you're stuck in a downward spiral and that things will never get better. It's understandable that you may be feeling disillusioned and lacking in trust, but it's important to remember that change is always possible. One thing to keep in mind is that change often takes time and effort, and it's not always easy. However, it's important to take small steps towards making the changes that you want to see in your life. This could involve reaching out for help or support, whether that's from friends, family, or a professional therapist. It's also important to try to focus on the positive things in your life, no matter how small they may seem. Even on the toughest days, there is usually something to be grateful for or something that brings you joy. Practicing gratitude and mindfulness can help to shift your perspective and bring more positivity into your life. Remember that you are not alone in feeling this way, and that there is always hope for a better future. Keep taking small steps towards the life you want to lead, and don't hesitate to reach out for help when you need it

At this point I can't even cry. I'm just tired. I just want to close my eyes and never wake up again. Sometimes I wonder why I'm still here. Life was so beautiful before she left my life. I feel like crying but no tears come out. She was everything I ever wanted in life. A beautiful and caring person. I made so many mistakes and now I'm left with nothing but regret. I'm so sorry it ended this way. I wish I could hold you just one last time... As the years pass by I can feel my mind slipping. I might not remember our time together if this keeps up. I promise that no matter what happens I'll always love you. Though you may never see this I hope we meet again if there is an afterlife.

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a difficult time. Losing someone you love deeply can be an incredibly painful experience, and it's understandable that you're feeling overwhelmed with emotions. It's important to remember that it's okay to grieve, and that everyone grieves in their own way and at their own pace. It's also important to seek support from those around you who care about you, whether it's friends, family, or a professional counselor. I know that it may feel like everything is falling apart right now, but please remember that you are not alone, and that there is hope for a brighter future. Life may never be the same without your loved one, but it doesn't mean that it can't still be beautiful in its own way. Take things one day at a time, be gentle with yourself, and try to focus on the positive memories and moments you shared with your loved one. They will always be a part of you, and their love will continue to live on in your heart. Remember that it's never too late to make amends or seek forgiveness, even if the person is no longer with us. And who knows, maybe someday in some form, you'll be able to meet again. If you ever need someone to talk to or just want to vent your feelings, don't hesitate to reach out. everyone is here for you.

@Rayis1000

10 ай бұрын

i feel you

at the stage where I don't want to be anywhere.. I want to be left alone and have no responsibilities.. just stillness.. I want time to stop.. I want this world to stop for a day..

I find peace when I walk, when I walk with no destination and melancholic music on my earphones. Trying to figure where to go but taking the risk to not care where. I see myself walking through the trees, and the sun sets. This is when I feel alive, looking for a way home, and realising I am home. Wish I could live like this forever. Sadly I come back to reality and want to end it all. Dreaming is beautiful and I want to dream forever.

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

Firstly, I want to acknowledge and validate the feelings you shared with me. It sounds like you have found a beautiful way to find peace and tranquility in your life through walking and being in nature. The image you painted of walking through the trees with the sun setting is truly breathtaking, and it's clear that you have a deep appreciation for the simple yet profound beauty that surrounds us. It's understandable that you would want to hold onto this feeling forever, and the desire to escape into a world of dreams and fantasy can be alluring. However, it's important to remember that we can't live in a state of perpetual escapism. At some point, we must come back to reality and face the challenges and struggles that come with being human. I hear that you are experiencing a lot of pain and are struggling with thoughts of wanting to end it all. Please know that these feelings are valid, but they do not have to be the end of your story. It's okay to ask for help and support, whether that's through therapy, medication, or talking to loved ones. There are people who care about you and want to help you through this difficult time. It's also important to remember that the beauty you find in walking and being in nature is always accessible to you, even in times of darkness. Perhaps it can serve as a reminder that there is still light and goodness in the world, even when it's hard to see. I want to remind you that you are not alone. Many people struggle with feelings of sadness, hopelessness, and despair at some point in their lives. It's a normal part of the human experience, and it does not define your worth or your future. There is always hope for healing and growth, and I believe that you have the strength to overcome this. Dear friend, I want you to know that you are a precious human being. You have value and worth simply because you exist. Your struggles and pain do not define you, and you are deserving of love and support. Please take care of yourself and know that you are not alone. There is hope for a brighter future, and I believe in you.

@Gabinpe

Жыл бұрын

@@goldenthemes692 thank you for taking the time to write this words. I’m still in pain but you made me feel a lot better❤️‍🩹 they actually make my heart feel warm, keep being a great person:)

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

@@Gabinpe thank you

@ken-dw4ml

Жыл бұрын

I do the exact same thing, walk with no destination or purpose, just walking, sometimes not even to think but to just walk no thoughts no feelings just silence

@tensaidoragoon8231

Жыл бұрын

I wish I could do the same, must be nice walking without exhaustingly finding your way, just walking.

i'm stuck in an addiction. every day i tell myself it's the last of it, but i cave. i always cave. no matter how disgusted i am, no matter how much i hate it and myself. i understand failure. i understand it only will come when i accept this as part of myself, and i never will i will always try to stop and i love that of me but i cave

I should forgive myself. But it is so hard when I do not even know why we are fighting... Thank you for the playlist. Its beautiful.

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

U need to dig deeper and find out‼️

@rizzrayz

Жыл бұрын

Find a goal like religious ( Islam etc ) or an earth goal like write a book or anything else .

@thenios1855

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the phrase, it's perfect

@een6299

Жыл бұрын

If you’re unable to find the answer where you are now, then you’re looking in the wrong places. Try to be open minded and search somewhere else (other communities, etc). 🫶

@julian_h55

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for the answers. And yeah I'm trying to find out who I am. But sometimes it is just so hard to keep on going. But Im still here so that means I did not give up.❤

it's that feeling of constant tiredness, not the kind of tiredness where you need to sleep/rest, but a feeling deep inside that just weighs so heavy on the soul, the mind and the heart. music is a saviour, a gift of strength from someone you don't know. Love to you all......❤❤❤

I just graduated this past Saturday and I have been completely overwhelmed with anxiety about what I’m going to do with my life or who I’m going to become. This playlist has given me my first moment of peace I have had in weeks. Thank you. And to everyone dealing with stress and anxiety as well, we’re going to make it. You’re going to make it.

@jitkalacmanova3243

8 ай бұрын

it'll be okay once. Many gates have closed but many other have opened to you. You'll see. Just feel it.

@sistersarahc

4 ай бұрын

I went through that. It was very hard.

@hemnfarhad8551

4 ай бұрын

I think for the averages people around the world, including myself, this is a normal thing to happen. So, just keep working on yourself and good things will come your way. All the best!

Not tired *of* myself, tired *from* myself. I think that's key.

Most Friday nights I like to just lie on my couch, with a glass of wine and listen to this mix really loud. It brings me a peace I’ve never really known. Maybe it’s because I see there are so many struggling souls and I’m not alone

Alright, 8:47pm. I can see the clouds in the sky through my window, slowly fading away. Soon the darkness will fill up my room. I am once again sitting here on my chair, at my desk, staring at a screen. I am once again sitting here shortly before I should go to sleep, I got school tomorrow after all. But I am just sitting here, it‘s one of those days where I feel incredibly lonely. I mean, I have been lonely for such a long time now. I forgot to count the days since I have met up with a friend the last time. Might have been well over 2 years now. Only see them in school now. Rarely chatting with them. Basically never. I should stop lying to myself, I have no „actual“ friends. Sure, it‘s nice to hang around with them at school but our friendship doesn‘t reach any further. And don‘t get me wrong, I appreciate them for being my friends. I am the one who always kept the distance, it is my fault. Looking back, I have made unforgivable mistakes. Unforgivable for myself, I have made decisions that have affected my future self. If I just wasn‘t such a fool, I should have taken it more serious back then. But well now here I am with nobody to talk to. I don‘t even know who I am anymore. I‘m just the average guy in school. Just a boy. Nothing more. But I don‘t want to be just that, I feel like I have more to offer. But why does nobody want to know more about me. I just feel so not cared about. I would absolutely love for anymore to just like approach me or just talk to me, y‘know? What would I give for people to talk with me. I just wanna tell them how I feel and listen to how they feel. I just want a SERIOUS friend. Someone who I don‘t have to be ashamed of asking him/her everything. Just someone. I‘ve been reading a lot of these comments, on similar videos as well, and one thing that I‘ve noticed is that people here are so kind and caring. But why must I end up not meeting someone this kind in real life? People always say that you will meet the right people…but when? How much longer will I have to just take in this pain? Anyway I‘m getting distracted. I just wanted to…say how lonely I am I guess? I don‘t even know. I have never been asked anything personal I believe. So that‘s why I am so desperate to just tell someone about my feelings. It really hurts to keep your pain to yourself, maybe someone can relate. Oh what would I give for just some kind words, maybe even a compliment. I honestly can‘t remember getting complimented ever, like seriously. I am talking about a real compliment, that someone actually thought of. I believe I‘m done now, stay safe

@Marigold976

11 ай бұрын

Your words are beautiful. Hang in there. Someone will come along & hold your hand

@user-st9hx9cr1k

2 ай бұрын

Sometimes it’s not about them coming to you, it’s about bringing about the courage of going up to them. Trust me I’ve been where you’re at, and waiting for someone is rarely the answer.

@rarebird_82

10 күн бұрын

This too shall pass, you're young, you don't realise what a gift that is, in a blink you'll be 40, damaged beyond belief, schooling some lost kid on YT, wishing you were back in school with an ocean of time and opportunity ahead. Be well, you are loved 🫶🏻

This painting says it all😢❤ I stopped being a people pleaser. I had narcissistic parents and my older sister is one. Finally free.

Constantly trying to keep myself busy and not think about everything.

Every day I end up saying or doing something stupid/awkward/bad and screwing up everything I do. I have such bad social anxiety that I can’t even look a person in the eyes. I have so many secrets and telling someone is not an option. I am tired of myself and the decisions I’ve made. Life isn’t fun sometimes.

@Puppet____

16 күн бұрын

I feel the same as you. People are always so scary to me. I don't understand how others can just socialize so easily. I am always feeling guilty for everything I do and I feel as if everybody hates. I feel as if whenever I reach goals they aren't important or that it's not a big deal since anyone could do it or even better than me.

Other people: Damn I'm crying Me: Feels anguish but no tears are left to shed

@sassagorge1862

Жыл бұрын

omg likewise!

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

I feel u... I cried today tho

@Maria_216

Жыл бұрын

@@Wolfsta yeah haven't cried in 3 months

@ryuz__aki

Жыл бұрын

I haven't cried in two years

@expertreis382

Жыл бұрын

Yeteri kadar gözyaşı biriktirdiğinde geri gel çünkü ben öyle yaptım

It's not like i didn't want to forgive you It's the fear of being hurt again The feeling of betrayal The faded memories that still keep me awake at night The losen hopes we had The truth in your words These are things that I'll never get back, they are things that faded With our love and time Things that no longer keep us together Things that still makes us cry And ask ourselves Why didn't it worked out?

This phase is ending, brace yourself for new beginnings,pray, persist,progress and most importantly feed your mind with only the positives because society is filled with alot of negativity

Everything you have gone through in life brought you here........ we all had different journeys, but in the end, we all ended up here....

Listening to this while going through the hardest times of your life, or the most stressful times, the days where you cry yourself to sleep and waking up with puffy eyes just to do what you did the day before all over again, praying to god to ease your struggles or praying to god to take your life back cuz you think you don't deserve to live, praying to god to give you patience, going to school smiling cuz you are the 'sunshine' person and you don't want anyone to know that your are struggling with anything, even tho all you did the night earlier was convincing yourself to stay alive, life rn is like a survival game and we are trying our best to survive, we all deep down wish to hear some words of comfort and safety, some words that can put our mind to rest, some words that could potentially save our lives I am really really proud of you and what you are doing, keep it up, keep surviving maybe one day this survival game will finish and we can actually live and enjoy life

@corvim688

Жыл бұрын

this will pass!!!! looks like it will never pass but it pass!!!! and this world is full of good and love and kindness its worth it!!! this GONNA GET BETTER❤❤❤ and you will live SO MANY AMAZING EXPERIENCES❤❤❤

@corvim688

Жыл бұрын

​@@brutalantler its worth it, looks like nothing is worth it but it is. its so hard to see but good are this world and people standard and there are so much good and hope, sometimes looks theres 0 hope but hope is everywhere and im not telling this to motivate, its because i have seen it with my own eyes❤❤❤ ALLWAYS remember the incredible and kind good and BADASS person that you are and thats a fact❤❤ you will get trought this and you will meet SO MANY people that will love you SO MUCH and give everything for you❤❤

@GB2G

8 ай бұрын

Life is so despicable. Why do we live just to suffer. We spend our days coping and justifying why we should keep living. We convince ourselves and others why we should stay. Then go home and waste away just like the day before. We all know it. Yet we smile and say cliche sayings for what? Exhausted. I know my Father is still with me. But he seems distant. Why doesn’t he come save me? Have I become ___ to him?

@Account-uh5wp

2 ай бұрын

@@GB2Gi feel the same. I don’t know i think that l won’t go back to my normal life. I miss my father so much i think that he didn’t deserve to die . A big pain he had left in my heart! 💔

“A real poet reawakens when a greater damage has been done”-selcouth

@Ammarclips1

Жыл бұрын

😭

Seeing your face fall off embarrassment... Having to sit, pose, smile and act like you are okay... No tears or any signs of numbness... Just what it is ❤️‍🔥

I just never feel good enough in regardds to other people. Thats why, im more by myself. Wish i could live some where close to nature with a few animals

Tired, the ghost fades Lost in lightless haze~ Forgotten in the grave, Dead roses paved the way, For the moment the moon stays~ The pain goes away.

@sukuna4396

Жыл бұрын

It's really beautiful

@Feltstonika

Жыл бұрын

Beautiful

@Noah-wi3qj

Жыл бұрын

And here comes the airwaves

@akutagawaseyebrows7834

Жыл бұрын

Can i use it as inspiration

@v.b43

Жыл бұрын

@@akutagawaseyebrows7834 ofc

I cried. Woke up numb again.

Life doesn’t feel real anymore

I have returned, many of these playlists I have already responded to people under or liked comments. I see my old sad lonely childish self in this comment section. I've grown, and with that has grown a new reason to enjoy these playlists. An adult type of tired, is what I want to call it but in reality I'm still a kid. A kid who's tired of being an adult, and I've only just started, it's almost comical. My lack of a spine. So as someone here said 11 months ago... "I am just tired."

Take this as your sign that things will get better, that things will be alright, that you can get through this. Whatever troubles bring you here, or if you're simply here for the sake of relaxing, remember that you are important, you are valid, and that you have a right to be here. You are braver and stronger than you think. You're still here, trying to make things better and to live a better life. So whatever is keeping you up at night, it is not stronger than you. You can get through this. I don't know you, you can dismiss this as the meaningless words of a stranger, or you can believe me. Whatever you chose, I believe in you...

@emmawestenfeld

3 ай бұрын

Thank you I really needed that. 😭

@Raghav_Kripa10

2 ай бұрын

I lovs uoi❤

I've just started to learn how to love myself. I hope you can too

“ What’s the point of anything? “ I ask myself this question while this journey .. I’m so tired of everything I hope .. I just hope I live till the end of this year

I am tired of my UNPRODUCTIVENESS AND PROCRASTINATION.. of the DISSAPOINTMENT. Of my ENVY TO OTHER PEOPLE'S SUCCESS AND HAPPINESS AND FREEDOM 💔

I listened to this playlist over and over while reading George Orwell 1984. My god it was insane.

Когда-то давно жил я в стареньком доме. С тех пор пролетел не один уже год. И всем его жителям было известно Насколько уродлив был местный наш кот . Уродливый кот был всегда узнаваем - Он был одноглазый и с ухом одним. И знал он, как трудно на свете бывает, Когда ты один и никем не любим. Оторванный хвост, и поломана лапа Срослась под каким-то неверным углом. И множество шрамов.. А был он когда-то Приятным на вид полосатым котом. Кота никогда и никто не касался. Бутылки и камни бросали в него. Водой ледяной поливали из шланга. Пытаясь прогнать со двора своего. И лапы ему защемляли дверями, Когда он пытался войти в чей-то дом. Страдая от боли, зализывал раны Уже много раз он под чьим-то окном. Но все удивлялись, насколько отважен Был этот невзрачный уродливый кот. И если из шланга его поливают - Он мокнет покорно, но не отойдёт. И даже когда в него что-то бросали, Он тёрся о ноги о ласке прося. Увидев детей, он бросался за ними. Мечтал о заботе, да только вот зря.. Не мог он понять, почему в целом мире Не встретить того, кто бы смог приютить. И хоть он уродлив и грязен снаружи, Но с чистой душой и умеет любить. Однажды кота покусали собаки, Что жили напротив в соседнем дворе. Послышался лай и о помощи крики. Спустился я вниз - кот лежал на земле.. Уродливый кот был ужасно искусан, Всё тело в крови. Он почти умирал. Пытаясь укрыться от страха и боли, Свернувшись в клубок, неподвижно лежал. Он знал - наступает конец грустной жизни. И след от слезы пересёк его лоб. Я нёс его в дом, он хрипел, задыхался. Мне стало вдруг плохо, меня бил озноб.. Я чувствовал то, как ему было больно. И как тяжело ему просто вздохнуть. Но вдруг он к лицу моему потянулся И робко меня попытался лизнуть. От слёз задыхаясь, к нему я прижался. Прильнул он к ладони моей головой. Его добрый глаз вдруг ко мне повернулся - И кот замурлыкал, почти неживой.. И даже сквозь самые сильные боли Просил этот кот лишь о капле любви. О капле сочувствия, что в этой жизни Мы доброе сердце сберечь не смогли. Я в этот момент неожиданно понял, Что самый красивый и любящий тот, Кто смотрит сейчас на меня, умирая, Обычный уродливый уличный кот. Впервые он чувствовал чью-то заботу. Нашёл он того, кто сумел полюбить. И счастлив, что встретил того, кто смягчает, А не пытается боль причинить… Он умер чуть раньше, чем мы были дома. Я сел у подъезда с котом на руках. Держал его долго, пока не стемнело. В душе поселились тревога и страх. Ведь я осознал, что несчастный калека Меня изменил за один только миг. Он мне сообщил о страдании больше, Чем тысячи лекций, уроков и книг. Он мне расцарапал не тело, а душу. И пусть в моей жизни немало забот, Но я к одному только буду стремиться - Учиться любить как, Уродливый кот.

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

какое красивое использование слов. к сожалению, это говорит нам, как мир жесток по отношению к тем, кто любит и заботится

@ibtfmusic

Жыл бұрын

спасибо большое, я теперь буду плакать еще часа три

@swegchicken

Жыл бұрын

спасибо за слезы я думаю...

@vorteil_

Жыл бұрын

Я уже лет 8 не слышал этот стих. Опять плакать.

@Jiyu90cayi

Жыл бұрын

Насколько красиво я мог знать, где я его нахожу? Или вы гений, чтобы написать это удивительно и душераздирающе.

Our days were long, like the conversations we had at night Conversations where all your insecurities gained life, where my anxious woke up There was always something to clarify, but you had no words Only my tears described the situation between us Situation this that didn't seem to end, but didn't had a start too We were soulties, two souls who, in another life, were meant to be together But in this one little world, couldn't find love in each other, Just a strong feeling, something pleasuring but not enought to fill the whole Something that seemed beautiful but inside was pure darkness Something we called love but looked wrong And felt wrong It felt so wrong I couldn't believe it was true It was a lucid dream and we were my only characters

@38michael

8 ай бұрын

Wow, realmente esto me iso llorar :,(

Не знаю как вам, но мне под этот плейлист хочется лечь послушать до конца, и умереть, медленно и безболезненно, никому не мешая, просто исчезнуть из этого мира, я прочитал комментарии и... У меня даже нет слов, одни эмоции, у всех свои мысли про композиции, и это выглядит удивительно! Кстати, спасибо автору за подборку таких шикарных композиций.

@_Who_are_you_and_who_am_i

10 ай бұрын

Сложно сказать, понимаю ли я вас, или просто хочу поддержать разговор. Но я знаю, что хочу поделиться чем-то важным с кем-то кто где-то там, скорее всего, страдает примерно также как и я. Подобные желания и мысли возникают лично у меня не при прослушивании подобных плейлистов, или в моменты одиночества и т.д. к, наверное, сожалению, мысли о том, что мне просто хочется медленно растворяться в пустоте и изничтожиться до атомов, возникают буквально каждый день, каждый час, каждую минуту. Сложно так жить, потому что вот, я смеюсь, веселюсь с семьёй и друзьями, наконец нахожу работу, всё отлично, но каждую секунду, даже несмотря на то, что эти секунды должны быть счастливыми, я сижу и думаю: как же я не хочу всего этого. У меня вот было 4 попытки вскрыться, может всё-таки в этот раз не по рукам резать, а сразу глотку вскрыть? Это также больно, интересно? И каждый день так, не могу думать ни о чем, кроме того, чтобы просто всё закончить, но, в моменты, когда я нахожу подобные плейлисты, я, наоборот, просто могу позволить себе отвлечься от всего и просто насладиться музыкой. Спасибо, если прочитали, хорошего времени суток

@Freedom89857

10 ай бұрын

@@_Who_are_you_and_who_am_i жестко, у меня не такое сильное желание как у вас конечно, но вы там держитесь:(

@_Who_are_you_and_who_am_i

10 ай бұрын

@@Freedom89857 Спасибо, я постараюсь, вы тоже держитесь, думаю, всё у вас наладится, буду держать кулачки

@rachelmann9508

8 ай бұрын

a translation for my lovelys: I don’t know about you, but under this playlist I want to lie down to listen to the end, and die, slowly and painlessly, without disturbing anyone, just disappear from this world, I read the comments and ... I don’t even have words, only emotions, I all your thoughts on the composition and it looks amazing! By the way, thanks to the author for a selection of such gorgeous compositions.

@user-qg4zs4bu5m

4 ай бұрын

@@_Who_are_you_and_who_am_i Иногда кажется, что все вокруг ложь, чувство счастья или грусти, или что-то еще, если уж на то пошло, кажется иллюзией, чем-то вроде лихорадочного сна... и единственное, в чем я уверен, так это в темноте.

i just want to live like people, i hate this depression

I was just thinking the same thing minutes before finding this playlist.. that i am tired of myself I can’t bare it anymore

@goldenthemes692

4 ай бұрын

Stay strong you can do this 💪

"Flowers can't bloom and trees can't grow where rain isn't present. Remember when you are in rain of despair, the day after, will flowers bloom, and the trees it will grow." - The Philosopher

remember god would never put you in situations you can never get through i know you got this keep your head up!

The more I want to succeed the more I get lost in my thoughts and became blank...

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

U have to stay focused and have a clear vision of where you want to be in life

Guys dont give up ARISE!

At some point you don't cry anymore, you just want it to end.

@neria1372

Күн бұрын

But you hear birds sing again, you feel the wind bringing the smell of trees. You remember when you were playing as a child, when you were playing for your saviour event though you had never heard of religion. You remember you're on hearth to experiment life and the wonder of its existence. You try to understand the meaning of life, and you see that without love it is meaningless.

I miss those days when I cried. I felt sad so I cried. It was easy. Now I rarely do it. I just can't. My eyes don't get wet, tears don't fall down my face. I simply sit there, with a faraway look, thinking about all those things I should do and how life was easier just a few years ago. I am the shadow of my past self. And the worst thing is that I have never expect me to feel this bad. How can such a cheerful and happy person turn into a sad, helpless human being...? It hurts.

@austinlong9120

Ай бұрын

I know your emptyness trust me. The lord jesus can heal your heart like he did for me. He taught me to feel again. And its not pain i feel but peace joy hope love. The devil kills people from the inside.

Every time my therapist said: "When your depressed get of the bed" But I can't I can't stand I feel like I am dead And I don't care I feel like am drowning in my own head And I don't know if I can If I can get out of bed When everything goes down there Down there where I can't stand my my problems and the things I am afraid And I am sorry if I can't say how I feel But believe me I don't know how should I say The thing that hurt me the most to the point where I feel like I am dead inside or outside my head -myself :))

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

Dear friend, I hear you. I understand that when you are in the depths of depression, the idea of getting out of bed can feel like an insurmountable task. It can feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders and every move takes more effort than you can muster. You feel like you're drowning in your own head, and it's hard to see any way out. I want you to know that you are important. You matter. Your feelings and experiences are valid, and there is help available to you. It's okay to not know how to articulate your pain or to struggle to express your emotions. It can be incredibly difficult to put into words the depth of what you're feeling. It's understandable that you may feel frustrated or hopeless when your therapist suggests getting out of bed as a solution to your depression. However, I want you to know that this advice is not intended to dismiss your pain or minimize your struggle. Instead, it is meant to help you break the cycle of depression and take small steps towards feeling better. Sometimes, when we're feeling depressed, we can get stuck in a rut. We may stay in bed all day, avoid social interaction, and isolate ourselves from the world. While it can be comforting to withdraw and retreat from the world, it can also perpetuate feelings of sadness and hopelessness. By getting out of bed and engaging in activities, even small ones, we can begin to shift our perspective and start to build momentum towards feeling better. It could be something as simple as taking a shower, going for a short walk, or making a cup of tea. These small steps may not feel like much, but they can help to break the cycle of depression and start to build a sense of accomplishment and self-worth. That being said, I want to emphasize that depression is a complex and challenging condition, and there is no one-size-fits-all solution. It's important to work with your therapist to find a treatment plan that works for you and addresses your unique needs and experiences. This may include medication, therapy, lifestyle changes, or a combination of approaches. Remember that you are not alone. There are people who care about you and want to help you. If you're struggling to find the words to express how you're feeling to your therapist, it may be helpful to write down your thoughts and feelings before your appointment. You can also consider seeking out support from a trusted friend or family member or a support group for individuals with depression. Please know that there is hope, and recovery is possible. You are important, and your life is worth fighting for.

" a verdadeira arte é apenas um reflexo dos sentimentos de quem a contempla"

@jameelahzaimi7287

Жыл бұрын

Yes😢

@redoi1239

11 ай бұрын

ordem paranormal é mt bom

using this to write a sad chapter in my novel, really hits the feels (:

You want to be happy? Be here now, look around you. Examine your surroundings, be in the present, the past hurts but what will hurt more if the future if yours stuck on the past, dont let it pull you like a rubber band into the future with regret or disappointment, sadness or anger, be here now. Live in the moment.

@CristinaTomas-xd6dk

Ай бұрын

Very well spoken!

If you read this. I think you need to finally hear that from someone.. I love you and I care about you. I couldn’t live if you where gone or would leave me. You’re my one special person and will forever be my first joyce.

When fighting becomes exhausting and trying seems pointless, you'll eventually find yourself questioning your own worth and existence. You only want things to be better but it seems like it'll never will.

В этой музыке нет ни слов, ни особого замысла, но каждый слышит для себя свою собственную мелодию со своим замыслом, создает свой смысл.. Адаптирует, стачивает углы, помогает успокоится или выплеснуть эмоции.. Трогательно и ..познавательно, будто уплываешь в свое сознание и очищаешь его настолько, что в душе остается только покой и глубина сознания, чистота и свой замысел.. Столь чудные мнгновения, что способны тронуть тебя до глубины души. Низкий поклон автору.🫂

@goldenthemes692

10 ай бұрын

«Я глубоко ценю чувство, выраженное автором. Оно прекрасно отражает суть музыки и ее способность преодолевать язык и границы. Музыка имеет уникальный способ связи с людьми на личном уровне, позволяя каждому слушателю найти свой собственный смысл и испытать глубокое эмоциональное путешествие. Это действительно замечательное явление, которое может вызвать чувство спокойствия, самоанализа и более глубокого понимания себя. Я всем сердцем присоединяюсь к тому, чтобы отдать дань уважения автору за то, что он сформулировал такие острые мысли

I can see in their action, the way they speak to me and the way their eyes stare at me that they don't want me that they're disappointed I am tiredddddddddddddd living with thier expectations

listening to this while doing an assignment on french poetry (and also hating myself), I can tell you the feeling is unmatched!

@Wolfsta

Жыл бұрын

Stop hating yourself, u actually love yourself- the world told u that u shouldn't

@silviachris7755

Жыл бұрын

Brooo no way I was actually doing the sameee

Somehow this music understands the emptiness I feel

If there's one thing I'm not tired of that is myself but this playlist quite what I feel to exist, beautiful collection.

I'm just tired. There's nothing tragic in my life, but it's even saddens me. My life is empty, I laugh at people, often offend them with my "abuse" while just trying to assert myself.. I hate myself, I'm terrible - I'm a monster, helpless, Evil and abusive monster. But this music brings me back to reality, I remember close people. Thank you

@corvim688

Жыл бұрын

love yourself its SO HARD but you know you are good and kind and THAT MAKES YOU SO INCREDIBLE AND AMAZING, YOU ARE AND THATS A FACT!!!! if you are feeling bad with yourself it means that you are impoving, never let your mind create lies about yourself and thats hard!!! i felt like trash but we are good!!!! everybody can change allways follow your heart GO FOR IT!!!!!! theres ALLWAYS HOPE AND YOU ARE SO SO INCREDIBLE THATS NOT TO MOTIATE ITS A FACT!!! REMEMBER HOW GOOD YOU ARE❤❤❤❤❤❤

@corvim688

Жыл бұрын

we can allways be better, you are not a monster or anything that you are thinking, if you are thinkinh that it means you are good, and im MORE than sure that you are GOOD!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

@Kotiks608

Жыл бұрын

​@@corvim688 Ohh, how sweet it is, thank you very much for such kind words, it is very important for me💔

@Kotiks608

Жыл бұрын

​@@corvim688Thank you very much for such words, it is important for me and it would seem that such a trifle really makes me feel better❤️

At this point narcissism would be a preferable option just to preserve my sanity and people wonder why

Someone will see this comment one day

@Itz82oek

2 ай бұрын

Yes I did!🙂

@jaytoons_

2 ай бұрын

I see it!

@SahlBa-vf9th

Ай бұрын

And ask u if you are still alive 😔

@user-gp5rk3dc3p

Ай бұрын

Hi bro

@sky5609

Ай бұрын

I just love this comment

“I’m tired of myself” it’s a four word sentence. To me it’s a novel. It’s a a series. It’s an endless phrase that truly embodies emotions that can’t be explained expressed or understood. Until you have reached a point in life that you truly are tired of not only other company but of your own company. Once you reach a point that you can’t even sit in your own company.. Life simply is useless.

@goldenthemes692

Ай бұрын

Life isn't useless you were on this planet for some reason and you should find truth ( that sometime seems useless to you) but dive deep in it you will find what you were looking for it's never too late.

Goes without saying, I despise myself. Just makes me more motivated to make myself feel worthy of my own love in a way.

It is not sad, at least not to me. I listen to it with gusto, a sense of self reflection and I what I hear is an expression of someone expressing some beautiful feeling. With passion and anguish but with a fabulous sense of taste in music and, overall, a master communicator....so rich, the feeling. Thank you Golden Themes!

What happens when I look out the window of a car. Yes. That is the title of this and it goes like this: What happens when I look out the window of a car; Any car, any car, but the same expression on my face. It goes unnoticed, like a drizzle, fleeting, volatile, and yet remains anchored in me. That moment where my eyes run through the glass and I pause the world, the emptiness reverberates. The voices that accompanied me in that car are silent. I disappear and only I exist, which is as enchanting as it is sinister. My thought is immersed in that immense, intangible, murderous solitude. I disappear and no one notices. Nobody remembers. Absence becomes my flesh, my soul evaporates, floats. The landscape becomes more and more blurred, my ideas no longer belong to me. There is no notion of that moment of flight of life. And that's when my eyes recover some of their bodily power thanks to the physiological nature of every human being: they dry up and make me blink like that. Awake. I come back to myself, fugitive from that epiphanic reverie. I come back to myself, with all my regret. I try to make my own that emptiness that already exists inside. I try to nominate him so I have some control over him. Seize him so I don't steal more life. Tell him that he is mine and that I exist in him. That something prevails and that then that emptiness is not so empty. And that hurts. It hurts excruciatingly. I feel like my effort is in vain. Is it so impossible to fill it? I give him landscapes, I give him beautiful things. I focus on making him feel music, perceiving colors, smells, I even allow him to devour every meal my body desires. I meditate. I make him run like an athlete in his prime. I grant you whims. Pampering. I grant her passion, lust… even when I least want to be caressed. I make him a participant in each scene. I show him that I am here. And he just turns to me, he looks at me with the same expression that it all started with. he scoffs. But I don't give in. I don't give in. I swear I won't give in. When I blink and when I wake up and the world returns to its axis and its natural movement; When it is populated by foreigners and voices that say they accompany me; I remember that it is a condition that cannot be undone and that I long for the unappealable for someone like me. And I live without life for moments and perhaps in those moments, I keep some hope that I don't know that someone will find me absorbed, right there, in my hells, in my highest cornices. save me He whispered to me not to jump and that my eyes perceive other eyes, and no longer a glass and a traffic that takes over me.

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

thanks you for sharing your emotions. i hope everything goes well for you keep pushing for the best

@aiasky3534

Жыл бұрын

What a beautiful comment summarising perhaps the epitome of humanity - loneliness. Art, music, ideologies and architecture - we build and shape and create worlds within our own small planet to distract from the utter emptiness of the galaxy - of our existence. If whales are the loneliest sea creatures, then we, humans, are the loneliest beings in the universe - like the whale sullen call, reaching our hands up high into the starry sky, hoping, praying, wishing that someone looks back. To hope to be seen. To hope to be understood. To hope to be remembered. All because life is so so fleeting. So forgettable in the grand space of time. Even the earth which will swallow your corpse will forget your nutrients in due time and thirst for more. But… if I could, as a fellow human, hold your hand. Just hold the palm that is so similar to mine. Look at the lines - have you heard of the countless tales and myths our fellow brothers and sisters have made about them? How many stories they have woven? In those lines lie you - and in that moment you exist and you just *are*. Be it no one sees, no one knows, no one remembers - you still breathe, your heart still misses a beat - it is anxious to know what is next. The wind still kisses your forehead, oblivious to your pains. It still welcomes you - “you’re home/ you’re what I know/ you’re what belongs to this planet”. And you stand, gently cupping the winds careless whispers of nothings. We are beings of this planet. A very lonely planet. But here, we *belong*. Everything here sustains us - ensures our life and death. Ensures we *be*. Who sees? No one. Everyone. The deepest roots of the old birch tree - the running grass blades and the endless sands - they all were born to die in order to live. And thousands of years of humanity witnessed them and asked them to speak to them - anything - back. Surely we aren’t alone. Surely we aren’t. How is it that I feel alone even amongst my people? I think it is a good question really. Perhaps, because most people are not as honest as you really. If everyone opened their heart, and placed it gently onto their palm - we would see the babes that we once were, crying for our mother’s love. We would see our pains - we would see ourselves in everyone. But I am not one to know really. Death and pain numbs people. The heart weeps and dies - there is no soil for it to be buried in. It is a shared question with the ancients. Perhaps we should look to them in order to see the future.

@vanamanushree4096

Жыл бұрын

@@aiasky3534 goddd !!!Are u an Angel , fallen from heaven directly?? Did it hurt ?? Seriously, I m ugly crying rn 😭 why- how ? I felt like every word reciprocated me .. idk but your words felt like a dagger passing through that can heal my soul with poison of words ... Humanity, loneliness, death , life .. everything.. you are someone I can talk for hours !! U are truly an Angel , the way you perceive the world has blown my world.. I really wish you are doing fine !! I m really thanking God that I came across your comment which taught me things that I can't seem to find anywhere.. I REALLY THANK YOU FOR YOUR COMMENT , AIA !! indeed, tho strangers but thoughts like these is what my mind thinks of and I feel like a living paradox .. AGAIN THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR AMAZING THOUGHTS !! I m not someone soo good with words but I felt seen 💝 TQ .. hope u are doing fine and love you ✨

I miss my mama :( She was taken away by a sudden Anuerism and passed on June 8th 2013. Mother's Day is coming and that's always been a rough day. "Dust in the Wind" Josephine Flores ❤

And the void is greater than the heart that feels it.

When my grandfather was dying of cancer all I could do was watch and try not to cry. Every time I saw him I froze up, I thought and hoped he would get better but I knew it was a lie. He died only four weeks after being diagnosed and all I did for those four weeks was just freeze up. When I watched them take him out the house I couldn't even go up to the body an say goodbye. I regret that decision every day and miss him more and more

@zeynep-rp9bo

10 ай бұрын

it's crazy to meet someone i've been through the same things. Please don't forget to you're not alone 💗

Cold is how the days have grown, They say home is where the heart is but my heart is shattered and I’m truly alone, As I lay in a bed that is not my own fall streams of tears for now I fear, That I do not know, The person that stares back at me in the mirror, who are they? Where did I go? Home, a place I search for endlessly, Each time I think I’ve found love it seems to leave me, Is it my fault? Am I the problem? Do you even see me? Tell me was this ever my home or was it you that needed me, she, the woman I was and the version of me that you stole? Now I do not believe in this place we once called home, For now I cry in this cold and dark room on my own. - Nicole Lewis

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

If you are really feeling this way then I am deeply sorry to hear about the pain and sadness that you are experiencing. Your words have touched me, and I want you to know that you are not alone. I can sense the heartbreak and confusion that you are feeling, and it is understandable that you feel lost and uncertain about your identity and sense of home. It is true that we often associate home with a physical place or a feeling of safety and comfort, but the truth is that home can take many forms. Sometimes we find home in people, in our relationships with others who love and support us. However, it can also be true that our sense of home is disrupted or shattered when those relationships end or change in ways we didn't expect. It is natural to question ourselves and our role in these situations. But please know that you are not to blame for the actions or decisions of others. You are not responsible for their choices or how they treated you. You are worthy of love and respect, and it is important to remember that even when others fail to recognize that. I want to remind you that healing is a process, and it is okay to take the time you need to grieve and process your emotions. It is okay to not have all the answers right now, and it is okay to feel lost. But please don't lose sight of who you are and what makes you unique and special. You are not defined by the actions of others, and you have the power to shape your own future and sense of home. Remember that there are people who care about you and want to support you through this difficult time. Don't be afraid to reach out for help and seek support from those around you. You are not alone, and there is hope for healing and growth.

It feels so beautiful to read all this comments while I'm listening to this art, get me to understand and feel each person here.

We're tired of not be happy🕳 we can't find this little thing called peace. 😢

pain has definitely gotta be up there as one of the emotions of all time

Whatever little hope you have, just keep holding it. It will eventually come true. No matter the pain, the tiredness or the loneliness. The sun will shine again for you. Be strong.

Now sadness doesn't makes me sad and happiness doesn't gets me happy.

Beautiful melodies... I don't feel at all like I'm tired of myself, rather listening to these helps me sooth any heavy feeling I have in my heart🧡 Lovely compilation! ❤️❤️

I find it extremely hard to exist and I don't think I can keep going much longer.

@mohammedtemimi1980

2 ай бұрын

Think of a reason. Other than saving yourself. A reason to live, something that makes your life meaningful. You can't exist but you can't stay either. it's difficult. But it will always be. Ideal circumstances will never come. Try to act while you can. Before it's too late I hope you find peace and happiness one day.

@liaisnotlialiaisnotlia6401

Ай бұрын

Find something, no matter how small, to live for. A plant, pet, dream, or person, anything. Do things you enjoy even if it is just taking a walk in the darkness of the night. Good luck.

This is the first time a painting has made me speechless. It could most likely be because of the music accompanied by it as well. As I stare at the image used in this video I literally cannot describe exactly how I feel with that painting. It's horrifying to look at, I feel scared, but at the same time, I feel like he understands me, and I understand him. I also feel pity, maybe even guilty, having to stare at him the entire time. But the more I stare at him, the more I felt guilty at myself. I don't know why such a simple painting has made me feel like this. That is why I say the painting scares me as well. Because This painting I found out of nowhere on a video streaming website scarily matches my inner thoughts well, when nothing else ever has before.

@goldenthemes692

Жыл бұрын

It's fascinating to hear how deeply the painting in your music video has affected you and resonated with your inner thoughts. Art has the power to evoke strong emotions and connect with us in ways that are difficult to describe with words. It's natural to feel scared or uneasy when faced with something that reflects our inner selves, especially if it's a part of us that we may not be comfortable with or fully understand. However, it's important to remember that confronting and acknowledging these parts of ourselves can be a step towards growth and healing. It's interesting that you mentioned feeling both understood and understanding towards the subject of the painting. This could suggest a level of empathy and compassion towards yourself and others, which are valuable qualities to have. Overall, it's beautiful to see how art can have such a profound impact on our emotions and thoughts. I encourage you to continue exploring different forms of art and allow yourself to fully immerse in the experience, even if it's uncomfortable at times.

@jiahaotan696

11 ай бұрын

@@goldenthemes692 So... where's the painting from? No credits?

@goldenthemes692

11 ай бұрын

@@jiahaotan696 painting from Nicola Samori

@jiahaotan696

11 ай бұрын

@@goldenthemes692 Nice, thank you. Great choice of music. I hope more KZreadrs do photo credits.

this playlist ironically, makes me feel so much better.

I want to just drift away with the wind as it takes me far from here.

I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m not where I want to be yet I’m not changing. This is entirely all my fault. I’m very lost in general. I don’t know what I’m doing.

@dionnedee7674

25 күн бұрын

I’m the same as you right now, just like how you described, lost in a jungle without a compass. Hey stranger, I hope you’re doing all fine and already found the right way out ❤

@Userdrowsy

22 күн бұрын

@@dionnedee7674 hi stranger, I haven’t found a way out but i guess I have been getting happier. I hope you find a way out too. Good luck in life 😊💙

@kristidavison6703

5 күн бұрын

I'm done , lied to , hurt, no where to go and no one that I really care to talk to

This got suggested to me at such a rough time. Feeling so lost and isolated from everyone around me it's given me chance to reflect on things which has lead to me finding myself openly weeping. That's The power of music for you. Thank you

Sometimes, it seems like it's getting better when it's actually getting worse. One step forward yet 1000 steps back. We keep fighting an already lost battle only to be defeated by our own exhaustion. Finished tears, dried cheeks and souless eyes shall be then understood when we get a glimpse of ourselves in the mirror. How we wish we can use words to describe but cannot . Yet we keep going on, that little hope we never think about but is there. 😪😮‍💨

@Iscariotes-fx6ev

Ай бұрын

Se ao menos eu conseguisse chorar, as vezes parece que tudo que eu preciso é desabar em lágrimas, mas sou incapaz disso.