"You are just gunning for attention." "Sorry." "Stop acting like you have the worst life!" "I-" "If only they realized what a burden you really were...?" "...Oh" "Yes, you're quite loud and such - quiet down. It's much better!" "Oh...I never realized..." "Duh, that is why you've got me to remind you! Everyone else just pities you, it's why nobody tells you to shut your trap!" "I'm sorry, I'll be more quiet...that'll help, right?" "Oh my goodness! I've told you this multiple times already! IT WILL!" "..." "See!? It's so much better and more peaceful already! But..." "Hm...?" "You need to lose more weight." "You need to do more." "Be better." "Work harder." "Even a sloth could do more then you!" "You're being ungrateful." "They do so much for you!" "...I'm tired..." "OH HUSH, you can't be that tired! For goodness sake, I can't be here all the time to help you!" "I'm sorry..." "Oh no you're not! Stop saying sorry like it fixes anything!" "Okay..." "Thank you, you know this is just to help, right?" "Mhm...I should've seen I was such an issue..." ( This is just in my head, it's something that happens from time to time, like a conversation with myself. I was tired and I couldn't catch myself in time. All in my head - a vent. )

@fobo3361

2 жыл бұрын

Damn ive actually had some really good "friends" say stuff like this to me (idk if i should call them friends) but yea i really get that like mental bullying, i do it to myself all the time its so uncontrollable, like imagining a monster chasing you up the stairs, you dont wanna think of it but you just do haha

@WilierAtom

2 жыл бұрын

just hearing this makes me sad, I hope one day people will be better

@S_lee_py

Жыл бұрын

I had “friends” ( no longer with me but it stuck sadly ) Who treated me like that and a very small amount of the time my family but those very little times make me feel like a total disappointment especially when my mom throws the “You can do so much better than this I KNOW YOU” it hurts but as my brother says “no pain no gain” :) Sorry to vent y’all didn’t ask but I felt a little more comfortable sharing :) for no reason

Why do I always worry that I’m faking my emotions? I know how I feel. I’m… sad. But I’m usually happy. But at the same time I’m always sad, but like, happy. Maybe I’m just numb, idk. I thought I was getting over it because I hardly felt anything ever but then one day I was sad again and now I’m not sure.

@neonboy9137

Жыл бұрын

So true im happy all the time with friends and all but stress of school or anything else is just somewhere in the back of my mind making me slightly numb i guess you explained it well

@delusionalreal

Жыл бұрын

Wow I didn't realize how much I could relate to just one paragraph

@corgoborgo

Жыл бұрын

im constantly telling myself your just faking it whenever i vent i am but i have a "normal life" by that i have mental bullying but idk if its real oh yeah, im the school outcast everyone knows me and im the but of everyones jokes and when im so tired from venting to myself (i have a 23 page google doc that ill never share) they poke me because they don't think i care every little thing hurts, i was drinking water and they pushed my backpack over deliberately and step on my heels and bump into me but i know its fake because everyone here is in a worse sit and im fine im fine i have a normal family great house lots of stuff failing grades and friends so im fine im fine im fine im fine i dont deserve as much pity as anyone else im sorry for venting as someone who is fine i apologise for being here

@neonboy9137

Жыл бұрын

@@corgoborgo dont be sorry i feel ya i have a great life just not failing grades all the same but even with a good family house friends etc i still feel.. off anyways hope you are ok stay strong and i mean it :))!

vent: I was always a shy kid, back in in elemantary school a girl scracthed my face deeply and it bled a lot but i didnt do anything and just went to my desk and cried, lately i realize that i never changed, when a shit happens to me i always hold it inside and went somewhere that i can cry, i didnt want people to pity me. I changed after pandemic, left all of my besfriends cuz i tought they would leave me so i had to go.. and just closed myself. I stopped self harm, and started healing, start socializing again, feeling confidence again, i even bought a skirt for a first time in my life, i started enjoying life, found my religion and i was in peace. Then (just 2 days ago) there was someone i really love(d) my big cousin, he said come and do some tests and since i was bored i went to his room and he touched me weirdly, that got me scared and shaking, i didnt know what to do so i just stood there like a little kitten, then i finished the test quickly and went out of his room, went to the balcony and cried, went home and cried, cried, i shouldve said him to stop, he was like a different person, he wasnt like that before, my mom noticed me since i was looking pretty bad, and i told it to my mom, and she said ''you know you cant trust any men'' '' you shouldve shouted'' ''why you didnt shouted'' '' you are not a kid, you know what a harrasment is'' well, thank you mom, you really helped a lot haha, i am 17, i AM a kid. You dont understand until its over, i cried like 2 days nonstop, my chest felt so heavy. I started calling my bestfriends, said sorry to them since i left them all of a sudden, they all accepted me again, talked to them hours and hours, i telled this story to my closest besfriend crying heavily and she said ''dont blame yourself because it wasnt yourfault and when you want come to my house, you can stay here and we can eat chips while watching tv'' she made me strong, i dont wanna hold it in my mind, i dont wanna hold it inside, this time i dont wanna keep my problem to myself but speak about it, i dont wanna isolate myself and cry like when i was a child but i wanna tell it, i need help, and i finally i accept that i need help, i think i will talk about it to my teacher that i like alot in school maybe she can help me, i am scared that this can trigger my selfharm again after 2 years. wish me luck, and love yourself ♥

@novemberstella812

2 жыл бұрын

I believe in you to stay strong and wish you the greatest luck

@fobo3361

2 жыл бұрын

Its alright, you got this, hope things turned out well

@tristanisindie2478

2 жыл бұрын

Stay strong for us it’s okay to let it all out just know we are here

@corgoborgo

Жыл бұрын

i always keep everything bottled up until it pops, i can remember 2 of them clearly one was at a summer camp. i was the short one and way too talkative and i was being nice. but no-one liked me and so on 3rd night i cried myself to sleep then next morning i was really tired so i didnt get up

@corgoborgo

Жыл бұрын

sorry got distracted but i was yelled at for not getting up and was dragged out of bed (sleepover camp) so i just was hated for the rest of the week and the 2nd one im glad i did. it was a normal school day ( didnt get my caffine ) and so i tried to sleep and the person next to me stuck a pencil in my ear. so i pushed her and now i sit away from everyone ;) now nobody can bother me in that class

Why is it that people will tell you about all the bad if the internet but not the good safe places, I've found so much comfort and support online while I'm scared to looked around my own room sometimes, the world is a broken place and it's hard to find good people, but online you can find safe places where people are kind and supportive and understand... If you're ever going through things and feel like no one cares, know I do, I know people online say this a lot but I do, I understand how sucky life is and I know it's hard, so whether I know you in person or not I'm thankful for you to have read this, and to still be holding on the best you can~ thank you for trying, I won't be mad if you let go, all that matters is that you try okay? People around you care even if you don't know it~

To anyone who is the backup friend, therapist friend, the joke of the group, or anything in-between...im sorry,im sorry that no matter what you were there when no one else was. Im sorry you were left out,made fun of, and only wanted when no one wanted the others,im sorry that on that day,the day you cried,no one was there for you, like you were for everyone else,so please, if you feel astho you are in pain,alone,forgotten, being replaced, or anything else,get to someone and get help, or if you need someone to talk to, this comment section is open, i can respond as soon as possible, so if you need to vent, please, dont hold it in From - someone who lost to much in life

@emge5411

2 жыл бұрын

Hi so i'm going through a lot mentally.. i'm stressed about the future, everything in school piles up, not knowing where i am going after i finally finish school is scary. I do not know who are my friends anymore or who can i trust. My friendgroup in school is small but we have fun toghether- or they do now, i'm just an outsider, the one who's left out the most, the one who doesn't know almost any inside jokes anymore. They all are loud, funny, have many things in common and i'm the "odd one". They laugh and joke around when i'm doing school stuff, listening the teachers or trying to focuss. They keep talking about things they have done toghether or showing videos or photos that they took while hanging around. It makes me feel that i'm not good enough, not funny enough, not chill enough.. When someone of them is sending a snap, they would say "Let's send him/her a snap of us" and then taking it in front of me, without hesitation. Yeah it sounds meaningless but it really breaks me inside. The best part is that my best friend is in this friendgroup. We have been best friends for almost 10 years but now it seems like they doesn't care that much anymore. They talks about one of our friends all the time, how they look like they could be siblings and everything that has happened is something they did toghether. It's all about them.. This person was my whole life before this- now i feel replaced and alone. They haven't even said that i'm theirs best friend anymore, in the past it was common.. Being hurt by the one i trusted the most. I want to stop existing and stop all this pain. There's no one to lean one because i can't trust anyone I was never bullied when i was younger, but this isn't new either- sometimes i'm recognized and then left out again. I simply just hate it, it gets my hopes up for no reason. Even hobbies aren't a safe place. One guy "jokes" around and calls me the boring one, saying that i don't have any depht in my personality. Do i have to prove my point every single time i decide to open my mouth? I have found out that the best way to put a mask on is to close every hurting thing in a box at my mind. If i smile and laugh it out, it confuces others to think i'm actually okay? Save bad thoughts to later and cry it out at nights (like now). It still hurts so badly tho..Sometimes the idea of feeling physical pain is tempting not going to lie.. I don't want to anybody in my family to be worried for me, so i don't tell anything. So put a smile on. Do your homework. Get good grades. Don't complain too much. Always, always be aware of what you're saying. That's what i tell to myself every night before falling asleep

@Raphaels_red_twin

2 жыл бұрын

@@emge5411 i know one thing from this, you deserve so mich better, im so sorry that you feel you cant trust anyone, but i know have probably herd this before but if you feel astho you want to SH please dont be afraid to tell someone, i have seen first hand how bad it can get of you dont handle it, it can lead to much more than you bargin for, and tell your ' friends 'how you feel and how you feel left out, and if they dont listen, than thats the sign, you.need.better.friends. So please, take this into consideration From- Someone who knows

@emge5411

2 жыл бұрын

@@Raphaels_red_twin Thank you. I have told one of them how i feel like a month ago. She tried to confess that our friendgroup wouldn't be the same without me and said she was sorry for making me feel miserable. Things were better for a few days after that but it went back to normal quickly.. I don't know what should i do anymore. If everything goes well, i'm moving out on my own in a different city next fall. It's a possibility to have a fresh start and meet new people. But at the same time it makes me feel as lost as now, there's no one who could help me to settle in. And once again, i'm the only one who is alone. Everyone in our friendgroup is going to same school except me, so that's fun. I get to hear everything that's going on but not having a clue about anything they are talking about..

@Raphaels_red_twin

2 жыл бұрын

@@emge5411 I'm sorry that this is happening, but with a new school comes new friends, make sure things go differently, YOU can be the one to help make plans,or whatever you please,that can be your chance to feel better about making friends, and be who you want to be From - The one who knows

@mae2376

Жыл бұрын

Hi, I'm the happy-go-lucky type in my group. I'm almost always seen with a smile, unless it's an absolute train wreck of a day. But recently I've found that I can't share what I like to do or read because I'm afraid I'll get made fun of. This happened before actually, I told my "friends" that I loved to read. They asked what I read and i responded with fanfiction. They laughed in my face and later were talking about Genshin Impact. I love to play Genshin so I chimed into the conversation. They made fun of me for liking Genshin, they said I wasn't a gamer or cool. That hurt, especially since I've known these people since 2nd grade and I thought we were in it together you know? I guess I was wrong about what types of people they were.

little vent: I have trouble talking about my feelings because my family told me I was being dramatic, and they were "just kidding", so I learned to hide my emotions. Because of this, I ended up developing IED (Intermittent Explosive Disorder), and sometimes I'm so overwhelmed with feelings that I kind of "explode", which often leads to hurting myself or even others. My family sucks and I don't really consider myself a part of it anymore. For me, family are people who support you and make you feel safe, in that sense, my mom, dad and my friends are much more of a family than they could ever be... Take care, you matter... 😘

I hate it when i feel safer venting on yt than to anyone else or even close friends. But I love feeling safe too

Vent: Today I just finally had enough all my life I’ve been bullied, abused, r@ped, treated horrible and I just had enough I climbed up high into a tree I said goodbye to all my friends then I got a message from my best friend I’m On my way stay there and he came up the tree and comforted me and I didn’t want to die anymore.

I feel safe here. My biggest obstacle is myself, but when I win I want to fly while carrying up with me. Until then I'm up, down, and here- repeat. Hope everyone well.- from your casual troubled 13 year old.

"A friend to everyone is a friend to no one" -you, me, and so many others...now lemme give you a hug🤗🤗

No idea if I have permission to vent right now, but I feel like it's a bit needed; I never, and I mean, NEVER. Express my emotions, I prefer to hide them due to the fact that I've been told that I'm being dramatic, that I'm a liar, and other things along the lines of that. So it's been preferred, this is once in a lifetime that I'm venting. Now I'm more of the quiet-ish type of person, I used to be talkative, but I grew more silent as I aged considering I got told that I talked too much. I express my emotions, sadness, and mainly anger through Music and Art, which I don't show people but I do have drawings and songs that I've created for that specific reason. Most times usually, I act happy, people think I'm very expressive, enjoyable, loving, caring, happy, excited, etc. When that's me covering my emotions, which at least I'm doing it well enough for them to have those thoughts. I'm also a BIG overthinker with a lot of anxiety, panic attacks, and trust issues. but I'm not the really dramatic kind that fakes that for attention. I'm not big on attention, give me as much or as little as you please to, I don't force your decisions . A little change of topic, I have horrible family problems, I live in a homophobic and racist household with no one there to support me. I myself am in the LGBTQ+ community, and I support and love all races, it doesn't matter to me. But my family on the other hand [Besides my father and siblings] all are homophobic and/or racist. On a brighter note, I do have 3 friends and a lover that support me entirely. I love them with all of my gut

vent: everyones annoying me, I just want to be alone with that one friend. I feel so manipulative though.. I made my friends leave, and now its just me and her. I'm so scared that I will end up doing something to make her leave as well. then I would barely have anyone. I'm so scared that I would become a person that I hate, like my "friends" that I made leave. I feel like I will make a mistake soon, and I'm going to go through a "phrase" in my life where I'm a loner. it just terrifies me. I feel so manipulative. I will most likely have a bad future. I'm so so young

vent- i need people to understand this Im not a good person. I never have been. I want to be a good person but i can't. I REALLY WANT TO BUT I CANT IVE NEVER BEEN TAUGHT HOW TO I WANT PEOPLE TO FEEL COMFORTED AROUND ME NOT NERVOUS BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE A GOOD PERSON

Little vent: I'm tired, just tired of everything, it's so upsetting not being able to get better on your own, i'm becoming the problem and i don't know how to stop it. I hate how I become smaller every time someone screams, it really makes me feel miserable. It feels like everything is my fault, i don't think i can take the adult life.

Oooh~ new playlist. Nice as always! 👍 Every playlist helps me in their own way☺️ Thank you for your hardworking, Angel! 😊

Vent: I’m a sixth grader and I got lice. This girl had lice and didn’t tell the school. She gave me lice and 3 other people. When I found out I had lice I didn’t say anything. My dad did the treatment to my hair and took everything out of my room to wash it and he went through my book bag. Like my girlfriend’s confession to me. Best way to come out I guess. He read my therapy journal too. Later that night when I was going to bed I realized he took my comfort blanket and I just started crying uncontrollably. I don’t know why. My mom called me telling me her and her husband are writing an email and sending it to my principal to get the girl who gave me lice checked. I started crying even harder when my dad’s husband started yelling at me. I am very sensitive to yelling. I told my mom but it’s not like she can just take me out of my dad’s house without permission. I still live with my dad and her. I started thinking about moving in with my mom because it’s a healthier household and area just all around. I started to think about if my dad will react the same way my mom did when my brother moved in with my dad. I hate hurting peoples feelings so I just decided that I would still go back and forth. I told my mom how I was terrified about how people will react if the word gets out I had lice. I didn’t say anything about it to any of my friends except the ones that helped me realize I had lice. Yesterday I didn’t itch nor feel the lice move. I got home and we did the treatment again and I found out in lice free my mind is just making me overthink and feel them moving but it’s really not them. I’m still scared for if people find out but at least I’m lice free now. Hey lice only typically go for clean hair. That means I finally have healthy hair.

Me neither, but hey you're never alone. Someone cares about you. Drink water everyone!

The fact i related to strangers more than anyone else ik...

Idk why but this playlist is relatable :')

im reading the comments and... my god

im ok today. :)

Long time ago I have a best friend my best friend like my sister but she fucking left me because she can't stand that whenever she saw me crying over the boy I liked, always I crying and crying and crying really really crying but also she was talking bullshit about me ,when everyone found out that I harassed the boy I liked (beacuse He was the popular one among my classmates), she and other "friends" stopped talking to me and I had to end the friendship I had with them, I don't have to talk shit about them, maybe you will say that they deserves it, but she and some of my "friends"was there when there was a time when my family did not support me, actually my ex- Best friend was there, I FEEL VERY BAD, THAT IS HORRIBLE, I forgive them , as a person, but I don't want to see them again . Now I have new friends and everything seems to be improving for the moment, I began to give myself time, I hope that the day I return to school everything will be wonderful

There should be song" I'm not okay" by My Chemical romance

Me neither

@Bread-fog

2 жыл бұрын

Do you want to talk about it? you don't have to if you don't want to though.

@royalesamiyt

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so glad we agree

@thezombiefairy

2 жыл бұрын

@@Bread-fog well, yesterday wan the 2 year anniversary of thee breakup with my ex boyfriend that s3xüãlly abused me. However.....after our breakup, he committed..... I feel guilty about his death.....but he hurt me so much....

@Bread-fog

2 жыл бұрын

@@thezombiefairy hey it's ok you shouldn't feel guilty for what he did, just do something you want to do and try too stay happy it might help. Ok?

@thezombiefairy

2 жыл бұрын

@@Bread-fog alright....

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