Girl we have been ROOTING FOR YOUUUU. It feels like seeing an old friend again, seeing you sober. Congratulations on 1 year, you DID THAT

@AEZAKM1

11 ай бұрын

SERIOUSLY my heart dropped when I saw who posted this!! I was like OH MY GOD ITS ALREADY BEEN A YEAR????? I’m so proud of her!!!!!!

@andreamancini2802

11 ай бұрын

I literally was just talking about her a few days ago - saying i missed her videos and hoping for the best for her sobriety journey!!!!!! I’m so glad to see this video posted too! Omg

@JustaKarenDiscoveredTheIntrnet

11 ай бұрын

hard to trust anyone who is an addict that they sobered up..as an addict myself i would know...so anyone sayin there sober take it with a grain of salt...i lie to my family and friends all the time

@TheMaristocracy

11 ай бұрын

@@JustaKarenDiscoveredTheIntrnet thank you so much for your positivity and support 🙏

@Clairvoyancerion

10 ай бұрын

@@JustaKarenDiscoveredTheIntrnet what the hell is your username lmao

I’m so proud of you, I’m going on 10 years clean from heroin. I never thought it was possible, but it is. I’m so happy for you Taylor. sending you so much love

@LukeOliver325

11 ай бұрын

Same here 11 years this year. Proud of us all!❤

@juliehartup

11 ай бұрын

Congratulations that’s amazing. Even though I don’t know you I’m proud of you

@Stephanie_demi_

11 ай бұрын

Wow congrats!! This is so inspiring ❤️ WDR!

@Stephanie_demi_

11 ай бұрын

@@LukeOliver325 Congrats!! This is amazing ❤️ Proud of you both! WDR!

@IntrovertedLoLo

11 ай бұрын

Why did you try it in the first place

Was addicted to heroin and drinking of alcohol for over 7 yeas years also suffered severe depression not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin treatment after trying out a psilocybin treatment I will be 2 years clean never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms

@Bastianbishops

10 ай бұрын

I've been looking to try shrooms, just very difficult to get a reliable source here in Germany. Really need!

@laurj09

10 ай бұрын

Yes very sure of Dr.benshrooms. my first shrooms trip was really awesome. It felt like I was deep into the sea.

@BrownGeorge-pw2xo

10 ай бұрын

I've done microdosing for help and it works does cut depression out its been the best remedy I've ever had psilocybin been illegal is actually a crime against humanity

@rosemary8305

10 ай бұрын

Yes he's dr.benshrooms isd and psilocybin are amazing teachers along its dmt mah dudes have safe trips all. Shrooms are blessings from nature

@Wimruther-hk4zn

10 ай бұрын

was addicted to what i called a trifecta Meth, Opium, Alcohol. I also suffered severe depression i went to a party and consumed about 2 eights of shrooms i was lost in my head for 2 days but when i came back my depression and addiction to my trifecta was gone. I didn't realize it at the time. The psychedelic experience is temporary but many people have good permanent results

I’m 2 years 9 months clean from pills and heroin! Still on methadone. Tapered from 55mg to 34mg. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. Everyday is a struggle but I’m doing it! I have been an addict since I was 15/16 years old. I have been on drugs pretty much my entire life. I’m almost 28. And I relate to that as well the feeling of not growing up. I still feel 17. We stop maturing when we start using. I relate to everything you are saying! I was groomed at 17 by a 25 year old. He abused me and when I broke away I went off the deep end and then 8 years later here I am batting a opiate addiction. It ruined me. I need in depth counseling now due to all of this. You are not alone! Congratulations 🎊 #WEDORECOVER 💜

@lindseybotelho

11 ай бұрын

Congratulations!

@lewasil

11 ай бұрын

You can keep tapering (if you want). I did a blind taper. Then I got a job offer that I needed to be available 24/7,so I asked my counselor if I could switch to Subs. I was on a low dose of Methadone, (about 20mgs)so my switch was not bad at all! I was scared but it was fine. Then I tapered myself on Suboxone. I went from 8mg a day to .5mg, gradually over a year, then I just quit. And absolutely zero withdrawal at all. I was shocked. It takes patience and time. I am now free from all drugs. No way I'm going back with all the fentanyl out there now. But everyone is different. I'm just telling my story. Good luck and stay safe out there. Xoxoxo

@wolfumz

10 ай бұрын

@@lewasil Dang, I had no idea you could switch from methadone to suboxone! Thank you for sharing about what worked for you :)

@lewasil

10 ай бұрын

@wolfumz You CAN'T just switch like that. You have to be at a low,low dose of methadone and then stop taking it and go into WD first. Please do NOT just take a suboxone on Methadone! I was on a very low dose and scared to even switch. But I had to since I had a great job offer. I was just saying it wasn't that hard for me to make the transition and then taper off of the subs. It took a long time, though. Again, PLEASE DON'T JUST TAKE A SUBOXONE. YOU WILL GO INTO IMMEDIATE WITHDRAWAL. Talk to your provider/counselor if you have options. Please be safe. Don't jump the gun or force anything that could be dangerous. Please don't relapse either, with all this fentanyl out there. Be safe. Please 🙏 ❤️ ♥️ 💕

@wolfumz

10 ай бұрын

@@lewasil Right, I understand, you have to be on a very low dose, then go into WD from methadone. I imagine that was not particularly pleasant, you must have been off for many days. I am guessing you were sick for a day or two before your induction onto suboxone? Anyone who is thinking about this needs to do this under the supervision and support of a treatment team. I was on suboxone for many years. The last time I used a substance or drank was in 2013. It took me a long time to get off, too. There were times I thought I was never going to get off, I vacillated a lot between staying on it and trying to get off it. I always had the impression that it was always impossible to switch from methadone to suboxone, no matter the dosage or the situation. So that's what I meant to say, that I was surprised. But it makes sense to me that it worked for you. Thanks for clarifying. I sort of forgot, we may have a wide variety of readers....

Hey Taylor. I'm an alcoholic in recovery. I also got sober at 26 and I'm 30 now. I also felt like I had wasted 'the best years of my life' being a fucking asshole and losing everything good in my life. I'm here to tell you that your best years are ahead of you. I couldn't believe how at peace I was about turning 30. In the past 4 years of sobriety I have built myself a beautiful life and I am optimistic for the future. Keep doing the right thing one day at a time and before you know it you'll be living a life beyond your wildest dreams. You can't turn it around all at once. You got this.

@JustaKarenDiscoveredTheIntrnet

11 ай бұрын

hard to trust anyone who is an addict that they sobered up..as an addict myself i would know...so anyone sayin there sober take it with a grain of salt...i lie to my family and friends all the time

@Laura-fv1oe1

11 ай бұрын

@@JustaKarenDiscoveredTheIntrnet For sure. Lying becomes second nature when you're in active addiction. It takes a lot of work, but that can be unlearned. With enough time, people will learn to trust you again. When it sank in for me was when my best friend's parents (who had seen me at my worst and HAAATED me), asked me to house-sit for them. The fact that they trusted me to not be a thief, to take good care of their dogs.. honestly brought me to tears lol. I don't think they had any idea that would mean so much to me. Not sure where you are in your journey, but I wish you well.

@ellbee5168

11 ай бұрын

This is a beautiful message, thank you

@deepfried8758

10 ай бұрын

tbh needed to hear this, struggling with my own addiction happy to see others pulling out of it

@alivia9691

10 ай бұрын

​@deepfried8758 you'll get thru it hon. Keep trucking and just know recovery isn't linear. It will be hard. And whenever you relapse: it's ok. I have faith in you.

Hey Taylor, you don't have to film old interests if it doesn't resonate with you anymore. We all grow and change into different versions of ourselves through every chapter of life. I would love to see you film vlogs or fashion / makeup videos or even show the art you make for your walls! I just like being included in your life, albeit however small. Thanks for being there for me

@yayrandomnness11

11 ай бұрын

i definitely second this, i started watching your videos YEARSSSS ago bc your animal hobby was interesting. but i stuck around for Taylor, not the animals.

@Angeegabs

11 ай бұрын

So much this! I follow you for you, not specific content 😊

I've been battling complex PTSD for over 15 years now. The way you described that bubble, the way you feel emotionally stunted, the way it hurts when you realize that everyone else has moved on, I know exactly how that feels

@placeholderdoe

9 ай бұрын

Wishing you well on your mental health

I am so proud of you! As someone who also "slept through" my early 20s until I was 25, I want you to know it is never too late. I am living both my teenage and young adult dreams after struggling since I was a young teen. I’m turning 27 this year and all I get from people who matter to me is pride and praise. You are never too late for YOUR life and it’s just so much healthier to think about what you actually can do now, you deserve to!

@Jamestele1

10 ай бұрын

Wow, "slept through" is a painfully accurate description. Peace

@placeholderdoe

9 ай бұрын

I’m glad you’re better now, good luck and Godspeed. You’re doing great

@Vivus69

9 ай бұрын

your brain has barely reached its final developmental stage, you are a young adult NOW :)

I’m 15, i used to watch your pet videos when i was younger and it kind of started my obsession/special interest in pet care. i really just want you to know that you’ve made a huge impact on me and i’m so incredibly happy you are doing better. i’ve struggled with a harmful addiction that i’ve been trying to stop and i can understand how hard it is. you’re amazing, and i admire you.

@georgia1191

11 ай бұрын

🙏🏾💜

@ashleyw6160

11 ай бұрын

🥺 I'm so sorry about whatever ur going thru. Wishing u nothing but peace & happiness!!!!❤

@lindseybotelho

11 ай бұрын

It's wild how similar your story is to mine

@InsoIence

10 ай бұрын

Hang in there and keep going. No matter what. You are worth being free.

a whole year is crazy, that’s so impressive and i’m so glad you’re still here with us and pushing through! keep up the good work ❤ edit: i wanted to add that addiction is so beyond difficult to recover from. it’s painful and even when you’re sober, you’re still an addict. i also suffer from addiction (2 years clean) and it still haunts me. but the reward is so worth it all. and i don’t regret making the choice to be sober. so proud of you

I lost my older sister to a heroin overdose. Part of what keeps me going and fighting for her memory is understanding what she went through, and I feel like this is spot on for what she experienced as well. Thank you so much for this video and being here

@schnitzelberry

10 ай бұрын

I just overdosed on heroin a month ago and my sister doesn’t know about it but I know how heart broken and lost she would feel if her older sister died so for that, for the sake of family I’m going to fight like hell to stay sober. I’m extremely sorry about your sister and I wish you the best!

@bioshawna

10 ай бұрын

And Megan, I'm sorry for your loss too. It's a void that never really seems to go away... Feels like I lost my childhood and part of my history. Miss her so much...😢

You should be so proud of yourself Taylor. You sound so much more mature and articulate. It sounds like you've learned a lot about yourself, despite how it may feel. As someone who has a lot of trauma, but has not struggled with addiction, I'm a 26 year old that still feels like a teenager. I believe we had to be adults before we were ready, so now as a real adult, we regress back to feeling like a child because we hadn't finished developing. I believe we will all get there in the end. So much love to you 💜

oh my gosh i've been watching you since the very first day, since i was maybe 11-12 and im turning 17 this year. watching you overcome every obstacle so far gives me so much hope for my life because of the trauma that i've had to go through since i was 10. a whole year is crazy and impressive and i know you are gonna push through and keep up the great work. so proud of you love and cant wait to see your healthy self again :)

@soupwithfork69

11 ай бұрын

Me too ! I started watching early high school like 13-14 and now I’m 19 :)

@_rouella.kamuii_

11 ай бұрын

Same, I’m turning 18 next April

@humanname99

11 ай бұрын

yep, I remember watching her animal care videos taking notes to go pester my parents and now I'll be 18 in a few months 😭

I don't have a drug addiction but your whole speech about having something traumatic happen to you that numbs you for years and suddenly you wake up in your mid-late twenties feeling like you pissed your life away made me tear up lol like i genuinely feel like I just turned 18 and yet I'm 23 and faced with so many responsibilities

@anasdomain9994

10 ай бұрын

That’s exactly it I’m like wait I feel like this too but never been on drugs what does it mean 😭

@roselane8152

10 ай бұрын

​@anasdomain9994 I feel the same thing. It has something to do with trauma. Mine was a drug addict in the family. It hindered my growth in so many ways.

Girl I felt SO lost and confused at 26 too, and I didn’t even do drugs! It’s called the quarter life crisis. And it doesn’t go away quick. This can take years. It takes time to sort out your past while planning your future. And it’s painful - thinking about what could’ve been, what I should’ve done but didn’t, what I missed out on, the times that I hurt people, the times that people hurt me… It’s hard to reflect, but the fact that you are reflecting at all shows something important. Welcome to adulthood. Give yourself some grace as you go along ❤ and make an effort everyday, big or small, to be better than your past decisions.

@DystopianOverture

10 ай бұрын

I'm still feeling that lost feeling I first had at 25. I'm 29 and not sure if I'll ever feel free from it.

@IcedTeaPlease

10 ай бұрын

You will 🩵 I promise you will! Wishing you clarity and strength ✨

@mytamponhurt

10 ай бұрын

so real....

@DystopianOverture

9 ай бұрын

@@IcedTeaPlease :')

I experience the same amnesia relating to my age and my experiences (im 25) because of my depression, which I’ve had since I was 15/16. So I definitely understand how you feel. I wake up feeling 19 years old, but when I get asked my age it takes me a moment to realize that I’m actually 25 going on 26.

@Ketannabis

10 ай бұрын

Holy shit i'm 25 too and I feel that. Felt like I burned through about a decade doped out

@bioshawna

10 ай бұрын

I'm 32 going on 33 and idk if it's because of my past substance abuse and trauma but I feel the exact same way. It seems to get worse for me tbh

I commented on your first addition video. You helped me understand my dad’s addiction that I never could wrap my head around. I was able to spend 2 years with him clean until he passed from his addiction and relapse. I’m so grateful for the time I had with him and your original video really helped. Im more than proud you have came this far. You will go so much farther pretty girl!

As someone who lost their dad from heroin I went to tell you how incredibly proud you should feel and how much it warms my heart to see people changing their life and saving themselves. I cannot imagine how hard this process was on yourself. Congratulations on your journey. Celebrate it 💛

I suffered from alcoholism from 24-34 with it becoming increasingly worse through the years and can relate to feeling the void, having to finally process events from years ago, and feeling stunted emotionally. I am now 40 and sober for 6 years. Things are falling into place for me now in a way they never did and I am finally happy. You really are doing the right thing. You have plenty of time to build a beautiful life and you’re doing it 🧡

@B33LZ3B0ZZZ

10 ай бұрын

Drinking is for pussies. Do heroin like a real man.

@silentblackhole

10 ай бұрын

SO happy to hear you're doing well now! Thanks for sharing. So inspiring.

Do not ever feel ashamed for feeling the way you feel. I've been sober now for 10 years and I still don't feel like I'm the age that I am. My whole teenage life was drugs up until 21. It is very hard to deal with my emotional issues and more. You got this babe, if you ever need to talk please reach out! Speak with someone who has been in recovery for a long time. We may have advice or even if you want to vent. I do get it. I feel old too I feel like my whole life went by. Last year I lost my brother when he took his own life and it broke me but I made it through it sober which is huge. I don't feel my emotions or loss like I should be able to.

Still watching you & always looking forward to a new upload. I’m still fighting my addiction & you give me hope all the time. A video you did years ago where you showed “a day in the life” going to treatment, getting French fries & sitting in bed literally gave me such peace & comfort. I’d love another part to that video. Always rooting for you taylor 🩷

I’m a 39 ur old single mother of 2 teenagers and I’m a recovering addict (5years) and I swear I just explained exactly how I’ve been feeling it’s so true everything u said and u can relate so much and I feel like this is a part of recovery that isn’t talked about much!!! Thanks so much Taylor for making me realize I’m not ALONE!!

@COURTsaysSCREAM

11 ай бұрын

girl saaame!! all the thoughts that have been in my head were just explained perfectly. i really honestly thought that there wasn't anyone out there that could understand. it's crazy..

@cherryblossomvanillabean1751

11 ай бұрын

@@COURTsaysSCREAM I feel the exact same

Sooooooo proud of you. I’ve been a fan since you first started creating content. I’m so happy that you’re doing so good! It was hard to watch you go in your downward spiral and I had no way of doing anything about it. So I’m not the only one that’s grateful to see you here today. We’re here for you girl. ❤️

Taylor, I've watched maybe since elementary school. As a now junior in high school you don't understand how proud I am of you for reaching this milestone. stay strong ❤️

Congratulations!! That is so impressive! I have grown up with a dad who was an alcoholic and crack addict. It's so hard from a loved one's perspective but its something only you can conquer and you only have yourself to thank for finally bringing yourself to 1-year sobriety. People can help you along the way but you should feel proud with your progress :)

@Schizophrennial

11 ай бұрын

Bro let him stop drinking alcohol and crack it will only make it worse so it’s better for him to stop crack and alcohol

@humanname99

11 ай бұрын

@@Schizophrennial how are you on this video with such a poor understanding of addiction

@alivia9691

10 ай бұрын

​@@Schizophrennial this is such a poor understanding of what addiction is.

Thank you for discussing the emotional coma that addicts experience. I think it's one of the most difficult parts of recovery. You feel "left behind" and out of touch. But every day it gets better. ❤🎉 Congrats one year!!!

Congratulations, Taylor! 1 year is such a huge milestone! Even after a year things can still be pretty rough, but you have gotten through the worst of it and are capable of anything you set your mind to. I hope you feel proud of yourself! Things only get better over time in sobriety. I have been sober from opiates for 10 years, and it was the best decision I ever made for myself. I’ve been able to accomplish things I never thought possible, and have learned to deal with my trauma in a productive way that doesn’t harm myself or make things worse. It took a long time for that change to happen, but I am genuinely happy now. I thought living without drugs would be impossible for me, and that people who got and stayed sober just weren’t as sick as I was. But that’s just not true. Recovery, and I mean full recovery, beyond just quitting drugs, is possible. Hang in there and never give up on yourself. You are so deserving of a happy and fulfilling life!

Feeling like you slept through years of your life is something i heavily resonate with. I lost my 20s to an ED and as im coming up on 30, im taking every action i can to live the life that 5 year old me wanted. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing your story ❤️

Today is my 5 months sober! I find remembering just for today so helpful on bad trauma days. I’m so proud of you 💙

@sarai637

11 ай бұрын

keep going 🤍i’m proud of u.

I’m five years off heroin and I’ve never been happier in my LIFE. It was a long, tough process! As time goes by and look at my life today, I can’t imagine living the way I used to live. I remember at the time thinking I could never live without drugs, especially heroin, but life works in mysterious ways. I am so thrilled about the life I have now and I can’t wait to see what the future holds. I hope you get to this place too because it’s such a wonderful place to be.

@AHandleFul

11 ай бұрын

Queen, I'm so proud of you. You're doing amazing

I’m so proud of you Taylor. I’m 15, and I’ve been watching your videos since I was 7-8. You definitely inspired and educated my love for reptiles. I’ve continued to watch your journey through the years and I am so thankful. My mom is actually an addiction counselor so I have learned from her many things about addiction. (I’ve also had friends going through it) and I cannot imagine how hard it was for you. Keep going strong, we are all so happy that you are starting to find yourself again!🫶🫶

You are so brave to show this very vulnerable part of you, and through all the trials and tribulations you’ve been through, I’ve never stopped being a fan. Your candid ability to be very real about your struggles and ailments is refreshing, and had made me feel less alone. You don’t know me, but I am so proud of you.

So happy to hear you're on medication assisted treatment, and speaking so openly about it! I work in the healthcare industry and there's so much misunderstanding about MAT, so to hear you talking about it so openly and how it helped you stayed sober, that's awesome! Sorry that it's not working out perfectly for you, of course. Either way, I'm so happy to hear what progress you've made, and appreciate that you've been so open while you're in recovery. We're rooting for you!

@That90sgiirl

11 ай бұрын

I’ve noticed most (not all) that are negative towards MAT have never taken it or dealt with addiction themselves. I guess because it’s a newer way of recovery so it’s misunderstood. It was a life saving medication for me and I don’t regret going that route regardless what others say.

All of this I relate to so hard. I started using at 14, and stopped daily use at 29. I’m turning 32 in October and the whole age stunted is crazy. I feel you girl! I totally get it. It feels bonkers. I too actually came to the realization of being groomed by older people in my teens. And how I still feel like a teenage now that I’m sober. Keep on keeping on. We will adjust one day. Hopefully

@COURTsaysSCREAM

11 ай бұрын

it's crazy how i've felt so alone in this for so damn long.. but then seeing all the comments on here like yours is insane. so many people have lived like i have.. it's comforting to not be alone.

@squishypandaelephant

11 ай бұрын

Wishing you all the best brother

This came up on my home page. It must be the hardest thing in the world. They say the first time you try it is the best day and also the last day you will have so looking at you right now talking about overcoming this addiction fills me with awe and respect. Keep living your life love, you can move planets with the strength you’re using to do this, that makes you such an asset to humanity. ❤ rooting for you x

proud of you taylor! relapse is so normal, recovery isn’t linear, and speaking about it is hard so i appreciate it

I think it’s somewhat common for women in their late 20s to feel like their prime has passed them by. As you said, society and all. As a fellow 97 baby, I really related to what you were saying about feeling like you’re suddenly an adult or like you missed something. So happy to see your amazing progress ❤️

thank you for sharing!! :) it's so heartwarming seeing folks in the comments sharing their own sobriety stories. IM ROOTING FOR ALL OF U

I’m so proud of you! I randomly have checked up on your YT through the years and dude 1 year is AMAZING! Be patient with yourself! You’re only 26 so you have so much life ahead of you. I got sober at 29 and am almost 40 and while I recognize I wasted my 20s I still have SO MUCH TIME to do whatever I want! You do too! I really believe if someone can beat addiction then they can do anything because it takes some strength. You got this! ❤

I can definitely relate to feeling mentally/emotionally stunted. Somehow I’m 30 and my 20s flew by me. I dealt with a ton of mental health issues, stress and university.. it feels like time flew by and I shouldn’t be this age but I am. ❤ it’s a tough realization.. all we can do is try to enjoy each day we have and be thankful we’re here. It’s easy to dwell and feel stuck, regret the past and time gone.

CONGRATS 🎉❤ I’m a chronic relapser too (on H). I know exactly what you mean, that it seems like it was a fog. SAME! I’m almost 11 months clean now too. You being open about your addiction played a BIG part in me reaching out for help. I’m so damn proud of you girl! 🥲🥹❤️ You did it!!! KEEP GOING!! 🎉 WDR! ❤️

@ladyviolet9651

11 ай бұрын

Almost 11 months 🎉🎉🎉🎉 keep at it your doing great! Stay strong, stay positive and always reach out to someone if u feel a hunger for it and work through it. Good job. Sending good vibes to reach a whole year and more. YOU. GOT. THIS.

@Stephanie_demi_

11 ай бұрын

@@ladyviolet9651 Omg thank you SO much! 🥹❤️ That truly means so much to me! I never thought I’d get one day clean, let alone 319 days. You’re so sweet! 🥺❤️ Thank you! ❤️

@fightvale57

11 ай бұрын

Congratulations! I just relapsed from actually kicking and it is hard to face myself. Hard to know where to go. To create a new plan. Or even explain why the relapse happened. Anyway,just wanted to tell you how proud you should be of yourself.

@Stephanie_demi_

11 ай бұрын

@@fightvale57 Thank you so much! ❤️ It’s okay to not be perfect. Sometimes we fall several times before we get it right. You’re not alone. If you ever need someone, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me or anyone in the recovery community. You don’t have to do it alone ❤️ I’m proud of you! You can do it! ❤️❤️❤️

@mamamichellegist

11 ай бұрын

i’m 11 months clean on july fourth! sober sisters heyyyyyyy🎉 so happy for you love!

I relate to the emotional numbness bc of my trauma and depression (especially through the pandemic years), that feeling of not having experienced anything or grown in years is hard. Your story is so moving and helpful to me and countless others, thank you so much for sharing it

i'm so proud of you Taylor. What you described, the entire feeling of not recognizing the body you live in and the age you are is such a good description of what it's like to live with trauma. My psychiatrist said it's almost like living through your second puberty because you didn't get the chance to. Same with the twenties. I'm so proud of you. You're doing amazing.

taylor, you seem so present and lucid and more YOU in this video. i can literally feel the authenticity through the screen. i am so incredibly proud of you, and forever rooting for you. you inspire me every day 🤍

I haven’t struggled with substance abuse but I can tell you that the best years of my life have been in my 30s. You are someone who is driven to work on themselves and improve and that means you and your life will only get better as you age. You are right, people glamorize those years of 18-25, but honestly, there’s a lot about them I’m glad I’m past now.

@LordBonesaw

10 ай бұрын

I’m in my 30s and have prescription drug addiction…. It is what it is now but luckily I’ve still been able to do the things I’ve wanted to do

I am so unbelievably proud of you , I’ve been watching you since day one on KZread and when I was watching you go through your relationship with the person that caused your heartache broke my heart, seeing you overcome the biggest challenge which is getting sober i just wish I could give you a big hug and tell you how proud I am and I’m sure all your subscribers feel the same way! ❤️🖤 you are gonna come back stronger and better you got this!

Taylor your transparency and vulnerability is admirable. So much of what you say resonates deeply with me. I’m 29 and have felt the same way. I always felt there was something wrong with me for feeling this way after addiction/trauma and to hear you saying what I’ve felt is so validating. Thank you for sharing your journey. It honestly is so helpful. Wishing you the best on your journey! ❤

I dont know you, haven't seen a single video from you before but I just wanna say well done. As someone who has spent his whole life around current and recovering addicts I am very aware of the struggle to even comprehend getting better let alone all the incredibly hard work/ mental battles you have to face on the road to sobriety. Knowing literally nothing about you I can confidently say you are incredibly strong to not only seek sobriety but to stick to it. You are seen, you are clearly loved ( based on the comments I'm seeing, and you matter. Keep up the great work and as my uncle used to say " only those who turn and face their shadows can truly appreciate the warmth of their light"

@Kayciee130

11 ай бұрын

just popping in here to say that that is a beautiful quote. wow

@yayrandomnness11

11 ай бұрын

that really is a beautiful quote, gonna keep that one in my notes

I don't normally comment on videos but I've been watching you since I was 12 and I'm now 19 so think its important to do so, i know you dont know me, you dont know many of these people commenting under your videos but just know how incredibly proud I am, how proud all of your viewers are of you and your journey. So many people are too ashamed or scared to speak so openly about their addiction in such a raw, real and educational way. You may not know it now, you may never know how many people need to hear what you're saying, how many people need to see that they arent alone, that they are love and that they deserve genuine happiness. A whole year sober is such an incredibly huge milestone and so so many people dont understand the magnitude of that accomplishment, I'm so very proud of you and your recovery, well done taylor and thank you for continuing to be so open and vulnerable and using your platform to help others who may not even realize they need it.

Congratulations Taylor. Sincerely. You’ve articulated your experience so well. I relate to it so strongly. It is a difficult thing to explain to someone who hasn’t experienced a heroin addiction. I was in an active heroin addiction that consumed the entirety of my 20s. I’m 40 now, so I’ve been clean about 10 years now- wild, it feels longer. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s helpful for those who have been there. And it’s so helpful for those who haven’t and who are trying to understand.

i am so proud of u. i have been rooting for u through some of your recovery and I am so excited for ur future! keep on rockin

As you know, it's really kinda uncanny how much I relate to your experience. For what it's worth, I'm really fkn proud of you Taylor. One Year is incredible. Keep your eye on the prize, you got this.

my name is Mary and I'm an addict....YESSSSS!!!! I KNEW IF WE WAITED LONG ENOUGH THAT U WOULD COME AROUND TO THE LIGHT SIDE! SO PROUD OF U! Keep doing what ur doing! I just made 15 years and my advice to you is there will be good days and there will be bad days, do not let the bad days win. I'm so proud of you it's so good to see you alive and well.❤🎉👍💯🙏

@fightvale57

11 ай бұрын

Planning to kick and hearing you say not to let the bad days win really lit a pathway in my heart. Thank you Mary. I know I can get where you are. I know I can. And I can't wait.

@maryriemer0225

11 ай бұрын

@@fightvale57 ONLY U CAN DO IT . IF U REALLY WANT IT THEN U CAN do it. It would make my life,to have you sober. U can do it 💪.

@equaloskat

11 ай бұрын

15 years!!! So proud and love your words of encouragement to others in the same journey❤

Yesssssss Taylor!! This made my heart so full 💕💕💕💕 it feels like watching a long lost friend come back and see their pieces fall back into place, I am SO goddamn proud of you 🥹🎉🎉🎉 congratulations and happy 1 year!!!!!! Many more to come, baby! 💐🎉

Congratulations on being sober for a whole year 🎉 thank you for making this video, it was really insightful. I lost a friendship due to my friend having a coke addiction; she is still alive, thank god, and trying to get sober, but the damage is done. While I still love her from a distance, she is still in her journey and not capable of being a friend. Your video gives me hope that she can eventually get to a healthy place again.

We are so So proud of you Taylor! I know it's been extremely difficult (understatement), but you've managed to make it this far for this long! You are amazing and I hope you know you have our support! Congratulations Taylor you're incredible 💖

So proud of you, I’ve always believed you could do it. Don’t ever feel pressured to upload if you think it’ll be bad for your mental health, your recovery is top priority. I’ll be here to support you however you are. Glad you’re starting to feel like yourself again, you deserve to be happy. Wishing you the best ❤

So proud of you!! You seem a lot more happy and full of life compared to some previous videos. Thank you for all of these updates- I personally don’t struggle with addiction but learning about it through someone who’s experienced it is very eye opening.

Thank you for sharing your experience 💕 I’m 3.5 months sober from alcohol and have been dealing with trauma, so I definitely relate. Rooting for you!

congratulations taylor!! been here watching you for 6 years and i’m so proud of you

Man, this is so relatable! I've been clean from H for a couple of years and I went through the same emotional coma. I was constantly trying to explain that my brain was not producing any dopamine/serotonin. I just felt NOTHING. Recovery is amazing, but it's also incredibly hard. Its so refreshing that someone is open about the hard parts of recovery too, because it's not all rainbows and butterflies. I'm so proud of you and just know there are so many people rooting for you, Taylor. You are not alone. You are beautiful and deserve an amazing life! 🖤

It's like i'm hearing my own thoughts out loud, minus the one year sober part. You truly grabbed my attention and made me put down what I was doing. Thank you for sharing this video, I really needed to hear this. Sending lots of love your way ☺

Congratulations Taylor!! ❤️ recovery is a full time job, so excited for you to continue to feel 10 times better with each year that passes 😊

Congratulations on 1 year of sobriety! That is so incredible, I totally relate to your story. The abusive relationship, codependency, addiction, the loss of time and “youth”, etc. the first time you posted about being an addict, I was pretty early on in my sobriety. Also an opiate addict 🙋🏼‍♀️ I’m now 4 years 7 months sober, the first year was the hardest. And the relapses before that, I just wasn’t ready until one day I was. Wishing you the best of luck, remember recovery is not linear and different for everyone. Be so proud of the work you’ve done already!!!

Seeing your videos on my feed is one of my favorite things, I love that you’re working on yourself 💕 Coming out of that may make you feel like a blank canvas, but blank canvases can be painted. With how predatory rehabs can be I’m surprised and impressed that you’ve made it to a year 🥰 be proud of yourself, Taylor, we’re so proud!

I first started watching you way back in middle school and i fell in love with your animals and your passion. i just graduated high school and i just want to say: i’m proud. i’m genuinely so proud. i am just becoming an adult and i don’t know much about anything or even if it matters that some kid cares but gosh i never have felt more ecstatic for someone. you changed my life as a kid and now I am so happy for you, Taylor!!!

I just want to say, thank you so much for sharing your journey. It's okay to praise yourself, you deserve it so much 🙁🫶 this is HUGE!! LOVE YOU BAE

Congratulations, Taylor. You've come so far and worked so hard. Thank you for the update, and I truly wish you even more peace and success moving forwards in your sobriety ❤❤

I’m saving to watch this video later when I have the time but I had to just comment even before I have the chance to watch. I personally am so friggin proud of you dude, I’ve been watching you for yearrrrrrssss, since I was a young teenager. I never doubted you for a second but I know how hard this battle is, my mother is fighting it my whole life. You really did that girl, and I’m so grateful you are in the position to share some of your story with us. Thank you 🫶🏻💘 keep going.

i’m literally so happy to see this, your cute little animal videos got me through some really rough times and it was so hard hearing about your trauma and struggles to recover. i’m so proud of you and wish nothing but the best moving forward 🫶

Congratulations Taylor. One year is a huge milestone. You look great. Don’t worry about your strange and unpleasant feelings. We all have them of some form. Comes with being sober and fully alive. You seem to be doing everything right so keep up what you are doing. I recommend adding mindfulness meditation to your self-help routine if you haven’t already. It has helped me a lot. Also I think Acceptance and Commitment Therapy is awesome. Best of luck to you. Wishing you another healthy sober year, and many more.

You genuinely seem like a different person! So self aware and like you’ve gained so much clarity. I’m so happy for you. Excited for you to keep finding yourself and what you love and what makes you light up! 🤍

So proud of you! I will have one year sober July 16th! I am struggling as well with who I am and you worded it perfectly. I couldn't explain to ppl how I felt and hearing you talk about being emotionally stunted is exactly what I have been trying to explain! You are doing amazing sweetie! Thank you for speaking about your struggles and triumphs abt addiction. It helps not only you but it helps others as well!

I'm dealing with trauma from my teen/ early 20s at 27 and I think a lot of us feel how you feel. Trauma does crazy things to our growth and development. I know substance use adds another layer but wanted to normalize your emotions some ❤ you're doing great and I'm so happy you shared with us

So proud of you. You are such a beautiful soul. Thank you, so much for sharing this with us. I’m also 26 and your story and the things you are struggling with are some of the exact things i’ve thought/experienced in my first year of sobriety, still taking it minute by minute. i literally go back and watch this video all the time when i feel like im alone or nobody understands. I can tell you’ve grown so much, thank you for being you ❤❤❤

I used to watch you when I was younger!! I’m a teenager now and I just want to say that I am so proud of you!! You are so strong and thank you for sharing this with us! This could save someone, thank you for being so brave 💞

It’s hard not to be proud of you! Sobriety is no small feat no matter if it’s a week or a whole year. I’m really glad to see you thriving and getting better. Keep it up and know that it’s ok that progress isn’t linear. ❤

I've been watching your videos for years, since i was younger. I'm so proud of you and i'm glad you are feeling better.

I’ve been watching you for a long time, and watching you recover and be open to sharing your feelings with us has been one of the most inspiring stories that I can truly say I am touched by. I will think of you in hard times. Thank you.

Good work! I’m also 1 year clean off of opiates. You took the words out of my mouth. I felt like a zombie for years and didn’t notice how bad it was till I was outside looking in. So proud of you!! And can’t wait for more videos from you!!!!

I started using to cope with trauma when I was 17 and was finally able to confront it around 19-20. I say around 19-20, because it's hard to remember time passing when you're in that bubble you talked about. It took me so long to "become" myself again; I'd say the first year I remember being me was when I was 22, and the first time I felt my age was at 25. I'm so happy you're finding joy in the things you love again, and congratulations on one year!

CONGRATS TAYLOR!!! As someone who has watching your channel for years now, it is so nice to see how far you have come❤you are amazing !!

I’ve never seen your content before, but I just want to say I am SO proud of you. Recovery from anything is so insanely hard at times, and it feels impossible some days while it feels the opposite others. You’re doing your best and that’s all anyone could ever ask, and you deserve all the praise and encouragement. Sending you all of the vibes and good energy for your recovery journey, friend! ❤️

Congratulations Taylor. We love you 💕

Watching this, I just realized how hard of a depressive slump I've been in for the past 6+ months. I've never used anything stronger than a very rare alcoholic drink, but hearing you talk about how it was hard to find joy in the things you used to and like you've been in this fog hit really close to home for me. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through...

@jessn.2665

11 ай бұрын

Dude same. Minus the suboxone, and the drug use, Im emotionally stunted from being so depressed. I’m finally on a good med, and I feel like somewhat of a person for the first time in 4 years. I don’t have interest in things I used to anymore, but I hope it’ll come back. I’ve been through a lot of trauma and haven’t dated anyone in 5 years because of it. I feel like a kid in an aging body and I’m 28

@charlottecobain6986

11 ай бұрын

@@jessn.2665This is something not discussed enough in recovery, especially for people right out of acute withdrawal. The drugs wreck the brain’s pleasure reward mechanism and it leaves people in a terrible place mentally and physically. Suboxone is a helpful aid in recovery but I found that it was massively over-prescribed in terms of dosage, and I’m largely against the gatekeeping on most drugs that occurs in the US especially. Subs and methadone are also extremely long half-life drugs and thus can create a terrible addiction loop and doom people to a lifetime addiction while initially seeking recovery. I wish you so much luck and strength 💚💚💚

I'm recovery from my own trauma as well and I delt with it with other kinda of maladaptive behavior and addictions and it was honestly surprising and reassuring to hear how although our paths were very different we felt a lot of similar things. I know for me getting to a point where I can accept and manage getting into a relationship with a non-abusive and loving person has been incredibly healing and challenging after a long string of abusive relationships. I'm glad that you've found that as well and I'm so proud of you and everyone sharing their story of thriving to help others.

When I finally got sober from my alcoholism and drug use, at age 34, I felt angry over my lack of emotional growth mixed with the physical aging that had happened. I totally get what that feels like. I’m almost 7 yrs sober now and got my bachelors degree and bought a house by myself last year. It’s helped so much to get over that anger and focus on the present moment and future. One year in, just keep working on finding yourself and practicing one day at a time. The rest will come, i promise you that!! We are all rooting for you, Taylor!

I'm almost 11 months clean from fentanyl. You're such an inspiration, I feel so connected with you, I'm so happy for you. Congratulations! 💜💜💜

@mamamichellegist

11 ай бұрын

absolutely amazing. fentanyl is SO FUCKING HARD to get clean from!!! from one sober girly (11 months for me on july 4th) to another: i am SO PROUD of you. even more so considering your drug of choice.

@VeerleVos

11 ай бұрын

@@mamamichellegistcongrats!

@VeerleVos

11 ай бұрын

I’m so proud, you’re amazing!

I went through a lot of the same emotions after getting out of a 5 year (mentally, emotionally) abusive relationship. Took a couple years off (from dating) to just figure myself out, relearn my interests and do the best I could to work through my trauma. Now I’m in an insanely better relationship with someone who helps me work through every emotion I have when trauma pops it’s ugly little head up. I feel like a completely different person now, but I’m so so happy. I’m so glad you’re where you’re at, Taylor!! So proud of you!! It does keep getting better, just hang on and keep taking it day by day. Next thing you know, you look back and realize just how much growth has happened. ❤ wishing you all the best.

I’ve been watching your videos for the longest time. I’m also a recovering addict and it’s nice to see I’m not alone, also being stuck in the cycle. I was almost at one year, now I’m 2 weeks. But I’m going to keep moving forward. Congratulations on 1 year!!! I am so proud of you

You’re very brave to talk about this, I lost my cousin to this addiction she was 25! It’s very hard but I’m so proud of you and your growth!! Keep shining girl you deserve this

So proud of you girly. Disassociation or your fog (not saying they are the same) take a long time to break through, but you've beaten the worst already. We're all rooting for you. ❤

haven't even begun to watch but i just want to say i am beyond proud of you for being able to make this video 💖

I'm currently in recovery from an eating disorder and hearing you say that it was hard to finally have to face your trauma and feel your feelings 100% resonated with me. Any form of recovery from destructive coping mechanisms involves actually feeling your feelings and allowing yourself the space to figure out the reason you've avoided the trauma for so long. I'm so proud of you Taylor! Happy One year! and be kind to yourself

Let me just tell you, I am 4 minutes in and I am blown away by your self awareness and just overall emotional intelligence you possess. I 1000% identify with how you are feeling on your 1 year. It’s almost like you have to grieve all the time you wasted while using and for me it overshadowed the initial joy of getting sober … I am now at the 7 minute mark and you are hitting me even harder. I just hit 2 years June 12 so I am right here with you girl. I am proud of you. We got this ✊ ETA : Get off the suboxone as soon as you can. It is an amazing medicine when prescribed properly but also tapered off of properly. You have made great strides, and getting off the suboxone is the last tie to your old life. You got this girl!!

Taylor I’m so happy for you I have been following your channel for about 6 years now, and I have been praying for you. I hope that you can start making more animal videos and just know we all love you and are here. So glad you feel better ❤!

Taylor i’m so proud of you! i haven’t struggled with addiction but i’ve struggled with a few mental/health disorders and i totally understand the feeling of coming through the fog and finally being able to process trauma. i’m so proud of you for making this far. i believe in you and just know you are so powerful and can do anything you set your heart and mind to 💕 thank you for sharing your journey and including all of us. honestly knowing you’re not alone is the biggest thing

Congrats on your sobriety!! Such a huge milestone to be proud of. Thank you for sharing your story and being so real about your feelings and opening up ❤

IM SO PROUD OF YOU! I’ve been following you from the beginning, I went through addiction myself, thank you for sharing your story

I can’t get over how much I can relate to your story, an emotional coma is a great way to put it, I romanticized me being young & dating older men too & the identity crisis is real, the media does glamorize youth & drugs & dangerous activity like being in a position to be groomed on shows like Euphoria etc. I would love to have a conversation with you in private sometime bc there are so many similarities.