I was on heroin for about 6 years. When i got clean there was no way i couldve kept going if i had access to opiates. Now i can sit with a bottle of oxycodone on the window sill for my daughters surgery without even considering it. It gets easier Miss Taylor i promise.

@Gracelyn_16

2 жыл бұрын

Happy that you’re doing so good! That takes so much strength. Hope you have a great day :)

@kass_G59

2 жыл бұрын

So proud of you! ❤️

@jensimpson4372

2 жыл бұрын

Can you really do that? I’ve been clean since 2017, and I’m so greatful for the life I have now that it’s created this paralysing fear that one day I’m gonna have to go back to that life. Like people are gonna realise I’m just pretending I’m a good person and make me go back. I can’t imagine being able to sit in a room with OxyContin. I’m never gonna be able to do that. I hope you know how strong you are 🖤🖤

@Mjk10957

2 жыл бұрын

@@jensimpson4372 those opioid pain killers need banding they are bad. I very anti drug , however i hear weed is a good pain killer maybe doctors should prescribe weed instead of opioid pain killers at least it won't turn you into a addict.

@amandaford864

2 жыл бұрын

I'm at that same point. The beginning of recovery, no way but for the last 5 years I can totally be around opiates with 0 cravings/thoughts whatsoever. It definitely does get easier!

Girl don’t beat yourself over not being able to post, focus on healing, we’ll always be here for you! 💓

@JuanTorres-mg6sg

2 жыл бұрын

Yea

@radebombik1263

2 жыл бұрын

Nah we wont

@barrisonthethird4597

2 жыл бұрын

@@radebombik1263 shut up

@gacha_idiot_aoi8645

2 жыл бұрын

Yea

@12354rony

2 жыл бұрын

@@radebombik1263 Cya!🙋🏻‍♂️

I feel like this needs to be said: yes, we came for the animals, but we stay for you, Taylor. You are so magnetic and relatable to watch on your own, no need to apologize for not showing your pets.

@pinkayzt

2 жыл бұрын

yess

@deirdretiller3636

2 жыл бұрын

👏👏👏👏 yasssss. This is exactly how I think her true fans feel

@radfox7886

2 жыл бұрын

This! I was watching with my parter and we both said "We are here for YOU" we love love love the animals, but she should never feel the need to apologize for not having them in the video, even on her main page. At this point, we would be here with or without the pets.

@MsTinkerbelle87

2 жыл бұрын

Why though…she’s an idiot??

@hotrodk1030

2 жыл бұрын

@@MsTinkerbelle87 tell me how??

There isn’t anyone talking about addiction in this way on KZread. As a former addict I think what you have to say is so important and you should be so proud of yourself! One day at a time!!

@ntsst3

2 жыл бұрын

"Former addict"

@stephaniekeene6443

2 жыл бұрын

@@ntsst3 I am not in active addiction. Recovery addict. Whatever you’re most comfortable with. not sure what your point was there buddy lol

@MrHobie728

2 жыл бұрын

There really isn't most people try and hide it or act like it never happened. I'm a recovering addict as well and it helps to talk about it. For me anyways.

@user-ck9lm6xi1o

2 жыл бұрын

ntsst3 Wtf dude, is this how you'd reply to your sister or brother if they told you they overcame addiction? Fuck off.

So glad to see you! Sending you love n positivity 💚💚💚

@leahalford9432

2 жыл бұрын

Omg love your vids! I’d love to see the topic of re earning loved ones trust after addiction ruined and trying to get it back after getting sober ♥️

@Ali-tn9yb

2 жыл бұрын

OKAY, love when two of my fav content creators support one another 😍

@jkell2888

2 жыл бұрын

YESSSS OMG WE LOVE TO SEE U SUPPORTING OTHER KZreadRS!!!

@bettedaviseyes6613

2 жыл бұрын

❤❤❤❤

@KristineS73

2 жыл бұрын

It is great to see her and you sending your love is amazing!❤❤

Girl look at how far you’ve come…Saying no to a morphine drip, putting your health before youtube, fighting off all these side effects of addiction…So proud of you. Glad you’re still here and fighting. You got this. Take all the time you need for your body to heal 💜

Taylor, it happens. I was there too. At one point "living" meant playing Playstation 20 hours a day and never showering. It took escaping a cult and running away from everything to recover. Hang in there, much love.

I OD'd about 3 months ago from fent, I'm so proud of you for posting this Taylor, thank you for making me feel less alone in recovery

@itzjess88

2 жыл бұрын

I've been clean from my fentanyl addiction for 9 months now. I never overdosed thankfully but my bestfriwnd died on my couch. Dont go back baby. It only leads to 2 things and neither are good. Good luck!

@SK-jp2ok

2 жыл бұрын

Wishing you complete healing ❤️‍🩹

@parisz

2 жыл бұрын

You got this babe! ❤️

@mallorytaylor6203

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so happy you survived your overdose and are recovering! Take your time. Focus on small goals daily such as making your bed, showering, doing something that brings you joy such as eating a good meal, taking a walk, breathing fresh air and sitting in sunlight for 15 mins a day (5 deep breaths of fresh air daily are said to extend your life expectancy), etc. These small goals may seem unimportant but they’re crucial bc as an addict we know how difficult it is to get stuff done most days bc your time, energy, etc. revolves around drugs and their use. Achieving small goals makes achieving the bigger ones that much more likely! Drugs zap all of our joy so it’s crucial to reprogram your brain to recognize and enjoy the little things that once brought us immense pleasure. I have all the faith in you beautiful! I have 60 days clean from fent also and it does get easier as time goes on. I appreciate life in its most stripped down version nowadays. My worst day sober TRUMPS my best day high times infinity!! Keep fighting and keep praying! Sending you endless prayers and hugs ❤️❤️

@mallorytaylor6203

2 жыл бұрын

@@itzjess88 Sooo proud of you beautiful! I have 60 days myself and it feels incredible!! Everyday’s a blessing 💕

Never apologise for taking time to care for yourself It's okay to take time off even during your comeback 💚💚💚 your health comes first. Don’t stress over posting ❤️

@Peach_VOxo

2 жыл бұрын

Love your username haha

@pinkayzt

2 жыл бұрын

frrr

@joelreji2117

2 жыл бұрын

agree

Girl, don't be sorry, please. You need to do what's best for your health. I'm grateful you've chosen to share this vulnerable side of yourself with us so we can cheer you on as you overcome your addiction and your infections. You don't NEED to do that, TBH. I'm glad to hear from you. :)

I just lost a coworker to this addiction and immediately thought about you and wanted to check up. I am INCREDIBLY proud of you for being so strong. Telling the nurse no when she offered morphine, that was POWERFUL, you are such an inspiration to all those overcoming addiction. Keep up that tenacity, keep up that hard work because I truly believe that you are more than your past and you are kicking this addiction’s booty. No chemical is worth your family, friends and pets. We love you ❤️❤️

My mother passed from a heroin addiction 4 years ago and she have driving me to pursue a career in psych and addiction recovery. I'm so happy to hear that your doing well (kinda lol). Seeing people who can over come and recover reminds me everyday that people always deserve another chance. Thank you

@coweenuhm9662

2 жыл бұрын

So sorry to hear of your loss. Hopefully you are able to give others the tools to allow them to grow and flourish in life. Sending good vibes and hugs!

@BiggieCheesebabby

2 жыл бұрын

Hope u don’t mind me asking, but what the hell is heroin I heard of other drugs, but I still don’t know what heroin is.

@bazzbruh

2 жыл бұрын

I’m really sorry to hear that

@JinxMarie1985

2 жыл бұрын

I'm so so sorry for your loss. May she rest peacefully.

Taylor! please don't push yourself to upload consistently, it'll come with time! I believe in you

@travisbounds4746

2 жыл бұрын

and you're not even curious about the animals

@outroego9732

2 жыл бұрын

@UCHF8wqUCb_w_07yXlTRGfcw no cause it’s not our business right now, get your entitled ass outta here if that’s all you’re here for. Completely disregarded what she’s been through just so you could complain like the asshole you are.

@natalier4053

2 жыл бұрын

@@outroego9732 It’s not entitlement to expect content related to the poster lmao she is famous for her animals- that’s not wrong to want

@etherealaxolotl5450

2 жыл бұрын

@@travisbounds4746 I didn't follow her just for the animals, like yea they're awesome and I love seeing them but I'm also here because I enjoy seeing her too

@jasonconnor9103

2 жыл бұрын

@@natalier4053 it is wrong to want it nothing that she is sick and needs to focus on herself .

I honestly wish my mom would sit down and watch this video. Listening to your experience reminds me of her, but no matter how much I try to support her she refuses to even try to quit. I’m afraid to lose her, I just don’t know if she will ever open her eyes. I’m really happy that you were able to be strong enough to fight through this 💛

@nataliabirchall9093

2 жыл бұрын

Ohh that’s hart braking I’m sorry! 💔

@taylorndean

2 жыл бұрын

i'm so sorry :( i believe it's an equally heartbreaking experience to be a loved one of an addict compared to being the addict yourself. It's so painful having to watch someone you love and only want the best for continuously choose the worst for them and on top of that, deny you of the love and support you deserve to have from that person, since they're too consumed in their illness to play a positive role in your life. Sadly sometimes people can't get it together for a long time, and when that happens you deserve to distance yourself for your own health- it's not selfish to have to let go and just hope the addict figures it out. Often times that's truly the only healthy option for you, but that doesn't make it any easier. getting that help can be so hard for someone who can't find that voice in them to reach out and ask for it. There was plenty of times where I dreamed of getting my life back, but refused to tell anyone, because my brain kept telling me that the second I ask for help I wont be able to use again, and it held me hostage like that (even though logically, none of it made any sense. my sickness at the time was so woven into my self worth and the way i viewed myself, i couldn't figure out how to detach from it so I could affectively ask for the help I knew deep down I wanted). I had to get beat down so many countless times again and again and again by addiction for me to finally find a way to put the substance down and get help again. If you ever feel alone, you should check out al-anon if you haven't yet. it's not AA- it's a group specifically for the loved one's of addicts. Its a support group that helps YOU with your pain and gives you the support you deserve to be receiving. every group is run by someone different, so if one doesn't fit your lifestyle, another group may be much better. I wish you, your family, and your mom nothing but the best. Don't give up on finding peace and healing for yourself

@addy._.666

2 жыл бұрын

@@taylorndean I will definitely look into al-anon, I didn’t know groups like that existed when it came to addiction. Thank you so much💛

@kiona1816

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry. Unfortunately, with addiction the person dealing with it has to want to quit in order to stay sober. My dad was an alcoholic through all of my life and even before I was born. I then became an alcoholic around age 20 (I’m 24 now) and so did my mom. We all were codependent on each other, but I decided to quit September of last year because I hit rock bottom and was sick and tired of being sick all the time from the amount I was drinking daily. by me leading an example my parents decided to quit too. He has only relapsed once (when our dog died) and I have a few times. My mom hasn’t at all. There is hope, although sometimes it takes that person getting to rock bottom for them to genuinely never want to use anymore. I never thought I’d see the day he’d get sober and actually want it. He had been to rehabs, jail, almost died from health complications and even had sober times in the past but not for very long but it just didn’t click because he didn’t want to quit. I pray that your mom will be willing to get sober soon. I know it’s super difficult feeling like you’re talking to a brick wall when you’re begging them to stop. After anything bad happened because of his drinking, my dad would always promise he’d quit but it never lasted. I had a grudge against my dad for years because of how he affected my childhood, but after experiencing addiction myself I understood and I finally forgave him and our relationship is so much better. All I can think is just try and be a positive influence and whatever you do don’t enable her. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, it’s so tough.

@bluediamond1414

2 жыл бұрын

@@taylorndean you have no idea how much I needed to hear this ❤ Edit : @_underground_queen_ I feel you, your not alone. I'm going through this with my partner and it can be so isolating... reach out like you are doing now... people will be there to reach back

I totally know where your coming from. My rock bottom was when I ended up in the hospital with DVT (deep vein thrombosis) and SEPTIC pulmonary embolism. So how does one get that? Well I'll tell ya! So i was injecting so much that I lost all of my surface veins in my arms, and the only other places I knew where to inject was either in my neck (which terrified me and I couldn't do it on my own) or my femoral vein. So I choose the fem. I had a close friend who inherited $350,000 from his mother passing away and he always had a SHIT ton of coke and heroin on him at all times. I got so bad to where I was literally shooting up once every 30-60 min A DAY. well one day I was having a hard time finding my vein cuz my needles were incredibly dull and I thought I got it but I completely missed. So when that happened my body didn't absorb it, what it did was clot up and grew an abscess which was basically intertwined with the clot. So I had an infected clot in my groin and the infected clot moved into my lungs. I was in EXCRUCIATING pain it felt like with each shallow breath I took like someone was jabbing a hot knife into my back and twisted it. I had to take a super super small breath in-between every other word. And it felt like I had a tennis ball in my groin where I missed the Injection (it was both coke and heroin) I thought oh my body will heal itself but I could barely walk or breath and what caused me to FINALLY go to the hospital was when my entire leg turned purple. And I was so sick that I had a heart murmur and they thought originally i had endocarditis (an infection in the heart) luckily it wasn't that. But I did have to be on the telemetry floor because of how bad my murmur was. I was in the hospital for 15 days and on IV antibiotics for 30 days and on blood thinners for about 6-9 months. When they were able to figure out what was wrong with me, and the gravity of the situation actually hit me and it hit me like a freight train. I told my Drs and nurses I'm tapping out I need to go to inpatient treatment. The staff was fantastic towards me I never felt judged for being an addict they treated me like another patient and once I told them I wanted to go to treatment as soon as I got out of the hospital they pulled out every resource they could find. I am also on O.R.T (opiate replacement therapy) and when I tell you it saved my life....it saved my life and they didn't judge me for that either Also I had no where to go when I got out of the hospital and I couldn't get right into treatment they sent me to a place called respite (rest-pit, is how it's pronounced) but it's a medical facility where homeless people go to finish their out patient treatments, like if you have to be on IV antibiotics for a long period of time but don't need to stay in the hospital they would send you home with all the equipment you would need. But since I didn't have a home I went to that facility and I was able to stay there until a bed opened up for me at inpatient. That was back in 2015, and I have been clean ever since. And I escaped death and I take that very seriously because I know if I relapse I'll never come back from it. You got this girl!! I'm so glad your clean and that your back on KZread!!!

@koolkat7617

2 жыл бұрын

wow , that’s one story to tell! I cant believe you were able to get through that , you must be very strong physically and mentally! 😊

@jocelynnmorales478

2 жыл бұрын

Congratulations I’m proud of you!!

@jscho8674

2 жыл бұрын

Wow. You must be strong as hell! I am amazed you beat that terrible illness and your addiction. I am in awe of you girl!!! Keep telling your story!

@tiffany2806

2 жыл бұрын

We lost my Dad to that in January of 2020. We had to make the decision to take him off life support.. Well my sister did. He shot up in his arm. This from a man that has 2 complete open heart bypass surgeries and survived and we lost himn from deep vein thrombosis for over shooting an arm vein. I'm so so glad you stopped. You have no idea how bad me, my sister and his mom hurt. 😓

@its.2.preppy

2 жыл бұрын

You're so strong Pull through I hope you're doing much much much better now Have a good day and a good week

You randomly showed up on my discovery page like a couple of years ago, when you made your first video about your addiction - and ever since (although I wasn't a follower before) I have been checking up on you like every couple of months. You are so strong, thank you for sharing this journey with people so we get to understand more of what it's actually like to go through addiction. You are a badass.

PLEASE don’t apologize for slow uploading. We are here to support you!

@oldi184

2 жыл бұрын

You support a junkie? Her fate has already fallen to Hades. 😥

@salemshuck7672

2 жыл бұрын

@@oldi184 she isn’t a junkie she is a recovering addict which is really hard if you knew how it felt you would understand

@astrid9434

2 жыл бұрын

@@oldi184 that was so rude to say you’re going to hades

@oldi184

2 жыл бұрын

@@astrid9434 I was telling the truth. She and I both will go there.

@belmum1689

2 жыл бұрын

@@oldi184 Are you a junkie?

You are fighting so hard to reclaim yourself, and to say "No" at the hospital is huge. We love you xx

Glad you are doing better!

im sixteen years old and i overdosed 4 times in june from meth, addiction is hard but taylor i am so proud of you for getting this far.

IM SO GLAD UR BACK ur so strong and I believe in u 100%

@aaliyahpence8512

2 жыл бұрын

@ Chicken nugget Not trying to be rude or anything but close yo mouth!

@kristengrimm7340

2 жыл бұрын

@@PaintNYBlu I hope you get the knowledge and information you need know to understand addiction. Other than that, people like you is what a person in recovery DOESN'T need to be around. To have someone put someone down is definitely not going to help anyone. 🙃

@katherineleigh.

2 жыл бұрын

@@PaintNYBlu you must’ve had someone really hurt you in life due to addiction. And i’m so sorry. but please don’t push your harmful beliefs onto other people. She is doing her best that is all we can ask for

I'm 6 years clean, it is different for everyone. I think about you often and I'm glad to see you looking so healthy. Don't rush anything 💖

Keep fighting for your recovery and health! God bless you!😊

You may have saved my life sharing your health struggles ~ made me aware that I need to better things dramatically for my well being&healing and stop downplaying and being afraid to go to the doctor.

as an addict myself , I’m so happy just to see your face ! It doesn’t matter how long it takes for you to come back, or if you ever come back. I just want you to be happy and healthy, whatever that looks like for you, is absolutely fine with me. I love you so much and will ALWAYS be here regardless of any time you take ! Take care of yourself ! That’s all that matters !

@jimskinner8243

2 жыл бұрын

Taylor I understand what you're going through I want you to know that you have the strength to beat your addiction I myself am bipolar and I'm on many medications and there are days when I function well chinwell and then there are days why don't function well it's a constant battle but I know It's something I'm going to have to live with fortunately being a Christian I do believe in God and I know he has a plan for me

@ryanm7249

2 жыл бұрын

Best of luck in your recovery journey.

I actually really like this format! It doesn't have to be perfect or long! Just you giving us a life update or perhaps telling us something that happened that was funny recently! I hope your health get better!

So glad to see you’re in a better place now❤️ praying for your smooth recovery and good help sending blessings your way, take all the time you need to heal and upload when you’re ready that’s the most important thing🙏🏾

I used to watch you when I was 17 or 18, and recently discovered your channel again at 23, almost 24. I didn’t have a KZread account back then. I am so glad to find you again and after being updated on your situation, I have even more respect for you for going through this and healing, as well as talking about your struggle. You have the spark inside yourself to make a better version of yourself. We are all here for you, even people like me that have just come back. Thank you for being you, take all the time you need to heal. We will all be here, even me 😉☺️

*Long time subscriber here.* It hurts my heart to see what you’ve gone through, but I truly believe that you’ll fully recover and go on to help others through your experiences. You’re an amazing woman with a huge heart. Just know that a ton of people feel the same as I do! *You’re a badass, Taylor! Just take one day at a time!* ❤️

@jgpuglisi

2 жыл бұрын

There is no such thing as fully recovering addiction. Once an addict, always an addict. You’re either a recovering addict or an relapsing addict, this isn’t a mental disease that can be cured and it will forever be a lifelong struggle

@veronicarenn4149

2 жыл бұрын

@@jgpuglisi Fully recover in terms of finding inner peace and resolution. Though addiction is something that has to be managed, I do believe that she’ll come out on the other side stronger than ever before. 😊 She’s a strong girl. Her progress today is not representative of the progress that has yet to come! I’m excited for her.

I’m so so so proud of you. Escaping addiction is hard enough, but having to deal with the after effects (health/guilt/regret) is also excruciating. You’re fighting one of the hardest battles in the world and you’re doing fucking amazing.

@chrissy3875

2 жыл бұрын

!

The way you talk about your addiction and your vulnerability is so genuine and honestly beautiful. I admire you and all that you’ve been through

I am so happy you put this out there for everyone struggling with any kind of addiction. You’re one of my favorite KZreadrs and I love your passion for animals. You got this girl and I send my love and positivity ❤️

My husband relapsed last night. I'm in a really dark place right now. That's it. I wanted to say something really smart and uplifting but this is all I can think about right now.

@graphite2786

2 жыл бұрын

Stay strong. My partner relapsed three days ago after 10 days of detoxxing. Hoping it won't continue , just a one off. We just have to stay strong. And if we have to make a hard decision, so be it.

@mangamama9881

2 жыл бұрын

Please stay strong! 🍀 for both of you

@beafbuger

2 жыл бұрын

im gonna be thinking about you today❤ take care of yourself please🥺

@xdandychiggins

2 жыл бұрын

i’m so sorry. i don’t even know what to say to something like this.

@lizzi7128

2 жыл бұрын

My husband relapsed at Christmas. He has outstanding warrants and I see he is in pain. He tells me he is pain. That he's sorry, he's sad. That he's weak. Too weak to hand himself in. That a life without drugs terrifies him. I know I need to make the call... Save him from hinself, yet I feel so guilty. He says he's handing himself in on Monday but I've heard it before. I want to believe him. God give me strength

As someone that’s been here from the beginning, and as hard as this topic is, you seem more comfortable in front of the camera more so than you have been in your recent uploads. Keep fighting. Keep pushing.

I just wanted to say that I’m genuinely proud of you! I’ve been where you are with addiction, chronic health issues, and mental health. It’s not easy AT ALL but eventually it DOES get easier and life gets better. I believe in you and I’m pretty sure a lot of others who watch you do too 💜

Can't imagine how scary that experience at the hospital could have been for you, and I'm really proud of you for everything you're doing to help yourself feel better.

I really don’t understand how people’s view of addiction is so warped. How could anyone think it’s a legitimate choice

@r3allyr3agan

2 жыл бұрын

Because of misinformation unfortunately:(

@suomynona8416

2 жыл бұрын

Its not and it is at the same time, esprcialy with heroin if u choose to inject it. U have pretty much signed ur addiction at that moment, nothing will reach that level in a natural way in therms of happiness when u have a bad day u will get reminded of it again

@suomynona8416

2 жыл бұрын

U cant compare it to alcohol where only a few get addicted heroin is hooking everyone thats why it is the deadliest

@harpergrace5846

2 жыл бұрын

I don’t understand that either

@rachelkmeck

2 жыл бұрын

It’s hard if your affected, like if your parents were addicts and didn’t take care of their kids and then you become a parent and can’t comprehend how your parents not “chose” drugs over them but just didn’t win addiction or make efforts. Or if someone is doing drugs and having consequences but they aren’t enough. I know someone who’s 2 year old got into their drugs has developmental delays and they got more drugs that night when their child was very very ill. Lost kid. Got back still using drugs. Their child has no toys runs into streets has gotten returned by police when running out doors and down street because parent is using. It’s hard to accept someone behaviour when it seems like they have no limit or no other needs like their child safety over drugs. But yes also understand what your saying where it is a cycle of shame and guilt and emotionally suppressing. Alot of people say pedophilia is an addiction as well and that people are just sick and need help but if someone touched my kid, sympathy doesn’t come to mind. People have a responsibility to treat their trauma no matter what issues and problems they are facing before hurting others but when you don’t have the resources tools or coping skills drugs “work”

Don’t feel sorry for not making content!!!!! And it’s not boring. You can wake up, talk 10 min in the camera and load this up and I would love to listen to you. You don’t have to make animal content when you’re not healthy at all. Recovery is the most important thing now. I wish you all the best for getting healthy 🥰

There will always be people there for you on the side line helping you not “run into traffic” you are never alone Taylor. So happy you’re doing well and almost three months sober that’s amazing!! Thank you as always for being so open. You’ve got this!!!

Thank you for being so transparent. You have no idea how much you are helping others, myself included 💜

I’m so proud of you! Addiction is not a choice, it’s a disease. Keep fighting I know it’s hard. I’m 11 years clean and sober and it DOES get better. I’m here, I’m watching. I’m here for both you and the animals and I’m not going anywhere.

I use to watch her when I was a kid and I loved her nothing has changed since

@MastuhP

2 жыл бұрын

She is a junk that is what changed

@jpd1592

2 жыл бұрын

@@MastuhP wtf that’s rude as hell

@boscoitalics

2 жыл бұрын

@@MastuhP do you not know what sober means? grow up

Also, we believe in you, you’ve got this!! You’re extremely strong for choosing to fight the addiction and go through the uphill struggle, we’re all here for you with the utmost love and support ❤️

I so proud of you! I've never been in your shoes. But I could imagine. The way you address and explain your situation is so deep and brave. You coming out, could save alot of lives. Make others realize they aren't alone. Speaking about true reality, I know your words has meaning to them. As you speak you are reliving your experiences. I can't wait for you to look back on this moment within months and even years from now. Realize in this very moment how far you have come.

Hi Taylor, where do I begin ive watched you since basically forever. One of my first vids was you buying servers turtles from the side of the road from a seller to save them. I’ve been on this journey with you basically since forever ( atleast for me ) and I’m a true fan of yours. Being open about your addiction and struggles with addiction is actually a relief for me. I’ve had a troubled life and often problems occur. I’ve struggled with alcohol consumption since I was 19, I’m 24 now, and I always assumed or thought I “ didn’t “ have a problem. Seeing you and hearing you be open and honest has made me come to terms with how I often abuse alcohol to deal with problems, not that our problems are the same ofc, but I can’t help but relate to you. I’m so proud of you and honestly and truthfully so amazed at your sobriety. You’re such a strong individual ! I want you to know that you being so open about your pain and your journey helps me not feel alone. Though I’m not alone physically, I feel alone most times mentally, I find myself counting the hours down to my shift to drink, I find myself waking up and thinking “ 8 hours till I get to come home and drink to wind down “ which says a lot. You inspire me. You beat the odds. I’ve had ( many ) sober streaks , personally, and I always fall back into the ( drinking daily ) trend in my life. But something about the openness in this video helped me realize “ I have a problem, and like Taylor I can overcome this with patience, time and understanding “ I have too been a victim ( idk if that’s the right play on words I’m sorry if it offends anyone ) of the “ pink cloud “ I just want to say thank you ! For validating my struggles with addiction. My struggles with life. But most importantly my struggles with myself. I feel honored that you could share your story, as should you. You’re helping so many people, even in the smallest of ways. Wether you believe it or not.

I’ll always watch you Taylor 💕 I’m just so happy to see you alive. Idc how long you take between videos, I’ll always watch it and support you. You can do this!

@kwcutie911

2 жыл бұрын

same. I'm not going anywhere.

im only 1 min into this video and before i watch i just want to remind you that we love you no matter what. we support you through this always. recovering addiction is not an easy task, be proud of the small thing these matter more than you might think x (edit) i want to give you a hug youre so strong

I’m so happy you are fighting and still here! I know you aren’t fully out of the woods yet but it’s quite a relief to see your mental space is so much better. I lost my favorite teacher from middle school who became a very close family friend in January to opioid addiction, I so wish he could have done what you did! He fought a long battle of addiction for 8 years and I will never forget all the many lessons he taught me

Taylor, I’ve been watching you for a few years and there is just something so special about you. I love listening to you talk whether it be about animals or addiction. Keep up the good fight girl ❤️

I literally shed a proud and happy tear. Your voice is so strong, Taylor. You are glowing and lovely, and we are so happy to hear about your progress 👏👏👏

Taylor, as much as I love your videos, your health is so much more important! Those of us who are truly with you will always patiently wait for your timing. Focus on healing and doing what brings you joy. ❤️

YOURE AN ANGEL TAYLOR plz stay strong girl.. you’re a light in this dark world!! Much love miss Taylor 😂👍🏼😅

I find this type of video a lot more interesting than animal videos. I've learned so much about addiction from you

From another heroin/opiate addict in recovery, I'm so proud of you!!! Please take care of yourself. That's what's most important!

You’ve got this. It takes time even without any other medical conditions. I’d say it took me 2.5 ish years before I started feeling like the person I remembered from before. Just from physically needing to heal. Everyone is different but all it takes is time and slowly but surely working towards the goal of feeling better. It feels amazing once you come out the other side and are like WOW I remember this feeling. Oh how I’ve missed it. Freedom. You’ve got this.

I’m over a year sober and you inspire me girl. Just graduated my clinic. I had so many health problems my first months sober too. I feel your pain. I’m glad your Keeping on going, you’re doing so well. Thank you and take your time girl we are all still here!! You’re a queen!💃🏼❤️

Taylor I’m so proud of you and your journey. You’re the strongest person I know, I love you girl 💜

@travisbounds4746

2 жыл бұрын

what about the animals

@greencat1314

2 жыл бұрын

@@travisbounds4746 what about them?

@travisbounds4746

2 жыл бұрын

@@greencat1314 well her getting right and well is one thing. if she shit the bed in regards to the animals its another.

@travisbounds4746

2 жыл бұрын

@@greencat1314 wheres the animals? Until I see a video about all the pets being safe. and even if i'm blocked i have the url shes going to need to attest to all the pets if they're dead fine. if they're alive better

@brearnastechman8429

2 жыл бұрын

@@travisbounds4746 This is a person's life. I would prefer her not have the animals anymore if it means she gets herself better. She will upload in her own damn time. You're being really selfish.

I’m so glad you’re uploading again! However, don’t feel rushed to upload, until you feel better. Your content about addiction is so important, it educates others and breaks down stigmas. The videos about your animals also brings a smile to my, and others’ faces! Keep doing you, and keep strong Taylor ❤️

Thank you for the update! I have been watching you forever but only on KZread. This is the only platform I see your updates on. Im so proud of you!! I have family who has been through this & it shows how strong you really are!!

So proud of you lady! 👏 thank you for being so open and honest it undoubtedly is helping someone else who is struggling ❤

Your makeup reflects your mood… look at the difference between today and June 3. So dark back then So happy to see you are in a different place😃😃

@hopeadler507

2 жыл бұрын

That’s not how make up works. This is such a man thing to say lol

@meowmeowkittymeow

2 жыл бұрын

@@hopeadler507 🤣🤣🤣

I'm so happy to see Taylor looking like herself again! I'm here for the animal content and the recovery content! You Go girl! 💚

we love you taylor

Take as long as u want to recover! we came here to support you, and help u throughout ur healing processes

As someone who’s dealt with chronic pain and sickness my whole life, I empathize with fight you’re going through. I constantly struggle with not blaming myself for not having a normal life. I hope you continue to heal and feel better, I’m sending healing vibes your way.

@christinegrillo914

2 жыл бұрын

Kristin i can relate to this comment so much❤ Thanks for the reminder to not feel guilty about what my current reality is

Honestly wonderful to see you again. Keep being kind to and looking after yourself. You come first always! It's also really wonderful as someone who also suffers from autoimmune conditions to see someone else speaking about them and the reality of it.

You are a big inspiration for me you have no idea! You don’t see very many people who are able to get sober and stay that way! Your amazingly strong to be able to publicly talk about your addiction

Girl take your time, seeing you get better is all I need, we support you and we will wait as long as you need 💚

We’re so proud of you!! I struggle with chronic illnesses and the most important thing is to listen to your body and to not overdo it! Love you!

It’s hard to understand and really appreciate just what our bodies do for us all the time that we don’t even realize. I hope you take all the resting time you need and don’t put yourself under any pressure. You’re doing the best you can and we understand 💕

Thanks for sharing your story with us. You are truly an inspiration 🖤 I celebrated 11 years last April and remember vividly what the first few months were like. I can't even imagine how it is with all your other medical conditions. I wish you the best with everything and appreciate all you do to spread awareness about addiction 🖤

I really hope this isn’t triggering…. I just wanted to say, without you I would have never realized all the things I went through as a child with a parent that had/has addiction to opiates- that I wasn’t alone. When you go through these things; Like with your ex; The strange behavior when they’re high, the constant lying, the manipulation where everything is twisted to be your fault, the frustration, The loneliness, the isolation- All of it- I thought it was just me. I grew up thinking these things were happening to me and only me. Thank you, THANK YOU for teaching me what addiction is and showing me that I was/am not alone It feels so freeing to know I’m not alone. It makes me so ecstatic to see how far you’ve come and that there is hope- no matter how challenging, realistic and raw- there is hope. Love you Taylor, you can do anything you set your soul and mind to.

ur intros lately have me rolling love you glad to see you taking care of yourself, much love from one recovering addict to another 🖤

I’m glad to see your notification pop up and see that you are still trying and I appreciate you for that and I admire your strength to talk to us about your problems and I hope you continue to do well I’ll always be here as a loyal subscriber 💕 👑

Don’t feel bad at all. Your mental health is more important than anything, we love you Tay!

As an addict and a person who has mental health issues I really appreciate this. I wasn’t familiar with your channel until I saw the video on Vice which brought me to your channel and I can say I became an instant fan and new subby. Although I know your channel was based around your animals I would love more videos and updates on your experience and progression... no pressure you’re just an inspiration for me as a person still struggling with these things. Much love and positivity to you!

It's really good to see you again, I'm going through a similar thing at the moment as I'm trying to get back into a normal routine after a breakdown last year and while I'm generally a lot better my own chronic illnesses make it so much more difficult. Thank you for uploading and I'm really proud of you for doing all the work that creating a KZread video takes❤️

Hey the fact that you’re dedicating your time to be healthy again that’s inspiring

I will always continue to see if you're fine! You're such a good person at heart and you will never be able to make some of us disappointed. You were thrown into a life you didn't choose and you have such a hard journey to get out of this nightmare and you're so strong ! Sending love and hugs

I also have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and POTS and dealing with those alone, I can barely get through my day. I can only imagine how hard all of this has been on you. Forever wishing you well ♥︎

@dalkhal

2 жыл бұрын

I’m sorry you go through this please keep fighting one day I promise it will get better

@pattylovett4682

2 жыл бұрын

I have EDS my Mom has both like you do and some others Its very difficult. My Mom cant even get out of bed

Hope you’re doing well. You’re looking a lot healthier! stay strong, this is the best choice you will ever make for yourself to get clean ✨ good luck to you

We’re here for you 🙏🏻 Don’t apologize for choosing you and the time you need to heal and get better. I’m rooting for you!!! ❤️💗

Heroin took a friend of mine.... awful awful addiction. Props to you for being strong enough to come back and being BRAVE enough to talk about the struggle. You's a badass 👊💙🇺🇸

The most important thing is recognizing when you’re mentally and physically able to continue KZread. We’ll still be here, take as much time as you need. I’m very excited for the rat video and to see the new enclosures 😊

Congratulations 🎉 on 3 months clean you got this! I’m 3 years clean and I understand everything thing you say. Please understand no matter what you have the power in you to fight this horrible daemon. Me and my daughter love your content and your sobriety is in our thoughts.

thank you for being brave and sharing your story with others. i truly appreciate you for bringing awareness to the cause and being real about it all. please take care of your mind and body girl

we’re all so proud of you Taylor 💓 it’s great seeing you on here again :) but focus on yourself & your health! your true supporters will love you regardless if you post once a month or once a year 🤍

Hey Taylor! lots of love to you, you are so strong

Anytime u post I click instantly, ily!

It’s important to take vitamin D3 (at least 1000 i.u daily) and magnesium (magnesium is best absorbed through the skin, so in spray form) high dose vitamin C, every few hours and all the other vitamins and minerals. You’re doing so well. Free yourself while you’re young, it’s so much easier than if you’re older. I have a lot of friends who gave up when they were were in their 20’s, whereas, I stupidly took methadone and just prolonged my using, decades later, I’m still trapped.

We are all with you for the long haul Taylor. Your recovery and health comes first. So proud of how far you have come in your journey x

Take as long as you need to come back to KZread full time, you have been through a lot and we understand that it's going to take some time 💖 take care of yourself, and I hope the rest of your day goes well 💖💖 just know that a lot of your supporters are here for you no matter what

Because of you and your story I was diagnosed with a specific form of EDS that effects my internal organs and the tendons. I just want to say a huge thank you to you talking about your story and addiction. Your so brave and by sharing your story you genuinely saved my live ❤️

@pattylovett4682

2 жыл бұрын

I do also. I have prolapses regularly. And i wake up and my hips and shoulders are out of socket. Its very painful

Been there chica don’t ever feel alone or less than or judged , I love that you’re open and honest about your addiction problems because I feel like so many people have the same problem but are so scared of the repercussions of being honest about it so I really love the way that you’re just you know letting it flow and being real not trying to put a spin on it you’re just being real and owning it and that’s awesome keep doing what you doing girly keep trying and and feel better take care of your body when you can you’re doing great 😉🖤 Your honesty and openness about that when you’re going through things makes me feel so much better about similar issues I’m going through in my life I honestly want you to know that I really love your video and I’m going to check out more of them🖤

This kind of honesty is so important. People need to see what addiction can do and that recovery is possible!

Really appreciate the update. We all know you're going through things that mean you can't be productive in the way you were or might wish to be. So don't worry about living up to some strangers on the Internet's expectations. In the end, none of us matter to any degree where you have to push yourself beyond your limits. We're thinking of you, and hope you're getting better, but we can't hold any demand over you or when you upload. All that you choose to give and share, is a gift. So don't apologize for taking care of yourself. That is what we all want. Take the time. Take all the time.

happy to see you back

No apologies necessary EVER. We are all so happy you are doing better. You are a blessing to youtube and yourself

Taylor! You don't need to apologize, just focus on getting better and whenever you're ready, then you're ready!! We're rooting for you

Aaaaaaye! Another upload! Taylor don’t feel like you HAVE to give yourself a deadline!!!!!! I can’t stress this enough, for real you should upload whenever you feel happy enough and healthy enough and we will soak up all that content ❤️❤️❤️❤️ We care about your health.