When I hear you talk about people who get to the "edge" of Awakening, but can't let go, I was one of them. For decades, I had one mind-blowing Awakening after another. Pure, perfect self-less clarity, then the terror would hit. I tried everything I could to let go, believe me. It wasn't until a couple of years ago when I met a teacher who explained this phenomanon very well. He calls it the "original trauma" and it's something that happens to all of us at a very young age, usually before speech, so it's an energetic belief, not a mental belief. The original trauma is that moment when you realized that who you are is not okay. That you must become someone else in order to SURVIVE in your tribe/family. This is the beginning of the sense of separation and it's based on the terror of not surviving. It was literally life or death, if you did not become someone else you would literally be cast out of the tribe and you would DIE. And since it's an energetic belief, it cannot be reasoned with, or figured out mentally, or let go of. It is an energetic belief of the nervous system, which is MILLIONS of years old and it's ONE AND ONLY mandate is to keep you alive. And if it feels threatened, it will not let go no matter what you want. It's only when you truly, energetically know (remember) yourself to be that infinite awareness that never dies, can you embrace that terror with the unconditional love that dissolves it. That's what ends the "imaginary" separation of ourselves from ourselves. And the best wat I've found to release the repressed energy is EFT Tapping because it communicates directly to the energy/nervous system that "I am safe" so the body/energy system can let go.

@orangoetan2967

2 ай бұрын

Thank you for writing this down. I remember having an awakening experience when I was 24. The inquiry brought me to the edge and I went for the plunge. For a moment, it felt like total release, my body was light as a feather. Before I knew it, an intense wave of fear rushed through and I grasped at a thought trying to rationally understand my experience - as soon as I grasped, my body felt like a ton of bricks again. (I never realised how literally heavy my identity was.) At the time I didn't understand what had happened but over the years, I educated myself more on trauma and how it is stored in the body. I hope that next time the opportunity arises, the brain and body will remember that it is okay to let go. And I hope I can stay with the energetics of the fears rather than getting swept up in them again. What a ride! Scary at times, but sure worth the exploration.

Always knew I'd meet a guru shrouded in a garment made of stars. Never expected it to be a hoodie :0)

@meditationamsterdam

Жыл бұрын

@String Vest Yes!

Thanks. All the emoticons. ❤

I was experiencing some unexpected waves of sadness today, like some trapped hurt was being released. I wondered how it would feel if all of the turmoil I had been through was some kind of joke and everyone was patting me on the back for sticking through it so long, and what a relief that would be, and I just started sobbing from the release. It felt like for the first time I had made some tangible emotional progress.

@Schneebs

Жыл бұрын

I also felt like if that possibility of relief already exists within me, then shouldn't it be possible to just bring it forth without the condition being met? Like it's possible to cheat or something?? I don't know 😂

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

Glad to hear it :)

@Schneebs

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for all the interaction on my comment 😊 I don't know if emotions go away or not but I would imagine at the very least the thought reels associated with them do, or they quite down tremendously to the point you can't identify with them anymore. But that's just my guess.

@Schneebs

Жыл бұрын

@@nat998 I totally agree

@nat998

Жыл бұрын

@String Vest That they do! Emotions feel heavy, and stuck. If I may elaborate a bit on how it feels to me... I have been experiencing grief, without an obvious cause of bereavement, lately (a few months)... and yet, there are triggers which I can identify as being the sensitive point for evoking this emotion, which feels dormant, and old. So, I know the trigger is setting off this grief response... even if I don't understand why it's happening. I find that emotions for me are linked to painful sensations in my body, and this is weird but I'll say it anyway... It's literally affecting my heart. As in, my rhythm and pain in this area. What helps is releasing this psychosomatic pain, and there is a dissipation I notice in the physical sensation, as well as the panic I feel when I experience this. I don't even know if it is grief, but it feels the closest to that emotion for some reason. I'm still educating myself on emotions and what exactly it is. I just feel pain, and I don't really know why it seems interlinked with a correlative emotional component. I'm feeling my feelings a lot more freely these days. 😀

I have been on this journey to end suffering for the last 5 years. The whole time, there has been constant growth, emotion work, and a gradual pull towards non-dual teachings. I can't just point to one of your videos, Angelo. But the accumulated effect of listening to countless videos, the online retreat, etc. the last 6 months or so has been extraordinary. Identification with thoughts unbinding, beliefs unbinding, identity itself unbinding, increasing peace and freedom. I am grateful that I found you and your channel! I had a good laugh recently. I was anticipating this spiritual big bang. I was waiting for this incredible, undeniable experience for so long. This transcendent thing that would change everything. But now I realize that something bigger than myself has been driving this whole thing and it continues to do so. And it is unstoppable. It doesn't matter if I meditate or not. It doesn't matter what I do, it continues. And, it has changed everything. Just not in the way I expected. My relationships are better. I am more loving and caring, etc. And there are things in my life that would have broken me 10 years ago that are barely a blip to me now. I marvel at my calm responses as life unfolds. There are still plenty of patterns to unwind, but they don't feel as personal. They just are. So, have I been through Kensho? Am I in deep stage realization? Who knows? And for the first time, I don't feel any need to chart it or figure it out. No need to get out the checklist to see if I am Kensho certified, lol. I just know that something beautiful is unfolding and I am enjoying the ride.

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

Awesome, thanks for sharing :)

Hearing it took the buddha and Ramana a few years of sitting to integrate it all, I start to wonder.. instead of just trusting the process and taking the plunge (which I have been leaning to despite upcoming fears), should I have a contingency plan in place? Like.. let my boss know I might not be in for a few... years? 😅 Guess it all worked out well for Ramana and Buddha. Continuing to trust this ever unfolding mystery. Wishing you all a nice day/evening/night wherever you are on this marvelous planet. 🤍

I feel like I’ve walked through a door that I can’t ever go back through.

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

The gateless gate is a one way gate

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

This one is powerful.

How lovely your Heart Sutra recitation 😍😍😍

Trust.🌹

Thank you Angelo as always. I’m listening 🙏🏼💖🙏🏼

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

You are so welcome

Thx Angelo for sharing this! ❤

Powerful stuff, even through KZread.

It feels like you are channeling consciousness of all that exists.

This retreat is a treasure.💎

Such a good one ❤

great thanks for sharing this!

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

You’re very welcome

@bouke7525

Жыл бұрын

@@breillard it would appear that there really isn't anything more real than pain. As in, it's the most "real" experience one can have. Been there.

I had a dream that you and I went for a walk and I told you that I was struggling with "cycles". Maybe a video topic? Took me by surprise as that word hasn't surfaced consciously recently. I know it runs deep though. The cycle of realization and separation. Remembering and forgetting. Birth and death. Identities, routines, mistakes, habits. I first consciously started this process in reaction to a drug experience many years ago (I went a long time not understanding how to investigate what I experienced). There were many obvious themes to the experience: dissolution of self, death, rebirth, fear, resistance, seeing through thoughts. What also was clear, was that I was horrified at the idea of things repeating. For some reason, rebirth meant that all of existence/time had to repeat exactly as it had before and I REALLY didn't want that to happen, but I also understood that I had no choice. Sorry for rambling... there's certainly something subtle here between the obvious reality that things are always changing, but that clearly there's some deep fear that they will repeat

Going through so much… a lot of mental pain, anguish, frustration, sadness, the other nightI let go completely of all expectations, my mind obviously didn’t like that, so a big back lash.. letting go of my partner and all my expectations of wishing, he would be generous, buy me flowers, suggest going on holiday, but have been wishing for this, begging, pleading asking for 13 years.. so a a general giving up and fatigue etc, my children are ignoring me, wishing for silence and an end to my searching and anguish, my partner is very confused.. well so am I. The fear of not getting what my ego wishes for is a very fearful thought… no control yikes… all sorts going on… today ACIM, was rest in God.. so I just stopped and rested, a lot of crying came up, but peacefulness too… boy this is hard…

@nat998

Жыл бұрын

Hello Susan 🤗, I feel you, really I do. I think it's so sad when relationships break down, or fall apart. There is something so sad about drifting away from the people we love the most. Sometimes, the best thing to do (but not the easiest) is to communicate very clearly what exactly the problem is - and what specifically your partner can do to make you feel loved. Is he not a romantic, or spontaneous fella? A lot of men aren't. But, it's good to do something (not grand, just a small gesture) to make your partner feel appreciated, and loved. Maybe he has his own reasons why he's not meeting you halfway in this regard? Maybe, he expresses love and appreciation for you in other ways? I think honest, open communication is more effective in this case. Try to see things from his perspective in an effort to understand his mindset. 💛 Your kids will always love you no matter what. You will always be their mum. I myself went through years of estrangement from my own mother - she left when we were kids, and by her own admission is not maternal. Anyway, we have managed to miraculously reconnect, and while it takes work to maintain some semblance of a healthy relationship with her (due to childhood issues I think) I'm glad it's finally happening, and we can slowly patch things up. Better late than never. Sadly, my dad (who we love) has cut his entire family off rather coldly, and inexplicably about half a year ago. He's inpenetrable and will not mend the bridge he's single handedly burning down. He's his own worst enemy, but we love him regardless and always hope that he will come to his senses. By his own admission, he's stubborn, and once his mind is made up, he shuns whoever is the target of his blame. Childish, but life goes on. I just think that the people in your life here, are only here for a brief time, in the grand scheme of things, and it's not worth it to not do everything you can to make things right, while you can. And it may not matter, in the Ultimate sense of Reality, but... it matters, you know what I mean? I hope you're able to make peace with your kids, and your fella. I hope you find comfort along the way. It's not easy, but I somehow think that whatever is happening is meant to be. It's good to let it all out, and blow off steam every now and again 💛✨

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Hey Angelo. Do you have a dedicated video on Heart Sutra recital? Would be absolutely amazing if you slowly recited it in a dedicated video infused with your pure transmission of its essence ❤❤❤

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

On my to do list

Around the 17th minute mark you say that there is no perceptual filter saying I need or I don’t need, I want or I don’t want. Maybe I’m speculating but if this is the case wouldn’t I just sit and do nothing at all?

Found your channel a little while ago. Also bought your book. I feel a bit overwhelmed by all the content and I don't really know where to start. What would you recommend?

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

welcome. Get familiar with the playlists. If you're interested in first awakening/kensho, I recommend the basics of awakening and the awakening approaches playlist. Also the awakening stories :)

Is this a video of a retreat session?

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

Yes

Are you talking about the tendency to want to make a model or map of understanding? I just needed permission to stop. Mind wants to control.

@SimplyAlwaysAwake

Жыл бұрын

exactly

The place they had for you to sit at that retreat center doesn't push my personal buttons. Interesting that when someone else judges a book by their perception of it's cover that pushed a button. Sounds like something for me to look at 😂

Your content is very much appreciated as it’s very clear and not dogmatic, etc. Honestly, the stage set and vibe is a bit guru-like. Maybe it’s more effective to lean towards the more evidence-based angle as is the case in your interviews with Dr. Zubin and earlier videos? Mentioning guru-like personalities who want to make lots of money in the description might be counterproductive - sadhguru, Tolle, etc. Adyashanti and Loch Kelly deliver in a very direct, clean way. This member of your audience leans more in this direction than the guru personality type of presentation. Adyashanti’s approach is more credible by being publicly associated with folks like Sam Harris and Loch Kelly - not the other way around. Even Rupert Spira dabbles with some borderline religious vocabulary and dogma.

@tennysontaggart

Жыл бұрын

Anything put into words will reflect the dogma of the listener my friend!

@TheCatLuna

Жыл бұрын

Rupert talks about God. But not in a religious way.

So sorry to see you in that rather exalted set up. You even have a lap robe! You just lost me with the phony looking thrown room! If you are cold, why don’t you turn up the heat.

@sinkec

Жыл бұрын

It’s a parody, especially the ending 😂😂😂

@sTeVe-vl3nh

Жыл бұрын

Why are you triggered? He wears his hoody😂

@omarmiz

Жыл бұрын

What is wrong with the scene exactly? It’s beautiful. He’s hosting a gathering. Would you be satisfied if he were standing in front of a 7/11? Also what is a lap robe? It’s called a blanket. Smh… I usually don’t respond to foolish comments but this is a bit too far. Every teacher has their own style and the fact it doesn’t chime with your limited view of what it should be is a problem for no one other than yourself. One aspect of the truth is its Majesty. That can’t always be effaced in order to be relatable. On the other hand i should probably look inwards at why your comment triggered me rather than reacting to it 🧐🙂

@susancremin2757

Жыл бұрын

It's a basenji robe and why throw out the baby with the bathwater in his living room

@birgit8996

Жыл бұрын

what is view?......Thought?🤔Who cares!😉