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"I'm feeling so much anger towards people who are probably just going on with their day while I'm here struggling and feeling bad" oof that one hits home. I'm currently going through my own trauma processing and the emotions and memories are so debilitating while I'm pretty sure that the people who hurt me barely even think of me anymore and, god, that makes me so angry. Thank you for sharing, it makes me feel less alone ❤
@melody9904
3 ай бұрын
its not easy but its possible
I don’t usually comment but I have to say I watch all your videos and they help me so much. Last year I was stuck inside the hospital due to anorexia all summer, but I am recovering and I want this summer to be better because I deserve to go out and live my life! Thank you for being such a huge inspiration to me and many others ❤
@MayMay-hq4il
3 ай бұрын
Good luck, i'm proud of you for starting recovery keep going!
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
thank you for this 🫶🏻 sending you love - you can absolutely do this, the hardest step is starting!! you won’t regret it 💌xxx
@emilyw6561
3 ай бұрын
You are so right; you deserve a life without anorexia. Keep going everyday xx
@lauranorwar
2 ай бұрын
Yes!!! You do absolutely deserve to live your life…to the fullest!!
About your insecurities about your "rambling". It is literally perfect. I have adhd and it makes it so much easier for me to follow if people use many words when telling stories and also i feel like you have a quite comforting voice which is great because ✨i'm mentally ill✨ also take your time with posting videos, it's always a little surprise when a new video pops up on my feed
Girl don’t you worry about your vlogs being too negative or boring. You’re showing us the way to self love and acceptance and normalizing mental struggles that so much people are going through. This is a precious content Thank you so much for everything you do ❤
Something I would like to offer which has been helpful for my own trauma recovery, is journaling conversations with my inner child in a dialogue. I have done the same in my anorexia recovery and it has been massively helpful to understand those delicate parts of myself. I also take time to intentionally connect with my inner child, inviting her to play dress up by picking out my outfit for the day, asking her if she would like certain meals or snacks, welcoming her to nap with me, encouraging her to tell me how she’s feeling. Trauma healing is so so difficult and tender, especially when it comes to inner child work. Your anger is righteous and necessary to allow you to move through you in this process of healing and reclaiming your life. So much love and peace to you, Ro. You have been very inspirational to me on my journey through healing and recovery. ❤
Hey Ro, the book “the body says no” has CHANGED THE GAME for me
It's absolutely a natural response to feel anger towards the things that are unfair. It's actually a really good sign of your progress because you're recognising that you didn't deserve the things that happened to you. Your trauma also happened at a time when your brain was still developing and you were finding your sense of self as an adolescent. The fact you're able to acknowledge that this journey isn't linear and you still have some healing to do is also a really positive sign of your progress. A book named The Body Keeps the Score is one I would highly recommend in healing from C-PTSD. It makes so much sense and could help you too. Being kind to yourself and making steps toward healing are difficult, especially being neurospicy, but take a moment to remember your journey is ongoing and so far, you're doing so amazingly well!! You're still so young (with so much amazing progress so far and so much more time to carry on this journey) and have achieved some incredible things in the couple of years you've been working on healing. It took me until 40 to be able to have EMDR and heal from C-PTSD. Life is a road of bumps and beautiful stretches of greenery and flowers. Sometimes there are pitfalls but these difficult patches do pass if we focus on being kind to ourselves and remember that we are working so hard to be healthy and happy. Sometimes that means doing things we don't want to or not doing anything at all. It's absolutely natural and understandable to feel anger and allow yourself to express it. Not letting it out means it has no where to go and it sticks with you. I have a ton of chronic illnesses because I didn't know what was happening to me or around me was not ok and I'm autistic, which i didn't get diagnosed as until I was 36! I'm so proud of you!
hi Ro, i wish you are having a beautiful day, just here to say that yesterday i went to an appointment with my nutrisionist and she finally told me and my mom that i am progressing and she also say that in a short lapse of time i can start to make strenght exercises, im so happy and i can finally see the light and i imagine a life without anorexia. im proud because on mothers day i went to have breakfast and i ordered what i was really craving and also i ate a delicious strawberry cake with a beautiful sweet cream
i feel your anger. i feel your rage. thanks for sharing, we will all get through this together 🌟
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
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“Im feeling anger towards people who are just getting on with their day and don’t think about it” this is so so true, I often think why do I have to feel trauma and hurt after something someone else did to me. That feeling is getting smaller as the years get by but some days it is so hard to come to terms with ❤
Wow, this video is so very relatable. My healing journey has mirrored yours, from healing from an ED to now working through trauma and CPTSD. Managing the anger towards the people who have caused trauma, while acknowledging that they just get to exist in the world and go on with life while I (you) have to cope with all these huge emotions that wouldn’t exist without those experiences… it’s a lot to work on. While I wish you didn’t have to experience this (I wouldn’t wish these feelings on anyone), I am so grateful for you sharing and allowing us on the internet to feel a sense of community with you. I am so excited to watch this new series of yours! ❤ Thank you Ro!! Edit: the hair gives fashionably messy, not bed head vibes, imo.
As a person who is chronically ill, thank you for mentioning it. But it is totally okay to be complaining about yourself being ill bcs every struggle is validated. I just felt happy for you that you aren't used to being ill so often and I hope you feel better soon🤍 Btw, loving the honest healing diaries series
3:25 girl I get you 100%. I feel this a lot and you put it into words perfectly.
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
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@josephaemma3852
2 ай бұрын
Yes this is an amazing way of explaining it
Healing is non linear Ro, thank you for showing us the genuine journey towards your personal healing! I’m sure it is helping so many humans❤
Hi Ro, this is great timing. I'm going through a massive transitional period right now, I'm just very recently being able to start going out by myself and to see friends for the first time in years. Severe anxiety left me pretty much housebound. I went through a traumatic break up with my fiance of 12 years back in November and in these months realised that it was a mentally abusive relationship. One of those whereby people saw it but I didn't want to listen. So in progressing as far as I have in 5 months is crazy and it's hard and I have weeks where I feel as though I'm going backwards. But healing is not linear and I have to remind myself at that. I am so angry I allowed and didn't see what was happening to me and at 34 I feel so shit about myself and the position I allowed to get myself in to. But, I have mended friendships and relationships with family that were all but gone, a have driven my car by myself and I want to be able to hold a job and be self sufficient as I used to be 12 years ago. I completely lost myself and finding out who I am again in incredible but also extremely difficult. Even down to not having more than 4 items of clothing now being able to firstly get clothes and secondly figure out what even I like!!! Your videos help so much, I have disordered eating also and everytime I see you pop up I am inspired by your progress and honesty. Sorry for the ramble 😂🙈🙈 but thank you. Xx
Have you read 'the body keeps the score?' Trauma and everything that affects us psychologically from trauma can definitely manifest into physical illness. I know myself i can feel ive achieved so much and then i feel awful...its a huge long journey and you're doing fantastic ❤
With the curly hair and all you give me Farah Fawcett vibes and I LOVE IT .
omg! the queen has posted👑
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
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Don’t worry about your vlogs not being interesting. I think a lot of your followers have calm and quiet lives (for whatever reasons) and enjoy seeing that we are not alone in that
Hi Ro, I hope you will read this comment 🫶 Every time I feel demotivated, sad, anxious, whenever I feel like I'm going back to the past mistakes (such as hating myself sadly) or whenever I caught myself overthinking I watch your videos. You are helping me so much dealing with my feelings, you make me feel understood and not alone. I really think we need someone like you in our lives. Thank you so much 🤍🧸 (sorry for my bad English but it's not my first language 😅)
The algorithm fed me your earlier ED recovery videos when I was deep in a depressive episode. I was inspired by your commitment to getting better and trying to find ways of applying that to my life, but I was convinced that depression was hopeless and couldn't be healed. And here you are sharing how you're trying to confront depression (and other difficulties). It's strangely validating as here I am in another depressive episode, wondering how I could possibly heal. So, thanks for sharing. ❤
Perfect timing. I just got dinner ready
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
enjoy
This vlog was so real. I still deal with so many physical symptoms: gi, headaches, chronic fatigue, hormonal issues, etc even years after recovery and this was so validating hearing how hard it is
I totally get the depression thing of not being able to even go to the kitchen, when I'm so depressed my brain is not thinking about going for a run, that is like a HUGE step! it needs to take smaller steps first and also I don't feel worthy of doing something to make me happy like a run, I just cant think clearly when I'm in that mindset so my brain tells me you are not worthy of any fun or joy. So I get it!! You are so strong Ro and have inspired me many a time, Never give up💗💕
ro i cant tell you how greatful i am for you, you are such a big part of why i am recovering and i actually want to get better rather than just being forced into recovery, you are like a big sister i always wanted to have.
You explained it so well, it is literally how I’ve been feeling lately. I’m not a angry person at all as well but always dealing with a mental or physical problem makes me feel angry towards people who just getting on with their days. I know how stupid it is but I just want to not feel terrible all the time.
hi ro!! thank you for being here, honest & real. you're helping in so many ways, i'm so proud of you! you're a true role model. hope it's getting only better, you deserve it so so so much. sending my love
Hi, I hope you are able to see this comment Ro. You have seriously helped me so much. I was deep into my Ed and I was watching your videos for motivation and helping me through it. I ended up going to residential treatment and just got back a few weeks ago. I am now committed to recovery! :)
you’re videos truly have helped me immensely to the point of motivating me to continue and not give up in my ed journey so thank you for everything you do❤️🫶🏽
Many hugs to you Ro 🫂🧸🫶🏻🧡🩷
It's also important to pat yourself on the back for how far you've come! And that goes for everyone else too!
I'm in a similar place with my recovery right now (mental and physical). I see your anger and frustration. Thank you for sharing 💐 (also that pink drink looks delicious)
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
sending love your way !! ❤️🩹❤️🩹
girllll i always love your videos and have never thought they were just a tiny bit boring! i just love who you are as a person (what we see as subscribers) and find strength in your healing yourney. so no, you are not boring, you are amazing :)
u don’t know how excited i was when i got ur post notification
thank you so much for sharing your experiences
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
sending love your way ❤️🩹
The hardest part for me is teaching my brain to feel apreciative of what i ve done and not always look at what i planned and didn t succeed It feels so good that you could already do all this and it inspires me to have the same kindness with myself than with you ! Thank you ❤(excuse my english, i am french after all)
I AM OBSESSED W UR NEW HAIR AAA
i got so excited when i saw y’all watching monk :,) i loved that show when i was a kid and this makes me want to get back into it
@RoMitchell
2 ай бұрын
ahh we are literally OBSESSED with it !! it’s so good :,)
RO!! I’m so proud of you. I also feel very angry related to my PTSD which maybe caused my ED? I’m not sure if that’s a thing. Angry I ever got hurt. But excited to turn that anger into positive healing energy ❤
When I am in a depressive fase I try to crumble to the bathtub and then have an hot shower comforting myself and right after a cold one trying to push myself to live. Cold showers helped my depression and anxiety so so much!
The struggles you are describing are sooo relatable to me. I've been feeling very alone with my ptsd lately and this is helping a bit.
If you haven’t already I would definitely look into Long Covid. So many millions have it - often after asymptomatic infections - and it messes you up so much. The cyclical nature of your symptoms is VERY similar to what LC people are experiencing. Might be what’s going on.
Anger, rage, all play a part on the immune system. I highly suggest Nicole Sachs and the work she does! She saved my life from chronic pain, stomach issues etc. Much love Ro❤
Thank you for speaking for those of us who have cptsd, in my case from an abusive parent. We relate to you so much, the pain, depression, anxiety, psychosomatic symptoms but we can see how much more confident and authentic you are. Keep going on your healing journey and we will progress alongside you xo
honestly these steps seem like the healthiest you can take. Also relate so hard to 'I feel all weird....oh yeah meds!'
I appreciate sooo much this week vlog, you are such a beautiful inspiration for food freedom, movement freedom and general peace in life. Thank you Ro, continue to share this with us!
Hi Having had an ED from about 15 years until my 50's I battered my body and it bit back. I now have Cfs and fibromyalgia. Thyroid issues and b12 problems. My immune system is destroyed. I get ill regularly, and exhaustion is just a given now. I feel for you and know this pain well. Prayers you heal and get better ❤
the fact that u posted literallyy made my day 💗
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
ur an angelllll
@ChloeSinclair-jt5kj
3 ай бұрын
Same
You always pop up on my feed when I need you the most ❤❤❤
Hey girlie, feel u 100% on this!! After my recovery I also felt very unwell for a long time, for me it turned out to be celiac disease. The symptoms you describe sound a lot like mine so maybe something to check out!! Sending all the love 💓💓💓💓💓
@flj-nl5zm
3 ай бұрын
Hey! I hope Ro sees this too but I just have to reply to your message - exactly the same thing happened to me! I'm currently doing research into the connection between eating disorders, celiac disease (and also neurodivergency) in women. It's still a massively under-researched topic but there seems to be a very strong correlation - thank you for mentioning it here. Hope you're rocking gluten-free life as you heal and totally agree that Ro's symptoms sound spot-on. Would be 100% worth asking for a blood test for antibodies. Big love xxxx
Hey I have been Diagnosed with anorexia and have nearly got everything back ur vids inspired me so much❤
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
proud of you ❤️🩹
@MolliesRecovery
3 ай бұрын
Tysm ur recovery has helped me so much ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
Ro I absolutely love your videos they always pick me up thanks so much I’m just gonna sit down relax and watch this video to feel motivated for dinner despite how hard it is i always think ‘what would ro do?’❤
Your vids never fail to brighten up my day - sending hugs your way Ro - x
I love this for you! PSA anyone out there you trying at all is enough don't be too hard on yourself (which is so hard too haha)
Seeing you eat egg muffins for breakfast is honestly inspirational for me atm. Never thought I would be the kind of person to think that, but atm egg muffins are too scary. In recovery at the moment, can't wait until I get to the point where I casually have one for breakfast!
Enjoying your videos, also i have recently been watching monk on Netflix. I use to watch it as a kid and loved it.
You have such a prescious soul 🌷
The title of this video is exactly what I need right now
My day just got a million times better after seeing you posted ❤
Yay it's your beautiful face on my KZread feed again :) Your hair looks so gorgeous! Very Fara Fawcett 🥰 I'm so proud of you and I hope you're proud of yourself too, lovely. You have come so far: your mental and physical baseline are so much higher than when you started recovery. Your progress is beautiful and incredible. Also I often write like that too… especially when I'm writing in people's cards. I find the more I care about a certain project the more intense my focus is, and the closer my face gets to the paper. It's kind of funny lol Your comment about being angry over a past event and certain individuals actions who aren't even thinking about you hit me really hard. That was a huge wake up call for me as well a few years ago. EMDR was massive help but what helped the most was giving myself permission to keep moving forward with my day. I was stuck and felt guilty that I wasn't processing things like I was “supposed” to. It felt like those traumatic events carried this sort of karmic weight, and if I processed it “wrong” I would hurt others and the world. I felt guilty for existing in potentially the wrong way … This of course just let to a lot of self hatred, resentment, and RELENTLESS OCD :( I've decided there is no ideal or “perfect” way to be. Learning to find your own unique balance of sitting with your emotions and then allowing yourself to get on with your day takes so much time and experience, but I think that's what being in your early 20s is mostly about. Take care and good luck. We all have your back. Thanks for sharing your struggles and your joy ❤
hello! thanks for keeping my company tonight. i love your videos. you actually encouraged me to start exposure therapy, and its doing wonders for my anxiety! thank you.
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
wowee so proud of you!! ❤️🩹
i'm enjoying this series so far
Happy to see you’ve posted! Also your hair looks beautiful 🌼🌷 Hope you feel better!!
Your so pretty and you don't deserve any of this hope you heal soon.💗
Hi, I don't normally comment on videos but I just wanted to let you know that this video made me feel less alone - i've really been struggling with feeling angry because of the people who have hurt me.
Love this series. I’m inspired to put my wellness first as well. ❤
I don’t know you but I’m so flipping proud of you xxx
Thank you so much for your vulnerability 💜 Sending love and light
Hi Ro ❤ I also have PTSD from a traumatic incident that makes it hard for me to go outside and be alone and experience life properly. I was wondering if you would ever be open to making a video about your experience and advice with exposure therapy. I'm currently at the very beginning of it and watching your older videos detailing your experience with it really helps ❤ Also just want to share that I'm also struggling with my immune system! I am sending you so much love ❤ rest, proper vitamins and lots of yummy nutrition is key :) im sure you know all this though already haha but I just hope things get better soon
Papier notebook and a muji pen, excellent choices ❤ It's a real grieving process, isn't it, for the time lost.
I have a low immune system from damage from my epilepsy medication. I have been very unwell this year, I finally got to see an Immunologist face to face for the 1st time in over 2yrs or more. Best thing to do is get your immune levels checked and you might need a booster injection.
quick guys, the queen has posted!
I love Taylor swift, I was so happy you got to experience that! She struggled(s) with an ed/depression too, her poetic lyrics are magical she is so smart
@loridavis5699
3 ай бұрын
TS is a nutbag
Amazing vlog, such a good vibe thank youu
I'm curious if you've heard of "Internal Family Systems"... as a way to care for that inner child / younger self who experienced that trauma
so happy youve uploaded!! youre like my internet big sister :')
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
omg i’m so happy to be the big sis 🫂🫂
Ps. Your hair looks gorgeous 😍 slay sista
Check your vitamin deficiencies love! There was a study from earlier this year that the standard for Vitamin D should be 2000IUs/50mcg now for most adults. Vitamin D deficiency can lead to depression, agoraphobia, and poor health Also if you're prone to getting sick check your Zinc levels If you've got stomach issues like IBS or SIBO check B12 cobalamin and B9 folate, you might need methylcobalamin and methylfolate if you can't process B12 and B9 into their active forms (due to MTHFR gene mutation) Check Magnesium levels for headache/migraine, muscle aches/cramps, trouble sleeping, restless leg syndrome Skin issues like eczema (Vit D), dyshydrotic eczema (zinc+copper), angular cheilitis (B2 riboflavin, B12 cobalamin, iron)
ughh i really needed to hear this
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
sending love !! yayyy !! also blueberry all the way :)🫶🏻🫐
Dealing with Anorexia and exercise addiction for 40 years. I went into recovery and wish I never did it helped with trauma and everything now I just eat and never leave it he house developed horrible illnesses from so called recovery. So ironic. Anyone else experience this?
I send you a huge bear hug 🙆🏼♀️🌷🌷🌷 everything will be OK💋
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
thank you 🫂🫂
your eyes are such a unique, beautiful colour
damn how do your curls keep so well overnight, do you sleep with a silk bonnet/scarf/pillowcase or are you just incredibly blessed like that? my curls go crazy even in a silk scarf 😭
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
noo idk how they stayed so nice, i kind of put them above my head on the pillow if you get me? but that’s it
@hop_yoanna
3 ай бұрын
@@RoMitchell aah, i think i toss and turn too much for that to work 😄 either way your hair looks really nice!! 💛
I’m sending you love ❤❤❤
Hi Ro , Please get tested for an under active thyroid disease if you are feeling really tired and as you say your immune system isn't functioning as well as it should be as I've just been diagnosed with this illness . Your gp can send you for a specialist blood test for this condition hun Xx
Thank you❤❤❤❤
14:13 are these socks?? Where’d you get them? Migraines reallly suck apparently magnesium, b12 and b6 helps, my brother and I get migraines quite a bit and the nausea sucks, thankfully I don’t get them much anymore. Hormonal imbalance can cause them too which ed’s and recovering from them can definitely cause. Edit: you are so brave I also am very anxious being outside on my own people can be scary 😂 I take my fiancé with me everywhere
What if the people who did bother you weren't going about their day to day? Fascinating thought
Any tips for those struggling with binge eating ?
Saw you in graces videos.x
I may be wrong as I am not a Dr but maybe its because your are now going out more so you are now more exposed to germs that you havent been in the past so your immune system hasnt had chance to catch up? Just a theory :) x
Unrelated but where are your blue striped trousers from? 💙
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
m&s !! x
I have been anorexic since last year, but I want to start my recovery. I'm littlebit underweight but I never ate under 1200 kcal in a day. Do I still have to eat 2500 kcal or is 1700 enough? (And sry i'm really bad in english)
@gracie1x
2 ай бұрын
i get you but i think what’s better is just to stick to “mechanical eating” just eating 3 meals and 2-3 snacks as a minimum! calories just hold you back and make the recovery process longer if that make sense. 1700 calories can be enough for some people but for someone in recovery that most likely won’t be enough at the moment if you are trying to fully recover! hope your okay 🩷
Love that outfit 15:10
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Is there any chance you could be pregnant? Just a thought
@therealmena1
3 ай бұрын
thats what i was thinking!
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
haha nooope, this migraine / vomiting thing has been happening for a long long time, just gets worse when i’m stressed
The person on the tube with the nervous twitchy leg... We see you
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
he’s so me
HIII
@RoMitchell
3 ай бұрын
HI !!
Maybe you are pregnant 🤗
@ChloeSinclair-jt5kj
Ай бұрын
That is rude of you to say that she struggles with an eating disorder you know and this can be very hurtful and cause harm.
I am so happy to see how far you have grown in the past few years, and I hope that you continue healing and living a happy healthy life. You seem like a really sweet person and I wish nothing but the best for you. Good luck on your healing journey. 💗 Thank you for all you do Ro 💗💗🫂