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The Deliciously explosive mismatch: the Engineer Scientist
and the Mystic Woman.
When I saw the woman who was to be my future partner in a full-blown Kundalini fueled ecstatic bliss-splosion of rageful grief awe and joy, I could not look away. This truly was the most raw, beautiful performance I had seen in my adult life. And, in that moment, I was petrified frozen. Seeing something so real and so not from this reality.
It exposed some kind of invisible connection between people. That absolutely cannot be. And from within that safe, educated worldview, I was left balls out naked pissing myself. Ignorance and naiveté exposed.
Humiliated at the thought that I'd made it to 46 without knowing something so fundamental and powerful existed on this planet. And worse. I had--who knows how many times--dismissed, mocked, gaslit those who were childish enough to rely on imaginary stories like tarot, astrology, crystals and reiki.
My logic-based doctor educated view of reality did not allow for what I was witnessing. My heart, gut and cock recognized the homecoming in what I was witnessing.
It was very, very impossibly true. The final stand. My head vs. the rest of me.
I needed to learn this.
Even if the cost was my marriage. My job. My savings. The power of what was moving through that woman in that moment was nothing short of the intelligence of life itself. This pulled up words that had never a reason to cross my lips. Eros. Muse. Divine.
That pure beauty is would prove the only power strong enough to compel me out from behind my mask. All the life management and protection I had developed to keep safe from all the bullshit in this life. The violence that is everywhere.
What was so painfully obvious was I had ego'd myself into a numb state. And from inside that invisible shell I would not be able to touch the erotic life force I could feel moving through that woman 20 feet away.
And so it began. The deconstruction.
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