Oh, my. You graciously share strongly grounded ideas for those of us with CPTSD. Growth comes one step at a time, and it is up to us to learn the steps, to impliment the tools. What love! Thank you. Thank you!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for that support :) -Cara@TeamFairy

@agatakalinowska2648

2 жыл бұрын

11

@agatakalinowska2648

2 жыл бұрын

11

@elizabethfindlay5752

Жыл бұрын

@Dreamy Space childhood post traumatic stress disorder

@cassandrareedy7369

Жыл бұрын

@Dreamy Space It is actually Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It doesn't have to be due childhood but often is. PTSD occurs with a single event such as a car accident, assault, tsunami, or any isolated trauma. Complex PTSD occurs over time like with childhood abuse, spousal abuse, cults, ECT

I went with the ' the only person you can change is yourself ' and went NO CONTACT with my bullying narcissistic family members . I had to leave the whole back biting back stabbing lot out of my life . More peace for sure but lonely - a good kind of lonely .

@abowling5759

2 жыл бұрын

It’s a wonderful change!

@thebachu786

2 жыл бұрын

congrats, add a loving dog in your life

@Jo-lp1px

2 жыл бұрын

Hard but necessary, I’m excited for your freedom and healing journey. I’m sorry for the isolation

@mountainwoman1781

2 жыл бұрын

It doesn’t have to be lonely Pavla. In time, the space you created by removing toxic people from your life can be filled by healthy, loving people. If that is what you want. This requires a little work, reaching out and putting yourself out there. I know that for some of us that can be uncomfortable.

@MariannaMCave

2 жыл бұрын

@@mountainwoman1781 uncomfortable at the start, but after a while the discomfort fades away as new found confidence floods in

When people are used to you not having boundaries they sometimes get very defensive or use shaming or gaslighting to get you to "fall back into line".

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

That's true, and the techniques Anna teaches can help to combat that sort of pushback :) -Cara@TeamFairy

@beewest5704

2 жыл бұрын

Especially when they are used to you being a ppl pleaser.

@cosmolosys

11 ай бұрын

It's not really a matter of combatting the pushback. I once found the advice to let people know beforehand that you're working on yourself by setting boundaries and that they can expect you to not do certain things anymore. The more specific you are, the more prepared they will be. Because if you're always for example providing people with food or drinks it is 1. very practical for other people to know this beforehand and 2. They won't immediately assume you are angry or upset with them, instead they already know what's going on. They get defensive if you suddenly change behaviour without any clue as to why. People usually assume something is wrong.

@themiddling2393

7 ай бұрын

I find myself justifying or explaining why I'm doing something a lot. This only works with healthy people in my experience who are open to understanding you. If not, they will use it as fodder. I started thinking of it as being "breezy" even if I'm hurt inside. Sometimes when you're even silent and the person is ranting they finally hear themselves and reflect. But in general the only way I've found to deal with this is that when a family member starts a hurtful behavior, I politely disengage and I unfortunately have to keep our interactions on the superficial level. I treat it like I'm at work-- my private life is not up for discussion. I still struggle with the idea that I'm not standing up for myself because it seems to invite abuse.

@zion367

6 ай бұрын

​@@cosmolosysthat too comes from a place of trying to avoid comflict and thus is a subconcious taktic to control the situation. Our lesson is to let go of control.

I think it's harder for someone with CPTSD to IDENTIFY their boundaries, than to enforce them. I think it's easier once you actually identify them, and then you will naturally enforce them with others. People treat you as well as you expect them to. I used to be mocked and picked on growing up, but now nobody has done that for years. I know that if they did they would regret it and that's the energy I give out.

@smustipher

2 жыл бұрын

Heard on this. Was bullied as a kid growing up and nowadays I can signal with a look that I am NOT to be messed with. There are a few people who test me anyway, but I give them no reaction and they come to realize that I am in no way shape or form taking any mess from anyone.

@blackMM

2 жыл бұрын

I think this applies to some but not others. If you're more often in fight mode as a survival mechanism, enforcement is easier than if you're more often in fawn/submit mode. I have some boundaries that are very easy to enforce, once I knew them - but very often in my more ambiguous relationships where I had fawning and flight and freeze behaviors as coping mechanisms, the struggle is very real to learn how to enforce the boundaries even if you know them very clearly. There are skills that need to be learned in order to be able to do that.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

@Abe_11 thank you for your insight! -Cara@TeamFairy

@amandaredeagle9572

2 жыл бұрын

That was profoundly impactful to read and apply to myself. Well said, thank u for ur enlightened comment sir

@ashleeb2162

2 жыл бұрын

@@blackMM there was a time before I knew of my condition where I thought It was simply a trigger I hadn't learned of... And then how to deal with that, it's not dealt with until you bulldoze the noisy Narc. Say you go back to your corner for hours or weeks and come back and address that it was only the case they STFU from continuing talking suggestions and not notice you carry on a task and... And, aren't standing there talking just nodding. Getting the effskee outta there 🙂 talk about injuryyyy.

The amount of deleting and blocking I’ve done since healing is legendary. It’s amazing how peaceful life can be after saying NO to abuse.

@ElenaVasilenka

Жыл бұрын

I get it

@lowlowseesee

11 ай бұрын

One of my best pieces of advice over the years to most of my women friends

@eloise-rw3sj

3 ай бұрын

Good for you ❤

@WhistleblowingGoodWitch

2 ай бұрын

Wow! I am so encouraged by this. My goal ❤

I agree you can’t force people not to be triggering. What is also true is no one should have to take shit from anyone.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Agreed! -Cara@TeamFairy

@chaimomma9198

2 жыл бұрын

We do if we want a job, but we do need to learn how to manage our triggers.

@susiehernandez6652

2 жыл бұрын

While that's true, it's kind of hard to live in society and not interact with people. Also, I've realized that my triggers wouldn't bother me if I didn't have cPTSD. So, I'm overreacting and reading into otherwise normal behavior from others. It's hard to tell the difference with c-PTSD.

@marypettersen6750

2 жыл бұрын

@@susiehernandez6652 There are people who enjoy fucking with the traumatized to the point of causing a trigger. Why? They get off on it. I've been a witness to it as well as on the receiving end 1000's of times.

In my experience, I get criticized and rejected harshly when I set the most basic of boundaries because I am malleable and a serious people pleaser/appeaser. Then I cave out of fear. This channel is helping me to face the fear of setting basic boundaries. I know I can heal and I know I can do this. Thank you Crappy Childhood Fairy!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

I would recommend the Daily Practice. It is a free course which specifically addresses the fears you are talking about. bit.ly/3608opl -Cara@TeamFairy

@ED-ie3et

2 жыл бұрын

You can do it! I'm 30 and I'm slowly becoming able to set up boundaries. I still will care how others feel but I am caring more about how I feel. And it's beautiful the progress! Progress is possible my friend!

@darlingbudofmaym-c6039

2 жыл бұрын

You've encouraged me to do this too, thank you. How is it going.? Do let me know, please. I'll reciprocate. Love from 🇬🇧

@jasonwimberly5636

6 ай бұрын

Don’t cave in. That’s in fact what they want to see you do. Which is why the ignore your boundary in the first place. That’s not an accident that’s intentional. Why would you want to stay connected to someone who intrudes on you? You matter and what you need truly is important. If they leave so much the better. Consider it an affliction fleeing from you. Leaving you healthy, vital, peaceful and available to people who actually care about you instead. Isn’t that a much more preferable outcome than dealing with harassers and predators?

The whole mindset of my mother and my ex (basically the same creature in different bodies) was “Boundaries were made to be stomped on”. Took me 45 years to learn to walk away.

@anewchapter8142

2 жыл бұрын

It may have taken 45 years, you did it. Some people never in their whole lives aren't able to walk away.

@anneugartechea7650

2 жыл бұрын

It took about 9 years and a breakdown to realize that I couldn’t fix or change my husband. My husband was never married to me. He clung to his sister, they were best drinking buddies. I was repeating what happened to me as a child. Neglect. I was so focused on the outside, my inside shut down. It’s been a roller coaster, but I’m in charge of my life. I can now set boundaries, I don’t have to cringe inside. Don’t put your hand back in the fire to see if it still burns. Put your attention on the pain and grow strong enough to get the message the first time, if possible. As a kid, the unreality of an alcoholic parent makes one doubt their own reality. To survive we learn some strange strategies. As an adult we have to unlearn a lot and realize there is no book of being normal. Just one moment at a time. Best to you on your journey.

@emmystein13

2 жыл бұрын

Good for you! I’m growing into the mindset of walking away when I’m around my family.

@melissam.6054

2 жыл бұрын

@SheWhoSeeks -- wow, u just summarized my exact same experience, right down to the "45 years", because on my 45th birthday I got the confirmation/answered prayer I needed, that enabled me to grow a spine & tell my Ex that yes, as a matter of fact, I agreed (with his threat) and we SHOULD get divorced! May everyone grow stronger in reclaiming, cleansing, and restoring the joy & peace in our lives, which is our birthright❣🙏💜

@KishBish

2 жыл бұрын

Wow.. I was 45 when my Mom passed and I broke up with my ex.. took me that long to realize my attachment to him was the same as mine to my Mom.. it took losing them both to finally get it.. still going through the pain.. this really makes life feel unfair and I hate to pity party myself, but dammit I didn't ask for this.. and everyone just gets to go on with life free and clear while I'm stuck picking up pieces of a heart I didn't break..

They have the "right" to be themselves within LIMITS. They have no right to be bullies. Or to ignore your boundaries.

@user-gr6fv3pp1q

2 жыл бұрын

Unfortunately they do. That's exactly the point of this video. You have the right to complain and leave.

@jnagarya519

2 жыл бұрын

@@user-gr6fv3pp1q One also has the right to push back by asserting one's boundaries. To "leave" is to give in to the bullying, which encourages more bullying.

@susiehernandez6652

2 жыл бұрын

@@jnagarya519 A bully isn't going to respect your boundaries; that's why their a bully. Depending on the extend of the bullying, it may be best to leave as to now cause yourself more trauma. That's how we got c-PTSD to begin with by growing up with people with no boundaries. With some people, you can set boundaries all day long with no change. Sometimes, they can't because of their own trauma. I just literally had this happen on Friday. I had a friend try and control a situation on a couple occasions and when I called her out the 1st time, she tried gaslighting me. The 2nd time she said I was high strung when she was the one riding me for not wanting to be late for the movies even though we were at the theatre with 20 minutes to spare. I know this person has sustained trauma and more than likely has c-PTSD and being early gives her a sense of peace but its to an extreme. If it's not her pace, her calling the shots, she starts pressuring even when she has absolutely nowhere to be. I can't deal with micromanaging and was seeing too much narcisstic behavior on her part. My regret is that I shouldn't have tried with this person as she acts out when she doesn't get her way. It was draining and triggering. Walking away is the best thing you can for yourself with some people. I kept trying thinking it's an opportunity to set boundaries but it ended up with me having a semi dissociative episode; which is the worst feeling/unfeeling in the world.

@jnagarya519

2 жыл бұрын

@@susiehernandez6652 Certainly. I have learned to give a few chances in small things. When that doesn't work I distance. If they want to discuss that, fine. If it doesn't make a dent I stay distant, or even walk away. I no longer put a lot of energy into figuring them out or trying to "help" them. The clearest boundary I've found is to not take on the responsibility of others' decisions. To not blame myself for others' decisions. I may not know why, they may not be forthcoming; but I'm not responsible for others' decisions. If their decision is because of "me," but they don't say so -- gaslighting or not -- then it isn't about "me".

@Aisha_babii

Жыл бұрын

No one has to respect your trauma, triggers, and boundaries…. We just hope that they care enough to. You give your power away when you allow someone to govern how you feel/react. If they can’t honor it then it’s up to you to remove yourself from the situation

I have found that people who repeatedly violate boundaries are likely to commit abuse! They start off by violating small boundaries like privacy, like knowing personal information and escalate! They start by intentionally disrespecting others and just keep the disrespect going.

I will Never understand why a person ignores a flat out NO. I say no six ways to Sunday and it's constantly ignored or dismissed. Retreat and isolation is the only way to consistent peace and quiet. Without peace and quiet I don't have a hope in Hell to focus on healing.

@catharinasvenkerud2728

2 жыл бұрын

Sounds like those people are not your kind of people. If someone refuses to respect your boundaries, or meet you halfway with your needs, then they don't deserve your presence, in my opinion. You're worth more than that.

@auburnandgrey4457

2 жыл бұрын

@@catharinasvenkerud2728 I agree but just because you make boundaries no guarantee anyone will pay attention. Sadly, only estrangement will end dismissal disrespect. I don't see any other answer.

@ts4686

2 жыл бұрын

Auburn and Gray you are exactly where I with my narc mother. Zero respect for my boundaries, won't take no for an answer and doesn't respect me in any way. She truly believes she owns me because she gave birth to me, and that I owe her everything, both my life and everything I earn. She is a terrible bully, and has launched a psychological terror and smear campaign against me. At this point I'm just trying to survive each day she abuses me. I hope you get away from your bullies and narcs. They're energy and life sucking. Take care, friend.

@auburnandgrey4457

2 жыл бұрын

@@ts4686 I hope your reason for staying in this relationship is worth the damage to yourself. It's ok to walk away from a family member permanently. A friend of mine did it with her Mom at middle age. Been 5 years of no contact. She is happier.

@ts4686

2 жыл бұрын

@@auburnandgrey4457 I didn't write that I was willingly staying in this toxic relationship. You should know that there are endless reasons why one can be stuck with family, and it isn't just always a clear cut question of staying or leaving. Its far more complex and involves finances, bonds and more. Finances being the biggest one. With due respect you don't know anything which is going on or has happened to me or within my family to assume the way it seems you are through your comment.

Yes! Boundaries are promises you make to yourself and are only as strong as your ability to keep them. Too many people think the no trespassing sign on their fence is their boundary when, in reality, it's the consequence they deliver when someone jumps their fence.

@spellywelly

2 жыл бұрын

Really well put!

@littlefrances70

2 жыл бұрын

Interesting nugget.

@user-qt1le6ih6i

2 жыл бұрын

I like that "It's the consequence they deliver when someone jumps their fence". Spot on.

@Kelly-oe8kr

2 жыл бұрын

Amen!

@sabrinakurosawa5516

2 жыл бұрын

I never thought of it like that thank you

When it comes to cutting off people who are narcissistic or controlling is when I am going to set boundaries with them. I've been through this before. And the person didn't accept the boundaries I set. So I ended the friendship and cut them off.

@juliejay5436

2 жыл бұрын

Been there, done it! It's so fucking hard, but necessary. Life is better without them.

@jpx8793

2 жыл бұрын

Don't blame you. Sometimes even after you lay down the law with them, they stop at nothing. At this point, it may be necessary to give them the ax, as you should.

@lilleeball1148

4 ай бұрын

That was your boundary - how you protected yourself. "If you cross my boundary I will protect myself by ending the friendship." Well done.

Mine are now going to respect my "going no contact now boundary" because some people with high narcissistic traits know no boundaries. This after dealing with over 45 yrs abuse.

@Cat-sx6ep

2 жыл бұрын

I do just that delete m block and ignore if necessary so far I feel great

@pbird1638

2 жыл бұрын

Yes, when people don't respect our boundaries...the next thing is placing physical boundaries (distance/space, no contact).

@anitashehu9784

2 жыл бұрын

It’s interesting that she talks about triggers, yes we have sometimes, but they are nothing compare with rage and reaction of people with narcissistic tendencies. And the truth is that most people with CPTSD have narcissistic family, friends and colleagues. We attract these people. Some of her content doesn’t resonate with me, because I freeze most of the time, . But yeah I isolate myself, I’m clumsy, I forget things, dissociate often.

@frankstared

2 жыл бұрын

Now it is up to you to work on you. Use the opportunity to learn about the 'whys' and 'hows' and precisely what it was that led you into that dynamic...and most importantly to grow into the human being you can be.

2 жыл бұрын

They have NO break pads.

People who "care" about you is the key. Verbally abusing you, harassing you, and screaming at you and you didn't do anything wrong proves they are abusive, controlling, and unhealthy.

Oh, Anna, I just had an epiphany. It just dawned on me, possibly, why we thought we could change someone... Because people were able to change us. How could I not have thought of that before... I do want to say that you have been instrumental in saving my life and my sanity and I just want to whole heartedly thank you!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you too!

@austincde

Ай бұрын

Really like this. I think they were able to reveal parts of ourselves we suppress, because why would anyone choose to be selfish, nasty, abrasive, I think we could embrace those changes and not lose ourselves in the process even though it's very hard. As someone who always grew up on "the offense" when you start to defend yourself, it feels like you are being rude at first, but really it's like you're leveling the playing field.

It took me literally years to know what a boundary even was. When I finally got it, I realized that if it was a boundary of mine, I had to be prepared to follow through if my boundaries weren't being respected. It was extremely difficult to do but when I followed through, my life changed dramatically! It of course meant I lost some people from my life but that was the gain I'd been missing.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

I relate! -Cara@TeamFairy

I had to realise that as an adult I really could walk away, that I don't have to resolve things with people who don't want to be basically respectful. Especially if the same problem is repeating over and over again.

@crazychristmas100

Жыл бұрын

Great point.

If I don’t want to walk on eggshells around someone then it’s hypocritical to expect someone to walk on eggshells around me. If they don’t get my boundaries then I know I need to move forward, not demonize them. With that said, the first time they don’t understand a boundary is usually a red flag that this person might not understand other boundaries.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Good point! -Cara@TeamFairy

@Scott-nr2ji

Жыл бұрын

When they have the rage attack for politely saying you can't do that to me anymore, that's the ultimate red flag!

I just knew it!! I knew it when I was six and nobody liked me, so I thought maybe if I help them... Again at 26 I just knew this misery was not my real life though I was surrounded by family, husband, three children who did love me...in their way. Now I am going to be eighty!!! 80 this next month and I AM HERE!! my real life. Me. Four decades of recovery was worth it all. We have to pass it on to others now.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Awesome message! -Cara@TeamFairy

@jennyanderson4796

2 жыл бұрын

Sheesh thx for sharing your joy found later in life , I've been sorry for lost decade & I'm 50 next yr. You give me something .... gosh this happens to so many , I'm not alone in this-

@RR-LMSL18

2 жыл бұрын

MaryLou, thank you for sharing! I also am a senior, and I find this lovely Fairy brings clarity and understanding to my long life- finally;)

How can you make someone respect your boundaries when they have already demonstrated that they won’t, and that they are okay with not respecting them. You should change who you interact with.

@constantia4370

2 ай бұрын

Fool me once- shame on you; Fool me twice, shame on me.

I started the process of removing people from my life. I was always afraid that I was blocking people I love out of pettiness. I learned it is quite the opposite of petty - it is powerful. The more I have come to understand my worth and my needs, the less difficult it has been to drop people that wouldn’t give me the same consideration that I give them. They most certainly have the right to be who they are. I learned that I have the right to push them off and clear their old space for people who will love me as I love them.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Right on! -Cara@TeamFairy

@traceyarnaud8433

2 жыл бұрын

I couldn't agree more!

@CobraDove1111

2 жыл бұрын

So well said

@queenr.480

2 жыл бұрын

Love this!

@chaimomma9198

2 жыл бұрын

How do you deal when you would have to cut everyone out even the cat?!

Aside from people being outright abusive the Lord showed me not to have expectations of people. Expectations were my triggers. When others didn’t do what I thought was the right thing to do it made me angry or hurt my feelings. Learning to dump my expectations of others has brought peace to me and others around me.

@gundegas1

Жыл бұрын

❤

My 10 year old son is extremely sensitive and can seem like a “victim” of his feelings and experiences a lot if the time. It’s enormously frustrating for me to deal with. This video just cracked that whole thing open! I have spent years saying to my husband, “why did you?” “ why don’t you?” “how could you?” “how could you not?”. I have been modeling this victimhood to my son! It’s my job to hold my boundaries, not my husbands job to respect them (necessarily). Wow.

I just wanted to say that my favorite strategy for establishing and implementing boundaries is the rule of "no". I love saying "no" to people and NOT offering up an explanation as to why I said it. The real people who love you will still be there. The explanation is a privilege, and you do not need to explain anything to anyone. I felt like this strategy was a REALLY great step 1. It felt amazing

@ravenwolf7128

Жыл бұрын

YES--thank you, I've struggled with that my whole life. I have to force myself not to offer an explanation....it's such a deep pattern of covering my trauma to offer excuses....not to be rude, just to clearly state "no" without feeling like I owe something--is so hard! My autonomy and privacy was violated, so I never knew how to protect that basic human right--went numb and became a "watcher", a drifter with no boundaries and the disguise of some fiery armor. But underneath, the self-defeating self-hatred was still undermining all self-confidence. Saying "no" is claiming autonomy, such a challenging baby step for those of us who experienced repeated trauma.

@WhistleblowingGoodWitch

2 ай бұрын

Yes!!!❤

Being pregnant and sober I realise that I was never comfortable that my young children were often surrounded by adults who were always drinking alcohol. So I've made the conscious decision to remove us from situations where alcohol consumption in high quantities is consumed. It's been the BEST decision we've made 💚

@carnivoroussarah

Жыл бұрын

I'm so proud of you. Thats very loving towards your children. Personally, I am a recovered addict and now choose to not spend time with people who drink at all. It is a poison and the people who don't recognize that and decide never to drink it are not on the same wavelength as myself. There would probably be other things we don't see eye to eye on and I need the people in my life to see eye to eye with me. Thats my own boundary I have recently discovered. Although I'm not tempted to drink or even triggered around those who do anymore (mom is an alcoholic, shocking right?), I've just found we are too different to truly connect emotionally.

@pinkgummybear766

Жыл бұрын

Me being sober for 4 years I’m proud of both of you and it’s so nice to hear because alcohol is the most horrible yet legal thing ever to be made. It destroys souls and families and communities . Y’all comments made me Smile ❤ keep it up 🥳🥰👏🏼💪🏽💪🏽

No one has the "right to be themselves" while transgressing others' boundaries; only within their own boundaries.

@kaedatiger

2 жыл бұрын

Teaching yourself that people "have a right to be themselves" is a step closer to the real truth: these people are never worth your investment to "fix", no matter how much you think you're doing them a favor. The real favor is not getting involved.

@kaedatiger

8 ай бұрын

@FlyingMonkies325 I agree. I'm also one of those people who have to do things myself. I only learn by doing, so if someone only shows me but does it for me I don't really learn it. Although you can't do anyone's emotional work for them, but trying to force them to grow up doesn't work. It has to be a personal choice.

This video is sooo good. Instead of staying in, cancel plans frequently and avoid feelings of insecurity and fear. I feel like going outside, live my life to the fullest, with no holding back, observe my triggers and heal and grow from it. Thanks for sharing this content.

I completely agree with this. I've removed all of their toxic behaviour from my life. I've never nagged them. But if I bring anything up, I only get finger-pointing and backlash and deflection. It was difficult to learn that they can't be what I need. I removed myself from their cold war. Now I sit back and watch the fight burn out of them. I've gone on to heal and connect with people who don't use denial and gaslighting. I used to want revenge. Now I watch them do it to themselves from a safe distance, and I don't have to do a thing except improve my own life. My chosen family is now closer than my blood family, because they've earned it - and they're worth it in return.

@dnk4559

2 жыл бұрын

Same!

@x-mess

2 жыл бұрын

Good on you for doing the work and have results! How I wish I was there!! (Like, yesterday)

@Archanakarthikeyan

2 жыл бұрын

I'm in the process of removing people from my life who have never valued me. I haven't yet gotten to where I've met new people who are supportive. Hence your sharing that this is a possibility gives me a lot of hope. Thank you for sharing.

I was in radio for 30 years seeking validation I so badly needed in my childhood. Narc mom, enabling father. You are truly so good at what you do. Thank you for these videos

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for chiming it! -Cara@TeamFairy

I’m learning to take responsibility for my triggers. I like being the one to decide how I react. As you said once before, stop rolling out the red carpet for your triggers. Haha. Love that.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

I love that too :) -Cara@TeamFairy

@jasmineetzenedine57

2 жыл бұрын

I got this question for a while, how to make the difference between triggers, how to identify if they are real or not ... Am I triggered because someone crossed a healthy boundary or because an unhealed trauma?

@Scott-nr2ji

Жыл бұрын

It's not a merely oversensitive "trigger" when you've had enough! Unless you're trying to save a marriage or something.. but even then, I just don't see being worthwhile. Time to bail!

I had my first "rebuttal" with my SIL this weekend. Not an argument, which would usually happen. Not taking his statements, feeling scared & leaving resentful. I just listened, presented my viewpoint & called it good. It was an incredibly healing thing though most wouldn't have noticed. Progress!

@jeanninekenmuir4366

2 жыл бұрын

L..

@LMorganReynolds

2 жыл бұрын

I just got a flash of Don Quixote there. Congratulations 👏 No more fighting windmills

@astrialindah2773

2 жыл бұрын

Sil...."his" statements...?

@Mme_Chantal

2 жыл бұрын

Good for you!

@pamelaroyce5285

2 жыл бұрын

@@astrialindah2773 probably son-in-law

You can't change other people, you can only change yourself or how you react to them. That has been my most profound lesson in healing from my childhood. Setting boundaries with people is exactly how you learn to love them unconditionally without giving up your own self to do it. Your actions toward another person comes down to "what am I going to do about whatever the other person has done? Am I going to love them as is, or walk away from them or set a boundary ?" Relationships, therefore, should be defined as attempting to love or care for another person, while still negotiating your own boundaries. Walk away if it their behavior is too much, set a boundary if it is negotiable. Once a person really internalizes that lesson, it tends to free them from the power other people have over them in a lot of different ways. Not trying to fix them or change their behavior means you also don't need to blame yourself for, or internalize whatever they do, since they are simply being themselves and are separate people from you. It is just your job to set boundaries, nothing else, not change them. I'm still a work in progress, but that's what I agree works. When I stray from this, I fail at relationships. When I keep this in mind, I succeed. Having CPTSD means I know this logically, but struggle to always put it into practice. I have to catch myself a lot and say "I can't change him/her I can only change me. Now, what am I going to do?"

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

Жыл бұрын

That's the work, great job! -Cara@TeamFairy

@sandrawhanger9322

Жыл бұрын

Thank you. Awesome clarity that I needed!

@ravenwolf7128

Жыл бұрын

You define the work so clearly, thank you. In progress too, trying to learn and heal.

Wow this is spot on. I had to learn from the bare basics as an adult how to set boundaries by reverting back to "The Terrible Twos"!! I practiced by having a quiet private space to say "No!" out loud and have a tantrum, repeating "No no no no!!!" After learning the basics, I was able to start making social boundaries with others without guilt or anxiety about abandonment. I allowed my inner child to say NO when she couldn't before. Now I'm getting much better at expressing my boundaries as an adult!! 👌

I've learnt it's better to be alone than to constantly defend boundaries. Either respect my boundaries or there is the door, simply not doing this no more!

i’m finally at a point where i know my triggers and can pause before i blow up on people, but now on the opposite end, i retreat for a LONG time and can’t get over that trigger for days. i spend days alone and avoid people/triggers at any cost.

@AG-ej7wm

2 жыл бұрын

I don't want to advertise stuff that I haven't thoroughly practiced yet, but I've been getting into emotional freedom techniques (EFT) lately and there was at least one instance where it helped me calm down emotionally. Also, I've heard people tell me that similar things happened for them through EMDR. Maybe it would be worth a try?

@jennyanderson4796

2 жыл бұрын

It might take time . I wish my avoidance could have had a translator who would have explained things to people who had no clue how inappropriate & insensitive they were around me following alot of grief & heartache.

@traceyarnaud8433

2 жыл бұрын

Same here! Just getting over an interaction that occurred 3 weeks ago. Been hiding ever since.

I am just now at 50 years old learning that other people can't heal me. It's soul changing. The influence you've had in my life is tremendous. I thank you and appreciate you for bringing this insightful information to all of us.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Wonderful! Thank you!

This is so true....i had so much more control over my cptsd reactions when I left and distanced from the people triggering me (my biggest trigger is being gaslit or manipulated) --- I needed to learn that I couldn't make them stop, but I COULD walk away. I gave myself the time away to let my nervous system decompress, and now when I come across similar behavior, I still feel triggered, but I don't blow up anymore.

Their behaviour is not normal, my reaction to their behaviour IS normal. My family says they will help and at the eleventh hour they impose conditions. They totally ignored my boundaries, many times. So I have learnt to never ask them for anything, which is actually normal family support, ever again. I feel free deciding that but also sad and grieved. Mostly because mum does whatever narc sis wants to the detriment of my boundaries and health, ie letting her attack me, terrible

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

You're not alone, it's hard work. -Cara@TeamFairy

@carmen589

Жыл бұрын

I completely understand and I'm sorry you have to deal with very abusive people.

Growing up in a dysfunctional family where personal boundaries were smashed down by my parents, it has taken years for me to learn that I have the right to state what my boundaries are, and to learn to state it without feeling guilty. I totally agree with you in that we cannot impose our boundaries on another and expect them to comply. We can only state our boundaries without being triggered by feelings of guilt, and hope that the person you are setting a boundary with will respect that boundary, and also keep the relationship going. That said, if I set a boundary with someone then I usually do so with good reason. For me, my mind and my body are sacred. No one has the right to tell me who I am, and no one has the right to touch me or tell me what to do with my body without my consent. And if someone treats my mind and body as if it is theirs to do whatever they feel, with no thought to the impact on me, and especially if I’ve given a clearly stated boundary, I reserve the right to drop that person like a ton of bricks. They’re gone. This kind of boundary violation is a big red flag. I don’t care if it’s a friend or family member. They’re gone. Most serious boundary violations committed against me have come from my family of origin. Other, less serious boundary violations, where someone has unintentionally crossed a line, can be repaired with a diplomatic boundary setting discussion that doesn’t damage the relationship. In my experience of these types of situations, the relationship usually ends up being stronger than it was before because both parties show their respective vulnerabilities, and both take their respective relationship responsibilities seriously.

Brilliant. This is the best, most accurate description of boundaries I've seen. This isn't a PTSD concept, this is basic human interaction. It applies to everyone. Boundaries are what you allow inside. Boundaries you place on others are actually called "demands".

Yes! Stopping ourselves from blabbering out whatever comes to mind when we are dysregulated and instead writing it down, is the best way to go. It sure calms Me down! I always find it so amazing that, after I'm alright in the head again and I read what I wrote, I don't feel the need to say those things anymore and I even find them preposterous.

@graciepimo3087

Жыл бұрын

I to find journaling helpful I do art as well and combine writing and drawing while I think about what I wrote. It really does help and gets that panic attack feeling coming on, calm down. 🌻

This is really hard when the person you are dealing with has narcissistic tendencies and deliberately does things to trigger you because they get off on it. Like if you don’t react they will keep pushing and pushing. It’s especially hard when you don’t have the choice to never deal with them again, because you share children/custody.

@aj32384

Жыл бұрын

You need to watch the video again.

@karenortega2046

11 ай бұрын

@@aj32384i was dealing with an over mothered enmeshed man and his family … and narcassism. I feel as the person above .. maybe im not getting it fully.😳

@sonyapeaks

11 ай бұрын

@@karenortega2046 I understand what you mean. If you just control yourself and not give the reaction they are looking for, they simply up the ante. How far will they go? In my experience, pretty far sometimes. Kill a tree, lose money, kill a cat, damage their own property-they are willing to take the hit to get at you. As far as co-parenting is concerned I'm at a loss on that one. Good luck

Stop and Drop! LOVE IT!! Really needed to hear this, so much more effective than taking a pill, running until I hurt myself or hiding under my bedcovers. It's a face your fears moment. We can do this!! 🙌

This was perfect timing to go along with the video about narcissistic cancel culture. It again shows that that ideology is toxic and about making others responsible for one’s own feelings, and trying to control how others think/behave. Loved this vid! It’s like 5 years of therapy in 15 minutes...fabulous!💗💐

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Appreciate you 💜💪 -Cara@TeamFairy

They are insane. Things you can’t forget that’s stuck in your head forever and the things they’ve said, you can never forgive or forget. Mind your business and always know that your and anyone else opinion is just that an opinion it’s not my truth. Respect goes along way. “THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE THEMSELVES “ leave folks alone

I mostly agree in the context of generally civilized behavior, but when somebody is deliberately and forcefully abusing you either physically or psychologically, there are no rules and, personally speaking, I will obliterate whatever boundaries *they* have and make sure that they get the message without any questions remaining. No warning shots need to be fired, just a smoking crater where your abuser was last seen.

@ShintogaDeathAngel

2 жыл бұрын

Love this, some people definitely need the scorched earth treatment!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

@David_Wright that sounds right! -Cara@TeamFairy

@stoicfreediver

2 жыл бұрын

@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Thank you for the confirmation 👍🏼

@kaedatiger

2 жыл бұрын

I have played dirty like that too. Sometimes it works and sometimes it really doesn't.

@jennyanderson4796

2 жыл бұрын

Wish you were my look out, my friend ,defender way back when

“What prompts our healing is usually friction” YES! Use that friction as a tool to explore triggers, feelings, healing! ❤

You're right. No one has the right to boss others around. Have enough self worth to move on. "Controling other is wrong. I isolate a lot, but talk to people too. Sometimes you just have to keep a distance.

@jpx8793

2 жыл бұрын

Amen. What one does about one's own boundaries is their business; just long as they don't violate yours. Sometimes it may be necessary to banish them from your circle.

This might be the most important video you’ve ever done. It’s such an important point, one I wish I could have made myself in my failed relationship… but I had to go no contact for my own safety and semi-sanity, and even though it hurts my heart, I have to hope from a distance that he’s figured this out on his own.

@littlefrances70

2 жыл бұрын

Feels vital to me too.

Anna's wisdom regarding people with CPTSD: "have to basically teach themselves as adults how to interact with people". Yep, she's describing my life again. So glad I found you, Anna. No one has had a clue all these decades...not therapists, certainly not "normal people" whoever those aliens are. Teach, Anna.... Boundry issues....like having no skin on a raw open wound that gets repeatedly shoved in a fire everytime you interact with people....I was like a volcano holding the lid on as the only thing protecting everyone from an eruption...amazing how I was not able to protect myself from people at all--couldn't just say "no"--made excuses instead, covered helplessness with bravado, got involved with people that were NOT who I wanted to be around...every interaction was a slippery slope.....until something finally ripped off the lid and set me off....hot lava as a boundry is not a way to live comfortably. Does finally clear some space and people think twice before crossing you again---about the only positive. To sum up the Rx: Calm the fire, heal the triggers....find the truth under the ashes....bloom like the Phoenix is the hope, no matter how old you are....no matter how many wrong turns or dead ends---keep going in your oasis of healing practice and maybe water will flow in the desert, finally. Peace to you CPTSD fellow travelers out there.

@edithgarcelon5142

11 ай бұрын

Thank you ❤

"Respecting my boundaries" is way too vague! Please be more specific about what you are taking about. If someone is destroying your property, or touching you inappropriately or calling you names. There's a long list of things that could be added to this list. If you call asking someone to not drink around you as "setting my boundaries" I disagree or please put your clothes in the laundry basket. That's a request and it could be rude behavior or you could be unreasonable, I would want to know more about the individual situation before I would say. Boundaries are important for anyone and if someone doesn't respect a valid request then there is a problem!

@pmberkeley

2 жыл бұрын

What is valid to you isn't valid to everybody. My sister "requests" that everybody wear masks outdoors in public post vaccination around her and then sits down to eat with the same people without masks. She would say people are violating a reasonable request. But it isn't. That's the problem with your framing here.

@debraspence

2 жыл бұрын

@@pmberkeley that's why I think it's important to look at each situation as it arises. Boundaries are important and shouldn't be confused with unreasonable requests!

@Abe-rz1nm

2 жыл бұрын

Boundaries are negotiable. If you don't like something you are entitled to request others do/don't something but they are entitled to say no. Then you are entitled to react however you please - you have a choice to stay in the relationship or go. If someone repeatedly violates your boundaries, then you should rethink the relationship regardless of who it is. But you can't change anyone but yourself. Once you love yourself and expect the best from others, regardless of what you do, you will find that others will either treat you the way you want or leave your life. Ie. if someone makes fun of me, I would say "I'd appreciate if you didn't do that anymore", once you stand up for yourself and confront them they will usually stop. If not, just continue standing up for yourself and not react or worry about what they are doing. The situation will work itself out. If it's just a matter of getting your kids to put their dirty clothes in the laundry, start praising them for other things and stop criticising them for anything. They will do more to elicit your praise and that includes putting their stuff in the laundry.

@destroyraiden

2 жыл бұрын

Boundries are rules of engagement you want someone to not touch you or your things that is the rule of engagement. If you are an adult/teen and another adult/teen touches you or your things, breaks your things, steals your things you can call the cops and press charges if you turly want. Now the cops aren't going to come out cuz so and so poked you or jabbed you but gropping sexually or hitting you and leaving a bruise you've got a better change of not only them showing but attempting to do something for you. If this is a roommate eviction is possible if you are the owner of the place in my state thats a $100 fee for the polilce to write up the notice for an adult not sure if we do teens but you shouldn't be kicking out a teen anyhow. Put your clothing in the basket or do the dishes are things that can be asked, the rule of enagement here is we co-live together so keeping things tidy is great but they do not need to value that rule of enagement maybe to them clean is empty and triggers them. You can ask 3 times if they are unwilling child or adult no longer ask them ( do not do it form them) you can let it stand or if you need to access the area move their stuff and avoid doing their dishes tell them in advance you will move their things you need access to X or you won't do their dishes anymore if it all piles up so be it you'll no longer provide dishes for them to use once say 1/2 of all the dishes are left by them undone you can lock up access to the dishes and they must now buy their own cuz its your property if you're the parent here and they're an adult or high aged teenager (nearly an adult) they'll need to show improvement to not have to buy their own dishes to leave about or else gain access to your own. They say everyone has games they play it's an ingrained thing we call the social expectations so if you don't want to play that person's game then don't. In my dishes case you are putting a fence on your things that they're using not putting a fence on them "Do the dishes or else." is fensing them in. your fence here is "I will no longer provide access to my own property (the dishes you own and they use only) if I feel you are continuing to not take care of my things by cleaning up them after use." Now do not prescibe a time frame of when cleaning should be done here that's a fencing them in. If you want it done in an hour and they want it done next week they're still not respecting your rule of engagement so they can't have access to your stuff. They say: DO THIS or ELSE statements are ultimatum statements and not good for communication this is proof hunting, bias affirming, and frankly a statement that can also make someone else put their foot down and doubble down on the hated behavior. Instead they say: IF I FEEL x THEN I WILL DO x is better because its in your court now you feel, they can't prove how you feel only you know how you feel and if you feel x way you will then do x action. It also isn't hunting for bias confirmations (if they love me this will be done like I think it should be, or I knew they'd not do that!) proof hunting (they prove yet again how x they are!) You are right that if they are unwilling to follow your rules of enagement then there is a problem but the solution isn't force them into it or put a fence around them. It's inner work upon you to find where this wound is coming from. For me I know don't touch my things is an inner wound from childhood when my mother sick of how messy my room was would go in and throw out everything she devalued as trash that was precious things to me disrupting my room and my things and my personhood I need to process that to get over the fear when I'm triggered that a person who touches my things in present day or borrows my things will toss it, destroy it, or otherwise remove it from me forever this is a child wound. This is kind of why she's saying leave them or allow their behavior to exist eventually they'll have to deal with having too many clothing for the basket but you do not need to stay with someone who is touching you or your things.

@debraspence

2 жыл бұрын

@@destroyraiden as you so well express it is not just black and white. There are many choices to be made when setting boundaries. What is a deal breaker for one person may not be for another. As a trauma survivor my boundaries were egregiously violated. Yes there are some boundaries that I absolutely expect another to respect and other's may be negotiated if you want to call asking someone to put their clothes in the laundry basket a boundary. For us trauma survivors it is a learning and they are important to learn.

It always turns out that I have to "let people be themselves" ; but yet these same people demand that I either change to accommodate them and/or totally submit to them by letting them control me! Whenever I have gone along with this narrative, I end up feeling "yucky" or being seen as inferior to them! As this continues, I run out of patience eventually and don't want to waste any more time with someone who, I feel, has misrepresented themselves! Examples: Someone continually interrupting me, future faking and gaslighting me deliberately by ignoring my friendliness over the internet, UNTIL they take the time to bully me for finally losing patience with them for all the above, including having no sympathy after an abusive incident with a narcissist!

@tashyam7736

2 жыл бұрын

Walk away

@taramoonshadow363

2 жыл бұрын

The Ugly Truth: Having To Fight The Narcissists ALONE!?!

@abowling5759

2 жыл бұрын

Go No Contact

Anna, you are a SAGE in our time. Thank you!

When I do my daily writing about fears, one of them is always " fear of having to write down my emotions for the rest of my life to stay sane" lol . It does help, but at the same time it's sad that I even have to do this. Can't have normal flowing relationships anymore seems like I have to be aware of being regulated or not regulated and then deciding whether to reboot or not. why is life so complicated? ha. Can't wait to make it to heaven, this place is torment! Also, how can we tell the difference between CPTSD and reality. I used to be able to say now that I've gone through abuse I will be able to tell the red flags from people, but what if they aren't really abusive and they just have similar characteristics to your previous abuser? not even sure anymore lol. For example they use humor/jokes but that can be associated with abuse because my ex used to say he was just joking. Hope this makes sense, sorry.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Continuing the Daily PRactice will help with telling "differences" . Things become more clear. Even better if you come to one of the zoom calls and see if you can meet a "buddy"- reading the fears helps a lot to dispel them more quickly -Cara@TeamFairy

@AG-ej7wm

2 жыл бұрын

@Herbalwarrior777 Maybe you will find something that feels more organic at some point. You can change, adapt or replace any practice that you're taught. It should be serving you, not the other way around. I think in the end it's not important to label someone abusive, non-abusive etc. but to judge their behaviour with you, and how important you are to them. If someone cares about you, they will be willing to adapt to you as well. For instance, if someone keeps innocently joking about your weight and you explain to them one day that it's hurtful to you.. a caring person will stop doing that. Because they won't put their jokes over your wellbeing. While an abusive or simply insensitive/immature/insecure etc. person will become defensive and call you too sensitive, or keep making jokes about your weight. It's just one example but if they sum up, that should be clear.

@kaedatiger

2 жыл бұрын

I relate to this. I used to gaslight myself with "don't read into things" and "give people a chance". But every time I ignored my intuition (as I had been trained to do), the outcome was never positive for me. It took some practice to learn how to tell the difference between doubt and my intuition telling me something isn't right for me. Unfortunately, you kinda need positive experiences too in order to know what standards to set.

@RiSnyman

2 жыл бұрын

I so hear and feel you on this. I feel I dealt with my crap better when I was younger. I've become "soft" because I'm triggering more - when really I'm just recognising that I've triggered for some unknown reason. I don't trust my gut reaction anymore, because I might be associating a harmless person's demeanor with an childhood abuser. Trying to be more open to people I would've avoided then seems to open me to more opportunity to be triggered. It's a mess. I'm a mess. Back to the drawing board/writing pad 🤦🏼‍♀️

@tomjames7713

2 жыл бұрын

yeah, this the cptsd is a complicated deal, no doubt. and we as people individually are complex. but mix the two together and its like trying to unravel fishing string all caught up on the reel. i dont know you but with me its like that. i keep thinking and wondering if its me, my personality, just the way i am made or if its this cptsd dictating and influencing the many parts of me? if i could untangle and separate the programing of cptsd i would be left with who i really am? are my wild and difficult emotions changeable? i always admired those who could calmly express or handle themselves in high stress or emotional situations. my whole life i never could. i was like a pin cushion that if you stuck me i reacted, i was loaded with buttons and when pushed i was like the puppet on a string. i know this, if that is not a part of my connotational make up, if its some emotional hitchhiker parasite i picked up from childhood and i can be free of it then yes i want it gone. i want to be the me i was and am supposed to be as much as is possible for me in life.

...I had an abuser literally use this as an excuse for his behavior. "I can't MAKE you feel anything, YOU'RE making you feel this way, YOU need to deal with all of that. (But also you keep really upsetting me and that's also your fault.)" It's still really upsetting for me to hear something like this. Because yes, the actions of other people do in fact have an effect on me. So, while I get that we can't make someone respect boundaries and needs, I still want to find someone who will.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

That's a worthy goal! -Cara@TeamFairy

You hit home with this video. I'm struggling right now with the fact I did not keep my cool with a friend last Friday. I KNOW it was a reaction to my c-PTSD but I'm beating myself up nonetheless. I keep going over and over in my mind what I said to try and relieve myself. I feel like I blackout when I get that mad. I'm mad at myself for allowing this friendship to continue. I was already feeling like this was someone that I didn't want to be around. I don't mind that the friendship ended but the way in which it ended. I don't carry shame about why I'm this way but I do carry shame when I can't seem to pause. You talked about taking a minute to re-regulate and save the argument but I was completely awash in my trigger. It's not an excuse. The other person was also triggered, which I recognized and asked for a minute but then a few minutes later, I got triggered again by her behavior and then I let my feelings out when I was in the heat of the moment. I hate hurting people and I hate feeling hurt and angry by others as well. I agree so much with this video but in practice the unleashing part is so very hard. I'm trying. Right now, I'm dealing with the aftermath of beating myself up for not being able to contain myself. Ugh!

I don't know if it's old age or just having had my full of bullshit, but I'm much better at boundaries these days. No means no.

@tnt01

2 жыл бұрын

i know right. you get to a point where enough is enough.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

That's great! -Cara@TeamFairy

@tammyrenee2029

2 жыл бұрын

And it's biblical as well. Let your yes, be Yes. and your no, be No. Matthew 5:37

I managed to firm up some personal boundaries 6 yrs ago in some of my Toxic relationships and by the grace of God - have benefited incredibly being able to now Marry and enjoy a beautiful life

I have just reacted in a triggered after asking my sister to respect my boundary. She didn't and I responded in passive aggressive way. I understand we might have a strained relationship going forward now, I kind of want space. But now I have got more info and realise I can't ask her to respect my boundaries anymore. It is what it is.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Sounds like you're well on your way in your healing! -Cara@TeamFairy

My mom is constantly bringing up weight issues and telling me what I need to do around my house. Triggers me so much. But she is my mom and I love her. She won't change. My mind is always conflicted. I'm at the "What?!" part of the vid and yep. Haha.

@zenseed75

2 жыл бұрын

@@Star-dj1kw oh man. Hate your sis in law experiences the same.

@astrialindah2773

2 жыл бұрын

Thank her for her insight. And then smile at her. Seriously, don't engage, just thank her for her opinion and smile and carry on...

@totally_cooked

2 жыл бұрын

It wasn't about the same issue but when my mom crossed a line, I stopped inviting my parents to my house. I always go there now and it helped a lot

@littlefrances70

2 жыл бұрын

Sorry this is happening. So this means you have asked her 3 times already?

@destroyraiden

2 жыл бұрын

I've given up on my mom being my mom I expect nothing of her and my boundaries are to not leap at her orders to do things she request because to her a no is simply a delayed yes so unless she asks proper instead of telling me what I should do with my time I will not do what she wants. It's taken years but she's starting to get the idea. And of course I use to tell her in the beginning ask me or don't define my day things like that which she kept ignoring so I stopped telling her but didn't stop doing as I needed to to define a rule of engagement with her. She doesn't always follow it but when she does I will do as she actually asked pretty close to when she's asked it to reinforce her behavior more.

I have been recognizing lately that there is a difference between being triggered, and your body/ emotions setting off warning bells that a boundary has been crossed. People with CPTSD don't know what healthy boundaries look or feel like, & don't realize when theirs is being crossed - in the beginning of their healing journey. Triggering is the beginning stage of your body/emotions teaching you what your boundaries look like. The more you heal and become self aware, the trigger tuns into a warning system that someone is breaching the "do not enter" gate you have in place. Respecting your own boundaries by recognizing them allows you to decide who you let "in" and how far in they are allowed to enter, and who to keep out. You recognize that this valuable gift of yourself is what you give, or withhold depending on their behavior. Do they value you, stick up for you, listen to you, let you know in a thousand different ways that they are grateful for this gift of yourself?

Just having the words for what I have experienced my entire life, has made a huge difference. When disregulated, I stop and just breathe. Whomever the person is who is causing it just has to deal with the fact I am not speaking to them. I don't care what they think. All I can think of is the word, "breathe." "Breathe," is also a great meditation mantra.

I got so triggered by this in the beginning that I got mad and almost just shut it off completely. I’m SO glad I kept it going, it’s so smart and lovely.

Well, I agree to disagree: If someone is obviously telling sh** instead of the truth and is damaging me or others this way, I am not obliged to accept that. I feel obliged to speak up in such a case. For myself, but also for others. There is a limit to acceptance, and this limit begins where people damage other persons. And it's not always possible to leave suddenly and lightheartedly, see job etc

@FriendofDorothy

2 жыл бұрын

I have felt the same way as you but I didn't get that she is asking us to accept the behavior that is triggering us, only that we become conscious of and own our reaction and take a little time out to let the fire die down before we reply or address them. Then our response will be calmer and clearer and more effective. Few people are able to communicate coherently in the midst of a firestorm of triggered feelings.

@kaedatiger

2 жыл бұрын

When I started taking risks like leaving home, job, bad friendship or romance, etc, I found that it created space in my life for something new and sometimes better.

Absolutely true, but remember you don't have to stick around to put up with your boundaries being crossed x

In our psychopathic Narcissistic world we are all traumatized. When we are sitting on fire and everyone either is sadistic to take pleasure in hurting others or indifferent no one heals. We are social beings and we won't be able to heal when we live in a cruel sick world.

I’ve definitely had a problem with trying to fix other people. How do I stop the urge to want to make sure everybody’s OK and happy and fixed? It can be very overwhelming and it causes me a lot of anxiety.

@philima

2 жыл бұрын

Realize the underlying cause. You probably use them as subsidiaries for yourself because you're not used to taking care of yourself truly.

@LexiA0327

2 жыл бұрын

@@philima you’re right..I was always last on the list but not now,now I put me first.

@kaedatiger

2 жыл бұрын

I've had a few narcissists flat-out admit that they are uninterested in growing or changing. Growing up is a symbolic death that they cannot tolerate until they run out of all other options. Learning that helped me.

This was unbelievably synchronistic! I had an incident last night where I said no to someone I love and it was really uncomfortable for both of us Thank you for all you do!!!!

Wow I'm literally loosing my mind trying to set healthy boundaries with everyone in my life. I'm coming back from brain surgeries and many years of sickness. I want life and love. I want to heal and give love. I want a close loving relationship with my mom. Thank you 💓💓

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

You can do it! -Cara@TeamFairy

@jennyanderson4796

2 жыл бұрын

Don't tell yourself your losing your mind . Your mind is listening - your close to your mom now & all is well breathe

That line between setting boundaries and trying to fix people.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

:) -Cara@TeamFairy

Another great video! Thank you so much for spelling this out. It's soo true...and our relationships will never be "healthy" until we understand this. We can save so much time and energy NOT continually trying to change people who have no desire or intention to honor our boundaries. I practically spent a lifetime beleiving I had a "right" to insist that my boudaries were honored by my older sister....mostly because she seemed to think she had a "right" to dictate what "normal" boundaries are...based on HER needs. But for me it was more like "ok, if I have to be someone other than who I am to "meet your needs", of course I expect you to do the same in return, or at least be open to an honest discussion about how we might manage our very different needs and negotiate a reasonable solution. This, however, fell on deaf ears, and a lifetime of conditioning made it difficult to accept that this was never going to change. Then one day (more like a period of months) it hit me...that I'm actually not bound to my sister...I can simply and calmly, with no judgement behind it, let my boudaries be known, and NOT feel obligated to spend time with people who are not willing or able...for WHATEVER reason...valid or not...to honor those boundaries...even my own sister. And no drama necessary! I think the hardest thing about this is when we feel "trapped" into tolerating behaviours due to a (culturally or familially imposed?) belief that we have to find a way to "fix" our differences with family members...or it means we've "failed" in some important way if we give up trying with people whose needs are just plain incompatible. I think my sister is frustrated by this change and likely beleives I'm just being difficult when the fact is, I simply can't do it anymore. I hope that THIS frustration leads her to the same or a similar realization. I'd share this video with her but I don't think she's ready or able to hear it from me.

It’s difficult to impossible to change others, change yourself. It’s some much more enjoyable.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Agreed! -Cara@TeamFairy

I rarely comment on videos but I couldn’t skip this one. It feels like you are speaking from the hearth and really caring for helping people out with free resources. Thank you so much, this video has helped me a lot! I feel relieved and like my mind is kind of cleared up in this matter.

My abusive ex used to tell me that he wouldn’t respect my boundaries because my boundaries were not respectable

@tnt01

2 жыл бұрын

omg

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

@Jordan_Sainte-Marie glad to hear it's an ex! -Cara@TeamFairy

@roseabele1195

2 жыл бұрын

Been there

@kaedatiger

2 жыл бұрын

That really says everything about your ex's character that you need to know. Glad you're not still in that.

@migz9932

3 ай бұрын

I was told I'm not a woman when I had boundaries. Belittled to the point it's three years later and I feel like my emotional maturity has reverted all the way down to childhood. I don't feel like an adult woman anymore. It's hard. Every boundary was insulated with, your a child or, your not a real woman.

I guess that's passing your own responsibilities to someone else, effectively relying on the external to resolve my internal. Seems like CPTSD is healed/regulated from your internal side, similar to any other non ptsd relationship problem. If you can take responsibility for yourself, you'll lose the control you need from your external side, less dependent and become self-sufficient - as you would be if you had never had a bad childhood in the first place.

Your advice is compassionate, frank, and practical. Every one of us (our society and our world) can use your suggestions for self-mastery. Thank you for helping in such a meaningful way!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Well said! -Cara@TeamFairy

this is a very tough lesson but well worth it cuz it is freedom.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Freedom is the goal! -Cara@TeamFairy

@dawnmelton3013

2 жыл бұрын

@@CrappyChildhoodFairy absolutely!!

I once met a salesman who wouldn't accept my no. I told him he must like to argue, it stopped him dead in his tracks.

This so resonated. I struggle with triggers and reactions, I struggle to self regulate. screaming on paper, ie brain dummp on paper or scribble and scribble to let out the anger and frustrations. When I wanted others to treat me with more kindness love and respect, and asked I got it all turned back on me. I am sick of being a door mat but when I tried to use my voice n ask for what I needed, ther reactions = major trigger reactions for me. I can't work out how to interact with others,

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

This is an alternative to journaling which may help bit.ly/3608opl -Cara@TeamFairy

This is so sensible! Thank you for being so frank, and honest about this dynamic. At a certain point, we do have to learn what we could have learned as a kid with a more loving steady parent. I agree it's not fair to impose our thrashing inner unresolved self on others, and it's so empowering to behave in a balanced respectful way, and more than anything, have faith in ourselves to fulfil that need for ourselves.. That it's learn able, that it's doable, that it might be lonely for a while but that clarity makes way for deeper more freer and easful connection, with the right kinds of people. I totally agree with you, that it's so much safer to "let people be themselves".. Not only because it's honourable and reminds us of our worth and right to freedom, when we live that value with integrity for others too.. But in letting others be themselves, we can see way more quickly and carefully all the red flags, all the warning signs, and make much stronger decisions about the company we put ourselves around, because we know we can do it for ourselves and that unsafety is not worth the compromise or self betrayal. This video is a good interumn step to this kind of self respect and self fulfilling life, towards a proactive and clear life. Thank you

Thank you!!! Ive always thought about control like this, but it’s often hard for people to understand that that insisting others do something different IS trying to control someone

I disagree. If someone does not allow me to be myself, only imposes verbally what I should do the best option is to hut ourselves not to pretend it's their right to do so. Living with someone who does not understand your rights it destroys your life.

I cannot stress how much I needed to hear this. THANK YOU for all that you do. You have helped me grow so much. My entire world has shifted before my eyes through this process of understanding. Your work is life changing. Thank you.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

You are so welcome. Thank you for watching! - Ashley, Team Fairy

I am absolutely blown away by how powerful this message is. Hard truth is food for the soul and honey you are serving it on a silver platter. All I can say is thank you ❤

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for taking the time to comment! I'm so glad the video was helpful :) -Calista@TeamFairy

The truth really hurts sometimes💔 I'm letting go again Father in Jesus name amen. Thank you are really need to hear this.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

Жыл бұрын

So glad you're here, we're sending you encouragement! -Calista@TeamFairy

This is the truth I've been waiting my entire life to hear. Thank You!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for commenting! -Cara@TeamFairy

I had such a difficult time dating a boyfriend who was clearly narcissistic recently as I repeatedly swung between trying to get him to see his behaviour and then thinking maybe it was me, my trauma influencing how I was seeing the relationship. I did set boundaries but he couldn’t keep them so I left. I just couldn’t find peace there

@pati2570

Жыл бұрын

How are you holding up? I just went through something similar.

@josephinejeffery

Жыл бұрын

@@pati2570 I’m good now thanks but it took a good year to heal from it. I did lots of nervous system work and learned to strengthen boundaries. I’m sorry you had a bad experience too 😕

I'm living with people who trigger me all the time and then wonder why I'm not better! When I keep feeling like I'm being stabbed I can't heal up from that yet I can 't leave either.

@tomjames7713

2 жыл бұрын

hi, this is a difficult situation, i have something the same. i have for so long reacted to the triggering in my negative way, that now trying to calm or not react is like learning how to walk again. this lady says its how we chose to react to the stabbings is the problem. to react in a new way is to heal up. and yes its a painful and difficult recovery process, but whats the alternative keep living the same old same vexing responses to people and life? i cant, i want to change i want to heal. the people will always trigger us but do we have to fall into the same trap for the rest of our existence? she says we can live with them without the triggers swallowing us up whole. peace and power to you.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

@ destroyraiden thanks for being here :) -Cara@TeamFairy

I would like to Thank you for your immense help and support you are giving to people who are regaining hope that life can be peaceful and balanced and therefore happy again. So many of us suffering from CPTSD did not realise what it was and that there was a way out of this maze. Your work is virtually saving lives! God bless you.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you from my heart, @Iza_Waniek!

@izawaniek2568

2 жыл бұрын

@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Thank you from my heart too!

This would have been a difficult video for you to create but it's the truth I needed to hear. Thank you for sharing this. Means a lot.

You are my fairy. I really really really needed this. *Crying tears of release* ❤. (Your delivery and your voice, expression, tone and words…its just perfect for my cptsd. Thank you🙏 )

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

Жыл бұрын

You are so welcome! Glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy

In a nutshell, it's definitely ok and required to call the abuser out. It's very healing to throw their shit right back at them. Change is: not wasting your time on people that make snide remarks, belittle, invalidate, steal your ideas. It's not ok for people to make digs or guilt you out. If you are the one doing most of the calling, caring and helping and it's not returned, just stop it. Follow your own interests. It is absolutely ok to expect people to respect your boundaries and have common courtesy, consideration for others feelings and good manners. It's ok to express your concern and just dump the assholes. Go grey rock and no contact. Do circuit interrupters, break the cycle, walk away. Just dump the jerks. You don't have to waste your time and hang with drunks or other jerks. Remember, the abuse, disregard only gets worse and always escalates over time. It does turn into physical violence either directly or covertly. The covert is where the abuser sets it up to appear as an accident, messing with your medicine, car accident, trips, drugging, poison etc. Be safe

I have learned you cannot change people that are dysfunctional.... I have learned this the hard way...

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Correct! -Cara@TeamFairy

Fourth time of listening; remembering when it didn't go well, wondering why and lastly, keeping on practicing these techniques, because when it goes well it's such a miracle I want to feel it again. Thank you Anna. Thank you family..

This one was extremely helpful. We can't expect others to act like counselors when they have no formal training!

I learn every time I listen to the videos. Thanks for reaching out to thousands. A couple of observations: 30 years ago, it was the popular self help 12 step programmes like Co-dependence anonymous The most prominent Writer and guide then was Melonie Beatie. I did this for a long time. But though it taught so much of what is shared here in the CPTSD videos , it did not have scope in identifying trauma and the triggering behaviours. Co-dependency is still relevant of course, here CPTSD cross into each other in : wanting to control behaviours of others to help us avoid our triggers. And realising we are powerless over others every day(!) Writing out our list of wrongs, to eventually make amends, felt to most , like we were again the problem and fault bearers. Me? Self centred ?! What? No!!! It’s the bloody ABUSER. So Co-dependency was aptly coined: dependents on others to help us manage our pain and fears. I agree here, that CPTSD while liberating, can be like a heavy burden we carry on our backs every day. Avoiding triggering people. Avoiding dealing with them. Co-dependency Annon. Challenged, and making Amends to those we’d hurt was tough! Hang on!!! I AM THE ONE HURT here! Right!? With CPTSD and its recognition of internal triggers, puts us back into our own pain, right away. And yes that is Owned. I am responsible for my choices in what I do next. Tough love too, will guide me, it starts with >. Like an Acorn. Everything is within it to help it to grow. I’ve carried my wounded self around for 61 years. Wanting Someone to hear me! But it’s too much for others, or they assume its all self pity. I’ve believed that others had keys to unlocking my confusion, as to why and how, my traumas happened! Now I realise, that my heart, open and free in many areas, is a vast organ, with hidden parts, wherein lie all my deepest wounds. I have decided to TELL all of it, to GOD. He listens. He knows it all. And HE heals. I was not getting anywhere. I’d record in journals Events impact solutions, that was helpful. But I could not access all the triggering past events by sheer will alone. A Therapist would loose the will to live, if I opened my heart totally, poured out all the hurt! I am the type, to NEED to Express myself through words- Art ect. I began to find these videos triggering!!! At 1 point I was triggered by Anna’s email wording!!! “ I’m glad you’ve decided to learn how to …..” Those words terrified me!!! That was my mother, gas lighting, and putting the problem back on me, then saying, it’s good that I “ finally realise I have a problem “. So no emails for me Right! I must be very emotional, isn’t it an exhausting process!!! For me it’s like once I start : Triggered = where does that one come from ? Process = Solution I’m done for the day! There are thousands more all lined up, Queuing , to be Realised!!! Phew! But I am back here, listening. And putting bits into practise. Thanks.🌷🌷✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ ,

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing about your experiences! You would probably find a 12 step group different now, with more knowledge about c-PTSD and techniques like the Daily Practice. bit.ly/3608opl -Cara@TeamFairy

Every New Year's, I make a resolution and truly try hard to stick with it. This time I am being respectful and listen to people and quit interjecting my stuff over their stuff.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Awesome goal! -Cara@TeamFairy

This message from someone I trust on the topic was a good reminder today and held some advice I didn't know so clearly that I want to implement. Thanks, Fairy!

I did back away from people because I guess I didn't know how to express myself in a way that people liked? Most people are so busy that I got thrown a few crumbs of time while they were doing something else. So...talking to me on the phone when they were driving or doing dishes or cleaning the bathroom. I said that I would prefer to have a conversation when they could be present and not multitasking....and I've never heard from anyone again. So, I considered that expressing my needs? And I guess I'm OK with it? Because I always felt like garbage after those distracted interactions so yes, I would rather be alone with my pets. At least they "want" to be with me. 🤷