why I disappeared // a breakup, reading slump, & college

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  • @viennaw3184
    @viennaw31842 жыл бұрын

    i saw the word “breakup” and was here like 😲

  • @livslibrary
    @livslibrary2 жыл бұрын

    I think a break is something we all need at some point & nothing to be ashamed of! Glad to see you back & doing well. 🥰

  • @BooksInTheVoid
    @BooksInTheVoid2 жыл бұрын

    Welcome back-no need to apologise. Always take time for yourself. Your mental health is important. Experiencing life is important as well, especially when you're in University. You have enough stress on your plate with school. And we'll be here waiting until you get back. And by waiting I mean reading.

  • @HannahJones-yx1vu

    @HannahJones-yx1vu

    14 күн бұрын

    Beautiful comment I couldn't say it any better

  • @martiduran7628
    @martiduran76282 жыл бұрын

    It’s been 4 months since me and my partner of 7 years broke up. Hard times are HARD to get through so I get it but I’m so glad you’re doing better and looking GOOD!! LOVE THAT SWEATER BTW 🤍❤️🖤

  • @JayGTheAwkwardBookworm
    @JayGTheAwkwardBookworm2 жыл бұрын

    I’m so happy to see you back in my sub box!! Break ups are shitty, but I’m so happy you’re doing better 🖤

  • @elinalindahl7776
    @elinalindahl77762 жыл бұрын

    So sorry to hear you've been having such a hard time, break ups are the absolute worst. On a more positive note, I'm so so happy you're back to posting (although it absolutely is okay to take a break) and also - you look STUNNING, girl!

  • @candedondo9992
    @candedondo99922 жыл бұрын

    We all missed you and support u 💜

  • @candedondo9992

    @candedondo9992

    2 жыл бұрын

    Btw you look beautiful, as always

  • @claryy8
    @claryy82 жыл бұрын

    I really missed your videos and I'm so glad to see you back! 🥰 Also take all the time you need, take a break if you need it, and don't feel pressured, you and your mental health always come first, we understand! :)

  • @jessicagolden1631
    @jessicagolden16312 жыл бұрын

    It’s nice to see you and I’m glad you are feeling mostly better. I see you around campus sometimes but I get to nervous and don’t want to bother you 😅

  • @anyasmith5610
    @anyasmith56102 жыл бұрын

    I’m glad you’re doing better and enjoying life right now - all the love Peyton x

  • @inabookshell
    @inabookshell2 жыл бұрын

    So glad your feeling better. Love your videos so much! Everyone needs breaks every once and a while. Happy to see you back:)

  • @MockingjayYT
    @MockingjayYT2 жыл бұрын

    Glad to see a notification from you. And taking breaks are very important. Looking forward to more future content and glad you are doing better ❤️ and the Mockingjay will always be here watching your future uploads. Good luck and may the odds be ever in your favor.

  • @introvertedtee3010
    @introvertedtee30102 жыл бұрын

    Aw yay I'm so happy to see you again! Don't worry about apologies or anything or even not uploading often I think we as viewers as a collective I can say we are just glad you're okay and well but yes obviously a breakup is one of the hardest things to go through and we understand. Love ya

  • @DanisMediaCorner
    @DanisMediaCorner2 жыл бұрын

    I really feel you in this video! I started my channel when I was a sophomore in high school but have ever been able to be consistent with uploads. I'm also the queen of overcommitment so I totally feel that you know you need a break but don't allow yourself to have one until you ABSOLUTELY need one. Glad you're feeling better to post content, and post it at your own pace!

  • @gabbycl
    @gabbycl2 жыл бұрын

    We will watch, no doubt! We have been here patiently waiting ☺️♥️

  • @TheBookishMom
    @TheBookishMom2 жыл бұрын

    Welcome back and I'm happy to see you back and feeling better. Life comes at us hard sometimes and it can be good to take a step back when it's needed.

  • @midnightssnowflake
    @midnightssnowflake2 жыл бұрын

    It’s so good to see you Peyton!!!!! I’ve been watching your videos since quarantine started and they’re literally my favorite thing ever! So I’m really glad your doing better and focusing on yourself. It’s also always good to hear Masie in the background 🥰

  • @LifeasMonae
    @LifeasMonae2 жыл бұрын

    I love that you did this. I’m also planning to come back much more consistently to my channel starting now. Welcome back!! Can’t wait for the holiday content

  • @juliarhapsody
    @juliarhapsody2 жыл бұрын

    Peyton, i aboustely love you and i'm so glad you took time for yourself. So glad you are doing better!

  • @tegan47n46
    @tegan47n462 жыл бұрын

    It's so good to see you in my inbox again, your videos always bring me joy, I'm so glad you are doing better right now and can't wait to see your content again 🧚✨💓

  • @Quettasbedhead
    @Quettasbedhead2 жыл бұрын

    Awww prayers for you! Your so brave to leave the videos up

  • @rueroxanne972
    @rueroxanne9722 жыл бұрын

    It’s good to see you ❤️

  • @lolaegoddard
    @lolaegoddard2 жыл бұрын

    peyton i missed you! so happy ur doing better and i am proud of u for taking that break when u needed it. i know ur worried about viewers leaving but i promise i'll always be here to watch u obsess over books haha

  • @melaniefraser8827
    @melaniefraser88272 жыл бұрын

    Welcome back Peyton, so great to hear things are feeling better for you & excited to see what the next chapter has in store for you ❤️

  • @TLBainter
    @TLBainter2 жыл бұрын

    It is good to have you back! We all need breaks; this is especially true when things get rough for us here and there.

  • @readem_blog
    @readem_blog2 жыл бұрын

    Welcome back

  • @GraceCC06
    @GraceCC062 жыл бұрын

    Happy to see you back!! ❤️ Super important to take time for yourself when you need it.

  • @emmaruthreads
    @emmaruthreads2 жыл бұрын

    i missed you omg

  • @brendagamez6387
    @brendagamez63872 жыл бұрын

    It's so good to see your face again! 😊 I'm excited for whatever you post, I missed your videos so much. Glad you're doing well! 💚

  • @iluvchickennuggets1019
    @iluvchickennuggets10192 жыл бұрын

    omg I missed your videos so much, so happy to see you back! you don’t need to apologize, always take time for your self. So happy you’re doing better! love you so much!🥰🤍

  • @mundodelectura8785
    @mundodelectura87852 жыл бұрын

    Hiiii I've miss you so much!!! Welcome back girl, we will be here for you 💜

  • @MoonlightBookReader
    @MoonlightBookReader2 жыл бұрын

    Welcome back!! Glad you took the time to put yourself first, no matter what the reasons might have been. It always has to be you first. Looking forward to more of your videos whenever you post them. My notifications are on, so I will never miss a video. And no, you're not speaking to the void and people do care about you, even from a distance and through a screen. Some people will leave, but that's life, online and offline. Nothing you can do about it. Just carry on, do your thing, film and post when you feel like it, and we'll be here. Sending you warm hugs all the way from Portugal!!!

  • @amysmith1044
    @amysmith10442 жыл бұрын

    Omg I am so happy you're back... I missed you! You're the reason I got into booktube in the first place Peyton! I will continue to follow and support you. I am so sorry about your break up and everything you're going through and I hope things get better for you! Lots of Love

  • @abbyconaton8924
    @abbyconaton89242 жыл бұрын

    you do you girl. i will always wathcn your videos!!! I've been a huge reading slump too (Im a soph nursing student) so I don't blame you haha college is hard and we all need breaks from time tot time.

  • @Alexgaming2907_
    @Alexgaming2907_2 жыл бұрын

    Great to have you back :3 Taking a break is one of the most important and understandable things in my opinion

  • @booksalicia1763
    @booksalicia17632 жыл бұрын

    So glad to see you back! I’m glad you’re getting better and can’t wait for more content:)

  • @febehuygen5409
    @febehuygen54092 жыл бұрын

    I will probably never stop watching your videos. I loved you since the beginning and never has a video of you dissapointed me! We are here for you en we love you!

  • @dearestemma
    @dearestemma2 жыл бұрын

    So glad you’re doing better, and I’m happy you were able to take a break ♥️♥️

  • @marin3933
    @marin39332 жыл бұрын

    Glad you are doing good 😄 And its great to have you back.

  • @chloelundy5265
    @chloelundy52652 жыл бұрын

    Girl do what you need to do! We support you 100%! I’m just so glad to see one of your videos. Also I’m happy that you are putting yourself out there and doing what’s best for you. So don’t apologize, take care of you!! We love you!

  • @booklovingnerd
    @booklovingnerd2 жыл бұрын

    I am so glad your back and I totally understand when you need a break you need a break. It’s been almost 2 years since my kids father and I separated and we have been together and married since 2007. But this ending of our marriage was a long time coming but also needed cause 3 1/2 - 4 years in things got toxic and only got worse so I ended things not just for me but my kids deserve to see their mom happy. A break up isn’t easy to go thru but we are all here for you.

  • @BookHooked
    @BookHooked2 жыл бұрын

    Ahh love to see content!!!

  • @Lanaxparillaxwife
    @Lanaxparillaxwife2 жыл бұрын

    Don’t feel bad for taking a break bc it’s okay to take them it’s totally understandable wanting to keep things to yourself I’m just glad that you’re doing better & in a better place & can’t wait for you to make videos again.

  • @booksforsarah2197
    @booksforsarah21972 жыл бұрын

    Happy to see you back and doing well 🥰🥰

  • @noellehaycraft4521
    @noellehaycraft45212 жыл бұрын

    I've missed your videos so much!! They always make me laugh and can't wait to see more. Glad you're back!! :)

  • @blackheartbooks
    @blackheartbooks2 жыл бұрын

    Glad to see you’re back and doing well❤️❤️

  • @kammypost730
    @kammypost7302 жыл бұрын

    Glad to see you posting again! Time off is always needed, we will be here for you! Hope you get some good books read soon

  • @hoaianh5105
    @hoaianh51052 жыл бұрын

    Hey Peyton, welcome back!! Please don’t feel sorry for taking a break, I love that you’re focusing on yourself and being more social. I went through a similar phase of being just slumpy with life, but it also gave me the chance to recuperate and grow as a person. Thank you for pulling through and continue making videos! You are one of my comfort booktubers 🥰

  • @thegirlonfiredolls
    @thegirlonfiredolls2 жыл бұрын

    im here, im glad your back :3 missed your vids!!

  • @mikochan2885
    @mikochan28852 жыл бұрын

    glad to have you back Peyton!! it's okay to have a time for yourself we understand ❤️💗💖😘

  • @bookswithnatasa
    @bookswithnatasa2 жыл бұрын

    Welcome back! i missed you and your fun videos. No need to apologize. Always take time for yourself. Your mental health is important. I'm so glad to see you back! 🥰

  • @kate___lynch
    @kate___lynch2 жыл бұрын

    I was just recently thinking that I haven’t seen your videos for a while.. usually if someone that I’m subscribed to doesn’t upload for a while I just don’t care and I never can notice it, but it was different with you. I’m glad you’re ok, and you’re very strong for holding yourself together so well! That’s actually really inspiring! You are the only one who makes me excited about reading, I always want to read when I watch your videos, and for a record I don’t usually read that much. Of course we care about you and what’s been happening, and what you’re saying feels so genuine it’s like talking to a friend, even though I’m just listening 😂 and that’s always greatly appreciated when it comes to KZreadrs. Thanks for that! Looking forward to your new videos!!! :)

  • @emmaleask5353
    @emmaleask53532 жыл бұрын

    So glad that you're back, I really missed your videos and hope you're doing okay ❤️❤️

  • @percydoeseverything
    @percydoeseverything2 жыл бұрын

    So happy to have you back!! Altough, I won't lie, your little break has enabled me to catch up on some of your videos! 🤣

  • @Kitkatscanread
    @Kitkatscanread2 жыл бұрын

    So glad you're back 💙

  • @Enhallbarbokmal
    @Enhallbarbokmal2 жыл бұрын

    So happy that you are back!!!

  • @JasReads
    @JasReads2 жыл бұрын

    Glad you’re doing better 💜💜

  • @audrey-liliisabelle7854
    @audrey-liliisabelle78542 жыл бұрын

    Very glad to see you back🤩

  • @booksandlifewithlaura2143
    @booksandlifewithlaura21432 жыл бұрын

    It's good to see you back 😊

  • @deborah1874
    @deborah18742 жыл бұрын

    Sending you lots of love from France ❤️❤️ I’m so glad to see you again but don’t feel pressure to post regularly if you don’t feel to, we will always support you and your content (at least I will ✌🏻). I hope you will feel better and better as time goes over. Love xx

  • @ITZ_VIOLET_
    @ITZ_VIOLET_2 жыл бұрын

    So glad to see you back! Honestly I’ve been in a huge slump as well :/

  • @bookworm_and_tea
    @bookworm_and_tea2 жыл бұрын

    Glad to see that you're back and feeling better

  • @jasbookish
    @jasbookish2 жыл бұрын

    im glad ur fine! looking forward to ur future posts, i'll def wait if u take a break!

  • @ChrisAsHell
    @ChrisAsHell2 жыл бұрын

    You’re awesome

  • @BooksofAmber
    @BooksofAmber2 жыл бұрын

    Welcome back!

  • @asparagusisreading
    @asparagusisreading2 жыл бұрын

    Happy to see that you're back!

  • @changedbybooks665
    @changedbybooks6652 жыл бұрын

    Peyton I've followed you for years and you're one of my favorite booktubers 💙 I really missed your videos and I hope everything keeps getting better for you now 💚 I follow you on Twitter so I guessed you were taking a break and I hope you feel better now 🌻

  • @jalynnknight2610
    @jalynnknight26102 жыл бұрын

    I can't believe you went to YallFest too!! I met Dustin Thao as well and he was super nice. I wish I could have met you, since I've been watching your videos for such a long time, but I hope you had a great time! It was so nice seeing book people in person again.

  • @pallasxo9936
    @pallasxo99362 жыл бұрын

    we missed you, welcome back ❤️

  • @doreenlow4095
    @doreenlow40952 жыл бұрын

    Good to have you back. Please never think no-one care, I care. Sending healing hugs your way 🤗 xxxxx.

  • @BrittanyandBooks
    @BrittanyandBooks2 жыл бұрын

    Love you ❤ so proud of you and can't wait to see your beautiful face in my subscription box again ❤

  • @ashreadsfantasy
    @ashreadsfantasy2 жыл бұрын

    Hey girl! Really glad you're doing better and everyone needs a self care break sometimes its how you don't lose your mind lol anyway I'm also currently reading The Song of Achilles and I can tell I'm going to be sobbing! Glad you're back girl ✌

  • @gracie9658
    @gracie96582 жыл бұрын

    I thought about how I hadn't seen you in my subsceiptions recently and hoped you were ok. I'm glad to see you're doing better, take care of yourself and take all the time you need 💕

  • @JamieReads_1
    @JamieReads_12 жыл бұрын

    I was just thinking what happened to you. I am so glad that you are coming back, but we all need a break and it helps us get back. Hang in there girl. 🦕

  • @evareads2817
    @evareads28172 жыл бұрын

    Omg! I came back to booktube last month and last week I suddenly thought: where is Peyton?! So I am so happy to see you back! ❤️🎉 I can totally relate to having a massive reading slump...

  • @BlondeBooks
    @BlondeBooks2 жыл бұрын

    I’ve missed you, love you💕

  • @HeyItsLynnx
    @HeyItsLynnx2 жыл бұрын

    We missed youuu💞

  • @hollycurtis5849
    @hollycurtis58492 жыл бұрын

    Girl! Breakups are tough! Take care of yourself!

  • @readslovely
    @readslovely2 жыл бұрын

    We missed u ❤️🥺 take care sweetie, i care and i think we all care.. i watch you for literally years and I recently started a channel myself 💓 i love you peyton even if you took a break for 1 year.. i'll drop everything and watch immediately.✨ you don't have to prove yourself. The people who like you and followed you through everything will always stay😘

  • @theswiftieteacher
    @theswiftieteacher2 жыл бұрын

    I am loyal subscriber and I’ve been waiting for the return of Peyton! Everyone needs breaks sometimes!

  • @aquietcalmcorner
    @aquietcalmcorner2 жыл бұрын

    I honestly care , and i was always checking your channel and watching some of your old videos, it was weird actually cause i know that you post videos constantly . I'm sorry to hear what had happened but i wish you'll be okay and wish you a good luck with your studies too i really really missed you and your videos. Stay safe and take care of yourself

  • @goddess_of_mischief
    @goddess_of_mischief2 жыл бұрын

    Hello Peyton! I missed you so much and I’m so happy that you are back. You are totally allowed to take a break. Sometimes, you just have too. I’ll keep following you because you are an amazing person, you are full of energy and I just love your channel. From a French fan ❤️

  • @linasburrow
    @linasburrow2 жыл бұрын

    I am so glad you are back Peyton. As someone who has been subscribed to your channel since the last 5 years almost, I feel like you are my friend whom I have seen grow over the years. I missed you. But please don’t feel the need to apologise to us for not posting for a while. It is completely okay to take a break & take time for yourself. I am happy to know that you are okay & you are doing better. I know its hard, trust me. I went through a lot in life. Usually I never share with anyone, much less publicly. I am not one who usually comments. I am more like the appreciating from the background kind of person, but today I just wanted to write this. I went through a divorce recently. Then a few months ago, my mom got diagnosed with cancer. Life is hard. But you are right, bad things happen. But we do heal, we do move on & we just have to try to get through it all. Just wanted to let you know that you are wonderful & strong. Take care. 💕🥰

  • @thewitchyreader6131
    @thewitchyreader61312 жыл бұрын

    I'm sorry that you've been going through that. I'm glad you're back. You're one of my favorite booktubers and I always love your videos. But if you need time, a break, take it. You deserve it. And when you come back, your viewers will be here waiting for you, supporting you.

  • @samyllapinheiro4365
    @samyllapinheiro43652 жыл бұрын

    I’ve been watching your videos for probably 4/5 years now and there’s NO WAYY I’m unsubscribing, girl!! Take your time and upload videos whenever you feel good, we’ll wait! 🥰

  • @luciamarks8656
    @luciamarks86562 жыл бұрын

    missed you ❤️

  • @jemimahlikesfood5792
    @jemimahlikesfood57922 жыл бұрын

    I missed you!!!!!!!!!!! omg!

  • @solaceinstories5345
    @solaceinstories53452 жыл бұрын

    hang in there, peyton

  • @necholejacobs6195
    @necholejacobs61952 жыл бұрын

    you gotta do you. make yourself happy before anyone else. you'll have your true followers

  • @theworldof11
    @theworldof112 жыл бұрын

    Hey Peyton I hope the best for you, your feelings are valid ❤ Aaa, TSOA is one of my fave books, and I hope you enjoy it The blonde hair looks awesome on you! Have you heard about them doing the vampire academy into a serie?

  • @kaiju_k5042
    @kaiju_k50422 жыл бұрын

    Aww sorry to hear :( but nice to see a video from you! I just realized how much you look like Sophie Turner!

  • @MrRorosuri
    @MrRorosuri2 жыл бұрын

    💜💜💜

  • @samanthaarbon
    @samanthaarbon2 жыл бұрын

    We missed u

  • @Courtneybenson907
    @Courtneybenson9072 жыл бұрын

    💜💜

  • @dannixxos
    @dannixxos2 жыл бұрын

    Do people really stop following KZreadrs because they don’t post videos? That’s not even something I’ve thought about doing. You do what you need to, girl. We’ll be here when you’re ready ❤️

  • @stephenjohnson9123
    @stephenjohnson91232 жыл бұрын

    Praying for you I know how hard it is to lose a love I dated my ex for 6 years she left me do to my health I had cancer and she said she couldn't handle me dieing on her

  • @tamiresferreira9269
    @tamiresferreira92692 жыл бұрын

    I care and I miss your videos

  • @LessSublime
    @LessSublime2 жыл бұрын

    Glad you're doing better dude, btw my roblox name is still PeyronReads it won't let me change it :(

  • @PeytonReads

    @PeytonReads

    2 жыл бұрын

    Devon is that you 😂 thank you! I miss you so much

  • @openlybookish
    @openlybookish2 жыл бұрын

    Wait you broke up?? And I was thinking it was health related. I think my mouth has permanently dropped open. Huge hugs.....break ups SUCK 😭

  • @wolficeir
    @wolficeir2 жыл бұрын

    I'm guessing you broke up with him because you grew apart?

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