This is a personal one. But I wanted to share this, because the past few months were an important part of my inner growth. The dark veil has lifted by now and I am excited to turn lots of cool ideas into videos! Let me know what sort of videos you would like to see! ♥️

@zeliagouveia6237

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing with us what you going true I am sending hugs you help me with thing I don't need anymore my health give energy to go for a walk meditation to learn about my self to avoid but people so thank you for everything you do

@gbertarelli

4 жыл бұрын

You're so awesome. You must love being alone with yourself. You are enough. I have a sign in my bedroom that says "You Are Good Enough". Good enough is good enough. I don't need to go anywhere or do anything. I'm happy home alone by myself chopping wood and carrying water. There is nothing to do. There is no out there out there. (You are all there is.) When we know this, life is easy. I'm happy to be alone because I'm awesome and I'm not nearly as awesome as YOU are Conni! hahahaa Jed and Pema show us the way. XOXOXOOOO

@ela6087

3 жыл бұрын

Danke fürs Teilen 🙏🏼✨🍀❤️

@dominickreginald5969

2 жыл бұрын

You all prolly dont care at all but does someone know of a trick to log back into an Instagram account? I somehow forgot the password. I would love any tips you can give me.

Just came across your video. Strange how the universe just knows what you need, even if nobody else does. Thanks girl! Love your honesty. Your a beautiful soul!

Your description about how you felt in this video is spot on how I feel at this moment. Emotional resilience is my most valuable possession at this time in my life… I hope you have retained yours. You are a gift to anyone who “sees you”. Glad I stumbled onto your channel. Sending good energy to you and hope you return to your channel again… You’re very talented. Namaste 🙏🏻

thank you so much, conni, for going through all this, showing up again here and sharing! so strong your message, so comforting - ya, this is life! we are moving into higher levels of conciousness, where things need to fall apart! we are all evolving together, everyone with his/her shadow- and light-game! i feel you! 💞monika

This is my favorite video. As someone who is also going through a very difficult in-between period, I appreciate the rawness and sincerity of this video. Best of luck to you and the experiences of the future.

Thank you so much for your content. I came across your channel just now, and can not express how grateful I am. Your story is so real and so true, that it makes me feel that there is hope and I can get through my darkness also. I ran from myself for 32 years and finally realised that there is no where in the world that I can hide and that maybe, just maybe it is time, to get to know me and face my deepest wounds and fears. What you are telling in your videos is so painful and healing at the same time. Lots of love. Thank you

Thank you Conni for your honest video. I remember that i read you Backpacking-Blog in 2015, you branded me to overthink life and it was the beginning for me to discover new ways and work with myself. I need to thank you deeply for that. I think we never should stop feel and hear our own feelings and if we do it, life show us the ways to face them again and process it. Its always a small battle between our Head, knowledge and doing versus our real heart and expectations of our soul. I wish you a loving balanced experience and the feeling of true love with your existence, we all are on our own journey. Much love and acceptance for all your feelings in you, they are all right :) You will create you next chapter as you imagine and you will proceed that what you really want to create.

Thank you so much for sharing! Actually, I started my whole selfemployment and blogger career due to a breakup and I couldn‘t be happier about that. I started with a blog writing about the breakup which turned into a blog about book reviews and from there I started travel blogging which led to our culinary hiking blog. The breakup was horrible at the time and I was devestated but blogging about it helped so so much! ❤️

Really beautiful and emotional video, Conni! Loved the deep insights, poetry and aesthetics. Very glad to see you're back. And yes, such phases have proven to be lessons for myself, too. I've found that "feeling the feelings", meditation and self-compassion have helped me, too, in such situations. And usually the pain prepares the earth for new and fruitful growth. All the best to you!

Thanks. I was wondering about you. Glad you're able to process and be back on camera talking again.

I absolutely feel the same! Your words described every moment over the last 4 months perfectly. Thank you. Love!

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

With my upmost pleasure. We are all together in this :)

I like your energy, Conni. It must have taken much dedication to continuously work on yourself through the years. I run away a lot from myself, but watching your videos gives me the calmness and tenderness to sit with myself too, to hold myself in compassion. Thank you for your videos. I'm a lot younger than you, and I actually want to be someone like you in future. To be true to myself and giving others the courage to do the same too. :)

My love, this has been by far the best cinematic video of yours which comes to show how much you have evolved into filming and video editing! This video is beautiful, the story is beautiful, the wording is beautiful! I am sad to understand you have been going through a tough time, but you prove once again to be a fighter, a conscious one! Sending you much love and the notion that home is to feel complete, healthy, happy, protected instead of being in a particular place 😘❤️

great to have you back! thanks for sharing 😘

Oh Conni! I didn’t know... rough winter for you. My heart goes out to you... warm hugs 🧡 Stay on your path

Thank you so much for your honesty. I find myself very much in what you say. I had a situation like this almost three years ago. My husband left from one day to another and with him our common vision of creatinig a healingplace in nature (what we already started to do) and my homeplace was gone. Pema Chödröns book "When everything falls appart" helped me a lot. And to stop projecting my pain onto my partner (and that's really hard if you feel hurt because then you really have to take the pain). And yes, friends and family. A really good therapist. And I used everything I learnd until that time during all the years of personal developement as a human being, therapist and coach. So I danced a lot. I used my voice and breath. So I danced it out and I voiced it out. My sadness, my anger, my fear. It somehow gave me a feeling of "I'm still there and I'm alive and I can do something" - it helped me getting out of the freezing mode. Really letting my nervsystem do what it needed to do: crying, shaking, breathing, making sounds. It sometimes felt like in between crazyness and enlightenment. It's really not a nice and easy walk. But to really dear to face it and to really feel it through completely made me so much stronger. After the heavy phase of the process I felt totaly new born and different in my body. I'm so much more myself and I feel more alive than ever before. It's all about the here and now. To be really there. And to take life as an evolutionary journey and be fine with that (sorry for writing so much here - it just came out of my heart...). Thank you Conni for your beautiful, honest and so encouraging creations! Much love, Maria

Hi Conni, what a wonderfully serene, honest and reflective video. Thanks for sharing! My life has been teetering on the brink of collapse for a few years now, and the only reason why it didn't collapse, until recently, is because I was holding on too tightly, as you say. Holding on to a career that makes me deeply unhappy, being inauthentic in my closest relationships just to keep the peace. So now I'm smack bang in the middle of that in-between place you describe - and it's painful. Like you, I've felt like I could go under and crack, but so far I've managed to hold it altogether. I've built up emotional resilience too over the years. I feel alone, rejected and misunderstood, for sure, but I'm also dropping that victim story now to embrace something altogether more empowering. Still have my off days, and have absolutely no idea how my life is going to pan out now that I've decided I'm handing in my notice at work at the end of the month. I have a viable business venture but very little business knowledge. But I'm spending the extra time I have available to me during lockdown to learn! So thanks for posting. I've read a few of Pema Chodron's books, and her title Start Where You Are has been my lifeline during the last few difficult months. I found it uplifting to see you incorporating her words and to be reminded of her powerful ideas. Thanks for your profound and inspirational insights.

This video is simply beautiful! I am glad you are back on a path with a bit more sunlight. I am going through something similar and feel so understood.

That video helped me so much. I feel less alone. Thanks for sharing 💕

...this resonates a lot ... thank you for sharing your experience Conni 🧡

Bless you Conni. This was a preciously worded video.

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

thank you!

Your video helped me know I'm not alone going through my own shit I got a long long way to go not know if I can hold myself to gether long enough before every think falls apart be for every one finds out what a mes I'm in in my head . You have given me fresh hope and I will keep digging deep .it must had been a living hell for you at your darkiest moment you can be proud of your self to get where you are today.thank you so so very much for deep self in the video. Wish you all the very best in the future.

Conni, we are here with you all the way! Much love!

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

thank you so much

Kia kaha (stay strong). I am watching your video from a tiny country in the South Pacific (New Zealand). Your videos are great. Keep communicating!

Just going with the flow has helped me in life many times.

That is life, there are some good things coming. For me friends , music and work keeps my going.

I love your honesty and willingness to share your experiances. This video is actually what I needed to watch today. Thank you *sends love and good vibes* Xx

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so glad it resonated

Taking ownership of your changes and journey is beautiful....and true freedom. You are doing just that. Thanks for sharing and may this journey continue to lead you to more joy and wisdom.

I've recently just found you and I resonate with a lot of things you've been through. I really needed to see this video today. You have some great content. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏽😑🕉️

Such a tender and honest video to watch.. Uprooted is the word I highlight.

Thank you. I'm trying so hard to try and find home within myself. And as you described life keeps throwing out lessons. It's exhausting and it's scary.

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

I hear you.. and the only way out is through - by falling in love with all your feelings and with being scared and exhausted. The more we resist it, the more we suffer. Life is always in transition and to believe that the goal is smooth sailing and achieving lasting happiness is an illusion we need to let go off..

@kristenpolymer672

4 жыл бұрын

@@ConniBiesalski Butternut squash is the only thing I've fallen in love with lately. Ty for your kind reply. Can you explain what holding a place for me, means.

Life is calling me to process a lot of old sadness at the moment. What helps me is to do activities that encourage me to get into feeling mode. I‘m usually on the computer all day long so it really helps to put it away as often as possible.

Love the new video Conni! 👍

Such a beautiful and touching video. You are an inspiration and I have learnt so much from you. I am going through some changes and what is helping me a lot is watching Echkart Tolle’s videos and teachings about being present in the moment.

Transitions are so hard. I can relate and have been on the edge of changes for a while now. Feels like limbo when you know changes are coming but haven't happened yet.

Especially in this time where you basically have to feel guilty of not creating your best sh..... piece of work I am massively grateful for your everytime honest videos. And the digital nomad scene is a very tough one where you can easily loose track about the right and true stuff in life. Thanks a lot for your consistency and your vulnerability (this is what I learned from you the first place).

This year has been the harsh of all my life! First my grandma died,after a few months my great grandma died as well, and as if it wasn't enough, yesterday my dog had a bad seizure. And God knows what she has,but she's old and the vet weren't all that much positive about it. And in all of this I have a degree to get in 1 month and after 3 years of hard working and sacrifice I'm lost,broken, and not strength to get up and study... I'm extremely overwhelmed, so much that I can't even find the words anymore.

Thank your for your gentle & strong heart! Yoga and meditation helps me a lot. Even to just stay in Childpose and feel my body and emotions helped me so much to actually stay in my body and process things. And a big one for me is to share my inner process. To open up and explain whats going on inside.. guess its also I way to vocalize things for myself.

I've already watched this twice - just because I know there's stuff I missed the first time around. :)

Beautiful soul!! I see you. Much love to you🙏🏼

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

thank you for seeing me :)

Thank you for this, I saw you with Nicky C.on an interview. about anxiety. I hit rock bottom after losing my mom 2017.I have come along way since then.😊 I’m still learning to love myself more.💕

Danke Conni. Dem Zitat von Marianne Williamson am Schluss kann ich vollkommen zustimmen. Danke für dein dich zeigen und ich hab mich durch dein Video grade vollkommen in meinem Bedürfnis nach einer 'Homebase' bestätigt gefühlt. Und dieses In-Between sein, ja fühle es auch, aber irgendwie wird es noch verstärkt durch das Weltgeschehen gerade.. Das alte ist weg und das neue noch nicht da. Ich war die letzten Wochen auch so lost, hab so mit dir mitgefühlt. Und gestern hatte ich einen Moment in der Natur, in dem ich die Kraft und Weisheit der Schöpfung fühlen konnte und das etwas Wunderbares vorbereitet ist. Was viel Schöneres als ich je erlebt habe. Wünsch uns ganz viel Vertrauen und Geborgenheitsgefühl in diesem Prozess. Liebevolle Grüße

Thanks so much for sharing and being vulnerable! Awesome to have you back! What helped me? Dancing Nia, teaching my Nia + Yoga Classes, connecting with friends, my dog and nature, nature, nature!

Thankyou for sharing beautiful one x 💗

Ich sehe dein Video und muss einfach nur weinen .... weil es mir 100% genauso geht. Ich danke dir so sehr für das Teilen. Es hilft mir so sehr 🙏🏻

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

Aileen Witzel im glad it helps you to feel less alone while you are going through it. There is light at the end of the tunnel.. trust that 💛

@aileenwitzel4275

4 жыл бұрын

Conni Biesalski I‘ll hope it’s gonne be better at one day and I know that there is anything big big is waiting.... yes I trust .... Im guided by the light and by my bigger porpose. Thank you thank you thank you 🙏🏻

Sending you lots of ❤️ Conni!

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you, Justin

Hey, thanks for sharing this 🙂 i really empathize with your struggles. I've been running a business from home for the last 13 years and i'm feeling now like it's time for change. It feels like i'm being pulled in that direction but the idea of such a shift scares the hell out of me.

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

Fall in love with the fear and get comfortable with it :)

@stewartyoung335

4 жыл бұрын

@@ConniBiesalski ❤😁

Speechless 💕, I love you conni 😘

Thank you for this great video.. I go through the similar experience till 3 month. (End of a mariage) Your video brings it perfectly to the point. Just keep going and live day by day. Not only in taff times! An what i learned: « Friends are very essential an now I’ve got some! » I wish you a lot of courage for the days, month and years to come. Johnny

Yes, life is falling apart. But for me it’s now to such an extreme that I don’t have anything to hold onto anymore. Over the past few months my job has fallen away, my relationship, and I’m homesick, living abroad from my family. I’ve come to realise that I have built up nothing in my life, and I’m 38 now. A deep anxious depression has set in, and I can’t even function enough anymore to take care of myself. I’ve experienced depressive episodes before but this is a whole new level. Nothing seems interesting or fun anymore. I can’t get out of bed. I hope I make it out of this.

@thehealingnetwork5362

2 жыл бұрын

I feel you and going through the same. I have turned 39 this year and it shook me to the core. Everything fell apart…health too. It feels like dark long tunnel and no light…I wish we find our way out and have a new beginning 🙏

@SjorsHoukes

2 жыл бұрын

@@thehealingnetwork5362 im so sorry to hear that. What we can hold onto is: things always change. As long as we don’t let them get worse, they can get better. I am sending you a big virtual hug.

@thehealingnetwork5362

2 жыл бұрын

@@SjorsHoukes thank you! I hope this huge transition/ transformation ends soon and brings some blessings for us 🙏 I hear that when life falls apart it’s because our Destiny is changing and we are redirected into something else.

There is still a lot of pain in your voice and being (sorry its not my place to say something like that, but I could just "feel" it). Its great to know that you are healing and will, slowly but surely. Stay blessed. And hit me up if you visit Calgary, Canada!

this video is wonderful ♥️you inspire me

"Only to extent that we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation can that which is indestructible in us be found." That's deep. And so true.

Constantly traveling the world is exciting with meeting many people. Anyhow some may feel even more lonely after all than people living at the same place maintaining a smaller amount of friends.

Very beautiful!!

Yes, Pema's chapter called "Hopelessness and Death" in her book "When Things Fall Apart" helped me when I was at my lowest. Hang in there Conni. XOXOOO "Turning your mind towards the dharma does not bring security or confirmation. Turning your mind towards the dharma does not bring any ground to stand on. In fact, when your mind turns toward the dharma, you fearlessly acknowledge impermanence and change and begin to get the knack of hopelessness. The difference between theism and notheism is not whether one does or does not believe in God. It is an issue that applies to everyone, including Buddhists and non-Buddhists. Theism is a deeply seated conviction that there’s some hand to hold: if we just do the right things, someone will appreciate us and take care of us. It means thinking there’s always going to be a babysitter available when we need one. We all are inclined to abdicate our responsibilities and delegate our authority to something outside ourselves. Nontheism is relaxing with the ambiguity and uncertainty of the present moment without reaching for anything to protect ourselves. Nontheism is realizing that there’s no babysitter that you can count on. The whole of life is like that. That is the truth, and the truth is inconvenient. As long as we’re addicted to hope, we feel that we can tone our experience down or liven it up or change it somehow, and we continue to suffer a lot. In a nontheistic state of mind, abandoning hope is an affirmation, the beginning of the beginning. You could even put “Abandon Hope” on your refrigerator door instead of more conventional aspirations like “Everyday in everyway, I’m getting better and better.” We hold onto hope and it robs us of the present moment. If hope and fear are two different sides of the same coin, so are hopelessness and confidence. If we’re willing to give up hope that insecurity and pain can be exterminated, then we can have the courage to relax with the groundlessness of our situation. Death can be explained as not only the endings in life but all of the things in life that we don’t want. Our marriage isn’t working; our job isn’t coming together. Death and hopelessness provide proper motivation for living an insightful, compassionate life. But most of the time warding off death is our biggest motivation. Warding off any sense of problem, trying to deny that change is a natural occurrence, that sand is slipping through our fingers. Time is passing and its as natural as the seasons changing. But getting old, sick, losing love - we don’t see those events as natural. We want to ward them off, no matter what. When we talk about hopelessness and death, we’re talking about facing facts. No escapism. Giving up hope is encouragement to stick with yourself, not to run away, to return to the bare bones, no matter whats going on. If we totally experience hopelessness, giving up all hope of alternatives to the present moment, we can have a joyful relationship with our lives, an honest, direct relationship that no longer ignores the reality of impermanence and death." Excerpted from When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron

Liebe Conny, ich kann es sehr genau nachempfinden und dich gut verstehen. Ich befinden mit seit November 2019 in einer sehr ähnlichen Phase… Gönne dir viel Ruhe und Zeit mit dir. Es dauert etwas, doch langsam kommt die Klarheit.

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you

@anditioniert

4 жыл бұрын

@@ConniBiesalski 😊

I suspect that those people who develop faster than physical reality can adjust, most likely will experience life falling apart, so "reality" can keep up with our true desires. I'm not an expert, but definitely quite experienced in "life falling apart". My main tool is shovel, but only after all dust has come down. Untill then I just look at dust coming down, observe my pain and try not to act. Digging/ expanding self awareness and understanding will release pain and eventually sun rays will fall again.

Really beautiful Conni, thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing this. Come to Tbilisi Georgia! I've only been here a few weeks, but am staying through the summer. 1 year visa on arrival and a large digital nomad community. Inexpensive and really beautiful. Wishing you peace and joy on your journey!

@KristinGasser

4 жыл бұрын

Tiblisi is awesome! We were there last year...

@naturalback

4 жыл бұрын

Thats on my list.....

We are all one❤❤❤

To answer your question. Yes: yoga asanas, pranayama, meditation. But. Most of all: nature. Mountains. When you hike around giant waves of Earth your feelings just get scaled in correct proportions. Also, I do my intuitive rituals, but that’s a long story.

If you come to SF area, I will be your friend, family and pet. ☺️ I love listening to you as it is like listening to myself.

Love you! You requested tools, ilys.com for writing and getting into flow and stress release :)

this video is water in a desert. ! you are so important to me. Lili.

Are you in Switzerland Conni?

I'm around a lot of bad energy these days; the western world is falling apart, what with ego-centrism, hyper-individualism and materialism, people have become very empty and barren and raw, no spirituality, no being in awe of a higher power, no humility at all anymore. We are forgetting the ways of our ancestors, that of love + passion and a healthy conscience, of humility + pride. I don't like going out anymore, public transit in the city I'm in is unsafe even with cameras, guys looking for fights and immense poverty causing chaos and division, a splitting of the fabric of society here in Canada.

don't the meditations of dr dispenza help? in your video about his workshop, it seemed like his meditations were helping you.

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

yes, they definitely helped as well. AND the inner work never stops. With every challenge, we are always asked to go deeper.

neuer Homebase Vorschlag Zermatt

@lauraniebel3510

4 жыл бұрын

Atlanta Lehmann Quite nice but cold and with no beach for surfing ... I’d suggest Perth/Freo - great weather, surf spots, beautiful nature with few people around and lots of vegan food & yoga (especially in Freo)... but then again, I’m probably a bit biased.

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

Laura Niebel hehe that sounds like it would tick a lot of my boxes :)

@lauraniebel3510

4 жыл бұрын

@@ConniBiesalski Well, you better make your way over here sometime and check it out! :)

I thought this was going to be about COVID-19 affecting your travels.

@ConniBiesalski

4 жыл бұрын

There is still more things going on than just that, ya know

U are just getting old....woman. nothing wrong with that.