What It’s Like To Lose Someone To Suicide

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  • @Bekahcraig
    @Bekahcraig5 жыл бұрын

    the only reason I'm still on this planet is that I am afraid of how it would affect the people who love me.

  • @cowboydelnorte3078

    @cowboydelnorte3078

    5 жыл бұрын

    My brother is the only reason I’m here. If he passes I may go too. But sometimes I feel I should just leave now but I don’t want him to be hurt and to live contemplating on how he could’ve saved me or said something or even blaming himself bc it’s not about that it’s just me a lot of times I simply don’t want to be here I hate the human race and blame God for all that we are to this very second but whatever love doesn’t matter on earth it never did power is what matters and it’s poison

  • @BenChung78

    @BenChung78

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@cowboydelnorte3078 Just know that GOD is not the type who abuses and uses people for power. The ones who abuse and use people for power are evil people....not GOD. So learn to trust in GOD and not in the others who abuse and use people the wrong way. Peace only comes from GOD anyhow. You see...Christians believe that GOD sent His son into the world so that people can be free from sin and misery...not to abuse people and use us.....but to set people free from the source of misery that is having the wrong mindset of seeing everyone and everything as something to be used and acquired for oneself. Jesus saves from sin and gives a hope stronger than death. But one has to be humble and believe in order to receive that hope.

  • @gattinafatata

    @gattinafatata

    4 жыл бұрын

    It's not the only reason, it's not how it works! You may be suffering but you have love around yourself, you want to be alive even though you're struggling with mental health. You don't just decide if you're going to die so easily, you're still in time. I hope you get better.

  • @yurelldetorres1071

    @yurelldetorres1071

    4 жыл бұрын

    Exactly dude my friends are the only reason im still hrre

  • @bokastark3925

    @bokastark3925

    4 жыл бұрын

    How are you doing now 💕

  • @doom3798
    @doom37988 жыл бұрын

    this is the only reason i'm still alive. i can't put my family through this

  • @NeverLooksAtComments

    @NeverLooksAtComments

    8 жыл бұрын

    +a simple doge you, a simple doge?

  • @doom3798

    @doom3798

    8 жыл бұрын

    NeverLooksAtComments even doges get a lil sad sometimes

  • @llamacornchan2611

    @llamacornchan2611

    8 жыл бұрын

    I'm sorry,i'm so sorry i hope you get better 💕

  • @Queen-qv4tm

    @Queen-qv4tm

    8 жыл бұрын

    +a simple doge everything is temporary, and you will be okay

  • @doom3798

    @doom3798

    8 жыл бұрын

    Llamacorn Chan thank you so much

  • @That_dom_guy
    @That_dom_guy2 жыл бұрын

    I wish I could give my life to someone who wants to live

  • @CandyKitty_Doll

    @CandyKitty_Doll

    2 жыл бұрын

    Same, I want to give it to my grandpa who died last year from ALS and he never wanted to die.

  • @UseADamnCoaster

    @UseADamnCoaster

    2 жыл бұрын

    Exactly. Had a friend die of cancer a few months ago when he had a bright future. I have no future and no desire to create one. All I could think about was how if trading places with my friend was an option, I would have done it instantly, without any hesitation or regret.

  • @SuperVladdrakula
    @SuperVladdrakula Жыл бұрын

    "Suicide isn't selfish. What's truly selfish is neglecting someone so badly to the point that they want to kill themselves." Words of a wise person...

  • @northlovelady-allen6441
    @northlovelady-allen64415 жыл бұрын

    If I could leave without hurting anyone I would.

  • @nickdick454

    @nickdick454

    5 жыл бұрын

    You just found your reason to stay

  • @arielrodriguez1892

    @arielrodriguez1892

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@thiswndrlnd8119 Mona they only care after the guy or girls ended their life like always why they didn't do anything to help him or her in the first place I don't care anyways I am just giving my opinion on the video have a nice day.

  • @arielrodriguez1892

    @arielrodriguez1892

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@thiswndrlnd8119 Mona that's fine I am glad u have that many friends but I front have any I only go from my home to work and then from work to my home I accept my life the way it is but It makes me sick seeing all this people in the video acting like they care when in the momment they didn't do anything now it is too late to cry

  • @AceOfWaffles

    @AceOfWaffles

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@arielrodriguez1892 They probably had NO IDEA that their loved one was struggling, or just how bad it was getting! It's terrible to say those people didn't care until they were dead. You don't know that. People care about you. They really do. They just don't understand and/or don't know how to help.

  • @ruicosta4044

    @ruicosta4044

    5 жыл бұрын

    That's the only thing holding me back but everyday the feeling gets stronger

  • @emmamargaard4510
    @emmamargaard45103 жыл бұрын

    I don’t want to die, and I don’t want to live either. I wish I was never born

  • @inameier1257

    @inameier1257

    3 жыл бұрын

    Well I'm glad you're here and do you know why? According to your profile picture, you stan or like a man who is incredibly wonderful and kind. And because of that, you must me a wonderful, kind person as well. I don't know what you believe in, but I believe that everyone is here on this earth at this time for a reason. And so are you and maybe it doesn't seem like it's worth living right now, but I promise you one day it will get better. And you'll know why you're here. We influence so many people around us without even knowing it. Let's take the two of us as an example. I just read your comment and even tho I have no idea who you are, I care about you now. I want you to be here! Whenever you think there's so reason to stay or no reason for you to be born at all, you can now think about the stranger out there (hi, that's me, I'm Emmi :)) that cares about you being here. I want you to be strong and to fight for happiness. One day you will realize it's worth it. And I promise you this day is nearer than you think. So please stay strong and never stop fighting for yourself and others. Everybody can be the someone who makes a difference to somebody else. Please stay, you deserve all the happiness in the world. And if you want to, you can always contact me. But if you want me to stay the stranger who cares about you, that's fine as well. TPWK :)

  • @emmamargaard4510

    @emmamargaard4510

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@inameier1257 this made me smile, you’re so sweet. Thank you sm🥺 this means so much, to know someone cares. I wish you all happiness in the world ❤️

  • @youtubeaccount1441

    @youtubeaccount1441

    3 жыл бұрын

    Same

  • @ea062

    @ea062

    3 жыл бұрын

    Never read anything so relatable, I just want to sleep forever peacefully. But I also want to know what happens if I don’t, will it get better? Hopefully. I’m gonna keep pushing through for now, nothing can ever be the same ya know? We all change. I hope we all can find a sense of peace 💜

  • @naahbro

    @naahbro

    3 жыл бұрын

    Same why I born

  • @endormimi5261
    @endormimi52612 жыл бұрын

    This video saved my life as an 18 year old. I’m now nearly 24 and still alive. Thank you to those who shared their stories. Thank you. Just thank you. I love you all

  • @PHEROMONE-wz9bz

    @PHEROMONE-wz9bz

    2 жыл бұрын

    U happy now ?

  • @endormimi5261

    @endormimi5261

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@PHEROMONE-wz9bz It's been up and down but in that time I met and got engaged to the love of my life, emigrated to france, started on a new career path and am planning to have my own family after my wedding. So yes I still have my mental health struggles but to be alive and not dead at 18 is a blessing

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    Жыл бұрын

    @@endormimi5261 "but to be alive and not dead at 18 is a blessing" _Utter BS..._

  • @Goawaypl5

    @Goawaypl5

    Жыл бұрын

    I hope I'll be able to make it to that age. Sometimes it's harder than others times. But lately it's gotten really bad, I was going to end it all about a week ago but one of my friends just kept texting me, she didn't know I was going to do it but she stopped it without knowing what was going on.

  • @Urpersonalplaylist736
    @Urpersonalplaylist736 Жыл бұрын

    My sister committed suicide 2 weeks ago. I check her room and saw she wasn’t there. I cried. I miss my big sister so much. I need her. My best friend said everything was going to be okay but it’s not. It will never be. I will never see my sister again. I miss you big sister. I love you

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    Жыл бұрын

    Life simply doesn't incline to itself...

  • @cierrakateraa3124

    @cierrakateraa3124

    Жыл бұрын

    @@studioustok same.

  • @sweetcreamnpeaches9577

    @sweetcreamnpeaches9577

    Жыл бұрын

    The only reason I’m holding on right now is because I don’t want my younger sisters to be sad but it’s getting really hard to hold on

  • @the.seagull.35

    @the.seagull.35

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@sweetcreamnpeaches9577how are you doing?

  • @annalee9281
    @annalee92814 жыл бұрын

    If you’re reading this, I’m sorry. You’re on this video for a reason and that just breaks my heart

  • @mimimagic1895

    @mimimagic1895

    4 жыл бұрын

    No. I'm sorry. For letting everyone down. It was the last time. See ya everybody

  • @bigcountryspoundcake4513

    @bigcountryspoundcake4513

    4 жыл бұрын

    Anna Lee Pretty assuming of you but alright then

  • @userNOTfound1-3

    @userNOTfound1-3

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@mimimagic1895 Hang in there luv. The feeling comes and goes... I know. Your life is worth living, you'll see.

  • @agrimabist1112

    @agrimabist1112

    3 жыл бұрын

    ❤️

  • @puripurimimi2803

    @puripurimimi2803

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@mimimagic1895 please, we love you, we want to see you happy and prosperous

  • @Dani_77709
    @Dani_777094 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sick and tired of "you're not alone" Yes, yes in the end I am on my own. Dealing with this unbearable pain when I'm awake. I'm alone at 3am, silently crying and screaming without making a sound. I tried everything and it doesn't get better. Stop lying. This pain is with you forever. It's a mental torture. I always return in this state. Always. And I'm so, so tired.

  • @kc-wr1ui

    @kc-wr1ui

    4 жыл бұрын

    u should really talk to someone i hope your ok stay strong

  • @janiraannette6173

    @janiraannette6173

    4 жыл бұрын

    Exactly nelli

  • @kc-wr1ui

    @kc-wr1ui

    4 жыл бұрын

    @Nelli Torre yeah i guess so

  • @lizcherrez

    @lizcherrez

    4 жыл бұрын

    Life is like being alcoholic, there is no cure and you may feel completly in control somedays and other days you feel in the need of a drink. It's hard, you wish you weren't alcoholic, you feel you don't deserve nothing but you have to keep living if you want less bad days. Of course you can't ignore that you are an alcoholic but neither control your life. If you justo gave up on everything, you will regret and drinking meawhile you say "I'm drinking because of the shame of being an alcoholic!" (The example if from 'The Little Prince')

  • @applef1uffy

    @applef1uffy

    3 жыл бұрын

    That’s true, no one knows what it’s like but you. I’m not going to pretend I know exactly what you’re going through. But I’m here to talk

  • @awadoo4503
    @awadoo45032 жыл бұрын

    Some people blame them saying theyre selfish! really? don't you realize that death is the last thing anyone wants? It was really unbearable what they were going through that they finally saw no escape but to die!

  • @ghost-gh5ce
    @ghost-gh5ce2 жыл бұрын

    Happens to me every 3 months or so , get so depressed i just stay in my bed the entire day crying , watching videos like this and contemplating life . Every time i end up looking to my right (that s where my little 8y/o brother sleeps) , and the thought of seeing him crying because i m not there shatters me in pain , that s the only reason i m still here , i ll thank him when he grows up .

  • @HardlyBoring1
    @HardlyBoring18 жыл бұрын

    I hate it when people say that suicide is selfish, you may think its selfish because they are making people suffer by them committing suicide but you don't know why they did it, you don't know what made them turn to suicide, stop calling it selfish

  • @charalscrybaby2754

    @charalscrybaby2754

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Dan Wills i finally found someone who thinks like me>

  • @charalscrybaby2754

    @charalscrybaby2754

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Dan Wills i finally found someone who thinks like me>

  • @samanthaskye00

    @samanthaskye00

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Dan Wills I agree with you 110%. I want to hit ppl when they say it is

  • @Apezz19

    @Apezz19

    8 жыл бұрын

    I wouldnt call it selfish until i know what is the real problem and the cause of it..we might not know exactly how it feels, but its our job to comfort other when they cant comfort themself..the world was warm, lets make it warm again, together..

  • @fathzable

    @fathzable

    8 жыл бұрын

    so true

  • @yshannng
    @yshannng4 жыл бұрын

    We are all suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide is never an answer

  • @bbywiitch

    @bbywiitch

    4 жыл бұрын

    True

  • @DaddyisabttokiIIhimself

    @DaddyisabttokiIIhimself

    4 жыл бұрын

    This is way to true

  • @desha-soleilbarrow7780

    @desha-soleilbarrow7780

    4 жыл бұрын

    you just described me...

  • @namcicle2309

    @namcicle2309

    4 жыл бұрын

    I don’t like the accuracy of this shite

  • @user-ud1cd7rj6p

    @user-ud1cd7rj6p

    4 жыл бұрын

    True oml

  • @kimareum29
    @kimareum292 жыл бұрын

    The question should not be how it feels to lose someone instead ; " why it became that bad that nothing felt good than being dead".

  • @patreskirschner8193

    @patreskirschner8193

    2 жыл бұрын

    That's the question nobody is talking about :/

  • @kaguramiochanlu9942
    @kaguramiochanlu99422 жыл бұрын

    I dont want to keep hearing the "dont kill yourself because youre just passing on the pain" thing. I know its worked for others and im glad. But like to me, so im just gonna sit here and take it then? For others? What about me? Man i want to live because i want to live, not because other people will be sad if i dont live.

  • @angelawright-swifte6247

    @angelawright-swifte6247

    2 жыл бұрын

    Exactly, people saying that doesn’t help me feel any better it makes me feel guilty.

  • @thangamuthur7097
    @thangamuthur70974 жыл бұрын

    We don't want to die, we just want to disappear like never existed at all.

  • @TheOnlyHollywood1

    @TheOnlyHollywood1

    4 жыл бұрын

    Death is the closest thing we'll get to that

  • @snoopy-mf7nv

    @snoopy-mf7nv

    4 жыл бұрын

    But we can't. I know I felt the same.

  • @nenalovepullip8684

    @nenalovepullip8684

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@TheOnlyHollywood1 but it's better to live all can change!!

  • @namcicle2309

    @namcicle2309

    4 жыл бұрын

    I wish there was an easier way out

  • @thangamuthur7097

    @thangamuthur7097

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@namcicle2309 Don't we all. Depression teaches life: it's never a one day work. Work every day and forgive yourself when you screw up. You might have heard/read it already but still: Move away from internet (or the whole smartphone), listen to Music, try to find some conversation groups and 'Meditate'. Concentrate on your breath when things go wrong. It helped me a lot.

  • @randimurphy6835
    @randimurphy68358 жыл бұрын

    Mental Health Week is the best thing Buzzfeed has ever done.

  • @randimurphy6835

    @randimurphy6835

    8 жыл бұрын

    +irapedmymothersthroat Are you kidding me? Do you not understand what this video in particular is about? This video is about losing someone to suicide, which some of the time suicide can be caused by a poor mental health state. Also, losing someone else to suicide can cause mental health issues such as depression, anxiety, panic attacks, agoraphobia, etc. So don't you or anyone else dare tell me mental health is not important.

  • @mayaphipps5195

    @mayaphipps5195

    8 жыл бұрын

    +irapedmymothersthroat it's really not important? Millions of people die every year from mental health (suicide because of their health problem) and even more people stay strong and fight with this. You are insulting them, me, my sisters, my best friend, and so much more. It takes lives, ruins relationships, self esteem, and more. So please don't say that

  • @katlin9274

    @katlin9274

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Emily Loera don't feed the trolls

  • @daraley1098

    @daraley1098

    8 жыл бұрын

    +irapedmymothersthroat reported as spam. little brat get of the internet.

  • @zariya7665

    @zariya7665

    8 жыл бұрын

    Yes.. I feel its making me more mentally healthy

  • @moneo007
    @moneo007 Жыл бұрын

    The only reason I haven't done it, it's because I'm afraid I will survive it...

  • @MinjiJeongg

    @MinjiJeongg

    Жыл бұрын

    Please know that you’re loved ❤️‍🩹

  • @buddy3635

    @buddy3635

    Жыл бұрын

    Please don't go. I promise promise promise you life gets better. What can I do to help?

  • @moneo007

    @moneo007

    Жыл бұрын

    @buddy3635 at the moment, I feel useless 😔

  • @buddy3635

    @buddy3635

    Жыл бұрын

    @@moneo007 What's your life situation right now? Are you in school, working, something else?

  • @ingenuised

    @ingenuised

    Жыл бұрын

    No chance of surviving a gun to the head, quick and painless, if you are afraid of a gun you are afraid of death which is why you shouldn't commit

  • @patpost3938
    @patpost3938 Жыл бұрын

    im fighting for myself. I know how hard it is but if you're here doing the same thing I am so very proud of you.

  • @buddy3635

    @buddy3635

    Жыл бұрын

    I'm glad you're still fighting. Let me know if you need backup💛

  • @the.seagull.35

    @the.seagull.35

    11 ай бұрын

    How are you doing?

  • @laboskisota2963
    @laboskisota29635 жыл бұрын

    Here's the thing: People only care after the fact, before that everyone wishes you would shut up and stop being so negative.

  • @victorianrainbow6366

    @victorianrainbow6366

    5 жыл бұрын

    That's so true. One day, I found the courage to talk to a friend about my depression. They comforted me that day, but then, everytime I tried to vent about my depression, they seemed annoyed that I was touching that topic again. So I never talked about it again, I guess.

  • @user-gb6vw4qb9x

    @user-gb6vw4qb9x

    5 жыл бұрын

    koi no yokan I know your most likely sick of hearing this ( I was) but things really do get better, please take care of yourself ✨

  • @victorianrainbow6366

    @victorianrainbow6366

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@user-gb6vw4qb9x thank you so much

  • @shoulol7424

    @shoulol7424

    5 жыл бұрын

    Pretty much. It's sad, but so true. People don't want to hear your problems and negativity all the time. Your loved ones, the only ones who you feel you can tell about it, tell you to go away cause' your so annoying and negative. It hurts. 😔

  • @lihlendita

    @lihlendita

    5 жыл бұрын

    So true, I once tried to genuinely open up to a friend only for her to say I drained her and that I always have problems. I get negativity isn't going to be well received but don't act like and say you care when we all know you'll only care if something ever happened

  • @rejeanarainn5662
    @rejeanarainn56625 жыл бұрын

    My sister committed suicide in April. She came to my house that day with biggest smile on her face and a look in her eyes I couldn't pinpoint. That look was her knowing she would never see me again. I have no words...

  • @fiastomlaiz2015
    @fiastomlaiz20159 ай бұрын

    Life's hard but the struggle to keep yourself alive is harder

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    9 ай бұрын

    The worst thing is that it is absolutely rewardless endeavour...

  • @lemonchan2013

    @lemonchan2013

    9 ай бұрын

    please try therapy hon! youre absolutely wrong, and that’s a good thing, i would know, i was depressed as well and when you receive therapy and talk it out and learn about neuroscience and how people in your life and the situations you are in affect you, it begins to make sense that your way of thinking is overly-critical on yourself. this is a good thing. just try therapy, no matter what!

  • @kathymeza3444
    @kathymeza34442 жыл бұрын

    People always say that the ones that commit suicide are selfish but I feel like everyone else is selfish wanting that person that is in pain mentally or physically to stay here in pain.

  • @kathymeza3444

    @kathymeza3444

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@behonest8658 I'm not struggling with suicide I am saying I want out and it is selfish of people to want me to keep going in pain. I have been living with this horrendous pain for more than 15 years and it is just getting worse. There is no way in my mind and heart that I should keep going just to keep others happy. I didn't understand it completely until my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreas cancer and was told if she didn't have chemo it would be 3 maybe 4 weeks until she passed but if she took the chemo it would keep her around for at least a year. We all pushed her to take the chemo because we were selfish and didn't want to let her go. That was the most horrible year for her in and out of the hospital in pain all the time getting sicker and sicker and hurting more and more. We could have had 3 or 4 really good weeks with her she could have been happy and she could have died peacefully but no we pushed her to keep us happy.

  • @empressofhearts7300

    @empressofhearts7300

    2 жыл бұрын

    I don't want anyone to stay here to suffer, I just want them to get better on whatever it might be.

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    Жыл бұрын

    @@empressofhearts7300 "I just want them to get better on whatever it might be." And what if it's not possible?

  • @empressofhearts7300

    @empressofhearts7300

    Жыл бұрын

    @@SuperVladdrakula If it's not, then find something for them to still be able to enjoy life

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    Жыл бұрын

    @@empressofhearts7300 And what if that's _still_ not possible?

  • @zayneyeehaw401
    @zayneyeehaw4015 жыл бұрын

    i hate when people say dont kill yourselves because of your family ect it makes it feel like more of a burden and even worse about the situation

  • @adityaHB456

    @adityaHB456

    4 жыл бұрын

    Zayne Yeehaw exactly..😥😥

  • @MariaKiran1

    @MariaKiran1

    4 жыл бұрын

    Exactly.

  • @snoopy-mf7nv

    @snoopy-mf7nv

    4 жыл бұрын

    I know especially if you have a family of narcissists and they treat you like your life is supposed to be an enslavement to serving their narcissism.

  • @Joeyblondewolf2
    @Joeyblondewolf24 жыл бұрын

    I found out my coworker friend ended his life while I was at work. We were all crying... the day before he came to visit us and left. He looked so happy but it makes me feel so useless I didn't see his sadness through his fake smile... He was 17.

  • @JoleneRoxs72

    @JoleneRoxs72

    4 жыл бұрын

    That is incredibly difficult to go through.. I am so sorry. Please take life as it is and try to enjoy the little moments. I hope we can all bring awareness to these things. Beneath a hard shell lies a vulnerable sensitive person... it's important that we all try to help each other. We don't know what others are going through .. the best we can do is listen and support them.. to be those people they can trust and confide in. I used to want to die everyday of my life and I am forever grateful I was strong enough to pull myself out of it and had that support system that wanted me to succeed and be better... I am currently in university to pursue law enforcement. I hope to be that person that others come to for help even when it seems there is no hope left. Please take care and I hope we all learn to love and look after one another... we all need it.

  • @kristyna.kocianova

    @kristyna.kocianova

    4 жыл бұрын

    A lot of people who are resolved to kill themselves look very cheerful and at peace before they do it. They have a plan already and feel relaxed. It's not your fault in any way. Don't feel guilty about not spotting this, because it can definitely look like your friend is doing better but they are just saying goodbye...

  • @awickedformerdisneysinger8445

    @awickedformerdisneysinger8445

    3 жыл бұрын

    My condolences to you and the other people in his life who cared for and loved him. Do not feel guilty. Sometimes, all that anyone can do is let them know that they are cared for.

  • @Emily-hk6wc

    @Emily-hk6wc

    3 жыл бұрын

    I just want to say, it may not have been a fake smile. If he dad already planned his death and everything, changes are he was actually happy. He was going to be out of pain soon.

  • @r1thy4

    @r1thy4

    3 жыл бұрын

    i'm so sorry, no one should have to go through that. pls don't blame yourself for what he did. you're so strong, i hope someday the pain will go away

  • @anonymousfromearth9754
    @anonymousfromearth97542 жыл бұрын

    It hurts when your friends say they would be there with you whenever you feel depressed.. but then when you text about your problem, your text gets ignored which makes you feel more guilty then ever.

  • @Sunny-gy3jv

    @Sunny-gy3jv

    2 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry

  • @I_HATE_THE_TOS

    @I_HATE_THE_TOS

    2 жыл бұрын

    They don't care until you actually do it.

  • @tabj2615

    @tabj2615

    Жыл бұрын

    It happens, it really does. If close people doesn't help you came to the right place, I'll hear you absolutely, let me know if I can help somehow :(

  • @brendancoffman4342
    @brendancoffman43422 жыл бұрын

    I know people care for me, I just don't care for myself, nor do I desire to. Apathy and discouragement are powerful in what they can do to one's will

  • @charlez1174

    @charlez1174

    2 жыл бұрын

    This is exactly how I feel. I know I have so many people that care about me but I just don’t care about myself. Like I don’t understand people like me and I just don’t want to be here. I hate living every day.

  • @NamNguyen-ls6pb

    @NamNguyen-ls6pb

    2 жыл бұрын

    there are times i feel the same too. so many times. but please just find yourself even one thing to enjoy. I only want you to feel better regardless of what others may say

  • @midloran

    @midloran

    2 жыл бұрын

    I will be sad if Brendan won't exist anymore

  • @slavdoggo5262
    @slavdoggo52623 жыл бұрын

    People would care and cry only if you're gone, as long as you're alive and still living, you are like an invisible person

  • @aviezerscop401

    @aviezerscop401

    3 жыл бұрын

    Wanna be an invisible penpal?😊

  • @slavdoggo5262

    @slavdoggo5262

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@aviezerscop401 sure

  • @nickn2794

    @nickn2794

    3 жыл бұрын

    HII! I created a Discord group where we can discuss about our problems. You're not alone! discord.gg/BjJxFSpK I'm not a therapist, but I've had/having these problems too, I can listen

  • @slavdoggo5262

    @slavdoggo5262

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@mollymalone2838 agreed

  • @peterevans6480

    @peterevans6480

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@mollymalone2838 exactly, you're frustrating to deal with until youre not there anymore

  • @lolidk2024
    @lolidk20243 жыл бұрын

    i saved my sister from suicide once, and i didn’t even know. i knew she was having hard times and she locked herself in the bathroom. i knocked on the door and told her that i’m here and that i love her. a few months later she told me she was gonna slit her wrists that day but when i told her i loved her, she decided that she’ll keep going for me. and i have never been more proud of both her and myself. i saved someone and she was strong enough to stay alive.

  • @Jecykshaji

    @Jecykshaji

    3 жыл бұрын

    🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼👍👍👍😊😊😊

  • @jacklandy5704

    @jacklandy5704

    3 жыл бұрын

    We need more people like you in this world. If I could get the chance to meet you in person I'd gladly shake your hand. Good job and I hope your sister is OK.

  • @klyzl

    @klyzl

    3 жыл бұрын

    im 16 and my sister is 4 she often finds me crying in me room and just stays there quiet until im done i love her so much I can't imagine what would she would remember of me when she grows up and im not there to take care of her anymore or even learn the simple things of being a teenager i dont want to leave her with my parents but I can't take this anymore i hpe they takecare of her

  • @LucieCornelia

    @LucieCornelia

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@klyzl Remember that it will be okay. If you're depressed I suggest ither getting a pet or borrowing a pet or volunteering at somewhere animal related. They are so innocent and creating a bond with an animal changes you. You could also focus on the things that makes you happy or distracts you from the pain if only temporary. I know you might often hear the bs about not being alone by people who only say and don't actually do anything. You might be alone, but then you have to find someone. Someone you can talk to, listen to, trust, feel loved by. It might take time but you will find that person of not people. You have a place here, but no one can tell you where that is. You have to find it. Whatever it might be. You belong.

  • @crybaby7085

    @crybaby7085

    3 жыл бұрын

    we all waiting for that person to say im with you

  • @martinrasmussen6869
    @martinrasmussen68692 жыл бұрын

    People only care when you are gone because its reflect badly on them.

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    2 жыл бұрын

    True...

  • @donaldkeith139

    @donaldkeith139

    2 жыл бұрын

    I disagree. What you wrote is exactly what my own demon tries to tell me... "they don't really care" "they only want you around because you do stuff for them" And then my brain would agree "yeah that's right" "they don't really love me"

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@donaldkeith139 _No one_ cares for anyone... They only pretend to at best and only care about extorting things out of each other... It's just flat out truth... If it wasn't, life would have given a very different image... There wouldn't have been so much suffering and misery in the first place...

  • @llawliet9yearsago920

    @llawliet9yearsago920

    2 жыл бұрын

    Not really.. If my best friend were to die or something.. I'd wanna die as well

  • @ageis3250

    @ageis3250

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@donaldkeith139 But its true...

  • @sonisatim2015
    @sonisatim20152 жыл бұрын

    I’ve considered suicide for a very long time. The reason I haven’t done it yet is that I don’t want my family to suffer mentally.

  • @anonympassingby1983

    @anonympassingby1983

    2 жыл бұрын

    I hope their love is your power, not the burden. I don't know you but I'll wish you to have a power to stand still. you'll be doing great after this time.

  • @hid8290
    @hid82904 жыл бұрын

    *It's hard to survive in a mind that wants to die*

  • @deanalvarado795

    @deanalvarado795

    4 жыл бұрын

    100% truth

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    4 жыл бұрын

    Who needs to survive?

  • @SaithMasu12

    @SaithMasu12

    4 жыл бұрын

    Try to ease the mind, as much as possible. Thats what i do. Understand that whatever the mind comes up with, it isnt reality. Give it some rest. Maybe do some breathing techniques or meditate. Ease the mind as much as possible and i guarantee you, you will feel better.

  • @userNOTfound1-3

    @userNOTfound1-3

    4 жыл бұрын

    When you've already decided .. trying to undo it takes a lot

  • @hid8290

    @hid8290

    3 жыл бұрын

    @SC I this comment caught me off guard. I'm happy now because of prayer. I gave my life to God and now I'm happier than ever. Still alone but not so much because I can control my mind now

  • @preski000
    @preski0006 жыл бұрын

    One day I was at school and I went into the bathroom and I heard a girl sobbing in one of the stalls, I went to see who it was and when she said for me to go away I realized that it was a girl that had been particularly mean to me and other students over the past few months. I asked her what was wrong over and over again while she repeatedly told me to get out of the bathroom. The locks on the bathroom door had those weird slits in them so I used my finger nails to unlock the door and I saw her sitting on the toilet holding a tube of sleeping pills, when she saw that I had opened the door and seen what she was doing she sobbed eve harder in defeat and let me take the pills from her hands and we sat on the floor of the bathroom in the middle of 5th period for 45 minutes crying and and telling each other that it was going to be ok. That’s the story of how my 11th grade bully became my best friend to this day, we’re celebrating 6 years of friend ship and staying alive and heathy this fall. I might add that I had survived a suicide attempt and understood what she was going through.

  • @earnestpeeplesjr8948

    @earnestpeeplesjr8948

    6 жыл бұрын

    Presley Gauthier God Bless you

  • @AliceP.

    @AliceP.

    6 жыл бұрын

    What a beautiful story

  • @moonchildeus

    @moonchildeus

    5 жыл бұрын

    Presley Gauthier you are great

  • @AceOfWaffles

    @AceOfWaffles

    5 жыл бұрын

    That's amazing.

  • @kananelolesesa4447
    @kananelolesesa4447 Жыл бұрын

    Every morning when my eyes open I become so frustrated because I realize that I actually made it to the next day.

  • @La_lu_nes

    @La_lu_nes

    Жыл бұрын

    we’re glad you are still here with us!

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    Жыл бұрын

    @@La_lu_nes "we’re glad you are still here with us!" You're pitiful sadists... You're glad at the sight of someone's suffering. What does that tell about you?

  • @thesnakeman8492
    @thesnakeman8492 Жыл бұрын

    At least they can rest now. People just do t understand how tiring it is just to stay alive when you just want to be gone. Don’t be angry at them, just know they are at peace now.

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    Жыл бұрын

    You're right...

  • @sadie5112
    @sadie51124 жыл бұрын

    "People will miss you". I don't need them to miss me when I'm dead, I need them to miss me when I'm alive.

  • @fishcakez
    @fishcakez3 жыл бұрын

    i feel really guilty for being depressed and having suicidal thoughts.

  • @user-rz7qr7yh2b

    @user-rz7qr7yh2b

    3 жыл бұрын

    going through anxiety and ocd myself i can tell you that we should have faith , suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. as long as we are alive ,hope is there my friend, be patient and strong

  • @CitizenofGallifrey

    @CitizenofGallifrey

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@user-rz7qr7yh2b My autism is not a temporary problem, it is a permanent disease that I am afflicted with.

  • @user-rz7qr7yh2b

    @user-rz7qr7yh2b

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@CitizenofGallifrey I know my friend... But whatever problems you may have you always have the choice to stay strong and get the best out of every situation. If you search you can find examples of people in the worst possible situations who managed to thrive

  • @scythe7269

    @scythe7269

    3 жыл бұрын

    You shouldn't ever feel guilty for anything. It wasn't the path you chose. Power through it, do good in this life and hopefully you won't have the same problems in your next life. That's all I'm trying to do as a person suffering with ocd and intrusive thoughts myself.

  • @scythe7269

    @scythe7269

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@CitizenofGallifrey Yes you do have a permanent disease. Does it affect you daily? Yes it does. Is it bad from your perspective? Yes it is. But there are people who have it much worse. I can't compare my ocd and intrusive thoughts to autism because 1. I am not autistic and 2. I do not know the severity of your autism but you see people on the streets daily. They suffer more than anyone in the world and the person you see begging hasn't committed suicide because they believe it can get better. I pray for everyone to have the same mindset as the less fortunate.

  • @juliusvalencia5126
    @juliusvalencia51262 жыл бұрын

    I watch this because I wanna know what my mom would feel. I can't afford to break my mom's heart that's why I'm still hanging on as long as I can.

  • @farzana.mumtaz

    @farzana.mumtaz

    2 жыл бұрын

    May God give you peace and happiness. Dont give up

  • @erpmo3326

    @erpmo3326

    2 жыл бұрын

    This comment made me cry.

  • @farzana.mumtaz

    @farzana.mumtaz

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@erpmo3326 😢😢

  • @Beril_.

    @Beril_.

    2 жыл бұрын

    Exactly.

  • @wildexploration6487

    @wildexploration6487

    2 жыл бұрын

    me too bro

  • @toruchi5009
    @toruchi50092 жыл бұрын

    I'm scared that I'll leave my pain for someone else. And this is the only reason why in still here. People are starting to distance their selves from me and I'm taking it as a sign

  • @surfskate9610

    @surfskate9610

    2 жыл бұрын

    Hey I know that Im just someone on the internet but you please dont you are loved, I love you go talk to someone hmu if you need

  • @ladyintheradiator

    @ladyintheradiator

    2 жыл бұрын

    You seem like a really good person and i’m sure those around you are better now because of you in it. I hope you’re okay

  • @jagrutidash4855

    @jagrutidash4855

    2 жыл бұрын

    please don't be disheartened .,.. u seem like a great person ... i might not know u .. but u know that u are loved ... don't ever do this to yourself

  • @holdyourhorses7658
    @holdyourhorses76585 жыл бұрын

    For some reason I always come back to this video when I'm feeling depressed. Today is one of those days. To whoever is reading this, you are not alone.

  • @rosahx6448

    @rosahx6448

    5 жыл бұрын

    You're not either.

  • @OkOk-sn2ly

    @OkOk-sn2ly

    5 жыл бұрын

    HoldYourHorses neither are you.

  • @majavalentin9539

    @majavalentin9539

    5 жыл бұрын

    Thanks

  • @user-oq7ee2ol6i
    @user-oq7ee2ol6i4 жыл бұрын

    If I'm "sooooo loved" by my family and friends why don't they show it when I'm alive?

  • @khaligoihl9455

    @khaligoihl9455

    4 жыл бұрын

    I have never related to something more :(

  • @khaligoihl9455

    @khaligoihl9455

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@user-oq7ee2ol6i yeah I get what you mean. sometimes people say they care but don't show it

  • @fiona7088

    @fiona7088

    4 жыл бұрын

    Trust me you are loved. ❤️❤️Some people just don’t know how to tell you even if they care a lot. They just need some time to push themselves to tell you . I know that sounds horrible but Idk how to explain this but they might be lost aswell..

  • @khaligoihl9455

    @khaligoihl9455

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@fiona7088 you have no idea how much I needed to hear this! thank you

  • @user-oq7ee2ol6i

    @user-oq7ee2ol6i

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@fiona7088 I want to off myself but they don't care about that

  • @rebeccaciancio4723
    @rebeccaciancio4723 Жыл бұрын

    Watching this to stop my own suicidal thoughts 😢

  • @a.w.3772

    @a.w.3772

    Жыл бұрын

    I hope this video helped!

  • @stormclouds4291

    @stormclouds4291

    Жыл бұрын

    Same

  • @NoNo-lp9ox
    @NoNo-lp9ox2 жыл бұрын

    My friend took her life yesterday, and it killed me to hear this. I’ve cried so much, but never this much, not even close, I’ve considered a few times of joining her as a way of ending the grief. A wise man once said “suicide does not end the pain, for it passes it on to someone else, you & I need to remember that for the rest of our lives

  • @snowieskiesabove

    @snowieskiesabove

    2 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry

  • @potato_directioner1327

    @potato_directioner1327

    2 жыл бұрын

    im so sorry for ur loss. if u ever need someone to talk to im here for u 🥺🥺🥺

  • @helgageraldine513

    @helgageraldine513

    2 жыл бұрын

    I'm sorry for ur lose. My brother committed suicide last month and there are times when I feel like ending my life, too. But thinking about how this will affect my parents is what keeps me from doing it. Losing another child to suicide will definitely break them.

  • @Cikcicjdmsk
    @Cikcicjdmsk5 жыл бұрын

    People that say that suicide is a selfish act are making me sick. You don’t have any idea how selfless suicidal people are. They are keep pushing and keep trying to stay alive for their loved ones until the end! Unfortunately, sometimes It’s too much to bare! The pain is just too much. Not be able to breath. Not be able to sleep. Not be able to eat or enjoy something. Neither exit your house for months. And instead keep enduring this for your loved ones because you love them too much to hurt them. Suicide it’s not a solution but show some respect to the beautiful souls that suffered so much that could not find a way out! Stay strong.

  • @hayat707

    @hayat707

    5 жыл бұрын

    Vasiliki Michailidou 👏👏👏

  • @rainasajid6678

    @rainasajid6678

    5 жыл бұрын

    And the people who after hearing about someone's suicide say the departed soul should have reached out to someone, they are sick too! Like if a person would have someone whom he could trust and could cry his heart out, he would have done it already. And we don't have such people in our lives mostly.

  • @8923903910

    @8923903910

    5 жыл бұрын

    Raina Ali yes you are so right

  • @8923903910

    @8923903910

    5 жыл бұрын

    Hello Gaara Of The Sand

  • @mk6alex

    @mk6alex

    5 жыл бұрын

    No, this is coming from someone who was suicidal. It’s selfish for a certain extent of people. If I spoke to myself when I was younger I would be mad at myself. I would tell myself how dare you even think of this. You have so many people in your life. Don’t you dare.

  • @SebastianReedAndrews
    @SebastianReedAndrews8 жыл бұрын

    This video hits close. I lost my dad to suicide when I was eight. It's been about nine years now, and we're finally starting to get back on our feet, but it took such a long time since his death shook our whole foundation so much.

  • @raquel_sofia512

    @raquel_sofia512

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Sebastian Reed Andrews I'm sorry

  • @xImpashionedx

    @xImpashionedx

    8 жыл бұрын

    I'm really sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine what you and your family have gone through.

  • @Z2Z9

    @Z2Z9

    8 жыл бұрын

    People who commite suicide are selfish. I don't mean to be rude they are probably having tough times but when they commite suicide they are affecting those around them who love them and cherish them. I think we all think about commiting suicide at one point but we all think about is it worth it. Some people sadly say yes

  • @jacoblot6939

    @jacoblot6939

    8 жыл бұрын

    aw I'm sorry to here that, and just move on bro. I lost my biological mother when I was 14 man was it rough. I remember failing every exam I had that year and crying almost every class.But I have my step mother now and I love her so much.

  • @kierstynsaoirse

    @kierstynsaoirse

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Panda San most people who commit suicide aren't being selfish because they believe that no one will care if they die because they think they're completely alone.

  • @ingenuised
    @ingenuised Жыл бұрын

    "There's no better salvation than never having to be born into this world" - Eren Yaeger

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    Жыл бұрын

    So true...

  • @the_man_behind_the_mask116

    @the_man_behind_the_mask116

    Жыл бұрын

    Eren...

  • @Juicyfruit12345

    @Juicyfruit12345

    Жыл бұрын

    Mid anime

  • @the_man_behind_the_mask116

    @the_man_behind_the_mask116

    Жыл бұрын

    @@Juicyfruit12345 shut Up

  • @ultimatedumbass4640

    @ultimatedumbass4640

    7 ай бұрын

    Eren literally didn't agree with this statement. It was a farce.

  • @hemionegranger617
    @hemionegranger6172 жыл бұрын

    it's easy to say you would've been there when the person is already gone. People send you to therapy, they can't be bothered to listen, it's too uncomfortable. But sometimes all you need is family and friends, not a stranger who listens to you for 50 minutes a week. EDIT: I started therapy and it is the best thing ever for me, I cannot recommend it highly enough if you are struggling. Honestly, now I do NOT think friends or family can replace therapy. Please do go for it if you are suicidal. I put it off for years, decades, and now I regret not starting it earlier.

  • @yourazu7540

    @yourazu7540

    2 жыл бұрын

    You’re right

  • @grindingyt

    @grindingyt

    2 жыл бұрын

    im sorry to hear that you can speak to me :)

  • @grindingyt

    @grindingyt

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@yourazu7540 you ok?

  • @hemionegranger617

    @hemionegranger617

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@grindingyt that's very kind of you, thank you! ❤️

  • @grindingyt

    @grindingyt

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@hemionegranger617 if you ever want to speak let me know im here for you :)

  • @dustinbrite2422
    @dustinbrite24224 жыл бұрын

    Its crushing when you know that nobody would really care if you were gone.

  • @brycelucas286

    @brycelucas286

    4 жыл бұрын

    I know how it feels to think that nobody cares. but you can't possibly know how many people you would affect if you were gone. Those who hear about your death and don't even know you could be deeply affected. Those close to you who you thought didn't care could spend their whole lives dealing with it. It is impossible for you to know how your own death will forever change the lives of those around you.

  • @dustinbrite2422

    @dustinbrite2422

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@brycelucas286 Maybe many people would be affected but in the end, they would quickly get over me. I dont have a single close connection with anybody in my life, not my family and not any friends(I dont have friends). We know that people die every few minutes but we dont get sad over their deaths so i dont expect people to be sad over my eventual death.

  • @sailorsnail6935

    @sailorsnail6935

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@dustinbrite2422 Even persons that I don't like or barely know, like here on the internet... I am sad about them. I'm sad when I listen to their stories. I know what it feels like, wanting to end your life. You should be happy about every day you have. There is always someone on earth for you who cares. Suicide is just the one type of dying that takes my breath away and leaves me sick in my head and heart. I want this to stop happening.

  • @sitakelemswati

    @sitakelemswati

    4 жыл бұрын

    I would care

  • @JamesV84
    @JamesV848 жыл бұрын

    *Wow*... it was already _moving_ even before they said anything... But when they _spoke_, you really realise how important it is to *listen* to what they've learnt from it, I feel we could *all* learn something from this.

  • @lilacbp3908

    @lilacbp3908

    8 жыл бұрын

    Well that was quick

  • @bhad7201

    @bhad7201

    8 жыл бұрын

    damn it i commented before you and this video was so sad that i forgot to comment about graphic design guy

  • @JamesV84

    @JamesV84

    8 жыл бұрын

    TeaPawncha Hi :)

  • @JamesV84

    @JamesV84

    8 жыл бұрын

    _Eva _ I watched it straight away, but took me some time to put down in words exactly what I wanted to say, but it was still impossible to convey my feelings in words...

  • @JamesV84

    @JamesV84

    8 жыл бұрын

    Whatt Ariana It's okay, getting your message across is certainly more important than beating me :)

  • @jilk.7655
    @jilk.76552 жыл бұрын

    as someone who was suicidal not a long time ago, i don’t understand why nobody ever talks about the other side, it’s always only about the relatives and close people who grieve. but i don’t understand how nobody sees the the people who committed suicide did this to free themselves from the permanent pain they suffered for years (often). why would you want to keep someone alive so bad who’s just tired and doesn’t want to?… of course it hurts, i can’t imagine the pain they go through when they lose a loved one. but imagine the pain the person who committed suicide went through to bring them to this point.

  • @user-lq5hr7ip9d

    @user-lq5hr7ip9d

    2 жыл бұрын

    yes i think the same as someone who is struggling with suicidal thouhts is not easy to get rid of them just thinking that my parents would cry and suffer

  • @tebohosefatsa6627

    @tebohosefatsa6627

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@user-lq5hr7ip9d I struggle with suicidal thoughts because of my ADHD. It's hard but I love my folks it's difficult living and difficult to kill myself.

  • @nadesjnaswartz9567

    @nadesjnaswartz9567

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yeah i feel the same no one will understand a sucidal persons mind untill they experience it themselves

  • @craftpaint1644

    @craftpaint1644

    2 жыл бұрын

    Those who've been hurt and come out a changed person understand very well how fed up someone can get when times are tough. But taking the dirt nap still with life ahead is so extreme, why not change jobs or go back to school in order to destroy an old life? - it's a state of mind man 👩‍💼🇺🇲🛠️🇷🇺

  • @yte4yyt186
    @yte4yyt1862 жыл бұрын

    Let's all be honest life goes on nobody really cares about anyone but themselves I wish there was a guaranteed easy way out that wouldnt scar me for life if I survived I don't want to live anymore

  • @hi-ls6lt
    @hi-ls6lt4 жыл бұрын

    I get that people are only trying to be nice when they say “Are you ok?” but it’s comes to a point when people keep asking it and you know you’re not ok but if you say “No” they’re like “Well what’s wrong “ and if you explain to them all you’re demons,attempts at suicide and how much you hate life they’ll never look at you the same way again. So I blink back my tears, fake a smile and say “Yeah of course I’m ok.”

  • @duckiecone1055

    @duckiecone1055

    4 жыл бұрын

    I can relate and it sucks cuz i hate lying but i genuinely like to listen

  • @hi-ls6lt

    @hi-ls6lt

    4 жыл бұрын

    Debeshi Ghosh but that’s the problem. I don’t trust anyone.

  • @nightwhispersbond6891

    @nightwhispersbond6891

    4 жыл бұрын

    I get this A LOT but it's good to speak up to the older ones who can help but they don't know how bad it is sometimes they think a fight with a family member while you can think it's more than that its self harm it's cold heart that you sometimes you wish would stop beating

  • @alexblowers4643
    @alexblowers46438 жыл бұрын

    It's times like this where I am insanely happy my 2 suicide attempts failed. I love everyone reading this. Stay strong. Ps. I'm a guy. They can struggle with this too. It's not just girls. I'm insanely happy that there was guys in this video.

  • @jayc342009

    @jayc342009

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Alex Blowers no one said it was just girls, here in the UK males are more likely to commit suicide.

  • @alexblowers4643

    @alexblowers4643

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Sir fap alot first of all your name. Yes. Second in America it seems cowardly for guys to deal with this. I wasn't trying to be rude

  • @figgyfilmscorporation9095

    @figgyfilmscorporation9095

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Alex Blowers LMFAO WHEN YOU SAID" First of all, your name" I WAS DYING

  • @none4530

    @none4530

    8 жыл бұрын

    I would just like you tell you that men are much more likely to commit suicide, it's a fact

  • @lawiza1805

    @lawiza1805

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Kyou Fujibayashi but females try to commit suicide and fail more

  • @ashleybang49
    @ashleybang49 Жыл бұрын

    Depression is a scary thing. Some people just can’t take it. Then some people want to die but are to scared to die. It’s a vicious cycle and it can drain someone.

  • @hemchui6655
    @hemchui66552 жыл бұрын

    I'm tired of pretending like everything is ok

  • @sonephomreuanglit1760
    @sonephomreuanglit17604 жыл бұрын

    If you are suicidal and you’re still alive, I'm very proud of you. ❤️ (Edit : Omg I didn’t expect to have 47 likes but thanks, love your guys stay strong) ❤️🥀

  • @lingardinhold5409

    @lingardinhold5409

    4 жыл бұрын

    I have mental lines live Dubai I am fighting angist my anxiety People look down me Am only 22 they are jealous because who I am best teen in Dubai

  • @nadiamills4781

    @nadiamills4781

    4 жыл бұрын

    I almost lost my bestie then my family almost lost me

  • @idkwhattodoforaname261

    @idkwhattodoforaname261

    4 жыл бұрын

    No I’m not

  • @youtubeaccount1441

    @youtubeaccount1441

    3 жыл бұрын

    Well Im disappionted in myself

  • @victoriamanfield3711
    @victoriamanfield37113 жыл бұрын

    My Dad recently died by suicide, I never thought it would happen… My Dad hid his depression from all of my family. He was so driven, a great communicator, businessman and family man, but even though he seemed to have it all together on the outside, he was suffering so intensely on the inside. I miss him all the time, I never thought this would happen… I think it is so important to listen to people’s silent cries for help. Starting with taking away the damaging stigma surrounding mental health, we need to keep talking about it! ❤️

  • @kaylanguyen3517

    @kaylanguyen3517

    2 жыл бұрын

    i'm so sorry for you, hope him rest in peace

  • @alexapache1734

    @alexapache1734

    2 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry for your loss may he rest in piece it is normal to feel grief tht does not mean weakness you know?

  • @checx400

    @checx400

    2 жыл бұрын

    U mad or NA 😂😂😂😂😂😂

  • @tabj2615

    @tabj2615

    Жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry Victoria, I really am :( hope you have family and friends around. Hug from Portugal

  • @kronos_1337.

    @kronos_1337.

    Жыл бұрын

    :(

  • @bleachboss1358
    @bleachboss13582 жыл бұрын

    This makes me sad. I feel terrible for even having these type of thoughts. I'm sorry guys, I'm really trying to make these thoughts go away

  • @Octoberstorm333

    @Octoberstorm333

    2 жыл бұрын

    Me too yo. Like a lot of us search these vids while crying or breathing hard in a flight or fight mode. Too numb to sleep eat or listen to music. But these vids make us realize it’s not worth it. We gotta see what happens to us and the world. And someone will give us a crappy funeral and throw dirt on us if we just go quickly. I hope you can get yourself a good night sleep and look for more resources to cope with the thoughts of wanting to get out. I’m trying to make these thoughts go away too, so I’ll go heat up some cup noodles and try and sleep. Surely, you will smile again. Surely, you’ll laugh really hard again. You’ll live to build some good memories in the simplest ways. And that’s the best kind of memories to make. Surely, great moments are waiting for you. My bad for my annoying repetitive comment. It comes from my heart though and just for you.

  • @eduardarodrigues9564
    @eduardarodrigues95642 жыл бұрын

    I was a very happy child, I don't know what happened over time but I really miss my old mind when it wasn't plagued by bad thoughts. I wanna die.

  • @Sunny-gy3jv

    @Sunny-gy3jv

    2 жыл бұрын

    Sending love

  • @eduardarodrigues9564

    @eduardarodrigues9564

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@Sunny-gy3jv Thanks💜

  • @joshuavanzant962

    @joshuavanzant962

    2 жыл бұрын

    Man that’s tough

  • @magic672
    @magic6723 жыл бұрын

    I come here often because I want to die, but that mother in the beginning is why I'm here. That's how my mom would be, and i can't do that to her.

  • @M3lly.xoo.

    @M3lly.xoo.

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so happy your trying to stay. Yes, think about your mother who loves you with all her heart. Think about the pain that would cause her. Don’t just do this for her either, do this for you. Cause you’d never know if you’d ever be truly happy in the feature if your gone. You’ll be happy you’ll get there. Maybe you don’t believe it but I do, things will get better and I strongly believe that. In a nearby feature you’ll look back on this time and think “I made it”. Keep fighting I know it’s hard, but I want you to know your so strong for fighting your battle everyday.

  • @Max-0101

    @Max-0101

    3 жыл бұрын

    I have the same thought. But it’s like a pain torturing me everyday.

  • @asanda.mkhize

    @asanda.mkhize

    3 жыл бұрын

    Stay strong bro. Praying for you

  • @heyimsophie8842

    @heyimsophie8842

    3 жыл бұрын

    are u still here? Let’s talk about it in insta or snap!

  • @zakidjellouli364

    @zakidjellouli364

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@heyimsophie8842 can you give me your ig , i want to talk to you if you don't mind

  • @ratte8633
    @ratte86334 жыл бұрын

    I lost five friends to suicide. I would kill myself by my depressions any time, but I don't want my friends to go through the same as me. I lie awake in my bed every night thinking about what I could have done better. I blame myself that I could have saved them all. But I couldn't have done that... It still doesn't change the fact that I miss my angels (so I call the people I lost through suicide)...

  • @viperr06

    @viperr06

    4 жыл бұрын

    Im so sorry hope someone will help u and I hope God will make u feel better and I pray for u to feel better soon,dont end your life there are people who loves you be strong and fight 🙏💙

  • @hursimear3408

    @hursimear3408

    4 жыл бұрын

    Black Angel I don’t like people who reject someone on the account that they have insecurities, as if having any weakness is unbecoming of a worthy man. I’m not going to assume that is the way she is, but it sounds that way from your description. On a second note: I don’t believe there is “the one”, I’m a hypocrite for saying this but you could find someone else you know? Someone just as good, better probably. But I know the temptation, I know how it feels to just not feel like trying. But if you’re going to live u might as well find someone else. Don’t fixate on her. She doesn’t sound that great for you anyway tbh. A true lover will be with you through your strong days and your weak days

  • @uchihamp4245
    @uchihamp42452 жыл бұрын

    I’m so tired. Everyone is like “ live for me !” “ no keep living you have so much in life” “ live for your boyfriend for you’re future kids” but what about me? Did they ever sit and wonder why I should continue to live for myself.

  • @donaldkeith139

    @donaldkeith139

    2 жыл бұрын

    They can't understand. They cannot relate. They just do not understand what you're going through. Not because they don't care, it's just that they *can't*. So the only thing they can try to do is give you reasons that they think would be important (for them, but again, that's because they can't understand, not because they're being selfish necessarily).

  • @donaldkeith139

    @donaldkeith139

    2 жыл бұрын

    So they *can't* sit and think why you should continue. I'm sorry. Only you can sit and figure this out. That doesn't mean that you are left alone, even though it feels like that. It means that this is something only you can figure out. I wish we didn't have to go through this, but we do. Life is not fair, it never was. The only thing I can say with certainty is that we are much much stronger than we think. And stronger than our demons would like us to be.

  • @fruzsinasomogyi3220

    @fruzsinasomogyi3220

    2 жыл бұрын

    People have no idea what you were facing but God knows each little detail about you and about your life❤️ He was there, by your side, at your highest and at your lowest. This whole time God is waiting for you to turn to Him for guidance (worldly thing won’t work out) Jesus Christ loves you so much, you are precious!

  • @uchihamp4245

    @uchihamp4245

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@fruzsinasomogyi3220 awww thank you! I love god !!

  • @uchihamp4245

    @uchihamp4245

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@donaldkeith139 ok

  • @kiara5768
    @kiara57682 жыл бұрын

    the only reason I’ve stayed is because I’m terrified of what comes after death.

  • @dianag.8478

    @dianag.8478

    2 жыл бұрын

    I feel the same

  • @germanshepherd6638

    @germanshepherd6638

    2 жыл бұрын

    Life comes after death.

  • @sodddit8360

    @sodddit8360

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@germanshepherd6638 No it doesn't. A domino affect comes after suicide. The endless sadness spread from the victim, to the family, and friends of the family. This is why I'm alive, I don't have it in me to mentally and emotionally crush my family.

  • @annetnabuyondo7607

    @annetnabuyondo7607

    2 жыл бұрын

    Nothing, nothing happens after death, nothing

  • @brie5016
    @brie50164 жыл бұрын

    You know it’s gotten bad when you start watching these again..

  • @AddieWagenknecht

    @AddieWagenknecht

    4 жыл бұрын

    This

  • @sandraliaz4553
    @sandraliaz45534 жыл бұрын

    I don’t wanna end my life I just want the pain to be gone

  • @Xx_Alichino_xX

    @Xx_Alichino_xX

    4 жыл бұрын

    Please don’t, if you need to talk to someone, I’m here

  • @randystevens1690
    @randystevens1690 Жыл бұрын

    I just loss my oldest daughter to suicide, and then my oldest son to drug overdose just within a couple months apart. As a parent it's the worst thing. No words can explain.

  • @Foxesneedtobetamed

    @Foxesneedtobetamed

    Жыл бұрын

    I have no words Randy. I am grieving with you. Thank you for sharing with us here :)

  • @randystevens1690

    @randystevens1690

    Жыл бұрын

    @@Foxesneedtobetamed It's times in life we truly don't understand, but faith in Jesus the size of a mustard seed, will move your mountains, and that same faith will help you overcome the obsticales along your journey. I see by the comments alot of hurting people. I believe the message of the Cross, and the saving Grace of Jesus Christ, will heal the worst of broken hearts, and encourage hope, to fight the good fight, and run the race with all your heart Amen.

  • @ireneangelucci3733

    @ireneangelucci3733

    Жыл бұрын

    I'm so, so sorry. Sending you a massive hug

  • @randystevens1690

    @randystevens1690

    Жыл бұрын

    @@ireneangelucci3733 Thank you very much. I love you. God Bless you and your family and friends.

  • @jenniferastrom8805
    @jenniferastrom8805 Жыл бұрын

    I think if someone turns to suicide that their life must be horrible. or they must be suffering a lot mentally. You can't cure everyone who is mentally ill. If a cancer patient kills himself because the pain is unbearable everyone seems to understand. Mental pain, however, is seen as something unreal? Why is one okay not the other?

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    Жыл бұрын

    "Why is one okay not the other?" Because people are hypocrites...

  • @M.Guy1095

    @M.Guy1095

    Жыл бұрын

    You are right people always people keep saying that suicide is sin or they are selfish that why they live other in suffer but they doesn't know they suffer form interior themselves any try not conference to any and keep it in themselves and keep acting too be a normal person and some people show some sympathy after suicidal person done already suicide and some don't care during alive time and after die too so form my concept people are different have different mentality that's why they keep doing like this but those how keep try too carry on the struggling they are like suicidal mental health conditions and they done it's mean it's too much load to carry on but they keep try to control harder but last some become weak to continue they just quite like me what I am going too do but some try like this way

  • @charlizelavastida8315
    @charlizelavastida83155 жыл бұрын

    I’m going through a hard time mentally. But it’s not like I want to die. I’m just tired of living and I wish I was never born

  • @emily-hg3sx

    @emily-hg3sx

    5 жыл бұрын

    When you hit rock bottom the only thing you can do his go up, i wanted to but i never fully went through and i’m so thankful I didn’t i’m a lot happier even though I thought I couldn’t have been

  • @sgx6215
    @sgx62153 жыл бұрын

    i dont want to kill myself BUT i simply dont want to live, i want to die in like a car accident, a fight, a fire or anyrhing that would take my life instead of me taking it by myself

  • @ali-vi6xv

    @ali-vi6xv

    3 жыл бұрын

    Same. Just something to end it. I'm tired

  • @ilovespeed7467

    @ilovespeed7467

    3 жыл бұрын

    If you guys need someone to talk to add my Snapchat, iii_britney or Instagram, britn3ey, and I feel the same way as you :).

  • @ali-vi6xv

    @ali-vi6xv

    3 жыл бұрын

    @Defaulter X does it matter?

  • @sgx6215

    @sgx6215

    3 жыл бұрын

    @Defaulter X suiciding is a sin, hoping to die is a different thing

  • @amidayooo

    @amidayooo

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry to hear that .. it breaks my heart that you have to be feeling this way. ;((

  • @prettychillpsycho
    @prettychillpsycho Жыл бұрын

    I'm watching this in order to prevent myself from ending it all right now. So sorry for their loss

  • @emie9659

    @emie9659

    Жыл бұрын

    I’m glad you’re still here love 🤍

  • @prettychillpsycho

    @prettychillpsycho

    Жыл бұрын

    @@emie9659 that is very kind of you, thank you 🤍

  • @DrizellaArandelle

    @DrizellaArandelle

    Жыл бұрын

    @@prettychillpsycho sending love 🤍

  • @lynnk-qj9cj

    @lynnk-qj9cj

    Жыл бұрын

    Please don’t my brother committed 3 weeks ago and this kinda pain stays forever. I’ve also attempted before I promise it gets better. Just keep growing around the pain take it day by day to heal. You got this lots of love take care.

  • @prettychillpsycho

    @prettychillpsycho

    Жыл бұрын

    @@lynnk-qj9cj I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope you will be able to cope with the pain somehow someday 🤍 And don't worry I didn't do it. I attempted 6 times before as well and have been in therapy ever since. It's just those really dark days that still get me... But I will continue fighting ✨

  • @marinalevicka6808
    @marinalevicka68082 жыл бұрын

    People dont take me seriously when i speak out about it and that makes me want to do it even more

  • @fredtheboxer1974

    @fredtheboxer1974

    2 жыл бұрын

    Don't do bro life is a gift and if you kill yourself you never get that gift back pray to the gods of the most high

  • @cchant2041
    @cchant20415 жыл бұрын

    People who commit suicide , are not weak .... Life sucks for a lot of us and it takes a strong person to make that leap ...

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    5 жыл бұрын

    Very strong and very desperate.

  • @Kylimatic
    @Kylimatic5 жыл бұрын

    The biggest mistake made is assuming someone is happy just because they are smiling.

  • @exoticcar5482

    @exoticcar5482

    5 жыл бұрын

    An even bigger mistake is society making happiness the norm in the first place

  • @SuperVladdrakula
    @SuperVladdrakula Жыл бұрын

    As one wise person put it, "The act of suicide is a last desperate attempt to escape a battle that cannot be won. It isn't a cowardly act; its a calculated defense strategy to avoid further damage at the hands of the enemy."

  • @callmemeii1876
    @callmemeii18762 жыл бұрын

    Every so often I come back to this video to remind myself why I can't give into intrusive thoughts

  • @bs9672

    @bs9672

    2 жыл бұрын

    you matter! lets take it easy, just breathe.

  • @leah1527
    @leah15274 жыл бұрын

    I want to die but I don’t want to hurt my parents, shit’s frustrating

  • @amanicoolbeans7408

    @amanicoolbeans7408

    4 жыл бұрын

    Leah Life gets better mamas

  • @danilynn.

    @danilynn.

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same. My dad already lost my mom, it would kill him

  • @KJ-sx5wd

    @KJ-sx5wd

    4 жыл бұрын

    Leah same. it would hurt my mom so bad.

  • @jimmyog

    @jimmyog

    4 жыл бұрын

    the same stopped me, I've actually improved a lot since that low point. Had the rope around the neck and couldn't figure out the best place to tie it to. That was literally 3 days ago so trust me you can weather the storm, and get help, try to find joy in the little things in life. We're lucky to be alive, find peace within yourself and on the other side of the double edged sword unlucky to be burdened with such pain.

  • @stephanielincoln1238

    @stephanielincoln1238

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@jimmyog please don't I know what it's like to lose someone that way my friend hung himself back in 2004 I blamed myself I started telling myself it should have been me. everyone in your life would have a empty feeling in there heart forever if u died.even though we don't know each other I would be sad if u died. u matter to me. I'll keep you in my prayers 💐😊💕

  • @maicarichelle
    @maicarichelle3 жыл бұрын

    i dont want my parents to feel like this but im so tired

  • @cookiedoughart4914

    @cookiedoughart4914

    3 жыл бұрын

    I know you are tired and I know that it seems like things won't get better any time soon but you have to keep going its not going to be easy but it's so worth it if you just hold on just a little bit longer . you don't know what tomorrow will be like if you aren't there please keep on going

  • @Albaisnothere

    @Albaisnothere

    3 жыл бұрын

    Please, stay strong. If you want to talk, I'm here.

  • @lucifide4766

    @lucifide4766

    3 жыл бұрын

    samee im tiredd like so tireddd and didn't want to do anything again

  • @rashmisharma3830

    @rashmisharma3830

    3 жыл бұрын

    I know but please we have to live

  • @heyimsophie8842

    @heyimsophie8842

    3 жыл бұрын

    ANGEL ARE U HERE? If u need to talk I’m here for u!!

  • @wildtalesofanamericanjungl1145
    @wildtalesofanamericanjungl1145 Жыл бұрын

    I have struggled with suicidal thoughts my whole life. From the young age of 13 to now (I’m 43). I’ve heard it all: - It’s selfish, think of who you are leaving behind. - It will get better, just give it time. - get help! First off, I’ve never felt that I don’t want to live. It’s more I don’t want to live “this way.” I’m writing this so I haven’t done it yet. I’ve managed to stop myself. And here’s the kicker: by stopping myself it just makes the pain last longer. I have kids and I would not want to put them or my wife or anyone (but especially my kids) through this. And that’s why I endure the pain, hardship, sorrow and feeling of hopelessness. But it gets harder and harder with every year. The other thing is that for those of us who struggle with this the fear of admitting it to the ones we love means the possible unraveling of our and our loved ones lives. Would this change my relationships if they knew? Would this change my job or possible promotion? Would this hurt how others view me…you may not think these things matter, but they do. I think that’s why I don’t attempt to end my life, but in the back of my mind I’m ok if say I get into a wreck and die. At least I go out but it was just an accident. Then again I don’t want others to die because of me. Why am I typing this? Honestly I don’t know. Maybe it’s just the only therapy I can get. No I don’t want to talk to a stranger, that’s not what I want. So for now I’ll keep trucking on, thinking of my kids until the day I can take no more. For those of you who don’t understand I can’t explain it. The best explanation I can offer is this: Imagine you broke your finger and it hurts so bad! But if you fix it the pain will be gone but so will you…so you leave it because you want to be around. But nobody can handle that pain forever. Just know that it’s not life they don’t want, it’s THIS PAINFUL life they are in now.

  • @arianachacon2551

    @arianachacon2551

    Жыл бұрын

    I felt this so hard. Like you they started around 12-13 and I’m 20 now. It’s so freaking hard. I admire you for your strength because what we are dealing with is not easy.

  • @a.w.3772

    @a.w.3772

    Жыл бұрын

    You are not alone. Jordan Petersons videos have helped me refocus to find more meaningfulness in life...and by default, less suffering.

  • @ladybug4840
    @ladybug48402 жыл бұрын

    i can never convince myself to commit suicide and im jealous of others who did. its not bc im scared to die, its bc im scared of what happens after death.

  • @AudoricArt
    @AudoricArt8 жыл бұрын

    honestly one of the biggest reasons I don't want to commit suicide is because of the people around me. I just don't want to put them through that.

  • @Nazzamajazz

    @Nazzamajazz

    8 жыл бұрын

    +REALKalikokyle why would you say something like that..? you are disgraceful.

  • @sa-zs2xr

    @sa-zs2xr

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Dori C Stay strong things will get better

  • @philippam7844

    @philippam7844

    8 жыл бұрын

    +Dori C very brave and courageous and selfless to stick through it X

  • @rensren6277

    @rensren6277

    8 жыл бұрын

    That is the same reason that stoped me so many times. My sister took her life five years ago and i remember how painful it was to see her there and not being able to help her and knowing that i didnt do anything to help her, that i didnt knew what she was going to do. I dont want my family to go through that again. I still cry at night thinking what i could've done to help her.

  • @mggreen1072

    @mggreen1072

    8 жыл бұрын

    yes Im trying not to because my firiends are from like 5 year old to 18ish and my all school will know that I gave up on life

  • @oreowolfrose5979
    @oreowolfrose59794 жыл бұрын

    I want to die....but I don't want to hurt my loved ones and family....

  • @rudolfoorozco1218

    @rudolfoorozco1218

    4 жыл бұрын

    wolfe rose sans rich same hear, but hey where lucky to even have family:) appreciate every moment bro, god bless u

  • @weirdteenagelife2617

    @weirdteenagelife2617

    4 жыл бұрын

    same here.

  • @dajahauner6394

    @dajahauner6394

    4 жыл бұрын

    Me too honey..

  • @jcorley45
    @jcorley452 жыл бұрын

    "life's really short, just enjoy it." Great idea! I'll just stop being depressed, anxious, lonely, and miserable like I have been for years, and just choose to be happy instead. I never would have thought of that; thanks! Also; a lot of suicide victims do think about the aftermath and they feel bad about it, but they also know that most people have no idea what they are going through. Especially those who have sought help and nothing works for them. It gets to the point where you are just sick and tired of trying, and you lose all your ambition and will to keep going.

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    2 жыл бұрын

    "It gets to the point where you are just sick and tired of trying" Yeah, especially when it never works anyway...

  • @305killer

    @305killer

    2 жыл бұрын

    people think we can enjoy life while we know everything we want from it is gona never happen

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@305killer Yes... So true...

  • @deathrow5581

    @deathrow5581

    2 жыл бұрын

    You are incredibly special. The odds of you being born in this life time are hard to even comprehend. How lucky are we to be alive now and not 100+ years ago. Appreciate the simple things. Rescue a dog from the pound. Watch the sunset and sunrise. I know you don't know me, but your death would have a profound impact on me. As it would for people who know you, too. Every story of suicide hurts me deeply, and I am sure many others can agree with me on that. Please keep living. Even if you think no one cares, believe me, they really do.

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@deathrow5581 "your death would have a profound impact on me.' _Liar..._ You wouldn't even know of it... And continue like nothing happened... "You are incredibly special." Take your lies somewhere else... "Even if you think no one cares, believe me, they really do." No, just no. There is absolutely _nothing_ to give that thought...

  • @deigen7586
    @deigen75862 жыл бұрын

    the thing that makes me cry is the fact that, if id kill myself, no one, NONE would talk about me like this...

  • @RaghavThakur-lu7rq

    @RaghavThakur-lu7rq

    2 жыл бұрын

    Not true mate.. there's always someone

  • @ellie8784

    @ellie8784

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@RaghavThakur-lu7rq who? My parents that emotionally abuse me? My non-existent friends? WHO?

  • @RaghavThakur-lu7rq

    @RaghavThakur-lu7rq

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@ellie8784 I don't understand why you wouldn't consider your own self as your friend.. Care for yourself as you would a loved one... And if you really want someone that cares for you, you could always adapt animals that need help..it doesn't always have to be a person.

  • @wadew.1869
    @wadew.18695 жыл бұрын

    All of you here, hurting, suicidal, depressed, starving yourself, being abused, or anything that is hurting you... I’m going to tell you right now that, *We deserved better*

  • @helloworld-sl2lw

    @helloworld-sl2lw

    4 жыл бұрын

    thank you

  • @danabusxhh7088
    @danabusxhh70884 жыл бұрын

    Every suicidal person at one point gives hints hoping someone will stop them or help but, it just kinda does not happen

  • @snakewithacheeto5561

    @snakewithacheeto5561

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yeah.

  • @ayeshagohar2908

    @ayeshagohar2908

    3 жыл бұрын

    It's sad how they never notice

  • @naklayay8465

    @naklayay8465

    3 жыл бұрын

    Its another Type of pain when they notice but dont do anything

  • @idontwannabeanonymous4725

    @idontwannabeanonymous4725

    3 жыл бұрын

    Nah, I'm not. I was hoping that day I'm successfully ending my life, but I failed (heck, I failed in everything, even when I try to ending my life). My family found me, then take me to the hospital for giving me the antidote, and after they can saved me, they really didn't think that I would do that, because it is, I don't want to be saved. Well, what I mean by commenting this is, it's not all suicidal person wants someone to stop them, we can't generalized all suicidal person. So we can't blame on people around because they didn't care enough, because they might care, but they can't read our suicidal minds, and some people are just really depressed and think death is happiness.

  • @idontwannabeanonymous4725

    @idontwannabeanonymous4725

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hope my comments give u new insight.

  • @Magicae_Maximus24
    @Magicae_Maximus242 жыл бұрын

    My older brother was 28. He died by suicide on November 10th 2019 and everyday is a struggle for me to keep myself alive. I want so badly to join him. But every time I try, I think of my little brother. I think of the example I’m setting for him and then I remember my brothers words before he left “look out for him. You may not see it but he looks up to you.” I remember those words as clear as day. I miss my older brother.

  • @mango7736

    @mango7736

    2 жыл бұрын

    You got this my friend. Don’t let those bad days take control of your life. It’s so much more valuable. I hope you feel better soon and stay strong. People love you. ❤

  • @MJ-qi4mm
    @MJ-qi4mm Жыл бұрын

    I imagine my mother and my sister searching for issues of suicide after my death and she came across this comment of mine and did not know me... My mother, this is your son, I love you, and please forget me, the pain that I felt was so great, it was tearing my soul every day. I wanted to cry, but I could not. Perhaps you feel some pain because of me. Please see a psychiatrist... I love you, my love, my dear

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    Жыл бұрын

    I don't think specifically your mother would realise it's you from this comment alone...

  • @ingenuised

    @ingenuised

    Жыл бұрын

    Don't let your mother's love give you the illusion of any supposed purpose in your life, all motherhood behaviour amounts to is simply retaining the genes of themselves through you- its all selfish and nothing to do with you, your existence could have just as easily been omitted in the womb or out of the womb all because she felt like it, all of it's just fixed chemical patterns created by billions of years of self preservation irregardless of whether you are the cherry on top or just a crumb lying on the table, I'm not saying selfish = bad, just that it shouldn't conflate with your reason to live, it's better to live when YOU want to live not someone else wanting you to live

  • @the.seagull.35

    @the.seagull.35

    11 ай бұрын

    MJ this comment broke my heart. I can only imagine the pain it would cause them to find this 💔 and the pain you must have felt when writing this. I really hope you're doing better.

  • @fla652

    @fla652

    11 ай бұрын

    are you still here?

  • @wtfamidoinwithmylife529
    @wtfamidoinwithmylife5294 жыл бұрын

    To everyone who lost someone to suicide: they didn’t mean to hurt you or guilt trip you, they just couldn’t see the light in their future.

  • @aryanpandey7928

    @aryanpandey7928

    4 жыл бұрын

    I feel this

  • @rumaulia2709

    @rumaulia2709

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yeah, i would never want to hurt my loved ones.

  • @rumaulia2709

    @rumaulia2709

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@vegetaismydad5382 A Lou A Lou im sorry to hear that. I don't know what you're going through now but i hope things can get better for you. I nearly lost my best friend to suicide a year ago. He said he didn't go through because i called him just mere moments before doing it. He suffered through that year but when we finally get to meet i can see that he is truly doing better. Of course it is different with every people but i do hope you can get better. If you are hurting much and your closest ones cannot help, please seek professional aid. I am not against assisted suicide but i hope you can reconsider that decision.

  • @maddragon3076
    @maddragon30765 жыл бұрын

    "I dont want to die... But i dont want to live"

  • @shaneweathers3319

    @shaneweathers3319

    5 жыл бұрын

    Same here

  • @hendrahalim4643

    @hendrahalim4643

    5 жыл бұрын

    same here...

  • @misterchristopher8857

    @misterchristopher8857

    5 жыл бұрын

    Get involved in some form of service to others. We gain perspective by giving, sharing, growth, helping, learning and expanding our heart minds. Travel a newer path to find great happiness.

  • @pinadecristofaro8771

    @pinadecristofaro8771

    5 жыл бұрын

    Same.

  • @generichuman2044

    @generichuman2044

    5 жыл бұрын

    That sums it up perfectly. I suffer with depression and BPD and every day is a task. I don't want to suffer anymore but at the same time death is a finality. I think people would be better off without me but at the same time I don't want to leave them in pain. You can't win and life feels like a cruel and endless cycle.

  • @gzjam
    @gzjam2 жыл бұрын

    so we're all here at the same time, same week, same day, maybe same minute or hour, but somehow we're all watching this video from 2015 now, i guess just like me we are considering suicide huh, yeah same i've been thinking about it all day

  • @joshstewartmotovids3810

    @joshstewartmotovids3810

    2 жыл бұрын

    you are loved by many stay strong

  • @chelsy6724

    @chelsy6724

    2 жыл бұрын

    we can do this. i might not know you, but we share the same struggle. try to keep fighting.

  • @erwinkusuma9419

    @erwinkusuma9419

    2 жыл бұрын

    I hope we can win this time & i hope you're getting better !

  • @anushayadav4021

    @anushayadav4021

    2 жыл бұрын

    yes, right now evn i am thinking

  • @scarletshinobi3633
    @scarletshinobi36332 жыл бұрын

    I come back to this video often. I have gotten to a really low place in my life. It sounds sick, but I come back to this video so I can imagine that one of these people is my relative, my friend, my anything. I’m sad and I’m sorry that these people have to deal with such tremendous loss, but at the same time… I come back to imagine someone is sad to lose me. Or that someone wants me to be there. Or that someone is just.. thinking of me. It is so painful to have gotten to this point. I have felt so many times that I have escaped this feeling but I can never escape it and I’m just exhausted. The worst part might be the only reason I can’t bring myself to go is because I wouldn’t be able to watch this video again and imagine I am important or even matter at all to someone. I hate this.

  • @huonggiangnguyen4250

    @huonggiangnguyen4250

    2 жыл бұрын

    Stay strong 💪 I haven’t met you but I believe there’s always the light. You’re worthy of every reasons to stay 💪

  • @gabymorketchup5045

    @gabymorketchup5045

    2 жыл бұрын

    ❤️🕊kzread.info/dash/bejne/mH15rKWAqc_Ym7Q.html

  • @suicidebtch5249
    @suicidebtch52494 жыл бұрын

    I wish people knew how hard it is to reach out

  • @Dani_77709
    @Dani_777095 жыл бұрын

    *I don't want to die, I just want to stop the pain*

  • @dilarakaraman2005

    @dilarakaraman2005

    5 жыл бұрын

    Dani Just Dani me too. I can't anymore. I just cant

  • @rinigranini9389

    @rinigranini9389

    5 жыл бұрын

    Dani Just Dani Heyy, please don‘t give up now. I was at this point some months ago. But everything is changing so rapidly. I whish you so much to find some hope again!

  • @Dani_77709

    @Dani_77709

    5 жыл бұрын

    @@juliantherussian7752 dude (¬_¬)

  • @sikkesticepikk2981

    @sikkesticepikk2981

    5 жыл бұрын

    Dani Just Dani I get it. I feel that way all the time.

  • @shivx1

    @shivx1

    5 жыл бұрын

    I understand too, reach out and speak to someone my dude, there are still people out there who care about you that don't even know you

  • @sarahalexandrra
    @sarahalexandrra Жыл бұрын

    I lost my baby brother who was about to turn 29 to suicide Feb 7th, 2023. The pain never stops. I wish to join him so badly I’ve never thought about suicide as much as I have in the past month. Every day feels like a nightmare I still can’t believe he is not in this world. I spent the majority of my life growing up alongside my brother. A future and life without him feels impossible to live.

  • @iamthechangemaker

    @iamthechangemaker

    Жыл бұрын

    I feel like a bunch of empaths have reached the same conclusion

  • @MJ-qi4mm

    @MJ-qi4mm

    Жыл бұрын

    you love him, do not repeat the mistake, go to a psychiatrist

  • @the.seagull.35

    @the.seagull.35

    11 ай бұрын

    Sarah how are you?

  • @AJB273
    @AJB27326 күн бұрын

    I lost my brother to suicide last month. I know it’s hard to see but for anyone contemplating suicide, please know that you are deeply loved and sorely needed by many, even by those that don’t say it and even by people you likely haven’t even met yet. Have hope and hang in there 🙏

  • @stikkontakt4

    @stikkontakt4

    6 күн бұрын

    Me too my little brother a bit more than 2 weeks ago. It feels like I have been sucked into an alternative dimension where i'm not supposed to be. I've kept wishing everyday that I would've just reached out and talked to me or anybody for that matter. No feeling is forever and there will always be another and better day ahead, even if it might be hard to see at times. To anyone out there who might feel like my little brother did in that fateful moment, for the love of God each out. You are loved and people will be there for you.

  • @Cowskiman

    @Cowskiman

    3 күн бұрын

    Your bro was a puss. He chickened out on life

  • @yuurikatsuki7281
    @yuurikatsuki72814 жыл бұрын

    I don’t tell anyone my problems because I don’t want my monsters do become there’s. I put on a big smile and collect their monsters, not the other way around.

  • @hmsvictory8051

    @hmsvictory8051

    4 жыл бұрын

    You are a good person

  • @ymrabangtan6321

    @ymrabangtan6321

    4 жыл бұрын

    you can tell me , i trust you and i purple you 💜

  • @shellb623

    @shellb623

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same here.🥺

  • @breafrederick9358
    @breafrederick93588 жыл бұрын

    if people could just talk about their problems without having people call them babies or drama queens then i think we could save a whole ton of lives. just saying. #rip

  • @zack4423

    @zack4423

    8 жыл бұрын

    Especially if we weren't taught to hate

  • @lermankatisen7698
    @lermankatisen76985 ай бұрын

    Last year , I said bye, and I love you to my boyfriend of 6 years in a normal morning, I remembered he smiled back at me as usual then headed to work , later that afternoon his coworker found him hang himself in a small forest behind the employee car park , I got so many calls that day from different people, telling me the news , but I all did was repeatedly calling my boyfriend. He didn't answer since that day.

  • @Guys_Love_Each_Other

    @Guys_Love_Each_Other

    Ай бұрын

    why he was suffering from depression?

  • @FireWork-nc8ib

    @FireWork-nc8ib

    Ай бұрын

    ​@@Guys_Love_Each_Other... For sure ,anxiety and depression are cancer 😢

  • @eitakriamdt
    @eitakriamdt10 ай бұрын

    trying not to die is exhausting

  • @SuperVladdrakula

    @SuperVladdrakula

    10 ай бұрын

    What's worse, it is, often, not even _worth_ it and gets punished...

  • @flowerlampremote

    @flowerlampremote

    9 ай бұрын

    it is I can relate but thank you for trying please keep trying

  • @A-oo2fb

    @A-oo2fb

    4 ай бұрын

    Why even bother...