That's when I Became Suicidal... (Davi Millsaps Career Ending Crash)

Davi Millsaps opens up on his career ending crash where he then became suicidal.
Davi Milsaps had a rollercoaster of a career. He was an amateur super star, a Supercross champion and ultimately suffered a career ending crash that left him with a brain injury that made him suicidal. Milsaps was the king of the early 2000's mini bike scene with his factory Suzuki deal and No Fear gear and inspired an entire generation with his parts in the Mini Warriors series.

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  • @stephenadams5223
    @stephenadams52233 ай бұрын

    That was a tough listen, interviewer did great keeping davi comfortable and continuing the convo. Hats off gypsy. Im a fan now

  • @GYPSYTALES

    @GYPSYTALES

    3 ай бұрын

    Appreciate it mate, hard to navigate something like that but Davi is a great dude. Glad he got to tell his story.

  • @mickv2tshaw187
    @mickv2tshaw1873 ай бұрын

    Been living this for a long time, it’s no joke!

  • @jasonallen7993

    @jasonallen7993

    3 ай бұрын

    Me too

  • @Scummy_shovel
    @Scummy_shovel3 ай бұрын

    I have a good friend who had a bad brain injury and it’s super sad. He was telling me the other day he doesn’t even like his family anymore. It’s crazy. He is still a good dad but he said. “They don’t even feel like my kids and wife anymore man. I care about them but I know it’s not like I’m suppose to”. He doesn’t even like the same foods as stuff. He use to have a huge sense of humor and I haven’t even seen him smile in the last couple years since it happened. It’s scary stuff.

  • @stephenwilson1012

    @stephenwilson1012

    3 ай бұрын

    Damn.... I think I might need to get checked up now

  • @Scummy_shovel

    @Scummy_shovel

    3 ай бұрын

    @@stephenwilson1012 stuff isn’t anything to play with man. I hate to say it but I would not be suprised if my buddy doesn’t just check out. He is a totally different guy. I still love him like a brother but knowing him before and after it’s sad. Even music. He use to love music. And messed around with guitar. He never was a professional guitar player or anything but he says he can’t even play a chord now and has zero interest to even try. His deal was his frontal lope. It crushed in his scull and he had to have a plate. I feel bad for the guy. He doesn’t even ride anymore. He can. Just doesn’t enjoy it.

  • @Rachwal.Productions

    @Rachwal.Productions

    3 ай бұрын

    i had a crash last August that left me with 3 brain bleeds, forever changed my life. The person I was before I crashed died, my memory is heavily affected and im just pissed off all the time now. I reached out to Davi recently and he kinda guided me on what to do to help recover. I was better for a little while, but now all the side affects are back. Its so scary, People who have not went through a head injury has no idea the hell is brings. I'll never be who I was again.

  • @Scummy_shovel

    @Scummy_shovel

    3 ай бұрын

    @@Rachwal.Productions well. Never say never brother. The human body and mind is a miraculous mystery. I had a carrier ending crash in 08 and they said I’d absolutely never walk again let alone ride. Took me many years but I’m still riding. Certainly not like I was. Or will ever be. Sometimes believing you can get through stuff is enough to make it happen. I’m fortunate it only affected my body tho. But for the first couple years I listen to the doctors. Took there meds and stayed the same. Finally I just decided I wouldn’t live like that and if something dint happen to where I seen progress I was just checking out. Got off all those meds stopped going to the doctor and there bs insurance milking “rehabilitation” and just started pushing myself. Almost literally to death. But at that point in my life death was the other option so I figured what harm could it do. Cbd helped a lot. I went to south America for some stem cell therapy and that helped tremendously. Within a year I was able to job and another year bicycle. Like you said. “No one knows what it’s like” and I’m sure you are correct and your journey will be different than mine or anyone else’s. But for me once I started seeing a tiny bit of progress I bite in hard and just kept biting. So hopefully you will find something that gives you that bit of progress and in return gives you the motivation to keep pushing. Just don’t give up! If one thing doesn’t work. look for something else. Keep your head up bro. And good luck with your journey

  • @nagelmotox284

    @nagelmotox284

    3 ай бұрын

    @@Rachwal.Productions dealing w it now and I know what you mean. a multi hill climb national champ has helped me some whom I randomly became friends with, but life just isn’t the same. I just don’t even know how much longer I can deal with it. Its been 7 months of pure hell but I keep trying because I want to contunue to be a dad

  • @jimmysutto-sq8ed
    @jimmysutto-sq8ed3 ай бұрын

    Well done for talking about it, same thing happened to me in 2013. Fractured skull, vertebrae, arm, ribs and internal breeding. My relationship of 24 years and 12 years married didn’t survive. I’m through the other side now very grateful for every day now but it made me very awake and strong. Still ride mx with mates today Keep up the great work Jase love pod cast.

  • @dangerdanger5411
    @dangerdanger54113 ай бұрын

    I feel this is one of the best episodes with the dangers of this sport, we assume responsibility for, but the struggle from them and overcoming. Davey I think I can say we all LOVED watching you fight to be up front & this shows you are a true gladiator with not giving up on YOURSELF & helping others. BEAST!

  • @aj_hyer
    @aj_hyer3 ай бұрын

    I had the pleasure to spend some time with Davi at his house in Georgia back in 2012. One of the nicest and most hard working dudes I've met. Hard to watch him have to go through that, but also glad to see he is doing much better now. Miss watching him on a supercross track. Thanks for the interview Gypsy Tales.

  • @CrimsomSkies
    @CrimsomSkies3 ай бұрын

    I had no idea. Thanks Davi, you've made me see things with people in a completely different way.

  • @user-qp5ot2wm4u
    @user-qp5ot2wm4u3 ай бұрын

    I feel for you Davi, hope you're doing better. I had a brutal concussion at High Falls SX as a kid on a 65. Woke up in the middle of the track to a guy helping me back onto on my bike. I just remember my dad and brother constantly telling me "stay awake, stay awake", on the whole drive home. I never went to the doctor about it as a kid and now as an adult, I go to bed with a headache/migraine and wake up with one, 24/7. Been this way since I was 15, about to turn 30 in a couple of days. Been to countless neurologist, neurosurgeons, specalistis, you name it, over the years and finally just gave up and accepted that I'm stuck. Was put on painkillers for a few years until they became a scary dependency and addiction. I think about catching the bus a lot. But I could not bare to put my family through that. One of the few things oddly enough that helps me is being on the bike. The adrenaline kind of blocks out the pain temporarily. In a huge rut, I can't work and living with my parents. I feel like a huge nuisance and burden financially. Anyone else going through something similar, just know you're not alone and if you need someone to talk to, feel free to hit me up.

  • @OtisFlint

    @OtisFlint

    3 ай бұрын

    Start lifting weights. I had a head injury from high siding a ZX10R. Had migraines almost every day for a year and a half. The thing that helped more than anything was weightlifting. My theory is that something with the high fluid pressures helps to condition you and build resistance to migraines, considering fluid pressure is a factor. After a couple months of lifting every day i pretty much stopped getting them.

  • @jamesgeorge4874

    @jamesgeorge4874

    3 ай бұрын

    Shrooms. Ketamine therapy. Check it out. Dale Earnhardt Jr's Joe Rogan podcast has some great TBI info, check it out.

  • @edwardvanwormer6993
    @edwardvanwormer69933 ай бұрын

    This is a great episode. Thank you Davi for being so open and honest.

  • @UFOEVO51
    @UFOEVO513 ай бұрын

    I fractured my skull when I was 10 years old. Had to relearn how to walk, read, write and how to do math. I didn't go to public school for 6 months that year. Even when I did I just wasn't there teachers were understanding and passed me anyway I suffered from suicidal thoughts until I was about 26 also ended up addicted to cocaine for about 8 years. Then I met my fiance, my dad passed away a couple years later when I was 29 and just came to understanding that it's all on me and that I'm lucky to be here and have people who love me regardless of my mistakes in the past. Now I'm happier than ever and pretty successful and went back to my original addiction motocross. Family and moto is all I'll ever need to feel complete. Life's to short. Dig deep, look yourself in the mirror and be the best version of yourself you can be everyday.

  • @Bentleyschenider
    @Bentleyschenider3 ай бұрын

    Damn this is a cold episode

  • @Speedz41

    @Speedz41

    3 ай бұрын

    the real side of moto most will never speak about.

  • @semrow96me35

    @semrow96me35

    3 ай бұрын

    That’s because this is the closing door of the sport. There will always be the last time you throw the leg over the bike

  • @giambellucajordan
    @giambellucajordan3 ай бұрын

    This is one of the best videos you uploaded bro! 😢❤

  • @iteleski2
    @iteleski23 ай бұрын

    The brain is a crazy thing you don't want to injure!!! I hit my head on ice back in the 80s and I lost my vision for hours, and fortunately I regained the vision, but can't say I have been normal since. I have hit my head a few times later on as well. I know that I'm a socially awkward person and can't keep a permanent job or relationship, but can't say that thats what caused it. Would love to know whats happening, but I am afraid of what it'd cost since healthcare is through the roof and I cant afford it. Just quit my job this week because I have been super frustrated there and this seems to be a thing with me. I don't know, but the brain I know is something not to mess with.

  • @chalo212

    @chalo212

    3 ай бұрын

    You are good, any decision you've taken was the right one, everything happens for a reason, If you can still breathe you are on the winning side of things. Cheers.

  • @Grant3758

    @Grant3758

    3 ай бұрын

    You must look into psilocybin mushrooms. They have helped me tremendously. Some states they are legal and easy to get. Life changing for headaches, depression, and anxiety

  • @JonnyJetson754

    @JonnyJetson754

    3 ай бұрын

    Try to buy pumpkin seeds at the store as well as beets juice powder

  • @jonathonbeharriell1489
    @jonathonbeharriell148919 күн бұрын

    That’s a role model. Loved watching Davi ride but even more listening to him talk. Such a great man

  • @spencerturleyfan
    @spencerturleyfan3 ай бұрын

    That's what happened to Dave Mirra. Raise awareness.

  • @frankleon5510
    @frankleon55103 ай бұрын

    I’ve been there! Head injury is the worst. Glad you made it through Davi.

  • @nagelmotox284
    @nagelmotox2843 ай бұрын

    hard episode for me to listen to. Had a TBI, DAI on mod severe, broke a ton of bones and got cpr. 7 months in and I cant explain the emotions this brings… life completely has changed.

  • @Zackerzac789
    @Zackerzac7893 ай бұрын

    As usual you cut someone off at a good point...dude seriously. Respect milsaps glad youre good

  • @chrisvozza6530
    @chrisvozza65303 ай бұрын

    So glad you still here Millsaps, to tell us about your life experiences. Gypsy tales keep um coming

  • @MrBobbit666
    @MrBobbit6663 ай бұрын

    your a bloody legend davi i have been a fan since you were young and i seen you on video obviously hanging out with travis and thought he hangs with travis he has to be cool amd watched you come up through the 250s onto the 450 now you deserve a good life mate and seems like your making it better keep goin mate your doing well

  • @adamtowne6843
    @adamtowne68433 ай бұрын

    Oof. Had multiple concussions in a row. Never really thought about the anger effects and depression. Two things I definitely have to fight in certain days. What I know is that I constantly have post concussion syndrome frequently. The shrooms are good i want to get back into them after my brain is fully developed at 25 though.

  • @adamtowne6843

    @adamtowne6843

    3 ай бұрын

    Also im still riding its not going to stop me. Racing might not be a thing for me though

  • @ultimatedriversofmachinery
    @ultimatedriversofmachinery3 ай бұрын

    I feel that brother. It’s a hard obstacle to have to confront.

  • @probahcrf
    @probahcrf3 ай бұрын

    Man this is insane! Glad you’re ok Davi

  • @hung8969
    @hung89693 ай бұрын

    worst part of recovery to me. i got short term memory lost. its not the forgetting... its the explaining it to people. you gf getting mad you didnt take the trash out, your parents pissed you missed an important day. your boss fires you because he called to tell you something important and you dont have ANY clue what hes talking about, but then check your phone log and see the call but STILL not remember it at all. To a point, i was at a family gathering. Got to meet my nephew and first thing my mother does is go "did you remember his name!!!!" like its a fun thing for me....

  • @shadecomfortss

    @shadecomfortss

    3 ай бұрын

    110% with you there my friend.

  • @semrow96me35

    @semrow96me35

    3 ай бұрын

    It’s rough man, all you want is to get better and it doesn’t. Writing shit down sometimes helps me, a white board calendar to, as stupid as it sounds a journal is pretty dope to. Journaling to a doctor can help a bit if you find the right doctor, head aches suck. But they can inject you with some stuff in your back to block them.

  • @user-un5my5bw4j
    @user-un5my5bw4j3 ай бұрын

    I raced against Davi several times in western PA out at steel city, pleasure valley, high point several times. I took a lot of third places behind Brock Hepler & Davi

  • @chalo212

    @chalo212

    3 ай бұрын

    Mayor leagues, you can be extremely proud of those rides

  • @AAAskeet

    @AAAskeet

    3 ай бұрын

    Nice,hauling the mail!

  • @martynclinton8092
    @martynclinton80923 ай бұрын

    Best interview yet…. With the stroupe izzi and now this! The dark side of our sport.. you don’t get decoster and mitch talkimg about this! People get used! Sometimes its a What does mx give me vs what can it take away! ❤

  • @jacobhendrickson8935
    @jacobhendrickson89352 ай бұрын

    I had a street bike crash head injury that made me so sick for almost a month. Everytime I woke up I would vomit then fall right back out. I remember little but was also very mean.

  • @justinbs19
    @justinbs193 ай бұрын

    Any insight on what mushroom supplements you are taking or that you recommend?

  • @motoprofessor3546
    @motoprofessor35463 ай бұрын

    I had a serious crash and head injury on a motorcycle in 76. I woke up in the hospital the next day and still don't remember anything about that night. My friend told me that I was answering the doctor's questions with anger and swearing my ass off. I was 14 and never swore in front of my mom except that night. My mom never mentioned it.

  • @MotoMatt418
    @MotoMatt4183 ай бұрын

    Brutal. The dark side of the sport that nobody wants to think about, but it needs awareness.

  • @nextgen46
    @nextgen463 ай бұрын

    WHat was he taking that helped him ? Tried to Google can't figure it out ..

  • @138_k5

    @138_k5

    3 ай бұрын

    Psilocybin

  • @somethingelse4846
    @somethingelse48463 ай бұрын

    If only mirra could have went this way....

  • @justo2101
    @justo21013 ай бұрын

    Got hit at a red light on my Harley broke a lot of my face and skull along with neck and back and this guy just described my life the past 31/2 years it takes along time man head stuff is no joke this was the accident that really messed me up at least

  • @goingbonzo5923
    @goingbonzo59233 ай бұрын

    I went over the bars once and face planted. It felt like my eyeball came out of the socket. I didn't have a concussion but my eye was so black and blue, I couldn't open it. I had to walk around with sunglasses on inside and outside because it was so gruesome looking. This is a sport that will hit you hard like a shark breaching a seal. You wont see it coming until it happened.

  • @shanewilliams7834
    @shanewilliams78343 ай бұрын

    Davi, you are an inspiration to more than you'll ever know. Brother, keep on keeping on much love.

  • @robshigledecker5998
    @robshigledecker59983 ай бұрын

    At the same time, don't judge someone who tells you that they want to kill themselves, listen to them and try to understand 😢

  • @michaeldill7620
    @michaeldill76203 ай бұрын

    Big medicine. 🙏🏽

  • @Martin-ef4xh
    @Martin-ef4xhАй бұрын

    Concussions are scary fuckers. Wrecked at a cross country race, drove home with my kid in the truck. We made it home OK, but do not...DO NOT remember driving home or anything else from that day. Don't even remember getting third OA (out of over 60 other riders)! Sucky part is, I didn't even remember to get my trophy! So yeah, hit your head, get checked out. No BS

  • @jamesgeorge4874
    @jamesgeorge48743 ай бұрын

    TBI is no joke. Dale Earnhardt Jrs appearance on Joe Rogan touches on the topic, and a doctor that helped him. Ketamine therapy and Psychedelics also help some people. Recovery is possible, you may not be 100%, but you can get _better_

  • @AndrewM4623
    @AndrewM46233 ай бұрын

    I reach out to my friends but after you been hurt and have the demons nearly 20 years, They ain't there for you after this long

  • @rfair123
    @rfair1233 ай бұрын

    Is he saying Citicoline was the supplement that was a game changer? Want to pass along the info, but not 100% sure that's what he said.

  • @jackieenx7085

    @jackieenx7085

    3 ай бұрын

    Psilocybin.. mushrooms

  • @rfair123

    @rfair123

    3 ай бұрын

    ​@@jackieenx7085 Got it, thanks.

  • @derekbentley334
    @derekbentley3343 ай бұрын

    Did you feel like spirits is the only thing you have left.

  • @jw8556
    @jw85563 ай бұрын

    Yeah it gets real foggy for a few days maybe a week at most and then it passes but the real damage is already done . it comes back to haunt you years later for the rest of your life. l have had six concussions after the worst one number four life took a turn for the worse and it is hard to know why but it's like you lose at least half of yourself and it's the good half the fun half now life is just hard work . six concussions were over a twenty five year period the last one being about two years ago. l hope l can keep my shit together long enough to spend some time with my soon to be first grandchild lm in my mid fifties hopefully lm sill sane by my mid sixties . l have heard ginkgo and brahmy can help brain injury but it's hard to say really

  • @jethroboorer2860
    @jethroboorer28603 ай бұрын

    Mushrooms can be amazing with the right dosage. Unreal clarity on life's issues and you can put them where they need to be. A reset button 😊

  • @semrow96me35
    @semrow96me353 ай бұрын

    The doctor said I couldn’t ride I told him I don’t care, moto life till the death boy I swear if I crash I can brrrappp say a prayer. RIP JG96 AM173 and Jasiac Sloan I’ve lost over 17 friends to this sport. It ain’t worth it. Most fun I’ve ever had, best memories in the world till you have a spinal, head injury or you’re never the same person again

  • @MXRiderFiftyTwo
    @MXRiderFiftyTwo3 ай бұрын

    Microdosing, I'm glad he's back living life again.

  • @derekbentley334
    @derekbentley3343 ай бұрын

    5.85 is 13 years no space shuttles NASA

  • @derekbentley334
    @derekbentley3343 ай бұрын

    It's a fight. 5years with coins numismatics with no recognition from NUMISMATIC industry leaders

  • @Norcaljedi_ea
    @Norcaljedi_ea3 ай бұрын

    Shrooms for the win. They will reset and refresh your mind.

  • @derekbentley334
    @derekbentley3343 ай бұрын

    My cost? $5,850,000,000 by book

  • @Thepianobird
    @Thepianobird3 ай бұрын

    hes lucky it was not a spinal cord injury. theres no coming back from thoes. But brain injuries are easier to come back from

  • @kymbrice

    @kymbrice

    3 ай бұрын

    You haven't suffered a severe TBI have you?

  • @Thepianobird

    @Thepianobird

    3 ай бұрын

    @@kymbrice im not diminishing the seriousness of his injury, so dont go there. Iv just always has a phobia of paralysis

  • @derekbentley334
    @derekbentley3343 ай бұрын

    52.249-2 Termination of Conviences of the Government. Struggles

  • @derekbentley334
    @derekbentley3343 ай бұрын

    It is from a lack mentality. Racecraft

  • @travismccloskey9733
    @travismccloskey97333 ай бұрын

    Great, now every C class rider is gonna be out on the track tripping on mushrooms.

  • @gooseactionsports1289

    @gooseactionsports1289

    3 ай бұрын

    “Yeh I got a concussion last week so I’ve been doing a quarter of boomers per day since, I think I’m good to race this weekend”

  • @travismccloskey9733

    @travismccloskey9733

    3 ай бұрын

    @@gooseactionsports1289 If ya ain't Trippin' ya ain't Rippin'

  • @elliottrau9845
    @elliottrau98453 ай бұрын

    Ayahuasca can cure brain injuries. if you watch the Sean Ryan podcast, he has a ton of navy seals with brain injuries that healed themselves completely with plant medicine.

  • @johnmalone2389
    @johnmalone23893 ай бұрын

    Who cares if you had concussions, no one cares about you, let Millsaps talk

  • @HurricaneJesus69
    @HurricaneJesus693 ай бұрын

    Props to Davi for being so open about all of this! I have always been a huge fan of his and this makes me love him even more. His wife is amazing too as it would have been easy to do what everyone else these days does; take the kids and alimony and bounce but she chose to stay and fight for him!