I was also scared of medication, but eventually decided that there's no way it could make my situation any worse than it already was. It completely turned my life upside down - almost immediately my severe anxiety and intrusive thoughts were gone, I could do housework, I could read books without having to endlessly re-read due to zoning out, I stopped constantly thinking about eating, and within 6 months my chronic pain and migraines had started to go away (and are now completely gone!). I'm still considering some kind of anti-depressant but am very resistant to it, and will likely continue to be too scared to try them. I want to say it's completely fine to take a break from school to work and get some life experience, but definitely don't push yourself to do youtube if what you really need is more of a break. I've done lots of social jobs (both involving kids and without), and in my experience those post-work shutdowns/mutism episodes got longer as time went on. Take care of yourself and do what is best for you

@Aneva

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It really hit home when you mentioned there was no way it could make your situation any worse. Literally came to that realization and I am so happy I did. It’s amazing how things get better. I love that you’ve shared how things improved for you. That’s incredible. The chronic pain and migraine thing is mind blowing to me. Like wow. It really helped you so much. Definitely go at your own speed with adding and trying new meds, but I hope you find the perfect combination :)! I will definitely try to slow things down when needed. I get excited hehe. But thank you so much!!

Happy new year! I graduated last year. Spent most of the year applying to grad studies and then later applying to a job. Applying for jobs has literally been the most gruelling experience throughout my whole life. I'd literally do my finals all over again if it meant i didnt have to interview. I ended up working as a teaching assistant for now, but in an absolutely lovely specialist school that solely works with autistic children. Specialist schools are honestly such a great place for neurodiverse people to teach. It has been the best transition to fulltime work I could have ever imagined, they are very patient and accomodating, and even though socialising with teachers and stuff is still difficult I'm happy with the place I've found there so far. We were doing our induction on understanding autism, and things were clicking even more in place for myself, especially looking at how autism presents in females! I very specifically have been social imitating all the way since primary school. Even with an easy position full time has been difficult I feel out of time most days and feeding myself properly and keeping up hobbies has been very dificult. I would very much like to get a diagnosis for adhd and try out medication like you, but its such a huge hurdle to get past right now

@Aneva

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Applying for jobs can be so horrible. It takes hours, but I once stayed up until 4am applying to 11 jobs and didn't get an interview for any LOL idky i did that. The odds were against me on that one

Happy new year aneva !

@Aneva

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Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year Aneva! 🤗✨💖🌈🦋♾🎉💕 It's wonderful to hear your update and that you've found such a great job! How beautiful to work with the children of our ND community, I would love that 💕💕 I'm so looking forward to more of your videos! Oh and I totally get you on the clothing not being right. What I wear has a big impact on me, not just on a physical sensory level but also feeling like me. During my Autism assessment the physiologist asked if I thought that was a form of expressing myself as in actually a way of communicating and it really is, but that question also made me realise I think it's also me attempting to define myself to myself, if that makes sense. Anyway, when it doesn't feel right it doesn't feel right..! When we have even just that to deal with, let alone all the other aspects of being Autistic, making it to something like a class can be immense and sometimes impossible. I hope you aren't down on yourself for any struggles you may have in school, it's not your fault. So many of us struggle deeply at school.. but now you are helping kids at school and being a part of positive change in that space, you star! You should feel super proud of yourself! 🤩👑💖💕

@Aneva

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Happy New year, Annie!! I love my new job alot, it was totally worth branching out.YES the "feeling like me" thing. It's so strange. I just changed my outfit twice today already and I don't even have work today. Maybe your idea is right about that!I really always appreciate and look forward to your supportive comments. I hope you're doing well in your personal endeavors too!!

I hope your 2023 will be successful, Aneva! On a side note, when you talked about your approach to medication, I clutched my chest. Because I had the exact same one. When I got diagnosed with Panic Disorder in 2019, I tried to go about it with no medication. I was secretly afraid and wanted to be brave. It turns out it leads to more panic attacks and weeks of no sleep. My therapist eventually agreed that I start on a low dose of antidepressants. Since then, my mental health has been so much better. So I'm glad to hear that you're doing better as well with yours.

@Aneva

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I always thought the brave and most sensible thing to do was tough it own on my own, but I realized I couldn’t. So glad you got help. That’s the crazy part, it actually DOES get worse if you don’t treat it. Wish I knew the best thing for me to do years ago. So so so happy those symptoms have cleared up for you, that’s scary. Thank you for sharing, as always. It’s really so helpful

@ajhebb

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@@Aneva Of course! Glad we both got to learn off from each other. :)