There's also that there are a lot of feelings that you have to hold in the background to keep working on something so big and when you finally finish it, you can kind of let the dam open on all of those feelings and it's a lot to flood you at once.

@TheVintageAcademic

2 ай бұрын

That is so so true and I didn't even think of it! Thank you for this perspective, it absolutely speaks to my experience. I can say, on the other side of submitting my final draft, that all the positive feelings have been flooding through which has been a nice change of pace

The opening shot is soooooo Katie hahah. On a serious note, I'm so proud of you, Katie. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this phase of life with us.

@TheVintageAcademic

2 ай бұрын

hahaha i try to inject some personality into my videos from time to time

I appreciate the vulnerability you share! I admire your courage.

@TheVintageAcademic

2 ай бұрын

Thank you! I think it’s important to share all the feelings, good and bad

im so so happy for you !! youre so inspiring....i admire how hard you work even with the difficulties of adhd ^__^

@TheVintageAcademic

2 ай бұрын

Thank you!

Congratulations on finishing, you’re a rockstar❤ I have a lot of similar feelings about finishing my MA and moving on. I don’t think I’m in love with my dissertation, I don’t feel ready to leave the comfort of academia (but also am feeling like I need to take a break from academia cause it’s exhausting), feel like I need some stasis and calm to recharge and am scared of having to work out what to do next BUT also feel like I’m failing/giving up if I don’t. Shit’s hard.

@TheVintageAcademic

2 ай бұрын

That’s exactly how I feel, especially because I want to go on to a PhD, but a break is definitely needed yet. It’ll be hard to not feel like I’m falling behind though

Hi Katie. I'm Colleen. Just started subscribing to your channel and Kaelyn Grace Apple's as well, since I'm a PhD Sociology student in the University of the Philippines Diliman, and I also just inquired about joining Accepted Society. I know you posted this particular vlog a few months ago, and I know the things you shared here aren't what you might be feeling anymore right now, but I just wanted to say how much I appreciate the vulnerability you shared here, with your feelings of sadness, being overwhelmed, and the challenges you had with your thesis. Of course, I don't want anyone to feel those things, but I've been going through the same things right now with my own final research papers. I also have bipolar II disorder. So, it felt rather comforting to know that I have never been alone in feeling this way because of course there are other grad students who are "neurodivergent" and have also struggled in school. What's important is that you also stayed positive here by being grateful and proud of yourself for what you had achieved in this video, with your thesis. I also have similar concerns as well with my own journey, but mine are more on worries about maybe being dropped from the PhD program if I am not able to meet my deadlines today for my final papers (I've had a hard semester applying and working in jobs in a call center and finally getting a job in a government development agency in the research department, and I think my mental health is getting affected with the lack of sleep I've had this week, working on my papers). But I hope that if I would ask for an extension from my professors, they would understand. I have already asked for consideration on these papers because these are actually delayed research papers that I have from the past year. But I've had a financially difficult time the past year, although I am very grateful that things are looking up since my current job pays well. Moreover, I feel a bit of shame of the idea of asking for another extension from my professors for making bipolar II disorder a reason for being unprofessional about my deadlines, but I just can't help it. My brain hasn't been functioning since yesterday because I feel a bit overwhelmed. I think I might do what you did in this video and get myself some bright light therapy outdoors this morning. In any case, I think I'm going to visit a psychiatrist as well to get an appointment, since that has been long overdue for me. Nothing beats getting a professional to help you out when you need it. But overall, I just wanted to affirm the experiences you've shared in your channel, and how much it is helping people like me. Whatever the future holds, I hope I will be able to stay committed to my goal of developing my country through development work and education (since I was also a college professor), and to graduate from my PhD. Thanks, Katie, and wishing you all good blessings in your schooling and in life!

I skipped ahead a few vids. Yeah. When I submitted my honors thesis, I wasn't happy about it. It didn't cover what I wanted it to cover. I thought it was poorly executed. I was just unhappy about the whole thing. I wonder how common that feeling is amongst those who attempt such projects. Ultimately, I suppose, you just keep moving forward, trying to do your best at whatever new projects come along, until you reach a point where you can look back on all you've done and honestly say to yourself "You know, I think I did alright." Maybe. I don't know. I haven't gotten there, myself.

@TheVintageAcademic

2 ай бұрын

I find that the people who produce good scholarship, good work, tend to be the most critical of themselves. It’s because we have high expectations and put so much of ourselves into our work that it can be hard to walk away from it. I’m already feeling better about it- it’s hard work and I’m proud of myself for doing it

I appreciate your honesty so much! Sending love from Baltimore 💕

@TheVintageAcademic

2 ай бұрын

Thank you so much! I always appreciate your support