Spiraling in Overwhelming Anxiety, Religious OCD and Pain
In this broadcast, I will be responding to an audio message of a cry for help in the midst of an emotional spiral. You will see the impact of religious OCD, unprocessed grief, phobias and anxiety that often leave us becoming angry with God and angry with ourselves.
I pray that today you can experience some encouragement in your own journey as you watch me respond to the frustration and venting.
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To the woman who sent this in: I get you. God gets you. I feel so much compassion for you. We all do. You are an overcomer. Just to live with those kind of struggles shows the heart of a warrior. I pray for you. Hang in there, sister
@JedStevens1234
Жыл бұрын
Yes Bless this sister !
@smokingcrab2290
5 ай бұрын
And God bless you too brother. You gotta good heart
@jakewinters3941
4 ай бұрын
❤
@jakewinters3941
4 ай бұрын
@@smokingcrab2290❤
If Jesus, the Son of God, wept over Lazarus knowing that he would raise Him from the dead moments later, then surely it reveals our deep need for compassion and mercy and the space to grieve over loss.
@Nightwalker25-m3u
6 ай бұрын
Yo, spot on brother!
@hanamas6239
24 күн бұрын
Jesus peace be upon him is just a prophet he is not a God there is only one God
@DavidSandyOfficial
24 күн бұрын
@@hanamas6239 Jesus made himself equal with God. “For this reason they tried all the more to kill him; not only was he breaking the Sabbath, but he was even calling God his own Father, making himself equal with God” (John 5:18 NIV).
obsessive compulsively watching your content while receiving help for obsessive compulsive tendencies 😭😭🤣🤣🙏🙏😇😇
@_heyimbritt
2 ай бұрын
Ha ha ha I did that too when I first started watching this channel 4yrs ago lol
Love her realness . I can totally relate to the self hatred and not being able to fix yourself. Wanting to do right for God, but not being able to fix yourself and then completely feeling condemned, guilty , hopeless etc. And also getting stuck in the rules of the scriptures and then just feeling pressure even more . The very fact she worries about whether she loves others or follows Jesus correctly ; shows me she does or she wouldn't worry about it. I have hope for her . She wants to do right and I believe Jesus sees that and that's enough for him. He knows your heart, my dear. You're validated through Jesus ❤
She sounds like the sweetest lady...praying for her.
@ronfox5519
Жыл бұрын
I fell asleep with this on. Woke up a few minutes later thinking i was hearing katherine hepburn on the tv.
@Nightwalker25-m3u
8 ай бұрын
This is me right now. Please help me God!!!!!
@Nightwalker25-m3u
8 ай бұрын
This is me right now. Please help me God!!!!!
The belief/feeling of being disqualified ("not good enough") is something that has affected me for a long time, but this beautiful verse changed that for me: “giving thanks to the Father who has qualified us to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in the light.” (Colossians 1:12)
@marktdejesus
Жыл бұрын
Amen!!!
@AnnieKopf
4 ай бұрын
Thank you! The verse you shared brings tears to my eyes. I will never be good enough. But we can have real enduring hope because of our beautiful Savior who has done it all for us. He is so worthy of all of our praise!
Mark seriously thank you. I literally have been feeling so much better consistently, I feel a huge change by really accepting God’s love for me
This is so good. After having a stillborn baby boy (died of a genetic condition) , then a miscarrige, then another baby boy with ANOTHER genetic condition, I've had to grieve alone. I've been drowning & tormented by unresolved grief, shame, legalism, condemnation & fear. I haven't been going to church because I've come to the conclusion that most churches aren't a safe place for people who are dealing with grief, mental health issues or torment etc.
@sandiec6063
6 ай бұрын
@wastingtimeonyoutube God brought me here today . I was spiraling out and He knew this would help me. Just wanted to say that I hear you about church it's not a safe place for mentally ill or tormented or grieving folks which is really sad. The deep grief you have been through is different from mine but my heart touches your heart and I want to pray for you.
@kaydeethegr8
3 ай бұрын
Crying because I have felt the same way for so long. Even walked away from God at one point because the torment was too much to bear it felt easier to just not believe at all and even now today sometimes feeling like it’s just too much. Other churches and Christian’s do not help the mental health of people dealing with what we’re dealing with. This was very validating to know there are people out there who feel like me and I’m not alone in the struggle against what does feel like torment
@wastingtimeonyoutube.
3 ай бұрын
@sandiec6063 Thank you so much Sandie ♡♡
@Th4EvilH4nd
2 ай бұрын
I’m so sorry that you’ve had to endure all of that pain and tragedy. I hope you know how loved you truly, truly are. I have prayed for the Lord’s love, compassion, and peace to wash over you and your family.
Aside from religious OCD and anxiety, there are REAL burdens in our lives that we MUST rely on Jesus for. Somethings only He can help us with.
This is like listening to someone explain every single thought in my mind, in context and for every situation. This is me 24 hours a day 7 days a week.
I can so relate to this precious sister in Christ. I also have a disability and I get frustrated because I can’t do the things I think God wants me to do. Then I find a list of disqualification bc of it. Then think God doesn’t love me bc of it or I’m disqualified for calling myself a Christian. My heart goes out to her bc I hear myself in her. The “ and I don’t feed the widows” …. Yup I can hear myself… thank you Mark for all your help.
@cvanessa0105
Жыл бұрын
One things that I just realized is that she is a widow herself.
The fact that caller has an issue with reading the Bible makes me feel safer because I have the same issue, only I can't imagine that she would have committed the same type of sins that I did that makes me feels like I brought this scrupulosity on myself through disobedience.
@Nightwalker25-m3u
6 ай бұрын
I'm in anxiety and guilt about not being able to work. I feel shame all around me cause I just don't fit in.
@loomoo2283
6 ай бұрын
I 100% relate to you, sister.
@jennifera777
6 ай бұрын
I pray that you would continue to grow in the grace of God. He loves you unconditionally. It took awhile for me to renew my mind to that fact but I can now read the Bible through the lens of His love and you will too sister. God bless you!@@loomoo2283
@Nightwalker25-m3u
6 ай бұрын
In my opinion going through Acts is one you can't go wrong with.
Laying down the reasons why God doesn't love you. Really spoke to my heart. I love her and can relate so much. I love how honest she is.
This is fantastic! I am only half way through but your comedic value alone is worth the watch 😂, and I can totally relate to the caller. Thank you for sharing this call with your insights, it is giving me insight into my own food flying spiraling out traps. Bless the caller's heart, she sounds like a delight!
@MonicaBU
Жыл бұрын
I totally related as well! I throw baby bottles most of the time instead of food but the babies throw their food so I related to that as well 😆
Hiya Mark, this lady isn't Scottish she is either from Yorkshire or Lancashire or somewhere north in England. I will pray for her
Mark, you are probably my favorite to listen to, I can see Jesus.
So powerful! This woman's vulnerability is so appreciated and endearing. The reality check of the heart of God in our grief was so needed for my own heart. Thank you, dear sister, for being so real with Mark as it allows your spiritual siblings to not feel so alone. And thank you Mark, for all your work in relating biblical truths to mental health!
God led me to this video and words can't express my gratitude
I feel so bad for this woman, and understand some of what she’s going through. I think understanding the Bible in the right context really helps destroy many of these thoughts. Also, understanding it through the lens of love from the Father is extremely important. I still struggle with this, but am growing in this area. Whoever is speaking on this recording, my prayers are with you. Praying the Lord will fill you with His love, peace, and comfort! 🙏🏻❤️
This is really speaking to me. Thank you. It is very helpful and the fact that you made me laugh was so good because I don't laugh enough and I guess you could say I take myself way too seriously.
Man I just love this guy. Hilarious. Powerful. Easy. Loving. Legend.
She doesn't feed the widows, but she herself is a widow. l'm sad for this woman. Lord PLEASE show this lady your precious love, and teach her how to receive it.
Amen, Mark! This is a struggle I feel everyone can relate too. Not processing the trauma we've been through. I am trying myself to realize how much God loves me so I can love my son and husband and others the way God does. Thanks for all you do and I pray God blesses you and God bless the woman in the phone call 🙏
The phrase "the letter kills, but the spirit gives life" refers in the context to the fact that under the Old Covenant, the law/letter given on Sinai brought condemnation and death as no one could obey it perfectly and be saved.
God bless this sister. I believe there are many, many people who can relate. Thank you Mark. 🙏
This was me 2 years ago. She has me in tears listening to her cry out, "I want to be free!" I am praying for her believing that God has opened the healing door. I found myself a therapist who does EMDR and I am no longer the same - I am free. 🧡
@michellewilliams655
11 ай бұрын
Hi Debbie! How was your experience with EDMR?
@debbiesmith123469
11 ай бұрын
@@michellewilliams655 life changing. Freedom I never knew existed. I am living a peaceful, happy life with PTSD. I am no longer controlled by it.
@maggiej8358
7 ай бұрын
Hi what is EDMR?
@debbiesmith123469
7 ай бұрын
@@michellewilliams655It's been great! It has taken me from spiraling 24/7 to complete silence in my head...no more broken record playing in my head that use to beat me up constantly. It's gone!
@debbiesmith123469
7 ай бұрын
@@maggiej8358it's a type of treatment used by a qualified therapist. EMDR (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing) is a technique used to process through trauma to help the brain process past memories. Especially with people who suffer from PTSD but can be helpful for anyone who has unprocessed trauma.
Wow thank you , this was ❤❤❤ bless you Mr Mark & that precious lady! 🫶🏼😊🕊️
This is really great content your putting out Senor Dejesus! Gracias lol
Your videos help me so much !!! You have no idea
i hope you kniw how needed your content is. might be the most important youtube channel i have subscribed too
This was so good 😊
I have gotten so much help from your videos! Thank you so much! I wanted to say that I really enjoyed this style of video.
As always amazing wisdom . Love the quick sand analogy 👍🙏💙
I want you to know your channel is a great blessing for my life. 🙏❤️
Mark YOU ARE GREAT!! Love to listen to you! You are so right on! I can hear you describing me! But I also am laughing so hard !! But keep it going Mark. Much love !!!😊
This made me tearfully think about the song from Casting Crowns "Happy Plastic People"... All wholeness be to the caller! (And: wow, the crazy rants has been my issue... )
Man this was one of the best videos that remind us to have God's heart of compassion when dealing with our flaws, struggles and difficult circumstances. A harsh inner critic builds a wall between self and receiving & understanding God's love for us. Learning to respond to myself in love is the biggest thing you've taught me Mark. Very grateful for your work...and your humor as you teach.
She’s English not German 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😂😂😂😂😂😂this is hilarious. I can relate so much, the truth in it all makes it so much more funny. I’m laughing at myself.
Thank you Mark for opening up a door of Grace and Healing in Jesus that has been closed for so many people.
Sweetheart my heart goes out to you I've totally been struggling with the same self hate and irrationalities that you are. You are loved
Thanks!
Precious woman and wonderful counsel. Thank you! You are helping me so much, in Jesus’ name!🎉
He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant-not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.”
I love how Mark is not too politically correct to do an impression of a Scottish accent (when the lady is from Yorkshire). Sometimes humour is exactly what we need. I listen to Mark on audio when I take my dog out for a walk and have lost count of how many times I end up belly laughing out loud on my travels. I pray that this lady has grace for herself, and peace and comfort in the love of God.
This is me 100%. Never had a present father in the home. Its an ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE emotional state to be in. 😖😖😖🤦🏼♂️🤦🏼♂️
Did anyone else die laughing when he screamed, " And by the way I don't feed the widows!"😂😂 I've totally been there!
Ok only 18 minutes in just about, and I’m 18, who also struggles with ADHD, GAD, and probably undiagnosed OCD (scrupulosity), and this practically describes the torment I’ve been feeling for about the past 10 or 11 months. I lost my aunt back in November of 2021, and I actually don’t deal with my emotions correctly, I just often suppress them or try to distract myself from them because I don’t know how to deal with it and I don’t like dealing with them, but this is probably also causing me a lot more issues than actually helping. But this already is very relatable and describes what I’ve been dealing with. Let alone my faith I constantly question like “Do I have it or not?” Then it just spirals into even more thoughts and worst feelings and whenever I try to read my Bible I just feel condemned. It feels like I’m going insane. On top with the struggles ADHD already gives me then add GAD on top of that, I feel I’ve gone down a hole and I don’t even know how I got myself in here, let alone how to get myself out. edit: this whole video sounds like me, and this lady sounds like me, even though our situations are different I can relate to this, and we may not have all the same disorder/pain, but yet I still relate to this. It also becomes hard for me because my ADHD and GAD seems to like to overlap. However I’ve also yet to be officially diagnosed with OCD, but therapist said it seems like I do also suffer from obsessions and compulsions. It just becomes harder for me because like I said my ADHD and GAD already presents issues that could look similar to OCD. Probably why it’s important for me to see a psychiatrist. Anyways, this entire video sounds like me. The other issue for me is that I also don’t often express my emotions outwardly, yet internally that’s how I deal with them. And also dealing with the issues growing up because my ADHD made me different and it already gives me issues, then when puberty hit it seems like my mental state got worse when that arrived and just worse over my teen years. However there are some times I have expressed my emotions outwardly, but I don’t often do this. Plus I am also not a people person, I seem to avoid people yet at the same time I fear being alone. I don’t really seem to care for people yet at the same time I do. Heck I fear becoming like Judas yet my brain tells me I’m worse than he was, and just this wave of negative feelings, mainly guilt, shame, anger, frustration, sadness, regret, pain, hatred, condemnation, I just feel like I’m drowning or there’s not enough air, I’m struggling to breathe it feels like. Yet I also as well hate myself for all of this as well. I’m in a toxic/abusive relationship with myself.
@ogomaokwor6657
Жыл бұрын
I feel you on the compulsions and wanting be away from ppl at times AND the toxic relationship w urself. It’s not easy but ik God loves us and will see us through. A tip for intrusive thoughts or spinning; for spinning - if u feel trapped in a loop of thoughts that u can’t escape breathe and say the truth shall set you free! John8:34 if you don’t feel free it’s not true. For intrusive thoughts before u freak out be still and realise if it just popped in then it wasn’t u! And thank God that u don’t desire these thoughts. Or reject bad thoughts mean thoughts against yourself by saying the opposite with scripture❤ I pray you find breakthrough.
You do a great Irish accent Mark!
“”” when we are weak …. HE* IS SO SO SO STRONG 💪🏽 “”” TEAM* JESUS 💯 💯💯
@lillymedesto
Ай бұрын
This is so good to remember!!!!
I also get self condemnational. & misinterpret scripture. Sounds like this sweet lady also struggles with health OCD and extreme lonliness. Bless her 💜 Mark you really got the accent Lol. My best advice to her would be to get a puppy!
My OCD is on steroids. This has been a difficult 3 years. I’m trying to break free.
Hey Mark, I'm very similar like this lady. I'm very angry and I'm trying to do better, but alot inner voices come and hurt me.😢
We love him because Jesus is the Alpha and Omega of love!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Technically, the caller and I are widows - y'all "should be" "helping" "us". 😜
I am in one now and pray that this video will offer some help. I have been crying out to God and doing the right things and am still crippled mentally and physically from this anxiety. Please tell me there is real practical help.
@NoraHeartfix
Жыл бұрын
Are u in therapy or counselling now?
@TAQ2Music
Жыл бұрын
@@NoraHeartfix Just started a few weeks back. So much to cover.
I'm living in thought of blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I feel the loss of the desire to pray and other spiritual things. My life is constant worrying and anxiety, I'm a hot mess. I'm having physical symptoms of pain in my chest and I get this icy/hot sensation on my arms and neck and head and chest. I'm on medication for the anxiety and intrusive thoughts but, still suffer in my mind. I feel guilty of doing the blasphemy that I had in mind. Functioning on a Daily basis is non productive. I'm always looking for an answer to my dilemma. The thoughts of eternal torture and damnation can drive a person insane.
How can we avail of the book and how much?
🤣🤣🤣 I can relate to her
39:24 it is so.
🔥👍
I felt it so much, i laughed and then i cryed becsuse i am just like her in dome things.. weeks ago i cslled my sis because of foodflys i cryed😢😮😅😂❤🎉
My life is Pretty much over and I'm only 28
What did the pilgrims do when this happened? Did they have self help or would they just give into the compulsions?
@marktdejesus
Жыл бұрын
Yes. And they would pass down those compulsions to the next generation.
If Gods love for me is based on my performance in any way I'm doomed! If God does love me he can love anyone.
Revelation 3:8 know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.
This is so me when I read the Bible 😢
I got 50,000 reasons why I'm feeling yucky inside.
#4:”…not of the letter…” Not of the Mosaic law. The Mosaic law is referred to as the “letter” because it tells people what they should and should not do. It is a series of writings that regulate moral and civil actions. Mosaic law is not a path to everlasting life. Some commentators interpret “letter” to mean the literal interpretation of the Scriptures (as opposed to the spiritual meaning), but this is not the currently favored interpretation.
Can you deal with the topic when you’re angry with God
@marktdejesus
Жыл бұрын
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HE USED THE TEACHINGS TO SHOW LAWKEEPERS NONE COULD BE HOLY,THEY NEEDED HIM AS SAVIOR,
Very helpful info but moking this old lady in her pain is not right,i understand your trying to lighten the mood but you gotta find a better way
@learningsevenresearchgoals1127
Жыл бұрын
Does he do that?