I proudly wear my black sheep wool. I am different, sensitive and compassionate. I am not a victim. I am a survivor. I am genuine. I am real.

@jesserochon3103

7 жыл бұрын

Beautiful.

@BraveBunnyCat

7 жыл бұрын

I am MOANA!!!!

@Blankportion

7 жыл бұрын

Angie L Ditto. Amen! Good for you Sis!

@drm2566

5 жыл бұрын

Angie L same who cares what they think

@whynottalklikeapirat

5 жыл бұрын

Hmm. I never felt the need to state that I am real. I mean ... I clearly am ... taking up the couch and all.

I think all of the hatred directed at the black sheep is just plain jealousy. There is always something about that ONE which others are insanely jealous of. Its their nature that shines through; even when they are in difficulty and the status quo fears that.

@ci.ci.1998

6 жыл бұрын

Mr Mysterious I think it’s envy and jealous as well they want some we got and they don’t have Narcs and GC are jealous.

@water9baby972

6 жыл бұрын

I agree

@casse1458

5 жыл бұрын

Mr Mysterious yes

@Daniel-ow3cv

5 жыл бұрын

Eminem

@fifilafleur5555

5 жыл бұрын

I think you may be on to something.

I think that being exposed to npd as a child sensitizes you on every level, you're trying to survive by knowing what's ahead, analyzing, sensing... great observation:)

@toolboxevolution7456

6 жыл бұрын

Brilliant conclusion

@crimsonking7955

4 жыл бұрын

Its funny how I've been told by people that know that I am estranged from my immediate family that it has come up in previous conversations as to how sensitive I was. My mother loved torturing me, she loved to make me cry. She knew what she was doing. I remember thinking to myself after some traumatic events, there were too fucking many, thinking that one day I would be free. When that day finally came I, not all at once, moved to the other side of the country. I have been down and out, all alone, hungry, broke, had to no place to live and got next to zero support from my immediate family, while at the same time they were setting up my brothers for success with gifts of automobiles, college educations, etc. I don't care about material things very much but I did end of conforming to society, went to college and paid for it myself, bought my own cars, bought my own house, etc. Black sheep can be succeed in society if we're lucky to have a survivalist type mentality, don't end up on hooch and/or hard drugs, or in prison, or dead by suicide.

@casstay4499

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah, that’s why our shamanism and seeing skills are so on point. You have to be able to see what’s coming and heal the abuse that penetrates your barrier.

i "see" us blacksheep as the true visionaries... we, who are to bring THE LIGHT into this darkened world!

As a black sheep filling the role of scapegoat in my families twisted reality I was always told that I was too oversensitive. I was an intelligent high achieving child(musician) BUT my sensitivity and ability to read people and be empathetic was not psychic ability. I had to develop this skillset because it was the difference between being beaten, ridiculed' molested etc. It was a survival trait to be able to walk in a room and immediately gauge the atmosphere and adjust my behavior accordingly. I developed a kind of sixth sense towards situations and it saved my ass on many occasions. eg Detecting a feeling in the room that was not quite right (different) and slight behavioral changes in the abusers when they tried to force me to drink a glass of milk "Because it was good for me" but refusing their kindness with a knowing that something was up' and then finding rat poison in it! Double checking the unopened box of rat poison that I knew was hidden in the back of the cupboard because I had to keep track of things like that (survival) and finding it open. The things they did were not always particularly intelligently thought out and sometimes quite obvious (it isn;t difficult to taste something like rat poison) but they could be very unpredictable so I had to become accustomed to reading very small , hardly noticeable cues. A lot of people throughout my life have asked if I am psychic because of this. I look upon this ability as something positive that came out of the abuse.

@BlacKWidoW70s

5 жыл бұрын

Moya Montgomery omg.....im so shocked....glad u survived this mania!

@fifilafleur5555

5 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry you went through that, Moya. 😥😥😥

@lolagoetz561

4 жыл бұрын

Those assholes inadvertantly raised a survivalist empath on the genius level! Im sure your soul is rich with wisdom...tap that!!!

@Mother_Earth777

4 жыл бұрын

Moya Montgomery you do have syphic abilities

@tinagribben1165

4 жыл бұрын

I'm the same...been told I'm clairvoyant many times...over sensitive...imagining things I know when people are lying I sense the motivation behind a bad behaviour immediately The abuse I lived through taught me to read people...the very people that were my "protectors" treated me like a sewer rat!

Great insight. I think the black sheep are treated the way they are...is because they are different from the beginning. I grew up in a massively narcissistic family, and when I was kind, or sensitive, or loving to them...it would literally enrage them. An empath child hears the words "You think you are so much better than everyone else" hundreds of times, and the words are always so devastating, because we don't see ourselves as better, we don't have that programming, nor do we get any kind of joy out of making another being feel badly, what we DO want, is that the beings around us feel loved and respected, and we will take an unimaginable amount of abuse to try to give them that...unfortunately, narcissists TAKE that love, and smash it and use it and then blame us for the abuse. In ancient times, such a child was identified and nurtured and given training by other shamen...and they would be kept separate from the day to day dealings with people who were not sensitives, so that they could do the work they are here for. If people walk around saying "I am Shaman", they probably are not. A true Shaman wants to live in solitude, observing the problems around them, getting to know these problems, then figuring them out with a birds eye view. Almost all the Shamen on this planet were wiped out, so when a new one is born into a "normal" family, they scare the shit out of them, because no matter what the child does, the rest of the family always feel that they are constantly being judged. My advice to modern day Shaman is this...spend your time in the desert, and do it alone...do it until you can make a decision about who it is you are. If you chose to live the life of Shaman...it will be lonely beyond words, and THAT is what will allow you to hear the birds and trees, the wind and water, and they will become your guides, and friends. Shamen do not get married,or go bowling on Friday nights, and go to any job that is meaningless. They do not charge for any kind of service based on shamanistic healing or counsel. They live humbly, and would never, EVER do one single thing for money. Simply put, a Shaman is in this world, but not of it...

@cathytilford390

7 жыл бұрын

GoddessStone thank you for writing your very accurate insight. I will add it's disturbing to hear Richard Gannon call these negative architypes when in reality they are spiritual gifts. it occurs to me, that the spiritual development of the black sheep is what allows these gifts to unfold instead of succumbing to the possibility of becoming a narcissist like their parents or caregiver. despite the fact that as a black sheep or scapegoat you know you are not treated like the others in the family, there is an inner strenght or spiritual strenght that supports you so you can survive & find your way. through this journey you are very alone which also allows these gifts or way of being , which is the true self, to unfold.

@angell504

6 жыл бұрын

GoddessStone thanks for this. I been really taking my solitude to put into my art.

@Clari26

6 жыл бұрын

Thats immensely difficult to pull off, it led me to total self destruction... I think we need to learn to be a little more compromising, or if your that good, a true master who can create anything... Also, shamans do procreate, that is one way they pass down their lineage, shamans in the past were often born into shamanic lineages until as noted many were persecuted, they can have families you do not have to be alone many shamans take on the practice of midwifery.

@SharonOBrienMusic

4 жыл бұрын

there is the good seed and the bad seed, the wheat and the tares, demons hate any kind of love they flee from it...love your enemies and you will destroy them..

@Mother_Earth777

4 жыл бұрын

Sharon O'Brien love them from the distance

The sensitive - I read a while ago that being a 'sensitive', which also makes you creative, could be put down to being brought-up in a war zone and having to be able to pick-up quickly on whatever bad could kick-off... Maybe why so many artists come from troubled backgrounds???

@ElixirOfLifeTarotandAstrology

8 жыл бұрын

Definitely!

@naturalallnaturalwhitepist1789

6 жыл бұрын

Paloma Salvador 9/10

@parrotshootist3004

4 жыл бұрын

Some people learn to read the patterns in their parents, or rather the people around them, especially initially with a bent towards seeing patterns that lead to things they want to avoid (rather than move toward - which can also lead to explaining why some people keep doing things that lead to negative cycles). It can lead to some of those people learning 'near psychic' predictive abilities.

@parrotshootist3004

4 жыл бұрын

Also it can imply damage at core development periods. As something is 'sensitive' when 'raw' like a recent bruise pr exposed wound. Meaning that the damage at a critical juncture remains with them at all times, as part of the formed identity, at the core. Always present, always ready to brushed against.

@SykeeNot

4 жыл бұрын

Parrotshootist what do you think if that aspect of the self is recognized and brought into consciousness or awareness or whatever?

Narcissists also pick on sensitive people, because they are easy targets. So the qualities of the seer might not develop through the abuse, but has been there all along. In fact I believe that the narcissistic abuse of my parent has made me question my intuition to the point of denial, which has led to me making very bad life (and partner) choices in the past. But I agree that pain is a teacher, and once your eyes are open to the abuse, and you begin to understand the dynamics of the relationship between yourself and the abuser, you can start to heal, and fully trust in your own abilities. Don't you need to trust yourself, your own senses, the process of life, before you can open up to develop your gifts fully?

Being a black sheep also might just result in having more forced alone time for introspection and general thought and analysis of life, leading to them (either advertently or inadvertently) honing those skills more than most other people.

I was the black sheep but i refused to be one - so i cut ties from every single relative!

@S4V0LAEN3N

7 жыл бұрын

Whoa! That's what I've been concidering. :O I'm not sure if it is right thing to do /or even necessarily in my case.. . because we have so little to do with each others anyways. Nobody would notice anything if I go _no contact_ to my relatives and old "family". :D

@angell504

6 жыл бұрын

Lemon020202 good for you... that's next on my to do list.

@judyd6414

5 жыл бұрын

I haven't had contact with my biological family in over 25 years. They couldn't drag me down to their level and they hated me. I walked and haven't heard from them since. All I can say is I'm better off and they missed out on knowing a good person. They are the losers and I AM FREE without regrets.

@Skylightatdusk

5 жыл бұрын

Amen!

@swizzleproxi4810

4 жыл бұрын

Well done, sometimes it's the only way for peace of mind but just watch out for inheritance situations, some may use your lack of attendance to their monetary advantage.

When you are constantly ignored and criticized, you have a tendency to self reflect more and observe; always wondering where you fit and what your role is. Then it dawns on you; you have the role of the misfit/black sheep.

You are amazing. I attracted long term relationships with men who didn't speak much, so I lived in quiet desperation, and 2yrs ago made a promise to myself to run from men who can't talk to me. You show me a whole nother level, I can't even imagine how incredible it would feel to have a partner who is as chatty as and clever as you. This is my new goal ☺ Thank you.

@SuburbanoidMisfit111

6 жыл бұрын

Some people are meant to walk alone.

@casse1458

6 жыл бұрын

SuburbanoidMisfit111 yes

@StompinThompson72

3 жыл бұрын

A lot of men have trouble communicating including me

I was always the black sheep of my family, and i have noticed i am far more intuitive than most of the people i know. I seem to know when thee proverbial shit is about to hit the fan, long before it actually does.

I identify so much with this, the scapegoat can also be the shaman and the black sheep. This person is chosen because of their qualities. It is a poisoned chalice-type role though, and often the scapegoat can be driven to mental illness, suicide etc.

Thank you for this. From the beginning I represented a threat to status quo. Black Sheep Scapegoat in the toxic family cult, worse part was mobbing. Family Mob had me believing I was all the things they assigned to me.

@xrc7445

2 жыл бұрын

The mobbing is disgusting. Three, four or more people attacking you at the same time. Like a pack or hyainas. Disgusting!

I am definitely without question a black sheep. My family dynamic is "textbook" golden child/black sheep from indifferent parents. Golden child (my older brother) was the biggest bully I had--very much a narcissist. My mother used to admonish me to "stop being so sensitive". I always wondered why I would repeat relationships with destructive and abusive people. Now I know. More than this, in a more positive sort of twist, it seems to me that a healer will attract sick people. As a child and young woman, I was a gifted poet. I hope as I progress the gift will return.

Yep. Singer here. Black sheep. Sister is my abuser. I learned to perform.

About a year ago I googled "Why some people can not or will not apologize?" and it led me to one of your videos describing why Narcissists never apologize, the information in the video led to me discovering that my father and sister were narcissists. Wow! did that finally make sense out of my life. I am an HSP, recently discovered INFJ, intuitive empath, who was the Black sheep Scapegoat child. I am an Artist/Musician, I wonder how much of this sensitivity is innate? and how much developed as children in response to a hostile, abusive home environment? Of four siblings in our family, one has many narcissistic tendencies, two have attracted/been targeted by narcissists, and one has pretty much opted out of relationships altogether. I know as a child I couldn't keep my mouth shut if I believed something to be unjust, I think this and being "Too sensitive" contributed to me becoming the Scapegoat. Your videos and others have helped me and my sister to become aware of, and start the process of healing from this kind of abuse. Much appreciate you and the work you do Richard!

@AshleeElease

3 жыл бұрын

Story of my life wow spot on me too💛

@alexjavovic6262

7 ай бұрын

Hello. I think I am too the black sheep of the family. KZread and etc fooled so hard. After my degree in high School I realised I played for 21 years a role that I am not. My kin is 221 " illusion" I am an illusionist -> mbti -> infp or entp. This is fucking hard that you have to realize that you are different than most than other people-> and i got constantly preyed with pisces rising and pisces rising is so naiv. And I got constantly preyed of all of my family. And I got the receiver from everybody with pisces rising. Then pisces rising is already fucking sensetive get beaten from dad and then you scorpio moon which also fucking sensetive and has deep emotion like pisces rising And scorpio moon = emotional abused mother and neglectful, erratic. -> so my parents did me neurotic and now I have to fix that? Or this fate/ karma? And I feel so much and need much more sleep and yt doesnt really exist for me. And I am born in 2000. I am born as the black sheep where the internet booms. So I got already from my whole family preyed with pisces rising and i get constantly the receiver from my family. -> how my job will be??? I need to get a teacher -> so that I can say no or I can get a official -> so that can sometimes ill when I am tired or sth. I am at home and I am already tired and moody. I am maybee a gut type. I am between depressed and positive-> but I have no IQ. Happy/depressed. My IQ is copy and paste. I am an also claircognizance and clairyovoyant and so on. I Listen to my gut -> so I am an xxfx -> maybee enfj or infj or infp. A Lady said to me I am and old soul = infj or intj or entj? -> but i think i am more xxfx -> infj or infp. Scapegoat = infp , infj Sensetive is also more xxfx And with pisces rising you need more sleep than other people.

I'm an HSP... I'm a pink sheep - full of love.

I don't think the creativity of the black sheep is born out of a need for attention. I knew by the time I was 5 years old, my parents would never relate to me normally as a separate emerging self that should be recognized, respected, and nurtured. The creativity was an escape into a safer world, and also cathartic. It's a safe way to express the frustration and hurt, and to create the beauty and peace and joy you crave so desperately in your relationships with the narcissistic parents and self-protecting mob of siblings. It's about survival. It's about maintaining sanity, but establishing a sane relationship and validation within, because you can't experience it without - in your family relationships.

@ShellCyan

6 жыл бұрын

You explained it right~ That's how it was for me too. There's more but I can't put it in to words or expand on it.

@yourrnamee1280

5 жыл бұрын

agree. its for survival and has nothing to do with narcissism. This guy projects his own act like we all are like him. it is so misguided If my art was for any attention etc, i was going about it all wrong by keeping it all to myself.

@AshleeElease

3 жыл бұрын

Yes to ALL OF THIS👏🏾👏🏾

Will you do a video on community scapegoating? It's like a larger family who propagates negative gossip and then everyone is doing it and eventually everyone hates you and reacts with hostility when they see you or repeats what they've heard when your name comes up. When people you think were your friends hear the consensus, they turn on you too. It's very painful, and closely tied in with gossip.

@Paul-Haugh

9 жыл бұрын

Its real and it sucks. You have to learn to not take on the pain, And form a new pack of people that appreciate your love, and exit that tribe completely, until you are emotionally and mentally unaffected being AROUND them. But you must gain this ability to gain your freedom.

@jaynehathaway3717

9 жыл бұрын

That's what I had to do, I loved the (small) town, but the people were horrible. I moved to another town. In a way I feel like they won, but it got to the point where I was dwelling in depression and negativity, and could find no ally anywhere. I'm not all that crazy about the town I live in now, but at least the people are nice.

@Paul-Haugh

9 жыл бұрын

Jayne Hathaway Wow that sucks that you had to move, but they didn't "win" and you didn't "lose" -- you gained more inner awareness by taking action, and ultimately when you got the point that their negativity didn't bother you any more-- you wouldn't want them or that town to be connected to your life and your growth. Next time you move to a new town, make sure you tell the rest of us so we can have a place to move to also :)

@tracieannasimpson4875

7 жыл бұрын

Jayne Hathaway i am being bullied ten fold.....it no stopping.... .from project to project......and me neighbours went and turned bad too. ....it has been totally mad back ward and thick.......

@fordgt402

6 жыл бұрын

Jayne Hathaway get real people as friends and let these people rebutt the false rumours that are labelled on you, its great when all their facades crumbled in an emergency event, most of these rumour spreaders are dim witted, unable to react during crucial times.Black sheeps will bravely solve any dangers but the narcissists will stay on the sidelines watching blacksheeps solves dangerous problems from a safe position, thats how cowardly narcissists are.

I am a fine artist. My family will not tell me I'm talented. I'm the resident black sheep & sensitive to energy. Perhaps, my narco~dad hates my knowledge of his sickness/weakness? My brother, or their golden child, seems to turn a blind eye to narcissistic abuse.

@23sinnocent

8 жыл бұрын

Thanks for your posts.

@dianedunn5589

8 жыл бұрын

+Stefanya De Castaneda the golden child does not see They have taken you parents view as right They have no knowledge of what they do Its like that part of their brain is dead never awakened And when you do try to awaken them it seems to strengthen their belief that your parents were right

@dinolemma

8 жыл бұрын

+Stefanya De Castaneda they know you are talented and it makes them jealous. narcs are threatened by anyone who has any skill because they are void of any. they suffer 24/7 from their narcissism.

@ClareHaxby

6 жыл бұрын

I am a fine artist and exactly the same as you I am the black sheep of the family, I m very intuitive but this is more a curse than a blessing. Brother is golden child and mother is emotionally manipulative and abusive. I have made my own path but become ill due to decades of covertly abusive behaviour. I have only just realised this is an actual thing with an actual name and it is overwhelming and like a lightbulb moment

@boomerangsruckflug8513

6 жыл бұрын

Diane Dunn, well said, it's exactly what's happening in my family. 2 of my siblings deny and my little sister and me we are working on our healing since our youth. We both get judged, criticized and excluded. My brother the older he gets the more he feels entitled to play the king of the family. I went no contact, finally.

I'm definitely in the Black Sheep group as put forward by John Gray - not the trouble with the Police, but rather absorb the emotions of the family, and become the 'a' typical runt of the family taking all the abuse because the family can't face their own emotional issues. I'm also learning to play 3 instruments, but I don't want to go on stage, even when invited to sing in public, nope I don't want to do that either. I am also very psychic and developed in that area for many years. My theory is that we have to spend so long on our owns, because the narc family don't want to spend time with us runts is that we become more creative and thus writers, musicians and think more and study the mind through meditation, so psychologists, psychiatrists, psychics, healers and mediums. We've had to entertain ourselves so long that we do things we can do on our own. Meditation certainly does open the 'psychic' and mediumistic energy centres, as does anything creative as art, writing, playing a musician. It seems to uplift the bodies own frequency levels and thus helps with the psychic and mediumistic connections. That's how I explain it. Oh and with the mediumship a certain body and mind type is necessary, not everyone can deal with death every day, or deal with those grieving. The medium is usually heavy set body wise, pretty intelligent and very disciplined. Now if that has a psychological reasoning I don't know, interestingly I have met one psychologist who was a very good medium. PS Check out the website for the Arthur Findlay College, its a psychic training centre, see what you think!

My younger brother and I are the black sheep to my 7 years older sister from a different father. It is painful to know you are despised only for existing. Thankfully the Lord has lead me to insights and insightful people along life's journey to separate those very impacting assaults to my emotions from truth. Knowing truth has set me free from the bondage of the sister's outrage and jealousy. I noticed I said "the" sister, not my sister. Hmm. Well although I do love her, I cannot be near her. Your insights have helped a great deal. It's interesting this whole topic of truth; I know you're not using that term here, but I think that is what we are all striving to find. You have a measure of truth mixed with other views and seeking truth helps us find the gold nuggets as we excavate the minds of other people's thoughts and perceptions of life. Thank you for sharing your thoughts along your journey; it is helping a lot of people like myself. I hope you will find all the truth you seek.

I find the most frustrating thing about being a sensitive scapegoat/shaman is that the pathological family uses the healing aspect of the child/adult child without any acknowledgement of the value. The shaman part of the person is used to dump pain, suffering and grief. The shaman part is required to listen to the woes and struggles of the other family members. The family must see that the scapegoat/shaman has a special ability to see their positions and provide the energy and understanding to relieve the family member of their pain. BUT, that part is never seen as an aspect to which the shaman can be respected. It is reduced, ignored, and minimized into the scapegoat/rebel persona that the toxic person prefers to project. They use the sensitivity and healing, but never acknowledge that it is there. At least with me, I’m the strong one, smart one, bitch, and problem. I never fit in with the “blonde family” (dad’s words) that he had imagined. But yet, who gets the call when someone needs to talk? Who flies 2000 miles when there is a cancer crisis? Who knows the damn lawn in south Texas summer heat? Meanwhile the golden child was a mere 200 miles away, and the sons-in-law were too riddled with allergies to mow. And who is forgotten the minute the golden child, and the rest of the cult rally around? Yep. That’s me. It wouldn’t be so fucking annoying if it weren’t for the conflict between being the one who toxic dad runs to, and being the designated bitch. I surely can’t be both. But I’ve found pathologically narcissistic people often have two rules in their heads that conflict with each other, yet somehow run perfectly fine in their scheme.

That was really great. Totally accurate to my life experience. Also, the myth of the Shaman requires a near death experience where the soul leaves the body - or disacossiates (as in trauma). Those who actually speak of trauma are always relegated to the role of outcast. Nobody in the sick family is going to face the truth of abuse, not ever.

These are all facts: A baby, if blind-folded for the first few months of its life, will be blind for the rest of it. Babies often take "rough play" as aggression and, though they may be smiling, are actually learning a negative outlook on the world. If newborns are not physically touched, they die.

@dottiec7943

6 жыл бұрын

Scott6794 my dad would tie my arms together? Yet we are surrounded by USA show business music film famous people. Can you imagine the songs I wrote the biggest artist got?? Record labels love getting free content studios get free material while I'm sitting around thinking my mom couldn't take much more either but no. Dad an abnormally old horny got the most famous girl stars! Oh they realize after babies have been born. The movie magazines just publicize the fake fact they have never had a child yet.

@69birdboy

6 жыл бұрын

Scott6794 I'm not arguiong with you but do you have evidence to point to?

@aprilm8019

4 жыл бұрын

this is pure shit love where the hell you get your facts ?

Wow so interesting. I have a malignant narcissistic mother & I am the black sheep I think, also an actress & have some psychic ability, & empathic ability. My dad is somatic narcissist I think, although divorced and lived apart from him. I'm on no contact with the nm, & low on nf. I really like all your videos, very helpful. I think my sister is also a black sheep, and she is Wicca. We grew up w/ loads of physical & verbal abuse, but we were good as gold. It's hard dealing with crazy relatives & parents, & flying monkeys. So helpful & great videos! More please!

This is amazingly accurate! I've always noticed that those of us who endured extreme childhood abuse, are more psychic! We're the healers, the seers, the shamans. Thanks so much for addressing this.

The seers peception is different than most because they see through their minds eye more than their eyes on their face. The normal eyes can only see surface and illusion, they are prone to delusion. In the land of the blind the one eyed man is king. Most people dont care to be in touch with truth and reality. They want to believe whatever makes them feel the way they want to feel, and so they see what they want to see and hear what they want to hear.

Im the scapegoat child with borderline Aspergers syndrome. I attract narcissts plus Im adopted and vulnerable to emotional blackmailing. Is it wrong to decondition yourself from love in order to protect yourself against this controlling and narcissitic abusive type of love? I am both victim and instigator in some senses. Lately Ive just wanted to detach from western culture, travel and build a school for poor people. And cut ties with my controlling family. Please comment or leave a reply. People do describe me as an old soul

@lolagoetz561

4 жыл бұрын

Surround yourself with God's white light for your own protection before going out into the madness that is mankind. Avoid national parks. Your soul shines bright and that attracts spirits of both the dead and the living, of both good and evil. God's light is a sheild against the evil that wants to ruin your dream of the school to limit your influence. Ask for The White Light of God for yourself and to send to others...it will be given freely and abundantly at all times, all places, all realms.

@kendrad9933

4 жыл бұрын

Fuck God, he's asleep at the wheel. Learn about the philosophy of stoicism and take things into your own hands.

You are totally right on about this Richard! I was the love child that busted up two families, lil black sheep! and I have been blessed/cursed with precognitive dreams (dreams that come to pass)... I always felt it was a survival mechanism as my mother died when I was 8 years old and I moved from a mansion/music school to a trailer park with my narc Dad who beat me and all of my 5 step mothers. This is why I have the dx that I wrote to you about today regarding sessions with you...So, I became an International Fine Artist... Wow, pcs. of the puzzle are all fitting together and the dots are connecting. You truly have some wisdom! dondavid-

Yes absolutely this is the case. The black sheep/ scapegoat is the modern shaman... in many cases. I believe this in all my heart. It's the one single narcissitic idea of self every "shaman" carries that actually embarrasses them that they punish themselves for. And makes them feel like they will never belong, hence they are perfect for the job to be the reflective punching bag. Gifts are curses and curses are gifts. Yin yang

Right on soul sister! I just used your advice from another video on a recent first date with someone who intimidates me. I kept having an impulse to impress him and when I did I just shut up and said nothing. Best dating advice I ever had.

Maybe there is an element of narcissism in the black sheep / shaman archetype, but if that coincides with the individual having an actual talent, I think said talent runs a lot deeper than that. For some, like musicians, the aforementioned archetype can provide the fuel (inspiration) for their art (writing and arranging music). So, through their art, they take a negative archetype and use it to produce positive results. To elaborate further, perhaps that's where the shaman element comes into play. Shamans have the foresight to see deeper and understand better in order to heal. Musicians are like shamans in that they see something in their pain / negative experiences that provides a pathway between the experience and the end result of a written song. In other words, the negativity is the pathway, and shamans / musicians / artists of any kind must traverse the pathway and pick up on whatever they see along the way to produce their art. The end result is something that heals them in a way and makes them feel good about themselves. Perhaps that feel-good attitude may have a trace of narcissism, but not in an over-inflated, alpha-male, my-shit-doesn't-stink sort of way. So, to conclude, is narcissism a good thing in small doses if it provides an element of healing? I suppose so, but "narcissism" is one of those words that has a lot of gray area in its meaning, which can be different from one person to the next. That said, I would tread lightly when using that word, or perhaps not use it at all, as it can be easily misinterpreted.

@dianedunn5589

8 жыл бұрын

+6672rock so anger is not experienced by all in some small degree? some people are just born without certain emotions? You are like my sister i told her she hurt my heart so bad she was a B but i forgive her You know what she did Threw me out for calling her a B

Fellow Black Sheep, Healer, Wizard, Witch, Shaman, Weirdo here. I've often thought of myself as all of these things. Since childhood I've felt a deep pull towards stories with one of these characters. A few years ago I watched a documentary about what a witch would actually be like in comparison to a modern person. I agreed I was connected to the earth, healing with what it gives me, gaining insights from the universe, etc. Afterwards I just remember resonating on having known all along I was this, call it witch if you choose. On the outskirts resourcefulness is mandatory, and self assertiveness absent. I'd like to point out this can feel quite confusing and perplexing and at times fucking frustrating. On one hand I find I'm self reliant, and I tend to be able to get out of a jam all with the contents of my purse. On the other hand, I get anxious asking people what I can get them to eat & drink. It feels like opposite people. A lot of trust alongside a lot of doubt. Interesting.

@lartele9517

7 жыл бұрын

thank you so much for sharing this, Shelly!! I can entirely relate to what you wrote. and yes, it is fucking confusing!!! all the best to you!!

I freaking love this video, the part about being blind and using their inner eye to make sense of the world seriously good stuff

I'm the black sheep, scapegoat - life coach, hypnotherapist, NLP, counselor, psychology at Uni, mystic, shaman, psychic hahaha. I'm proud of who I became after my childhood of narcisstic abuse from my mother and emotionally absent father but would have been nice to not have to cope with the CPTSD. Finally after 60 years stopped talking to my family and the relief is enormous.

Been married to a narcacist, goin on 30 yrs. Im an empath...or something like that...I have to always be ready for whatever is coming. He feeds on drama. I became his leading lady. However, I am a powerful woman, and he knows it, so when I say NO!, he knows I can melt the paint off his truck, or short the insides of his phone, or blow every fuse in the box if he fucks with me...he called me a witch for years, so I went with it. Im very electrical, I attract spirits, and that scares him. But Im getting older. Maybe Ill not be able to keep it up...Worries me. Good thing I got the spirit realm for protection and the whit light of God that surrounds me. God Bless you Richard. You are doing a good thing.

@Mother_Earth777

4 жыл бұрын

Lola Goetz leave him, you came here for a purpose dont neglet your soul purpose ❤❤

@lolagoetz561

4 жыл бұрын

@@Mother_Earth777 currently separated. Thank you Child777. Namaste.

Some clarity on Shaman as I am Shaman and have been for many years. Shaman are not or do not do anything like witches, psychics, etc. Shamanism is not a religion but a belief system. Shamans do not choose to be shaman but rather they are choosen by the spirits to work into the spirit realms with the all kinds of spirits including for example stone people, the trees, the elements, the animal spirits, the kingdoms and all kinds of spirits in the Other-world, etc. Shamans work with these allies to help in healing and to get answers. We all have spirit helpers. It takes years of work and practice with proper teachers to do this work and is very difficult as a lot is seen that is hard to take. Not all are Shaman but rather they practice shamanism or think shamanic-ally. Shamanic journeying allows us to go deep into our own psyche to get answers. Shamanism is a way of life. Shaman is not a Not a Native North American word by the way but comes from Siberia. The word Shaman is an English translation of the Tungus word Saman. The Tungus are an indigenous people of Siberia located in the Altai Mountains. The literal translation of the Tungus word Saman, means, “To know”. I am and also artist, build drums, rattles, play didgeridoo and use that left side of my brain a lot. I would say that my family has been uncomfortable with a lot of what I do despite the fact that I have barely talked about it with them except when they have asked. I think it just makes them uncomfortable because they do not understand it and sometimes will assume so much of the wrong thing rather than ask. I definitely do not stand out and tell people about it but rather people seem to find me and that is when I will help. I am the black sheep in more ways than the shamanic/psychic abilities. Most of the time I do not worry about being black sheep, but on occasion I have concerns about the content of what they say about me, as it sometimes inaccurate or they are unaware. Sometimes I just don't relate and wonder why I am so different than them. I don't think I am narcistic about it but rather I just know more about that particular area of expertise. That does not make me better than them but just different. We are all different/unique though but I suppose being Shaman stands out more because their are not as many of us so it would be considered a specialty per say. Another thing possibly about black sheep is that they just are ok with traveling to the beat of their own drum. Possibly family units want us to conform to the group dynamic and black sheep are non-conformists and despite swimming upstream, they try in their own way to get the group to see or think out of the box. This can be very uncomfortable for many in the group so yes they will find their safety zone through bullying, etc. That said, your type of work is essential to give people "tools," that are needed to get by in life! It is so important to have those tools and thank you for all your great videos.

@firewater1865

3 жыл бұрын

Yep 100% on everything you said 2 years in to shamanic training, come about as result of being hassled by spirits for a long time! I didn't spend 9 early years in a cave hehe and respect to those lineage shamans, but growing a deep experiential understanding of the various kingdoms, healing work and development of psychic tools. It's a journey of hardening up and not letting others opinions sway you in this western world. Hard for some to cope with the truth of shamanic experiences. Or...jealousy..Or, fear. Who wants to feel penetrated to the depths of their soul 😂 interestingly it's been narcissists who've helped me on my way, with bigger and deeper Fuck You and being forced in to self respect and fully embracing gifts, or, continue patterns of being used, abused and repressed by those who (ironically) see your power when you don't, and want it kept that way so they can sucubus your insight, personal strength and ability to provide healing wisdom while keeping you in a constant state of bewilderment and lack. So... thanks to the weak and wounded for being the impetus to get the hell out of the quagmire and in to belief in self, and also for showing us the dark side. We need to know it, to experience it, to support others through it. And hopefully the more wake up to this, the more are supported and consider healing themselves, the less frequency of pain we shall see in ages to come! LOVE your vids Richard Grannon! People need to know all of this

Highly sensitive empath here...embracing your gifts enable you to help more than you know. Became a physical therapist aide and a natural at massage therapy, so grateful I found my calling in life.

I am a therapist specializing in Narc abuse I was trained at NY Hospital and always considered the dx borderline etc so demeaning thankyou so much for your videos I now refer my pts to your websight to help them feel understood. I have read every book on narcs and your videos help me and others feel less blaming of ourselves, KF

Interesting video. I'm a singer and I can play the piano by ear. None of my siblings or parents have any musical ability at all. The singing was ignored completely and if I was offered a role in a school play etc my mother would purposefully tear me to shreds making comments such as "oh, you're going to perform in front of ALL those people, what if you make a mistake? They will laugh at you! She did this before any performance or piano recital. I joined a ballet class and at 6yrs old until I quit my mother made fun of my appearance. "You look like a baby elephant dancing" and "You'll never be a ballerina, your body is too big" even though I was a regular weight child, I thought I was huge. She forced me into piano lessons that I didn't need and then tortured me by forgetting to pick me up from the lesson, every time, knowing I already had abandonment fears. I was a sick child and she abandoned me hoping I'd die alone in a hospital. I eventually manifested an injury that saw my fingers almost severed to get out of the piano lessons My mother wasn't unknowingly projecting her fears onto me either, she knew what she was doing. Oh and no contact with any family member for many years, I didn't know about no contact then and good to know that I made the right choice.

All I have to say, having been largely neglected, emotionally starved, and abused as a child, then later in my marriage (and somehow survived all that) is this: God bless the child who's got her own! It was a hard row to hoe, but it certainly is possible to transcend ... once one really begins to get in touch with one's inner shaman/muse/intuitive self. Thank you for your insights!

I am a shaman/seer/psychic/medium/healer alll those things. I have been scapegoated severly in my family and also have done tons and tons of past life regression/past life readings and have been seeing this has always been the case, been burnt as a witch, persecuted like no other.

from personal experience i feel your point about black sheeps often becoming performers to gain love and adoration is absolutely true. It was definitely true of me, and totally linked/entangled/created from the emotional abuse growing up and the complex PTSD that emerged. I only realized this after years of performing, and lots of triggers and flashbacks and me acting out in a lot of nasty awful learned coping defences, and not knowing how to face this) but now have taken a break from performing and re-focused entirely to healing, and I'm so happy I have. Your videos are such a huge help. Thank you, I cannot understate how much.

tis me! thank u so much! I feel better! Im so glad I came across your videos! and loving your sense of humor and frankness!

Total breath of fresh air..... Love the way you think & explain

Hi Richard, I would first like to thank you for all of your videos and the time and energy it take to prepare them. They are beyond helpful and help me feel much less alone in the world. I am the most definitely the black sheep of my family, both within my immediate family and my extended family. The family system I was raised in has forced me to move several states away in an effort to help protect myself and overcome the trauma that was done to me. My mother is a mean abusive narcissist, and has BDL and OCD, my father was her enabler and my sister whom I was parentified to was the golden child. The culmination of these factors has made for a very hard start to my life in a way which would allow me to live it on my terms. Ultimately, I became an empath as a result of my family system. However, when I was younger and for most of my life I often could feel spirits as well as darker spirit energy that were out in the world. I enjoyed this and it thought it was a special gift I have also had deja vu experiences about each and every place I have worked at, by which myself and the job was inserted into a dream weeks, months or years before I worked there. Please note in several cases I may have never stepped inside the buildings of jobs I had held, before working there or even knowing it existed. Then while working there some day randomly I would have a flash back to the time of the dream and realize I had drempt about it whatever time length before. Sadly, over the the last few years were I have began to verbalize what I see and shed light on the truth that are the gaping flaws my family system I have lost almost all of my shaman/seers abilities. So I am wondering if you thing that shamans and seers can loose their third eye by voicing their wisdom to the world. Also I was wondering if you think seers can loose their gift from years of stress? Finally, do you have any ideas on how I might bring it back?

I must have a lot of insight! Thanks for the positive reframe.

Hello Mr Gannon. I've just separated from my husband and you've helped me so much. I think Autism belongs in this category of personality types too. My Autism means I'm not the best at detecting lies or self advocating. I truly believe autistic people are also at risk from predatory relationships, I'd love to research this theory further and I'd like to hear your thoughts on the matter! Thanks for the valuable advice 😊

Yes 100% with you on this. Another element that i have come to realise in myself is that in order to endure hardship and go forward from it with strength, i seek to understand the 'why', and in looking for the reasons why things happen i tend to then 'see' the bigger picture or at least to look for a narrative that feels like the bigger truth. So perhaps its a learnt coping mechanism. I love your work Richard and have gained a huge amount from watching and listening to your content. Thank you. ;)

I believe in a higher power. I believe we are here to learn. Maybe i wasnt meant to be happy this time around. Maybe this time i am to learn to be strong. Belief is not fact, but this belief helps me.

You seem to have taken the thoughts right out of my mind and put them into beautiful words.

I want to thank you for this video. First of all the difference between being narcissist and narcissistic abuse. That brought me great clarity. I am many of the things you talk about I find that trauma ( there has been much) causes an upswing in my psychic abilities. Like an upgraded program. My last boyfriend was narcissistically abusive. While that is not my story, It has taken time and a lot of work on myself an ongoing process. I am grateful for you being open to discussing this in our community. Thank you for your work❤️🙏🏻❤️

Hi Richard, I just came across this old video. 'Failure to thrive' was a common cause of death entered on the death certificates of children in the workhouses. As you may know, children were often separated from their mothers in the workhouse and many of them simply 'failed to thrive' and died. Regarding whether black sheep are 'special', maybe it's because our parents instilled such a fear of failure that we go overboard studying, practicing, rehearsing what we do that we appear (are) more competent than others in what we choose to do.

@wendybell1023

8 жыл бұрын

Another thought.....I think perhaps Black Sheep became good at reading people because their emotional survival as a baby depended so heavily on reading the parent's moods (don't cry if mum is in a bad mood.....watch out for subtle signs that we might get a hostile response to our need for attention and love......Dad seems to be happy at the moment so it's safe to approach etc).

Listening to you is very direct, sensible and totally understable. Thank you for helping me think a situation differently instead of being a victim. i am a black sheep, I am a sensative and loving person. . I love my self and thank God making me.

You've pretty much hit the nail on the head. Thank you.

So glad you did this type of video! Thank you! 🤘🔥

Wow this is SO profound what you express in nuance.

Amazes me now that I have learned so much about narcissism from you and Sam how many narcissists are out there in the real world. Also, cudos to you about how you deal with Sam and his abrasive narcisism. He is a wealth of knowledge but sometimes he is just proving how narcissistic he really is validating himself constantly.

Great video! I’m the black sheep, the empath and musician. They call me the genius of the family but that’s not saying a lot considering my family. Friends have called me a shaman and last year I encountered the amazing power of the fungus to cure depression.

You are a joy to watch, thank you 🙏🏾

You really make me laugh so much! I love it as the content is serious but I come here to get a boost to my day.

Best video ever!! Thank you so much! Yes, we see a lot, and they can tell. Your videos are all 💯💯💯💯💯 thank you again!!

I think you are right on with your assessment of shamans,& seers!!

interesting thoughts. i'm the black sheep and when i was a child my dad nicknamed me 'the thinker' as i was always asking odd philosophical style questions.

@ItsBobsFault

9 жыл бұрын

Yeah my dad said I "think too much" , and i was black sheep, until I went "no contact" and stopped participating and playing my part in that dynamic. Just so you know, you can stop being the "black sheep" at any time. You have so much more control than you realize. And they will turn on each other to determine who they will collectively make the new black sheep. It's humorous to watch them come unglued once you step away from all of it.

@GaryMcCaffrey

9 жыл бұрын

Balance99 I don't feel any way bitter about my position as the black sheep, I'm actually pretty uncomfortable with the idea of being normal. And I still get along with all my family, although I do now live 5,000 miles away from them all, and I've never been one for keeping in touch, I mean I haven't vanished or anything, but even when I lived down the road I would go months without seeing any of them.

@ItsBobsFault

9 жыл бұрын

Gary McCaffrey That's a great outlook and frame of mind to have Gary. 99% of black sheeps I think are striving to get where you are as a 1%-er Most people are very connected to the 4 basic human EMOTIONAL needs, and "BELONGING" being the FIRST human need. You substituted that group 5000 miles away for some other connection that fufills that for you. Most are born into a pack and want to "belong" to it. You're sorta more advanced.

@ItsBobsFault

9 жыл бұрын

Gary McCaffrey and I have to borrow that phrase from you that goes: "I'm actually pretty uncomfortable with the idea of being normal" that is good stuff

"The one who knows where all the magic mushrooms are" aha true shaman xD

We are special. Thank you Spartan Richard.

Blacksheep here! Always have dreams I am Mr. Magoo. the guy that has his eyes open but can't see, you nailed it! love your videos, they've brought so much insight, understanding and healing into my life with a smile! Keep doing what you do!

Very interesting, excellent in fact. I think you hit the nail on the head with many of these ideas. I consider myself an empath, albeit I was raised in a severely dysfunctional home by 2 abusive parents, 1 a full blown narcissist, I still was somehow always removed from thinking like them, could not be 'made' to swallow the blue pill and live their screwed up sense of reality. As damaged as that may of made me, or the damage it did to my psyche/life, I still was always somehow wiser, deeper.. and more contemplative than my years should of allowed. I was always the 'counselor' to go to within my peer group, later I ran several health support groups, people have always come to me for advice etc.. today I am a Reiki practitioner and intuitive healer. It blows my mind that you brought all this up, I would NEVER of thought it would be 'common' for the blacksheep of a narcissist to be these ways, I would of assumed we would all just be lower functioning, screwed up messes LOL. THANK YOU for sharing that, once again you have given me so much insight and lots to think about.

Hey man, this was an excellent video, thanks for sharing!

Thank you for all your videos.

Ta very much for sharing your thoughts. Extremely insightful and helpful stuff.

This is definitely me. And the point in my life I'm at is noticing I attract others who know I get what they're going through and I'm doing my best to help them. I hope to get a bunch of us together to tackle life because we're smart, resourceful people who just need community. If we could get even a dozen of us in one place working together and building good vibes we could do amazing things.

Thank you Richie, for posting this! it sounds just like me. I am the black sheep, the prime target of abuse in a very toxic system that I survived and am now figuring out, thanks to you posting these videos. Just like you are describing, yes I am very talented and am only now allowing myself to claim that. I am an artist and an empath, and I have learned so much from you and you are really helping me find my way , so thanks for making these awesome videos.

I love how you make these videos informative but also fun!! i had a good laugh at the mushrooms bit. really keeps people engaged :) i started to watch this video with caution because we sensitives are always ridiculed. you just went up about two rungs on my ladder.

Hi , a couple of things I would like to mention , yesterday I did a Personality test and the outcome was a shaman , I had visions at 5 years old into the future , I had a call from the narcacist who said to me you are the black sheep of the family 😂 I also have multiple personalities disacociation and autism , they certainly like to attempt to use the most intelligent in the family and if there is any retaliation they punish you for it and oust you , no matter what I did I had everything blamed on me it destroyed my life , I still am trying to recover and hopefully I will with the right therapist , when I do I will start to live my own life again which I carn't wait to do

my brothers the black sheep for sure... he self-identifies as a narcissist, so naturally im skeptical as to whether or not it's actually true. kind of paradoxical, really. anyway, he's super talented, all that. I just watched your video on aspergers vs narcissism, which was helpful to me. I was recently diagnosed with aspergers, and it sort of explained a lot of shit that i just didnt get throughout the years. but my brother calls me a narcissist all the time... very frustrating as i cant communicate to him that I'm not. it's like being caged in this little cage within yourself that you need people to understand. idk im just rambling but thanks man.

GREAT VIDEO. I USUALLY DONT WATCH ANYTHING LONGER THAN 2 MINUTES. BUT THIS KEPT ME FULLY ENGAGED. THANKS AGAIN. GROW W/ KAMO HAZE!

About half my life so far, I doubted myself, I think for other's sake and what I thought was survival (?); despite great epiphanies and strong experiences. The rest of my life so far, I learnt to embrace my truth, discover I'm not SO bonkers, and reap the benefits. Over recent years, having found the ways to express my truth well and share the benefits, with the help of enlightened knowledge now coming through most forms of world media, like the internet, my family are also growing in their understanding and faith... We all have a way to go and are getting there, together somehow :-) Thanks again x

Love your humor on these videos!

Right on...good video. I think it is important to intuitively FEEL our way into people's lives as we are meant to link up for a season. Whatever the task, we MUST muster the courage and endure our journey with them. When it ends...onward to the next enlightening connection. Life is grand that way. The most interesting are the "misfits" as I can see; for they seem to "see" outside of the lines of society and/or culture. They dance to their own soul's music.

Very encouraging, Thank You.

Thank you Richard.

thank you for this video bc who knew 7 years ago i would go on a spiritual awakening and be called spirit to be a shaman.... what a crazy world. Cruel hard evil and painful journey, but here I am. i remembered this video, they put it in my head among other things to let me know. too hard to explain but they communicate with synchronicities etc. ty

I am the black sheep. Creative, compassionate, and diagnosed as Empathic/Sensitive 12 years ago, by a New York Parapsychologist. That helped me understand why I felt everything & everyone, and why my family has been so dysfunctional. I cut all ties, with my family, years ago. Better for it.

Your videos are very helpful. As are the comments - it's very reassuring to know I'm not the only one.

Wow what a great point there about singers and musicians,Spot on.I feel like the black sheep ,single and no kids so am an easy target,but I sing and play guitar at weekends at different occasions and I love getting the odd compliment.then I wonder OMG am I a narcissist but now I know I would never inflict that pain on another human being.Thank you for the great videos and I hope you're still doing good,God Bless.

Oh thank you...this surprisingly made me feel a whole lot better..

Ty, you're brilliantly insightful.

Richard, you described my niche with this video.

brilliant video richie

@RICHARDGRANNON

10 жыл бұрын

thanks Haaris

I think children that have grown with abusive parents find a way to heighten awareness and become able to feel other people's emotions very early as a self protection mechanism. If the way someone else feels has to be the basis for your behavior at the time (especially to keep yourself protected), then you develope a way to feel how people are feeling immediately. The moment the dad walks in the room, without speaking, the child knows how she has to act for a favorable outcome based on how dad feels right now. And in adulthood may be able to detect the emotions of others with the same internal feeling of it

That makes sense. I am understanding how people function.

In many Native American traditions shamans are children who have been through great traumas and through learning to heal themselves, they learn to heal others. Strange thing- I wasn't interested in shamanism until I took shrooms, and the idea that I am a shaman came into my head and wouldn't leave. At the time I thought shamans to be magical and didn't believe in magic. Very strange experience. I'm the son of an undiagnosed Aspie and a covert narcissist, and suffer from BPD.

Thanks, Richard.

This was Helpful thanks man

I'm the 3rd of 7 girls, no brothers in my family. Interesting topic because between my sisters and I are many connections and weirdnesses. I think liminal is the word. We seen to have bounced between who is what label at a given time.

Hi, glad I found your channel. You really know your stuff! Are you clinically trained. My whole life has been a classic example of everything you are talking about. I turned to self help, therapy, health and nutrition in order to heal from child abuse. Now I'm 40 and I'm still having challenges with my relationships with my family. My brother killed himself, aged 30 in 08. He left 2 kids with his widow. She has gone from one druggy boyfriend to the next. My 2 older brother's abused me and my younger brother. I choose the healing path and my younger brother used music and drugs to numb his pain. I loved my younger bro and my mum so much. Sadly, since 08, I've kept in touch with said sister in law, due to her having 2 kids. I wanted to be there for them. I am also psychic and have dreams that come true. I've written a book about all this too. I agree if a person wants to understand their pain and feel more love, adopting holistic and spiritual archetypes can empower one. As a little girl my older brother's called me a 'witch', and so I went and played 'witch', with a bucket as cauldron. I want to bring me book out soon. Would you like to read it? Recently, this widow of my brother, brought her latest boyfriend to my home, as I'm getting our bathroom decorated. He said he could do it and I trusted her, not so much him. I paid them £700 cash for bathroom suite and then he wanted another £ 850, upfront for labour and materials. But my partner sent them a business like email stating the rest of the money would be paid at the end of each of the 4 days of work. My sister in law then began texting and so I went to see her, on lucky for some 'Friday the 13th'. She was so angry from the very moment I saw her and screamed and shouted in my face. I said, "You have to calm down and you can't speak to me like this." She continued to shout and slammed door. So I was then angry and said "No wonder my brother killed himself," Due to actually reaching a point with her where I was ready to end my relationship with her. She has lied and lied to me and exposed my nephews to her druggy boyfriends, who have been violent and now this. She opened the door and hit me and wouldn't back off, so I pushed her back into her house, and into her bathroom, just by the door and pulled door shut. Her two neighbours came in and started coming towards me, so I swung a mop at them. All rather hilarious! But I am not laughing, for last week I've felt sick, depressed and very angry. I've learnt a little about how this new boyfriend of hers is a local con-man, coke head, criminal and cage fighter. His family are well known dodgy family! I stay away from all that and so I didn't know who he was, accept my alarm bells were ringing from the get go. I know enough about psychology to realise the games they were playing, even if they are not aware of their motives and actions. There were clear signs, like their pushyness to get money as fast as possible. Their rudeness whenever were had a question about the bathroom order. Using emotional blackmail, by saying that they had to pay their plumber friend for our suite. Now, to them, they tell me I am the insane and a nasty person. This man is actually a very dangerous ex-pub landlord. He made out he fits bathrooms. But local people tell me he is a conman. Her whole life depends upon lies. Her toxic friends are sending me terrible emails. And I have been on war path this week and sent her mother an email telling her my version of events. She has driven me mad. So its for the very best that she is not in my life. She has turned my nephews against me. My mum and dad died just after my brother in 2008, and last year I lost my first baby. I have a good and very supportive partner, and we are building a nice life, but the snakes find cracks in the walls. And they say I am the crazy one. Do you do Skype sessions as paid therapy?