Shadow Dancer (Anorexia Nervosa) | ElysianSoul
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Shadow Dancer is a track from my album Beauty In The Darkness. The inspiration behind this song came from the memory of dancing alone in my bedroom at night when I was suffering from anorexia as a teenager. I would wait until after midnight, put on my headphones, and dance until I believed I'd burned off enough calories - it was just me, my shadow, and the anorexic voice pushing me on. With this track, I hoped to capture the haunting feeling of isolation that comes with embracing the anorexic voice, and the strange sense of companionship that forms as a result.
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PLEASE NOTE: With my music, I aim to reflect the hidden inner struggles of psychological disorders by externalising the internal. Please use caution if you feel you are easily provoked, and please always take care of yourself.
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Lyrics:
Burning lights,
Body aglow,
Lose myself,
In the unknown,
Dance alone,
This empty room,
Perfect form,
Under the moon.
Ribs like knives,
Slit into rows,
Far below,
Deep down it shows,
Hate my skin,
This life I chose,
Happiness,
Is an echo.
Skin and bone,
Dancing in the dark,
My heart,
My empty soul,
Is yours, to have,
And to hold,
To burn all the energy,
Every little calorie.
I will be, your shadow dancer,
Through the night,
I’m working harder,
Against the light,
We’ll find the answer,
To kill the impurity,
Change my identity.
My shattered fears,
They can’t find me here,
Inside this room,
Within this tomb.
While they sleep,
My heart it beats,
Every breath,
Our spirits meet,
Love to dance,
Only with me,
Know someday,
We will be free.
Skin and bone,
Dancing in the dark,
My heart,
My empty soul,
Is yours, to have,
And to hold,
To burn all the energy,
Every little calorie.
I will be, your shadow dancer,
Through the night,
I’m working harder,
Against the light,
We’ll find the answer,
To kill the impurity,
Change my identity.
Пікірлер: 29
I read the description and I remember doing that as well. So much that I didn't sleep till 6 or seven in the mornings at times. I used to have certain dance routines for a certain song in my dance playlist (yea I'm sad) and my sleep schedule permanently switched to going to bed at like 7 am and waking up at 4 pm (during every summer) and would result in getting called lazy and a low life from my dad. I hope you see this and know this song has a place in my heart bc of that. It was like I couldn't stop till I thought I got all the calories out .
@janejones8488
4 жыл бұрын
Get called lazy by my family, too. Little do they know...
@kristinlenton4825
2 жыл бұрын
So many ppl with similar stories to mine on here makes me feel less alone, like I’m glad I’m not the only one going thru this
@manonpavllptdr
Жыл бұрын
I don't dance at night, but I stay awake late, I walk, I run. So I sleep until 10 am or noon . I get criticized for this, my sister calls me lazy, and i just feel worse, guilty
this song means everything to me
im really loving the overall sound of these. this one reminds me a lot of midnight run, but in a good way, and again these layers are just. yes. v excited.
Your music is incredible! I've been struggling with an ED for years now and your songs really help me to get through all of this. Thank you so much
I love seeing how your music has grown and how you've grown over the years.
So happy for you and excited for this album. It’s amazing to see how your music has grown and how you’ve persisted with this passion of yours. So inspiring!
OMG I need all your discography
I first heard this on spotify and then I came here because I needed to read the lyrics. I relate to this song so much, you are amazing. Thank you.
wow this is me! when i was in the psych ward for suicide attempt I and they made me eat several times a day I danced a lot in my room as a form of exercise purging.
I relate to this a lot! Lovely song!
This is SO GOOD. I'm amazed. I love this!! Your music means so fucking much to me.
I love it 🌼
Congratulation for this song 🖤
So amazing!
amazing.. all your songs are amazing
Love it, the songs amazing and the lyrics touch my heart on a personal level
Uii the album will be released one day after my birthday! Definitely looking forward to it!
Song release tomorrow I'm so excited!!!
Can you post a video of just the background music in this? Its so pretty.
Why do I keep going back to my ed for like I know I can’t cope and I still go try and go back 🙁. Like I can’t because this time me and my boyfriend are trying for a baby so if I go back to ana and Mia I’m in trouble 💔
@ginpye2002
4 жыл бұрын
shannon maire You can do this! Don’t listen to their voices. They are liars. You will never be happy starving and purging, I promise. Keep fighting.
where does the photo come from?it's beautiful.
I do that exact same thing..
Sounds simerler to i turn to you by mel c xx
Polska?
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