It's cold. The frostbite, it burns. I lie here, in the snow, unafraid of the world above. For there is no heaven, but the stars will suffice.

Its, a coincidence you posted this today- yesterday was the last day I spoke with my Dad, I dont regret not saying anything at that moment, I still regret not doing enough with him before, but we were preparing to bring him home from the hospital so he could spend his last moments with us. I went home and started to prepare for him to return, practice some chords on a guitar to play for him, and later got on my DAW to try and make some music for him. I wanted something simple, sweet, calming, for him to know I cared. I tried to arrange something for him last night, but I couldn't make anything satisfactory, and decided to wake up early tomorrow to hopefully make something. Now, today, I woke up at 5 AM, took a shower, and got on my DAW for about an hour, choosing meantone[12] and, trying to fix something simple but nice up- but soon after, before i prepared anything, i was informed he passed not long ago from when i awoke. Just 11 hours ago as of writing this comment, at 4:10 AM. PST. I hope maybe I can make a elegy, but I dont know if I can Its, so unfair what death is... I have struggled with my religion, I truly want to believe he has become an angel, I hope this video is another sign that he did make it up there. I know if it does exist, he would have made it passed the pearly gates. Thank you zhea

@ZheannaErose

6 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry about your loss. Regardless of religion, I think you can be confident he has returned to the source (however you interpret that) and his essence lives on, entangled in every memory and experience anyone and everything has had with him. He will be present with you the rest of the time you are here in his love and spirit. I believe you can make a great elegy for him. Focus on the intent rather than the quality and let the process unfold and show you what can be with his presence as the guide. Giving you love in your time of pain

@05degrees

6 ай бұрын

Death definitely sucks. 😞 Strength to you and your family.

@Fifachero

Ай бұрын

Sorry for ur loss, i know that we are eternal souls, bodies are just vessels, so you'll see him again some day maybe

Like becoming Spirit and becoming Soil... Simultaneously

She must've been a good friend :) Beautiful piece!

@miroslavmajer5155

4 ай бұрын

He is a man

You'll probably not see this, but I guess it doesn't hurt to say it to you anyway. I first found you on YT in 2017 on TransVoiceLessons. You only had a few videos at the time. That was a couple years before I even started transitioning. Seeing you grow from where you were back then to where you are now is nothing short of inspirational, and amazing to say the least. You are highly intelligent, extremely knowledgeable and very technical (did I mention super pretty like a literal goddess?). It always blows me away that you can be so good at so many things at the same time. I don't even know how you manage it, but I guess you're just THAT good you're literally a 'one-in-a-million' kinda person. I dabble in music myself (am a saxophonist) and am now also transitioning. But I am not one of those all-rounded, talented people (like you, Zhea), nor will I ever be. But I am truly happy for you, and being able to witness you grow from your humble beginnings many years ago, to become who you are today, that is truly a privilege that I'm glad I had. I wish you lots of love, success and happiness in life! I know that the best is yet to come and I can't wait to see the great things you're bound to do and achieve in the future. If you happen to read this, do have a great day and slayyy! Sending you lots of love! ❤❤❤

Honestly either video type is good. Me personally, I like seeing the daw. But this video is beautiful and you may reach more people with visuals like this. You are so masterful at abstract/transient music. ❤ I love the arpeggio at the end in particular. My music is mostly repeating/recognizable patterns and keys but I do have some pieces that are more experimental. Just had this idea for a piece that starts off being very recognizable but it loses its coherence over time.. like someone slowly getting brain rot.

I like either video approach - it really does change the experience between being more analytic vs experiential. If it's DAW playback I'll be thinking more like "how is this created, OMG what mad skills, let me try in vain to analyse this and fail completely" and with the abstract visuals it's more like "OMG I really love this music, what amazing new feelings it's so lovely to be alive when art like this exists in the world".

beautiful

This is beautiful, its the first time I feel a microtonal piece like this 💙💜

Wow, amazing

> _question to all who read this far into the description: do you prefer music videos where i do abstract visualization or do you prefer the music videos where i record the daw playback?_ Haha both

this is extremely beautiful. thankyou.

Thank you for making this beautiful art.

i’m new to your work but the visuals drew me in

this is (one of) the most beautiful song(s) ever made imo. thank you

I’m so sorry for your loss, this is absolutely stunning. I don’t know who your friend was but she must’ve been extraordinary

Your visuals are heavenly😇🥰

Cathartic. Thank you! Definitely dig the abstract visuals more

You literally nailed it, the vocals too 😌😌😌

Love to hear the beautiful minimalist sounds of many small individual parts making a more clear part. I've been a big fan of american minimalist music for years, and seeing it combined with your beautiful harmonies which are my current hyperfixation it makes for such an awesome peice of music! Found out about you like a week or two ago and I've just been making my way through all of your stuff and have found myself interested in theory and sound, which is a very welcome idea in comparison to the boring classwork of my undergrad studies.

I hear Steve Reich in the music and the band Braids in the vocals. Beautiful!

I have never listened to something like this, its really beautiful. I gave up on Piano a while ago, but this is inspiring

i think i prefer the abstract visualizations. it adds a lot to the music for me. the daw view is only so helpful for when i'm trying to learn from your production but i think i do that better by ear than by visual.

This is beautiful! Love the visuals.

This is so absolutely lovely. Thank you.

Love this! I'm glad to hear another piece

absolutely amazing

this is so beautiful

The visuals tickle my brain in a good way :)

You sound like an ANGEL?!?!😮

i love your music so much, you’ve really inspired me to experiment more with my own music

💖 this is filling me with such tranquility, and a warmth that is very welcomed in this winter weather. the visualizations are also lovely, gorgeous palettes in this one

This was incredible, full body chills. 🩵

Your visual style is great! To whoever this piece is dedicated to, wishing her peace.

Big fan of the visuals personally. I think they compliment the music really beautifully. And as always the music is truly something special. You have such a deep grasp of harmony that I think is pretty close to unmatched. No one balances xenharmonic consonance and dissonance quite like you. Great stuff!

Omg freaking gorgeous, thank you :))) Edit: great title. I really like this abstract visual style, but, just an idea, you could include a link to a DAW playback video (either a private or public one) in the description for musicians who might be interested!

The analytical musician in me likes to see the DAW/notation, etc, but I also think that visuals can enhance the depth of the piece. This, for instance, reminded me a lot of the movie Koyaanisqatsi paired with Philip Glass' soundtrack (also some shades of Steve Reich in there). Ultimately, I think if you feel a certain piece inspires you to create visuals to accompany it, then go for it - KZread retention graphs be damned. Absolutely gorgeous piece, too, by the way.

thank you again for this and i hope you are doing well Z

This is wild. Thanks for the good job with acoustics

Outstanding piece! Absolutely gorgeous 😌

Beautiful, thanks.

I'm happy with whatever you choose to release. I learn more from the daw playback.

i love this, thx !!!! i'm going to listen to everything you made, now. btw, i like the visualisations more than a view of a DAW.

Absolute beautiful god damn. It feels so sparkly and fantastical

I read the text. Nice visuals! Like it more than the DAW. You make really fantastic music, thank you for sharing it. Wish I could see you perform it live some day.

The abstract visuals are beautiful!

so gorgeous. Music, visuals, human, everything!

Yayyy! I was just thinking about your music and now there's a new video up! Though I see that you composed this last year. You can feel sadness in it but it's very beautiful. I think either the daw playback or the abstract visualization video styles are fine, but I think for someone like me (who doesn't understand music theory) the abstract visualization enhances the experience a little more. I can totally understand why you named this after the texture of a flower petal, its a very fitting title for this wonderful recording 💜

Just beautiful, the visuals too

It don't know what it is, but something about this made me very emotional. It's difficult to put the vibe of this piece into words, but it feels like it's encapsulating the beautiful journey of a lifetime (perhaps, that of whomever this elegy is for). Regardless, it really made me reflect on my own journey and struggles and appreciate the beauty of it all. I'm so happy that after watching your other content, KZread decided to recommend me some of your 31-EDO stuff (though, I didn't even recognize you at first! Heat from fire, fire from heat :P). Sense discovering this channel, I've been toying with microtonality in my own pieces and I think I might be addicted. I guess what I'm trying to say is, thank you. Thank you for writing this, and thank you for helping me find my voice, both musically and literally ♥

Very serene sounds. Hoping for another album soon!

This is beautiful why am i crying

woah this is really really awesome

Sooo beautiful, this is fire 🔥

Can't express how much I love this, listened to it last night for the first time and got very emotional and listened to it again this afternoon and found it so joyful and accepting. Such a beautiful reflection on life. Thank you for this.

good morning

@ZheannaErose

6 ай бұрын

morning

i'm sorry about your friend. thank you for sharing your stirring lament...

I love DAW playback cuz i can see how you make things, but this is lovely too. Maybe have DAW but with low alpha. Love the eerie voices :)

Very is beautiful,…

Devastatingly beautiful

i dont check all the cool youtube channels often enough on account of trying to maximize music making time so i'm late to this, but this is insanely good omg i love like the rain-like feeling of the piano near the beginning, and the richness and contrast you managed to create in with the vocals at the end is really nice also i feel the visuals fit really well, it seems like daw videos tend to get more traction on yt (at least for now), but like as a piece of art™ i feel that this evokes stronger emotions (and also maybe theres some sort of effect where the more abstract visuals have a higher potential view cap than the daw videos if something really catches on and the audience extends farther past people who also make music)

Beautiful!

this is incredible. a daw playback for this would be awesome to see

Beautiful piece and nice to hear vocals too! Both music video styles work. Through music like this I've learned to utilize the chromatic scale more instead of staying mostly diatonic (I always experimented a little) and ironically I've received more compliments from peers by straying further from the norm of my rock roots so thank you for that! Gonna experiment more with microtonality once I have the funds to get a Lumatone or a similar controller.

beautiful

I don't know if you'll see this, but please keep putting out music. Everything you do is amazing.

My favorite music videos are the videos of you playing the lumatone, but the abstract ones are cool too

Awesome! You're an angel

2:50 interesting pure sound

Wonderful !

Beautiful

I really like this.

very pretty atmosphere, the composition is so captivating. and wow when the vocals come in, you never miss

Reminds me of gamelan, it has the same hypnotic qualities. It's over all a very strong piece in support of microtonality, it makes a very good case for it

I really enjoyed it. The vocals part was for me the climax, very, very moving. Thanks for sharing!

This is one of the coolest music channels ever. Inspiring me to learn polytones

Thank you from France

love it

No wonder I never been able to find some of the chords and progressions in some of the video games.

Not first, but I guess it's good enough ! The Goddess of all that is musical has beautifully spoken again, and I feel blessed as always ! To answer the question I feel like what type of videos you like better at any moment should be what you go with ! I know I love to watch the abstract ones, but don't mind the other ones ! n_n

@ZheannaErose

6 ай бұрын

thanks this means a lot. i've been trying to be more proactive in uploading stuff. i'm a bit of a perfectionist and it's been stunlocking me on projects. i'm trying to keep moving on and moving forward from now on.

涙😢うつくしい哀歌elegyですね。。

Very cool! What VST instrument did you use for main piano sound? Or did you play this in manually 👀

@ZheannaErose

6 ай бұрын

pianoteq vst, i programmed midi for a lot but played some. i always like to do a mix of both otherwise it doesn't feel right if it's all 100% clicked in.

@misterguy9051

6 ай бұрын

@@ZheannaErose pianoteq is the perfect instrument to sculpt not only tuning but all aspects of the mecanics of the piano,,, which you do admirablement!!!!

What a transporting piece

So etherical beautiful...

A beautiful way to pay respect. May the universe take care of them on the next part of their journey. Love all of the little fluttering motions and textures you paint in this composition

Just, thanks

to answer your question, i would personally rather see the DAW playback because I would like to see how it looks

Magic

I like the visuals

powerful. as a casual enjoyer of Very Fine Things, i prefer the groovy visuals over the music production stuff.

If minecraft had new music

would be interested in the DAW but I love the abstract visualization it compliments the music. such colorful music.

I like seeing the DAW but the shifting mist of color is gorgeous to watch too. The music is most important.

It feels like it belongs to another world but it is also very human, just like seeing someone for the last time without knowing it, like realising someone isn't alive in your same world anymore. Death is a strange thing....

PUHLEASE put this on apple and spotify, its a masterpiece. its sounds like something i would hear in the garden of some indie game.

I enjoyed the abstract visualizations, but I like every video you do. Possibly biased in my opinion. Just keep doing what feels right, and we’ll all keep enjoying whatever you present to us.

Perfect time. Just laid down for a nap w my son. Go to sleep baby, new zhea erose just dropped!

@ZheannaErose

6 ай бұрын

wooo! hope you enjoy it!

I prefer the abstract visualisation to the DAW playback.

happy music :D

New level of consonance right there! Amazing! Dazzling! I'd like those with liminal visualizations