Filming this really made me miss Channelled Messages readings! Lemme tell you...each group really surprised me but I love doing Future Spouse readings for a reason and the reason is this content is SO WHOLESOME! Thank you so much for your support and I hope this reading offers you the information you need to bring this special person into your life xoxo Love + Light, Lorraine :)

@JellyJams83

2 жыл бұрын

I was thinking today how much i love when you channel messages from love interests you’ve always been spot on.

@PhilChill

2 жыл бұрын

Hi Lorraine, what is the mini rectangular deck called that you used with the simple thoughts or responses (white writing on the dark background)?

@TheHermitTarot1

2 жыл бұрын

@@PhilChill Confessions of The Heart Oracle Cards by Queen of Coins Studio :)

@pooja8270

2 жыл бұрын

dear can u make video about what is truth' about this connection and purpose plzz

@bhavnak6687

2 жыл бұрын

#1💗

Pile 2 was so accurate! People who are on this journey hang in there, trust me it is worth it!

@dejavu201

2 жыл бұрын

I'm going to take this as a sign 😭 I had such a hard time choosing a pile, but my eyes always landed on pile 2. I'm hanging in there, thank you for this ❤️

@LisaMarie-bq6yi

2 жыл бұрын

I trust you 🙏🏻

@vibinggood2023

Жыл бұрын

Thank you

@commonsens3

Жыл бұрын

Have u passed it tho? If not, shut up.

@EssieSpring

Жыл бұрын

Are you still with this person? ❤

I listen to tarot readings before I sleep or take a nap. I just randomly pick a group and listen to it until I wander off to Dreamland. Sometimes, I couldn't help but put sleep on hold and just listen to the whole reading. It's like I'm watching a drama or a movie. The readings are so fascinating. It makes me think and wonder that somewhere out there, the stories in these readings really happened to someone in real life. There are times that I stumble on readings that are sad and difficult and it makes me tear up knowing that the scenario might have happened to someone already. I sort of empathize with them through the readings. Other times, some readings surprise me when they kinda resonate with me. And when they do, I often don't know what to do with the rest of the information I hear😅. I just kinda "reassure" myself like "If it happens, it happens. If not, then it wasn't for me." Or I guess I'm just curious like everyone else. 🤷‍♀️

@Elysian_s

2 жыл бұрын

I do the same thing..watch before bedtime, I thought I was the only one😅 listening to readings for fun before falling a sleep

@SriAurelia

2 жыл бұрын

I do the same, it's so relaxing

@kikaes5894

2 жыл бұрын

I also like to listen to them as stories before I go to bed.

@blizrinarine593

Жыл бұрын

Lol same! Hello gang😂 Though I've recently watch them whenever I feel like it & started hoping more that it will happen, because they've all been consistent at some point, I recently watched Yuri on ice & at some point I realised all the readings I've seen remind me of Victor & it's freaking me out(in an scary but exciting way) 😂 like here pile 1 was calling out the most at first but pile 3 was unconsciously calling out in the meditation segment & I decided to listen to both & both remind me of Victor & Yuuri sm omg😂 I can relate to Yuuri too so ig it'll be nice to be the Yuuri to someone's Victor haha,, I hope I could help them see the beauty in life again the way Yuuri did for Victor🥹 Looking forward to see what happens too If it happens it happens👍💃

Group 1! Thank you I needed that haha. So excited to see our family heirloom tarot and cupid says decks in action 🥰 love from the family!

group 2: this made me teary. the picture you painted gives so many enlightening angles. loved itttt 💕🥰💕🤩

PILE 2: Ok I’m shook your explaining my exact situation! Thank you for the messages 🙏💖

Pile 4: this is exactly what I was expecting. It makes perfect sense to me. This brought me comfort and more confirmation. Thank you 🤍✨

I picked pile 4 and everything resonated, so I bought the extended reading and I'm so glad I did. Thank you for the clarification that I needed.

Pile 4 was incredibly accurate, and I almost cried during the channeled message, because that is exactly what's going on now. From the mother statement to the silly, mis-speaking words as an inside joke. This really really resonated, and I just wanted to say thank you. For this and all you do!

@sridharvasanth

2 жыл бұрын

yes

#2. such a beautiful reading, really resonated! thank you❤️

Pile 4 - Wow, just wow. I don't know how you do it, Lorraine. You read our connection to a T, even with my relationship with his mother. I'm just utterly mindblown by this. Thank you so much, Lorraine! Sending love your way xo

Group 1. You made me cry, again. Thank you for thede confirmations! 🙏🏼❤️ Love and Light! 🙏🏼❤️🤗

Pile 1 on point love ❤️ Thank you ❤️ sounds absolutely amazing to me. Exactly what I'm manifesting.

Group 4- You had such a funny, goofy, bright energy in this video. I was feeling kind of blah, and your spirit lifted me up. Thank you!🧚‍♀️

Thank you for all the love and energy you pour into your readings. Sending so much gratitude and love your way! ❤️🥰

Group 4 here. This has been incredible, thank you so much. Your energy is amazing and everything you said was spot on, it did feel like a personal reading. It was kind of heartbreaking but very profoundly realistic to our situation.

Pile 3: I was kind of overwhelmed at the beginning but by the end I understand why. Thank you so much for the healing and realization, you are a prize. God bless you

You described exactly what happened with me in pile 2!!! That’s been hard but I’m standing for it. We’re in separation right now but I know that has to be like that for now because I have been guided since the beginning with dreams and messages ♥️ thank you!!! 🙏🏽✨

@Poisonivy28

Жыл бұрын

Same 😓

#4 - the advice portion meant so much, thank you for this reading. I gained a lot of clarity 🤍

I’ve been called to say this for a while, the intro music with rain sounds is so calming, I think a lot of us would listen to it as a meditation soundtrack if you extended it and uploaded it as a video. Thank you for all you do 😊

I love your readings so much ❤ thank you love, you inspire me to learn and grow more and more each day!

Incredible 🤗. Pile 3, amazingly beautiful 🌺✨. Resonated really well. 😇 Thank you so much for such a wonderful reading 📖❤😊. Sending lots of best wishes your way... Bless you!!! 🙏🍀

Thank you for all the information and messages in both this reading AND the extended. There’s a ton that’s goes into my connection to Pile 4. For the other people that choose Pile 4, my love goes out to y’all (you’ll know exactly what I’m talkin about lol). I always cherish your readings. You are one of the most honest and thoughtful readers out here! Also, I’m super grateful for you channeling and getting through it all. Just a ray of sunshine you are Lorraine! 🙏🏽🤍

@brendacj1111

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you. Lots of love to you too! Such intense connection makes me want to give up already. I’m just extremely tired with all the silence and hiding. 🥲🥲🥲

@TwinkleStarLemonFruit

2 жыл бұрын

He left me once and we both took time to grow separately. He married me and left again. I am hurt, and tired For the sake of my sanity and my dignity I cannot under any circumstance put myself in that position ever again. I have enough hurt to last me 10 lifetimes. I was relieved to know that I had other options. My soul and heart cannot go through this ever again. If this is love I do not want it. It shouldn't be this hard. I genuinely give up.

@xRAWRxyanni

2 жыл бұрын

A connection such as this is not for the weak

@TwinkleStarLemonFruit

2 жыл бұрын

@@xRAWRxyanni A connection like that has to do more with being a glutton for misery versus being strong or weak. I hope you don't think that people are weak based on how much pain they can withstand in a relationship.

I think I chose group #1 for a reason. Also that was lovely singing, I love that Bonnie Tyler song.

Pile #3 when you were channeling in 1st person it literally sounded like my life word for word. I know that during this period I’m on a journey to myself. I think the 2 of cups reversed is me finally crafting a connection with my inner self.

Pile 4 was SO accurate. But it wasn’t triggering, it’s what I’ve always known. I’m looking forward to being in union with him

Wow! I usually don't comment on readings but pile 4 was so spot on its ridiculous. Not triggering at all, just reasuring honestly and so powerful. I also picked pile 3. As you said, pile 4 is not the only option. Let us all do the work to let things unfold naturally as they should ❤️🌻🙏🌻

If I marry this guy described in Pile 1 i'm coming back to this comment section to talk about it lol. Cause it's sounds so accurate right now

@KanakDangiBrijlata

Ай бұрын

Did you find him?

@MIZZY265

2 күн бұрын

So where ya at?

You brightened my day soo much!!!! Thank you pretty girl! Sending you LOVE Xoxo

Pile 4 - thank you. Tbh ive been crying the entire time. I came into this reading to validate that hes not the one. That its over and im meant to be with someone else. I went here feeling numb. But i cried as hard as i cried the day we broke up. Youre right. Hope feels like poison. But when you started talking in his pov at the start of the reading (other readers dont do that) i cried so much because it just struck me so deeply, it just drove the hidden knife to my heart deeper. I love him. I couldn't hate him no matter how hurt i was. Idk if i want to believe in this reading, but it feels like this reading found me. No reading has ever struck me so deeply.

@ishanisen6547

2 жыл бұрын

Aww😢 sending love to you💓..hope really is a slow poison

oh no. pile 4 made me cry. thanks for channelling it despite the difficulty and heaviness of it. i needed it.

I picked pile 4 but I'm on the other side of most of the rough stuff you mentioned in this reading (and in a relationship with my person!). I just feel like I need to say that your messages were wonderful. Not triggering, but very confirming and affirming. Thank you for delivering such a beautiful reading, I'm sending love your way. 💕

Pile 1 and I have crazy social anxiety but I've been working on it 😅 makes so much sense

I loveeeeeee your messages. Thank you so much for sharing yourself with us!!!!!💕💕 You are appreciated

Pile 4 was really strong and powerful ❤️❤️ Thank you🤩🤩

Claaaim Pile 3. Sounds like what im manifesting thank you thank you thank universe. 💘💘💘💘 and thank you for this reading. 🙏🙏🙏🍀🍀🍀

Claiming ❤️ thanks for the wonderful reading!

love you lorraine! thank you for sharing your gifts & light with us 🤍

Group 4. I’ve been watching you from the beginning with the same person in mind. I’m finally moving on and I specifically said “whatever group I’m drawn to, I don’t want this reading to be about them” and yet here we are anyway 🤣

Treating myself to a snack break and fresh HT vid as I gear up for an assignment all nighter...not a bad deal!

Picked grp 4. You also took my V-card for extended version. Well done Lorraine and thank you so much!

Group 2! So true! This is most likely the man I am dealing with right now. Everything resonates very much! Thank you so much for this reading! The wait is unbearable!

I get more and more convinced I'm my own soulmate after each of your readings 😂😂

Thank you for pile 1! I'm working on myself to get that beautiful soul into my life asap 😍 Blessings I loved all you said about him in this reading and I am prepared. No more blockages 💜

Pile 4 was so our story 😭 thank you so much! Let's see what happens in the future to us twin flames

Pile 4. Resonates completely! Very accurate. ❤️Thank you Hermit!!❤️

Your Amazing!!! As always! Thank you 🙏❤️🥰🙏

I claim pile 3! Thank you for this reading.

Pile #3 so accurate I ended up crying. Its my ex who is literally amazing. She wants to try again but i want effort before I dive in and this proved to me to believe her when she said all this to me earlier. It’s amazing…truly. We are two peas in a pod and I’m EXTREMELY close to her family. Thank you for the reading. Going to watch the extended now

@Waters..

2 жыл бұрын

I was looking for this comment! I’m like “I have to see if anyone else cried” 😂😂

Pile 1. Thank you for this reading! 💗

You are a talent!! I picked pile 3 and at first it was hard to follow...then you dropped bomb after bomb of things no one in my life other than this person knows!!🧿🖤🖤⭐️⭐️⭐️

youre so sweet, im always so uplifted after watching you readings. This one was so fresh 🤍

pile 1 here and oh my god, this felt like a personal reading. You described how I'm very blocked off from romantic interests and it could not be truer. I want nothing more than to finally meet my person, but i have such a hard time letting men get close to me. Even when I'm interested I just shut down. It's something I've always done unfortunately. I even used to be one of those people who "hate"( i dont actually hate them, im sure you get it) men and i still sometimes slip into that. Thank you to all the men in my family for that one LMAO. No but for real, i'm working on it. I dont know how but I'll let him in when he gets here, i'll figure it out somehow hahaha

Pile 4 I am a reader, love your channel btw 🥰 and I often get twin flame Oracle cards or sometimes confusing messages when asking about my future spouse. Definitely feels like a twin flame journey and it’s not easy. Pretty sure I know exactly who he is. Thank you 🤍

Thank you ❤️ perfect timing

pile 4 - EXACTLY what i needed to hear thank u ❤

Holy guacamole, I am speechless. I can't thank you enough for this reading 💕 I was immediately drawn to piles 2 & 4 and figured one would be from my perspective and one his. After listening to 2 and how well it resonated as my person (except it was kind of a big thing he did wrong, but I am perfectly willing to forgive & love him again when he comes back correctly & proves he's changed), I started listening to 4 expecting it to be my message to him. And it was... initially. Around the 2:40:00 mark I realized it was also from his pov, despite all the mirroring energy in the beginning and I started the reading over with that in mind. This and your "love life in 2022" reading resonated to the point of making me cry, in a good way. Far from difficult, these messages renewed my hope and reaffirmed what I've known deep down and have been waiting for after two years of separation, with the last year being nearly no contact. Energetically, I've been feeling his intention to come towards me FINALLY so I want to say to other pile 4s on the tf journey that while it hurts so, so badly, it will come to fruition when it is meant to, not when you want it to. As painful as this separation has been (I cried every day for over a year & sank into deep depression when he moved shortly after our at-the-time amicable breakup), had he come back so soon, we would have just continued the codependent and at-times toxic cycle that broke us up in the first place. Take this time to improve yourself: go to therapy, heal your inner child wounds & attachment issues, learn to establish healthy boundaries, and practice self-love > love for your person. They can feel when your energy improves and it, in turn, motivates them to do their part, too. I view pile 4 as an extension of pile 2 (at least for my person) so to start the tarot with the emperor and end with the empress with the lovers in the middle is so poignant 💘

@jamaisvu3501

2 жыл бұрын

I chose exactly these two piles and they both resonated.. we are in separation because of him not knowing what he actually wants from me, he just disappeared, he just cut me off, but still after 3 months already with 0 comunication, i still feel him and im pretty sure he does feel me everytime he breaths. I really love him.. but overthinking eats me alive, what if my feelings exist just bc i love him and in real life he cut me off bc dont want me anymore, but after your comment with two exact pile as mine, i feel so calm and chill, last 3 months i cant even cry, my tears just vanished. Tonight its 4 am here, i felt extremly bad more than ever, seenig him online and being quiet not even saing "hi" or "sorry" for making me feel so so so bad, teared me apart. And about selflove.. i think he needs more and he needs theraphy, bc i feel good in my skin and life. thank you so so so much. Sorry for mistakes in my writing i dont wear my glasses and im not american or english❤❤❤wish you luck too

@k.a.236

2 жыл бұрын

@@jamaisvu3501 Oh gosh, I relate to your comment so much and I know how hard it is to go through that silent treatment with your person when you feel like you don't have closure and your story with them isn't finished. Self doubt is normal so I won't tell you not to feel it, but it is so important to work on loving yourself and learning to see your own worth so that when your person comes back, they know they have to treat you the way you deserve. I promise it does get easier. Sending you love & strength 💕

@jamaisvu3501

2 жыл бұрын

@@k.a.236 THANK YOU SOO MUCH..💗

No kidding, I've been randomly listening to Total Eclipse of the Heart on repeat for a week or two now [was never previously a Bonnie Tyler fan before, ever]. So when you brought it up in Pile 1, I damn near almost bit my tongue off from the whiplash of my head snapping to attention. Thanks for the reading Hermit! Really struck a chord.

Siiiiss. “The more you try to villainies them, the more you run from them the more you villinainies and run from yourself. “ I soooo needed to hear that thank you so much.

Pile 2,were you talking about my ex fling??? OMG, almost 100% accurate.. Tears in my eyes... Life moves on🔥

Words can't even begin to describe how wonderful you are ❤❤❤❤❤ this reading was beyond fantastic #3 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯 with accuracy..... so much love an peace to you 💓 💓💓💓

I love when you connect to spirit through songs haha Total Eclipse Of The Heart was a HOT MOMENT, I feel I do this too, I often wake up from deep sleeps with a song vividly playing in my head out of nowhere, sometimes it's a song I haven't heard or thought about in years

AHH!! thank you for singing the start to that Minnie riperton song 😭 I’ve been trying to find it for yearssss. Literally a few days ago I was so upset thinking about how I couldn’t find it … love how the world make stuff come full circle like dat 😌 anyways onward to the reading…

What timing! I just finished the 3 part of who is my future spouse and now this pops up the next day!! All the Blessings to you 🙏 ✨️

Omg you are so good at readings! I always enjoy it! Great! ❤️✨

Thank you for this excellent reading, group 2 and group 4, you are a great reader.

Omg love your singing along with your readings 💞 thank you so much

2:13:23 I DIED laughing because I’ve said in my head, “yeah, I haven’t done all this work to manifest YOU as my divine partner” LOLOL you channeled my sass perfectly. Chefs kiss.

Pile 1 - I strayed to pile 2 and I think found my ex instead despite having my future person in mind. I kept hearing that I'd have more than one option when it comes to my future spouse, so I think that's why he came through. Hermit, I must say I love your way of first-person channeling, and I hope you do this kind of channeling in more of your readings. Because it feels so personal, as if he's -actually- talking to me. Gave me chills! I'm happy and also sad to see how much he misses me and is dying to meet me, because we're indeed mirroring each other. But I'm also glad he's still clear-headed and understands that we both need to work on ourselves for the time being. This reading gave me clarity and also inspired to do more things so that I can meet him as well. Btw, just gonna put it out here for others who chose pile 1, when Hermit mentioned "my in my imagination, my dream person", the song Me and My Imagination by Sophie Ellis-Bextor came to my mind right away. I checked the lyrics, and I think it sounds like a song from that future spouse to us who chose pile 1. Might resonate for someone out there, or could be just for me. Thanks for this interesting reading, Hermit!

@Vaishushi

2 жыл бұрын

pile ones go in thru that emotional part where their person misses them so much... i feel you :") lets hope they're doing good amongst the chaos they're in

@theadventuresofemily_

2 жыл бұрын

Ugh yeah I did the mediation and chose pile 3 but it sounds too much like ex lol 🤣

Pile 1 I can't wait to meet this future spouse. They aren't alone in asking when I'll meet the one lol. I'm constantly asking about them too and thinking when I'll meet my person and can start doing stuff together lol.

Thank you so very much. I love you Lorraine👑🐐💖✨🌱 thank you for helping me grow.

# 4 - appreciate your energy and time 🙏🏽

Pile3: Thank you so much Lorraine. It was a beautiful reading and I could completely resonate. Sounded very much like him, I really hope we end up together

Pile 4…. I’m speechless….. definitely wasn’t expecting that especially since I know who it is and I’ve been trying to break away from him but there are reminders everywhere smh *buys the extended reading anyway *

@ishanisen6547

2 жыл бұрын

😂

wow, beatiful reading. thank u so much. very much greatful n appreciated for ur time n energy.

Pile 3 scarily accurate but confirmed everything for me 😊

Pile 4!! You described someone I'm currently separated from but I'm WAY too young to get married 😭 so maybe this means this will be a long term kinda thing

Utterly amazing. What a gift you are and that you have.

Pile 1 can’t wait to hear it ❤ it sounded like someone I got into the “interested” phase with so I clicked off.

Pile 3. Very much a mirror. But I know my future partner is my mirror. :) And You’re right.. I’ve commonly been signaled that they’re a Leo. And I’m the Earth sign you’ve initially detected.

Holy shit! Pile 3 described ME! To a T! Everything you said! My mind is blown again! I feel like it's about me not another person. I'm my own future spouse... 🙃

@kumaravelkums8168

2 жыл бұрын

I too felt the same dude

@A.l.e.x.e.a

2 жыл бұрын

I often hear that soulmates mirror us in life which is why it can sound so similar to us!!

@skj4559

2 жыл бұрын

Saaaame

Can we appreciate how well she sings wth!!!

Thank You for that old school song “Total Eclipse” …….Always loved 🥰 it!!! I was in my teens when this came out. I’m 57 now. I don’t look it though. Ppl always think I’m in my 40’s, some, mid to late 30’s.

Pile 3. Everything spot on regarding myself. I can't wait for the future

I pray every night for god to lead the path to my future husband and the man he intended me to be with. I chose pile 3 and I truly believe that you’re talking about the man God is sending to me. Very excited ❤️

Pile 4: definitely not an easy connection but you were very spot on. At this point I am honestly not losing hope but I am more accepting of whatever the outcome will be. It is definitely turning out to be one of those I will fully believe it when it happens. But you have confirmed everything that my intuition has been telling me. The extended reading was also very good. Thankfully I’m at the point where I’m not really triggered about our connection but I am just tired lol if I could stop thinking about him as much I would be happier lol

Hi Lorraine Thank you for this reading. I was guided to grp2. The synchronicity 5454 I saw at a reading with Eso tarot and continued to see this synchronicity a day or two afterwards. Thank you again. Sending you love light and blessings 💖

Singing half of Total Eclipse to find out...yep, it's Total Eclipse.☺️ I smiled so hard & Dr. Pepper almost came out my nose.😆 Thank you L, I didn't know how much I needed that...your light & fun energy. Amazing how spirit works sometimes, huh?!?💫🙌😊

why i’m blushing when you called me sweet pie 😳🥰 i love your voice, thank you

Pile #1 makes me think of someone I do know but I've never met in person. A person who carries a boldness towards life and strong desire to learn and grow. He's been a wonderful friend to me and has shown just how compassionate and beautiful he is as a person. I do miss him sometimes (as he went quiet) but I know he needs time right now. I think about him every day and I feel him in my energy regularly. Him and I, we literally mirror each other.. down to our personality types. I'm being led to believe that he is the one I've been preparing for (with previous relationships). I don't want to use the term twinflame lightly as I believed in a false twin for years... but for anyone to feel so familiar but new at the same time... the energy between us is foreign for both of us but it's like we've always known each other. Is this crazy? I really enjoyed this reading. Thank you so much for sharing these messages. 🌺❤ I saw 222 as I finished writing this. So grateful. 💯

Pile 1 - as I was watching this reading, I had the song Everyday by Buddy Holly was playing in my head. Whoever this is really trying to keep their energies on a positive note

Pile 4 is 100% my situation. I was tearing through the reading. We are apart right now but for some reasons I know deeply in my heart he is still somewhere in my life and he will never gone. I’m going to give all my love to myself right now and when he come back one day I will tell him “I miss you and welcome home”. 🐻‍❄️🐸🐶

Pile 2 - Was feeling really strongly about this pile and wanted to confirm if this was my boyfriend and yep, it did resonate. Most of the messages were pretty accurate, it was a mix of his past energy in the relationship and present energy. The whole "being confused" phase and a bumpy beginning of the relationshp, the shaky self image/self confidence and looking for validation through others, this relationship "forcing" him to look inwards and work on things he previously ignored, etc etc. What I found really interesting was that some of the channeled messages were deffo things he has said in the past, but there were also messages that I myself said to him... 😅 Edit: And Leo and Saggitarius showing at the end, which are my sun sign and rising sign!

Number uno pile. May it be so. I welcome him. We have not met in person. I think it is time. Thank you for the reading. I have been stuck in the energy of a person in the past who gaslit me. Happy that that past energy is not being channeled currently.

I really love you and you’re channel. Thank you so much for always giving us these wonderful readings

Group 2 : I’m totally schocked because you told all his truth! He is Aquarius/Aries. I don’t want to marry him but I would like to live a peaceful connection and a beautiful romance 🙏🏻❤️🌸🌞 Thank you so much 🙏🏻

The energy I felt towards pile two really matched the reading and the relationship I have with this person. Immediately stood out, was quickly turned off to it, pick any pile but that one, okay.. I have to pick this dang pile. And yes, had a quick connection with this guy, started to explore a connection, he quickly turned me off due to poor communication, and now I’m in the energy of you will get none of my energy until you prove yourself. I’ve been skeptical about that day coming, but we’ll see.

Best energies beautiful woman, thanks for your work

Hi Lorraine An addition to my first comment. When you held up the extended card with the message ' I'm yours '. I began to hear I'm yours by Jason Miraz. It is one of the romantic songs that I have been receiving clairaudiently on and off for a qyite a while. Thanks again. Love these beautiful readings that you do. Sending you love light and blessings 💖

I chose group 4 and it hit hard. It's the person I met all of a sudden last year. I'm more awake and kept leveling up while he chose to stay stagnant and run away. I stayed patient but in the end, I've been guided to walk away. Deep down my soul says so good by you but keep hope and let him go. If it's meant for you it will be and if not find your inner peace and happiness will follow. The whole time listening to this I was relying myself it's someone else, it's someone new it's not him. Up until a certain point is when I realized that it was him. I almost want to cry because I've been doubting my intuition that he was it. And was better off killing the mental illusion. But even with hope, I will continue with my life knowing one day we'll reunite. And yes it has been very hard.