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I think hope is an intrinsic part of our being. Like part of our soul DNA. Even if our brain does not trust it, we are bound to always have it. Great podcast!

@TaylorChurch

4 күн бұрын

@@lightpurpletarot oh I love that thought. Thanks!!

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“The pain is why I am so great and why I’m such a beautiful human” wow…if only we knew pain would be the very thing that would mold and create us into a beautiful work of art, God’s art. 🙏🏼❤️

@TaylorChurch

6 күн бұрын

@@StrongerThanStroke thanks so much 🥹🫶🏼🫶🏼

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@TaylorChurch

5 күн бұрын

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44:02 yeah its rough. My mental reward center doesnt work. I dont feel joy or excitement like everyone else. I cant get excited about something prior to experiencing it, my levels of joy are almost nonexistent while actively experiencing whatever it is, and after, there are no feelings at all. Ive never felt proud of myself, never felt any sort of accomplished feeling even though i have invented things, created businesses etc. Just emptyness. I have "hobbies" but only because im supposed to, i go fishing every tuesday, motocross track every Thursday, and i race motocross on Saturdays in the 30yr+ amateur class, but i dont enjoy any of it. I dont look forward to any of it, I dont get excited about any of it. I just do these things because i know that i should enjoy these things. Even love is a dulled emotion/feeling for me. I have a wife and 2 daughters, i dont feel joy being around them, i dont have fun partaking in activities with them, i dont feel proud when my daughters accomplish something. I have to put on an act for everyone at all times, even for myself. Its a horrible thing to live through. Ive been working with a therapist and a psychologist trying to fix this, but everything we are doing revolves around mental gymnastics and trying to convince myself that i am feeling joy or feeling proud or accomplished. It's a horrible existence.

@TaylorChurch

Күн бұрын

I’m sorry brother. Obviously it sounds like you are doing the work, but don’t be so hard on yourself. And focus on the little wins, the tiny moments that make you smile or laugh even if they don’t last long. Sending love!